What causes one to have such a fetish? Am I broken?I've had this weird attraction to gore/guro for a very long time. I fantasize a lot about being abused, stabbed, choking to death, cnc, etc. This is also a reason I cut myself. Can other trannies relate?
>>38570879I also draw guro
idk maybe youre just stupid?
>>38570879very relatable, you're definitely not the only tranny who's into that
>>38570879Pure random chance, or repressed traumatic memories bleeding out into your sexuality
>>38570879Shut the fuck up you stupid little cunt
why do women like blood?is it because they get desensitized to it?
it looks nice
>>38570901Well that's good to know. I feel pretty ashamed for liking gore.>>38570910I think it's the second one. I don't remember my childhood, so I can't pin point a specific traumatic event.>>38570930Why are you so mean? Plus I'm not venting, just asking if others can relate.
>>38570986>I feel pretty ashamed for liking gore.there are worse kinks, i wouldn't sweat it
>>38570879Me too, anon, me too. The first time I ever felt aroused was looking at an anatomy drawing in an encyclopedia and imagining a real person cut open like that for me to see their organs. I was probably 4 or 5. I do have childhood trauma but my gore fetish clearly precedes it.
>>38571002nta but i need you
>>38570879i have this but also like body horror and identity death
Sad bastard needs to get off of the internet
>>38571057because sexual deviancy is famously a function of internet use
>>38570879I don't get it either, but it's like a whole new world has been opened to me lately. I've been thinking about drawing amputation art... Something about guro is just so personal, raw.. and emotional.
>>38571000That's true I guess. But I feel like getting horny to suicide videos is extremely degenerate.>>38571002Same anon. Even in childhood, I would draw characters dying or getting hurt. >>38571020I love body horror too, I'm not sure what identity death is though. >>38571057Yeah I'm chronically online, but I don't think the Internet is why I'm like this.
>>38571139anon are you jerking it to REAL gore videos, not just drawings?
>>38571166>we used to call girls like you angel girls and had fantasies as sitting infront of a mirror in an loving embrace and slowly cut an angel girl until her eyes faded away, making her watch everything we were doing to her in the mirror. we had girls who consented to that, especially mixed with making out while we turn her into an angel but thankfully never went through with itThis would fix me. I am fully convinced.
>>38571166>very motherlylmao i bet you are you deranged freak
i have a similar thing. i don't really get turned on gore, besides cutting and beating my partner in an obsessive manner. but i do find it kinda cute and pretty, esp pictures of anime women being gored. i find the aesthetic very appealing, and i can see why someone would get off to it. nothing makes me feel more loved than when my girlfriend talks about wanting to hurt me
>>38571166That's really hot desu. I don't have any desire to hurt people. I like to imagine myself as the victim, having my stomach slowly cut open. I wish I had a sadistic gf like you. I want to be abused so badly.>>38571171Uhh
>>38571247>it would kill youI mean... Yeah. But I'd be fixed. I'd finally be the angel I was meant to be.>the part I enjoy the most, is making out with the girl while I slowly see the light fade from her eyesGod anon.. You really know how to make me want this even more, huh? Sort of impressive. I want to be the one who's eyes fade while being made out with..I do not have any intention of hurting myself right now jannies. I am okay.
>>38570986>I think it's the second one. I don't remember my childhood, so I can't pin point a specific traumatic event.Yeah bingoI'm guessing you may have been tortured or been exposed to extreme violence as a child. You weren't kidnapped or anything, right? Sounds like you could've been forced to watch a family member kill an animal or something without being educated or like just had an abusive family in general. Either way if you can't remember your childhood you should see a therapist for "Dissociative Amnesia" and take this scale to determine how dissociated you are: https://traumadissociation.com/desReply with your scores if you would but desu I think it's pretty obvious you should see a therapist.In terms of guro and kink and stuff, don't feel ashamed of it. It's fucked up, sure, but whatever you experienced; your mind decided this was the safest way of coping with it.
>>38571340suicide pacts are so coooool
>>38570879i dont get this fetish, does being stabbed make u hard or wet or something? i feel like this is just a weird attention thing. i knew a girl who liked this but as soon as i choked her she hated it lmao, fembrained as shit
>>38571349nta..got 50. how do i interpret these results.
>>38571403Say hello to the other silly goofy girls in your head :)
its been a while since I relapsed, I think I would only want it done to me by another person now
>>38571417I do not have goofy girls living in my head.. that idea is preposterous..Either way, I have a somewhat vivid but also foggy memory of being in a room sitting across the table from a doctor as a kid. It's one of the most vivid memories I have, so I tend to hang onto it. I just remember sitting in a chair with my mom (I think), and the sound of the fluorescent lights was buzzing in my ear. I don't remember what was said, or how to interpret it.. The thing my brain goes back to most is the buzzing. The incessant buzzing rings in my head to this day. But I don't know if it was real or not.
>>38571528Go find the source of the buzzing in your own head. Look for someone there, or call out to them. Start leaving post-it notes on your door and computer IRL to make sure there's nobody else in your headIn a less schizo way of saying, you're at high risk for dissociative identity disorder.
>>38571381mf chokes so bad he ruined a girls kink forever lmaoyou know there are areas that cause suffocation, parts that control blood circulation, egregious zones, and spots that activate your gag reflex .. right?
>>38571539How exactly would I call out to it? I'm not trying to be difficult, lol. Just wondering how I should be interpreting all this. What name would I even call out?And as for the post-it notes, is that so I can look at them later to see if stuff has been written on them by someone that's not me?>you're at high risk for dissociative identity disorder.Wow, great to know that getting groomed and having a generally shitty childhood despite not remembering most of it helped me out sooo much. I don't even remember most of it. Looking back at the messages feels like an entirely different person was typing them, but that makes sense as it was 8-9 years ago.
>>38571539> you're at high risk for dissociative identity disorder.nta + not into guro etc, but i got 61.07 ... is it over ......?
>>38571647(me)>remembering most of it helped me out sooo much. I don't even remember most of it. Cool, said the same thing twice. Was referring to the grooming. I tend to jump around when typing cos my brain goes in like a million different directions.
>>38571166>I strongly suggest sticking to the cnc but purging your mind of the desire to either kill or be killed.This part is very hard to do... I KNOW I will be killed violently.
>>38571628yaeh but the gore niggas like it to be lethal and the bitch was just attention seeking and realized it aint for her, thats why im confused ppl say its their fetish like u dont wanna be stabbed how is that hot
>>38571647>How exactly would I call out to it?No clue. Probably just like, ask if anyone else is out there in your head. It could be someone familiar, a childhood comfort character... An imaginary friend, etc. Anything or anyone you feel a strong affinity for is a good start to call out for.>And as for the post-it notes, is that so I can look at them later to see if stuff has been written on them by someone that's not me?Yeah that's the idea, or if you find new post-its you don't remember writing>Wow, great to know that getting groomed and having a generally shitty childhood despite not remembering most of it helped me out sooo much. Well you're talking to me so I would say it hasn't been useless. Many children of abuse don't survive their own hand>>38571661>I tend to jump around when typing cos my brain goes in like a million different directions.Yeah sounds like how my brain works sometimes. Cool thing about getting treated is you can actually have your own brain to yourself after enough differentiating and integration
I'm so worthless, I would 100% let myself get murdered. I have nothing to live for so I don't care about dying.
>>38571688Yup. My boyfriend JUST called me cute... Scary... You're probably my FBI agent
>>38570879extremely relatable anon>>38571139>horny to sui vidsso insanely relatable >>38571166>we used to call girls like you angel girls and had fantasies as sitting infront of a mirror in an loving embrace and slowly cut an angel girl until her eyes faded away, making her watch everything we were doing to her in the mirror. we had girls who consented to that, especially mixed with making out while we turn her into an angel but thankfully never went through with ithahddhdheushshshdhdhss I NEED THIS NOW!!!!
>>38571741>Anything or anyone you feel a strong affinity for is a good start to call out for.Okay, I guess. I don't expect to hear anything back because I don't think I'd ever have this disorder but I do often feel like I'm watching actions being performed by my own body, I feel disconnected.>Yeah that's the idea.Okay, will do, just to make sure I'm doing okay.>Well you're talking to me so I would say it hasn't been useless. Many children of abuse don't survive their own handThis is true. I don't remember a whole lot about that time except for the time I brought a knife to school and the time I tried to take like a million women's multivitamins because I was convinced it would turn me into a girl. Probably could of ended up killing myself. All I do remember is if things got any worse, I probably would have followed through and wouldn't be here today. I'm glad for that part, actually. Thanks for being here for me to talk to. I used to always have to play pretend therapist for people who would suicide bait me, so having the tables flipped and the situation being vastly different feels nice.>Yeah sounds like how my brain works sometimesI hate it because I want to be able to type normally but I end up making mistakes by going back and changing things, not remembering what I said and often repeating myself.Thank you for being here, anon.
hey nerds, just a reminder! i'm a blonde straight passer and i'm not into this stuff, you can do it better and be normal like me one day!:p nahh, i'm all of the above but i'm still really into this, i want a loser tranny to hurt and cut, it would be so fun to keep bullying and missgendering her while she is passing out, i would give her a goodbye kiss while laughting anyways. Sadly i only did this kind of stuff online :C
>>38571842>i want a loser tranny to hurt and cut, it would be so fun to keep bullying and missgendering her while she is passing out, i would give her a goodbye kiss while laughting anywaysneed need need need
>>38571655surely you either filled it out incorrectly/fudged your results a bitthe page itself says the average of DID sufferers is 48how does one achieve 61 and not even considered seeking help
>>38571679but i DO want to be stabbed
>>38571842>iwn have a transphobic beauty passionately kill meits so over
>>38571904>the page itself says the average of DID sufferers is 48>my score was 50WHAT. I DID NOT READ THAT FAR.I do not have DID. I do not have DID. I do not have DID.
>>38571824Anytime, anon! I've been dealing with my DID for like three years now and it's hell but putting a name to it means you can actually treat it. You're broken, if you want to feel that way, but you're not irreparable. It'll be a long journey but peace is achievable for sure. I'm glad that you're here
>>38571954>I do not have DID. I do not have DID. I do not have DID.Anon...
>>38571954yea…keep telling yourself that anoni heard if you believe hard enough it goes away
>>38571349Well that's kind of upsetting. Even when I try, I can't remember my childhood. I'm so mentally fucked up, and I can't remember my repressed memories.
Utter embarrassments
I'm so ashamed of having degenerate fetishes like this. I'm beyond broken, and no amount of therapy can save me. I'm a freak.
>>38570879you've probably never been hurt very badly. If you've been hospitalized for severe injuries you probably wouldn't have this dumb fetish.
>>38572071Grow up you spastic
>>38570879youre actually retarded
>>38572073I have been hurt badly. Normal nontraumatized people don't turn out like this.
>>38572073>i cant conceive of anyone liking things i dont
>>38572085Kys you unhelpful cunt.
>>38572098>I have been hurt badly. Normal nontraumatized people don't turn out like this.
>>38572121Kys
>>38571349Im not well lolmy childhood was filled with very fucked up stuff, heloooo
>>38571962>You're broken, if you want to feel that way, but you're not irreparable.I don't know. I know I'm broken, but part of me just doesn't want to admit it. Therapy has literally never worked for me, at least from what I can remember from it (happened when I was going through all of my stuff that happened..) I feel like a piece of glass that has been thrown at a wall and I'm just now picking up all the different miscellaneous pieces. It's crazy what you would find.>>38571975>>38571976What?? Are you trying to tell me that I have ANOTHER mental disorder? I doubt one test can prove that. I've had to come to terms with having a handful of other ones already that I don't know if I can mentally handle adding another one to that list.
>>38572206>I doubt one test can prove thati was making a joke more than anything but if your symptoms are genuinely that severe (and dont align with another disorder you have) it might be worth looking intoout of interest what else do you have?
>>38572236>genuinely that severe (and dont align with another disorder you have) it might be worth looking intoI think I've downplayed a lot of the symptoms like memory loss, wondering if I actually did something, and traumablocking just due to the fact that I've dealt with them for so long.Of course, I have the trifecta because of course I do. Autism, ADHD, and BPD... there's probably things I'm forgetting but I can't be bothered to think about everything that's wrong with me right now. It takes a lot out of me to actually admit there's something wrong, I like to pretend I'm completely normal but I'm learning increasingly day by day that isn't the case.
>>38572206>I feel like a piece of glass that has been thrown at a wall and I'm just now picking up all the different miscellaneous pieces.Yeah anon go find a DID specialist cause nonspecialists always faff about and do none of the things relevant to DID people. "Coping with trauma-related dissociation" is a great book for working on it
>>38570879>What causes one to have such a fetish?For me it's probably tied to a bipolar mood disorder. When I get manic-euphoric, I literally stop being able to emotionally grasp pain or suffering. Like, because absolutely everything feels euphoric, the very idea that something could hurt stops being a thing I can understand on anything but the most cold, rational level. I could think about slamming my hand in the door frame, and go, "that would be hilarious! ...but I probably shouldn't do that because broken bones would make using the computer difficult."It's not a constant thing for me either. Beyond just individual mood cycles, the bipolar thing feels like it "rerolls" my interests every so often. So the fetish might go away for months to years, and then come back later.I don't really have childhood trauma. Family was pretty great growing up. This was entirely self-inflicted.
>>38572325i can definitely see your results on the test being up to BPD cos a lot of those questions would definitely be applicablesidenote but i feel like a majority of the people with this fetish (including myself) have some type of mood or personality disorder lmao, im sure its not connected
>physically and sexually tortured and trafficked as a child, forced into drugs, sh and worse in a young ageYou can imagine the sort of happy pills they have me in nowadays
>>38572384So you're the target audience for Made in Abyss...
>>38571904> how does one achieve 61 and not even considered seeking helpmild fishing for validation on my part desu sry.(i have considered i'm just poorfag .. and anyways, not gonna spend hundreds and hundreds of dollars over several years just for functional multiplicity)but also i'm histrionic and/or munchausen probably, hence the faked shock at my score, interjecting myself into your conversation, in hope for your validation :3
>>38572412i do think regu is cute yeah
>>38571904>sitting on a 72well lets say doctors are spooky and remind me of bad times plus they are full of shit and dont really help me at all
>>38570879I was really really into it as a repper, guro loli and self-inserting was a good cope for a horny self-hating teenager until it wasn't
>>38572330;_; but that's money and also i'm not entirely sold on the idea of having it...>>38572382Mmm.. would now be a bad time to say that I'm not officially diagnosed with it? I just feel like I align with a lot of BPDemon stuff
>>38572413based, who doesnt like a little free validation
>>38572437>72how are you even alive with no treatment
>>38572465>self-diagnosis kinda cringe but also not seeking treatment is a known thing among bpdersi wont judge you for it but you should seek diagnosis and treatment bpd is a very treatable disorder, you can get to the point of being pretty close to normal with consistent therapy
>>38572522>you can get to the point of being pretty close to normal with consistent therapyI don't like therapy. It doesn't help me, and like I said, just sort of reminds me of all the bad stuff that's happened. I would much rather forget about it or at least pretend like it didn't happen.I keep adding, but jeez ok.I have a rough time with misplacing things, and when I do eventually find said thing, it's usually in a weird spot that I've never really put it in before. I don't know if this is related but I'm just trying to throw everything at the wall so it's out in the open.
>>38572573>id rather just live with my symptoms than get helpvery bpdemon of you
>>38570879900 second captcha.i have to go poop!i am running away for some minutes.bbl
>>38572603Well, when you've tried something a couple times, and it tended to have little to no effect on you because you're just told unhelpful things instead of genuine advice, how can you really want to go back to that? I don't want to go back to that, ever. It's just painful and I walk away feeling worse about myself than when I started.
>>38572481it's so yummy
>>38572633what type of therapy did you recieve anon, and for how long?
If you scored above 60 you're probably attention seeking btw
>>38572014Hot until they started smacking each other
>>38572522NTA but getting that diagnosis isn't easy if it's paywalled. I've got every classic sign of c-ptsd/BPD (for years) and still can't get a diagnosis. I'm a massive BPDemon but can't manage to get a paper that says I am.
>>38572694I don't remember anything about it. All I remember is the first time was around 2016-18(?) to my approximations and I don't even remember what we talked about. Feels like it's been yanked out of my brain. I don't even remember if I told the guy that I was currently in the process of being groomed, but I'm assuming I didn't because my parents would have found out I think. I do remember him writing things down, but I have no clue what I said before that. Looking through the old texts shows nothing. 2016-2018 was around when I remember bringing the knife to school, for cutting myself. Assuming my parents reacted accordingly and stuck me in therapy.Second time was in 2021-2022(?) again, don't remember a lot about it. I was living in Texas at the time and do not have a lot of memory from that either. I have a feeling it was related to me initially realizing I had ADHD at the time, but again, unsure. The one thing I DO remember though was he taught me how to "ground" myself, but that's about it.
>>38572800sounds like youre seriously messed up anoni would recommend looking into therapy again, specifically DBT to hopefully help with any BPD symptoms you have
>>38570879i also am into those hell yeah
>>38572800IMO it's way more likely to have a single acquired neurodivergence (DID) than to have ADHD, BPD and all the other stuff youre talking about as well as all this dissociative amnesia you're having. Do you remember what you ate for lunch yesterday? How about the day before? What drink did you have with that meal?
>>38571166>sitting infront of a mirror in an loving embrace and slowly cut an angel girl until her eyes faded away, making her watch everything we were doing to her in the mirrorgod i need someone to do this to me so bad...
>>38572943Haha.. Yeah, sorry. If my original reply came off as super mean, I didn't mean it. I just am really frustrated with everything going on right now... Might look into it if I can actually get insurance in the state I live in :p>>38572971No, no, and no. I'm assuming I drank water or powerade because those are really the only two things I drink - trying to really stay hydrated.
>>38573080>shame everyone is always in the US anywaysNta but Im a non-yank. And you are?
>>38573061>No, no, and no.Do you talk out loud to yourself when nobody is around? Oftentimes forget having conversations online until someone messages you out of the blue and you've had a whole chat history with them you don't remember? Ever say anything to somebody that felt like you weren't saying it, and that you were somehow just a spectator in your own body? Ever have multiple groups of friends IRL or online that you act differently around for each group and make sure none of the groups overlap ever?
>>38573157>Do you talk out loud to yourself when nobody is around?Yes, I do. I thought this was normal though. I also get thoughts in my head, but I don't know if that's related. Usually it's a big jumble of voices till they all sync up and say something stupid.>Oftentimes forget having conversations online until someone messages you out of the blue and you've had a whole chat history with them you don't remember?Yes. This has happened numerous times. Usually I chalk it up to me messaging someone and immediately forgetting. If you asked me to list off the people I've sent messages to today, I honestly wouldn't be able to tell you.>Ever say anything to somebody that felt like you weren't saying it, and that you were somehow just a spectator in your own body?Yes. It doesn't happen that often. Usually when I'm about to make a big decision, it feels like nothing's actually real and feels like I'm not actually the one making the decision.>Ever have multiple groups of friends IRL or online that you act differently around for each group and make sure none of the groups overlap ever?Of course. I feel I've accidentally given different groups different "flavors" of my personality, and so I act vastly different when around each individual group. I don't usually like them to overlap, because they're separate in my mind. Different people require different personalities.
>>38570879Extremely fembrained NGL
>>38573223Yea anon it's terminal lol you've totally got DIDBest part tho is you can have mind sex with your alters and have HFO
>>38572465what bpd symptoms do you align with anon
I think I have bpd. Which really fucking sucks :')
>>38573294get assessed, get treated, get normal
>>38573080i'm like 5'7
>>38573306Therapy doesn't work.
>>38573294Embrace your power, drain the energy from those around you.
>>38573269Oh. Well that sucks. I never wanted this. This is going to make it super hard to get into relationships, won't it. Nobody's gonna want a broken person like me ...>mind sex with your alters and have HFOExcuse me??? How does having sex with your alters work?? What's HFO??? I don't even know what's rattling around in my head to be quite honest. I feel scared right now. I feel vulnerable and unprotected. I don't know what to do.>>38573271Downloaded this chart and got out my favorite pal MS Paint, but then quickly realized I didn't need it. I fit all of these, maybe Inappropriate Anger and Idealization and Devaluation a bit less than most. Emotional instability has been fine but also terrible lately. As of today I feel fine with these symptoms and am not really struggling with any of them other than Paranoia and Disassociation, as well as Unstable Self-Image. While I was responding to my last reply (>>38573223) and the top & middle part of the reply on this post I felt weird and different in the head. It felt like I wasn't the one writing it even though that sounds cheesy as fuck and not believable at all but who cares IDK.Do with this information what you will, I guess.
>>38573328it does retard, its extremely well documented that dbt is effective at treating bpd
>>38573373Nta, but holy shit. I have ALL of these.. :''')No wonder everyone hates me.
>>38573381I've been to several therapist, no it doesn't. Therapy is a scam, and therapist never know what they're doing.
>>38570879used to be like that in my teens i don't really know what happened and why i dropped it and became repulsed by it
>>38573373>Nobody's gonna want a broken person like me ...I'm married despite having DID. Love is possible, just work on yourself first. As in like the more you heal the more attractive you'll be to others :)HFO is hands free orgasm. I mean it's a bit out there but having sex with an alter is just masturbation in a way. There may be many scary things in the inner world but probably look for someone who controls the portal from the outside to the inside. And also, don't worry. It's scary. DID is as scary as the trauma that caused it, but you'll soon meet with the other parts of yourself that split off from you in your childhood. Best and worst people you'll ever meet, I promise you.
>>38573496I don't know if I'm fully convinced yet. The idea seems very alien to me, and not something I should think about... You clearly seem to think something is going on up in my dumbass brain though. I'm probably going to sound annoying by continuing to ask you questions, but...>There may be many scary things in the inner world but probably look for someone who controls the portal from the outside to the inside.What does this mean, exactly? I'm having trouble parsing it. Maybe I'm just not reading it correctly or something, I dunno.>And also, don't worry. It's scary. DID is as scary as the trauma that caused it.Oh, fantastic. Learning something new about myself and it's something that's really scary. I am sooo hopeful for my stupid ass. Sorry if I'm being super sarcastic here, I just don't exactly know what I'm supposed to do with this information. I don't know what to do, and I'm scared.>you'll soon meet with the other parts of yourself that split off from you in your childhood. Best and worst people you'll ever meet, I promise you.I guess this sounds nice. I feel like that broken piece of glass metaphor from earlier was pretty apt in how I'd describe myself. I at least have the biggest piece of glass, but I'm still looking for all the tiny little pieces. Are the little pieces worth finding? What should I do? How should I do it? I'm so confused...
The cool kids exchanging their made up self diagnoses with one another and telling themselves how messed they are for validation.It's like stolen valor, but the fake medals are google searches on various mental health issues
>>38573624I'm not happy with it either dipshit. You think I wanted any of this?
>>38573624yes this is /tttt/, what else is new
>>38573624Stfu stupid whore. No one loves you.
>>38573594>What does this mean, exactly?One of your glass shards is in control of keeping all the little shards from flooding your head 24/7. They probably have a name. Finding them and interacting with them will probably lead to a discussion, either in your head or on post-its over a long time. Depends on how dissociated you are. Probably best to just try sending messages to yourself on post-its and whatnot.>I don't know what to do, and I'm scared.First of all, be scared. Once you've got that out of your system, realize that your day to day won't change at all. You'll probably forget about all of this if your mind isn't ready for it to protect yourself. It's like the pills in the Matrix, but your brain makes the choice automatically.>What should I do? How should I do it? I'm so confused...Idk honestly. What I did that worked for me was creating a bunch of characters out of what I thought my personalities were for all the friend groups that I had, and then just talked to them and waited for them to respond kind of? Communication is step one. Find some sort of way to reach out to the other shards of yourself, in any way that works
>>38573675You groomed yourself 8nto having imaginary friends as an adult and now you're here grooming others into doing the same thingPeter pan syndromephelia
>>38573675>One of your glass shards is in control of keeping all the little shards from flooding your head 24/7.Well that's good. I don't know what I'd be like if it weren't for that fuckin shard of glass keeping me somewhat sane.>Probably best to just try sending messages to yourself on post-its and whatnotOkay, super sorry to ask for this, but what should it say? Like "hey, i'm aware of your existence.. if you could say hi please do?" I'm very new to all of this line of thinking and so am struggling a bit. I have a little thing typed out but I'm unsure if I'm doing it correctly...>Once you've got that out of your system, realize that your day to day won't change at all.I mean I guess. Accepting it is just going to be a weird and long process that I'm honestly dreading. I'm still in denial, even though when I look back on everything I've said in this thread it's definitely plausible. I just.. I don't know. I don't know if I get looked at for this, I don't know if I try and keep it all in my head. >What I did that worked for me was creating a bunch of characters out of what I thought my personalities were for all the friend groups that I hadInteresting, might attempt this. Unrelated, or maybe related if you would think so: I've been really obsessed with a character from a webcomic, so much so that I've been talking exactly like them in my DMs. Don't know if it's related, just trying to get everything on the table.>Find some sort of way to reach out to the other shards of yourself, in any way that worksI wish I knew how to do this. I feel like an idiot for living on this planet for 21 years and just now even thinking that I might have this.Sorry if replies are super disjointed.. I'm really confused.
remember when this thread was about guro?
breeding kink is worse than gore
been covered in bruises lately, probably from not enough protein or iron, but I've been loving how it looks. i wish someone could give me more.
>>38574382elaborate
>>38574487breeding kink is too animalistic
trannies sound based as fuck
>>38574516i think theyre both nice, they can have animalistic and controlled aspectsyou cant say there arnt some gore enjoyers who dont like brutal animalistic killings
>>38574516The whole concept is vile and primitive
>>38574587murder is okay but you draw the line at cumming in your partner lol
>>38571166anon, i keep coming back to this last paragraph. it's... comforting. i need this.
>>38575163same anoni need this so badly how can i find people who are into this
>>38574382I can agree with that.Guro is a very clear fantasy. Yeah, some people go schizo and lose hold of reality, but anyone with even a vague handle on reality understands it's not something to emulate in real life.A breeding kink is actual rapist mentality. If you have it, then get sterilized immediately—before you start poking holes in condoms.Though if it's some bottom t-girl just wanting to get railed incessantly and go "why isn't in working? teehee", then, sure, whatever, you do you.
>>38575748i think youre confusing a breeding kink with forced impregnation shit anon
>>38575777No, I'm rather radfem for a tranny.Sex should be "consequence free" to help eliminate the power differentials between people with different anatomies.The breeding-kink trannies are repulsive to me, even as a futa-moder myself. Ruins so much otherwise good art.
>>38575841sounds like you have personal issues you need to resolve anon
>>38573948You are insane. Stop talking to other insane people and derailing the thread.
>>38570879what if my childhood was fine but I just find it beautiful
>>38577183:<
bumpa bumpa
>>38577358you probably would never actually partake in any of this without some serious mental damage
>>38570879trauma is a the most likely cause.
>>38571240if you are into this stuff try to stay away from people who enable it they can be seriously dangerous for obvious reasons. unfortunately know this from personal experience
>>38571754real af
>>38579069noooooooo you dont say
>>38579083>if you want to get hurt stay away from people who enable it because they might hurt youisnt that like the whole point
>>38579207yes but retards on here will still do this
>>38579190me rn
>>38579224im really not seeing the issue
>>38579239have fun getting dissected then ig
>>38579259i will (hopefully)i know what i want
>>38579272im gonna stop hating, godspeed you beautiful faggot
is waking up with random head dents you can't explain bad?
>>38570879it could be very much a coping mechanism to stuff youve maybe gone through, thats why a significant chunk of people who are into cnc have been abused in the pastalso, it could very much be a fearkink- everyone i know who is into vore is into it out of a "fear" for it
>>38579327How big of a dent are we talking? Do you think you hurt yourself?
>>38579327head dents??
>>385793651/2 inch and 1inch and i don't know
>>38579391Do you remember anything about yesterday? What were you doing before you went to bed?
>>38571349its over
>>38579424i didnt even have a fucked up childhood what couldve caused this
>>38573948>RPfagging in DMsIt's looking grim, folks. As soon as someone brings up roleplaying as fictional characters in relation to DID, I immediately know it's fake. Get your shitty mental illness out of here. You don't have DID.
>>38579423just used the computer and went to bed early
>>38579500That's strange. Is anything misplaced around your place? Check your browser history/activity on your phone and computer to see what you were doing, and when. Maybe you got up in the middle of the night?
>>38579327idk but i have the same, i have this weird large dent in my skull that showed up out of nowhere one day.. it's like 1" x 1.5" on the corner of my head it makes a little divot too,, it's like my skull is caving in.
>>38579594also bumps on the back/side but those are from injuries i'm pretty sure they came fromyw for sharing my random medical non-issues hope they are interesting
>>38579594
>>38579718how did you get this picture
ur not broken, ur real, just like me fr
>>38579424>>38579436Probably something you can't remember? Answer those questions I asked in >>38573157>>38579458You don't know jack shit about DID don't pretend you do because you read an article about it or something faggot
>>38579823stop trying to convince random people they have DID
>>38579823>>38573157>Do you talk out loud to yourself when nobody is around?a decent bit, not enough that its suspicious in any way>Oftentimes forget having conversations online until someone messages you out of the blue and you've had a whole chat history with them you don't remember?100%>Ever say anything to somebody that felt like you weren't saying it, and that you were somehow just a spectator in your own body?all the time>Ever have multiple groups of friends IRL or online that you act differently around for each group and make sure none of the groups overlap ever?not at all, i like having mixed groups. only time i "act different" is because of unique jokes with one group over another
>>38579040who knows
>>38570879I have a thing for executions, especially hangings. One time I choked myself until I blacked out because I wanted to see what it felt like.
>>38580160do you watch videos of people hanging/asphyxiating for pleasure or is it only imagining yourself in that situation that arouses you
>>38579823So you're fine with people pretending they have fictional characters living in their head? That doesn't seem that healthy.
>>38580174I have watched videos of people being hanged before. Watching other people get hurt or hurting people myself doesn't do anything for me, but I self insert as the victim and that's what I enjoy for whatever reason.
>>38580353Why does it make you so mad? It doesn't really matter desu
>>38580475fair enoughi like watching videos because it makes it alot easier to self-insert vs just picturing it in my head
>>38571166it got deleted...
>>38571166trans dahmer doing numbers
>>38581050library of alexandria for gurofags
>>38581050Which post was it?
>>38581504its somewhere in here quoted but since it got deleted i wont tell
>>38581504search the post number on moearchive
>>38581684Ah, the angel girls post from the start. Why would she bother deleting it days after? Odd..
>>38581868probably worried about it having a negative influence on all the ppl in this thread since so many people thought it was hot
>>38581868they did say they weren’t really like that anymore, probably worried about it sending some schizo over the edge lmao
>>38570879i'm a repper but i relate, i love cutting myself and i fantasise a lot about being murdered and cut up in various ways ^_^
>>38570879i mean i dont have it as a fetish, i don’t get sexually turned on by it or anythingi just like looking at guro cus it’s usually aesthetically pleasing, ever since i stopped self-harming and got my scars lasered i just live vicariously through pictures of guro or anime girls and guys hurting themselves so i dont have to do it to myself anymore, works a treat honestly
>>38582364>>38581931>>38581868>>38581050drop your discord, burner or main and we can take it thereconfidentiality is important to me so I don't want my stuff out here for long
>>38581931>>38582364Sure, but its already got into those peoples heads by now lol
>>38582743strl.
What's the psychology behind having this interest
Lol, you deleted the screenshot of her discord already?
>>38583121it was me anon. im not letting my own discord stay up here lmfao
I wanna fuck a cute corpse and get a cute guy to eye fuck me :3
>>38583478i wanna be the cute corpse
>>38584303me too... >~<
