I boymoder for 7 years and wasted my entire youth
>>38584616only wasted if you stay dumb
>>38584616Yeah, and once that time has gone it never comes back.Society treats older lgbt people like shit
That's what I keep telling you people, boymoding is just a worse kind of repping
>>38584848Can I come back from thisI'm 25 now How can I even shed this fear I have. That's been implanted in me. I want to be unassuming and invisible and making me into a nobody with no personality, afraid to do anything. It's killing me and ruining my life
>>38584931I'm pretty sure you know the only way out of this fear is through it, you'll have to put on your big girl pants and doll yourself up a bit and go outside. Go somewhere where people have the leisure to notice you, you can put on headphones if you want to discourage people from talking to you but you need to be seen, you need to be noticed, and you need to understand that nobody is clocking you and people have their own stuff going ondo that every day until you truly understand you can just be a woman, don't know how long it'll take you, shouldn't take more than two or three days igthen it'll still take a few months to properly develop the confidence in your femininity but that's just how it goes, the longer you wait the harder it gets to let go of your self-deprecation
>>38584616I feel like everyone in this modern society, besides the people you see on social media, wasted their youth or failed to launch
>>38584616Ahhhh, this. This is why I actually bother posting on this board.They always reject me when I post my screeds about "hons being happy and getting on with life, while boy/manmoders live in anxiety and waste it." They lash out and call me delusional, or call their brainworms "realism."But I know that, perhaps after well-and-truly years of working it, someone, at least one person, is going to wake up and realize their mistake.Anon >>38584986 is generally right. You will never feel like a woman until you try living as a woman. I just disagree on the timescale.There will never be some tipping point where you finally look in a mirror and see a woman from that day onwards. It will only start with fleeting moments, gone as quickly as they start. But those moments get longer. They incrementally shift from being rare, to being occasional, to being situational, to being the preponderance of your life, until the moments you don't feel like a woman are the moments that feel exceptional or strange.10 years in, I can "remember" more of life as a woman than I can "remember" as a man. While the total years I spent male is larger, it's easier for me to remember the most recent years of my life than the years two decades ago. I actually struggle to recall being anything other than a woman.But if you never kick that process off by socially transitioning in any form, you will never build those memories and experiences of being who you want to be.I disagree with mandatory Real-Life Experience gatekeeping from doctors. But there is a point to that whole exercise beyond simply gatekeeping. This board is living evidence that a statistically significant subset of trannies need to be fucking dragged kicking-and-screaming into RLE or they just never fucking will.
>>38584616still not dead though
>>38586116Yeah I simplified a bit and made some assumptions based on my own experience but I guess the timeframe is heavily dependent on personality and how terminally brainwormed you areI forced myself into girlmoding on a four day vacation and that gave me the baseline confidence to girlmode in normal life as soon as I got back. Of course I still felt like a disgusting tranny yada yada but over the next like six months that almost completely faded and I'm just a mildly funky looking woman at this point in my eyes and in the eyes of the worldbut that sort of intrinsic understanding of yourself as a woman can only happen if you live as a woman and only then will you be free
>>38584764facts
>>38586339this is true but not an excuse to give up
>>38584616Be happy it's only 7 years. I wasted 8 years and at this point I doubt anything will change anymore. It's only a question of time when my continually worsening mental health will bring me an early grave. Last year came close, perhaps this is the last.
>>38584616I started girlmoding about a year ago, started hRT seven years ago. Things are shit but they're a bit less shit, I just wish I had some marriage prospects.
>>38584848How is it worse? Boymoding doesn't damage your body further, and for an actual trans woman body dysphoria is what hurts the most so socially transitioning barely matters, it's not worth it to girlmode if you don't pass
>>38587819Thinking social dysphoria doesn't matter and that it's not le trutrans is the most dunning-kruger, redditoid shit imaginable.
>>38587819Telling yourself that social dysphoria doesn't matter will have you wake up one day and realize that you wasted a huge amount of your best years with something you will regret immensely. Those sleepless nights filled with torment, bad memories and unfulfilled desires hurt more than I thought possible.
>>38587819if you’re a malefailing boymoder you probably don’t understand how crushing social dysphoria is as you benefit from some degree of passing.
>>38587837It matters a lot less than body dysphoria to most trans women, and not enough to be worth being a hon
>>38588004Most trans women have a lot of social dysphoria
>>38587907It just matters so little compared to body dysphoria, I would still suffer a lot from my disgusting body even if I was a man in a dress, and besides being a man in a dress isn't living like a woman so it doesn't even solve social dysphoria
>>38588011Social dysphoria is usually mostly just body dyshphoria, being reminded by everyone that you look like a man triggers body dysphoria. I'd say it doesn't make much difference to be a man in a dress even if everyone pretends you are a woman, because you still will have to look at your reflection or look down sometimes
>>38587819if you want my explanation specifically - as an actual trans woman fixing your hormone imbalance will lift the veil of dissociation and while of course your body might change for the better you'll still not be a woman in your mind or anyone elses and you'll be painfully aware of it.at least as a repper you're just trudging along and vaguely aware of your pain, numb to its true extent.Are you maybe just starting your transition? because initially I was very much of your opinion, as long as I get the proper hormones that's all that matters, I don't care if the world sees me as a man. But it starts eating at you real quick, and like I said, until you start girlmoding you won't be able to even begin accepting yourself as a womanand those who fail to commit to girlmoding when the time is right end up those iwnbaw types who refuse to believe they can pass because they look the same as 5 years ago and if they pass now that means they could have had 5 full years as a woman but wasted them away suffering as men.I'm bad with words but I hope you understand what I mean
>>38588070Repping doesn't work forever, it just result in jhon 50 eventually, a boymoder at least doesn't get more masculine over time. And no girlmoding doesn't make a real trans woman feel better if she doesn't pass, because living as a hon isn't living as a woman at all
>>38588105see you're too far gone mentally to understand you could be a womanboymoding did this to you
>>38588105>because living as a hon isn't living as a woman at allkeep telling yourself that :3
>didn't come out as map until I was in my mid 40sEhhh... You live, you learn then you carry on.
>>38588040>Social dysphoria is usually mostly just body dyshphoriano lol
>>38588105Enjoy the realization of the extend of your mental failures in the coming years.
this seems like a good place to ask so does anyone have any advice for coming out to people with as little attention/fuss as possible? I'm actually considering social transition for the first time in 6+ years
>>38588120I don't look like one, is it that hard to understand that someone can be too disfigured by testosterone already?
>>38588127When did this board get infested by delusional agps?
