I've done literally everything trans people and therapists and etc have told me to become less dysphoricI've>spent more time around women>have a loving long lasting relationship with a kind straight man>got BA>pass 100% of the time (or at least people don't clock me)>changed my name>finally accepted by my parents>worked on my wardrobe>worked on hair>worked on makeupAnd I am STILL overwhelmed by the feeling that I am irredeemabley male and super masculine and a freak that needs to keep becoming more and more feminine but fails because of how masculine I amIt's been 5.5 YEARSnone of these things I'm saying actually align with my real experienceAnd everyone says oh just immerse yourself around people who treat you how you want to be treated and it'll be like exposure therapy!That hasn't worked! My brain still thinks everyone's lying to me! What the fuck is wrong with me I am constantly seething and feeling jealous of real women
>>38586899that fear always remains, i haven’t been misgendered in years and a lot of people gender where i live so i always get gendered female. i still worry sometimes about things like the way i eat, how fast i eat and what i buy etc. like will people clock me as male if i finish my food 10 seconds before my mom? ofcourse not but im still worried about it
>>38586916>a lot of people gender where i live so i always get gendered femaleYeah I still do a sigh of relief internally everytime I'm called Miss or Ma'am like I was expecting it to not happen despite the fact that it always happensI try not to get too brainwormed by behaviors. The women I grew up friends with always tried to push the boundaries of what a woman could be even if it was superficial ways like "girls can love beer and pizza too!"But then I'm still left feeling like I'm some fraud. An outsider looking in. Its not as bad as it was 5 years ago but it still eats at me...
whats with the recent sonic posters
>>38587287I don't even like sonic I just thought it was funnyThere was a new movie I guess it got people making memes
>>38587287hi! i'm omochao! did you know to become a sonic poster, you can download the works of your favourite sonic artists and post them with the B button
>>38586972You just need to change your way of thinking. It’s not wrong to be born male but be a woman, you need to stop thinking of yourself as a freak who will always be a man. Just be you
>>38586899You're mentally ill. Dysphoria is a symptom, if you still have it then transition wasn't the cure and you've been misdiagnosed.
>>38587341You know you're fucked when all they got to help you are platitudes.
>>38586972ye i get that, i’ve been called fembrained for the things i like and do here but sometimes i get brainwormed and feel like i’m just really good at skinwalking.
>>38586899the only cure for dysphoria is to slip away on fentanyl
>>38587341I guess "just being me" really doesn't feel like it has anything to do with manhood or womanhood. I'm just me. They both feel foreign when applied to me, but I much prefer the one being projected on me than the other. Its hard to internalize myself and womanhood being connected when I spent so long as something else
>>38588016>They both feel foreign when applied to me, but I much prefer the one being projected on me than the other.I don't have any advice for you but I relate to this so hard. It's great to see it laid out in words like that
>>38586899Ohhhh. Maybe You have bottom dysphoria. Maybe Every time you see your penis it triggers your dysphoria. Obviously the only thing left to do is to have one more surgery.
>>38588172I've thought about it a lot. I definitley don't want my dick anymore. But I worry it will be very very very difficult and I will still be left thinking... one more surgery. Just one more surgery
>>38588193sure it’s overwhelmingif you wanna become a plastic doll…we should be friends. Plastic fuck toy ftw.
