How do you square the desire to be feminine and also the full knowledge that 80% of the things that are considered 'feminine' are just grooming yourself to be attractive as possible for men.I want to do my hair. I want to do my makeup. It feels nice to be beautiful. But literally all these things that are considered "womanly" are just hyper fixating on appearance. It feels so shallow and stupid. And yet I indulge in it.Idk I understand the feminists who's reactions to how stupid the little box women are forced into is are to become butch dykes. And yet I can't help myself. I want so desperately to indulge in these things I think are shallow. How do you make it make sense?I know a popular cope is just "i look beautiful for myself and other women, not for men" but that's such a bull cope. You know you want to be noticed. You know your sticking your value to your appearance rather than skills or talents or interests or labor or education and then hone m those skills and talents to just focus on perfecting appearance. Its fucked. Why am I doing this.
Being desired is addicting, even if--maybe, especially if--any advances and attention you just shoot down, because you weren't interested.That's power
>>38587346Very real!Just with any addiction it has its sad sides. The beauty fades over time. You chase a high that only gets weaker and weaker.And then I see mothers grooming their children into this addiction. And I think to myself... I WASNT groomed into that. And I know better? So why fall into it? Because I don't want to be called a man and this is what it takes? It's all so frustrating.
