I'm confused. I don't really want to age as a guy anymore, but I don't think I want to socially transition either. I wish I just looked like a girl. I don't think I'd mind being referred to as he or she. As long as I could look feminine. I'm also not sure if I want boobs, but that's probably mostly because I don't know about socially transition. In a vacuum, I don't dislike the idea.
>>38588354Take estrogen; boymode. You sound nonbinary
>>38588361That's what I've been thinking. How long can I boymode? I was thinking about doing it continuously.
>>38589080As long as you want
>>38589132Any tips on how to hide breast growth? Since I'm pretty sure that's unavoidable
>>38589177generally either not gaining a lot of weight or wearing a binder will completely stunt your breast growth
>>38588354hello fellow hussy, how are you doing today?
>>38589824I'm doing alright for the most part. What's a hussy?
I just feel kinda worried for some reason. I keep thinking about this and I think I really want it, but there's a part of me that's hesitant. Like, if I wasn't aware of hrt or anything like that, I'd probably be able to live alright and try to feminize in other ways. But because I know it's something I can do, I can't stop thinking about it at all.
>>38590762did you perhaps want to achieve trap-mode aesthetics?
>>38591138If I could, yeah
Is it possible to just stop test from wrecking your skin?
>>38591309How would I do that?
>>38591396Oh no I’m asking for myself
>>38590762I relate to this a lot, I ended up going on HRT.It's all about how you want to age, look around you at the men and women in their 30's and 40's. After that it's all about picking a direction, personally I couldn't handle aging into masculinity and being seen as an adult man. The fact that my hair all fell out was soul crushing and instantly caused twinkdeath at 21.I'm really happy and got good results, B cups, a butt, and all of my hair growing back. I stillboymode at work even with the fact that I have a locker room with my coworkers. No one has ever noticed I was trans unless I wasn't trying to hide it which I don't outside of work. So yeah you can boymode indefinitely people are oblivious
>>38591842I'm actually really glad you posted this. When did you start? If you don't mind. When I think back, I've never cared about masculinity really or being seen as "manly".
>>38592000I tried to man up from 22-28 came out then but had to wait to start HRT until 30. Currently 33 and like I said yeah I had good results. Outside of work I'm out to everyone in my life snd it wasn't that big a deal, I lost a few people but everyone else is really happy for me. I think it has to do with the fact that even when I was "manning up" I was really quirky/faggy. I made a point of making some straight friends during this time and my parents both separately came to the conclusion I must be fucking one of them. My girl friends both the straight and queer ones are and have been my biggest cheerleaders. They more or less pushed me to start part timing it and using a new name when I "started getting more curvy" than some of them.Ultimately it's up to you, I was terrified of starting it and being wrong so I waited until a year in to tell anyone but my closest friends. About 3 months in when I started really getting changes I knew I was sure and happy with my choice. HRT works pretty slow so you've got a few months of taking it before people start noticing anything to decide if it feels right if you get to the point where you know you NEED to at least try it.
>>38588354Take hrt and larp as ftm
Would you guys say just wanting to look like a girl/more feminine is a good enough reason to start hrt?
>>38593828wanting to look like a girl is probably the best reason to start hrt
>>38588354>I don't think I'd mind being referred to as he or she.So that's pretty common for MtFs in the early stages. You're kinda just working through the realization of what you are, but you haven't become who you're going to be yet. A lot of MtFs have that period of genderfluidity because transition is a BIG deal and male socialization is rigid and disciplined. What usually happens tho is once you start taking the first steps into your healing and your brain starts rewriting itself to allow your true personality to grow, you'll start to feel a LOT better.
>>38591309T does NOT wreck your skin. It does the opposite in BIG way. The reason men don't use moisterizer or sunscreen is because they don't have to. Testosterone makes the skin thicker and oilier (thats where boysmell comes from). Male is armour, female skin is a sensor.
>So that's pretty common for MtFs in the early stages.Seriously?
Like, If there were no societal pressure, and I could count on people not turning on me, I would start hrt without a second thought. I've thought about it before, but this is the first time I've thought of it so much.
>>38594769unless you live in saudi arabia or something that's not a good reason not to do it
>>38594789Yeah, I know. I'm just worried I guess.
>>38594769So people aren't going to "turn on you", at least not straight away. You should definitely seek out an LGBT support network tho. Also, you seem young. These feelings aren't going away. You can make the decision now or you can wait until it gets bad enough you realize there is no choice. And HRT isn't polyjuice potion. It's three months until anything happens, and 6 months before anything noticable, and that's if you're really lucky. THAT SAID. The boobs are coming and you need a plan. Number 1 mistake so many young transwomen make is starting HRT without a plan to deal with the consequences of it. Write down a rough timeline based on what HRT effects you're going to get and when. When are you coming out to friends and family, when do you plan to start girlmoding, when do you want to start dating, etc.
