sometimes people just weren't meant to be born. it's not necessarily literally an unplanned pregnancy, it's more like the body rejecting a transplanted organ. and it manifests itself in any number of ways - dissociation, dysphoria, etc etc. as if you're looking at the whole world from somewhere outside, your essence is being implanted into the material world from a plane of zero intensity. you don't know what sincerity is, and banal sincerity towards other people is rather lost and ceases to have meaning, it's more about sincerity towards oneself. you act as an analyzing machine, capable of adjusting itself to any output result, thus losing the factor of yourself in it. in the end, you simply don't know what you really feel, your consciousness is completely destroyed by contradictory schizophrenic constructs, all you're capable of is reaching a temporary zero - a state of tired, clouded consciousness. i'm so tired. my problem is not my body, not my social loneliness, not my environment that I deny. I am the only problem. the only solution is suicide, but i'm too afraid to do it. will i really feel like this for the rest of my life.
>>38589131The only solution is suicide? What about trying...anything else? You're so caught up in your own head. How are your friends doing? How is your family doing? Have you checked up on any of them?My friend, you will die eventually. You don't have to hit fast forward on that. It's going to happen.
>>38589131go for a walk and eat a banana
>>38589131Can you add like a positive spin at the end I'd like this to be my mantra. You can keep the suicidal bits it all rings true but can you do like what now kinda live anyway spin to it. Kinda like an indomitable human spirit type thing. Thanks!
>>38591483>April 9 2024Absolutely irrelevant modern-society nonsense
