how’s your hrt repression going?
>>38589617i am on hormone replacement therapy
>>38589644is it helping with your repression?
>>38589617yet to startim a classic autistic male MEF AGP coomer. not sure if i should
>>38589672i do not repress, repressing is poison to the soul.
>>38589617badplanning to stop living
i really dislike bryan johnson and his ugly face
>>38589729then go away>>38589735molly helps with the repression>>38589703what’s the harm?
>>38589770send molly
>>38589770okay.
>>38589800u have to find it on ur own. or if ur canadian u can order it on the internet
>>38589919T__Ti'm an old moron so no can do
>>38589770>what’s the harm?im kinda still figuring out if i can manage the AGP dysphoria without going on hrt.ideally id be able to retain my male persona, not grow tits etc. but life outside of my apartment is growingly schizo and uncomfortable.maybe i just need to play more agp text games
>>38589965idk try deep web>>38589980maybe masturbate?
>>38590024i masturbate most days lol. it seems a quick jerk off is less effective than things where i can self-insert for longer periods, like a coomer RPGthis condition sucks lol
>>38589617picrel isn’t u right?
>>38590066it's brian johnson
>>38589617Pretty bad, I hate myself now more than I did before I started testosterone.
>>38589617paini'm just like the guy in the pic. i look extremely androgynous and ppl look weird at me in the street
>>38590118>>38590084seems there is no good option on this bitch of an earth
>>38590066maybe one day>>38590049become a sissy, maybe?>>38590084>testosterone ew. you’re doing it wrong>>38590118maybe they think ur attractive and model like?
>>38590239>become a sissy, maybe?boo no.i hope being a femmish male can workor maybe ill find a trans gf to live vicariously through, become a chaser again
>>38590403just don’t troon hot on ur gf
>>38590425jokepost anyway. i doubt i'll ever date again. im too autosexual for regular hetero relationships. at best ill find another agp
>>38590452i think i am at that stage also
>>38590459at least you can go proper transbian
Can someone give me a window into what it's like to be a "repressor'. i kind of get the vibe that it basically just means youre on stage 1 of the troon porn addiction pipeline but thats probably just me being obtuse
>>38590494i think what being a repressor is varies a lotfor me its knowing there's a growing gender dysphoria & disconnect from myself, a complete unease & sense of being alien to the world & myself that is seemingly eased by feminity, but also knowing HRT etc would be risky socially & hoping I can find someway to reverse it or get rid of the dysphoria without transitioni'm only really happy & content when I'm alone/online at the moment. I feel like I have turbo autism around real people, especially females. I can barely manage a regular conversation. I don't even connect a lot with the person saying the words
>>38590522it sounds like DID
>>38590476i probably don’t want to>>38590522real and truthful
>>38590548yea, its not though. DID is from trauma is childhood.but this kind of depersonalisation seems common amongst AGPs/reppersI don't know how much of it with me is just AGP/dysphoriafor years and years i've always played "personas" online. not necessarily masc/fem but characters that aren't 100% "me", and in the process of it all i've lost much of a "me"i am agp as fuck though. its not just a kink for me. i do believe it is a sexuality insofar as its quite all encompassing and has both sexual & romantic/behavioural dimensions>>38590558>real and truthfuland it blowschristmas sucked cause i was like an autistic husk around everyone. im 27 lol, i shouldn't be like thisits hard to talk to people when you dont have a strong sense of who you are or how you should speak
>>38590548it's just derealization/depersonalization
>>38590593>but this kind of depersonalisation seems common amongst AGPs/reppersis the curse of knowing
knowing?
knowing too much
>>38590676yeah and what I know is that I don't have some true inner woman lolit's an agp construct. however it may be better for me to let her win and take overI dunno
>>38590729very me, although i don’t even have anything i can call an “agp construct” and certainly nothing that can take me over
>>38589617>hrt repressionevery week i have to decide if i'm gonna keep doing it or stop
>>38589617You are not a repressor if you use HRT, simple as. You are a man who takes HRT and we already have a word for that: manmoder
>>38590838does it matter?
>>38590790yeh i don't have an exact female persona but there's a sense of inner disputegod I hope I can just turn myself into a regular hetero somehow
>>38590169the way i see it, the only way is to go all in and work towards girlmoding one day.>>38590239>maybe they think ur attractive and model like?yeah probably. i'm quite skinny and have a fluffy hair which makes ppl look
>>38590838that word makes me wanna kill myself tho
>>38590958>god I hope I can just turn myself into a regular hetero somehowwhy would u want to be around female?
>>38589617unironically good, I’m almost at 2yr hrt and I think i finally stopped wanting to be a woman. planning to stop when I run out of e
>>38591337>planning to stop when I run out of euh oh
>>38591407why uh oh, the end goal for us all is to be happy normal men is it not
>>38591429the feelings are going to come back
>>38590494idk i dont watch porn and have zero sex drive
>>38589617fwiw i think i would actually have jumped in front of a train already if i hadnt started estrogen
>>38591449I don’t think so, I realized I never really had dysphoria, I’m just have severe BDD and a little agp and got confused
>>38591479good luck
realistically if i started e and grew breasts how well would I be able to hide them? i need to tuck my shirt in at work, and i'm fat. i know binders exist but i don't know how practical they are
>>38591563aren’t there drugs to prevent growth?but boobers are gr8
>>38591611i want boobs but i wouldn't be coming out, i'd be manmoding. there's no way I could come out, everything around me would fall apart. if push comes to shove and the risk of being found out is too great then I won't take hormones and i'll just keep repressing until i break i guess. i'm also wondering how an anti-androgen alone would feel
>>38592614what would actually happen if you got found out?
>>38589617painful>>38592614the humble sports bra:
I LITERALLY have the henry cavil jaw (with the aggressive cleft). I'm almost 1:1 with his proportions. Is HRTrepping worth it or is it over?
>>38593131they say attractive men transition into attractive women
>>38593163I'm actually quite ugly with bad midface proportions and high forehead, I just have a very masculine jaw for some reason.
>>38593220jaw is ruff :/but if repping is your goal then i don’t see why it would be an issue
>>38591052because they're cool
>>38594242being around them makes me feel bad
