I'm 24 and just got hit with the realization that I missed out on young love because I was queer. I buried myself in porn, fanfiction and dating sims to satiate my urges in private so I wouldn't need to decloset myself to my conservative community.I'm never getting it back. How do you cope with being denied basic life experiences for being gay/trans?
>>38593796the next best yesterday is today. live, free yourself from grieving for the past, or be doomed to it forever more
>>38593796GD ate 20 years of my life. But you know what? I'm glad I get the rest of it instead of none at all. And you get 16 more years than I do. I used to be sad because I had no shoes. Until I met a man who had no legs.
>>38593796tldr on Echo?
If you weren't ready to date, in terms of emotional maturity and self-acceptance etc., dating would have only done you more harm than good. I dated a lot pre-transition and I honestly would have been better off with porn & vidya instead. I harned myself and I harmed my partners by dating without knowing myself and loving myself, first.
>>38593839Silent Hill for furries. If you grew up as a gay guy in a conservative community it'll bring up a lot of unacknowledged little traumas you're carrying.
>>38593851Part of the issue is that I missed the harm. Harm can be character building and I missed out on it. I want to redo my youth and I can't. >>38593835I agree 24 is better than never. But still I'm going to mourn the person I could've been had I cared less for a while.
>>38593796my young love was pretending to like girls and dating them.
>>38593796>How do you cope with being denied basic life experiences for being gay/trans?not caring about the past or the future or what other people do or any "cultural milestones" and just doing the things I want to do, now. also developing unhealthy attachment issues, that too.
Imagine being locked out of all aspects of human experience higher than the most base functions.
>>38593796It's weird that I basically have the childhood and teenage experiences of a cis woman (prom/homecoming, teen """love""", even just being able to fit in with others) and felt mostly fine experiencing those things as a female, but I also get the urge to mourn never being able to experience them as a male and not transitioning at an early age.
>>38593796i never went to college because i was starting my transition and my dysphoria was too insane to let me be seen in public. also i knew i was trans very young and told my parents and i never got to grow up right. im coping with it by struggling not to kill myself literally every day
>>38593827>"Live laugh love<3"Wow thanks anon, very good advice
>>38594127Im in pretty much the exact same situation, except I realised that the solution actually is to kill yourself anyway
>>38593796i don't cope i just feel bad about it
>>38593796Dream Daddy is literally created by straight homophobic guys, I wish people would stop treating it like an actual yaoi VN, I've never met someone that finds art like that appealing
>>38594205yes, unironically
>>38593796>I'm 24 and just got hit with the realization that I missed out on young love because I was queer.i had my first kiss and first relationship at 24 and i don't regret how my life turned out
Ftm, cis women used to treat me like a trans woman pretrans. Now I have avoidant personality disorder
>>38594205>cry bitch mopelol
>>38596149NTA but kek imagine giving up this quicky
i try to make friends and love but im too weird now ;_;
>>38597950see im literally a freak i posted twice
>>38593839chase getting a boyfriend at 15 that lasted until he went to college is pure envy-fuelmore salt into the wound is knowing it only happened because he was caught jacking off to gay porn and by extension forced out of the closet
