I'm a cis straight Christian male.Lately my friends have all been saying in unison that I'm a repressor and "just come out already will ya".I identified as trans twice in my life but desisted each time after around a year, it just can't be long lasting for me so I'm sure I'm not trans.I do spend hours saving tranny pics from Xitter, passgen, Discord, etc. I like to show my tgirl selfie collection to others.I've started to relate with femininity and tgirl struggles a lot. I've come to love Celeste, Femtanyl, Deltarune, and other tranny media. It just resonates with me so hard on a deep level.I've been looking into Jung and he mentions integrating the shadow and anima. Should I do that instead of starting estrogen? I'm in poor health and I don't need blood clots on top.Besides, I'm 99% positive I'd actually hate estrogen if I tried, because I'm just a man with next to no self-care an unintegrated feminine side that I need to healthily tend to. I also don't believe I can transition at 21, should've started 7 years ago when I had a slight chance.
>>38607333first of all, you didn't "desist" if you never startedi started at 32 and HRT saved my life so idk what to tell you... it wasn't easy but i'm glad i did now
>>38607333Christian mtf here, my being is very informed by my faith and ive also been getting into jung lately especially the archetypes, Hermaphroditus in this regard and how she represents our anima and animus in perfect union and how to integrate that archetype into my life while keep her shadow Narcissus in peace and communion with the rest of me. i think if youre open to Christ, practice good discernment, and continue to explore how you feel God will surely reveal everything you need to see, about yourself, and about how you relate to his plan
>>38607333take your pills alice"am i trans" with schizo rambles thread #2347836
>>38607345desisters are the part of the detrans umbrella that detransitions only socially. a desister has either never had hormones or has but keeps using them
>>38607333John, a 50 year-old genetic male, medical research scientist, married (23 years), father of three children aged 20, 17 and 7, phoned me after experiencing a panic attack severe enough to require emergency attention from paramedics at the airport on his way to give a presentation at a conference. John gave me only his first name and informed me that I was the first to be told what he was about to tell me. He said he was "gender dysphoric" and that he was "desperate." Feelings that were once "controllable through sheer force of will," had increased to where he now was having protracted periods where he would close his office door, lie on the floor and weep quietly while curled up in the fetal position, holding his genitals in pain. Other than intrusive and repeated fantasies of being female, he had refused to allow himself any overt form of female gender expression. He reported feeling that if he was to cross-dress and be caught, he would dishonor his wife and family. Having attained international recognition for his work, he was also concerned about his professional reputation. The only other form of temporary relief came through masturbating, often up to five times a day.
>>38608487I'm happy as I am though, sometimes I get intrusive thoughts about turning into a girl but they're caused by trauma and excessive trans content consumption. Each time they don't last long and my reason shuts them down because they're illusory and most likely fetishistic. I'm a guy and I like it. Everyone around me tells me I'm repping but they're wrong.
>>38607333>Lately my friends have all been saying in unison that I'm a repressorSuuuuure they do bud
>>38608679Forgot to mention my online friends specifically, all my IRL friends are alt-righters posting trannyjaks in my DMs.
>>38608466"social transition" does not make you trans, it makes you gender non-conforming at best. go back.
>>38608938if you identified as trans during the social transition you were trans in the eyes of activists, not to mention submitted to gender ideology
>>38607333You're so fucking trans. Troon the fuck out ASAP
>>38607333don't troon, you'll just be another cringe stereotypical "transbian" chaser.
>>38609142I can't go back to trannies, I told people in my old trans spaces to fuck off and that I hate their ideology. Also trooning kids goes against everything I stand for.
>>38607345>bro needs antidepressants and picks the one that makes people hate him and grow tits Okay but you know estrogen just is a natural SSRI right?
>>38609559Not truePlease stop spreading shitty memes
>>38609168I still spend all my time chatting with trannies despite hating tranny stuff.
>>38607853I'm too unhealthy for estrogen and I'd rather not be a lateshit.
>>38609559it's a natural ssri for you because you're an agp faggot you moron
>>38607333JESUS loves you whether you need to transition or not. choose what you need to do and know that GOD will hold his hand over you.
>>38612616You're so based for this, tyty <3
>>38612801JESUS loves you.
>>38607333Just ask yourself if you want your body to become more feminine or continue to become more masculine, then either do or don't do HRT, and move on. If you do, just know that you don't need to change other things right away, or ever. If it seems scary, you don't need to change how you dress or speak etc, or you can do these at your own pace, or be like me and "boymode" with women's jeans (i.e Levi's 721) and plain fitted shirts from Mark'sIt's unhealthy to obsess over the question and the "what ifs". I know it's scary to make the decision and commit to it, and it's easiest to take the path of least resistance of leaving the question unanswered, so that you don't have to get over the initial hurdles of taking action, or resolve the uncertainty and doubts in your mind. You're not going to get blood clots from estrogen, this is just another excuse to not take action. You should understand that by leaving this question open, you are still taking action; your body is still progressing with testosteroneYou might not like the mental effects of HRT, but you probably shouldn't read too much into this and derive some deeper meaning of this, (i.e. concluding that this is due to some inherent "maleness" of your brain). This is probably just due to things like estradiol upregulating serotonin etc, and you might just need to change your dosingI used to struggle daily with the question of whether or not I should start HRT, and I had all these doubts, but now I'm certain about my identity and decision to start HRT and write confidently on these topics, not because I'm "more trans", but because I got past these initial hurdles and this has become my new normal, and if you go past these hurdles you too can be this certain. I swallow some pills twice a day and my body gradually becomes more comfortable, and the question of whether or not I'm "really trans", or what is a "woman" are mere intellectual exercises whose conclusions and implications have no bearing on my life
How can you call yourself both a Christian and a “metalhead?” Poser
>>38613359Not me lmao, picrel is just a random tranny from my selfie hoard. I used to have long hair but chopped it off because I can't really do hair care.
>>38613069I want to be more masculine.
>>38607333you have the twinkhon face, they all look the same, you are one of them tranny
>>38609059Yeah and theyre stupid in my eyes, now what?
