but instead i have to hold my blahaj and pretend its my a cute girl or boy... ):
There is a pink version???? Is this an official one
>>38607972bootleg haj
>>38607902waow thats a big shork
>>38607902would
>>38607902 you should stop being a hermit and let a cute boy or girl hold your hand and pinch your cheeks.
>>38608000cute bootleg
>>38608072how do i find one srslycuz everytime someone shows genuine interest in me i start loving them too much and they cant handle that (which i get) and then they lose interest in meand its slowly making me more and more scared of getting to know new people because i dont want this to happen to me again
>>38608000Where did you get yours it looks indistinguishable from the original but with different colors.
>>38608109NTA What do you mean by: you get it, that they can't handle when you start loving them to much?I thinks it's one thing to deeply understand and feel close to someone or really being interested or curious about them (genuine interest). But from this does not logically follow that the involved parties are ready or able to build a relationship. It's easy to feel close to someone and hold them for one night, but what about the next morning? If you realize someone really needs you, or starts to depend on you ("start loving them"), it can be overwhelming, especially if they were just following their feelings without thinking about relationship or tomorrow, also because of social and other reasons, it can happen that they doubt themself being able to have a long term loving relationship with you, so... they also do not want to cause unnecessary pain, so of course they will try to just let it go (soft ghosting) , I think that is the "loosing interest" you are talking about.Unfortunately I don't really have a solution for this.
>>38608325I've had multiple relationships (romantic or just platonic, online and irl) where both parties where *highly* interested in each other, i.e. spending a *lot* of moments together and dedicating ones time to each other, but I was always a little bit too much. I'm a very monogamous person, if that's the word; I can only really be interested in one person. It's hard for me to have more than a couple of friends which are all my closest friends. I get really possessive over them and get jealous when they have different friends, because I like them so much and I think they like me so I don't understand why they wouldn't want to spend literally every free second with me. And that's also how it goes for romantic partners. At first we are always really close until I get too much for them and they leave me, which, again, I cannot blame them for as I've experienced someone like me before and it's tiring. I wish I knew how to fix itI've been told by my psychiatrist that I have BPD but I don't know if that's connected to that.
>>38608681Well I think BPD is one among the more difficult things to fix, but you seem to be very self aware and seem to be able to deal with your situation well.I ll get that, I don't think there is anything wrong with being a monogamous person.About being possessive, well I totally understand your thoughts here. For me when I feel really intimate to someone, I experience them talking to others as if it taints them, because I don't want others to have an influence over their mind, I want together with that person and their original thoughts and not deal with the stuff other people try to put in their head.So yeah I understand pretty much everything you just said. I have strong BPD tendencies too, (self diagnosed) but I think I tend to fluctuate more and very quickly, between obsession,indifference and doubt, it's like my wants and desire are very impermanent in one second I just want to kiss them and in the next second I think about all the things why it will never work and how to end it now as quickly and as respectfully as possible. Sometimes I say good bye and the very next day I can't sop thinking about them and come back, so naturally became very doubtful of my own feelings and I am not really to sure what I want, as it seems to change very quickly.You said you experienced someone like yourself before and it was tiring, why do you think it didn't work out with them? weren't they not like just perfect for you?
>>38608681Get therapy
>>38607902I will love you please give me a chance please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please
>>38608861>You said you experienced someone like yourself beforeI didn't like those people for other reasons. Though, I've had friends (or love interests) in the past who *did* spend a lot of time with me, like to the point of calling ever day and meeting up whenever we could, but for some reason they randomly just lost interest in me from one day to another, or in one case they were manipulated by their old partner (which was definitely.. something..) to never speak to me again. Every time this has happened I've been in extreme emotional distress to the point of consuming lots of alcohol and cutting myself over the course of months, and I can never seem to get over people. Every new relationship I build feels like it's a replacement for something.For context; I lost my first girlfriend to suicide
>>38609012I've always been an outcast and she was too, but we understood each other so well that we had everything when we had each other. I felt like a part of me died with her
>>38608892I'm on it, due to anxiety and depression it was really hard to me to get professional help or in general to talk to people IRL about mental health issues, especially cause neither my teachers nor my parents (the only adult people I had in my life for a long time) took me seriously and kept insisting it was all just due to puberty (also why I transitioned relatively late with 18 years old) so I was scared that the same thing would happen when I talked to doctors. I am in contact with a psychiatrist though, and will try to get a therapist as soon as possible, waiting lists are just super long here.
>>38609012Yeah it's understandable, that you were in a lot of emotional distress, suddenly cutting contact with you must have been quite traumatic, glad you are better now.It's hard to get over people if you left with such uncertainty, what helps me to get over someone is questioning my own idealizations of that person.I tend to write the unpleasant things about people down, so I don't forget and can ground myself with this, perceiving them in a more realistic light. I hope you don't feel guilty for getting with someone new, after someone coldly broke things off with you like that. I think it's normal that sometimes someone new soothing emotional needs can remind us of previous partners that soothed our emotional needs, I think that's normal to some extent. Sorry to hear what happened to your first girlfriend. I can't imagine how this must be. But also..... I think it is good to realize, she made her decision. She could have made the decision to live with you too, but that's not what she did. So if I were you, I would try to avoid being too clingy or fond in memories with this one..
>>38609024Sorry if my previous statement was too cold, insensitive and logical. I tried to be constructive. I did not really took into consideration how deeply connected you must have felt to your first girlfriend.I was not trying to invalidate your emotions, so sorry if it came across that way. It must be hard what you have gone through and very traumatizing. I don't really know how I could comfort you considering these immense traumas. I am sorry.
>>38607902Friend is so cute mwahhhh
>>38607902>>38607902how tall are you einsiedlerchan,you can't be spooned if more than 6f 1
