Do you ever think about you used to be? Knowing you were once an ugly moid? You may not be one now, but do your current looks not feel deceiving to those who see you? I feel like I'm lying to everybody
i'm still an ugly moid so idk
>>38611117im still ugly
>>38611117Im cute moid
I don't stress about it, I see pictures of how I look now or just looking in the mirror and how I did back then and it's so different in small ways that make me happy
>>38611117Idk I kind of feel like I was lieing to everyone back then and am being more honest now
>>38611117I used to be a Christian back when I was like 12 so not really it's all a distant memory now and I feel like >>38611194
>>38611227well i guess its over for me and many others transitioning so late
i recently had to go through my deadname inbox and i found some genuinely horrific photos of me pre-transition. i honest to god looked like an ogre in this one photo from just before my 21st birthday, it's surreal now to think that it was actually me, i've seen old ID photos and stuff but this was the first time i saw one that made me go "fuck off no way was that me". i think i was extremely dissociated the whole time because i found other photos of random things from around the same time and i just can't put myself in those times and places now, it really is like it all happened to another person.>do your current looks not feel deceiving to those who see you?yo ya no onions yo, ni mi casa es ya mi casa. it's no more deception now than i was deceiving people back then by letting them get close to a person who was going to disappear.
>>38611341i can't believe i forgot that the filter was going to totally ruin my lorca quote, iwn be a mysterious brooding poet. anyway no i don't feel like a liar.
>>38611335Huh? No I've transitioned super late at 26 I'm just saying I'm used to the whole "I used to be one thing and now I'm not that thing anymore" like I used to pray to Jesus to turn me into a girl and now that would probably annoy me because it'd just tell myself about hormones
I don't think I was that ugly I was just weakand nobody likes a weak nerdy moid
>>38611117i'm still an ugly moidi'm not deceiving anyone
>>38611353that reminded me of the time I wrote a whole paragraph about how to grow basedbeans in a gardening thread and made myself look like a buffoon
>>38611117>"do your current looks not feel deceiving to those who see you?"stupid mindset. It's not like you're wearing a costume that you can just remove to show the "real" you. Your current looks are the real you just as much as your previous looks were the real you
>>38612569i have trouble removing this mindset
>>38611117me unfortunately
>>38611117people keep telling me i was still attractive even though i keep telling them i was an ugly fucking piece of shit so now i dunno what to believe. either way i hated myself back then and i hated every thing about me that was masculine
I see him in the mirror sometimes
i literally look the same i just have breasts & clear skin now
