Rebirth edition>What is /repgen/?A thread for everyone repressing their transgender urges. That includes men and women, gay or trans, as long as they're not on HRT.Friendly reminder that doomposting is a form of self-harm which is also highly contagious, so for the sake of the other posters, please dont do it.QOTT: What was your new years resolution for 2025?Last thread: >>>38570364
>>38613205take your pills, retards
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>>38613205I wish to die so that I can be reborn as a beautiful girl
>girl enters the room >immediately all attention turns to her Why are men like this?
what’s the point of this thread if not venting? Anyway right now my emotional stability is doing better, been working out a lot.
>>38613462lonely and desperate? if you are not chad, well, it is going to be pretty hard to get women unless you have money/status or you get them early in like hs, at worst college..
>>38613400Me too anon.Instead I'm an ugly man who looks disfigured by years of hrt poison...
Have you considered letting yourself be a feminine man who dates man instead of trying to emulate femaleness?
>>38615574come on get a job and get on hrt so you can slave and send me drugs? :(
>>38615718I wish I did that but instead I got groomed into her as a teenager and now I have breasts so no woman would ever want me as a man.
>>38615721you should send me drugsdo i seem like the caring altruistic pro social type?
>>38615889you might be if you get on drugs?
>>38615718im straight tho
>>38615895i feel like drugs won t really have a strong effect on me anyway, i am pretty high alreadyozempic would be nice but like i don t really need it.. and it teaches you bad habits..
>>38615915eating less is a bad habit?
>>38615346I feed on other people's suffering. Seeing reports from other reppers makes me able to bear life.
>>38615920no, they way you achieve it is, if you do it naturally by resisting the urge, you will build discipline and self control too which will help you in other areas of life to and also to lose weight in the future again if needed tooif you get rid of the urge, you build no self control discipline and essentially scam yourself, since once you quit you might fall back on old habits since the urge will come back and you won t have developed the right discipline to resist it.. so yes, you are losing weight but also like scamming yourself and wasting money on it and losing and important benefit of losing weight, losing weight is nice but is not the main benefit of losing weight, the main benefit is the extra discipline and feeling of pride and acoplishment.. it is not abt the destination, more abt the journey and you overcoming it..
>>38615948how fat are you really? i mean how much do you want to lose?
i find it so funny when ppl tell me to lose weight... like it'll help in any wayi mean i'm still doing it but more to show the world it doesn't matter
>>38615994how do u motivate urself when the tfw not a woman feels hit
>>38615984183cm 85.7kgsideally i would want to be 70kgs, but 75kgs would be fine..>>38615994it would make you feel better but not fix your main issues..
>>38616004fuck if i knowi have zero motivation for anything, just going through the motions without plans, hopes, or enjoyment>>38616021wouldn't make me feel better. why would it?my body is shit, my existence is shit, i fucking hate myself so much
post your 2d:4d ratio
>>38616134you would either get over it or kys, so no reason to worry
>>38616153My index finger is noticeably longer than my ring. Kind of embarrassing teebeeaychAlso I think the finger ratio shit was shown to be inconclusive in predicting behavior anyway.
>>38615708This idk why I haven't gotten top surgery for my hairy deflated man breasts. It'd probably be too embarrassing asking doctors about it Hopefully I get cancer or something then I could pretend it's a normal side effect of treatment
i wish i could become an acceptable eunuch. AGP is a difficult thing to live with.
>>38616153.91 left hand, .88 right hand.
>>38616153exactly the same length when measured, on both hands
>>38616153both my index fingers are significantly longer which is a sign of feminine faggotry i think, unless i have it the wrong way aroundbut my body is masculine as fuck so it doesn't even matter
>>38616591yeah
>>38616591No, I'm basically ace.
>>38616256get over it?are you talking about your dick again boyo?
Anybody else here more bothered by their body hair than their facial hair, or am I just weird?
do i keep taking hrt
yeah
>>38617064You might as well I guess.I took mine for the first time in a few weeks yesterday.Everyone gets upset with me because I'm so inconsistent on my hrt but idk I think I might have body issues or something making it hard for me.
>>38617286i'm just nervous and worried about it
>>38617289Yeah it sucks.The anxiety eventually goes away but then you realise how little hrt really does and the shame comes in.Then you're left as a shell of yourself, avoiding reality because of your shame in your body just like before hrt.
bet you all pass
>>38617615I took hrt for 7 years and I've never malefailed even once.From ffs consult I think I have no chance really... Seems like they don't have much confidence in me passing after I guess.
just 50 more years to go, warehouse worker, street sweeper, if i really make it i could be an oil rig worker. or maybe i just join the military and hope i get to 'retire' early
>>38616021i was 74kgs but went down to 66-67 after femgen bullied me
integrating AGP makes this much more bearable
hey so I was wondering, how does one utilize the pain of repping, watching your body horribly turn out in a way you've could've never imagined or consented to, in a Nietzschean manner. Should we strive to enforce our will on the world and became ubermenschen, creating our own values and such
>>38617996you can t really utilize the pain of repping, it is just too much pain and it will make you fall and kys eventually..
>>38617996i drink myself into oblivion but your thing sounds cool too
>>38618083>it will make you fall and kys larry, It's my only way out. I will overcome the pain, I will live vicariously through the beauty of my projects and only when that fails I'll pull the trigger.
>>38618226you should watch that japanese repper nigger that was drawing women to cope with the desire to be a woman then..
>>38617040I do. It is weird
>>38618305what's his name though
>>38618511>>38617040im the opposite. i feel & notice facial hair a lot more, so I keep myself clean shavedchest hair doesn't seem to bother me
>>38618581Dysphoria is weird.I wish there were a cure
>>38617996the most important thing is to not think about how you look but also not to disassociate, your appearance should mean nothing to you, you can do this by focusing on other things. so yes, creating your own values is the only way
>>38618511>>38618581>>38618599I think it's because I don't think of my face as "me", it's a mask that I show to the world. Whereas my naked body is something that only exists within my own perception, and therefore feels more like "me".
>>38618599I'd like to think there's ways to live with it at least. someday I might just troon and go hrtenbymale or something though.I'm trying out just indulging a bit of AGP here and there. bubble bath. nice music. skincare. full repression just makes me miserable.
>>38619505imagine if nike made a commercial to take estrogen
>>38619505reading this made me realize just how fucking mentally ill we all are
>>38617950not everyone wants to be sissy crossdresser, stop pushing this meme
>>38619519If they already sponsor furfags I don't think trannies are too far off.
>>38619505this is really good writing wowzers
>>38619802then don't be one?
>can only really make friends with trannies>they all leave once they find out i'm a repper
The only way to live authentically is to rep. I truly believe that
>>38620274does this happen, will I never be able to befriend any
>>38620274Makes sense, being a repper marks you as extremely weak of character.
>>38620642I'm convinced that the vast majority of potential trannies repress, most just live their whole lives as a man with some sort of outlet (pornography)
>>38620675Doubtful.
>>38620274makes sense. reppers are too strong in character for trannies.
>>38620621>does this happenyes>>38620621>will I never be able to befriend anyyou can grandfather (grandmother?) trans friends in by being friends with them before they transition and hoping they're okay with you being a repper
>>38621599srs is nightmare tier shit to me.
>>38616410>exactly the same length when measuredthis is the worst length to have, it means you had just enough estrogen to brainfuck you but not even to turn you into a full blooded tranner.
>>38622171sounds about right
Imagine being a hot anime girl with giant boobs, a fat ass, and a perfect anime pussy. Also magical powers, why not.
>>38620340I don’t get that at all. To me the “living a lie” meme is very true. Everything feels fake, my interactions with others especially so. The persona I have to put on is very much a mask, even though there’s not much left behind it.
>>38622628Doing this too much ruined my lifeAnime and CYOAs are dangerous
>>38620720Only “strong” in the sense that I suffer through misery without complaining (or trying to change anything)
My sisters friend who I hooked up with is clearly wanting me to start something with her and she keeps texting me to come visit her. She just texted again about an hour ago. How the fuck do I tell her that I'm a degenerate repping tranny and I need to sort my shit out before I even think about dating anyone?
>>38621803SRS only scares me because I know deep down that I want it and if I troon I'd want to get it but at the same time it's the one tranny surgery you can't come back from. If you end up getting it and later end up wanting to detroon you'll just be a weird dude with a mangina.
>>38617996If I'm being totally honest I think trooning out is ultimately more Nietzschean than repping. It definitely makes you more of a free spirit at the very least.
>>38613205>I've been gender incongruent for 50 yearswhat if it's not a phase and my life just ends up like this...
The 2030 elections in Brazil will be contested between a repper and a tranny. I don't know how I will react if the tranny wins.
>>38624417Brutal truthnuke incoming, if you are AMAB the chance it is a phase is near zero percent (some schizos on askAGP excepted)
>>38625105i like growing body hair so i guess i'm schizos on askAGP, thanks for the lifefuel
>>38623930cant relate desu
>>38624417>>38625105agp is always gonna be there. not everyone needs to transition to deal with it though
I’m scared of men.
im very masculine, autistic, shy, ocd, traumatised, dpdr, etc etcnot sure what good venting ever doesruminating out loud
>>38627371Same but I am one so it's funny...
Your new sister bella, whatever happened there.
>>38627570kek
am i agp if i think charlotte is cute
>>38613205I'm reeeeeally struggling to believe my life isn't actually over at 31. I have a ton of grey hairs already, and wrinkles starting to show up, which would be fine if I felt like they matched my level of experience, accomplishment, etc. But even I managed to get rid of all the tranny thoughts, what I would have is an aging manchild who has accomplished literally zero of the life goals I have. Maybe "had" is more appropriate, since I don't even know if I want these things anymore. But what do I do now? Just pass the time and rot away as a wageslave hermit? I'm fucking turning 31 in a month and still haven't even begun to figure out what the fuck I'm doing (not in the cutesy r*ddit "adulting" way, more like in the retard failure way). Unironically, I believe that I have run out of time/chances to make any real change in my life. I may not be a woman, but I'm such a clueless failure don't feel like I can really call myself a man. Yet there's no fucking way I'd call myself a "boy", LOL. What am I, then? A mistake, a failed experiment, just dead on arrival. Someone no one really wants to see or think about. Something that shouldn't really exist. My existence truly feels so pointless, meaningless and directionless that I honestly am starting to think about calling it quits.IDK man, there are plenty of people who have the world ahead of them still in their 30's; I just don't think I'm one of them. Maybe this is just a depressive episode I gonna go smoke some weed haha
>>38628320You’re only truly a loser if you lay down and accept it.
>>38628320
>>38628320Ok, but you gotta get ovah it
>>38628561>>38628823>>38628874thank you sisterbros
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>>38628320at this point just try some hrt
>>38627570(s)He was a fucking finoik i told you that
>>38629567Calm down phil
>>38630156>>38630031meant to reply here.I'm sharp as a cue ball.
>feel suicidal >get nice message from family>feel worse
>>38630156calm down? there are compromises in life 20 years in the repression can i wanted hrt i settled for herbal tea i wanted femdom i settled for bbc
I'm not a troon. I never was.It was my blood pressure medication, fucked with my hormone levels.
>>38628320Take your meds anon... Hrt will make you a happier person.It's not too late to live your own life.
>>38630290listen closet queen if you can't handle it don't wear the frilly skirts and thigh highs
pls god, do smth
tfw so pathetic i have to ask my parents to do everything for me since i'm afraid of leaving my room
>>38632982okay you gotta take some agency in your life
>>38632982same but i have an executive function disorder so i literally cant do anything in life;.
>>38634688I have one too but raw willpower allowed me to cram the night before every final and still finish my degree. Now I can vegetate in the office.
>>38634734>I have one tooNo you don't. You're just normal.
>>38634819absolutely fucking not, it's been hell. also diagnosed.
>>38634838But you're just normal. You studied, passed college, and are able to do everything normal people can do.It's like if I said I have paralysis in my leg, and you said you have the same thing but your leg just kinda hurts but you can walk, run, do whatever. You're normal.
>>38634871well whatever, I'm not quite above water yet. things could all implode on me [spoiler]again[/spoiler]
>>38634418>>38634688i've finished school and had jobs before but right now i'm a neet living off my parents burning through my savings>>38634734>Now I can vegetate in the office.going outside even for anything scares me too much>>38634838>also diagnosed.what's the official diagnosisdo you get neetbux or anything
>>38635249they told me I had it, put me on a waiting list for treatment that lasted forever and I just gave up on that and toughed it out. No, never have I gotten any neetbux
>>38635270i don't even want neetbux i just want to work remotely and get deliveries
>>38635416I can only focus in the office unfortunately, so I never work from home. Completely exhausted/can't do anything but browse the internet when I get home. Such is life for a drone.
>>38635437>I can only focus in the office unfortunately, so I never work from home.hybrid is such a meme i don't think the majority of people even do any work at home>Completely exhausted/can't do anything but browse the internet when I get home. Such is life for a drone.that's how it is. sometimes i wonder if it's better to eat dinner and go straight to sleep right away instead of being zombified after work
anyone got any strategies for distracting yourself from your existence
>>38637852yeah plep plep plep
>>38613205how to stop pain of not being able to fulfill the pent up "release" of what you desire to be?
Is DIYing and manmoding completely in private with zero support network more mentally destructive than repping?