QOTT: what are your hobbies?last thread: >>40883421
>>40915039>Transitioning is the most humiliating thing ever>who would want to be this?ex-repper troon here, it's true, all of it.but if you're lucky and troon semi-succesfully it is much better than repping>>40914407you should share your experience of being AMAB with dysphoria and doing T with people outside of /repgen/ so that other trannies in denial see it and realize that there's no way out>my sense of self could still change if the physical changes make me chadyou do realize that there's a lot of reppers who are successful as men yet the tranny thoughts never leave, right?>>40919575please be honest about your situation with your wife, she deserves a partner who isn't cursed by trannybrainI see so many married reppers on reddit talk about their relationships falling aprt, it's horrible
transitioning is giga humiliating but when i think about repressing and how looking in the mirror would send the worst stabbing dread through me im glad it isnt that bad anymore. fuck all normies
>>40920566take your HRT, retards
>>40920566qott: not really doing anything interesting as of late, mostly gaming and reading. really into sports because I'm malebrained>>40920616idk if I'm just stupid but looking in the mirror doesn't make me feel that bad all things considered. I do avoid it when possible but it's not that dramatic. like it's not going to get better but my shit feels mild enough I can probably just continue to tank it>>40920629no <3
>>40920629pinkpillers should crowdfund my ffs if they want me to take my pills so bad
Billion and be a public person Than maybe troon out
>>40920629Too expensive for me
>>40920566>what are your hobbies?I like music playing guitar etc. I use it as an escape from myself it doesnt always work but it usually does. Think i can rep to the grave if i just keep listening to music and playing it. Atm really trying to knuckle down on the music theory so I really understand what Im doing...
>>40920566WoW
realistically my options are social suicide or suicide suicide
>>40920966from my experience, social suicide is easier to do than a suicide suicide>t. repper who couldn't off himself and eventually decided to troom
>>40920998difficult to get the other perspective though, so who can say for sure
>>40920998both are still scary
>>40920566>QOTT: what are your hobbies?drinking and dreaming
I just want a body that isn't disgusting to be in
>old ugly virgin with crimson chin and humanized shrek face >ocassionally fantasize about finding a cabin in the middle of nowhere where I can dress up and have a (patient and understanding) dom fuck my brains out for a week straight I'M BECOMING A SUSAN'S PALACE BOOMERHON FUUUUUUUU
I dont know why people only do dating through apps. It's so easy to just talk to someone in public and strike up a conversation or just open a conversation with someone you meet out in the wild. I mean not everyone you meet is single or whatever but it's so easy you may as well do it
>>40920566>what are your hobbies?doomscrolling and sometimes videogames
fucken shit... woke up all bubbly and happy expressive n shiet but at work saw reflection at mirror with hair tied and got down... drunk on disinfectant again as out of rc stimms. prolly will drink lavender oil again. fuuuu... what to do? again grow boobers from lavender oil? hard. to resist... didnt drank for like a year... fuck... maternal grandapa ded. paternals distant... cant get it out of brains... reeee.... sis will/would get it... not strong enough to handle...maube it will work, grandma is demented, and... mom maybe willnunderstand but need to fllee ...
playing with my hrt+being fat gyno
>>40921614>It's so easyamazing
babydollanon I miss you so much
>>40920566programming when I need something? mostly 8 just consoom media/lit. I'd entertain baking if I had that space but as it is I just make simple sourdough loafs
I tried to smash my estrogen vial yesterday and I couldn't do it. How can I destroy my HRT and go back to repressing? Being a tranny is too humiliating for me 2bh
>>40920606Nah she knows I have the trannybrain, and I've even said I might have to do something about it. Based on her dating history of I left her shed find another one.
reppers dating cis women feels like the ultimate self harm
>>40922693good thing im g*y.
im thinking of suicide basically all of my waking hours
bought makeup to hide my beard shadow, and clip on bangs to hide my brow bone, looks pretty good, tested this all out with AI before I committed. Gonna practice with makeup, and buy clothes to take pictures of myself before I'm too old to pull it off anymore... hopefully I can get someone to jerk off to me.
repper bf who doesn't care about my trans phase breasts....
>>40922811how big are they?
>>40922815b cups I think I do bind though
>>40920566>what are your hobbies?drawing, gaming, making tiktoks, watching anime, building gunpla models(i didn't draw this)
>>40922907>making tiktoks
>>40922907autism?
>>40923184well yes>>40923137one of em got 2mill views
>>40923270>2mill viewslewd
>>40922488Throw in trash>>40922693I dont really agree.
>>40923328ugh i wasn't whoring myself out it was a video that was basically showing how gross an internet personality is.
anyone else get really stressed out driving? i'd probably break down sobbing in the middle of the road if i were on estrogen
life is about disappointment guys. everyone has to come to terms with it not just us. we build up our lives in our heads in our 20s and then get crushed in our 30s. better to wake up sooner rather than later before we become one of those chainsmoking alcoholic dudes who live in their car
>>40923470Yeah I despise driving.
tranny fatigue
i wonder how many reppers are living happily with kids and a wife despite their dysphoria
>>40923396nah I bet you were dancing
>>40920566i find crochet hard, i can do a row or even a magic ring but when it gets to the next row and having to count and change the technique i cant do it and end up unravelling itbut doing endless chains is satisfying
my personality and hobbies are feminine for a man but super masculine for a woman. another one of the many reasons it would be retarded to transition.
being a tranny is just a fun thing to do in your 20s but when you are older you just have to buckle down and give up on silly dreams and get to work or you'll be homeless
>>40920566qott: none :(
>>40923959thist.trans from 24-28, detrans after
>>40923959really? being troon never would be fun. you need to worknig your 30s too and there is this terribly awkward shit with your family knowing and reacting to whole thing. shitshow unless your born in commiepornia to libtard parents with libtard grandparents. i cannot imagine trooning where i live and even i i manahe somehow in future i would still boymode when meeting mom... whole thing is terrible but likely is only xhance on acheiving somethimg akin to happiness in this life. you gotta be autistic to not be bugged by shame.
>>40923700>reppers>happyliterally zero
>>40923959A youngshit troon with perfect genetics, upbringing, social support can achieve 60% of the well-being of the average cis person.Being a tranny fucking blows for any age, race, etc
>>40924288im fairly happy, at least happier than i was for the last few years.
>>40924292counterpoint: goonings good
>>40923700you aren't a repper at that point
>>40924292more like 100%
Men's shirts that make my shoulders look bigger make me miserable. Fuck this shit senpai.
Reppers are just old crusty crossdressers ir transvestites too scared of hrt cause they are men
>>40924333TRVKE
>>40924236I come from the most liberal family, in the most liberal city ever, and still rep because I've never shown or embraced even a little bit of femininity. I don't think they'd even believe me.
have you ever considered becoming a drag queen? i think about it sometimes.
>>40924356flamers are annoying...
>>40922907I wish I looked like this but I’m 2000% male
>>40924319Copius Maximum.
>>40924442you know i'm right and you're coping
>>40924463Even a perfect cis passing troon is still a mentally ill troon. They will never have the life of a normal person.I would rather be a homeless guy with a missing leg than a troon.
>>40924473most troons live decent lives and even more so if they pass.
>>40924480>most troons live decent lives
>>40924497there would be a lot more acking if this wasn't the case
as a repper seeing the pendulum swing towards bigotry reminds me I dodged a bullet
>>40924509Is this when I'm supposed to look at the camera with a face of incredulity?
>>40924533idk i'm not a good representative for trannyism, i just know youngshits actually have it good and any denial of this is wrong
>>40924331fix to it is 80s big hair>>40924356lol no. od i could do this i could go full on troon.>>40924349yoir family doesnt sound like true libs, like they probably unwillingly enforced male socialization in subtle yet powerful ways. not even in direct ways, exposing you to male targeted media or speaking about other males with approval or disapproval depending on their actionsin context of gender conformity....
>>40924356there would be no point, clothes and makeup are the least important part to me. I wouldn't even wanna dress super flamboyantly if I was a woman or passing tranny, it's tacky
Some of you could be women today but choose to be menIt’s your choice
what guns does repgen carry in self-defense
>>40925228could be corpse of a "woman" (decaying to male skeleton) maybe (sui because bully), buried in suit under male name or homeless or detrooner...
>>40925747so basically the more white you are the more pro-trans you are?
>>40925697Gotta get the license soon
>>40925697there is exactly one person I'd ever shoot so not going to buy a gun for my own safety>>40925228positive affirmations
babydollanon I love you
coco loco poppin thiocoits skyrim girl larping on codeine time againwhat the fuck i am doing with my life?
>>40925747isn't UK transphobic af now?
>>40924581>fix to it is 80s big hairI naturally have really poofy wavy hair but I can't grow it long enough to do what you're suggesting while repping.
>>40926270why not? dress code?
I'm not going to transition because my main kink is hung trannies masturbating but I'm cursed with an average sized penis
>>40926290Every time I grow my hair out people accuse me of trying to look like a woman.
>>40926361Just say youre a metalhead
tfw long hair, past my nipples, but never get misgendered
>>40925697Can't legally own guns anymore.
>>40926444How am I supposed to retort with that in reply to urban fauna yelling at me out of their car windows while zipping by past the speed limit?>Yo you tryin to look like a bitch!?>N-no I I like Metallica...>They're already a mile down the road.
>>40926489>Yo you tryin to look like a bitch!?>Yes.>They're already a mile down the road.
I wish I had friends to go to metal gigs with to get a metalhead bf
>>40926516Sure but I'm both very shy and scared of what someone who is NOT in a car but has that impression (that I'm a woman or a tranny) might do.
>>40926567dude nobody will care, I've been painting my nails the past few months and the only comments I've got are a handful of compliments. and this is just your hair which is even more excusableor just wear it up whenever you're out of the house. I promise nobody will give a shit
>>40926604I live in a really conservative area though.
Why does God hate us? Can anyone clue me in to the source of the divine hatred?
>>40926761god isn't real
>>40926761Some religions believed that being a tranny was a sign of being blessed or touched by the gods. Perhaps it's less that Yahweh hates you and more that Inanna loves you.
>>40926761Which god?
>>40926361stop giving a fuck... i even wear skinny jeans and move kinda like tweaked faggot. whatever.
ngl I was a flaming faggot boymoder for years and no one really said anything>tfw several cute guys hit on me then but I didn't process it rip
>>40925747this map is either insanely outdated or just using shit data
>>40926761>>40926932
against my better judgment I created a folder on my computer called "pictures that give me gender dysphoria." I feel like this is a bad idea but I like looking at these pictures for some reason. does anyone else do this?
>>40927205i am kinda beliving in schizo gnostic misandrist thingy... might be brainrot or magical thinking low tier schizo thing....
>>40925697
this longing has some spiritual, supernatural divine quality to me... pire and sacred on a way... heavenly call...
>>40927237opposite, I look at the angle fraud perfect lighting ones and cry
>>40927286IRL photos don't give me dysphoria, it's all drawings. I think part of why I'll never transition is because human beings just will never be as beautiful as the art I look at and that includes myself.I'm also too lazy to shave my arm and leg hair.
>>40920566Drinking
>>40926934The minute I stop giving a fuck is the minute I troon out, the line between me just giving in is that thin.
>>40926761He doesn't and anyone that told you he does is possessed by satan
>>40920566Singing. Part of why i rep
>>40926761if god is real, it would love everyone that wasn't a bigot or a murderer
>>40927318touch grass instead of gooning
>>40927318so you'd only transition to be a 2d anime girl os what i'm hearing
im not even trans literally just a man with some kind of fetish. i hate you all please dont leave me
>>40927728Nah its cool man I get it
>>40926775He does have favorites THOUGH. I mean look at the world.
>>40927728Same. But also I hate the idea of even having a male name in online contexts and I don't think I can really relate to most men or women either. I feel like I'm just disembodied nothing, an alien.
i don't want to be a woman, i want to be an ethereal spirit that looks like a woman, but has none of the downsides of being physically female. i want to be a ghost in general honestly, i hate having a fleshy body.what causes this?
i cant even watch porn anymore, i get almost the same horrible feeling watching it that i do when i see gore. sex and death its all the same thing
>>40928276Severe and prolonged disassociation born of having GD but not doing anything about it for too long.
>if you only knew how bad things really are
>>40928322This is what happens when you let them feed you puberty blockers throughout your teenage years instead of HRT. Product of stupid doctors who think compromising with GD by putting the decision off until later is possible, because the idea of the sufferer having free will is too scary.
>>40928346>GDWhat is that?
>>40928363Gender dysphoria, the entire reason you're here.
>>40928370>the entire reason you're here.Yeah
>>40928276because we cant accept that in one way we have personalities and deep emotions and can percieve things like beauty and we want those things for ourselves and on the other hand we are smelly animals that are going to eat and shit and age and die. you want all the beautiful things to last forever and all the bad to go away, including the fact that you have to be an imperfect mortal person.
>>40928295Same exact feelings as you.
>>40928322imagine being trotted out like a eunuch by your mother, look at how much she is enjoying herself. she castrated her son. what would freud say about this?
>>40928405>what would freud say about this?You tell me smart ass
>>40928405Imagine being a child of basic trad parents. They force you to marry, join the army, make children with bad genetics and no money. Just because the local church and government told them to. And imagine the consequences. Sounds like ultimate cuckery. So I just envy picreal because he have family that allow him to experiment with her own body how she wants.
>>40928404Its like when people have sex its the same thing as when someone dies. People losing their personalities, seeing eachother as objects and being dumb animals, except for fun. And I'm not above it, I've wanted it too. But sometimes when I hear my friends talk about sex I see that shallow, animal side of them and I feel sick because theres no escaping that we're all sexual beings and objectify eachother constantly
Fucked by life because you exist in a body that will one day die and rot. lol
>"Excreting is the curse that threatens madness because it shows man his abject finitude, his physicalness, the likely unreality of his hopes and dreams. But even more immediately, it represents man's utter bafflement at the sheer non-sense of creation: to fashion the sublime miracle of the human face, the mysterium tremendum of radiant female beauty, the veritable goddesses that beautiful women are; to bring this out of nothing, out of the void, and make it shine in noonday; to take such a miracle and put miracles again within it, deep in the mystery of eyes that peer out-the eye that gave even the dry Darwin a chill; to do all this, and to combine it with an anus that shits! It is too much. Nature mocks us, and poets live in torture."
I hate my invulnerable parents, it's unreal. I don't even have the opportunity to shoot in blacked porn to humiliate them.
>>40928654Yea, you're not wrong. I think it's even worse when you have people here who also believe these roles should be so strict that they decide every facet of a person's life. Stuff that ends up being not just play or a game or a joke, but reflects a genuine kind of hatred that people are supposed to just handwave away. And it's from both ends too, really.
>>40928834Yeah ive known girls who talk about how they want a boyfriend who acts like a psychopath and is 6' tall and dominant etc etc and they want to be a bimbo and I just want to ask them why they are doing this to themselves but I unfortunately get it. I'm just so sick of fantasy and its everywhere you look in beauty ads and in porn and the secret desires of all your friends and its just a dead end. at least it seems to be for me.
>>40928813You should sign up for femout bro, they'll take anyone
>>40928959I'm not even trans lol
it's not fair
And I can't really relate to men either
next month i turn 27 and it's stressing me out
>>40920629What's in it for you?>>40928346Nobody should be feeding HRT to anybody.
>>40929672Sorry lady but all anti-trans ideology has been flensed out of me by the cruel march of crushing gender dysphoria. No longer will I rant about how it's all bad and nobody should do it, and I have accepted that I should've done it.
>>40929710The LGBT community is fucked and tainted, I want nothing to do with it.
>>40929728Okay, don't have anything to do with it. Being a tranny doesn't mandate that you do.
how is my skull this huge i look so disgusting
Smoked weed and now these thoughts of me as a woman are coming back to the surface
>>40929210So become trans then? Whats the big deal. Its all a show about nothing
i feel like im going insane... its like a.migraine onky mental no physical pain... i can feel.how i am trappes in this body no escape.... i have to deal with 50 more years of this can i do it i can feel my jaw im not even touching it i can just feel.how large it is how large my browridge is... oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god
>>40930180just stop thinking about it!problem solved
there is this girl i know who has been fucking with my head for years, i think any girl could have done it but it happens to be her. i hate it because the way she makes me feel makes me feel like a man. i guess its the feeling of wanting someone you cant have, and also envying her for being able to do that to you, for being effortlessly seductive and completely unattainable, i hate myself for feeling this way
Even the gay men see each other is so fucked up.
I've been dreaming almost every single day about magically turning into a girl for almost a decade now
>>40930237listened to music for two hours and i feel a bit better... the fact dysphoria comes and goes helps, it means i always know relief if only a little is coming soon...
if all straight cis women knew about reddit hons claiming agp is not a thing since all women are also horny about being women there would be a ton more transphobia
some of you people are way too demanding. I just want to be an average woman my own age with a kind of ugly bf that's maybe a little dumb and insensitive sometimes, but makes me laugh and gives great cuddles and does his best to be a good man
>>40930556never really goes away once it clicks. for me repping too hard while getting sober (cringe i know i had hindu phase) caused it, backfired as i binged hard at gender bender fiction... read and daydreamed all day and halfnight... at peak brainrot i checked in mirror every morning if havent i started turning into girl lol... i did some wacky meditations and even prayers to Loki to cause it...
>>40930797very fembrained lol
>>40930805at first it was like blessing an relief easing depression and filling void but it was so intense allday that i started questioning as i realized that even tough its "forced" i really want it, and would be rather a girl... forced being excuse... scary scary implications... dismissed it at first... been hell since...
>>40930556Watching Sailor Moon and Cardcaptor Sakura as a kid gave me ideas like that. And yeah that shit has never gone away and is still my most persistent fantasy, even though there's usually something else built onto it.
>>40931140first real trigger was the dragon doctors. few weeks of daydreams too but no freakout for some reason.
I would probably transition and be a transbian if they didn't all seem like the worst parts of gay male culture
>>40931753you can just ignore them and find people like yourself
>>40931770I would be the only one
>>40931963there's a ton of self hating transbians out there
>>40932002and they're all in one big polycule
The hatred of the self is the beginning of Wisdom.
If I had a girlfriend who liked feminizing me and making me pretty and dressing me up I would be complete
beign a girl and getting big and chucnky........
>>40932306what's he thinking
>>40932570his synapses firing off and his brain is forming the agp mind virus
>>40932306girly nose... us male nose reppers know our place
>>40932565giwtwm
>>40932610its when soul turned female... forever and ever. nothing will be same again... ecstasy and torment awaits
>>40932917so true fellow schnozer
i might have mid nose but look dinarid af. armenoid almost. not that bad for passing but might end up looking she-jew if i troon in future. just... no words for this i have
Going to watch solo leveling
wasted my whole 20s feeling like a subhuman and self harming lmaoooo
>>40930797I mean Loki was the one who did it in Boku Girl so maybe you were onto something
>>40933263GIWTWM
fuck-off cuntconsistency consistently convinced you're a xenomorph :D
>>40929961you were unluckyso was I
>>40933099slop alert
>>40932306As someone with this it’s both a blessing and a curse
>>40933606Literally how
>>40933315Why you want to stop me? Lol
>that one stop hibari-kun author quote went viral again
>>40934305I'm just concerned for you, please watch a good anime
>>40934350that quote makes me want to get into drawing desu
>>40934350What is the quote
>>40934471
>>40934358>good animeMaybe we have just different tastes. Give me example of good anime.
>>40934479>>40934383This is actually a big part of my motivation to do art (mostly of women, men turning into women, cross dressing etc)
i could pass so long as nobody looks at my head from the side or at any of me from the neck down
is there a repper discord? please none with groomers preferably.
