ben shapiro edition>QOTT: do you self-harm?last: >>41084505
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on the one hand fitting for these threads to have schizo OPs but jfc>>41121761haven’t for most of this year but have really felt the urge recently
>>41121761No i always thought that was super gay
>>41121761i’ve always wanted to do it to prove im mentally ill enough but keep pussying out. like the blade will be on my skin but i can’t do it
i really want to die
>>41121761Used to cut but stopped years ago, now I just self harm with alcoholism.
>>41121761Can only get turned on to imagining myself as a passable vers troon and only with men. I thought I was straight. Is this it?
>>41121761I cut often before I detransitioned. The scars are embarrassing but a good lesson about what it's like if you give in to trans shit
>>41121761i'm going off hrt for a while to reassess things. growing breasts mightve been a horrible mistake
>>41121761i used to punch myself, mostly in the headplease don't make fun of me
>>41123105same, i did that a lot when i was a teenger to punish myself for acting feminine
>>41123105>>41123169I still do this
>>41123105nah that's pretty common, not my cup of tea but my dad will do it all the time
>>41121761no I'm too malebrained to think that more unnecessary pain will improve my situation
>>41122694that doesn't make any sense to me, wouldn't you want to hurt your body less if you made it less gross and vice versa?I'm not a cutter or a detroon so maybe I wouldn't get it
>>41123738Maybe transitioning or being gay is a form of self harm in its own way
>>41124047that doesn't really make sense to me either unless you just hated yourself for being male rather than having actual internal desire for a female body and were never actually attracted to men but disliked your own attraction to women.
When I drink one beer i wish I had boobs
>>41121761take your HRT, retards
>>41124590I always wish that I had boobs but when I drink more than one beer I can temporarily be less grossed out by the fact that I don't have them
I WISH I WAS A WOMAN
>>41124591make me
man i'm a 28 year old man thinking of cutting, embarassing>>41124591no <3
>>41123738obviously I didn't pass, so it was gross. My dysphoria and anxiety sky rocketed presenting and that's why I cut, not to mention the complete social isolation caused by transitioning
>>41124864it never helps and you will scar no matter what
i really dont want boobs but i have no choice because slowly turning into a more manly man makes me wanna die, i know this makes me faketrans and i shouldnt troon but i will literally kms if i dont
>>41125199You can just fuck with the continual sexation processes going on in your own body anon, you don't need fucking certification. If people don't have an easy box to put you in that's a flaw in their ontology, not your life trajectory. If you buy estrogen from Lilian use a local wallet on a phone to pull your crypto from coinbase to first, they block directly sending to that address. On the other hand, you could probably find a pretty based therapist to sanity check your plans through with if you put in a couple of days of research, at least assuming you've got some disposable income. Joke's on you though, you're gonna die even if you transition. You don't get a prize at the end for "doing it right" either way.
>>41125430>"You don't get a prize at the end for "doing it right" either way">s/he doesn't know
im so depressed looking at myself like im genuinely just ugly, its not even masculinisation im just ugly. every feature on my face is bad.ffs is gonna be so humiliating, i half expect the surgeon to be like "are you sure you want to do this" because he thinks it wont even do anything.
>>41126221if you're planning on getting FFS in this life you shouldn't be in this thread
>>41126252im gonna be an ffs hrt repper i belong here
any srs/artificial womb reppers here?
>>41126262YWNBAR
Repping is so easy when you have an intact male friend group that doesnt consist entirely of scraggily söyboy twinks. Every moment spent with dudes who arent feminine (aka energy vampires) is elating and inspiring. Get yourself some of dat, anons.
>>41126284I have those and while I do love them it really doesn't make repping any less painful.I would like to believe that female me would have been a cool tomboy with the same friends though.
>>41126284I hate men tbhon
>>41126284I had that my entire life and even lost some of them to trooning... if I wouldn't have done it, I'd be a john30 now
fun to know that i would have turned out fine if my mom had touched me in any way shape or form before i turned 9
hugging reppers (spiritually, so we don't have to acknowledge our disgusting physical forms)
praying to different goddesses so they can magically turn me into a woman day 1prayed to aphrodite last night to contact me in my dreams, but she didn't answer at all. had a dream about a dude that looked like a viking though so i might try freyja next
>>41126801Why God's and spirits don't answer to us reppers? It's some kind of curse?
My Achievements >Unhealthy manlet porn addicted broke weak ugly not manly enough to man not feminine enough to woman can't get medications >small hairy body hypersensitive super skinny hated by everyone unemployed Can anyone relate?
how to cope with the fact that i'll never achieve anything in life and was born to die?
>>41126838just have to find out a way to carve out a little happiness to cope with the reality of it
>>41126838I DONT KNOWi wish i knew how to do things, not even accomplish things, like even basic things i fucking suck ati want to be able to go out and have friends and do things but ive just spent my whole 20s in my bedroom in my parents housei wanna fucking rope
>>41126831>>41126838>>41126857Yea, im just not as pathetic and gay about it as you. Just embrace being a failure and enjoy the things you already have (shelter, food, vidya etc)
I rep so hard I’m a living cliche. I’m married and my wife knows of my bi experimentation from before I met her. Recently the topic of sexuality came up again and me claiming bisexuality is a dealbreaker for her. She tells me to go live my life and be gay and instead of taking that leap I double down, tell her I love her, tell her I’ll be straight for her, tell her we can start a family etcAnd then I watch sissy porn or jack off to gay porn. Sometimes my dick doesn’t work (pretty sure it’s cause I drink too much and don’t exercise - it used to work) and I have to use ED pills to make sex possible. I could be living as a faggot but then I’d be a faggot, you know?Anyways, Ima quit drinking and hit the gym. If I hypermasculinize myself my life will work out
>>41127112Being bisexual fucking sucks. At least im not gay. Gay people kind of disgust me.
>>41126877I realized that most of my hobbies are just another form of self-harm.
>>41127112Its ok dude. We all know the struggle. You havent done anything wrong yet. But please, for the love of god, before you actually have kids with this woman, stop consuming sissy porn. You could have a pseudo-straight normal life if you didnt cultivate this ugly demon in you every time you jerked off. Be disciplined and correct your thoughts when they stray into a bad direction. Thats the least you could do for her and your kids.And no, the homosexual lifestyle is not worth it. Not even comparable to the wealth of positive experiences you'll have if you start a family.
does anyone have any back shrinking tips
>>41127112I don't think masochist porn is an actual sexuality, it's just a coping mechanism
>>41127112>If I hypermasculinize myself my life will work outsure babe. feel bad for your wife though! i'm glad i'm not making this someone else's problem
>>41127693the looming broad shoulders kills me
>>41128042>If I hypermasculinize myself my life will work outI don't know, I realize it probably is the solution for most people
>>41127112I went through a gymbro wildlife survival hyper misogyny phase right before I transitionedStay in your lane, you can't man up: only protect yourself from humiliation I would divorce your wife, though, she sounds miserable
I will always be a tim mef
>>41128150Good eyes. Well then. Here is your average rep poon bro. Actually I'm sick of seeing them walking fearless in public.
>>41128170>I realize it probably is the solution for most peoplebased on what lmao. unless you're trying to do some accelerationist thing where you'll feel even worse about shit so you transition sooner; but it's not like if you're "better" at being a man it'll make you feel more comfortable with your masculinitythe guy who posts "why not just be an effeminate man" is trolling but he also kinda has a point
they just don't get enough hate for their appearance every time
>>41128344>based on what lmao.Based on most people here seeking a hypermasculine presence anyway. People here only feminize because they can't live up to their own lofty ideal and they want to attract that kind of idol god/daddy figure into their lives. Note how there's no such thing as being independent on /lgbt/ except for the FTMs curiously enough. By feminizing all of you only end up becoming extremely clingy and desperate people.
>>41128425okay freudso you think by being hypermasculine it'll be fixed because you can be that kind of figure for someone else? even though you're already married and apparently going to have kids, so you'd literally be a father?again, do whatever you want but feel bad for your wife and prospective kidsme personally don't think my daddy issues are going to be fixed by any amount of lifting but you do you
FUCK FUCK FUCKI was hoping my boyfriend would keep me in line and tell me that transitioning is retarded but the fucker told me he would accept me if I transitioned. Im going to kms this wasn't suppose to happen
A friendly reminder: If you plan to have a child, you should have $1 million available for each child. If you don't have this money, there's no point in having children.
>>41128361would
>>41128673would you let her peg your ass?
>>41128737yea probably
I always coped, every time I thought I would get rid of my AGP. I always have been and always will be. I'm at my lowest point when it comes to mental health, and I truly believe I'm a woman inside.Suicide is in the next door.
i'm so pathetic i play as women in video games to cope
>>41128968Based
>want to be a woman with a vagina>brain suddenly decides being a woman with a huge cock would be better>brain goes back to wanting to be a normal cis womanwhy am i like this
>>41128990i'm such a basic bitch that random uninspired designs of female video game characters appeal to me as my ideal self
>>41128968>>41129183lolz me too. even as repressed kid i liked more playing girl parts than guy in dino crisis 2 and syphon filter 2. skyrim is quite comfy, you can get home and kids... add drug of choice to it... happy hours... too bad clothes look meh. bit too violent too but its general problem with vidya and kino...
>>41129183I used to humiliate terfs with my expensive outfit and other stuff from chasers pure nostalgia
>>41128968I can't play games with gender options because of this. I feel bad no matter what I pick
Does anybody know the release date of The Turn Into a Girl Spellbook?
>>41129691this is so malebrained
>>41130720tweny fifty
The worst part about shaving every day to alleviate how much I hate having facial hair is having to stare at my godawful face in the process.
there should be a hospital where I can get a nice twinkhon to euthanize me like a dying animal
how long have you guys been on this website? i'm a newfag and only been around for a little over 2 years, and i've been lurking on this board since the first day i was here.
>>41121761qott: whoops just did>>41132375why would you do that to the nice twinkhonshave been thinking lately about that one guy who let another cannibalize him. if they killed me quickly enough idk if i'd be mad
>>41133316>why would you do that to the nice twinkhonsit's their job they're the nurses or whatever
>>41133314Since 2010. Started on /b/ as one did in those days. I remember when I found out there was a board called /tg/, I assumed it meant transgender, and I stayed FAR away from it because I was afraid. Imagine my disappointment when I finally overcame my feelings and showed up to a board of DnD and Warhammer threads.
>>41133314For me I've been lurking on this website for 9 years, contributing for 5 years, and went on repgen a few times 4 years ago, now im back. My life isn't as bad as that would suggest.
I have been trying to incorporate the shadow, bringing my fem side more into my life to become one whole person. And it's been great desu. Dressing up at concerts has been fun, and I just got my belly button pierced. I'm having a lot of fun!
i'm too stupid for hrt
I literally want to be a man I just want to beat my mental illness that makes me jealous of women and wish I was one
