apathetic misery edition>QOTT: do you feel like a real person?last thread: >>41193751
>>41222783your schtick is tired gincel, go away
>>41222763i will never be a real person
>>41222783I was sent to this thread just because I want to be a beautiful young golden-haired twink having sex with an older, dykey looking woman. It's more of an /ss/ fantasy.
drink your alcohol, retards
>>41222931soon druynk one(1) standard ewrope botttlew vodka and wish i got more availbvale :(monday i got a phone meeting with doc trying to decsciper why my internal organs are shutting down lmao....
>>41222763qott: eh idk what else i'd feel like>>41222931i unfortunately keep drinking so much i wake up drunk; bad for work the next day. will keep smoking my weed though>>41223007:( are you gonna try to stop?
>>41223037don't see a reason to nglbeing frunk for a short while is the only nice feeling i ever had, even tho it's b ad af and i ttry to keep ppl from the shit(most "hard" drugs are betytter in moderation)
>>41222763>QOTTnois that bad?
>>41223105fair although I've heard that when you get to the point of liver disease etc it's insanely painfulgl either way
I hate interacting with people as mereppers should be entitled to government funded hermitages and contactless food/alcohol deliveries
>maybe I could pass with some effort. I should troon>nevermind, I look like a gorilla. I should rep>it's not that bad, I could pass with ffs>nvm completely impossible, I need to rep>I should troon>I should rep>I should troon>I should rep>repeat all day long>precious time is wastedHow do I get out of this cycle? My brain has been stuck in this state for the past 3 years. I have tried coin tosses before, but regardless of the result I end up disappointed.
>>41222931Way ahead of you anon.
all i think about is death
>>41222763No, I feel like I died years ago. I'm a corpse shambling through the motions of life.
>>41222763No, but I have self hatred even for my imagined ideal self
I looked at myself in the mirror today and was struck by just now uncanny I look. Even though I looked fairly androgynous, the lighting made my horrid neanderthal browridge stand out very starkly. The combined effect of my overall facial structure with that brow looked particularly awful.
Even the LGBT community and trans people hate feminine people
>>41222763>do you feel like a real person?No, I feel like some kind of empty shell that adapts to suit whoever it's interacting with, that completely lacks any real identity, feelings, or desires.
>>41223806I feel you anon, I hate my browbone so damn much. I must come from a long line of neanderthals, every member of my family including the female ones have a massive browridge too.
>>41223958It's that way with my family and noses. Just absolutely cursed.
>>41223958its ok to be male
>>41223971It's not okay to be gincel.
>>41223971wrong
keep in mind repressing might be the most wasteful thing you could ever do with the one single life you get to live on this earth (thumbs up emoji)
>>41224602affirmations for tomorrow morning
>>41224623help me understand why
>>41224602it's not my fault
>>41222931nope, i am dry alkie so i wont. few days and i will have money for my lixie dust so i will be flying highhttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Ool4gyrJpM0
>>41224602i'm wasting away and gonna kms eventually anyways the repping is unrelated
>>41224627idk it's not really that bad most of the time. can't be in a relationship which sucks but 95% of the time gender doesn't matter and I'm not thinking about it
I'm cringing so hard at a couple of posts i made in another thread that I'm hiding out here, someone pop a bullet in my head
wow this cider I bought tastes like artificially-flavored pissstill not letting it go to waste obv but damn
>>41224602Okay sure, but what's the alternative? I'll never pass as a woman and honmoding wouldn't help with the dysphoria enough to justify getting hatecrimed and disowned. Not everyone lives in a liberal west coast city, or in a western country.
>>41224714I honestly do not know or care to help you lmao, i just think it's funny to pop in and make fun of you fucking pussies for being eternally stuck in the closet
I was 16 years old when i grew balls big enough to come out, how many years have you guys wasted repressing?
>>412247964 or 5 i think
>>41224815am i allowed to think this is funny or no?
>>41224823i would prefer if you didn't
>>41224823idk whats funny, i think trying to avoid being a tranny is the first thing that comes to mind for most
>>41224796I like being a feminine man.
>>41224848>idk whats funnyI recognize your situation is shit, i guess what makes it funny to me is the stark opposition between yours and my life. Maybe i feel some relief not having to be burdened with being transsexual like you do
>>41224796Depends, are we talking conscious or unconsciously repping?
>>41224933congrats brotherman, sounds like things are going amazing for you if the best use of your time is to come to fourchan dot org and dunk on the group of retards
>>41224995No don't get fooled, i wouldn't have been here if it was amazing. I'm just picking on you beneath while I'm here
>>41225042>don't get fooledwow you really did have me
>>41225042that's not nice
>>41222763>>QOTT: do you feel like a real person?No, not at all. I don't feel normal or real, or like myself whatever that might be. I don't react or feel much, I often feel I am simply watching or observing life through some incorrectly gendered meat suit. I work and exist in a world & life I don't really participate in.>>41224796>how many years have you guys wasted repressingConsciously and unconsciously repping, 15+ years at least
>>41225068>15+ years at leastThat's actually so fucking sad buddy, please do try do something about it
Can we all agree 15 years is way too many years to waste? I was going to make fun but jesus christ, we can't be wasting our lives like this
sorry for killing the vibes but also let's not spend years wasting our lives like this
my only two ways out are to kill myself, either literally or metaphorically
>>41225276>sorry for killing the vibesno you're not lmaoyou feel bad that you came to the kiddie pool and nobody wants to talk to you?
>>41225306i just kinda feel bad making fun of you guys before realizing how bad you have it
>>4122479624, but I went back to repressing years later transitioning isn't worth it if you don't pass
>>41222763every day i feel like i want to wake up looking like brittney kade, jane marie, natalie mars. i want to wake up looking like a bimbo shemale. i want to have a chaser daddy bf fuck me and make me coom every day. what do i do?
>>41223259manmode til ffs
im a hrt repper and everyone refers to me as "mate"its fucking over
>>41224796im 28 and my parents still think im their big strong son lol
I thought I'd be productive today but then I started looking through trans timelines and I'm depressed again
you guys ever take a picture of your side profile, mine is horrendous. i look like one of those paleolithic cavemen
>tfw dinarid>>41226709you had to, didnt you? i took pic and its your fault
i traced itits so over, its so unbelievably over
does anyone get a little weirded out about how some trannies are very anti-men? most are just joking, but there's a minority that is very misandrist for reals and i never got that. how tf are you like this you lived as a man for god knows how long, how do you not see the irony here?i guess thats just proof im malebrained i guess, i don't think i've ever seen a tranny be empathetic to a guy beforeor maybe some trannies really do see themselves as women, and so feel perfectly logical doing this. i did not think that was even possible.another piece of evidence i am a man ig>captcha: KSGAY
>>41227023i think its more hate of maleness a la Ksenia or something, as one troon said on tttt kill man, save human inside...
>>41227023im anti cis people, they are all judgemental
I'm used to not seeing myself as real person. But that has changed now that I took my grandmother's medication for schizophrenia.
>>41227023I'm repper but I hate man's and gay mans because they fucking vile ogres and behave accordingly
>>41222763manmoder but yeahI have no hobbies no interests, I don't care about anything, I look like frankenstein's monster anywaysI just take what people say to me, process it and then say something backbut there is nothing
How2rep successfully: Get a life and be easy on yourself. It's that shrimple.
>>41224796I’m still hrt reppingI will never come outI’m a coward
>>41227939I'm too depressed to succeed. idk, I hate talking with my male voice and I have no drive. The worst part is I'd probably pass enough to transition after ffs but I don't have the drive to just secure some shitty job for three years to afford it. I should kms
Tfw you've been questioning since your teens, and now at 25 you understand you fucked up by not starting sooner.There's no point anymore I either don't have dysphoria and I'm not trans, maybe all men just look at themselves and feel nothing.Maybe I don't have dysphoria because I've become so numbMaybe I'm just scared of getting old, balding, losing hair like every manI don't think I'd like to present socially as a woman, I'd feel like I'm pretendingI'm born to feel like...this strange thing, I've isolated myself for so long I feel like an alien. I don't know how to talk or be interested in other people. People really ask each other what they had for lunch and find joy in that, or something idkWhy do I feel like I haven't mentally developed past age 16, and intellectually I've regressed, forgot things even simple math.I just keep letting the days go by, I don't notice the pain of being a failure most days.i still have this feeling if I transition I'll be doing something different so I won't feel like a failure but I know that's stupid, transitioning will only make my life incredibly hard and it already feels incredibly hard despite being from the privileged white man group.Go to work, come home, eat, sleep, is that everything? Nothing fucking brings me joy. I try not to notice how ugly my face and body are. I've completely given up on shaving my body since nobody sees it anyways and I cover it up and don't look at it.I don't enjoy my current life but I don't know what to change without feeling like I'm just pretending
>>41227972You can solve your depression by just getting up and doing easy things to start. The more things you do, the more drive you will have.
>>41224796>being young enough where "transgender" was even in the public lexicon as something you could come out asLolWhy do zoomshits think they are heroic
>>4122479627 years since I first fully grasped the concept of how I felt and counting, anon. Longer than your entire life up until now.
>>41228158>Maybe I don't have dysphoria because I've become so numbthis. it can come back in full trothle when tipsy, when numb no more, tense no more.>Why do I feel like I haven't mentally developed past age 16, and intellectually I've regressed, forgot things even simple math.sames. i learned few things, shattered few delusions but grammar got shit, forgot most of math, chemistry and physics...>despite being from the privileged white man group.privileged is newspeak that caused curen mass chudoutband its inflammatory. also its objectively better to be a woman in so called western world and japan too.>Go to work, come home, eat, sleep, is that everything? Nothing fucking brings me joy.drugs help somewhat. . >what to change without feeling like I'm just pretendingbut you arent really feeling, just thinking and ruminating, dont you?>>41228267>You can solve your depression by just getting up and doing easy things to start.like i worked out yesterday and now going to drug store to get some codeine to play skyrim later. not much better but wouold be worse if i didnt>>41228300depends on family and area your born into. if you were born in 1980 in lib family from.commiepornia it would be easier than being born in religious family from some kind of chudistan.capthcha s0thamaybe i should play morrowind? been few months since i touched it
>>41228370how old are you unc? 40?how do you rep that long and not kys, asking for future me
>>41224796I accepted it when I was 17, repped for 7 years so far
I WISH I WAS A WOMAN
>>4122837028 for me. fucked up thing is i had obvious physical dysphoria from masculinising (and fee ither signs too...) was too ignorant and scramblebrained to know any better. only when i started daydreaming about being turned into woman and living like that all day, and large chunk of night (like Ted K) to degree it started interfering with work and sleep i started questioning things. i feel like a retard now. and it wasnt even first occurence of that but most severe one...
>>4122845234. This started very young for me, anon.>How do you rep that long and not kysKeeping myself distracted with frivolous pursuits that hardly bring joy but keep me distracted.>>41228589I knew, but I was kept from doing anything first my fear of my parents and church, then of divine punishment, then various copes about how it isn't possible and how I can't really be trans, that they're all crazy and I don't want to be one, or that if I just ignored it then it'd have to eventually stop. None of those copes worked and all stopped serving to help rep one after another.
>>41228654>church, then of divine punishmentthats big one. paralyzes mind.>then various copes about how it isn't possible and how I can't really be transwell i was quite delirious one leg in looney bin tier ages 14 to 27ish, before was catholic christkek... also thought that gay men are women in male bodies and so on. listened to my delusions... and didnt wanted tonthink aboit such scary shit, oh and internalized some of toxic masculinity shit too... also up to 19 was fat so would not try to crossdressas i felt too gross for it.
>>41224796Thoughts started at 7, came to terms at 20, 4 years since then
>>41228838Actually same, I don't remember much of my childhood because of trauma, but my mom recently told me I told her I wanted to kill myself at around 7 and about a costume party where I cried all night for having a superman suit
>>41228740I tried to adapt to fit my parents' views on all this stuff in my teens basically, which made me a very angry and bitter person, as it tends to when you live contrary to your nature.
im fake trans because my wanting to be a girl thoughts only started around 11
>>41228875i remember very little desu. foggy af... i hated haircuts, asked to use only clippers and always had bangs. also was told that was wearing moms heels and jewelry when like 2 or 3 but i dont remember it. at 3 i stopped eating almost entirely for 3 weeks, fuck knows why, they say it was cause vaccine but could ve something worse, asshat grandpa was scaring me with god watches you shit...
also was sensitive kid, when going with class to cinema i had to try hard to keep myself form crying during emotional scenes. failed even at being boy, let alone man....
>>41228934I hated haircuts too, I would do my best to hold myself form crying everytime, and most of the time the dumb hairdresser would mess the haircut so she will take ALL my hair out, most of my childhood I had a militar haircut
>>41222763take your HRT, retards
>>41229029If could do that Id probably stop shit posting here
>>41228934>i hated haircutsI remember my first haircut actually. I was miserable during it and afterwards, then my father walked me inside my grandparents' house and everyone there (my mother, grandmother, and older sister) started calling me handsome and for reasons I obviously didn't understand at the time I literally broke down crying.
>>41229029Repress, neverpasser
>>41229029If it undid masculinization I would, but it doesn't.
>>41229097well i was tokd that when i was like 1-3 they had to wait until i was asleep to trim hair, had shoulder legth or bit sorter back then... i wonder if familybis not telling me something that happened back then...
>>41229158There's always shit your family hides and tells you when it's already too late for you to do anything about it>oh yes anon, you used to have a lot of signs, but we ignored everything
>>41225094>>41225231I'd suggest you begin to take small steps towards relieving your own dyphoria if that's why you're here, even if that doesn't include transition in any context. Don't end up like the few oldfags here like me. Hope whatever you do works out for you though, anon.>>41228452>how do you rep that long and not kysNta, but I'm around their age (early 30's). Try to remain active with something (especially if it's offline / social), therapy, distractions, work, therapy, and so on. The generics, but cultivating a better you is important. Having the humility and understanding of what's actually happening. For me, coming to terms with essentially who and what I am. Not denying that I am experiencing dysphoria and what that entails is easier to digest and work from than living in complete denial. Any attempt at complete denial for me ended in catastrophe. Repressing actions (repressing being more feminine) is easier than repressing truths internally (repressing the idea you're probably trans) and seems to be far less harmful overall to the person. That being said, you should also consider finding outlets that relieve your dysphoria, even in private or secret. The obvious as well - consider speaking with a therapist about your dysphoria and reflect on the reasons you give yourself for not transitioning. I don't think repping is a good idea for everyone by any means, desu. Hope life works out with whatever path you take, anon. It's not easy and you're not weak for suffering.
>>41229106nah that's gay, repressing doesn't work
>>41228934My dad would always give me the same awful buzzcut as a kid, then I'd grow it out until it was shoulder length rinse and repeat for all my childhood.
>>41229216Same, but it was my mom, now she's like "do whatever you want I'll accept it" when I'm already 24 and full of stupid trauma
>>41229205>Any attempt at complete denial for me ended in catastrophe. Repressing actions (repressing being more feminine) is easier than repressing truths internally (repressing the idea you're probably trans) and seems to be far less harmful overall to the person.>That being said, you should also consider finding outlets that relieve your dysphoria, even in private or secrettruth. any attempt at it ends in nervous breakdown. hard repping is like having broken leg and punching other one in attempt to make enduring it easier.
ive decided to just kill myself with opiatestheres no happiness possible for someone like me
My femrep friend talked abt this often I feel disgusting and completely inhuman I love csh a lot “I am almost completely soullessI am incapable of being humanI am incapable of being inhumanI am living uncontrollably”
>>41229436I’m also 19 and started a week ago and already stopped but I fucking love it here repgen is more home to me than my family ever could have been
>>41229321bohemian choice. nectar of souls too beautiful, pure and sensitive for this evil world. T16 will warm my girling in skyrim tonight. unwrong times, out of this bad reality, mg ritual and solace.
>>41229644yeah i think ill not go in too deep to start with, maybe abuse pregabalin and codeine type downers, try not to get ill. see if it can carry me through
that feel when you realise you repped past the acceptable quirky boymoder twinkhon limit and are now firmly in the disgusting sissy boomerhon zone forever until you die
>>41229654codeine is not really physically addictive, only mildly so. especiallyvif uou compare that to alcohol. maybe feeling down achey and mild shits. stims are easy if you take care of minerals, vitamins, protein and carbs. after getting to bottom of multigram bag its two daysbof sleepy and back to normal.
>>41229644This reminds me of when I'd do a CWE on an entire box of nurofen plus and gag down the resulting liquid. Utterly vile but I miss it.
i wish they didnt shut down archtype you could get hydrocodone on there
Out of curiosity of my fellow reppers here, is your internal monologue (if any) primarily in the voice of a man or woman? Also since I've seen this mentioned way more than one would think, is this also a voice you can essentially (at some level) have a dialogue with in a beneficial manner? Or neutral, maybe negative, or just a true voicing of your thoughts?
>>41229754My internal monologue sounds like a woman, makes the contrast from the times I have to hear my real voice absolute suifuel.
>>41229707rn out of cash for few days. otherwise i can easily get variety of stims, morphine, oxy, pregabalin from vendor that sends it to pick up inpost point (paid in crypto) but order needs to be at least 70ish bucks.
>>41229029makeme
>>41229696this is why I detransed tbhon you can't realistically be a hon when you're in your 30s
>>41229754androgynous i guess, when i have to speak the character ive trained myself to play comes out automatically. its honestly kind of disturbing noticing it and how i cant really help it, but i know its "fake"
>>41229790yeah its like, its cool in a way not to pass when you are still getting something out of it, feeling cute, having friends to do stuff withwhat do you do in your 30s? be unemployed and have everyone hate you so you can feel ugly every time you look at yourself?i think a successful transition is one of the most beautiful things that could happen to someone, but a failed transition is also like the worst thing. theres literally nothing you can do except kys
>>41229216Same, I would put up so much resistance my Mom abandoned dragging me to the hairdresser's and would do it herself with a poorly done buzzcut lol I got beaten so much I eventually gave inI ran away for three days once over it but when I told my uncle, who found me, why they convinced my mother to put me up for adoption lmao
>>41229810I think experimentation in your 20s is to be expected and if you look a little younger it just falls into adolescent fancies, so it's not that big a deal. I don't know how anyone can rationalise it as an obvious adult if you don't pass, though. I just wish I did something with it. Instead I was a miserable borderline incel with no friends. Wasted youth.
Here's my healthy repression
>>41229810I wonder is it better to have tried and failed, or not tried at all. Not really sure myself but leaning for the latter.
>>41229885i have "experimented" and it just never feels like enough, you always want to take it further.im afraid of getting ffs and jsut looking like a weird alien and still being dysphoric and now i cant take it back and have spent a bunch of money, but i dont know what else to do. its like transitioning is an endless bait with no end unless you can already see the end goal from the start
>>41229931I've never seen a botched ffs that wasn't some medical complication tbhon.
>>41229955i mean its pretty easy just go look at facialteam before afters.like a lot of them still dont pass but if they were to detransition they wouldnt look normal either. its like perma marking yourself as a tranny.but i guess it depends on the surgeon. sometimes i feel like i have no choice but to transition because i need to at least know what the outcome would be even though i know its going to fail and i dont even know if im trans. just absolutely a cartoonish trainwreck.
just fuck my shit up
>>41229796same. no male raspybharshness ro it but nitbreallt girly either. just smooth and neutral >>41230060>8daysbefore looks like vampire chad, after looks like fatter aunt. still improovment
>>41229754Male, though it was female when I voice trained. If I shift to a female inner voice I tend to sound like a lispy faggot so I avoid it
>>41229995>a lot of them still dont pass but if they were to detransition they wouldnt look normal eitherBrutal, that's also what I'm afraid of. I'd still like to get my browbone flattened and nose fixed at least.Then again I'll never afford it anyway.
>>41229754My voice, but my voice is pretty weird and I usually get mistaken as a woman over the phone
asking my surgeon to remove everything that makes me an ugly caveman without making me look like someones aunt and then showing him pictures of anime
I have 2 inner monologues that want to kill eachother
>>41230246nose is more of ethnic type thingvthan manly/womanly. first and foremost brow is clocky, then chin but nw euro women tend to have it big, especially bong islanders. also high convex nose breaks profile, making brow and chin less salient giving classical etheric elegant aquiline profile
>>41229995>>41230060All this is telling me is to avoid facialteam.
>>41229772Nice selection I'm jealous. How's pregabalin? I've never tried it, only benzos and of course plenty of booze.
>>41230450me neither. i am curios. theyvhave 300mg per pill afaik its bit much
its polish vendor but they do ship to other countrieschem-collabo.xyz
>>41230633I'd love to say I hope you find healthier ways to cope other than drug use, as I know it's harmful and I went down the same road, but I don't even have a suggestion or advice, I'm still coping with alcohol and weed for the same reasons. I'm lucky to have survived and recovered from my hard drug use, I just wish things weren't this way for anyone in this thread, regardless of how much we "do this to ourselves" or live in toxic situations and environments out of our control. Dysphoria is so fucked. Bleh.
>>41230348I would go to korea tbhon, I'll gamble with that or go to mardirossian
>>41227023most of them are faketrans transbians
>>41230891you are inherently faketrans as a repper, retard
>>41230905im honmodinghttps://unsee cc/album#PK6sIhI2RZFw
>>41230940too ugly to pull the attentionwhore shit here
>>41231006hate is good too its my main motivation
>repgen>it's all trannies
>>41229029But that won't give me a dommy mommy.
>>41231051what do you need a gen for?>brooo im sooo pornsick but im not gonna act on it fml
>>41231051>another day of repgen>one reply calls me faketrans>another calls me a trannyI am schrodinger's tranny repper (still cis tho)
>>41231071Go to your "stealth" npc threads cuck
>>41231118These cat memes are getting more specific. Should I be worried?
>>41231122repping is pretty cucked sweety
>>41231139extremely cucked
>>41231139I repping because I don't want to end up homeless And I don't sure you don't end up detransitioning
IN THIS THREAD PEOPLE WHO TAKE HRT ARE TRANNIES
>>41231251THIS
>>41231251People who take hrt and present female
>>41231227i would rather kill myself than detransill have orchi in a couple months anyway so it wont be an option
>>41231266hrt repping is just beeing a special snowflake you belong in mmg
>>41231227>I repping because I don't want to end up homelessyou get this. also to not bebullied to suicide. some youngshits are living in so much different reality. or are plainly autistic, not perceiving to nonverbal signals, immune to most subtler inults...
>>41231312insults are just an invitation to become better and take revenge
if you're a repper you're already a tranny. it's too late
>>41231303taking hrt won't regrow my hair
>>41231312Not to mention that 90% of this board it's americans or some privileged west euro fags who's hates folks like us just for existing and denied our existence
>>41231342hrt + minoxidil would
>>41231326???only way to avoid it would be being bornnin hyperreligious family and staying religious, anxious, alobsessive, afraid of hellfire and brimstone. evangelical would be best due to how hardcore they are or catholic due to humilation ritual confession. but to remain relogious you need combination of lower intelligence and higher anxiety. the smarter you are the more anxious you need to be.
>>41231287>orchiThat's hot I guess you live in a blue state or something I envy you
>>41231372>hrt + minoxidil would
years of repression have made me so misogynistici basically look at women as retarded children who were born perfect but squander everything not knowing what they have and being a man is like being born to turn into a disgusting deformed orc hated by everyone yet to soldier on regardless.i fucking hate women so much
>>41231402no greece currently>>41231422did you try?
>>41231443>no greece currentlyYou must have super supportive parents or you are fucking porn star or both
>>41231424I'm envious of how blissful their life is. Dancing girlboss office tiktoks send me into a spiral of despair It's too hard to be a man
THEY GOT SUPPORT and you don't
>>41231443>try to regrow hair>end up as a man with tits insteadPerfect this will compliment my social anxiety and depression nicely.I haven't seen much that would indicate it's really going to regrow / reclaim much, especially for most advanced stages of hair loss. Hair transplant would seem the only way, and I'm not even sure how successful those even are desu. Maybe I'll win the lottery sometime soon and can pay to frankenmonster myself into a realtrans ogrehon with a flawless hairline on my gigadome at some point.>>41231424>>41231500I wish normies had to experience gender dyshoria at some point in their life. Also does anyone else read femrepgen? What are your views and feelings about the other side of the fence?
>>41231494my father is far right(nazi) alcoholic but i havent had contact since 16 years because he called me drunk always and used to hit me and i ignored the calls at some point and my mom is slightly chud but accepting igim german tho been here since 5 yearsthere are greek hons tho one is working in the supermarket i sometimes go to
>>41231601I think ftms will never be men. They never got their ass kicked as a child or had a father rightfully discipline them for a major mistake. They've never felt ashamed for showing emotion or felt compelled to romanticise war. Women are a different species at this point, societal conditioning has rendered their understanding of men an impossibility
>>41231608Mine is alcoholic too but kinda opposite Leftist Carl Marx enjoyer haven't talked about 3 years since coming out but I think he forgot about that not sure
>>41231690the only demographic to be more accepting really is middle-upper class voting greens liberals kinda parents but even then its often an acceptance of other peoples children as trans and hopefully not their ownreality is most trannies out or closeted dont have accepting parents and sometimes not even a family member
>>41231574I didn't ask for it. I'd feel ashamed to. When I was trans I just isolated myself and eventually broke down and gave up from internalised transphobia.
>>41231635>They've never felt ashamed for showing emotion or felt compelled to romanticise war.uh oh thats great isnt it? they can still pass as flamers tho
>>41231773nope, women are from venus. You cannot seriously tell me a gay kid is socialised as a little girl
>>41231731>acceptance of other peoples children as trans and hopefully not their ownMy parents even have pedestal of LGBTQ "heroes" they see on tv or whatever >See that crossdresser boy from tube become super successful? Why don't you like that?>I need to kick you out of house to motivate you >Indian Buddhist grifters told me >end up homeless? what how?>Mental breakdown
>>41231757And now what?
Repping for... 12 years since I knew for certain. Still financially dependent on my extremely transphobic southern baptist family for housing due to this dogshit economy and wasting my life away while depressed in my teens not planning to live past 18. Here I am living with the consequences! I just want to be seen and treated as a woman but it will never be. Every time I look in the mirror I cry. Hairline evaporating, assymetric caveman skull, body hair that grows back as soon as I get rid of it, facial hair you can see under my skin, built like a lanky board, low baritone voice. I honestly plan on exit bagging one day, I just can't work up the nerve knowing the pain and expense I'd cause everyone else.
>>41231051Repper stands for repressed transsexual, anon.
>>41231845that sounds like beeing betrayed im sorry nona its easier knowing your opponents from the start
>>41231912>betrayedYeah I guess something like that It's sucks
what is the average iq of a repper? mine is around mid 120s, so it's decent, but not high enough to join mensa or some other high iq jerk off society.i wanna know because i want to see who's smarter, agp rapehons with tech jobs or reppers that are too self-aware to transition
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>>41231874In a very similar situation too, it sucks. >Hairline evaporatingAre you already on dutasteride? If not get on it now, plus minoxidil for regrowth.Really every single adult male, cis or not should take a 5ar inhibitor.
>>41231866Suffering or suicide
>>41231905the repressed part is doing the heavy lifting I wouldn't call a gay man with a husband a closeted homosexual. If you're on hrt and presenting female you aren't repressing anything
>>41232094So what? You're a tranny regardless of whether you're on the HRT or not if you're a legitimate represser. If you weren't, you'd have nothing (thread appropriate) to repress.
>>41232157this is repgen, go to any other thread
>>41232250What does the rep in repgen stand for?
what fit are my repper girlies wearing for halloween? im doing a slutty witch outfit t. 4 year hrt girlmoder srs repper
>>41232259radicalized estrogen penis
>>41232259what're you repressing if you're an out trans woman?
>>41232276I see someone is still in the closet about his GD meaning he's a tranny.
>>41230940this is not a repper >>41232259kys
>>41232040Started minoxidil only at 21 because doctor refused to give me fin citing potential side effects even though I told them I didn't care, didn't work at all but gave me excessive permanent body hair everywhere I didn't already have it (something they didn't even bring up as a possibility). By a year or so later the receeding became pretty aggressive and put me at NW2.5, had another doctor prescribe fin that I've taken since. It slowed down the loss but it's still happening and I'm already fucked at NW3. My uncle and maternal grandfather also went bald in their 20's so I'm just fucked. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
>>41232282Who said anything about being out? Try reading the posts you replied to. Anon was upset the thread was full of trannies, I pointed out that a repper is a tranny by definition, and then anon went on some talk about gay men that had nothing to do with what I was saying, so I restated the point.
>>41232303retard the post you're refering to (>>41231051) came right after >>41230940 which is a tranny rope faggot
we are all valid trans babydollanons whether we've never taken hrt or if were ten years into a successful transition
>>41232315>Which is a trannySo are you. Stop seething for a minute and recognize the point being made is that the language you're using to complain is wrong. You're both trannies, she's on HRT and you're not. You can say she's not a repper if you want but you are still both trannies.
>>41232296post head?most hairloss suffers like to doom and exaggerate the issueyou could add microneedling for some boost
>>41232347she are not a repper I am you shouldn't be posting here if you aren't
>>41232347There's a difference between a hrt repper and a bonified trans woman, anon. That's a trans woman who posts everywhere, they aren't repressing anything.
>>41232381we are all trans women that's what being a repper means
>>41232364Okay, again, so what? You're both trannies. That's my point.>>41232381I'm not discussing the validity of the 'HRT repper' thing. I don't care. My point is that ALL reppers are trannies. That's literally it.
>>41232428I'm telling you that by trans I meant undoubtedly trans, men who have transitioned and are presenting. What you'll see if you google trans women isn't cis men repressing. What everyone thinks when you say trans woman is a mtf who has transitioned. I'm not arguing whether or not GD entitles you to call yourself trans but I'm telling you what I meant by it. If you think out trans women belong in repgen you're a retard.
im a trans woman girlmoder repressing my agab
>>41232468Yeah and I was pointing out that your usage isn't good because it's ignoring that you're a tranny too.
>>41232493idgaf bitch, you're a retard
i am a cis man but i am going to take estrogen and get ffs and live as a woman for years as an elaborate prank >>41232468
Who genuinely thinks of cis male reppers when someone reads "tranny"
>>41232577>Cis male reppersLook up what cis means if you think you can count as that while agonizing about not being a woman.
>>41232592Does your gender identity differ from your sex if you identify as it, just regrettably?
>>41232065Try to find less harmful ways
>I wish I could be trans YOU ARE BESTIE>Oh... I wish I could medically and socially transition... Thank you for using the correct terminology ;)
balding from male level testosterone/DHT but in a trans way uwu
when I die my parents will bury me as a man but god will know I was trans
i want to die so fucking bad
guys they're rounding up trannies for the death camps and im worried they'll come for me t. no hrt traditionally masculine repper
i literally just wanted to be a femboy until i turned 22 and finally realised thats a massive cope.i still want to be a femboy but its not possible. i got mind raped by the internet into identifying with a fantasy and now i have to constantly think about castrating myself because i fell for a memethoughts?
>>41232337Thank you babydollanon ily
>>41232691don't you like to eat or go fit walks in nature babydollanon?
>>41232734im not babydollanonbut no not really
>>41232738you are someone's babydollanon. everyone is
>>41232752no one could ever like me so no
submissive men should become nuns and devote themselves to god because they are his babydollanons
Babydoll you say? Well, then who be the daddypuppetmaster?
>>41232824ick
>>41232776What kind of God?
>>41232837Silence, wanna-be-woman faggot
>>41232347>you are still both trannies.This gen need to be reformed? Even more separation One kind hate another
>>41232892manmoders are reppers imo but socially transitioned trans women aren't if you aren't repressing anything, you aren't a repper
i love repeatedly having the same dumb argument. the only real repper is larry
>>41232958being a repper is having the same dumb argument about transitioning with yourself forever until you die
I HATE MUSELF SO MUCH TO THE POINT I DON'T EVEN SEE MYSELF WORTH OF LIVING
I HATE ITI HATE ITEVERY LITTLE PIECE OF ME
>>41232903Manmoders take E>Le femboy on hrt im not a girl manly man just bottom being girl sucks hate all women Take EFolks like me >I just newer take E but I wish was woman or trans or present And super self hating >embrace masculinity man up buddy's
Oh forgot another kind >Take E but I'm just gay please I don't want being related to some gross trannys>I'm not a gross tranny just gay on estrogen i swear wish all T go LGBFolks
>>41223817Why I even happened to be so feminine? It's some kind of curse?
>>41222763>do you feel like a real person?no because im not i live a half life devoid of any personality and character because my personality is wrong so im just a npc robot
>>41233121You forgot about our very real and valid babydollanon folks
I'm not a tranny I just often see women and get very sad that I am not a woman. Many such cases.
>>41231251yepthey need to leave and go be happy
dubs and everyone in repgen becomes a gigapassoid
>>41234470it's so over
>>41234511>dubsi understand it now. we can do it, but not alone.
Normal female behavior (ban all AGPs)
>>41234562a lot of women do actually like that game to be fairI'm gigamalebrained myself so obviously I've never played it
>>41234521I'll lend you my strength anon
>>41234562that's the most harmless comic you could've picked lol, there's way worse stuff out theremight as well use this hook to talk about something i've been meaning to brainstorm. there's a key difference between the average lgbt tranny and twitter trannies, and i think it's due to differing ideas on assimilation.the average twitter tranny (your picrel is a fantastic example of this) does not enjoy the idea of assimilation for the most part, at least not directly. they shun away from any ideas of actual, physical dysphoria and call you brainwormed for noticing too much. they absolutely despise 4chan trannies, because they're polar opposites (again, your picrel is the model example).twitter trannies are/want to be proud of being trans, they do not like the idea of going stealth (though most of this pride is online-only, with most of them being quite hidden irl). they want to be loud and proud without the consequences. this, alongside with the ones that are proud both online and irl (usually without the looks to be a good ad for the trans community), are essentially the people that ruined transgenderism as a valid movement in the eyes of the public, for they refuse to back down on any argument or make reasonable sacrifices so the tranny collective can move on mostly unharmed.and thus everybody hates the transexuals nowthis was a very long-winded way to say hons and annoying twitter transbians ruined trannyism but whateveror am i tweaking
>>4122479622 years :)
>>41227023yes its very performative and OneOfTheGoodOnes coded
I am exceedingly bothered by our shared predicament here. Not impressed.
Women are so pretty that its unfair.
I watched Lain again and it makes me want to kmsEvery time I watch it, it reminds me that I should've done it, that even if I went ahead with it now, i'd still be ugly and have wasted my youth.
>>41233357>>41237436Should I watch Lain?
>>41237944>dude what if the internet is real lain is terrible
>>41237944Yes, do it. I'm watching Lain when I get home from work later tonight, I haven't seen it before either desu>>41238227>>dude what if the internet is realWish it wasn't desu
>>41228436I don't really understand the question>but you arent really feeling, just thinking and ruminating, dont you?Whenever I tried to change something it always felt like I'm pretending to be better or to be someone else when in reality I'm this sad sack of shit who's too preoccupied with thinking how shit I'm feeling to care about other people.Idk maybe all men feel this way. They look in the mirror and don't really like what they see but they go "eh whatever"But at least they have some interesting hobbies, whenever I tried to get a hobby it again felt like I was doing it because I've read you should get hobbies not because I was actually interested in said hobby. There was some interest that quickly went away.It's like I don't care about anything, I'm just too stuck feeling sorry and shit for myself and idk how to get unstuck. I've read so many self help articles and nothing helpedMaybe I should try therapy but I feel like that might be a waste of my time and money
knowing there is no way out except suicide but dragging the years out as i watch everyone i love surpass me in every way imaginable while i get worse and feel more and more humiliated
>>41238473>Whenever I tried to change something it always felt like I'm pretending to be betterAfter years of consciously and unconsciously policing yourself, it seems to be the normal reaction of many with dysphoria to feel they're faking it or pretending it. Mix in some autistic black-and-white binary thinking (interpreting gradual changes as fraudulent, to trying to shove everything into trans vs not trans boxes due to autistic desire for rigid definitions). Your mind is focused on repressing and self-preservation. You're suffering and don't have the capacity to socialize like you think you should, you're not a bad person because of that. Having masked so long, no doubt any authenticity feels like a costume now.Discomfort doesn't mean fraudulence or pretending. Pretending implies deception, you're describing authentic experimentation, very real. >Idk maybe all men feel this wayCis men aren't thinking about their dysphoria at all, anon. Ever call a cis man by a female name? They don't like it. Does any part of you light up when you get called a womans name? That was one amongst many signs for me.>hobbiesHard to have fun and envision yourself in a hobby and when you are having trouble envisioning who you are to begin with desu. Normal symptom of dysphoria in terms of how it manifests in life.Unironically, this is all dysphoria, anon. Don't rush to labels or conclusions though. Please try a therapist, imo. Work through these feelings, experiment. It doesn't mean you are 100% trans or 100% cis, but you clearly have some unresolved thoughts about your life and identity to work through, and you deserve to ask these questions. Regardless of where it leads you, it's not wrong to ask questions and experiment. If the truth is scary, that's probably an indication again that you're not 'pretending' anything.
i have a friend who is a passoid, i had a friend who killed themselves because they'd never passlife is just getting lucky and if not you just sit in hell forever while people standing on top tell you you can get out of it if you just endure more hell
I hate being an ugly moid so much
>>41224796Thoughts started at 5. So, 17 years - ∞
what are you guys reading? ive been meaning to finish picrel for a bit now but never did. the plot is pretty reppercoded from the few chapters i read already so it might be relatable
IWNBAWIWNBAWIWNBAWIWNBTTIWNBTTIWNBTTIWABAMIWABAMIWABAM
>>41222763Does anyone else think the way the trans people on this board talk is more human than trans people on other sites? I used to be very transphobic because interacting with trans people on other sites they are very wokescoldy and performative but being here made me realize you guys are just chill normal people.I don't even mean they're performative on purpose, it's something I can't describe. Wokescoldy gets close though.
>>41238896IM KILLING MYSELF FUUUUUUUCK>>412326
>>41232631I wish I was trutrans
>>41239365i wish i was a woman dont care about le trutrans. pointless
>>41239347obnoxiously illustrious? if you're talking about the ones that never shut up about being trans and love being visibly an "other". there's also the types that are just really fucking annoying because everything is valid or whatever. troons probably wouldn't be struggling so much socially in the 21st century if it weren't for these types btw
i want to die, i am miserable every day
>>41239437>troons probably wouldn't be struggling so much socially in the 21st century if it weren't for these types btwi dont think they make much difference desu. abrahamism and toxic masculinity are main drivers of troon hate
>>41239437No I was surprisingly neutral about those types of cringe trans people because I understood that they were a fundamentally different type of person and even though I couldn't understand why someone would act like that I knew I should just ignore it. I'm talking about even "normal" trans people on other websites. It might have something to do with soft condescension (the way they condescendingly and incorrectly explain transness to you without understanding it themselves) (most trans people do not understand the genetic and hormonal mechanics of being trans enough to explain it so they just come across as pseuds) and also the kinds of experiences they share and think are bad. For example, a reddit or twitter tranny might cry about being misgendered at work, and even though being misgendered is annoying it's a very superficial "bad experience" compared to what the people here cry about. 4chan transgenders cry about never getting to live a normal life, be a mother, have a loving boyfriend and start a family, existential problems, etc. You express pain in a more relatable way and about relatable problems
>>41239525>i dont think they make much difference desu. abrahamism and toxic masculinity are main drivers of troon hatei mean yeah, but those types just make the hate 10x easier to feel justified because they've become stereotypes. if all trannies were mostly well adjusted and looked good, they wouldn't suffer as much because politicians and the public wouldn't have as strong of a strawman to paint them as.>>41239558>For example, a reddit or twitter tranny might cry about being misgendered at work, and even though being misgendered is annoying it's a very superficial "bad experience" compared to what the people here cry about.oh i got it. would you consider them to be too soft for the real world? i think it's just the nature of modern LGBT ideology. everyone is valid, so you do not need to improve yourself or toughen yourself up in any way.like, the average tranny's life is going to suck, you need to be prepared for it. but places with actual freedom of expression are niche and shunned, so any movement that deals with hard truths in outside of those enviroments (modern social media) cannot develop properly, becoming flanderized over time.these ideas have contaminated even the real world now, you couldn't say half the shit i say to anybody in this site, otherwise you'd be kicked out for being too negative or "internally transphobic".
>>41239507sex with larry
>>41239942dubs and larry turns into Lara
>>41240264dubs and you become hsts mentally sound passoid
i've been hrt repping for 10 months. 10 successful months of not trooning. can't believe it will soon be 1 year
>>41240525this man has fat breasts and curvy hips
>>41240264Dubs and you leave Poland, we rescue Larry, and all form a polycule in another country.
>>41241037sex with larry and schizo and babydollanon
>>41241037haha would be great
>>41234562
>>41232776just like my doujin plots
>>41241475if setting is past or low fantasy add orchie on opium, tweezers and horse piss. and cute liturgic frocks.
>>41240570reali tried to hrt rep, now im literally a guy with boobslike seriously, i dont look any different other than thati fucked up.and even if i did look better, its not like i would ever not feel like a man, id be like "holy fuck i did this to myself, wtf have i done" all the time.so ridiculous, im the most absurd person alive i feel like
>>41241497As god intended.
>>41241513o fuu, link please :)
>>41241151>No dubsIt's over>>41241359>No dubsIt's overRolling, Inshallah
>>41241619https://exhentai.org/g/1307106/33755742df/
>>41241647thanks!
>>41241504same, but it's not so bad because I think I'd be aroace as long as I'm not a woman
this is really getting to be too much
>>41242095shhh it'll be better soon
>>41242148howwhen
i want to join the transbian cuddle pile
>>41241647uh link doesnt work somehow, not even copypastaed
>>41242191same, I wish I joined I polycule when I was trans or something... make the most of it before I gave up
>>41242191DON"T imagine the smell!!!!!!!!
>>41242202they have more fun in a day than i do in like 2 years, like yeah they are probably all insane but isnt that fun, isnt that exciting. i want to feel something
>>41222763I just need to dieit sucks that my only emotional support tis this dumbass 4chan thread
repgen polycule cuddle pile when
how the fuck do i shave properly againdo i do different bodyparts on different days or something else, because i took like 30 minutes just doing my legs (shitty job too). doing all at once would take hours every single day.
>>41242341you don't... Women shave because their growth cycles are longer, the hair finer, etc epilate as a man and ideally take hrt
>>41242376oh yeah that makes sense, i was wondering how the fuck they do it every day, assuming their body hair grew as fast as mine.>take hrtim afraid its already too late for that, my ribcage and shoulders are actually massive when compared to the rest of my body. guess ill just start buddhamaxxing in hopes of leaving samsara in this life.
>>41242413I just mean if you insist on hair removal. You could take dutasteride or another DHT blocker though? That will probably slow body hair
>>41242452yeah that's probably a good idea. im just kinda against hrt because at that point i might as well just troon out already
oddly shaving legs with shaver is kind of relaxing, meditative almost you gotta do it everyday to not havr oricky icky stubble, especially bad with skinny jeans.
>>41242194https://e-hentai.org/g/1307106/33755742df/
if you think about it, reppers are one of the only people that can say "nobody gets me!" as teenagers and actually be right
>>41242587ooh this works thanks much
