i really really wish i transitioned earlier

me too, nona :(

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currently reading kagurabachi.

>>41485726
i’ve been considering getting into it, but i’ve never really been one for traditional battle shonen. is the writing really good? are there any other hooks? or is it mostly just a well done, but fairly by the numbers shonen

>>41485737
art style is on point. who doesn't love a revenge story? plot premise: japan was at war until one swordsmith forged seven magical swords that were able to change the tide and win them the war. after the war was over he recollected his swords so that they might not be used to ill-ends. he taught his son his craft. when the son was finally able to craft his own, a group of sorcerors arrived. they killed his father and took the seven swords. equipped with the eighth the son seeks to retrieve his father's swords and take revenge on the gang that killed his father.

coal

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so basically i have GOT to fucking kill myself

>>41485881
what manga is this? it looks vaguely familiar, so maybe i know the mangaka for other work

im so male

>>41485933
ahaha

i can never hope to look any more feminine than a faggy man, which isn’t even advantageous because i don’t even like men

>>41485947
i hate you

i was supposed to be a youngshit

i like when passoids mock me for being a disgusting male

>>41485949
looking faggy isn't a thing, it's the way you act

>>41486010
LOL

>>41486019
shut up

>>41486010
this

>>41485881
ARRGHHHHHHH PAINNNNMMN

HATE

i am too stupid to transition

another day begging him for crumbs of attention while we send each other nudes
again

another day dropping further back into self-isolation and being filled with HATE

>>41486542
ahaha

it's out of my hands (I'm only a clock)

>>41486542
ain't no hate like a catholic's love

finished

dubs and I post ass

dubs and i post tummy

dubs and drop the charges

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>>41486666

>>41486666
not funny + didn't laugh

is anyone else really afraid of standing out at all?
someone said something bad about my clothing the other day and I stopped wearing it

>>41486666
methy spared!!

>>41486726
the nail that sticks out gets hammered.

>>41485695
chainsaw man!!!! i love chainsaw man so much :) nice cookies op i hope they were tasty
just finished watching jjk and started watching watamote. gonna read jjk next.

>>41486808
I guess it's just like a social mechanism to keep the weirdos like us normal

>>41486726
i've been scared of not being invisible my whole life. i remember panicking when a teacher i'd never had at school but had seen around for years called me by name

i'd bet it's a common repper/manmoder issue. we're terrified of being public freaks less because of specific dangers and more because it's frightening in itself

>>41485695
>qott
Hidamari Sketch is the only good anime
i do be reading a lot of manga tho

>>41486839
>we're terrified of being public freaks less because of specific dangers and more because it's frightening in itself
I've had people straight up threaten to beat my ass or kill me just for existing in public

>>41486839
I hate stuff like that too, I don't want anyone to remember or to know me
I was bullied a lot in school but now it's permanent because of my body and everything

>>41486851
yeah ok tbf i'm white in a city in england, shouldve thought twice about that generalisation

looking at some old pics when I had long hair and my thinning hair was extremely obvious and others even talked about it
I started hrt at 19 though that makes me a fakemoder even if I have very thin hair

>>41486839
>we

>>41486839
that's called paranoia. it's schizoid. you see people in their pajamas walking around because no one really gives af.

sobbing in bed instead of working award
time to ramp up that day drinking habit

>>41486986
>it's paranoia even though your fear is rational

>>41487008
is it rational or is it driven by media you consume blowing things out of proportion? many of you are not the pariahs you wish you were.

>>41487046
people don't hate me for being trans because they don't know I'm trans
people hate me for being me and for being a cheap and risk free source of entertainment whenever they want to put someone down

>>41487061
to be fair, i'm a pretty shitty person.

>>41487046
stop trying to gaslight people

>>41487061
meds :3

>>41486823
they were great! they were from a christmas party like 3 years ago, though lol

>>41487076
thats awesome!! i get to see the reze arc movie today and read a new chapter tomorrow… life is good

anime is for children

i don't like bluey

>>41487074
am i gaslighting them? i think you're equally as brainwormed as them.

>>41487162
thought it would get us the second time, nona?

>>41487187
?

>>41487192
bait used to be believable bud

how do I get my brain to stop trying to rationalize unforgivable acts

>>41487204
meds

>>41487211
by cutting a bit

i kinda malefailed! i was behind this woman with a big order at the grocery store, and she said to the cashier “this poor girl behind me only has 2 things”. i guess this means i graduate to bmg. i love you all and will miss you. maybe i’ll check back in for romance updates
>>41487093
have fun !! i saw the reze movie on saturday and it absolutely ruled

>>41487320
thank you!! its definitely one of my favorite parts of the manga between that and international assassins. im cosplaying aki because i have the clothes in my closet lol

>>41487211
there's nothing you can do that God can't forgive

>>41487355
lol yeah, chainsaw man character cosplays are kinda easy that way

despair

reached auntie status award

>>41487607
auntie + chopped

life begins at 37

just found out im chopped and 'unt

when does auntie age start

>>41487872
pack it up at 22 your life is over

>>41487872
25

>>41487880
stop with the demoralization. it doesnt end till 23

you can lead a happy and fulfilling life as an auntie

speaking of, whatever happened to dakota

>>41488291
on libpol

fartpol

>41484960
this album sucks dog ass

>>41488538
fuck you

that's it
i'm gonna rape all of you

>>41488300
why can't I post there

>>41487376
fuck your god I meant something someone else did to me

>>41487256
kys

>>41485695
I’m a fetishist manmoder but I keep it to myself and never crossdress or do stuff like that
Real trans women instantly clock me and start laughing at my pathetic attempts at being a human like them
Oh well

i should die for not passing and having bad fat distribution and being a dht mutant and being a coward and gay desu

it’s not even hyperbole or a joke how much of a testosteronized gorilla i was pre hrt i don’t know what i was expecting getting on it DESU

just remember that you are intrisically worthless as a nonpassing trannoid

i pass as a woman because i am a woman

>>41488762
how could i ever forget

>>41488750
correct

>>41488762
nah that's gay

>>41488801
trvke

MEF induced psychosis

psychosis induced injury

kisses u

today's a great day to quit my job and ghost everyone

>>41489045
based

>>41489045
don’t do that

>>41489056
they don't value me
nobody does or ever has

>>41489063
why?

>>41489072
you’ll end up a loser bum like i am

your skin and bones
turning into something beautiful
>>41489045
you'll want money for the legal costs, right?
and also for the medical bills for your permanent ear injury
that leech has drained your finances enough
don't let your lying ex manipulate you into losing your job and friends, too
he never cared about you
so why should you destroy yourself over him?
he's probably already chumming it up with his next victim and isn't losing any sleep over you
why should you be the one to suffer when you're the one in the right?

>>41489064
it's true. these people just suppress you and devour everything you give to them. you need to love yourself and stop giving yourself to others. don't quit your job. just take it easy, collect the money, and do the bare minimum. it isn't volunteer work. you don't have to love your job. hate your job. just make sure they don't have enough evidence to fire you and milk it for what you can while looking for a better job. fuck all the fake people who lied to you, manipulated you, and used you. you owe them nothing.

>>41489064
maybe they don't value you but they clearly value your labor. they need you more than you need them. you're intelligent and capable. why give up now? all you've lost is another roadblock standing in between you and your real goals

you need to love yourself
so fuck everyone and everything else
if you don't love yourself
people will see that
and when they smell the blood
the sharks will eat you up
and they will bully you until you die
when people see someone with low self-esteem
they take advantage of that
they give you little crumbs of fake validation
and you trade everything you have in return for those crumbs
don't let these sick demons trick you
if you serve """"""""""love"""""""""" for crumbs then you serve the Devil

>>41487211
never forgive them for abusing you
that's what abusers do
try to convince you that you're the perpetrator
and blame you for everything
when really you gave everything
financially
physically
your time, your effort
and got crumbs in return
he thinks you're just a crumb and that's why he likes to fuck with you
he's probably laughing at you right now, that fucking psychopath
don't quit your job
keep your resources and friends
make him pay for what he did to you
never forgive
never forget
make him expect you
expose him as the predator he is

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make sure to take pictures of that ear injury to document what he did to you. and don't delete the old texts. they're evidence of how he lied to you and never fucking listened. as if simply remembering the things you said to him was too much to ask

download that recording. that's also evidence of how he was lying to you and spying on you. make sure to play it in court to show how he violated your privacy. you should publicly shame him for what he did and tell your friends what happened so they can support you. look out for any property he might've stolen. you might be able to use that to press charges, too. don't let alcohol distract you. drugs and alcohol are what turned him into the monster he is. never let yourself become like him. you are so much better than that. he is violent and dangerous and you should prepare to defend yourself against him. make sure to carry a loaded gun on your person at all times legally permissible in case you have to shoot him. if the police haven't found him yet, then he could be anywhere. he isn't suicidal or he would've killed himself already. don't fall for his lies. he definitely tried to kill you and maybe he's still coming for you. tell your friends that so they know to protect you from him. tell all your friends about your abusive ex who secretly recorded your private conversations without your knowledge or consent and permanently injured you

you braved treacherous streets
and that kid strung out on homemade speed
and you shared a bed in which you could not sleep at all
you're so cute when you're slurring your speech
but they're closing the bar and they want you to leave

methy don't wanna go to school no more
methy said books ain't cool no more

he was way belligerent and drunk
talking out his mind
i can't sugarcoat the answer for you, this is how i feel
if somebody grabbed my gun, that means somebody's getting killed

mustard reference

these people giving chudette advice are more annoying than chudette and methy fighting here

first thing they teach you is not to give a fuck
that type of thinking can't get you nowhere
someone has to care
and i swear it isn't fair

you can't find nothing at all
when there was nothing there all along
>>41489415
that isn't a person giving advice
that's methy continuing to harass and bully his ex because he is abusive
don't you get it?
he's a motherfucking monster

>>41489415
probably just methy using it as an opportunity to self-flagellate harder

I'd rather cut my own throat before suffering loss
I have anger in me
I murder everything
I'm a monster
methy ruin your life

>>41489440
fucking kill yourself you stupid bitch
i am a rapist i smell women without asking for consent while they are asleep in bed i climb in through their windows and rape them in the mouth while their parents are asleep
i am the monster that goes bump in the night
am mentally iller than a serial killer?

whya re all the medical professionals in my life stalling my ability to get ffs is it that obvious it’s a bad idea?

you dont need it try a clavicle reduction

>he's probably already chumming it up with his next victim and isn't losing any sleep over you
>he's probably laughing at you right now
true
but it's all irrelevant, nobody has or will ever love me and I don't have it in me to try and prove to anyone that they should or go through the recovery process again, so I can at least self-destruct in comfort

I'll just pop myself when I run out of money to spend or borrow

>>41489485
i hired demons and hexed you cause i was jelly

>>41489492
my shoulders are my only feminine feature

you know that methyy been nice
he ain’t gonna take all of your skin, just a thin slice
methy should join Bin Laden, Taliban, Hamas, and Al-Qaeda
you snitch cop lover

where can I vent about being a man

>>41489503
exactly you need to minmax

>>41489516
in hell

>>41489516
this IS the place but (((they))) don’t like it
do it anyways obviously

>>41489493
>they should or go through the recovery process again
who?
recovery from what?
>i'll just pop myself
ladies, first
real manmoders never kill themselves until they have killed at least two other people
two for one? that's a good deal. you check the math

why is the wife beater spamming

im sucb an ugly man
u im such an ggly man
g im such an lgly man
l im such an ygly man
y im such an mgly man
m im such an agly man
a im such an ngly man
n

>>41489583
>iuglyman
that's beautiful, anon

>>41489573
because he is beating his wife spiritually through the cloud with demonic force while smiling and laughing like a psychopath because he loves no one but Satan and pain and his own stinking AIDS-infected faggot cock

>>41489595
harhar you have a poopy dick

>>41489583
that's true
you should give up all hope and start smoking meth and having sex with strangers
you will never be a real woman and will never be loved every day you get uglier and will die alone

>>41489602
that’s true
i should give up all hope and start smoking meth and having sex with strangers
i will never be a real woman and will never be loved every day i get uglier and will die alone

>>41489600
dog diarrhea on my dick
lick it off you stupid bitch
i used to love the human race
'til one human ruined it

im literally a fetish
im not even real human
if I was id BE HAPPY as a tranny
ergo im not trans just hrt cis male
not a woman
im just a loser who will die alone
im happiest pretending im a real man with people
suicide

>>41489608
that's true
you should give up all hope and start smoking meth and having sex with me
you will never be a real woman and will never be loved every day you get uglier and will die alone

I hate being 6'2

>>41489615
you are literally my fetish
you are not even human to me
if you were you would have feelings
but you don't, which is why it is perfectly acceptable to beat you
ergo you are a natural slave and i can take what i want from you
you are just a loser who will die from blood loss after being gang raped by transgender immigrant gang-affiliated Black Muslim terrorist drag queens
i am going to fly a paper airplane into the Pentagon
you would be happier smoking meth with a BBC down your throat
homicide

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im an ugly gay man with a scowl on his face!

still cleaning blood out of my ear
even now he just wants to fuck with me and hurt me more
lol

>>41489533
>recovery from what?
rejection
having my petty desperate illusion of reciprocity flash incinerated
being lied to and manipulated then attacked after emotionally and physically overextending myself to take care of someone and being human
keep having nightmares about it and how it could have gone then waking up sobbing missing the good times but it hurts worse to know it wasn't real, just someone deeply sick and so caught up in their own fears and delusions that they couldn't care about or be honest with someone who gave them all the love and support they could manage even through some really fucked circumstances


I never take it well when I find out someone I fall for who leads me on and says "I love you" never did and I think three is my lifetime limit, like I'm out I'm done I'm spent I've got nothing left

>>41489635
you love being big and tall and having a deep voice so that you can yell at little boys and rape them that's why you AI-generate borderline lolisho hentai which I will be forwarding to the police so they know to arrest you for thoughtcrime

>>41489503
same. 17.5 inch bideltoid at 5’11 puts me smack in the middle of the female range of that scatter plot. unfortunately it also makes my skull look even bigger

>>41489663
I don't do those things, I just really hate being tall
I'm a monster

uma thurman is like 6'1

>>41489683
she's so based I wish I could be a cool freaky ethereal woman like uma thurman or tilda swinton

jesus i look so fucking ugly what’s the point

>>41489658
name two ways in which methy actually lied to or misled you
what happens in the nightmare?
have you gone to a clinic or tried seeking any kind of medical treatment? you might be able to get a doctor's note detailing how bad the injury is so you know what damages to seek in the lawsuit.

bruh theres no fucking way its still bleeding after 3 days
take some iron pussy

>>41489694
shut up

>>41489663
schizo who thinks every reply is from methy

>>41489674
how are you a monster? you're the victim and that abuser is gaslighting you into believing you're a monster
>>41489693
jesus isn't real and you probably look better than the average trans woman of your race, height, and age

>>41489688
yes tilda swinton is the best

>>41489711
Retard

Yeah, I’ll stick a knife in your esophagus queer
I’m an animal, every rhyme will demolish you queers

>>41489711
I'm not chudette I'm sorry

>>41489694
literally admitted to several things in the last thread or two
people die shit happens doesn't matter
and I'm going to see my piercer when I can work up the nerve to deal with the obvious questions and decide whether or not I need to remove it and whether or not I can ever have any other piercings in the area as well as what I need to do to heal it, or I might just ignore it and hope for the best since I'm probably done with life in general anyway

>>41489700
I was punched directly across the surface area of an industrial in my left ear

>>41489683
Unlike her I didn't go through female puberty

is sigourney weaver a cishon

>>41489816
goals

>>41489648
yeah prolly

>>41489397
methy wasn't even drunk, I sure was because I always am and I'd worked a long week and been up since early in the morning and dealing with some kind of hormonal mood swings which was probably why I was even able to express any kind of criticism and be a little grumpy in my tone or whatever it was that set him off and why I yelled after the 5th+ time repeating that I wasn't mad in response to yet another "but you [did/said/looked/breathed/I imagined] something that made me afraid you are mad!" while trying to cook us a nice dinner specifically because it was what he liked and we had talked about having that stupid fucking salad (it was delicious btw you missed out you horrible little thing) with it and already hashed out a plan for timing several times

>>41489808
you're going through it now retard

>>41489919
no?

>>41489929
then take your hrt you ugly retard

>>41489941
no.

>>41489919
this is kind of real but it's like layered on top of all the irreversible damage (get it?) from male puberty and after you've already been established sociologically and psychologically as a moid so it sucks harder

>>41489941
doesn't even work like that

>>41489959
>>41489971
forgot this is a repgen 2.0

>>41489991
it's not, I'm not saying that to doom I'm just saying it sucks and you have to cope with it
I accepted that before I started HRT and I still think it was the right thing to do because repression doesn't work it only makes things worse

>>41489991
how many times do we have to tell you

>>41489910
man screaming insults at me over an innocent question about a delicious salad sure reassures me that you aren't mad and don't hate me
i must be a horrible abuser because i hit someone who was screaming insults at me over food i made for them
just like i am for hitting the meth head who screamed insults at me because i bought her the wrong flavor of ice cream
>after the 5th+ time repeating that I wasn't mad
you were mad. i asked if i should put the salad in the fridge and instead of answering the question you told me you already said so five times or something idk

i see bdd boymoders on twitter crying about not passing and they're all 19 or 20
i'm almost 24 and i'm just a straight up man after 2 years of hrt. its beyond over, idk why i hold on to any hope

>>41490038
every time I said I was not mad I was not mad at the time, I didn't scream anything insulting at you about the salad, and you are actually a horrible abuser
why are you bothering to try and "correct the record" over such minute things when you can't be bothered to pay attention to any details and have made it clear you never cared? like it's over, why keep pretending? you're the one who fucking hates me and probably did from the start, I don't know why but it's like your fear and hate just matter to you so much more than anyone or anything real ever could

it doesn't matter anyway I'm done I've given up on everything you can "win" and fuck off you fucking psycho

>>41489919
Nope
It's nothing like real women go through
If I was on HRT before puberty I would've been short

i am agp

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I am AGAMP

>>41490160
add ear blood

>>41490160
who asked?

>>41490160
you know what i'm actually agamp too

agamp seems like a way better deal than agp

>>41490160
i am sometimes agamp but the "why want a dick a vagina is better" brainworms take me out of it

>>41490196
this is why having both is the superior option for the agamp of refined taste

if you get your balls cut out does the sack shrink

I hate my penis and how male having it makes me feel
I'm tempted to start tucking even in manmode

>>41490223
can you explain tucking to me
how do you get your balls inside your body

>>41490206
sometimes i think just having a vagina is the superior option
idrc i just want to not be indecisive. if i could like my dick 100% of the time i'd take it

I go out with my gock untucked and my tits visible as a manmoder just to destroy your optics

>>41490236
it never just happens to you sometimes? go look up the inguinal canal

>>41490247
no absolutely not. that sounds painful and if it happened accidentally i wouldn't know how to get them back out.

>>41490236
you push your testicles into the inguinal canals, which is where they are connected to the rest of your body via the spermatic cords

i would love just feeling like a hot futa goddess all the time but i have too many hangups about my cock

>>41490079
idk i never hated you until you started doing everything you could to hurt me including yelling at me and insulting me and basically driving me to suicide and even when i left i was getting phonecalls from the cops and had to wander aroudn portland carrying everything i own onn my back because the cops were at my house and i was afraid to go in

you try to justify your cruelty because i asked if you were mad but
(a) you were clearly mad. you can reach up for the olive oil. i can't. you can forget things (you gave the cops my wrong home address initially) but i can't. you can ignore me when i talk by just silently glaring at me but i can't. how is this sanity. how am i abusive when you were the one disrespecting me by screaming at me over the phone saying "YOU FUCKED WIT ME" from the start.

>>41490264
it's not painful but they can get twisted or tangled if you're not careful, and that can be painful, plus I've heard it's not good for you in the long term... I tucked more pre-HRT just because my balls were so fucking massive and in the way they bothered me in a tactile way with their random trajectories as I walked or moved around but now they're smaller and kind of self-tuck closer up to the abdomen so I mind them like 90% less

>>41490265
yeah but like how do i do it

hello?
:(

>>41490293
deserved

>>41490297
can you do it for me to show me how

>i screamed at a mentally ill person for months until they finally hit me once
>this proves i am a victim
>i freely gave an unemployed loser gifts they didn't explicitly ask for
>this proves they are a leech and manipulative
>omg someone attempted suicide with the loaded firearm i keep within arms reach at all times
>maybe they were actually trying to kill me and i am the victim here
>omg i feel so insecure about my body because you won't have anal sex with me tonight you transphobe
>better post pre-transition pics and misgender you to prove i am wooke
all for the crime of forgetting things you said and asking you questions because sometimes i forget things

kill bill 2 is kinda ass ngl
the only good part about it is elle driver

>STILL literally just lying and making shit up while omitting key details
I did everything I could to pull you out of your perpetual fucking nosedive and ran out of patience when YOU let your LITERAL FUCKING HALLUCINATIONS override reality and what I said to you and meant
you DID FUCK WITH ME and you DID IT DELIBERATELY because you are so fucking BROKEN
get help, or not, I don't care it doesn't matter anymore you already ruined my life and I have given up

and you are a leech not because of anything material but because you never even TRIED to reciprocate emotionally or communicatively let alone take advantage of the support, encouragement, and outright requests to take steps to become more materially independent

you ruined my fucking life

to be fair it was already hanging by a thread and I was only turning it around out of force of habit anyway but it's like you showed up and hurt me in just the right ways at the wrong time to set me back again and prove that I'll never actually be able to connect with anyone and nobody will ever love me

thanks, asshole

>>41490351
no taste its so much better than 1

>>41490302
i never gave you a gift and got mad when you accepted it
i never yelled at you over the phone
i never treated you ways in private i wouldn't in public
i never got mad at you for doing other things and spending time with other people
i never demanded when you arrive and when you leave
i never needed updates on your plans and locations days in advance
i never belittle you and acted like you were too woke for having suicidal thoughts
i only hit grown adults who talk shit to my face and insult me and call me names and don't stop when i ask them to
what's wrong with asking if you are mad?
>should i put the salad in the fridge
>well maybe you'd know if you listened
>are you mad at me
>i am not mad at you
>okay are you annoyed then? if mad is the wrong word? and should i put the salad in the fridge or not?
>YOU FUCKED WIT ME YOU LIDDLE SHIT

>>41490383
actual schizo shit

getting strung along by people is all I'm good for anyway, at once too cynical and too naive for this world in any capacity, thanks for demonstrating that again!
telling my contract hiring manager with their shitty anti-trans "insurance" scam to go fuck themselves and drinking myself to death lol

>>41490367
>prove that I'll never actually be able to connect with anyone and nobody will ever love me
idk maybe if you repeatedly snap and scream at people over nothing and destroy their things and keep trying to get them to move in and get mad when they leave only to suddenly kick them out and destroy their shit idk
never had this problem with anyone else btw
not even my dad is as mean to me as you are
not even when he's drunk
i haven't had teachers yell "LISTEN TO ME YOU LITTLE SHIT" time after time. because they would be fired. how can you say i'm the one who isn't loving when you're the one seeking maximum legal damages?? over being hit once after LITERALLY fucking with me intentionally. i didn't insult you at all i just quoted mean things you'd said to me minutes before to point out how cruel you were being. but each time i call you out for your verbal abuse you just get angrier and angrier. no wonder i wanted to kill myself. living with you is hell every other friday. and it's literally a pattern. about every 14 days. almost always a thursday or friday

must be drunk sick again never wanting to interact with the kawaii style manmoders (passing as girls) :/
>>41490236
eh for me it's easy i mean i got tiny balls and p33n as i was never [a hot] man, but like push the balls into the convenient receptor holes, and push the disgusting peen into itself like the disgusting teescopining thing it is?!?

or don't as i'm suffering af bet tucking didn't do sht but(t) my genitals never brought me delight,just severe suffering, and while i've tried to accept it i'm stil not a masochist (purey)

>>41490426
well I've never had any of these problems with anyone else, either, even with the most volatile of bpdemon bullshit
you are uniquely destructive and can't stop lying, you never loved me, you never cared

thinking about the single friend i had in middle school who used to come by during lunch to hang out and like the stupid troon freak i am i felt kinda annoyed because i didnt want him to make me seem off-putting to the girls in my fully female class
im such a faggot. i miss him
at least i didnt actually avoid hanging out with him but even just thinking that is grounds for my beheading

entitled fucking chld

hey methy what's your game plan for prison? are you gonna join a gang or find someone to make you their bitch?

>be twelve years older than someone
>be eight inches taller
>be like fifty pounds heavier
>scream at them
>call them names
>destroy their shit
>kick them out
>repeat
>months in, they hit me once
>it hurts, but not enough for me to call the ambulance or anything
>OMG I AM AN ABUSE VICTIM YOU BELONG IN PRISON
>they start cutting themself
>OMG YOU ARE ARMED AND DANGEROUS POLICE SEND EVERYONE TO THEIR HOME ADDRESS BECAUSE I WANT THEM TO LEAVE AND GO HOME BUT ALSO FOR THE COPS TO PREVENT THEM FROM GOING HOME
>TIME TO POST ABOUT THEM ONLINE
>HOW DARE YOU RESPOND YOU'RE BEING ABUSIVE
>OMG YOU TOOK A RECORDING OF ME SCREAMING AT AND INTIMIDATING YOU
do you forget the time you literally backed me in the corner and like (taking sick pleasure in what you were doing) alright kid... we're going to make this easy... you're gonna leave RIGHT FUCKING NOW
and then destroy what i leave behind? how can you not see that the degree of my mental illness, lashing out, or walking on eggshells, even hiding things from you like my suicidal tendencies is a DIRECT RESULT of how you've been treating me for MONTHS. even the first time we broke up you later admitted you were still mad at me over previous arguments. and what was an argument? i was telling a story about an ex then stopped. i can't hide ANYTHING from you without being accused of lying. i can't have any privacy. i can't refuse to answer a question, even a loaded question like "why are you ignoring me" or "why you lie" or "why don't you care" without you saying stuff like "you didn't answer the question because you don't care and are ignoring me"
for fuck's sake, can you not see how insane you are? try explaining to a single one of your friends how you are a victim because you cussed me out until i hit you. you claim to be a 36 year old man but you act like a racist white woman calling the cops because your house slave is acting up by "NOT LISTENING THAT LITTLE SHIT"

>>41490496
youre like the dumbest person in the world for continuing to argue about this

>I"M SORRY FOR YELLING
>are you gonna break up with me
>I WASN"T BUT NOW THAT YOU ASKED I AM
>stop yelling it's mean
>THAT"S NOT MEAN THIS IS MEAN FUCK YOU YOU LITTLE SHIT
>*hits you once not even that hard*
>OMG I AM SCARRED FOR LIFE SOMEONE GIVE ME A MILLION DOLLARS THIS NIGGER BELONGS IN PRISON
fuck you. you're the one who never loved me and repeatedly forced me to apologize to you for "not listening", thereby justifying the reason you use to yell at and verbally abuse me for not perfectly executing your every asinine instruction

>make shit up loosely based on a fox news style summary of what happened replete with literal hallucination and delusion
>omit key events like me begging you to stop or asking direct explicit questions or offering to do anything for your comfort
>cry about it and pretend to be the victim of the big scary rapehon you clearly despise and never had any interest in
>construct a bizarre fantasy about some imagined power imbalance when you walked all over me
>when you stepped into my life and ruined any fucking peace I had
>when you verbally and emotionally abused me first
>when you fucking hit me
lol
you're a monster

>>41485695
QOTT Cheeky angel ;D

>>41490531
You nasty rat
How can u even think to hit someone let alone your partner who u are supposed to love
U have extreme issues nigger and don’t deserve a relationship due to being abusive
Kys

>*hits you once not even that hard*
this is so fucking deranged he actually thinks it was okay and he was in the right, he's not even sorry

i have information that will lead to the arrest of methy

>>41490556
why would you as a big hon ever yell at someone smaller and weaker than you?

>>41490650
have you learned your lesson about dating zoomers

I think abusing your gf is bad

>>41490556
>>omit key events like me begging you to stop
then i left the room and sat on the couch and you followed me in eventually and started yelling at me again
> asking direct explicit questions
usually weird sarcastic shit like "why don't you listen" and "why are you fucking with me" and "i just wanted you to coordinate with me on the fish why don't you remember the time" instead of, like, actually telling me the time
>you clearly despise and never had any interest in
you're the one calling the cops and yelling at me and encouraging me to commit suicide and then supplying me with the means after i repeatedly asked about getting a gun safe and you dismissed it as me being woke and testing you and pushing your buttons and fucking with you or whatever
>you verbally and emotionally abused me first
how
>you fucking hit me
those were fighting words you sissy faggot. how can you call yourself a man and not understand you can't just endlessly call people names
>>41490604
i would beat the fuck out of you you nasty bitch. you all deserve violence for the way you treat me. fuck all of you sick demons

>>41490680
do you mean abuse like punching them in the ear or do you mean abuse like when you're in your 30s and a normal height

>>41490690
One major difference between chudette and me is u would have left with a broken nose.

>>41490659
got a point fr

do you sick fuck really never hit someone if they scream and yell at you over a fucking salad? it's just like the last time i bought someone ice cream and got yelled at over that. the more i try to please people the worse they treat me until i realize they're treating me like a slave and will do everything they can to punish me. that's why she was so mad over the screenshots. it exposed how insanely cruel she was
>>41490659
>>41490650
physical assault is when you slap a bitch for disrespecting you? really?
>>41490662
i'm going to kill all of you

>>41490690
direct questions like suggesting a plan and asking "is that okay"
I literally could not have been more supportive to you in person or otherwise and I asked you directly several times if you wanted me to not have it out and you admitted to lying directly and by omission, in this very thread and previous as well as in person
and "fuck you" is not fighting words WHY THE FUCK WOULD I EVER WANT TO FIGHT SOMEONE I AM NOT LIKE YOU I AM NOT A FUCKING BARBARIC PIECE OF SHIT WHO HAS NO REGARD FOR OTHERS AND THEIR PHYSICAL OR EMOTOINAL SAFETY

>>41490714
yeah because you're a piece of shit and deserve to die. imagine making fun of someone smaller than you just to bait them into finally standing up for themself only to get beat up by you. chudette must be more fembrained because she wants the cops to beat me up for her. stupid bitch

>>41490727
if i was chuddie i would have castle doctrined you. worthless aids riddled meth addict

>>41490727
what screenshots?

>>41490729
>i am gonna make the fish at a certain time
>is that okay
i said yes. i did not say "yes and i have memorized the time and will use it to calculate when you want the salad based on other inferences and you should yell at me and call me names for an hour if i forget"
you ARE treating me like a slave
>you didn't memorize the work plan and follow it?
>stop asking me questions slave, another verbal lashing
>HOW DARE YOU HIT BACK. POLICE. IMPRISON THIS SAVAGE BARBARIC SUBHUMAN CRIMINAL NIGGER

i am literaly a man
there is no female sou or essence in me
my peers see me as masculinity itself and a chadcel
im true male above all else
my trans friends tell me to girlmode so they can make fun of ym ugly skinnyfat body..
im a mistake
no
trooning is mistake for fetishists like me
im sorry

>i should subject this mentally ill kid to and endless torrent of abuse and then play victim when they finally break down

methy lost

>>41490727
you PUNCHED ME with a CLOSED FIST in the FUCKING SIDE OF THE HEAD and it was NOT OVER THE FUCKING SALAD I was yelling because you kept LITERALLY IGNORING WHAT I SAID and putting words in my mouth or denying that I mean what I said to instead run with your insane self-persecution complex and fearful obsession with being rejected that you turned it into a self-fulfilling prophecy
RIGHT WHERE I HAVE A PIERCING
YOU NEVER GAVE A SHIT ABOUT ME
YOU WERE NEVER HONEST
YOU NEVER LISTENED

>>41490762
I didn't ask you to calculate or infer anything I thought we both agreed on a very straightforward plan because you said yes including the stupid fucking salad you raging schizo piece of shit

you are dangerous and should not be around others
I'm going to talk with your family about this

>>41490740
I'd have been well within my rights but it seems like it was what he wanted, can't get the thought out of my head because I actually cared about this person and the idea of them being hurt and actively trying to hurt me and themselves is so fucked

>>41490737
If u wanted to stand up to him you should have read him and then spit on him and denied him sex for a week until he was begging for u to come back…. but instead u literally assaulted him kek
U cant physically assault people who make u feel bad or else u will get sued or put in jail….. better u learn this lesson young….

>>41490440
>any of these problems
what? your house nigger not remembering the exact time you wanted the fish? and actually getting mad eventually after being yelled at for the millionth time?
>you are uniquely destructive and can't stop lying
you destroyed my shit. name two lies i've told.

>>41490804
>assault is when you hit someone once therefore you belong in jail
i guess i've been assaulted numerous times then and i've never called the cops. if you talk shit you get hit. how hard is this to understand? pretty sure my mom or dad would hit me if i talked to them that way. and i would be wrong to call the cops on them. i'd certainly hit them if they talked to me that way. and you have to understand this was far from the first time.

>>41490843
You chose to be in that relationship and were free to leave anytime if u didnt like how he spoke to u… no hitting someone is not justified because they were mean
Funny though that he larps as anti police and then called them for help LMAO

fuck you all. you aren't west coast. you aren't men. you're pussies and snitches. you love cops and think a single hit is an assault. i've been choked half to death, my nipples twisted, and my ass slapped. i've had blood running down my face and dripping onto my jeans. and i never called the cops. because i am a man. not a bitch like you. fuck you. leave america

lock this lil methpedo nigga away

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>>41490786
>endless torrent of abuse
after being shit-tested so many times I do lose my patience and start yelling and insulting, I could work on that (and had been putting serious effort into it including getting professional help once I figured out my insurance) if I had a future or could imagine ever being involved with anyone ever again but that's out the window so it's whatever

>>41490816
scroll up
you lied when you said
>you loved me
>you cared about me
>you wouldn't lie to me
>you promised you would change
>you would stop dumping all our shit on 4chan
>you were listening to anything I said
>you weren't suicidal
>you were okay with anything from my gun being out to plans for when to eat

and yes I destroyed your shit after you left it here having already said a million times to throw it out or get rid of it directly in response to you here it is you petulant whiny brat you will never have any agency in this world because you refuse it at every turn even when presented with nothing but patience and compassion you fucking TURN on people

>>41490866
>>41490869
>schizo hits you and grabs your gun
>just walk it off bro it's cool
nah

I understand methy because eventually after being abused for so long you want to take revenge

>>41490882
I did not "abuse" him for "so long" I had a few outbursts after he kept spiraling and lashing out at me

>>41490881
>if I had a future or could imagine ever being involved with anyone ever again but that's out the window
do it for yourself nigga

>>41490896
nah I'm done lol

>>41490866
yeah i should've left i'm not saying hitting that motherfucker was the right choice i'm just saying y'all are insane for acting like you wouldn't do the same to someone talking that ungodly amount of shit. and acting as if i was ever a real threat to anyone beside myself is beyond insane. the only reason to call the cops over a fight you can win in an instant is because she want to continue torturing me after the breakup and playing the victim. i'm starting to think all the "bpd abusive exes" she had are actually victims of her endless torrent of verbal abuse

>>41490881
>just walk it off bro it's cool
When did i say this
U should have swung at him

>>41490904
enjoy the rest of your life as an insane bpd cunt

>>41490893
yelling at people all the time is not acceptable
you're just a bully mad and hurt that someone stood up for themselves

>>41490905
you PUNCHED ME IN THE HEAD and WENT FOR MY FUCKING GUN you absolute psycho
you are going to be locked up

>>41490916
well I didn't yell "all the time" either, I've never bullied anyone and my best to foster a sense of independence in this broken little thing because I made the mistake of caring but I let my emotionality get the better of me on rare occasions

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>>41490905
Yeah i agree calling the cops on a mentally ill kid isn’t great especially when it is out of anger and pain…. but i hope it makes u realize that there are consequences for violence even if it feels justified ;P

>>41490910
why? what would that have done? so low-minded

>>41490965
Um it is called standing up for yourself
Unless methie is telling the truth and u verbally abuse him so it was his way of defending himself

>>41490881
>after being shit-tested
name two shit tests
>you lied when you said you wouldn't lie to me
that's a weirdly circular idea. i lied because i lied?
>you were okay with anything from my gun being out
i made it clear i was uncomfortable with it on multiple occasions and every time you shot me down
>you promised you would change
you pressured me into promising i "would listen" and obviously that's an impossible standard to meet. sorry for not being the perfect slave or whatever the fuck it is you wanted me to change. remembering everything that happens all the time in the right order?
> presented with nothing but patience
patience is when i ask you to stop yelling and insulting me time and time again and you just keep going.
>you fucking TURN on people
no, you do. you call the cops on people who pose no real threat to you and lie to the cops that they do.
>schizo hits you and grabs your gun
yeah to kill myself because i'm mentally ill and you made me want to fucking kill myself the way you treated me that day. that's what i mean when i said i snapped. i wouldn't normally hit you but i was done with everything and genuinely wanted to shoot myself directly in the brain aiming the gun between my eyes. that was the plan. get it through your thick skull. it shouldn't take a genius to figure that out. the only reason i didn't shoot myself is you were on top of me so quickly i just let go of the gun to avoid shooting you in the struggle.
>you were listening to anything I said
here we go again with the "my slave didn't fucking LISTEN" shit. listen to anything you said? i fucking took notes, bitch. i probably remember the shit you say better than the the shit i say. do you think you're special? do you think i go out of my way to ignore you specifically? i have so much brain damage i don't know what day of the week it is half the time. what the fuck do you expect me to change? my IQ?
>you would stop dumping all our shit on 4chan
you were always the first to start

>>41490904
this is what i mean. you make every molehill into a mountain. that's BPD or something. i could ask if you're mad at me and you'll assume i'm "not listening" and "turning on you" and start screaming.
>>41490910
>U should have swung at him
literally this. this would be a normal thing for any west coast male. calling the cops on your bitchboy is not. how can you be a 36 year old man and afraid of your fuckbuddy?
>>41490919
to shoot myself. also, i would hit my own mother if she talked to me that way. thankfully, she doesn't because she isn't insane like you.
>>41490956
there are consequences for talking shit you stupid cunt. try not bullying people for once

>>41490983
liar
schizo
you never gave a SHIT about me

I literally provided other examples and so have you in this thread and the previous five, you did not make ANYTHING clear when I asked you DIRECTLY, you barely did SHIT around here and I was still nothing but fucking GRATEFUL because it mattered to me (you are not FIT to be a slave because you are so fucking scattered and lazy), you posed a real threat when you PUNCHED ME IN THE HEAD AND DOVE FOR MY FUCKING GUN, and YOU STARTED THE POSTING OF OUR PERSONAL SHIT ON 4CHAN EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU FUCKING LYING PIECE OF SHIT

if I made you want to kill yourself then WHY DIDN'T YOU EVER SAY ANYTHING and why did you fucking LIE I mean why did you even STAY?

>>41491022
>i would hit my own mother if she talked to me that way
yeah I'll bet you would you fucking monster you have been so fucking CODDLED by the people in your life you don't have any sense of self relative to others

salad appointment suicide

>>41490982
it's not defending myself. it's standing up for myself. i admit she didn't pose a real threat and i should've logically walked away. but, psychologically, i'm not going to walk away from someone screaming insults at me because i asked if they wanted some salad (thereby implying that i don't listen and don't care because they said they
A. were having the salad before the fish
B. they were havin the fish at 7:xx
meaning that i didn't remember the exact time and know that they didn't want to wait after the salad for the fish)
it's some real house nigger shit. also they way they call me a useless moocher after reassuring me numerous times in person i pull my weight. notice how i don't call them a liar over shit like that, though? people can change their minds and i don't fucking go insane over it. she can contradict herself totally but if i contradict myself even slightly she starts fucking screaming at me it's insane. if you treat me like your nigger i'll fucking hit you. fuck you all

>YOU STARTED THE POSTING OF OUR PERSONAL SHIT ON 4CHAN EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU FUCKING LYING PIECE OF SHIT
i know methys legal name and not chuddys soooo

>>41491070
I didn't post his (former) legal name I just posted a mug shot, and he did start it every time

From the outsider perspective it seems that the relationship is just toxic…. chudette gets offended by everything and lashes out verbally and meth schizo is too brain damage and bpd to understand why his actions could be perceived as bad… but they keep getting back together because the sex is too good … i wish they recorded and uploaded it i wanna watch :D

>>41491076
that doesnt make it better lmao

>>41491045
>you barely did SHIT around here and I was still nothing but fucking GRATEFUL because it mattered to me (you are not FIT to be a slave because you are so fucking scattered and lazy)
see if i said this kind of shit to you you'd be calling me a liar over it. and you were free to ask me to do work. just don't yell at me "YOU DIDN'T FUCKING LISTEN" when i ask questions about how you want the work done you asshole

>>41491066
Salad and fish for sinner sounds nasty as hell
Also what were the insults that he yelled at u ???

>>41491045
why don't you fucking READ?

>>41491066
why are you so hung up on details you can't even keep straight between your posts let alone relative to what actually happened or what was said? we even had conversations about this where you admitted you rabbithole on things and lose sight of the big picture or the concrete details, it affects everything rom the way you use electronic devices and communicate with others to preparing food or putting clothing away or whatever

>>41491084
why would you say that shit to me? I didn't do that, you did, and you DIDN'T FUCKING LISTEN and STILL AREN'T because it wasn't about "how I wanted the work done" you deranged schizo piece of shit FUCK you I was sitting there grinding lost lace having already determined mutually that we would be eating later when the rest of the food was ready and you kept saying things that made it clear you had just DUMPED or NEVER INTERPRETED that information so I had a SLIGHT FUCKIN TONE long before I ever yelled and you took that as me "rejecting you"

I am not a mature adult, I am a piece of shit, I have severe psychological and emotional issues, and I am not equipped to fucking CARRY YOU entirely one-sidedly through every emotional breakdown and literal delusion or possible psychotic episode and you KNEW THAT or SHOULD HAVE because I FUCKING TOLD YOU

>>41491128
I DO READ
METICULOUSLY
OBSESSIVELY
AND MY EXPECTATIONS FOR OTHERS ARE NOT THAT I JUST EXPECT OTHERS TO RETAIN SIMPLE FACTS AND ORDER OF EVENTS ENOUGH TO FUNCTIONALLY INTERACT AND COORDINATE

this was such a fucking dumpster fire of a "relationship" from the start I should have kicked you out the first time you said the sus shit that even skeved our mutual friends out

>>41491045
>I mean why did you even STAY?
because i only want to kill myself on Thursdays and Fridays, typically in the middle or at the beginning/end of a month, when you go insane and start treating me likea slave. the rest of the time you treat me normally
>if I made you want to kill yourself then WHY DIDN'T YOU EVER SAY ANYTHING
because you would freak out and make it 1000x worse
also, because i genuinely did want to kill myself, and if i told you you might stop me. i kind of wanted a way out on some level. i know it's sick and fucked up but it's true. i tried to make it clear when i talked to you about it at multiple points but you dismissed me and told me i was pushing your buttons or something so i basically agreed with you i was being a woke gun control asshole. why would i tell you something you would only use against me? i didn't lie. i told you the truth and you shut me down and made me change my answer. just like with the anne frank ex story thing. you basically get mad if i say or don't say the thing you want so you'll pressure me into saying something else
> YOU STARTED THE POSTING OF OUR PERSONAL SHIT ON 4CHAN EVERY SINGLE TIME
only when you were treating me in private differently than you'd treat me in public. it sucks going through this shit alone because no one believes you or understand what you're going through
>you never gave a SHIT about me
then why did i lose my dignity trying to please you as you screamed and screamed and screamed insults at me for not bringing you the right food at the right time or wahtever
>yeah I'll bet you would you fucking monster
it doesn't make me a monster it means i am human.
>>41491076
>he did start it every time
you always posted first and it was clearly about me

ill have to raincheck on the salad i have a silksong appointment at the same time

president trump please raze portland to the ground

>>41491177
i'm getting the gun

remember to make them chicken tendies at the right time or you will get verbally abused

>>41491153
>you can't do x
>also i asked you to do x why didn't you change
if you freely admit i have some sort of memory issue then why would you scream and insult me repeatedly over it and expect me to just take it? "YOU DON'T FUCKING LISTEN" is something i wouldn't say to you if you forgot something i said or had hearing loss or dementia or something.
>you DIDN'T FUCKING LISTEN and STILL AREN'T
what is it you want me to listen to? it seems like everything. it seems like you want me to memorize thousands of words, and also the order you said things in, including dates and times. you also get mad if i even use synonyms or accidentally mishear things. one time i misheard the word hurtful as purple
"purple?" i asked innocently, unsure what you meant
then you like started crying and threw a tissue at me or something
that's what i mean when i say "don't cry at me". like you can cry but don't cry about how i'm evil for being hman and making mistakes.
> already determined mutually that we would be eating later when the rest of the food was ready
i don't remember that. i agreed we would have the salad before the fish and also that the fish would be ready later. but i didn't know that meant we would wait on the salad. i didn't insist we had the salad right away. i was just unsure what to do with it.
there are two scenarios compatible with salad before fish
A. wait, then salad, then fish
B. salad, then wait, then fish
sorry you wanted to grind on your videogame so bad you had to yell at me instead of anser a single fucking question
>you took that as me "rejecting you"
i don't think i said you were rejecting me. if i was anything like you i would break down crying about how you're "PUTTING WORDS IN MY MOUTH YOU STUPID PIECE OF SHIT", but, unlike you, i am willing to correct misquotes and misunderstandings

the fucked up part is that even with all the miscommunications and my being a little annoyed or DARING to let that enter my tone we were still fine, nothing was wrong, and we were on track to have a nice evening or weekend together up until I kept being told that what I was saying was not true and that I was mad at and rejecting you

>>41491083
yeah I don't care it was a dick move and I know how easy it is to image search or get information, don't care anymore because he admitted himself he didn't care about me and hated me and I suspect never had any interest in me

>>41491164
again, I never treated you like a slave or had any expectations other than getting you to participate and feel like you were contributing because I valued you and wanted you to be more independent but you were unfit to even be a slave, and you yourself admitted you lied by omission or directly about little shit all the time and did go out of your way to test boundaries and push buttons because you can't help yourself

you NEVER tried to please me only indulge your fantasies, positive or destructive, because you are entirely divorced from reality and now because you crossed the line to physical violence with me you're in for a really bad time and are still trying like you always did to "win" some court of public opinion on fucking 4chan's tranny board manmoder general for some fucking reason

>>41491253
you could have at least tried like you're still blanking out whole conversations and events you were right there for and agreed to repeatedly
but you never did try because you never cared, you miserable fucking liar, and you're still actively demonstrating that
you are permanently disengaged and uninvested

>I am not a mature adult, I am a piece of shit, I have severe psychological and emotional issues, and I am not equipped to fucking CARRY YOU entirely one-sidedly through every emotional breakdown and literal delusion or possible psychotic episode and you KNEW THAT or SHOULD HAVE because I FUCKING TOLD YOU
same and right back at you
>this was such a fucking dumpster fire of a "relationship" from the start I should have kicked you out the first time you said the sus shit that even skeved our mutual friends out
like what? wanting to stab a bitch who took nonconsentual nudes? this is why i hate white people. you sick fucks care more about dumb laws than actual power and respect or whatever. anyway, i didn't end up stabbing her, i just tried to grab her phone and she called the cops. i asked her repeatedly to delete my nudes, to which she replied "i know my rights". she reminds me a lot of you. always using the law against me when i don't use it against her. you act nothing like a man and everything like a perverted white woman

>>41491274
lol you're pathetic, a leech and a drama queen orders of magnitude more over the top than I could be - I'm more of a man than you ever could have been

also you told me on probably like a weekly basis how you wanted to hurt and kill other people

it's my turn to date chuddy

>this is why i hate white people
lost all sympathy for you

>>41491292
I'll yell at you over salad appointments and rip up your dresses also I'm not dating anyone ever again I don't have another attempt in me

>>41491303
don't threaten me with a good time

we weren't even "dating" anyway I just took the little shit in because I fell hard and related to their issues

>about little shit all the time and did go out of your way to test boundaries and push buttons because you can't help yourself
sounds exactly what abusers say about their victims, how the woman "pushed the man's buttons" and forced him to beat her up, except in this case it's verbal abuse

>>41491303
give me a chance i'm used to being yelled at and i don't have any dresses to rip and also i've never even thought about hitting anyone in my life

you should have seen his melty over his classmates or TAs "rejecting" him when he did the text equivalent of the zoomer stare at them about setting up new commands on a shared server and bitched out on communicating with then devolved into sitting there staring off into the distance rambling about how they were tracking him down and identifying him and punishing him

>>41491321
except that I've never once said or even implied that my explosive anger and inappropriate yelling was justified or excusable, it's just a bizarre fantasy concocted and projected over reality like with everything else

>>41491222
i acknowledge it's morally wrong to hit an autistic person throwing a tantrum over video games and food. but i am autistic too and i can't hold back when someone is yelling in my ear. call it a sound sensitivity
>>41491153
>I DO READ
the person you are replying to isn't even me
unlike you, i don't really accuse people of not reading and not listening when they misunderstand something. i just correct the misunderstanding.
>>41491188
Trump Gaza #1!
Trump Gaza so much fun!
Trump Gaza: the deal is done!
>>41491256
>he admitted himself he didn't care about me and hated me
i never said any of that. if i were like you, i would accuse you of lying and not listening. but i am not like you, and i am willing to clear up misunderstandings, even if i have to a thousand fucking times because this is the same shit you always say
>I kept being told that what I was saying was not true and that I was mad at and rejecting you
i didn't say you were mad at me. i asked if you were. and when you said you weren't i clarified maybe it's the wrong word and maybe you're just annoyed. but when you say stuff like "you'd know if you listened" and "i already told you multiple times" in response to simple questions like "so, should i put the salad in the fridge?", i start to suspect you might be on your period or something. but i can't ask that either without you screaming at me.
>you yourself admitted you lied by omission or directly about little shit all the time and did go out of your way to test boundaries and push buttons because you can't help yourself
maybe after you told me a million times i'm a liar who doesn't listen i started to believe you. no wonder i wanted to kill myself
> are still trying like you always did to "win" some court of public opinion
if i'm trying to win why would i endlessly spam negative shit about myself to turn the crowd against me

>>41491270
>you could have at least tried like you're still blanking out whole conversations and events you were right there for and agreed to repeatedly
i don't know what you're referring to but feel free to elucidate
>>41491270
>but you never did try because you never cared, you miserable fucking liar, and you're still actively demonstrating that
try to do what? what do you want me to try to do? what am i lying about?
>you are permanently disengaged and uninvested
are you trying to diagnose me with apathy and depression? and why would that be some insult toward you worthy of yelling at me for months over? no wonder my mind goes blank and i start to disengage. i guess the treatment for depression and memory loss is to yell at them to "try" harder or something

>>41491374
>i never said any of that
you said those things while you were packing your shit and taking my grocery bags and the wrong lotion
>i didn't say you were mad at me.
you said it seemed like I was and every time I told you I wasn't you responded with "but you said or did XYZ"
you ARE a liar and a self-admitted one, long before we even had any major arguments, and

>>41491405
I want you to face consequences for your actions, but I honestly don't even care about that so much at this point I'm done with this joke of a "relationship" and this joke of a life

>>41491291
if you're a man you would hit me back instead of calling the cops. i don't even complain that much about having cut myself or trying to shoot myself except to clarify i wasn't trying to shoot or cut you, as you heavily implied to the police over the phone, presumably in an attempt to get them to shoot or jail me on your behalf
>>41491321
one example of me pushing her buttons is pointing out repeatedly that i have a history of mental illness and could easily grab a loaded gun and asking her why she keeps it. she literally fantasized about shooting strangers we heard talking in the hallway in the middle of the night. she told me how quickly she could get the gun and shoot them though the door or some shit. she's fucking insane

I mean honestly if you want to kill yourself so badly why haven't you? you have plenty of options right around you right now, wherever you are

>>41491319
>we weren't even "dating" anyway
wtf do you think dating is. you told me multiple times we were going on dates. how can you accuse me of being a liar when you constantly contradict yourself 1000x harder than i do? i relate to your issues, too, but i never called the cops on you or yelled at you over "NOT LISTENING TO ME"

>>41491446
>if you're a man you would hit me back
retarded violent faggots like you don't belong around other people
>she told me how quickly she could get the gun and shoot them though the door or some shit
no, I told you how quickly I would be ready to shoot anyone in case they ever tried to break down the door or threatened my life or yours, because I've dealt with people threatening to kill me before including in my old apartment complex

also HE'S* fucking insane you nazi bigot fascist pos

>>41491463
you never related to me you fucking liar you will say or do anything to satisfy your immediate fantasy-oriented urges no matter how positive or negative

>>41491362
someone unfriended me on discord and you repeatedly told me it "wasn't rejection" or some shit so yeah i realized i wasn't getting any support from you. also, a different TA DM'd me to ask my real name so, yeah, i think that the TA's as a social club are rejecting me not just on discord but also needed my real name so they knew to reject me IRL as well. >>41491362
>except that I've never once said or even implied that my explosive anger and inappropriate yelling was justified or excusable, it's just a bizarre fantasy concocted and projected over reality like with everything else
you can keep telling yourself that but when i ask you to stop yelling you usually respond with some shit about how i "DIDN"T FUCKIN LISTEN" or something

>>41491501
schizo
enjoy the consequences of your actions

>>41491435
okay do you want your grocery bags and lotion back? you didn't exactly give me a lot of time to pack given you called cops out to both my home and yours. i had to throw everything into bags and carry it painfully on my shoulders alone at night while avoiding my usual bus route and turning off my phone because it was being tracked and called by the cops you sic on me with lies about how i'm armed and dangerous with the razor blades i cut msyelf iwth or whatever
>you ARE a liar and a self-admitted one, long before we even had any major arguments, and
what did i lie to you about?
>I want you to face consequences for your actions, but I honestly don't even care about that so much at this point I'm done with this joke of a "relationship" and this joke of a life
if you're going to kill yourself you could at least take me with you you sick fuck

>>41491532
I don't want shit from you I never want to see you again I refuse to be dragged into that cycle again I've done it before and it always just hurts more in the long run, and I keep telling you what you lied about and you keep ignoring me even itt, and no I am a fucking pussy I don't want to hurt or kill anyone and I don't want you fucking with my steeze as I self destruct I'm going out in comfort

>>41491511
how are you enjoying the consequences of your actions? talk shit to my face again you dumb piece of shit. you are a fucking coward to pretend to be afraid of me. if you were really afraid of me you wouldn't endlessly belittle me and insult me in private. you're afraid of your reputation or some shit that's why you gleefully yell at me in private and only get mad when i post a recording for once. and that sample is like 1% of the amount of emotional abuse i endured before snapping. yes i snapped but it wasn't just at you it was at myself. if i ever "admitted to lying" it was because you gaslit me into believing i did. what the fuck was i supposed to do? if you're wrong and you're just insulting me then, yeah, get hit. if you're right and i really am hopeless then why should i have to live in a padded cell instead of shooting myself in the head? what the fuck did you expect me to do? god, i wish i was "not listening" to you like you say and "ignoring you" like you say because i would probably be 1000x happier

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>I don't want you fucking with my steeze as I self destruct I'm going out in comfort

>>41491595
I'm not afraid of shit let alone something like you even lower than shit, and I don't have or care about any kind of reputation

go play grab the gun with a security guard if you're so suicidal

hey methy what's chuddy's name

liberal hitler

>>41491593
>I keep telling you what you lied about
where? you literally said i lied about lying. how does that even make sense?
>you keep ignoring me even itt,
i probably should if i know what's good for me but i'm engaging so fast i'm spamming the thread and my fingers hurt even after switching to keyboard. i am typing paragraphafter paragraph of my honest opinion
>I don't want you fucking with my steeze as I self destruct I'm going out in comfort
okay your choice but self-destruction is not that fun when you're alone
P.S. why do FtMs have to keep singing in the shower loudly with their high voices and long hair? do they even have dysphoria? why can't they just cut their hair and act like men. and this is an out he/him FtM who doesn't even bind. i bind harder than he does. fuck tucutes who rub a single drop of T-gel on their armpit and call themselves men. they're so woke they're afraid of the "r-slur" and can't even take a punch, much like chudette. only real women whine about wife-beating about woke shit like that. fuck all of you. i hope Satan rapes your maggot-ridden corpse in hell with his flaming, large cock

>>41491625
i'd rather kill myself in front of you just to make you suffer because that's how much i hate you
fuck you burn in Hell for eternity you lactating whore

i'm going to skin all of you alive and stick my cock into your bloody brains after cutting off your skulls with saws

>>41491695
hop on cs2 bro!

>>41491661
you could try reading (you won't)
so you're staying with your cousin and their boyfriend? I'll let the cops know along with the fact that you repeatedly said you would hut me again, thanks for the info!

>>41491674
you won't do shit you're like the bpd girls I noped out from before getting involved with or made the mistake of falling for going all the way back to middle school it's like I draw them to me somehow, so dramatic and impotent

>>41491695
you have never been in a real fight

>complaining about supposed bpd girls in fucking middle school
how are you a real person

if methy attacked me i would simply grab their head and hold them away at arm's length like an angry toddler

is chuddy's real name jake?

punched in the head and shot by my adult troubled teen fuckbuddy

>>41491638
*****

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>>41491777

bump

chuddy's either a jason or a jake

jimbo

amerikkklans really name their kids jason

john 50

>>41491833
these are such millennial names tho and chuddy is the stereotypical millenial man

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chuddy you have a J name??
never mind im on methys side now

wow I was right, you stopped posting, are you panicking? lol I'm on hold with non emergency to give an update to the case right now
why would you post that information while actively avoiding the police? you're really stupid

I know methy's name because I coincidentally met a person who knows her irl on tumblr

>james
>jason
>jake
and whites will complain about fucking mohammed

hey methy he knows where you are are you running yet? where will you hide next?

>>41491854
get her ass

omg she ran away from the thread

988 is FUCKING USELESS paramedics and cops just showed up at my house
well time to tell my parents some passwords

>>41491874
is it achmed?

>>41491710
idk seems clear you're the one trying to stalk and hurt me funnily enough
>>41491712
i have never won a fight
>>41491854
this is what i mean about your endless cruelty. you literally drove me to a suicide attempt and now want to punish me for it
stop calling the cops like a bitch and just hurt me yourself if you want to hurt me
why have the pigs do your dirty work for you? you're fucking sick
>why are you posting information
i thought you were mad i was "ignoring you"
>hahaha it's so funny how i can use the police to intimidate them
>hahaha i love bullying kids into hitting me so i can play the victim card and threaten them with cops
>you attempted suicide? armed and dangerous. go to jail!
you are an insanely hateful person yet you claim i am the one lying about ever loving you. and you have the gall to ask why i kept coming back? if you were a real man as you claim, and not a coward, you would just text me instead of spamming here. your posts are obviously intended at me and idk why you don't. keep in mind i only started posting about this shit here after you posted about me multiple times. and i only attempted suicide after you told me to kill myself multiple times. and i only hit you after you yelled at and insulted me multiple times

>>41491926
what the fuck are you talking about
>>41491924
i had to do some work but i guess i'm lazy and should be constantly available for you

>>41491958
>kids
youre a grown ass adult shut your bitch ass up wife beater

praying that methy safely escapes to Mexico and is never held accountable

>>41491958
ok schizo
you are a danger to yourself and others, an active threat
also I did unblock you and try to text you, you literally posted our shit here first and I've never spammed like you do, I never threatened you or told you to kill yourself, and you literally insulted and made fun of me long before I ever said anything negative to you

you won't stop lying
I do know where you are, you told me yourself
you are going to face consequences for your actions

chud is still in the wrong
emotional manipulation > physical abuse
history will prove me right

>>41492033
believe it!

>>41492033
you just hate women

don't even care if I'm "in the wrong" like what does that even mean
you have jeopardized my style and/or ease and physically struck me
your shit is straight up done homes I'm done I'm set I'm peacing out

>>41492048
I'm more of a man than anyone itt

lmao you'd have to be autistic or an abuser yourself to be on chuddy's side, which explains why so many of you are