FUCK you

I have nothing left to lose

>>41492405
>qott
my dick is pretty small. also i'm gay, not sure if that matters.

might goon some more tonight

>>41492405
I like when people suck on it :3
I’m cishet male btw

>>41492405
>qott
i don’t really mind it i wish i could use it more but i’m not a great top
i wished someone had loved me as a man too but i was forced to transition since no one saw me as that anyways

I'm never gooning again

I hate you all so much you will never understand

I’m gooning rn

>>41492544
But…I love you anon

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>>41492405
>quott
not a big fan but they are smol and cuter than when I was a manly moid so could be worse I think
>picrel
this show is (adora)ble and I really liked it but didn't finish it, think I'm gonna binge it all the way from the start after ffs or something

>>41492569
nah
nobody has ever loved me or ever could
I'm bailing on this gay bullshit I'm done with life

>>41492610
Same
Sorry
I hope you find peace and then maybe we can meet again and be happy

>>41492627
>then maybe we can meet again
who the fuck are you?

>>41492633
who the fuck are YOU? asswipe

>xe doesn't know

>>41492662
yeah that's what I've thought we've never met

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I don't need to eat anymore I'll just get my calories from alcohol

>>41492673
awww did you think i was one of your little friends? did you think you recognized me somehow? sorry princess that’s not how it goes down

>>41492713
lol what I don't have friends

>>41492734
i can tell

>>41492633
Sorry just waxing poetically there
By meet I mean in the same way we did now
But on the other side
Yeah this is garbage sorry

can we get chuddy and methy in here too? this thread is feeling a little too slow and not quite toxic enough

no chuddy
no methy
stop the violence
break the chain

the mask fell and everyone can see the psychopath abuser you are, it's over

we still haven’t seen the thrilling conclusion! will chudette’s private police force gun down methy in the streets? will chuddy fall down the path of violence and fight back? will methy escape by going to another friend’s house and not compromising her position? i need to find out!

>>41492914
don’t stay in here go to the prev and watch the fireworks

is chuddy a part of the bourgeoisie if he can leverage state violence for personal vendettas?

i want to hurt myself
first for attention on stream then for real
i am a threat to myself and possibly others i am not in control of my thoughts or actions right now
i cannot talk to anyone about this

>>41492982
- the greatest thread in the history of forums, locked by a moderator after 12,239 pages of heated debate

>>41492996
yes please cut a bit

>>41492960
i want them shitflinging in all mmg threads in perpetuity

>>41492982
socialism is when you let people smoke meth and beat you about a salad

>>41492982
i'm not even joking, calling the police for that shit is fascist behavior.

>>41493020
if only you had heard the numerous times he fantasized about wanting to kill and hurt real living people

i do find it kinda weird that everyone in the thread was saying it’s so crazy that methy hit someone for screaming at her. i’d never do it because i’m a pacifist and a pussy, but i’ve always been taught that behavior like that WILL get you hit

>>41493027
oh nooo a thought crime? he had violent thoughts? he expressed those thoughts OUT LOUD? better lock him up!

>>41493055
shut the fuck up schizo

>everyone

>>41493043
you live in a trailer park

>>41493020
chuddylini
his army are still blackshirts but they have holes in them

>>41493059
>violence, perpetrated and legitimized by the state
:|
>violence, perpetrated by a single individual
):<
>>41493080
fascism never dies, it just mutates, and its final form is Portland liberals

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>>41493020
this is genuinely retarded aren't you embarrassed of posting this

saying it's fascist to call the cops on your boyfriend that closed fist punched you in the head has got to be the most portland thing i've ever heard

>>41493067
i live in a 4 bedroom house in the suburbs of nyc lol

>>41493103
GET XER ASS

my whole life is an awful joke because my skjll is huge, my neck is thick AS FUCK bro, my frame is male and im dumb

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>>41493104
i've literally never felt shame or embarrassment for anything

>>41493124
baka just fight back (so I can say I was the one being attacked)

>>41493152
based but also you're the reason the world is going to shit

anyone here fuck with new zealand power pop bad “the beths”?

>>41493140
spiritually you are white trash

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>never felt shame or embarrassment for
>is a manmoder

>>41493160
>advocating against authoritarianism is what's wrong with the world
and here i was thinking it was the authoritarianism. boy do i feel fucking stupid now
>>41493184
i manmode because i prefer to

>>41493178
yeah that’s fair. my family’s all conservative

here comes another screenshot!

>>41493193
you're still a part of the fascist machinery, even if you're a funny specimen that somehow doesn't feel shame while living an inherently shamefully existence on the bottom tier of modern society.

>>41493193
>someone says their partner physically assaulted them
>your first thought is calling them a fascist instead of offering your sympathies
anti authoritarianism lmao you're genuinely you're just a pro abuse larper. at least try to see where your priorities lie first

>>41493258
oops, wrong thread

>>41493184
mogs me

>>41493280
domestic violence is bad but the police are several orders of magnitude worse. you shoulda beat his ass and called it a day

>>41493324
>>41493178

>>41493342
classist too? what a surprise

I'm trashier than any of you and I wouldn't hit him back because I'm still not a fucking animal like he is

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>>41493342
i'm also white trash in the conventional sense and that's ok. i like myself the way i am

>classism is when i think its okay to physically harm people

calling the police on someone is physically harming someone but you get some goons to do it for you

>>41493387
retard

when are you streaming your suicide chuddy

>>41493397
maybe sometime next year

>changing the goalposts is when i’m right

hot take: physical violence IS an expression of authoritarianism

>>41493140
so do my white trash trumper cousins who each have a personal arsenal big enough to do a jan 6 successfully

phsyical violence is when i call the cops on you for beating me in my own home

>>41493375
>classism is when i think its okay to physically harm people
yes classic is when you think it's okay to enact violence on people. the violence can be physical, but it can also extend to political violence which includes calling the cops on a fellow man, especially one that's short, underweight, and is clearly experiencing a psychotic break.

>>41493450
retard alert

i am not a pacifist and i do not condemn all forms of violence

I just hate anything related to white people if I'm being quite honest

>>41493450
are you like trolling

>>41493484
I'm not even sure anymore, i typed that out with the intention of trolling but it came out low-key convincing. I think I got high on my own wares.

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every time I start doing better in life I let the loneliness get to me and try to connect with someone and end up getting set back further

>>41493474
based department!?

>>41493474
this is a form of classism btw, I'm assuming you're a second gen immigrant or something similar who feels superior to the average white person. youre not being cool and edgy, you're just being judgemental.

>>41493587
>yt speaking over a poc

i hate i HATE carving his name into my thighs
9 letter names are way too long

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imagine having someone literally pawing at you and hanging off of you going "thank you mommy" and saying how much they loved their life with you and how they felt like you rescued or saved them and changed their life for the better and how you take such good care of them mere hours before they punch you in the head and grab your gun and tell you they hate you and that you ruined their life

I can't fucking take this

fuck y'all crackas
now open up yo' mouf, li'l' honkey
let Osama bin Mobbin' give you tha special halal yogurt

>>41493611
this transbian shit isn’t for the weak

>>41493611
have you tried not yelling at them and calling them names over small, salad-related or memory-related mistakes?

>>41493611
imagine how it feels from their perspective, autist
anyway, you should know better than to put a loaded gun where the kid you rape can reach it with their stubby little arms

>>41493622
they're both men and chuddy has a nine letter name apparently
>>41493609
such a fucking cringe way to leak someone's personal info btw it's pathetic tbhondesu.

>>41493611
clearly methy really does love you and you miss her. drop the charges and bring her back into your home

>>41493609
this isn't methy
>>41493666
this isn't good advice
bringing someone suicidal into a house with a gun is a major safety risk and legal exposure

>>41493664
>boobie drugs
>men

>>41493666
>clearly methy really does love you
define love
>>41493666
>and you miss her
probably doesn't miss being punched in the face

>>41493664
i am not methy

hmm hitting your partner is bad

>>41493736
i concur

800 block of East Eugene, Oregon
xe's on meth, armed, and dangerous
send everyone

>>41493736
controversial opinion

the human body weird, when it comes to my junk i feel nothing about it but body wise I am just like wish it was different it is odd, I think Identity wise Im just confused and anxious.

317 Goodpasture Island Road Suite #F Eugene, OR 97401
>>41493736
yes. it's never okay to hit someone. that's assault and battery. the perpetrator belongs in federal prison

>>41493611
this actually made me feel bad

>>41493764
it's literally a business stop playing

>>41493688
this is great advice, chudette just needs to get a gun safe and be more flexible with her salad appointments

dubs and i send this to my EMS instructor and ask if it would work
https://files.catbox.moe/thd74a.mp4

at fred meyer in corvallis you guys need anything?

>>41493830
passion fruit ice cream

>>41493830
very berry nerds gummy clusters

>>41493830
closure
resolve
catharsis
absolution
and a pack of self-actualization if they have any

>>41493830
salad, but only if it’s very punctual

>>41493838
>>41493840
approved
>>41493848
denied

>>41493862
send event invite please

https://youtu.be/gfEtXsJFZGg?si=EdkudnbCytcooFAR
moder anthem

>>41493611
hmm i wonder what changed
definitely not anything you said to them, i'm sure

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anyone want some popcorn?

show's over

>>41493611
>thank you mommy
this is a redflag for me idgaf

it’s okay, i’m also watching nightmare on elm street

>>41493966
me :3 are we watching a movie

>>41493989
oh word I should watch some old school "scary" shit and get stupid out of my mind what's your favorite between friday/nightmare/halloween/childsplay or any of their contemporaries?

>>41493947
methamphetamine induced psychosis

>>41493988
the real red flag is taking in a homeless manletchild as a grown man and then showing him where the gun is

the girl im into is making me watch some boring ass movie

>>41494019
surely posting the same bait over and over gets boring

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>>41494034

>>41494007
definitely that, and not anything else

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>>41492405

>>41493994
yes, nightmare on elm street
>>41494006
i actually haven’t seen too many, that’s why i’ve been trying to make my way through the “canon” this october. i also watched halloween a few weeks ago, texas chainsaw massacre last week, and (not scary, just halloween-y) corpse bride a few days ago. i think halloween is my favorite of the ones that were new to me, but poltergeist is a classic too

>>41493912
i miss carti leaks
buh buh buh

>>41494046
>corpse bride
oh this one is kind of sweet, and I assume you've seen nightmare before christmas of course

>>41494039
don't victim blame

>has barely any reviews and the people who saw it say it's boring
oh my god bruh

what movie

>>41494034
okay fair, any recommendations for better bait?

>>41494067
some political war movie

>>41494057
it’s called niche kino

>>41494050
i actually don’t think ive seen it all the way through. i disappoint my fellow hot topic emos

>>41494051
i agree
you are a victim

come here I'll make you a victim

>>41494077
political thriller war movie*
>>41494080
i like niche things but the movie she recommended looks like a fucking slog

>>41494102
why do you hate women

>>41494122
women were my only abusers

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my big beautiful bowl vs. the leftovers

>>41494122
what does gender have to do with it, sexist

>>41494111
where is "here"?

>>41494208
eugene oregon

fear is the heart of love

>>41494208
corvallis, or

>>41494208
pdx

>>41494216
sure it isn't Salem? send me your address. i have autovictimphilia and a victimhood kink

if it's true, it's tragic
it's just heartbreaking
that sucks
the conflict of logic versus emotion
the relationship is bad/toxic but remains emotionally invested

And the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs, like I never occurred
'Cause someday you will be loved

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>>41494237
612 wharf avenue

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And every time tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet

>>41494272
>>41494289
this post seems like such a cop out to the recipient. like, a way to feel less guilty.

>>41494305
It’s a mean post. I don’t like writing posts from a dishonest place—when I’m trying to put on an air to express a certain emotion that I’m not wrapped in currently. It feels like I’m lying a bit. I just feel that post really had to try to make that an interesting point when it’s not a very interesting point. And, honestly, I think it’s kind of weak.

em dash

erm dash

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my butt do be getting kind of fat tho

same

i hate my male life so much i hate my male body so much i hate my male soul so much i hate my male life so much i hate my male body so much i hate my male soul so much. im the ugliest most masculine most stalked DHT freak in the world

my butt is fat in the disgusting ways

my butt is flat :(

Ah, the eternal struggle between logic and emotion. It's a dance as old as time itself, isn't it? The heart wants what it wants, regardless of what the mind says. But you're right, staying in a toxic relationship is never the answer. It's like trying to build a house on quicksand – eventually, it'll all come crashing down.

I'm disgusting and nobody will ever find me attractive

my butt is layers and layers of dense muscle

my butt is covered in pimplesd and hair and smells like SHIT

*punches my gf in the head* hey chatgpt should i break up with her xD

i should throw up im a fat piggy im terrible and ugly and hideous frankly

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nobody could ever love me

>>41494462
yes please purge a bit

my life is so over im an ugly aged gah man with breasts. i hate my life i hate my soul and my life and my life’s sojl and my soul’d life and i feel retarded i feel like a boomerhon my brain is mush also im gay and i dont knoebehwt’s happebing around me at any given time im so confused and people pity me they take pity on me and j see the disghst in theor eyes

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>>41494462
don't throw up? just eat better food in the future?
>>41494567
you are drunk
go to bed

I'll show you drunk you little queer

>>41494596
step up nigga

you're so cute when you're slurring your speech

ffs in three days!!!

>>41494856
you dont need that

>>41494863
I need it and several other surgeries wdym

>>41494885
let me have it instead

>>41494885
all you need it a clavicle reduction

ffs or any other surgery would not save me

>>41494896
I do need that but how do you know I don't need ffs, you don't even know what I look like

>>41494959
let's see a before pic

>>41494959
i do know

>>41494441
what if it's talking to you and not him

>>41494969
no
>>41494970
no you don't

>>41494903
nothing can save you

>>41495034
I know I've given up it's fine I had a good bonus round all things considered

nightmare on elm street was really great! loved all the wild kills (poor glen got straight up blended) but the ending was a bit lame

when will we have a mmg movie night

plan a halloween movie night

I'm getting ffs on Halloween though :(

>>41495223
priorities...

i will never own a home
i will never get married
i will never gave kids
i will never pass

i will never graduate
i will never get ffs
i will never get srs
i will never get orchi

>>41495243
maybe I can ask them not to use anesthesia so I can watch a movie mid surgery

>>41495339
i'm your doctor and yeah i'll make sure the nurses know

>>41495223
mmg movie night on the 30th? i can’t make the 1st (friend’s halloween party) or 2nd (concert) of november so it’s the best i can do

ordered another butt vibrator and a magic wand
lets see if it works on mutilated penis

>>41495386
what movie

it works

>>41495534
sátántangó

>>41495536
hope so im getting more and more dysphoric about jorking

>>41495552
it's 7 hours long

>>41495534
blair witch project? scream? friday the thirteenth? halloweentown? hocus pocus? house? suspiria? there’s lots of good halloween movies, i’m open to suggestions

>>41495619
could be kat if this wasnt mmg

>>41495619
get medical help it's not too late

>>41495619
please don't do that

oh good it hurts= its coming back up lolw

is one of you killing yourself? please don’t

oh wait I don't even like scary movies

>>41495774
there’s less scary ones, that’s why i mentioned halloweentown and hocus pocus. hell, we could even watch the great pumpkin! i love that special, and it’s not scary at all

>>41495805
great pumpkin

>>41495825
it’d be awesome if we watched it

>>41495860
*holds your hand*

>>41495860
when we watch it! not if, when! oh no, we’re doomed

>>41495869
*reflexively jerks my hand away*
*slowly brings my hand near yours*

>>41496118
what time will the movie be

*pisses in your mouth and steals your catalytic converter

>>41496121
idk, i guess it depends when the rest of mmg wants to watch

i thought i was doomed because the announcement was supposed to be sunday evening and i only got the email like 2 hours ago, but i’m writing another short radio play! yippee!!

>>41496179
can i listen

idk nona, this is gangstalker general so i kinda don’t wanna risk people in here knowing my real/dead name

>>41496179
very impressive nona gj

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forever unhappy because i am poor

i think im gonna come out to my friends i cant really take this anymore

>>41496652
do it faggot

honmoded in the plane yesterday it was too hot had to take off my boymoder hoodie

Hrt is a placebo

my phone pictures keep coming out different
do i act like the better pictures are the ones i actually look like?

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do you ai pass?

upload several well-lit pictures of your front and side profile alongside your bideltoid, midface ratio and fhwr into chatgpt and ask how you could look after your ffs procedures. tell chatgpt to be conservative and realistic as well.

>>41497150
im good thank you though

I told my boss I was transitioning and had to take time off to heal from FFS. Ended up outed and 'forced' to go by she/her and new name at work
God indeed gives his best jokes to his funniest clowns

I'm not gonna have to wake up for work anymore that's gonna be nice

i hate my life

I miss my wife

i never had a wife

how old are you girls?

i'm 21, hrt at 20

25 hrt at 22, never malefailed ever EVER

i was supposed to be an ugly-mid man’s malebrained passoid gf and we were supposed to live happily forever and forever

i dont know if ive had any breast growth because i dont remember what my body looked like any further than a day ago

>>41497288
i was supposed to be an upper middle class 5'4 asexual lesbian bookworm who constantly cuddles with my girlfriend. instead i'm a mentally ill twink dragging himself through uni while constantly crying.

>>41497281
I'm a 36 year old man who has been on HRT for over 5 years

i was supposed to be a servant of some lord who i fell in love with and wanted to do anything to make his life better five hundred years ago

>>41497296
we’re in the same boat my moda

>>41497308
I think I'd be the kind to stay a lone servant my whole life, maybe some of the women would hit on me out of desperation but I can't see myself being able to look past his beauty enough to actually entertain them
I'd end up dying of some common disease, being banished to the basement to not infect the others and spend my last days thinking about him and how we could have ended up together in another life

bump

>>41497314
there is something beautiful about the one you worship being completely unattainable, but still being allowed to serve him in his daily escapades, You could have been born a peasant toiling the farms for nobody, but you were just lucky enough to be born under his rule

i think im going to be gay and ugly today

>>41497324
have you watchsd the eagle? im LITERALLY the gallic servant twink

>>41497328
no. should I? stories that understand servitude like this are so rare

>>41497330
yes but you have to play pretend that its erotic instead of about honor

Are these manmoder or boymoder measurements? My face sucks but will be okay eventually with filler and FFS.

Height: 164 cm / 5'4 ½

Neck girth (larynx): 34

Neck girth (base): 36

Foot girth: 24

Shoulder width (biocromial): 40

Shoulder width (bideltoid): 42

Bitragion-menton arc: 31

Bitragion-frontal arc: 30

Byzogomatic breadth: 14.3

Bustpoint distance: 23 (way worse now, hasn't been updated)

Buttock girth: 94.5

Waist: 68

Chest breadth: 30

Chest girth (bust): 91

Chest girth (under bust): 80.5

Crotch-waist length: 60

Foot breadth: 10.5

Foot length: 26.5

Hand breadth: 8.8

Hand girth: 20

Hand length: 18.5

Head breadth: 14.2

Head length: 20.8

Hip breadth: 32 (hasn't been updated since i started pioglitazone)

Hip breadth (sitting): 32.5 (hasn't been updated since i started pioglitazone)

Inter-pupillary distance: 6.5

Neck to bustpoint length: 24

Thumb breadth: 2.22

Waist height: 100

Waist height (navel): 96

Waist to navel distance: 3

Proportions:

Midface ratio: 1.054

Facial height-to-width ratio (FHWR): 1.83

Bideltoid/bizygomatic width ratio: 2.94

>>41497374
that's okay I've done that a lot with sfw fiction

girlmoding today

>>41497425
fakemoder or feeling honfident?

im literally male i shouldnt inject today wtf is my life why do i wear the agp fishnets
LITERALLY A PIG WITH LIPSTICK

i regret putting being a tranny on my medical journal years ago so fucking much i was so stupid

fauci lied i died

my toys will arrive tmrw

stop being so harsh with yourself

joe biden wake up

>>41497697
gross

playing with my touys

>>41497724
projection

>>41497728
Based
Can i join inn

>>41497735
its disgusting and so are you

>>41497745
whats your damage

>>41497745
its only disgusting when you do it trust me

im male im male im male im male im male
im sorry for trying to be female

>>41497756
you should apologize harder

>>41497799
IM SORRY
IM SORRY
IM SORRY
IM SORRY
ILL FLUSH MY VIALS
AND THROW OUT THE AGP TRASH IN MY ROOM
PLUSHIES AND COSMETICS ALL OF IT
M SORRY

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what now?

>>41498247
stop caring

>>41492405
That show was so fucking shit. I hope Noelle ropes.

>>41498251
how

>>41498293
by embracing egoism unironically

i wanna goon

>>41497281
29, started HRT at 25

>>41498140
You sicko

>>41498545
im sorry for trooning at 27
im sorry for trooning when i wasnt truly dysphoric and had a an agp fetish
im sorry for never exepriencing discrimination as a child for being a faggot tranny gay fag
im sorry for Being cis on hrt

>>41497281
28/25 :D

>>41498566
>>41498140
>>41497756
hes right you know

>>41498660
i know i can never atone
i didnt bathe today because i remembered what i am
who cares?
my hair will fall and i will diw and I will always be this

When editing a film project in uni, a girl in my group accidentally said ”the three-point lighting looks really good there around her face” about me. I'm 100% sure this was nothing but a meaningless slip of the toungue but it made me blush and smile like a fucking idiot and i'm sure everyone noticed holy fuck i hate my life.

>film school

>>41498757
nah, video editing, i'll probably work with color grading or for some tv production company

>>41497281
27/26 and moided

>>41498747
why do you hate me

>>41498768
:o

it’s another episode of running to the bathroom to avoud sobbing in front of others because i heard a phrase that reminded me of trying to come out in middle school. i hate my body j hage cissociety

>>41497384
kill yourself fakemoder im so jealpus im so envious im so evil

also im gay also my family makes fun of my measurements

>>41492405
I hate my penis

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just looked in the mirror and saw a girl
im still keep posting here though

>>41499594
happy for you nona but also kys and gtfo

>>41499363
"son, your midface ratio is cooked you're ngmi"

met a really faggy guy this saturday when I went to watch the reze movie. Do you think it would be creepy if suggested him to take hrt rn or should I wait at least another a week to bring it up

>>41499746
actually kill yourself

>>41499790
?

>>41497281
23, started at 22. my 1 year anniversary of hrt is like 3 or 4 weeks away

>>41499884
happy almost trannivesary! happy with the results so far?

>>41499884
waow me too except i just hit 14 months and i want to kms because it didnt do anything

>>41496121
alright moders, mmg great pumpkin watch party at 9:30 pm eastern on thursday? should allow any job havers on the west coast to be able to get home first since it’s 6:30 pacific, so at least all the american manmoders should be able to make it. maybe some western european night owls will be able to make it too, i think it’ll be like 1:30 am in the uk

>>41499936
i have a date sorry

>>41499901
well i’m here aren’t i? the clearer skin is definitely nice, but the cones don’t really look good, and i haven’t noticed many other changes (i think maybe my thighs also got bigger despite my weight not changing much?) but i’m very unaware of how i look anyway so who knows

i will not listen to bfe asmr i will not fantasize about having a boyfriend

>>41499998
you on prog? oral e or injections? either way keep it up 1 year isnt as long as it sounds so try not to doom too much.

>>41499936
no i have bladee show

>>41500039
not on prog yet, i hear doing it too early can stunt growth or something. i figure now that i’m almost year on e i can start looking into it. it’s usually based on tanner stages, not necessarily just time, right? and i’m on injections, about 7 mg EV every 5 days. no idea on my actual levels, i’m DIYing and haven’t gotten around to getting a private blood test. i know it’s a little early to doom, so i try to avoid it. this board definitely doesn’t help that though lmao

>>41499936
sorry im having sex that night

>>41499963
damn :/ i forget some manmoders have love lives. i personally am staying out of relationships (not that i’m too successful getting dates when i try) indefinitely. manmoding just seems kinda incompatible with romance to me, finding someone who sees me as a woman and accepts me presenting as a man in public seems impossible, and attempting intimacy pretending to be a cis man seems both soul crushing and impossible without building the relationship on lies. hope it’s a nice date though, nona! my brainworms are my own
>>41500066
that’s sick, have fun! i’m going to an emo show on sunday

>>41500091
you seem to have a good head on your shoulders :) i would say that 7mg/5days ev seems a bit high if you do get a blood lab done they will probably bitch at you about your levels.

>>41500167
yeah i’ve come to realize that, i was reading a diy guide that had like 5 mg/5 days as the baseline, but that was recently, and when i started i was just following the directions on the vial (from otokonoko labs) which said 18 mL of the 40 mg/mL every 5 days. i might bring my dose down a tad, but i’m always scared of hondosing myself by accident

>>41499936
can't do it sadly, i have a salad appointment around then

>>41500187
>hon dosing yourself
as long as you are not doing 2mg oral/day you're fine lol. listen to your body. if you dose down and notice more effects of T then dose back up. it would be more accurate to get a blood lab but since your diy i wont assume you have easy access to that.

>>41500198
just put the salad in the fridge

im weight cycling (im fat as fuck)

real

>>41499936
okay then

im weight cycling (im waifishly thin)

>>41500236
unfortunately, i’m fucking terrible at listening to my body and really noticing any effects lol

did chuddy die

>>41500392
sorry to hear that anon, load status? i notice when i finally got my levels good (according to blood results) my loads became clear and the volume drastically reduced. yeah yeah yeah its agp but it might be a good enough heuristic.

>>41500417
murder suicide :/

>>41500463
>>41495619

>>41500456
load status confirms my levels aren’t bad right now. very little volume (to the point anything that comes out stays on my penis) and pretty clear. i guess i can make sure to “check” regularly as i lower my dose but by bit

>>41500560
yeah sorry if that makes you dysphoric but like its one of the more "objective" ways i've found. like i notice other differences like softer skin, less greasy, better mood. but thats kind of relative and im not sure how far it lags behind my levels. i remember starting to feel softer skin when i had started on oral e and my levels were like E: 30pg/ml and T: 400ng/dl. so thats why im hesitant to recommend that way. it wasnt until i was a month on injections that my load status was good then two months after that the labs showed 200pg/ml and 20ng/dl

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need a fakemoder bad bitch so we can walk around together lookin like this

you don’t have to walk around with a goatee, nona

cruise is chopped beyond disbelief

im weight cycling (changing my mind daily about whether i should lose or gain weight, and thus staying a stable weight)

let's hope it dies permanently this time

>>41500635
yes i do because im a man

>qott
I hate my cock and want to get rid of it but PI is the only method covered by our public health service and I'm scared of the recovery time and potential complications

>>41500824
what, you don't own a kitchen knife?

>>41500737
men frequently shave their facial hair. some view it as unprofessional not to