>qott
being sat down by a cute twinkhon and being injected with estradiol enanthate

Id like it if you talked about something else instead like birds or trees

>>41986919
Ok alternative question:
>QOTT2 What is your favorite plant? Houseplant, tree, fungi, etc.

Diaper forcefem rape shit im fucked man

>>41986926
My favorite houseplant is this lovely plant in my house... It was my mother's. It presses its leaves against the grand window it's in front of and is very cute and dead. We've owned it since I was born. It's person sized.

>>41986926
Basil so I can make delicious pesto

>>41986907
>What are your biggest fetishes?
Incest because I'm a stereotype. I just love star-crossed lovers in general.
>>41986926
Water lilies.

>>41986986
Thanks for reminding me im glad im not into imcest

>>41986986
Lillies are so beautiful
I love walking down to the lilly pond in the spring when everything is coming into bloom

Being forcefemmed. Which is really just code for someone else take a bit of care of me just like they take care of other women.

>>41986907
Wrt Qott - torture fetish (as recipient), yaoi sex lol

>>41986907
>QOTT
in theory I really like latex, but I've never tried it and I have mega autism so decent chance it would be overstimulating for me if I wore it

>>41986907
trying to fit the enormous bad dragon toys you'd think are just gag gifts. also bf who punches me
>>41986926
i have some cacti i like because i can't kill them, i feel like i should have a better answer than pine trees that remind me of home but idk. i just think about the hikes i've taken and it's mostly grasses or other trees that also come to mind

>>41986996
I always wanted to install a lily pond if I could ever afford a home, but that's another dream that'll never be.

>>41986907
>QOTT What are your biggest fetishes?
forcefem, feminization, bondage, spanking, dressing up in sexy outfits, cum, oral sex, face fucking, hair pulling

>>41986907
qott:
literally >>41987295 and >>41987074
but too embarrased to admit it.
i don't like forcefem in the "i'm forced to be a woman this is so degrading i'm so humiliated" sense but in the "i know you're a woman on the inside and i will force you to acknowledge it". my biggest fantasy is someone finding out i'm a repper and forcing me to say i'm a woman and then forcefemming me.

i feel like forcefem shouldn't count. you guys just want to have normal sex as a woman which is why you post here

>>41987326
>i don't like forcefem in the "i'm forced to be a woman this is so degrading i'm so humiliated" sense but in the "i know you're a woman on the inside and i will force you to acknowledge it". my biggest fantasy is someone finding out i'm a repper and forcing me to say i'm a woman and then forcefemming me.
yeah i'm >>41987295 and 100% agree

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>>41987326
>>41986918

>>41987402
>I want to forcefem some
oh boy oh boy
>twink
oh

>>41987402
>>41987407
Is there truly no one who wants to save us gorillas from our fate?

>>41986907
>What are your biggest fetishes?
Getting hatefucked by a repressor who realises he can never sucessfully transition.
Him fucking my neopussy hard with his male penis and throwing my delicate small feminine body around with his huge man body.

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>>41986907
>QOTT
mind control/identity erasure
get me out of this headspace

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when I was a kid I had strange daydreams about groups of girls dressing me in girls clothes and I'd find it so embarrassing
idk if I'd say I have a forcefem fetish now but it would be nice

we tell the biggest lies to ourselves

>>41986907
>qott
hard for me to parse in this extremely sex-removed state but being abandoned/left alone while being tied up is something that gets me so hard. There's this one picture on rule34 of a femboy left in a room with a bunch of tentacle slug creatures after having his limbs removed with teleportation equipment, ashamed to admit I wish I could live through that.

>>41987402
>>41987462
This. Perfect example of why trans life is so cooked. You could go through forcefemming all you want but you'd still come out at the other end having to deal with real life, never fully ascending to your REAL dream.
>get forcefem fantasy
The other person is probably weird. There's someone online who I've roleplayed this with and the way they view you is just... never good. You don't want that person hanging around when you just want to be normal.
>dont get forcefem fantasy
Never transition. Forced to deal with it all alone
>want to get forcefem
Hate yourself for sexualizing yourself in this way, people like at you strangely and there's no out.

im such a miserable person i cant kms soon enough

>>41986926
>QOTT2
I'm quite fond of Birch trees

What was friday night spent on, repsters?
I was going to go to bed early, but friend called me up so we went drinking in town

just be a feminine gay man without taking estrogen

>>41988763
But I don't like men.

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If I made a story about a man being put into the body of a woman without being overtly agp would people view me weirdly?

>>41989015
This exists and it's from 34 years ago https://m.imdb.com/title/tt0103016/

If it was possible then without being weird, it's okay now too.

>>41987326
huh, this is kind of like how I went with getting an anon on here to come out to her mom and start the 'mones

>>41989094
on the downside, i think people are much quicker today to yell about tranny indoctrination propaganda nowadays
>>41989015
I think it'd be difficult, but not impossible. Not a lot of people would relate to it, i think. I'd likely read it tho

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>>41989094
that guy has a... notable skull shape

>>41989153
Maybe?

Quite a few gender-swap films have been made in the last 40 years. Most of them not tranny coded either. The negative reactions were rarely about that and more about other aspects (bad script, bad filming, poor choice of actors, etc.)

You also can't please everybody. Such is art.

>>41989147
Did it work?

>>41987326
I'm ending that fantasy and putting it into practice.

Repping has become untenable.

>>41989182
I suppose that's true, hope it'll be a nice story.
Have considered writing repper literature myself, but idk if that'll ever come to fruition

>>41989229
Last time I heard yeah, really hoping things are getting better for her.

>>41989258
Got any repper literature to recommend?

Now that I'm fucking off from being a repper, I want to read :)

>>41987237
Same :( I have to walk to the park to gaze upon the beautiful ecosystem

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>>41987810
kek same. would totally accept being turned into fumiko number 827 with no resistance whatsoever.
at least i'd be someone useful after.

>>41989277
Eumeswil from 1977 is pretty good, it can be read from a repper pov. It's more for the accepting conscious repper though, the one who accepts his desire but refuses to transition, instead embracing themselves as a whole and manlarping in society while while in private mind is how they desire.

I don't think there's a repper genre in itself, usually when reppers are talked about it's either their "road to self acceptance" as a t girl/guy, or the "i'm actually mentally ill, here is how i can cope through religion", both fundamentally attacking what it is to rep with a desire to change them - transitioning or simply accepting your birth gender without even being allowed to think about the alternative. I do think it'd be a good genre, if it came into existence.

When are you starting?

>>41989591
In about 3 weeks. Likely January 5 given that most postal offices simply don't work between December 24 and January 5.

As soon as the first batch arrives, I'm in.

It's why I'm here these days. Trying to get more stories/datapoints. Been on and off for literally decades.
Knew since age 7, now 39. That's a looot of repping.

>"road to self acceptance" as a t girl

I'll give it a try myself then.
Except religion, I probably tried everything. They all work until they don't.

Still, no regrets. If it fails, it fails. At least I tried.
I don't even expect to pass (even though at 169cm and youthful androgynous face i should stand a decent chance). But goddamn it I'm done with repping.

I'm sure boymoding will come with its own challenges. But it can't be worse than this.

I hate that porn games are what I have to play for "gorilla man becomes a woman" self insertion shit

Fuck it whatever I'm buying HRT online and manmode repping for the rest of my life anyway

>>41989655

Neat, where did you buy from?
I consider starting in the new year too, don't think i'll have a chance of passing but hope on at least some bodily changes. Still going to social rep though.

But it might all just fall apart again, and i'll end up repping completely again.
>Except religion, I probably tried everything
Religion doesn't work either lol

>169cm and youthful androgynous face
lucked out, i'm tall and my face unfortunate. But at least hairless and ok-ish bodyshape. Not ideal but not the worst case either

>>41989707
>Fuck it whatever I'm buying HRT online and manmode repping for the rest of my life anyway

Or maybe it works better than you expect.
Even partial progress is better than no progress.

Be realistic, but don't doom.
Maybe you won't like [insert your favorite tranny here] but you also don't have to. Even if you end up looking like a 4/10 too tall woman, that's still a lot better.
Don't listen to the retards. Passoid territory is much more vast than it's claimed here.

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>>41989732
>Neat, where did you buy from?

I will tell you when they arrive. The clinic took care of the logistics. I'll pick it up from there.
I've made the decision several months ago. It helps being in Europe. If you're willing to pay, the waiting lines vanish. Got the psych report, the bloodwork done (my T levels are barely at male levels, so i got that going for me) and got the prescriptions.

I presume the Bicalutamide will be somewhere from the EU because it's pretty generic. The shots are likely from Denmark or the Netherlands.

>Still going to social rep though

For sure. I'm content with boymoding for at least 5 years. By that time I'll see if it's worth trying accessing passoid territory or not.

I'd actually be happy even with some of the "nightmare" scenarios of only getting a smoother skin, nicer hair and some mood changes, desu.

Heck, even my best case scenario is modest. I just want my feminine thought patterns to feel as something. To click. I don't even know how to explain it. Been repping for so long that the wall of the abyss is so goddamn high. But I'll climb it. Slowly.

>But it might all just fall apart again, and i'll end up repping completely again

Maybe. But i'd rather regret it didn't work than keep on regretting not even trying.
I'm out of fucks to give and out of things to lose.

What's the worst that can happen? I go a liiiitle bit crazy? Oh no, anyway...

Is consensual feminization a mentally more healthy thing to fantasize about than forced fem?

>>41989832
>will be somewhere from the EU
Thought you'd DiY, was why i asked. Are you EU?
I don't have the balls to go to a clinic, plus they're pretty bad over here...

The nightmare scenario doesn't sound too bad yeah. I'm just dumb, always been bad at deciding things so stuck in limbo. Life is a fuck

>>41989897
Yes, I live in the EU.

I'll probably go DiY later on. The clinic's scheduling doesn't quite sound good to me. And I'm open to experimentation haha.

One of the reasons I went with the official route is because it will make it far easier later on (if it works, that is) to change ID, name and so on.

Another reason is because it's easier. They just do all the work on logistics.
The psychiatrist was a bit surprised because I spoke coherently, didn't have a rehearsed speech (apparently that's a thing here) and didn't sound like someone whose pornbrained or internet brained.
I got taken aback by her remarks and just simply pulled 2 black&white pictures of myself at 7 (nobody clocks me as a boy in any of them - one of them is in a cute dress).

She was like "okay, okay, you've made your point". Apparently it's the fastest "ok" that she gave in her career so far haha.

>I don't have the balls to go to a clinic

32 years of repping, nona. I'm very hard to scare at this point.
If they required me to dance russian ballet in the middle of a homophobic march, I'd probably do that too.

I've always been very calculated in everything i did. This one shall pass (hopefully literally as well).

>I'm just dumb, always been bad at deciding things so stuck in limbo

Get your mind in order. For your own sake.

>never going to look like the fairy queen from kirby 64
why live

>>41989977
>I live in the EU
Neat, me too

Nice that it went so well with you, hope it'll go smoothly and they don't give a bad dosage.
>32 years of repping
You're only 9 years older than me desu
I've one it for circa just as long if adjusted to the age difference.
Somewhere i have cute photos i took dressed up in my early teens, but it's on some ancient device so dunno if i can find it again.
> I'm very hard to scare at this point
I've become more lose on it in the past few years, but still dislike being honest with people about it. Mainly, because i don't think they'll understand and/or will give me the pity treatment

>>41990097
>but still dislike being honest with people about it

You think I went around telling people that didn't absolutely need to know?

My wife, my psychiatrist and my endocrinologist know. That's it.
Didn't even tell the kids. And won't until they turn 18. And maybe not even then. I don't want this shit to spill over them if it's not absolutely necessary.

I also don't believe in "coming out" that much. My wife must know. Everyone else? Not really.
My parents probably know intuitively already lol.

It probably helps that i'm this calculated. I'm not doing it for the emotional validation of others. And just like I don't want others to tell me if they're in a dead bedroom or have homosexual fantasies, I won't burden them with my crazy either.

If it becomes inevitable, fine, I guess. But that's many years from now at best. I'll cross that bridge if and when I get to it.

One step at a time. Now it's gathering stories and fooling around. Then it's Christmas. Then it's the first shot at HRT. After than? IDK. We'll see what happens.
I'll go to work normally just like I've been going for the last several months as I was arranging the paperwork, blood tests and the rest.
EU privacy laws help a lot.

I learned that part when I helped another nona IRL. She was afraid her employer will find out. Helps to have a repper friend, I guess.

I'm a 12 years old nerdy girl
what I am doing here

>>41990097
>and they don't give a bad dosage

Make vigorous use of your rights under Article 3.2 of the EU charter.
You have a right to argue for a different dosage. You have a right to ask for adjustments if something doesn't feel right.

>cute photos i took dressed up in my early teens, but it's on some ancient device so dunno if i can find it again

Try and find 'em.
I recently learned myself that a lot of nonas go with a rehearsed speech from some activist NGO. Tbh, fuck those people too. I may have tried it earlier if not for their cultist antics and deceitful messaging.

Honest heartfelt messaging is better in almost any human relation.

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>41990175
>You think I went around telling people
No need to get passive aggressive.

It's nice you have a supportive wife, wish i had someone more to talk to than randoms online. Not that i don't appreciate the people here, but someone irl would be nice. Wish i could move to another country where nobody knows me, maybe i should idk. People knowing you from pre transition seems really annoying, even if i won't social transition.

> Helps to have a repper friend
I've often helped/talked with other people to absolve them of their worries. Many later started hrt and became happier. Too bd i never take my own advice.
>>41990215
> Article 3.2
Nice, good to know. Yeah i should find them, i'm bad at keeping important digital stuff safe desu

>>41990370
>No need to get passive aggressive.

I wasn't. Sorry it came off that way. Self-evidently English is not my native tongue. Not even my second language, actually.

>It's nice you have a supportive wife

We'll see how that goes. A lot of these do end badly. But quite a few don't.

>but someone irl would be nice

That requires being social. Thankfully, I am. Which is why I'm not very worried about losing people. Not only I have a lot of them but I can get new ones.

>where nobody knows me

That works if you're very social and have good language skills. I have both but I don't need to move. Yet, anyway. Who knows what's it gonna be in 5 years.

Speaking of which, I should renew my other passport as well. Having options is my obsession. Very useful both as repper and as boymoder.

>People knowing you from pre transition seems really annoying

This is another reason I won't socially transition anytime soon.
I'll have plenty of time to warm them up, so to speak, and they'll self select.
Besides, not having an activist mindset and not being brainrotted into westoid prog culture has helped me a lot so far and will continue to help me.

The nona I mentioned earlier is always eager to visit me and thank me for mentoring her. In her words: "It's amazing how nice normies are once you don't fit the Tumblr/Reddit stereotype"

I don't want to purge anything with regards to people, relationships, places that I like or really anything externally (except about half of my wardrobe, hopefully, at some point).

>>41986926
mini zinnias, tropical milkweed and Madagascar periwinkle

t. grows flowers to rep

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>>41990568
I love watching insects visit my flowers

i just don't know what i'm supposed to be
i'm stuck
does it get easier?

>>41990593
I love bumblebees, from afar. If they get too close I turn into a screaming coward.

>>41990641
it gets harder

reppers are the boys that cried wolf

reppers are the boys who cry every day

>>41990510
> A lot of these do end badly
yea, but if that happens i hope it'll be a friendly split on good terms. Heard hormones can mess with your sexual interest/liking of gender
>That requires being social
I am though, i have quite a handful of friends, but nobody who could relate to it. That's the main thing i look for.
> good language skills
I can move to most central european, all western, and all scandinavian countries without much problem i think. I was raised with many languages, and am pretty good at adapting. Luckily despite being a sadfag in my 20's, i did actually bother to get a masters. So at least that makes mobility easier.
What region are you from? Guessing Benelux or germany desu

>I don't want to purge anything with regards to people
I'm the opposite, i'd love to drop in a hole. But my family is very close, so i'd feel bad if i cut them off

>>41986907
Any detrannies here? How long it take for your cock to fully work again with no ED?

>>41990730
>Guessing Benelux or germany desu

Swedish and Polish passport. Live in neither. Literally born in the USSR (but not russia).

>Heard hormones can mess with your sexual interest/liking of gender

100% of the cases I inquired so far where such thing was claimed were cases of people who were quite rigid prior to HRT.
It seems that it either stays the same or opens up a little bit.
Well, I'm already bisexual or whatever the shibboleth is these days for not having rigid gender preferences.

But goddamn it I hope I don't have to split from my wife. I love the cute bunny. She gave me children and was always nice to me (18 years together last month).

>family is very close, so i'd feel bad if i cut them off

So don't?
I'll do the most fembrain thing - the decision falls on them. I don't want to actively purge anyone. But if they change their minds, it's their problem.

>masters

Yeah, I don't have any fancy papers. I'm just a really good computerfag. Like really really good. Think "the person the banks call when their shit gets hacked" level.

>>41990593
hi bonepilltime :)

do i take hrt today and be productive
or do i rep and bedrot

>>41991079
Flip a coin

>>41991079
do a new post
evens productive odds bedrot

>>41991090
>>41991179
but what about the hrt

>>41990973
>Swedish and Polish passport.
fancy
>But goddamn it I hope I don't have to split from my wife
If you ever to split, hmu if you want fellow reptard
>So don't?
i won't
> I'm just a really good computerfag
behind 7 firewalls and 7 hoodies

>>41991257
Everyone should do hrt except me

>>41991361
>behind 7 firewalls and 7 hoodies

That's a myth we intentionally created to get the normies interested into some cybersec in the hope to stop at least some obvious scammers.

We failed. The normies gulped all of the slop with even less security than the times weirdos like me dominated the webs.

>If you ever to split, hmu if you want fellow reptard

I have reppers IRL too.
Which is why I was laughing in another thread when a religious fanatic kept on trying to guess things ("you like sissy hypno, don't you?"; "you met the reppers online, didn't you?") - but, really, no. For some reason they felt (correctly, clearly) that they can open up to me.

Now that you reminded me, I should make a note to buy HRT for them too. I know they'll fail.
I don't even know whether I should tell 'em I'm starting. If I do, it feels like grooming. If I don't, they might be mad at me later on for missing out.
Decisions, decisions.

>>41991257
dont worry about it you got odds

>>41991378
no no, everyone except ME

>>41991467
>That's a myth
I don't know anything about computers, legit clueless on everything regarding them. Maybe i'm not a tranner at heart afterall
>"you like sissy hypno, don't you?"
Maybe he just wanted someone to talk about it with?

>I don't even know whether I should tell 'em I'm starting
Just be honest like they were with you, tell them you've decided to talk but have no expectation of that they'll follow you. Easiest solution

>>41991555
>Maybe i'm not a tranner at heart afterall

Computers are simple. The biggest problems lie between the chair and the keyboard.
Still, I can't deny that this profession has ended up attracting a lot of weird people. Not just trannies, but also lots of autists, spergs and really just weird people. Because it IS werid to prefer to spend the night trying to get some moving text to "work" - and by "work" it means it barely makes a dent into a gargantuan piece of software that nobody remembers how it was made but your task is to fix it.

>tell them you've decided to talk but have no expectation of that they'll follow you

I'm almost willing to bet that will get one egg cracked right on the spot.
I tried my best not to be a leader and to emphasize that I am a flawed human that is routinely wrong.

Guess it's time to test how good of a job I did.
IDK. I'll leave this decision for 2026.
There's also a selfish reason to shut up: if one of them cracks, they'll cling to me. I'm pretty sure I can't carry two girls. Not now. Not in 2026. Because if I could, i wouldn't have decided to leave repping.

>>41991723
> ended up attracting a lot of weird people
Nerds are icky, ig

>I'm almost willing to bet that will get one egg cracked right on the spot.
Up to you if you tell them or not, but don't be surprised if they get upset with you later, seeing it as that you abandoned a mutual struggle. You getting good results or not doesn't really impact them desu

>>41991378
>>41991518
too bad i just injected

>>41991758
>You getting good results or not doesn't really impact them

I wish I could believe that. But I guess I'll have to act as if I do.
Humans are incredibly impressionable. That's how transtrenders came to life. The "social contagion" thingy isn't entirely invalid.
Otoh, if i can't be honest with reppers, then i can't be honest with anyone.

ok, you convinced me. Imma summon them on a new year after party or some shit that week-end before I go pick it up.

>>41991824
fair enough, glad you're taking care of yourself

>>41991840
repper party where you give one last salute to manlarping, haha

>>41986926
I love Willow Trees. I feel happy everytime I see them.

>>41991874
i still have hair above my lip i look like a fucking moid

>>41992253
waxing time

starting to wonder again if im only so obsessed with transition to escape some sense of culpability for being male after some of the heinous shit that pretty much every male role model did to me as a kid
i still dont feel comfortable around men now and its like. i literally am one. i need to be put down istg

>>41992423
What difference does it make what causes this all that matters is that its not really our fault and it incurable

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>>41986907
Mommydom (but not feminization).
>>41986926
Pine trees.

>>41992423
That's very malebrained of you. A woman would go the opposite direction and run towards more abuse.

>>41992436
i suppose so, though its hard for me to think of it as not somehow being my fault i guess
>>41992558
...i dont like this but remembering how my mother kept going from abuser to abuser when i was a kid sort of feels like it proves it...
im so sorry for being malebrained anon honestly im really really sorry

>>41986907
I used to watch sissy porn but then I realized men exist. So I watch videos of men jerking off and telling me that I’m a good girl and talk about how they’re going to undress me.

I think I have to stop repping baka

>>41992876
excessive apologizing is fembrained

getting into the christmas spirit (heavily pouring eggnog and getting catastrophically drunk by myself)

>>41994528
i feel progressively more hollow each approaching day

>>41994584
that's what the liquor's for

>>41986907
take your HRT, retards

>>41994658
i dont like being drunk very much i just stew in it sober unfortunately

>>41994686
this is very alcoholic of me but I genuinely don't understand not enjoying being drunk, everything feels better even though I know I'm functioning a bit worse
>>41994683
no <3

Anybody got any good ways to make the trans thoughts go away for longer than a few hours?

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GIWTWM
IWNBAW

>>41994958
1,4BD and running # rm -rf / at work if you are a sissyadmin.

For an answer not in jest, I suppose reading technical docs (like research papers) sometimes helps me. Sleeping only a few hours a day also makes my brain work so poorly that I often don't even know what I did fine mins ago also seems to help a bit (but is "really bad for one's mental and physical health").

is it good or bad when an old person assumes you're trans

>>41995114
i think cis people delete system32

>>41994958
goon to gay porn all day every day

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would you guys accept being transported to the digital circus with a female-ish avatar for all of eternity?

>big red spots in underwear
freedom soon

>>41996445
No. Clowns are weird.

>>41996445
>get to be a cute clown girl for all eternity
what's the downside?

for some reason my hrtrepper moobs have suddenly become much more obvious. even wearing a baggy sweatshirt or hoodie there's a really obvious bulge and underboob situation. i don't understand what's changed all of a sudden

>>41996546
You're pregnant. Congrats.

>>41996546
this gen is not for your kind >>41986478

>>41986907
A lot of shit. Bondage and latex and transformation and forcefem and other such things. Most of them kind of revolve around me being forced to be a girl, and then treated like an object and my feminine body becoming an object of admiration. Petrification is a big one.

Honestly I like a lot of things that are kind of fucked up. Anything really intense and tortuous and with a bleak ending works well. Like forcefem but it's really brutal and dark and brainwashes me until I'm the girl I was meant to be.

I'm far too autistic to ever be a woman

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It's my destiny to be a man
I WILL be a man

>>41997499
I need sex with Cloud

>>41997543
For me it's Squall. I always wanted to be Yuna more than Rinoa though.

yeah im a girlfailure (i fail at being a girl)

could someone just beat me up

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>>41997324
I've never had a friendship with a woman my age or even spoken to one for an extended length of time. I know less about women than even incels who have gone on (albeit unsuccessful) dates with women. This is my most rational repfuel.

the end stage blackpill as a repper is when you go outside and start observing men in their 30s and 40s who may be balding and have rough skin and thinking they could pass better than you if they wanted. its knowing how you are actually particularly masculine looking compared to the average person and its giga over.

mania helps me with repping, but when the mania ends it's twice as hard, because manic phases make me express the masculine parts of my personality more, so when it ends, I hate myself and don't know who the fuck I was for the last few months.

I need a manic episode where I become psychotic and actually troon out

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>>41997948
I've never had a friendship with a woman, maybe except for my friend's gf but that's more just because she's always around, we don't interact together without him.

I'm jealous of the tranners who grew up with female friends

>>41998812
Honestly I think it's not too hard as long as you don't put women on a pedestal. I went to a small school so you kinda had to talk to women, but if you're just friendly and obviously not trying to date them then they're usually cool.

>>41998962
Perhaps i was just a weird little boy back then. Didn't have many friends in general tbf

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>>41997948
I'm the exact same, even familywise, seeing as I don't even have any female cousins let alone sisters. How did I obtain the audacity to think, even for a fraction of a second, that I could somehow, someday, pass as a woman when I only know how they are through the distorted lens of what I see through screens?

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Just saw a 13 years old trans girl on Instagram

>nearly 30
>never get a girlfriend or a boyfriend because i live in very conservative state and my parents hate gays and tranners, and also i cant imagine telling anyone who is cis about these feelings
>convince myself to not ever get on hrt because "what if just finding someone who loves me will fix me feeling this way"
and now i'm 6'3 and getting more hair on my chest and belly each year
i shouldve been willing to abandon my family for a chance at happiness

>>41999224
Lucky her, can only be happy

>>41999239
That's life nigga. A gf would fix a lot of it. If you get a bf you'll have to be the top, and that will probably make you suicidal.

>>41999239
i started at 32. Granted, I wasn't that tall, but very hairy.
repping works until it doesn't.
Getting a wife helps a lot. But only if it's a forever-ish thingy. Mine unfortunately died.

Think if it's worth it. And if not, buy hrt and try

Have any reppers experience with chasers? Online i've had some people oddly interested in me when i talked about it, despite saying i had no near future plans of starting hrt

>>41999174
it really never began

The best repfuel is to just get to know women.
The more you know women, the less you want to troon.
I still don't like being a man and likely never will, but the more I've known women, the less attractive the option became.

Sadly, this skews the numbers. It's not that troons are more autistic than genpop, it's that non-autistic tranners are less likely to troon because they get to know women first.
Societies in which women don't suck get more diverse trannies.
Ironically, if women (including women's roles/performing) were to improve, there would be more trannies. I certainly would've trooned out a long time ago in such a situation.

>>42001545
I've always felt that I got along better with women than men desu.

>>42001545
i think that experience is subjective desu

Have I really been repping this whole time?

Im tempted to become a tripfag im such a loser

>>42001564
So do I. Until it gets serious. Once it gets serious, women fuck off.
Which, granted, is what I usually do to. It's the fembrain thing to do.
But it's now more acceptable for a man to do that as well.
I still want to troon, but the world has gotten just good enough to change the overall balance. But in the process made women worse desu

>>42001584
Only you know that
>>42001593
What's the appeal of it?

>>42001608
>Until it gets serious.
What do you even mean 'gets serious'? Like trying to date them? I don't usually talk to women trying to date them.

>>42001582
Except it's based on data too.
There are more trannies per capita in Thailand than in Germany (similar population levels).
Women not sucking as people does lead to broader acceptance and better experience as a troon.

>>42001619
No, not dating. But a serious situation. Where a tough decision needs to be made. Or a serious investment needs to be done. Anything real-life serious, really.
Dating... meh. It just works for me. Not complaining about that.

>>42001611
i dont know anything

>>42001545
>The best repfuel is to just get to know women.
Most are fine but growing up with a sister, showed how much performative bullshit they (have to) do which I'd refuse but then there's no point in transitioning

>>42001626
I don't really see how being around women reduces the desire to go tranner. Sometimes women are annoying, but i don't see how that impacts the desire to transition. Can't imagine someone has done a study on reppers and their proximity to women desu.

But maybe i misunderstood, in that case my bad. Had a beer tonight

>>42001611
>What's the appeal of it?
I just wanna tripfag idk why, if Im a repper it df doesnt make sense. Esp given the current repper tripfags about

>>42001764
Wanna become Miss board famous lel.
Do it if you feel like it, can always drop it later if you don't wanna anymore

people keep crawling back to me like i'm not some kind of abusive freak and i'm so sick of it
i just want to be on my own so i can't keep hurting people like i always do why is that so hard

Any other reppers watch Joseph Anderson

>>42002573
>Joseph Anderson

Any particular links?

t. repper who doesn't watch videogame related content at all

>>42003463
NTA but this is my favorite Joseph Anderson clip.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vtb49TAgn0o

Yay reppers yay yay yay I continue to spiral and get worse yay

why do the days swing so wildly

>>42003698
hairy spiral

Anyone here enjoying some drinks?

>>41996546
>hrtrepper
you're just a fail tranny. even worse than being a regular tranny

>>42004166
Sounds pretty good to me

>>42004166
>>hrtrepper
>you're just a fail tranny

Beats being a repper though. I feel much much better. Even if I'll never pass and get stuck in boymode forever, it was still the best decision.

>>42004331
lets circle back to this convo in ~5 years

>>42004539
7 years last month.
Sure, if I'll still be bored enough to be on this board 5 years from now - or this place won't be fully banned everywhere by then - we can circle back to this convo in 5 years.

>>42003906
idk pretty crazy cause i feel on top of the world some days and then the next day ill think about nothing but killing myself all day, or ill have a really nice day but the second i get into bed to go to sleep i get into the most depressing headspace instantly and it sours the nice day i have

>>42004586
7 years of manmoding? What's it like?

>>42004770
Annoying.
But the mental effects are top-tier. I simply function better in everything. Got a better job, have savings now... basically everything improved. Including my dating.
Turns out I wasn't autistic at all. And I am very good at socializing. It's just that it was hard to apply feminine thought patterns onto a hormonal system that didn't function like that. Idk how to explain.

Yes, it annoys me to manmode but I'm simply too tall.
It's easier in the summertime because I can wear long skirts heh. I developed the best excuses for that.

>>41998812
almost all of my friends were girls as a kid, but nowadays interacting with a woman who isn't my mom makes me extremely uncomfortable and my only friends are men

all of my childhood female friends either drifted away or transitioned

>>42004905
i love you nona

>>42005176
why do femreppers attracted mascreppers?

>>42005197
*attract

>>42004905
Does it work?

>>42005197
mutual vicarious living

>>42005161
i need to kill myself

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i'm balding at 20

i went to a dermatologist but couldn't muster up the courage to say anything about it, i felt like she would laugh at me, and thought maybe i wasn't, but i look in the mirror and yeah, it's happening

it's a sign from God it was over before it began and i need to kill myself already

>>42005494
Started for me at around the same age lol. E should help, so i've heard

>>42005494
I started balding at 18. Finasteride and minoxidil NOW NOW FUCKING NOW. NO QUESTIONS. it really works

i've been tearing my hair out from stress for years atp i'm lucky it's as thick as it is for the time being but it won't be for long
maybe going bald might help with the cope or something, sure it'll probably make me worse and i've already got a weird complex about bald men to begin with but fuck it i deserve to be reminded of all of that every time i look in the mirror at this point i brought it on myself for not killing myself when i had the fucking chance

>>42005494
Time to troon.
I'm not even joking. The hair regrowth is almost a guarantee.
Also better to troon than to kys or be a bald dude.

>>42005482
same

>>42005608
Glad i'm not alone

Who is considering trooning out in 2026?
I am. All cope plans i had for myself amounted to nothing, i won't get kids anytime soon, no partner, no motivation to continue as guy. Fuck me, i want to experience being liked

>>42005641
I wish I was alone, I'm sorry you're here with me anon.
I'm not considering trooning because I know for a fact that it's too late for me to do that successfully. If I thought that I had the slightest chance I would drop everything in a heartbeat and go for it.
Being liked as a man you don't want to be really sucks actually

i had a dinner with a girl today

>>42005683
Is it social acceptance you crave?

>>42005641
>Who is considering trooning out in 2026?

Not considering. Everything already scheduled. Starting first Monday in January.
30+ yrs of repping. I already have kids. Small business owner, savings.
Goddamn it I need to know. Even if it fails. Even if I get suck in manmode forever, it will still be worth it if I get some other benefits (like my thought patterns finally aligning just a bit with the body).

>Fuck me, i want to experience being liked

If you're under 30, go for it. If you're older, this is a terrible reason to troon.

>>42005698
Not really, I just wish I had a body that didn't disgust me

>>42005727
hello polish swedish citizen

>If you're under 30
turning 30 in 17 days

>>42005734
>I just wish I had a body that didn't disgust me
I hope hrt can help me with that. Seen a few late tranners with a ppre tranner bodytype similar to mine. So one may hope

>gock thread is up on /trash/
gooner repbros.... we're so back

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>>42005526
AHHHH AAHHHHH OKAY

i already got a list of meds i need to buy every month, fighting my own moid body is so damn tiring

>>42005584
i can't troon because i'm hideous and 6ft+ and everyone would hate me

or maybe i will

yep in 2026 i will consider trooning or maybe exit bagging myself, i'll let kami-sama take the wheel on a coin flip

maybe after christmas i'll try trooning

>>42005747
Damn. I get clocked even here lol.

>turning 30 in 17 days

Happy birthday in advance. I'll definitely be drunk on your birthday and not on the Internet.

sorry you're so tall :((

how do you feel dissociation and derealization?

>>42005793
>i can't troon because i'm hideous and 6ft+ and everyone would hate me
boymode + hrt?
I'm telling ya, the hair part works.

>>42005852
>sorry you're so tall :((
How do you know i'm tall, does 6'1 radiate from me?
But thank you

>>42005641
Strongly considering permammanmoding, but my cope planes worked very well and now kind of imprison me

>>41986907
>QOTT What are your biggest fetishes?
It's so funny when people ask me this
My fetish is being a girl
My sexuality is being a girl
I just want to be a girl

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There she is!
As pretty as ever, without flaw and never ageing, because you never let her.
Safe and secure, looking at what you've become
>>42005883
i wanna manmode too, seems like the better alternative to this

>>42005907
I don't understand when people describe dysphoria as like picrel. I absolutely do not ever see a woman when I look in the mirror lmao, that's why I wanna die

>>42005932
I think it's the imagined ideal they project, not them as woman, which is why they're such downers

>>42005907
This would make a good horror concept

>>42005877
>How do you know i'm tall

Fair assumption you're the same anon I talked with yesterday(?).
I come rarely on this board, but I've been around for a long time. If I get clocked, I usually kinda sorta figure out where it comes from. Heuristics, as it's called in programming.

6'1 is really tall :(
Buuut, it's not excessively tall in the Netherlands.
And the face standards aren't that high either.

>>42005290
It works for me, that's all i can say.
Not only i'm still alive, but i'm better off in mental health and socially.

Is it ideal? No. But it's the best I can get so far.

>>42005907
and less and less attainable by the day
maybe she'll get to live on a reroll

>>42005982
How so?
>same anon I talked with yesterday
yeah, probably
>6'1 is really tall
If i were to tranner, why should i care what others think? I'm already punished enough, what will some sideye from a granny who'll die within 6 years, or zoomer sucking on a vape, do against me?
> the face standards aren't that high either
Dutch people look fine, dunno what you're on about

>>42006050
She'll always be with you in spirit, least there's that to comfort you

>>42006053

I will presume the rest of the post is towards me.

>Dutch people look fine

They do. But the face median in NL is more achievable than the one in Slovakia for instance (i have no idea what they put in the food there but Slovak people look amazing - both the men and the women).

>If i were to tranner, why should i care what others think?

Good mentality to start with, desu.
Half jokingly, I'd say the image of trannies would vastly improve if reppers would crack earlier and replace the crazies in public visibility.

More seriously, this shit does require thick skin. I'm sure I'll hate it sometimes. But maybe the trade-offs will be worthwhile.

not much longer now nonas

>>41986907
>qott
Prostitution
I want to be a literal street walker and let other men cum in my tiny hole.

>>42006105
please stay safe nona

>>42005907
>Safe and secure, looking at what you've become
She would be disgusted and distraught.

>>41999286
>'try'
Nah think Id rather not destroy every relationsip I have.

>>42006099
>Slovakia
Funny people that served the Austrian court, whimsical and probably spun gold. But i dunno if i'd say they look better than others, it's probably just personal preference.
> I'd say the image of trannies would vastly improve if reppers would crack earlier and replace the crazies in public visibility.
the image of tranners would vastly improve if everyone passed and if so many tranners weren't either mentally ill or autistic sonic fans.

I think one of the things that kept me from transitioning was interacting with tranners.
I've met good ones, but of dear Maria i've met many spass and mentally ill people too. It's not even funny anymore

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>>42006152
'she' isn't real, feelings dont make me a woman. wanting to be a woman doesn't make me one, neither does surgery, hornones, or dresses. sorry if that sucks to hear but its the truth

i hope i can turn my life around

>>42006189
you can everyone is capable of it except for me
do it for me

>>42006050
>not using esoteric means to ritualistically kill your girlsoul, allowing it to return to samsara ahead of you
ngmi

>>42006179
But we're not talking about you, are we? I'm talking about myself, before I started repping, who I was when I was young and just coming to understand the things I couldn't do and wouldn't be allowed to be. A bit of a projection perhaps, but I do remember my early personality and I do remember my hopes and dreams, externalize that as a person and they wouldn't be happy with how things have gone. Imagine a self branching from there who grew up in a completely supportive environment, and she would indeed be disgusted and distraught.

>>42006152
Maybe she would be. Do you think you from when you were 13 is happy now?

>>42006179
you will never be an owl

>>42006210
>Do you think you from when you were 13 is happy now?
No, but they were already miserable by then. I got bullied pretty strongly for being gnc from 10 onwards. So at 13 it'd be more despair at realizing there will be no escape and things won't get better. But hey at least letting a me at 13 see how it ends would perhaps spur that one on to get out ASAP and not repress anymore.

What happens to AMAB reppers who try to cure their dysphoria by taking even more testosterone?

>>42006229
Sad. I hope things one day will get better. The jolly yet lonely kid i was at 13 is gone too, i did not imagine ending up like this. But despite that, i must admit it is a future of my own making. Always pushing uncomfortable thoughts aside instead of accepting what they were led me to what i am today.
Don't you think you can improve anything nowadays?

>>42006244
Same thing that happens to all reppers only they start from a worse place when they do eventually troon.

>>42006259
I can improve a lot of things about my situation, but some have been ruined irrevocably. I believe that getting to self-actualize is one of those things, but I'm also one of those people thinking about hrtrepping/manmoding soon so I have no idea where I'll be in five years. If there's some kind of miracle I'll certainly report on it here, even with that guy that'll inevitably get mad about a 'fakerepper' posting.

>>42006310
Think manmoding is the future for most reppers desu. I wouldn't dream of going public with it, but seeing my body change in private sounds appealing

I don't actually have dysphoria but my biggest kinks are sissification, breeding, and diapers.

>>42006328
I've already been through something like that a bit when losing weight, it does indeed make you pretty happy to see your body changing.

>>42006357
2026 is going to be the year of mass troonout.
> losing weight
can relate. When i was in my early 20's i often went to the gym. Had a cute andro look

>>42004612
yep that sounds about right

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>>42006341
You're quite the silly willy, sissister

>>42006173
>if so many tranners weren't either mentally ill or autistic sonic fans
i met chris-chan irl at a chick fil a back when i lived in bmore (i think bronycon was going on)
it was only for a brief period but that fucking sonichu necklace and ogre face ensured i kept repping
forget optics, just seeing them is hazardous for us

gonna be honest atp half the reason im avoiding hrt is because i dont have any shirts that would effectively hide the resulting tits and i sweat like a motherfucker so i couldnt get away with wearing hoodies or a big coat or some shit
like beyond the money going into hrt id need to get essentially a new wardrobe to even just manmode and fuck knows if id have the money for that on top of everything else considering i already prefer really baggy clothes so i buy like 3xl shit

>>42006817
Can't you just get a binder, at least while they're small? And they might stay small.

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>>41986907
like, everything directly transition related or adjacent, those are always on top and present. everything else is secondary.

nothing meta or stereotypical afaik, like no diapers or puppygirl shit. though latter is not that bad honestly

transformation, feminization (both realistic hormones, and weird stuff via magic or technology, curses), bodyswap, mind control, hypnosis, corruption, kigurumi, drone shit a bit, robotization, futa but not in a coomer way, race change, twinning, identity death or alter ego shit, age progression.

but in recent years it's mostly via ai chatting sadly, so it doesn't counts it's just words btw
so sometimes i explore weird shit for fun, abdl minus d part, or omegaverse

i probably smoked enough weed during that one period i can go into super-deep, incomprehensible sounding fantasies while being fully sober

i never watched real-human porn, i never imagined myself dominant in any fantasy, like ever, i am so pure

my top and recent, fantasy since its most disconnected from reality and effortless, fast, would be diying and as a rescue put into android version of transitioned fem "me", not total sexbot or obligated to sexwork, but still easy to overpower or order around. IWNBAH IWNBAW

>>42006822
Hey, an Elin player.

>>42006821
i mean even binders are expensive as fuck nowadays and you can only wear them for like 6-8 hours a day or you get respiratory problems
im not even too bothered about the fact that theyd inhibit breast growth or anything but at a certain point im throwing money at something thats just going to make my life materially worse

>>42006829
is it good? been thinking about picking it up

>>42006850
Do you like autistic grinding games, roguelikes, and Japanese humor?

>>42006173
>one of the things that kept me from transitioning was interacting with tranners.
>met good ones, but of dear Maria i've met many spass and mentally ill people too. It's not even funny anymore

I genuinely believe things would vastly improve by keeping crazies out (that includes the exhibitionist fetishists too).
Take a page from the fags. The more they presented like normal people rather than weirdos, the more ridiculous their opposition looked.
Meanwhile, for us speak the craziest people. And it's not because they're hons (tho that doesn't help). It's what they say and do.

>>42006205
I've been trying to do this, but nothing takes.

>>42007098
Souls are immutable and indestructible, sorry anon. You will never be able to kill your soul, it will outlast your body and in the grand scheme of your existence this unhappy incarnation will be like an unpleasant afternoon.

>>42007120
You don't remember your past lives so even if my soul or whatever lives on it won't be me that lives on. I just want to stop being an AGP.

>>42007098
You gotta learn telepathy first to shatter your understanding of souls as atomized beings instead of arbitrary sets of continuum.

>>42006244
doing this actually helped me ... i lasted 6 weeks on a T blast and realised that i'm ready to stop repping :) i was willing to try anything including rope though desu

>>42007166
How much time ago was that?

How are you now?

t. repper who is escaping

I did it I beat the trannyism

Maybe I should go for the guns n roses look

nvm AGPs back

>>42007563
>>42007911
She says while posting here.
>>42008018
lol

Remviñdere If you ever wus on E you are not a repa byy

>>42007911
>>42008018
>agp cycle went from two more weeks to nine minutes
what happens when the cycle reaches 0?

>>42008237
Mine recently changed from 4 years to twelve hours

>>42008237
pain.

>>41990059
>64fag from /v/ is a repper
mythical pull but not surprising desu

>>42008064
Im escapin repping.
Thanks for calling me she :3

>>42008594
Oh THAT escape. Best of luck to you then, anon.

maybe i'll "escape" if you know what i mean

>>41997948
I should also add that I'm having a bad AGPisode tonight so I don't know if my symptoms persisting despite chronic isolation from women legitimizes my mental illness or not.

>>42008676
Chronic isolation is mental illness fuel
Stop being shut-ins, retards

>>42008822
HOW

>>42008826
Fuck you mean "how" go outside

>>42008832
now what its fucking dark and cold

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>>42008822
What's the worst that can happen from staying inside?

>>41986926
Willow Trees are my favorite tree. There is one near me and the image of a Weeping Willow hanging over a winding stream in the spring sun is one of the serene and peaceful things I can envisage.

But for flowers I have a special place in my heart for Jasmine, admittedly mostly because of it's gorgeous aroma. They small and delicate by themselves, but also beautiful even when they are almost over grown in a big bush

>>41991975
Yay another Willow fan! They are truly lovely trees.

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Okay but really I found my way back. I found my purpose. I was born male. I was meant to be male. I will always be male. I just have to step up to it. I will be the hero
Now I JUST need a woman to simulate my mother and no I don't mean do my chores and stuff I mean act like a drunken smoking mess complaining about life and sex who needs sexual gratification and she only wants, can only get it, is her big strong son
It's that simple

>>42008932
Has everyone in this thread penetrated their mother?

>>42008932
I diagnose you with you want to be the mother

>>42008944
Ew.

>>42008932
bro wants to return to the womb for a do-over

>>42008910
Make depression worse
Loosen your ability to discern fantasy/intrusive thoughts from normal patterns
If aspie/autist, that gets far worse too

There's also physical effects if you dont open the window often enough.

All of the above gets 10x worse with sleep deprivation which is common for terminally online doomscrollers

t. Posting this from a train

my life is really pathetic

>>42009112
Enjoy the train ride nonny.

I found a youtube channel I think you guys would like the other day

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>>42006782
What an experience. Think a big takeaway from him is, lose weight if you're fat. Trannering will look better. Chris is so far gone there's no saving though
>>42007030
tbf LGBT is a refuge for outcasts, so naturally it attracts weirdos. I must admit that reppers aren't completely normal either, they just mask well - often out of fear or shame for who they are.
Get to know more fags and you'll realise they arent quite normal either. Some years back i chatted with one, and he said something like "haha we all have that early experience of sniffing our cousin's undies, yea", genuinely did not know what to respond to that.

Anyone here sometimes takes body photos of themselves, to see if they still have a little hope or not?

>>42010045
What kind?

I figure many of you Mister sisters like playing videogames, anyone wanna play l4d2 with me?

>>42010591
>Anyone here sometimes takes body photos of themselves, to see if they still have a little hope or not?
I'm camera shy. I've been told I'm a terrible subject for photography because I can't smile for more than half a second. I hate seeing photos of myself, face or no, because it reminds me of what I can never hand.

>>42011073
Have you no concern, that when you're old you cannot see yourself in youth?

> I can't smile for more than half a second.
i just blur out my face, mostly i just focus on my upper body and hips

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>>42006822
matrix wouldn't let me upload fitting img yesterday
it's a good evening for a testicular torsion diy orchi...

>>42013809
Smoking weed again?

>>42014115
no i am thankfully very sober last few months, from everything

>>42014309
Neat, wanna play l4d2?

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The tranny thoughts are slowly winning, repbros. I'm looking up diy, waist trainers and laser hair removal places. What do I do?
>>42009112
>physical effects if you don't open the window often enough
Seconding this. It seems like such a small thing, but natural light and air circulation make a difference.

>>42014414
laser hair removal is based. do it if facial hair really bothers you. i don't regret it at all

>>42014443
I tolerate facial hair. I prefer a clean shave.
I hate stubble. I feel it makes my facial features more noticeable. A beard at least hides them.
I saw my first gray hairs tho. Aren't those harder to eliminate with laser?

>>42014693
yeah, laser works best on dark hairs. electrolysis can remove everything but is a slower process

>>42006886
nta but no - sticking to dungeon crawl stone soup instead