i want to know if you started hrt because you gooned too hard to the idea of being the opposite sext. manmoder who gooned too hard to the idea of being a woman
>>42195014When I was 12, years before I knew what a tranny really was or that I was or could be one I discovered futa porn and suddenly everything made sense. When I was able to mentally out myself in the place of the dick girl everything just felt right. After years of depression and deliberation I will be taking my life back this year and getting on hormones
>>42195014I tried to goon my way out of being a tranny early in life.
>>42195014idk pre-trans the only way i could get off was by imagining myself as a girl during sex. but then i trooned out so i just kind of feel like a normal straight woman now. i just sort of think sex was the one context where it wasn't possible to lie to myself, since i was dysphoric & it required me to be present in and with a body i didnt rly like.
>>42195014I don't think so, I don't watch porn, or very little in general, even sex doesn't interest me that much.
>>42195014people have taken so much from me, no I didn't transition for a fetish. It was an act of self determination.
>>42195035this board psyopped me into thinking that wanting to have sex via the male sexual organ is bad and that you're predatory and a rapist if you don't want to get bottom surgery i am a femboy (mtf transitioning), but i am bisexual and still want to have sex that way this board is so fucking stupid sometimes
>>42195014no i transitioned because of intense dysphoria. i fucking hate you freaks who get off to this. you make us all look bad.
I transitioned because I thought I'd have more social success as a woman
>>42196047Dysphoria is a manifestation of the fetish going unfulfilled.
>>42196075yet somehow when i transitioned i didnt get my rocks off. weird how that happens, i think you are just projecting
>>42196092It's like when the crossdressers of old would spend hours getting dressed in order to "relax"It was clearly a sex thing even if they didn't outright goon to it
>>42195014No i transitioned because i viewed it as an alternative to suicide after years of repping. Gooning made me feel disgusting and faketrans.
>>42196114i have no idea how cross dressers feel when they do it. i dont understand your point? i just didnt want to be male. there isnt some hidden nuance here. why are you projecting your feelings onto me.
>>42195014yes i'm a faketrans freak and now i feel trapped because i'm not pretty
>>42196146well i'm pretty enough to get creeped on and sexually assaulted but mostly people leave me alone
>>42195014I definitely have (and still have) a cuntboy fetish, so maybe. Why would I want to be something I find unattractive?
>>42196142Not wanting to be male in a natal male is AGP
>>42196163okay? i still dont get turned on by being trans. your logic isnt very well though through if i can break it by just being normal
>>42196175"I don't get turned on I just do it to relieve sexual frustration"
>>42196066Did it work?t. >>42195760
>>42196196if i wanna relieve sexual frustration i jack off retard.can you explain to me how it feels to you to be trans?
>>42195014idk i discovered femboys when i was like 12 or 13 and became obsessessed, i just couldnt accept i would eventually become a normal man with a receding hairline and body hair, i guess thats a fetish.
>>42196225It feels like I'm wearing a woman costume that is uncomfortable but that everyone else seems to think is real, and they treat me better than they ever did before I put the costume on.
>>42196254wait r u ftm? im confused why is being a woman uncomfortable for you
>>42196271No, I'm mtf. Being a woman is uncomfortable because I was supposed to be a man, but it didn't work out.
>>42196271its a hsts aka predatory gay manand they call themselves "trutrans" LOL
>>42196281sounds like you're projecting your sexual frustration on to other trans women who live authentically
>>42196281do you feel comfortable presenting as a man? im confused tbqh, so u do this out of a fetish but then continuing to do it makes you uncomfortable. why not just do it to get yourself off and then drop it. i dont understand fetishistic trannys man
>>42196309Where did you get the idea that I do it as a fetish? I do it because other people treated me poorly as a man.When I'm at home and I don't have to do the woman performance for other people I dress like a man.
>>42196329>Where did you get the idea that I do it as a fetish?because you were very adamant that being trans is a fetish??>I do it because other people treated me poorly as a man.seems a little drastic. people were mean to you and your way to cope was to transition?? are you retarded???
>>42196354No, I was adamant that dysphoria over being male and having a male body is a fetish.My inability to be an acceptable man to other people was ruining my social life and career prospects.
>>42196354They're a transmaxxer
>>42196075Dysphoria is entirely unrelated to fetishes.
>>42196413different nonaWhat's so wrong about transmaxxing?t. >>42195760
>>42196439Nothing inherently tbhon, but the shitty mindset about dysphorics is.
>>42196436dysphoria -> autoandrophobia -> autogynephilia -> paraphilia
>>42196439You "really wanted" to be a woman which is different, sounds more gender euphoric than transmaxxy
>>42196459Not a single connection there is real.
>>42196459autoandrophobia -> autogynephiliathis is a big jump>>42196400>My inability to be an acceptable man to other people was ruining my social life and career prospects.were you really ugly or something? even if you were effeminate it wouldnt stop u from getting a job idk what ur on about
>>42196500I was built like a tall anorexic chick with facial hair. I looked like a freak. Tried gaining weight, it just went to my thighs. Tried bulking up at the gym, my body refused. I also behaved like a faggot pussy and couldn't make sense of male social rules despite repeated attempts.All that stuff is okay after transitioning though.
>>42196565>All that stuff is okay after transitioning though.Well, minus the facial hair, obviously.
>>42196565>I looked like a freak.do you look good now?>I also behaved like a faggot pussy and couldn't make sense of male social rules despite repeated attempts.lol i get this im the same. the way boys socialize was so foreign to me. i just hung out with girls.
>>42196600I look like a tall but otherwise mid woman now when I'm in public.
>>42196616did u ever consider taking testosterone? it might honestly make it so you can be the male you wanted to be without having to womancope.
>>42196632Yes. I did. It didn't seem to do anything. My testosterone was already high-normal.
>>42196637thats bizare. im sorry you gotta suffer like this. you are like a repping ftm.
>>42196646Thanks anon.Yeah, I suppose that's one way of putting it.
>>42196655also i know you arent gonna believe me but that feeling you have about being uncomfortable being a woman and it feeling like a costume. thats how dysphoria feels like for me.
>>42196671If it's about the social expectations of being a man feeling like a costume (or maybe even a straitjacket) then I can maybe relate from the other side.I wanted to meet the social expectations of manhood. I just never seemed to be able to. I can meet the social expectations of womanhood, I just feel like an impostor when doing it.
>>42196720yeah its how dysphoria has felt for me. i always disliked the social status of being a guy. it felt like i was forced down this road that i have no desire of being on what so ever and then seeing the otherside (womanhood) and realizing thats what actually would work for me.
>>42196565>Tried gaining weight, it just went to my thighs. Tried bulking up at the gym, my body refused. I also behaved like a faggot pussy and couldn't make sense of male social rules despite repeated attempts. This was me until realizing that i am still trans recently I'm not in a good mood about it though cause i have a feeling it'll blow up my whole life more than it already has been lately and i had a dream i was living with a bunch of other trannies last year so I'm scared of how shit is gonna go the further i get into transitioning. My mom is probably going to lose her shit when i can't hide having breasts anymore when i start e. I don't feel well. I also hate feeling like a failure as a man because I know that I'm not one on the inside. And i had multiple dreams when this all started again that seemed to be indicating to me that my father was also a repper. He didn't transition and he ended up turning into an abuser and destroying me and my mother's lives. But now if i transition I'll have an even shittier and unstable and abnormal life but I have to do it anyway. I wonder why life is so fucked up.
>>42196819Maybe i just have autism
I haven't transitioned, but I have never masturbated to anything of the desired sex because I don't like the idea of bringing up my incorrect sex into the other side. Meaning, I hate mixing one thing with the other.If I could, I would've just asked God to make me right before conceiving me.
I transitioned because of my AGP but I didn't transition for my AGP Basically AGP gave me gender dysphoria but my decision to transition wasn't motivated by conscious or anticipated arousal but rather by the damage that AGP had inflicted on my psyche from the ages of 8-9 onward
>>42196819Maybe? You have to be prepared for being a woman to be uncomfortable too, and to detransition if it works out worse than being a man. "Transition at all costs" is what leads many trannies to lives of misery.
>>42197973I've gotten a taste of it because I've gone out in makeup and have gotten some very evil stares, but also a lot of good looks from people and some compliments. I just look like a gay goth boy when I do that. I actually feel much more happy with my appearance and happy and bubbly in general when I do that, but I feel awful and uncomfortable when I go out like that cause everyone stares at me. I also get so jealous and upset sometimes when I see really cute passing trannies. And I'm really not manly at all as a man. Even just in terms of traits either sex can have, I am a really naturally timid and fearful person. I'm also upset cause I'm >>42194959 so I had a chance to transition at age 13 but missed out because I was scared to take hrt
>>42198368Most of the "passoids" in passgen don't actually pass. In the cold light of day, in motion, whole body size and shape visible... well, there's a reason they're still posting themselves on /tttt/ and haven't graduated to just being women.
>>42197973>You have to be prepared for being a woman to be uncomfortable toothis is true even for the good endingbeing a woman sucks
