>>42363410
hey me too

I had to share a bed with my dad when I was 16, and I lived in an apartment with him. I used to masturbate while he was asleep. I asked to sleep in his closet because it was the only place I could goon in peace. People made jokes about me 'coming out of the closet', because of this.
T. 21 year old troon

>>42363410
I never got groomed because I never used forums or anything as a teen or kid but I kinda wish I did get groomed into trooning young

>>42363846
Addendum, I initially jerked off while I was in the same bed with him

>>42363410
I am in an emotional affair with my friend. I just realized it recently and have been spiraling over it ever since.
She is married. In my mind's eye, we were just being really good friends. Very close, all the time. Very supportive. Best friends, even. We can lean on and rely on each other in a way we cant trust most people with. We can pretty much see each other whenever, have pretty free access to each others' homes, time, personal space, thoughts, emotions. We've talked about some very sexual things but never done anything, which I think is why I remained ignorant. "Just close friends", or "part of my family", but if you read our texts or watch how close we are in person, youd think we were girlfriends or more...
I had a crush on her for a long time. That developed recently into romantic feelings. She has admitted to sharing some of the same feelings and yearning for a shared life. She knows its messed up and feels guilt over it. That's what made me start wondering if I was hurting her.
She's the most amazing person Ive ever known. She has been so so kind to me and helped me in ways that have frankly saved my life at least once. I owe her a deep debt of gratitude and love her - I want the best for her and dont want to hurt her. Her relationship has some problems that will destroy it in the long run if unaddressed, but it is not unsalvageable and she is so so vibrant and happy when around her spouse - I want them to fix what problems they have and I want them to work out. But I cant help aside from urging her to talk about her issues and needs more freely with her spouse. I dont want to pull away. The dark places her mind goes when she doesnt feel supported breaks my heart to pieces.
I wont lie, a part of me is also a little greedy. I wish on some level I could have her to myself. But that isnt a possibility, I think.
Ive been very numb the past few days since realizing the nature of what Ive gotten into. I just wanted to be closer to my friend...

>>42364177
Some of this isnt true. Some of it is just messed up perceptions of my mind. Maybe she doesnt see me the same way I see her. Idk. Maybe its much bigger in my mind. Idk tho. If I read some of the texts that have been sent off of an SO's phone, Id jump straight to "thats an affair" and thats whats fucking with me.

I've been getting stoned a lot recently. There are periods where I've done this a lot and then quit but I always come back to it. It's really the only thing that's made me feel good recently. Everything that was good in my life is gone. I used to stay sober because there were other things that I enjoy that I couldn't do when I was high all of the time. Well, now there aren't. I just feel shitty all of the time. Addiction runs in my family and I stayed away from drugs for the longest time because I knew it would happen to me --- and it did.

>>42363410
I always hated pets

You sound sexy