im gunna try to tell myself to stop killing myself

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Apart from the GOTT, here are a few things you can do _today_ to make your life a little better. Keep a diary and write down every success. Some you may do as often as you please, but write down each one individually! You deserve it! Do not feel pressured to do all, but feel free to select one or two!

- prepare 1 load of laundry
- do 1 load of laundry
- read one page of a book or manga you have been putting off
- cook yourself a meal, or try learn to make a simple dish
- eat a meal
- pick up items on the floor for 5 minutes
- make your bed
- if you have a bad habit, try making it more inconvenient (putting things in hard to reach places for example)
- do the dishes for 3 minutes
- write down one thing you are grateful for (from abstract things to something like a cute image you saw)
- Clean up 1m^2 of your floor (~40x40 in)
- Open your window for 10-20 minutes
- try to exercise for 5 min (walk outdoors, walking stairs, whatever you wish)
- take out the trash
- drink a glass of water
- put one item of trash in the bin
- reach out to an online contact
(perhaps even try arrange spontaneously meeting up with an IRL contact near you!)
- BONUS: Repeat a goal to hit a milestone (1 book chapter rather than a page, the laundry pile, the floor of one room, etc)


Unofficial group chats maintained by kind anons of /sig/:
IRC: presently defunct afaik.
Discord: https://discord.gg/pUuXdBjKX2

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>>43001623
It's tough, and strongly depends on your circumstances. Are you looking for other LGBT people, or not necessarily?
Do you live somewhere rural or urban? What are your hobbies/interests?
>>43004902
>Oh well.
How do you feel now, Anon? How are things overall, hope you're not too lonely/isolated.
>>43005253
>I’m down at least another size, let’s fucking go!
Congrats, Panty!
>I got my 2 TB external hard drive today too, so now I can really start downloading and organizing the various media I’ve bookmarked and/or saved online.
A good choice, I myself recently started archiving youtube channels that I like, I plan to pull Fredrik Knudsen's work soon (Down the Rabbit Hole is something I wanna be able to show my kids some day).
>>43005886
>Accidentally stayed up an hour late
On that note: FUCK DST, I can't wait for this shit to finally be tossed.
>>43012988
>GLP-1
In short, it is very effective and few side effects are known. But you don't want to have to take it for the rest of your life, right?
The thing is that it makes you lose weight rapidly, and while you are on it you won't build the habits needed to maintain your target weight unless you make the conscious effort to adjust your portion sizes to the right level (not too much OR too little). Rapid weight loss will also cause your body to try to yo-yo, so if you use it the best you can do is factor in gaining back some weight and maintain that gained level. I should probably put this in the resources.

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>>43009160
>>43010439
I hope you recovered from drinking, Anon!
>>43013507
It's always such a nice thing when people around you start to notice your progress, I'm happy for you! I'm working on health stuff as well, I gained some weight this winter and am once again on my way to my original target weight.
>i've been socializing more as well and dressing up more presentable when i'm out.
Lovely news all around it seems, wishing you nothing but the very best as well Anon, as always.
>>43018097
>an other wasted week cause im too tired to even wake up if its not genuinenly for my job and nothing else
Hm, what are the things you enjoy doing, Anon
>>43019587
Ah, neat! Funny they put SiO2 in there, I took that for a while because of connective tissue issues.

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>>43019916
>First of all cute mothf
Thank you! I love moths, have since I was a child.
>they just want sex or dick pics or worse and im too paranoid to interact woth people who i cant know cause lmao online
It's a risky thing, hitting up people online, and I get why you went with people on 4chan. I met lovely people here but of course not everyone is. And yeah, given your experiences it is absolutely no wonder you have no interest in chasers.
>so while i cherish them as much as i can the irl connection that makes things stick isnt there unfortunatle and i cant change that
I get it, so at its core everyone you know online lives prohibitively far away and you have no means of visiting them, which in and of itself is of course a very calculated risk to ever take in the first place. At its core you are comparably isolated it seems. Was there a fallout with the local trans community or something?
I think my first and foremost suggestion would be for you to seek community locally, through hobbies, voluntary work, anything that comes to mind that exposes you to people and engages you with something you find pleasant enough on top. I only ever found love through friendships that evolved organically, and that is a much more painless process for others too as far as I can see, as it weeds out anyone who just wants to get their dick wet.
>>43020257
I feel your pain, Anon. Do you have to resort to the yellow pages or is there a site you can look dentists near you up online?
>>43023316
I actually made my first quiche the other day, admittedly I cheated by omitting the quiche crust (since it's a fair bit more effort and my focus was to first get the filling right) but it came out nice. I used mustard, sausage and leek. Next time I will use a different kind of sausage I believe, but otherwise it came out great.

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>>43022240
>>43022332
>Might have messed up arranging my CT scan for FFS will find out tomorrow morning.
Hope it turned out alright in the end, Navy.
>dead-end TERF-infested town.
Fucking ew, I'm glad when you can GTFO of there.
>programming/automation side of factory engineer work while I build a stronger background with the hands-on stuff.
>Then, eventually, I'd like to turn my engineering experience into a pathway into medical robotics/prosthetics
That's really cool actually! I wish you nothing but the best.
>there's more to write here, but it's not worth it, too many worms in that can.
That is fair, it sounded like an immensely complicated situation. Honestly, it is insane how the same nation that treats you like this also makes you jump through hoops to serve it.
>there are plenty of people who have it far worse than I do.
I understand where you are coming from, but I just wanna make sure you don't diminish your own issues just because others may have it worse, or because of whatever amount may be self inflicted. Self compassion is good for you, and I am just probing you a little to make sure you don't fall into the trap of practicing it too little. It can make you less productive to be too hard on yourself.
>>43023322
>>43024327
>>43027174
>I feel like a failure for being this reliant on him.
Chances are you wouldn't have to rely on him anymore had he gotten supporting you right the first time, but that is mere conjecture on my part.
>This country is falling apart, socially and infrastructure wise.
Okay so it is a much bigger scope thing, Christ..
>I didn't do enough to help but I missed my family so much.
Then it was worth it.
>I appreciate the continued patience.
That feeling is mutual, I have gotten quite slow recently, it is only a temporary matter though.
>it is at the end of the day it's own form of betrayal.
Beautifully put.
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>>43023322
>>43024327
>>43027174
(2/2)
>I just can't seen to interface or accept it being the case with me but I need to since it's affecting my siblings too.
It will grow easier once you can afford to leave him behind and create some distance. Emotionally and physically.
>I don't know if I should even bother trying to talk to him about this anymore.
A good call. Try to minimize his involvement, he wouldn't let anyone do right by him anyway.
>I need to get myself and the rest of us out of this situation.
Just make sure not to carry this weight alone.
>Do you mean your parental figures were the same way?
My mother most certainly was, yeah!
>because he loves us (me and my sister).
I would have a lot of things to say about this but nothing of practical use and plenty vitriolic. The sooner you are away from him the better.
>Part of me still feel like I am wrong and ugly to think like this.
The only ugliness in all this is outside of you.
>Like, I don't deserve to feel bad because it's ultimately my fault
>So, it's not 'entirely' my fault that things have fallen apart like this?
We are all depressingly dependent on the circumstances we were put in. When bad things happen we tend to overestimate our agency in things, to cope. Because if we truly knew how little we sometimes could have done without someone else getting in the way is devastating to ponder. Accept agency where it empowers you, but consider the fault question irrelevant where your choices boil down to "could have been"s versus "rigged from the start"s.
>>43026720
>Back pain is an odd mistress.
One of those "randomly comes and goes" kinds?
>>43033482
>every trans person should know how to defend themselves, so at least do some boxing.
based and correct

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>>43028048
>the way I look
can you articulate aspects?
>and the way I have interacted with others.
I assume you mean what you wrote below, but don't hesitate to add.
>my relationships lack depth.
It can be a matter of setting the stage. Do you have a chance to talk to people you wish to get closer to in private? Try to seek out spaces where people are comfortable being vulnerable in the first place. This can vary from person to person, it can be anything from spending time with you at home to something as simple as a private chat. You got used to small talk, do you make it a habit to tie your own personal history and experiences into it? This way you give people a chance to learn more about you, and also implicitly gives YOU a chance to learn more about them, as you can turn things around and ask "what about you".
>It's hard not to feel like I'm just bothering people who are often busier than I am.
Think of it the other way around; if they are busy, then you are doing them a favor by reducing the cognitive load they need to socialize with you. Nobody wants to die alone, you know? And keeping in contact with people is hard when you have a lot to do. I speak from personal experience: it is such an immense help when people poke me, or take the initiative to suggest times and dates I can work around, because I am so caught up in my day to day it is hard to make room.
>While vulnerability is key, it will also absolutely scare people away if you keep asking for validation!
If you keep asking, sure, but you gotta let THEM set that boundary. Me, for example? I am used to reassuring people ad infinitum, I have no upper limit even the most insecure friends of mine have managed to reach.
>The things I care about are usually drastically different and I sometimes get the sneaking suspicion people view me as pretentious or inaccessible.
I know that feeling, the trick is actually to find ways to conjure connections between your and their interests.
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>>43028048
(2/3)
>While vulnerability is key, it will also absolutely scare people away if you keep asking for validation!
If you keep asking, sure, but you gotta let THEM set that boundary. Me, for example? I am used to reassuring people ad infinitum, I have no upper limit even the most insecure friends of mine have managed to reach.
>The things I care about are usually drastically different and I sometimes get the sneaking suspicion people view me as pretentious or inaccessible.
I know that feeling, the trick is actually to find ways to conjure connections between your and their interests.
>ADHD
That is fair, it only compounds, sadly my advice for these things tends to be a bit biased towards NT approaches, we do have ADHD resources dedicated to trying to account for the challenges unique to it.
>It would be so difficult for me to expand that relationship outside of class without a little bit of anxiety.
That is fair, and I hope you don't mind me nudging you towards that! Nobody wants to die alone in the end, and even the sociable types will lose a LOT of their connections over time, you know? Think of it from the other one's perspective. You will never know how many people you missed out on because they felt they were intruding, where you woulda welcomed them with open arms. Doesn't that suck? In the spirit of that,
>but never got their contact info.
I absolutely encourage you to change that!
>it feels weird to even ask to do stuff because
>it has been more than a year since we have regularly hung out.
It is never too late, Anon. Trust me with that. Keeping the leitmotif of "the other one doesn't wanna die alone either" can help a lot in this regard. People genuinely appreciate attempts to reconnect years after the fact. Fuck, I sometimes lose contact to people for years because life. I know how hard it is to then start over and say hi the first time again.. I am not trying to say any of this is easy, but I wanna reassure you it is good to do it!

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>>43028048
(2/3)
>You're probably right. It's always been yearning for more and feel dejected in the face of adversity.
That is normal, it sucks having to put in so much effort for what seems to come so naturally to others. It's deeply upsetting and can make us resent the thing we crave. I am here to cheer you on through those feelings!
>>43030995
>being starved makes me look so gaunt and makes my grave look really angular.
I understand, that low weight is absolutely devastating a mix with dysphoria from what I know.. I hope you read this by the way, sorry for taking so long.
>How can i over this? and How do i get the motivation to keep every day when it looks like i haven't done anything
ED is a bitch, generally. We do have some basic resources on it that might help for a start, and I hope anticipating refeeding syndrome won't be necessary (but we have refeeding guides), but even though I am no nutritionist I can absolutely try create a thorough meal plan with you that takes your personal comfort into account. How does that sound?
>>43035294
Chemistry is fun, kek
>>43035490
Wishing you nothing but the very best Anon! My evening is pleasant, though I am looking forward to a short vacation soon.
>>43038050
Do you gain muscles in the wrong spots or do you have none at all?

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>>43039886
>Becayse I just cant and won’t and don’t care enough or at all to even engage and it is alll so tiresome
You sound hella exhausted, and like you have a lot on your plate at the moment. Would it be alright to ask you what exactly is going on?
>>43039932
>>43039959
Hey Anon(s), are you still around?
>>43041797
>i dont think so but you're doing the lords work
Trying my best, as always! It sucks when our bodies give out like that and throw us off our rhythm, you are doing great to work around it.
>hope i can start running again soon, started a c25k progam and was really enjoying it :(
I hope so too, but you are doing your best to hasten the healing process along, which is great!
>the shoes are not a good fit for my feet.
You plan on getting better shoes soon? It's definitely gonna do a lot, even if it wasn't what caused your ankle issues.
>>43042684
That's awesome news, congrats!
>i went from 93 kg to 87 without crash dieting, dropped close to 2 points in bmi.
That is amazing progress, and honestly, something you should be proud of! Don't be afraid to offhandedly mention it to the people you are getting to know recently, I am sure they'll be happy for you as well.
>so this is my silly little letter to the void sharing my progress so far. thank you all ^-^
And thank you, I want you to know these letters are read and appreciated!

>>43093452
>You plan on getting better shoes soon? It's definitely gonna do a lot, even if it wasn't what caused your ankle issues.
Not really. Gonna try a few more weeks with these and see how it goes. I havent been running much before now so its entirely possible that my ankles got overworked. Ankles starting to feel better so if im feeling 100% tomorrow might go for a run. Started yoga in the meantime tho!

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According to my timer I spent 4 hours working on /sig/ today.
I think I need a break. I made good progress but it needs more.
>>43043938
>I am a bad person and I should feel bad about myself.
What makes you bad then, Anon?
>>43044323
>I envy the fact that they seem to be getting rewarding for their efforts.
>That all their struggle has more meaning and pay off than mine ever will.
I think I get what you mean, thank you for painting me a picture of it. I would like to learn more about your efforts, if it's alright. I know it might not mean much coming from a stranger, but I would genuinely enjoy listening to what you tried to accomplish, no matter what came of it.
>>43046078
Hm, I assume you would seek out a psychiatrist for meds (which would be trial and error) and a therapist to open up to, perhaps? Are there very few of either where you're from?
>ADHD
How expensive would it be to try and get a diagnosis? Prohibitively so or just inconveniently so?
>I probably wanted to add smth else but I postponed it too much and forgot it so yeah
No biggie, you can always boop me when something comes to mind.
>>43047897
Sounds like you basically encountered what people would describe ftm chaser behavior, it sucks and is generally inconsiderate.
What experiences have you had with other trans men, since you mentioned not relating to them?
>>43048966
>I was trying to learn a skill I read from books/YouTube videos detailing how to do it, but when I applied to the real world, I suck so much
What kind of skill was it?
>parents always somehow levitate and teleport and often show up without announced.
Do you depend in any way on them? If not, it sounds like some more drastic measures need to be taken to evict them from your life, this is just stalker behavior.

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It is good to know that I don't matter, or not, I'm not sure anymore, obviously I knew they would just keep on their lives, barely with anything different, I suppose I need to harden the hatred in my heart. I hope to god that we all burn in nuclear fire soon.

>>43093306
>what are the things you enjoy doing, Anon
drinking and wasting time it seems
i dont know i ahve lost track of myself over time.
i need a break

>>43093315
>have since I was a child.
me too! Slugs and lizards too. Reminds me of a distant home..
>And yeah, given your experiences it is absolutely no wonder you have no interest in chasers.
and it all behind me rn. I just cant be arsed to go back to that
>I only ever found love through friendships that evolved organically, and that is a much more painless process for others too as far as I can see, as it weeds out anyone who just wants to get their dick wet.
i agree
>I think my first and foremost suggestion would be for you to seek community locally, through hobbies, voluntary work, anything that comes to mind that exposes you to people and engages you with something you find pleasant enough on top.
I just have no time for that and im losing the few online friends i have. it sucks.
Im so self critical and tend to isolate to boot. I ish i could figure things out with the people i kinda abandoned. They were good peeps. Alas i wasnt sticking with them because im so...idk weird and lame. Again just too critical of myself

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>>43093245
im a lonely neet who will be moving to a new town soon. i want to make friends but I'm scared everyone will hate me for being trans.

>>43093452
>Would it be alright to ask you what exactly is going on?
i work and then i work and then i waste time on nothing and then i get pushed away or i push people away and i want to be treatted a certain way so i force that on people and then i hate myself for others reasons, mainly how i feel about my gender issues and all that complicated shit
yeah
>Hey Anon(s), are you still around?
yes i was so mad at people who have it better than me xd
not so much right now

>>43094992
I can tell you that everyone that left me is remembered.
I miss them.

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What do you do when all of your passion has been bled out of you and you have so much resentment that you genuinely no longer see the difference between making it and losing it but somehow always feel bitter? How much exactly is a person supposed to take before I'm allowed to just hang myself?

>>43093510
moar yoga today :)

I realized I have a new sona and space in my head where I can be free

>>43093245
I absolutely have to lose weight and fix my diet, it's hard.

>>43096457
thread died before i could reply, what makes you think they will be here when you decide it's convenient, men die on the shore waiting for calmer seas lol

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>>43095911
I thought this way for a long time myself. I didn’t choose to be born, my parents just wanted to have a kid, so it’s easy to think of life as an obligation or a chore.

And if you don’t feel like you’ve been given a real chance to succeed, if you feel resented, it’s easy to think that you shouldn’t have to stay alive; that there’s a threshold of distress where dying by suicide can be justified. The trouble is that if you dwell on this idea that it’s impossible to be happy while you’re alive, all you’ve got left is the chance that dying will make you feel better. And if it doesn’t, you’ve thrown away your life for nothing.

There’s a lot of chance determining who is alive and who isn’t. People die all the time that wanted to keep on living. What seems like a burden to you would be a gift to someone else. It was chance that brought you into this world and chance that let you live to see this day. You’re fortunate to be alive right now.

Life doesn’t have to be so miserable as it seems for you. A lot of unhappy people think that unhappiness is a sign of insight, education, etc. This is a common misconception. You don’t need to be unhappy to understand the world properly. The first step to making our life better, and making the world a better place, is to believe that it’s worth trying. If you think the sky is falling, buy a helmet. You can’t control everything, but that doesn’t mean you can’t control anything. The world is a lot less scary when you take action yourself instead of just worry about what’s going to happen to you.

The benefit of fresh air, sunlight, and physical activity on our mood is massively underrated. We may be thinking animals, but that still makes us animals and making sure we’re giving ourselves what the average pet or zoo animal has can make a world of difference.

Anyway, I hope somebody finds this helpful.

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I'll be lurking here for awhile, came out to my parents as gay back in January after a nasty breakup with my boyfriend.

I already been in a weight loss journey since last September and am nearly there to a 210 from 330+, but I feel like I'm still bullshitting when it comes to skincare. What do your skincare routines look like anon? I'm not going turbo tranny but am wanting to present more feminine

Right now my morning is
>vitamin C, face wash, olay moisturizer, SPF 50 sunscreen on face + arms

afternoon
>face wash & olay sculpting cream

evening
>face wash & morning moisturizer

I've tried salt scrubs and sugar since February as well, but I'm too much of a pussy for shaving my arms and legs, been thinking about waxxing

about to sit down for yet another evening of writing in my diary! that makes one full week yay

>>43097844
good luck anon. i kind of just use a light spf moisturizer after my showers... every time i try anything more complicated my skin breaks out big time. 3 times a day seems like crazy work

A big thank you to Siganon, and many other posters for all the replies and advice. We all appreciate it.

>>43093340
>Chances are you wouldn't have to rely on him anymore had he gotten supporting you right the first time,
It's likely.
I have to interface with the fact that some of the problems in my life are my own fault but that doesn't make his attitude and train of thought any less concerning.

>but that is mere conjecture on my part
He's tried very hard in some way, but also not at all in others.

I can explain more later but he's been all over the place at times, which makes it hard for me to tell whether I can truly trust him or not.

Good night

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>>43093245
Go outside!!! Touch grass!!! c:

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