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Probably not, even if being a cis woman would be an objective improvement over my current life, I don't think I'd be able to live down the trauma and shame
I'm used to having a penis, it's not really the part that I could have an issue with

ten thousand times

>>43406531
>QOTT
definitely would yeah
>hard mode
still would but less definitely
Honestly having to live with a crushed penis still attached for the rest of the day would be the worst part. You would probably need to tie it off with a tourniquet to not bleed out before you can somehow go to sleep

>>43406531
>qott
>hard mode
why are you being so mean to me
why do you want to hurt me

I want to be a woman

make me into a girl now please. hurry up

>>43406531
that feels much easier than transitioning so absolutely?

>>43406531
i love femdom porn where women destroy cocks with their heels

i have pretty long hair, reaches about my mid-back, probably about an inch or two over my waist, good volume and hairline too. i've just brushed it and collected what came off. easily more than a fistful. while crouched down on my floor, picking hair up, i think something in me just died.
>>43406531
>qott
it's pretty small and the part that really hurts is the balls anyways. i think i could steel through it.
>hard mode
i only considered anesthetic when you mentioned it.

ultra hard mode: theres only a 10% chance you'll become a woman and you could even be an ugly disfigured one

>>43406531
qott: yes
hard mode: i'm a masochist, yes harder

>>43409045
that's not a problem, i keep a stockpile of carrots around in my kitchen

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What’s the point of transitioning if cis people will never see you as a woman and trans people are all assholes

>>43409275
generally, the point of any intervention is to make you more of a functional human being. for people afflicted with gender dysphoria, transition generally has the best outcomes compared to other interventions. that's pretty much it - if you function better on hrt, or wearing more femme cut clothing, or taking other steps to lessen your feelings of dysphoria, even if you don't pass, you are going to be better equipped to deal with the bullshit that is life.

of course, if you end up functioning worse on hrt, or more distressed by being a trans woman than a repressing cis man, or harassed, that might mean there's no point in transitioning for you. that's why /repgen/ exists. but there is a point, for some people anyway

>>43409307
can the gains you get function wise offset the harassment, distress, ostracization of being a trannosauraus freak day to day that's the question

>>43409275
escaping homophobic persecution while lying about why you are doing it

wish i could move into the woods nature is the ultimate healer

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>mfw i see an ftm timeline

>>43409439
i have come across people whose dysphoria was so severe that they had plans ready for committing suicide. in general, an intervention that keeps you alive, even with all the harassment and distress, is seen as better than death.

if the dysphoria is lesser? well, you need to answer that yourself, john. i saw people cope by crossdressing, roleplaying, religious devotion. they seem to be okay, though they cry on my shoulder from time to time. some also hrt manmode but that's not the same.

one thing i can advise you is that repping without an outlet, just pushing it in and shoving it under the rug, will fuck you up. it's a highway to becoming john 50. find a better way.

>>43409469
i have plans too but it might not be all just because of this
then again what are you saying that living as an embarrassing clown is better than dying not sure about that

>>43409483
>living as an embarrassing clown is better than dying
i think that in general living is better than dying. i know many people who are embarrassing clowns and they seem to be doing okay. i also know some people who committed suicide and i don't know how they're doing, it's a little difficult to ask them about that.

>>43409463
i think it would be nice to take my anger out on a femrepper by forcing her to transition

>>43409517
>i also know some people who committed suicide and i don't know how they're doing, it's a little difficult to ask them about that
you know for certain that they were living in agonizing pain and misery and hopelessness with nowhere to go with it beforehand though - and now they are not

>>43406531
haven't had a tranny ever since i got a gf, about a year, what does this say about me? does it really get better, bros?

>>43409556
>you know for certain that they were living in agonizing pain and misery and hopelessness with nowhere to go with it beforehand though
doesn't make me miss them any less. i know it's selfish, but i believe that most such suicides are failures of society. i wish i could have alleviated their pain

>>43409565
just don't lose her, ever
it comes back in between bro
you must keep her. forever.
do not lose her. ever.
it comes back.
in the inbetween.

I was supposed to have started transitioning this month

>>43409753
it's almost May nona what happened?

>>43409797
I got scared...

>>43409469
repping with strong dysphoria for too long without an outlet pressure cooks your brain
issue being there aren't really a good outlet if one is truly fucked

>>43409811
nta hrt isn't dangerous, try to dip your toe at least

>>43409836
You need surgery to get rid of breast tissue and it's worse if you desist because they say and stretch on t

guys I'm almost 33. Who is the oldest repper here?

>>43410802
I've seen a few 40s posts but a few 36s too

>>43410802
I'm 67

Why would I want to transition? I see how miserable the trannies on this board are

>>43410802
>>43411223
I started repressing when I first joined the Hitler Youth

>>43409004
It was probably just a bunch of dead fallen hair stuck together for a while
Nonetheless keep track of your hairline and the back of your hair

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>>43410802
29 reporting for duty. i hrt rep though, im an idiot

>>43409811
hrt doesnt do anything you just grow tits, thats literally all it does.

>>43409753
This month marks a year since I told my gf I was thinking about transitioning. There are younger boys who have become women in that time, but now im at the low end of the dysphoria cycle and I just feel uncertainty and guilt. Starting to get my affairs in order to troon out anyway

>>43411223
jesus maybe repping does work

>>43406531
take your HRT, retards

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>>43412066
Never

>>43406531
>would you subject yourself to picrel if it meant you woke up a cis woman tomorrow?
yup
>hard mode: no anesthetic
yup

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>>43410802
37

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>>43412235
Beating you by one year lol
>>43410802
Either of you guys planning on not John40ing? That's my goal, but once it was my goal not to john30...

you going for john's high score?
https://www.avitale.com/essays-details/?name=the-gender-variant-phenomenon--a-developmental-review-5

>>43413223
nah will take it to the grave
>>43412066
no <3

When was the last time you had any sort of even non sexual intimacy with an unrelated male?

>>43413445
Never
I made out with a girl about 10 years ago

>>43410802
I'm 26 but uh been on hrt 9 years...

>>43413445
Six years ago a guy started talking to me about a recent concert. I would wear my old band tees from when I was a kid as pyjamas at the time and went out without changing, so I didn't even know what he was referring to and was doubly taken aback because it seemed flirty.
This was during a covid vaccine so I was masked and I guess he mistook the long dyed hair for a woman's? Poor guy, shooting his shot with a 3/10 goth woman but it's actually a 2/10 guy.
That's about it.

>>43412235
reminder to clean your room so you don't die from chronic mold exposure
and avoid red meat to live longer than pete

>>43413445
been a few years, turns out crying because of how gross it feels tends to ruin the mood so have stopped trying

agoraphobic reppers with lesbian older sisters and bisexual older brothers unite

>>43413745
why does it feel gross to be intimate with other men?

>>43413840
turns out if you try to sleep with gay guys they're usually pretty interested in your dick (who knew?), which i desperately do not want to think about

>>43413445
>intimate with other men
ew lol

>>43413445
non-sexual: today
sexual: three days ago
It's a recent thing to have a live-in boyfriend but the last 6 months have been the best since my teen years.

>Dreamed I ordered myself a cute outfit online (I never do this, nor do I crossdress)
>Pick the largest available size (which isn't that big because it doesn't come in fatty sizes) based on my measurements which should fit
>It arrives and it STILL doesn't fit over my massive disgusting man shoulders
Man even my dreams are mocking me.

Bros I finally did it, I finally stopped repping. I’ve been posting here for years on and off, I’m not gonna tell anyone to stop or anything, repping was part of the road getting to where I am now. Glad I can finally be happy and started living the way I was too afraid to imagine.

>>43415321
Well, tell us more. When did you stop repping? How's it going?

this shit is just absolute misery

>>43410802
if wet repping counts me

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>>43406531
How do you guys feel about the whole TWAW thing? Something in my brain just won't allow me to see them as "real women, just with an adjective". Sure they're women, but they're like, a totally different kind of woman and probably shouldn't be grouped together with the cissies.

Honestly this is a big part of why I'm repressing. Troons scream about how there is no important difference between trans and cis women. They make analogies to describing a woman as, say, short or tall. As if that's the same fucking thing as the way that every single cell in a transwoman's body is male. Like, am I being gaslit here? I want to understand but this shit is not computing for me, at all.

>>43406531
yes and its not even close dumb ass qott

standing in large crowds is sui fuel you really feel the averages and how far off you are

when i go on twitter and see twinkhons living life i wanna throw up i feel physically ill

>>43416086
I don't really buy into that, but I also don't think it actually matters all that much. I'm still incredibly jealous of passing/passing-ish trannies who functionally get to live as women even if they technically aren't.

>>43416086
my unironic position is trans women are women (except for me)

>>43406531
>qott
>temporary pain to fix a lifetime permanently
obviously.
t. most stable guy.

being a moid who wants to be a lesbian is so fucking humiliating

>>43416086
I don't think they're 'real' women, but if they LOOK like real women to a tee, then there's really not much difference; kinda like how those with Swyer syndrome naturally have XY chromosomes like you and I, but usually look perfectly female, right down to the external genitalia. Of course, 99.99% of troons are perfectly distinguishable from real women, which sucks for everybody involved.

>>43416086
obviously don't see TWAW as reality otherwise i wouldn't be repping

i want to be a woman but not a tranny in this huge hulking body

>>43410802
40 this year
what the fuck

i wanna just be a normal person so bad but if i try and be a man i will literally kms. so i have to pretend i want to be a woman, oh my god

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It's been getting harder for me to imagine myself as a woman recently. I used to be able to just zone out in a disassociated haze for hours just dreaming, now I barely even have the energy left to escape into those fantasies at all. I just lay around overwhelmed with the disgusting reality I'm stuck in. All the hope I had is gone. Everything just seems empty and meaningless. Getting drunk doesn't hit like it used to, I have to get more and more wasted to not feel my own grotesque body. My soul feels like it's withering away into nothing and I no longer feel confident that it will still be there after this is all over. I used to at least be able to take comfort in that.

>>43406531
I bought carrots after seeing the op yesterday and I am really glad I did; hadnt had carrots in forever.

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SUICIDE IS PAINLESS
IT BRINGS ON MANY CHANGES
AND I CAN TAKE OR LEAVE IT IF I PLEASE

>>43416086
they are troons and troons are gross

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>>43418412
Nice. Part of my attempt at getting healthier this year has been to replace junky snacks with things like baby carrots.
Mixed results so far.

>>43411331
kek, did you make this? I'm glad my headline resonated.
>>43416086
HSTS are women, AGPs are a third gender, I have not been swayed on this position for years.

>>43419491
i'm neither HSTS nor AGP. what gender does that make me

>>43419491
Straight trans women are women
Straight trans men are men

"Gay" trans people range from 3rd gender to cissoid

hsts/agp is fake

>no longer on speaking terms with my parents
>going to get replaced by ai at work
>ed getting worse
>react to basically everything with tears
it'sfineit'sfineit'sfineit'sfineit'sfineit'sfine
>>43419903
it's real (i am agp and disgusting)

>>43419903
It's true 90% of the time

bout to go fuck it up at the lidl bakery

>>43419909
i wish i could react to things on tears. are you an hrtrepper?

>>43419944
no i'm just dumb idk. also it's really embarrassing beig a grown man having to constantly put effort into not having toddler meltdowns at like the grocery store

>>43419966
testosterone fixed that for me. now it takes a lot to make me cry

Thought of the day: former chudcopers are more likely to be really trans and not trenders, because breaking through their ideological resistance requires that being trans is rooted deeper than in fashion or self-presentation and must relate to core identity and self-actualization. They are also thus more likely to take transition seriously, and view HRT as a necessary step in transitioning. So sad that breaking through that ideological barrier (instilled often in an abusive childhood) often takes away a lot of valuable years.

when i was on crypro i cried a lot and hard and it was almost kinda nice after having being a emotionless slab for as long as i remember. but then i had to stop and it kinda went back to how it was before

>>43415349
I know how it is here and no one will probably believe me but I was a chaser. I’ve been in a relationship for about three years. About two weeks ago I cracked and told her about my history with crossdressing through my younger years, preferring being with women but not WITH women if you get what i mean. Explained all about my conscious decision to man up in my late teens and how everything I’ve been doing such then is a constant battle. Check emotions, check behaviours and check who I am to everyone else. Even being conscious about simple things like saying her hair looks nice in case she thought I was a fag or tranny. She could see something wasn’t right with me all along, had anger issues and would sink my time into dead end activities to escape the thoughts. Telling her about it was basically a pressure release point.

>>43420244
if you were in a relationship with a tranny you a literally psyop ahhahaahhahahahaa every trannys worst fear for their bf

how do i break my ribcage

after how many weeks/months is it okay to stop estrogen if you see no results?
ever since starting e I've just become hyper-aware of how little shot I ever have at passing, no matter how many surgeries I get or how many years on e I'd be. my body is simply forever tainted from testosterone and there's no way for me to ever outlive that.
do I stop asap or try for at least a year or two? might make roping eventually easier too since I'd look ever more fucked up after

>>43420524
bellyflop into still water from a great height
make sure nobody's around to save you from gassing out and drowning

i wanna go to a bar with my repbros and get blackout drunk

>>43406531
yes obviously how is this even a question? you won't have the penis anymore so it doesn't matter if it gets damaged and most of us put ourselves through worse pain just to get slightly closer to female

imagine a repgen meet-up

i am the enemy

whats the point of living if i cant look like a twink male model without having to suffer the humiliation of chemical castration

im not even repping anymore atp
i just have no desire to transition
i cant even relate to that past self it's like they were possessed
i feel like i'm free
i hope this lasts forever

>>43420244
How did she react?
>>43420373 is right that this is a tranny's worst nightmare, that their bf troons out. But it's not always the case.

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>>43419409
vintage meme

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>You're not sexually satisfied in your marriage? sweetie that's A DEAL BREAKER. Divorce and destroy your entire life so you can get better sex. This is totally normal
>You want to transition just for sexual reasons? YOU PERVERT DISGUSTING FAGGOT. KILL YOURSELF NOW TROON. I GOT THE ROPE RIGHT HERE

>>43421888
The AFAB privilege, tale as old as time

>>43420757
imagine beating 15 reppers until they transition

Would anyone stop repping if they came across a windfall (like winning the lottery)?
I keep thinking about this scenario

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>>43417206
felt

>>43422429
Maybe, with enough money to make me look as pretty as I'd like, keeping all the functions I'd rather keep, and basically start a new life somewhere away, without having to rely on anyone else

>>43422429
I read a story about a lottery winner who did that in America

>>43422456
I think I'd do something similar.
I'd set aside some money in a Trust to support my parents and my sisters' families, then use the rest of the money to transition, disappear and start a new life
>>43422460
GIWTWM

>>43418335
Same, and the closer I get to being able to transistors the more I feel it. Its like I waited the perfect amount of time for it to be too late for all my hope to be false

>>43421958
I see men being told the same thing sometimes. Severing a marriage for a lack of sexual compatibility isn't considered unusual.