>>23298914
op pic is sad desu

i'm not posting in that other shit thread with no link to the previous one and with a schizo confessing to murder

>>23299019
this board is nothing but schizos

>>23298802
if you wanna talk about it more I'm interested. feels like I'm in that guys same position, most people say I'm pretty much a good guy but women I date always seem to want out after a while and can never tell me why.
would be helpful to here about what's going on there from the female side of it

How come no one on /sci/ is talking about this?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29ECwExc-_M

>>23299069
great, they invented a toddler
i can make a hundred of those for free

In a life full of stupid arguments the stupidest of all had to be the one I had with my dad over the definition of the word "blow". This happened at the dinner table with all family present and we were either watching the end of Jeopardy or the beginning of RPM 2 NITE because it was a late night and we were eating at 7 or later. My dad, mouth half full of mashed potato and watching our *progrum* on an eleven or twelve inch TV with bunny ears announced that our cousin Jamie had purchased a brand new plasma television for sixteen hundred dollars. Our meatloaf and instant mash, our deadlock on the Final Jeopardy question about dates or something.

I said "I didn't know Jamie had that kind of money to blow" and he nearly flipped his plate shouting

"Don't you ever say that word at the dinner table" and more shocked than anything I said

"what? Blow?"

"Yeah, smart-ass, don't you ever say 'blow' at this table,"

I said, "I thought 'blow' just meant--"

"Don't say 'blow', okay?"

"I just thought blow meant he had it to spend,"

"It doesn't fucking mean that!"

"I know what it means!"

Pound on the table-

"Lyn!" he meant my mom. My mom's real name is Regina but it's a long story, "Lyn! Get the dictionary!"

>>23299101
Lmao, my father has done things like this. He used to get angry and punish us for using the word “sucks”.

>>23299077
>i can make a hundred of those for free
Lmao, you can't even make one.

>>23299154
you got a sister?

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The clock has struck midnight. A new days begins. Still no gf.

>>23299175
This is thy hour O Soul, thy free flight into the wordless,
Away from books, away from art, the day erased, the lesson done,
Thee fully forth emerging, silent, gazing, pondering the themes thou lovest best,
Night, sleep, death and the stars.

>>23298985
Your mom is sad desu

>has only started a conversation with me twice
>some days will talk to me nonstop with no pause
>most days will take literal hours to respond to me and sends a maximum of 5 messages
>sends me memes about her interests but won’t talk to me about them
>repeatedly tells me that she’s glad I talk to her
Beyond me what her deal is

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Do I read The Aeneid before or after Homer?
Plz answer, I don't want to have to make a thread

>>23299227
You should start with Homer if you can, but if you really want to read the Aeneid and never intend to read Homer you can piece together Homeric references without losing too much. If I were you I'd read Homer first just because you should at some point.

>>23299046
not her but maybe you give them the ick
or your dick is small and you suck in bed

>>23299227
Read Theogonies before you touch either.

Ideally read Egyptian Pyramid texts before Greeks.

Ideally read Sumerians and Epic of Gilgamesh before Egyptians.

>>23299215
Why are grills so confusing bros

if they leave you so easily, did they ever love you at all?

>>23299259
Thanks, I already own the 3 books but wasn't sure which to read first.
>>23299264
>Epic of Gilgamesh
But is it true we don't have much of the original and instead have it combined with the Babylonian version?
>Read Theogonies
Thanks
>>23299215
ask her out, retard

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>>23299215
I was in a very similar situation with mixed signals. I eventually ended up asking her out. We went on a couple dates, but it didn't end up working out. If you like her and are at the stage I think you're at, there's probably a pretty good she'll say yes to a coffee date or whatever. Just play it cool and don't overthink.

>>23299046
Yeah NTA but this looks a lot like something my friend would say. Someone people maybe feel bad for, and is mostly good to be around, but is also annoying, or heavy going. Think everyone knows someone like that. A good guy but presses people in a way most boys wouldn't resent, but a girl well might.

I'm only talking about my friend, got no idea what you're like you just sound like him here.

>>23299275
She’s not exactly within my reach for a date. I’ll have the opportunity to see her in a few months if we get close enough. So far she hasn’t given us many chances to. She is well aware that I’m into her btw

everyday is yours to win

deprogramming is hard. I guess I'm programmed to think that people who deprogram are cunts.

>>23299612
desu I feel like so many of them are. muh "librul agenda" people. they're probably right in a way but they're so angry and they've got nothing else going for them. russian bots most likely. not trying to end up like them. not sure what kind of war against society is dignified. it has to be -for- society if its to be any good, although I suppose society will react. anyway, God bless Iran, the United States is the great satan.

>>23299619
if you're gonna guide people you have to understand first why they are lost

I don't think i am a good person.
However, i try to emulate what i estimate a good person should do and how to be, and act accordingly, because i think it is my duty to do so.
Any book recommendations on good behavioral patterns and emotional intelligence?

>>23298914
was it me who slighted you, or you who slighted me? was it a mutually shared misunderstanding of some reasonable exchange?
In the end we have left each other very alone and void of real interaction.
what have I lost in my pursuit of a truth shared between us both?
and why did I waste so much time on it?

>>23298914
For the past few years I have alternated between devotion and doubt, with no resolution in sight.

By nature I am a Catholic. The pious practices of our Church, its morals and its rituals, speak to my soul as it were in its own native language. Try however I might to abandon the religion, I always find myself thinking in Catholic terms, always returning to its concepts, its logic, its worldview. It sticks to me like my skin, unable to be shaken off, no matter how uncomfortable I might feel inside it.

And yet, at the same time, this Catholicism that I have imbibed so deeply into my soul is a version which no longer exists. It is a Catholicism represented by men such as Aquinas, Pius IX and Leo XIII, a radically reactionary, anti-modern world-view which is entirely opposed to the sentiments of liberal modernity.

I can find within myself no kinship with men such as Francis, for example. He and I think from entirely different starting points, our spirits are moved by different notions of the true, good, and just. I am a radical, who renounces all of the values and symbols of my culture; he is a conservative, who upholds them.

I have tried to ignore this tension for so long, to simply attend mass and leave Church politics alone. But a few Sundays back during a homily at my parish the Deacon reminded me of it all in a stark way. He condemned in harsh terms those who are critical of the Pope and the Council, declaring them to be fake Catholics who are interested only in aesthetics. Now, personally, I don't care a jot for the Pope or the Council in themselves, but I care about what they represent, which is the spirit of postwar liberal modernity. It seemed in the Deacon's speech he was holding these symbols up and therefore indirectly defending what they represent.

And I realised: perhaps I'm being a hypocrite by continuing to come here. Perhaps I simply do not belong to this group. And so after the confection of the Eucharist I left.

Ever since that itching obsession has been calling me back to mass. Back to sticking my head in the sand and pretending I can still enjoy a 1910s Catholicism in 2024. And here I go back on the merry-go-round, back to my short bursts of piety followed by long periods of doubt. But I suppose this is the fate of all radicals, to be outcasts and rejected in the world.

Chicks with big dicks will rule the world

>>23299619
the truly weird thing is how hard wired it is in me that all these western values really are good. I think it's a cowardice, not wanting to abandon something that feels safe.

>>23299705
The west is the literal anti christ. It has nothing to do with God.

last night i dreamt that a black woman gave me a blowjob and for some reason it hurt my urethra.

>>23299748
Last night a dj saved my life

>>23299759
how?

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I'm so desperate I've fallen in love with a fantasy. Knowing we'll never be together is enough to drive me to suicidal thoughts.

>>23298914
This painting is really stupid and bad.

>>23299797
It's a tragic masterpiece. You have shit taste.

>Never gonna have so much money that I don't know what to do with it.
What's the point in living?

>>23299748
I dreamt I was extremely rich. I paid for the best football players to play a game and let me be the star of the match.
It went to penalties and everyone missed, then Mbappe was up (he was on the other team). He winked at me and scored. This upset me since I was supposed to score the winning goal.

All in all a good dream

>>23299661
>I'm more radical than a JS
Doubt. I mean, I'm not endeared to Francis, but that's like saying you've seen some fucked up shit because you have internet to someone withe an MD: it doesn't matter if they're a good MD, they've seen some shit you didn't know existed
You don't even use pronouns like someone devout or radical.

>>23299748
I dreamt I was in a menage a trois where they were both arranging palliative care for me because I was dying.

>>23299827
Not sure what you mean.

>>23299834
Yeah, I wouldn't expect you to

My feelings will be legitimated when I commit suicide or homicide. Before then, they will be meaningless words.

I don't care if it makes them happy, people become so lame when they get partners or start families, it's like the fun is sucked right out of them.

Who am I trying to convince?
Myself. I am not even sure what I am or what I am feeling. Want to say "Suicidal," but then I would have committed suicide. Therefore, it is a mystery. In other words, I have need of some action to definitively prove to myself what I am. No one else will care, but it doesn't matter, because I only need to determine it for myself.

I have a few Japanese friends, I want to go to Japan and get absolutely hammered with them, I don't even drink normally but I'd do it if I was in Japan with them.

>>23299896
Sake tastes like shit. Better remember that.

>>23299901
I think most alcohol tastes like shit, I'll still be down to clown though.

I really have nothing to offer the world, I'm too stupid to make anything of value, too ugly to reproduce, too socially retarded to make lasting connections with people. I only stick around because I made a promise to myself when my sister went missing that of she ended up dead that I wouldn't kill myself for a year put of respect for my family. I struggle with it still thought, the ideation. Doesn't help that summer is coming up. I just wish I could be forgotten by them so it wouldn't be so damn hard.

Who has a worse future, Europe or America? I’m inclined to think it’s Europe but when I look at American demographics I shudder. Demographics aren’t everything but they’re a pretty good bellweather, I think. I don’t see how America possibly remains a superpower when it’s less than 20% white. Let’s be real.

>>23299920
I know it’s hard but what you have to do is man up and stand tall, build a future for yourself and for your family, what family you have left, and the family you have coming. The real measure of a man is how tall he can stand when he has the weight of the world on his shoulders. You have to try to measure up. That’s it. It’s that simple. Time to stop the woe is me shit and realize it’s only partly about you. Give your life to something bigger than yourself, some impossible task, you’ll find that suddenly you’re invigorated with strength and purpose and you’ll never question where you’re going or what to do.

>>23299928
>Americans still talk about Europe the way North Koreans talk about the failing west

Thank you, China, for our fentanyl crisis. You're killing off our weak seed, plus you're demonstrating that the Democrats can't govern. It's almost worth all the damage you've caused.

>>23299931
>Give your life to something bigger than yourself, some impossible task,
But I'll just get in the way of any task I try to involve myself with. My life has been just cycle of failure and false hope. Why can't people just let me die

Where does one post fotos online these days. Its mostly just to have an archive but its nice if I could also share.

>>23299993
Any number of social media sites

the western world fully entered hell when feminism decided to reprogram men. it's a hostile act, and perhaps more importantly it means that feminism establishes and institutionalizes expectations which necessarily will bring about disappointment.

>>23300007
It's almost like the founding fathers were not prophets.

>>23299941
Sometimes I wish that someone would deliberately contaminate the drug supply so that we could cull the population of homeless junkie zombies, seeing as most of them are permanently brainfried and have no hope of ever getting clean or reintegrating into society. We would be better off if they werent shitting in the streets, committing violent crimes, and terrorizing the community daily. They contribute nothing positive and make our cities unliveable for the average functioning citizen, and even solutions like forced rehab or long term psych care and free housing are a massive financial burden on the taxpayer that we can't afford to subsidize. Theyre literally just dead weight. No one gets clean off drugs unless they want to and 99% of junkies don't want to get clean, they just want to live selfishly and ruin things for everyone else

>>23299993
why not imgur? you can just save urls if nothing else

A long time I thought I was just an angry young man. So I silenced myself, assuming I would make an ass of myself somehow. I'll grant you it's very possible I will, but I'm starting to believe maybe there was something to that original analysis. Anger probably doesn't help anyone though, anger is a bad reason for doing things. I'm glad I took that break.

>>23300007
Our only recourse then is to not let it reprogram us. The best thing a man can do is live simply and passionately, allowing the virtues to guide our reason and our actions. The man who takes the path of virtue and of God takes the only sure and profitable way. Woman will follow most mens leads if we live like this. It's how early American's lived, and the only way to re-establish those times is to live how they did. If every man did this, we would re-establish the great American pride and tradition overnight.

After getting that break, I will change my way and be more proactive on my personal goals, at least for the next few months.

>>23300020
I think it's a problem that a modern liberal country has only one level of public norm, and that is a "law", which is a forcing level. The reality is that men and women have different "rights". It's not really a great puzzle of the mind. A "right" is a commonly recognized line in the sand, that anyone who crosses it has incurred an infraction. Anyone understands that reasonably men and women can expect different things, and different things from one another (it can be as simple as telling boys "you don't hit girls"), but there is no language for this nuance in a western discourse, where "right" necessarily effects to "law", and anything which can't be made a "law" is "anything goes". There is no way of sharing values that does not imply compulsion, the question is only who gets to force what into effect. It means we lack a language for talking about the reality that the sexes are different, can reasonably expect different things from life, generally want different things from life and from one another, generally strive in different ways. It means we have no way of actually using beneficially our differences. Instead we are bogged down in very loud, inhuman politicking. I think to many men this is what feminism has boiled down to over time, and I think the political divide between young men and women (Andrew Tate comes to mind) demonstrates a reaction that has taken a generation or two to come along. It's like our only way of handling difference is outright conflict, is some kind of medium-intensity civil war. I imagine a society that is capable of fostering a healthy harmony handles the matter with a lot more subtlety, although I admit I have no idea what to do with what we have. Essentially I don't think the post-industrialism we've inherited is genuinely conducive to life, and I think our institutions lack the capability to adress the matter.

>>23300033
all very well said. I agree with basically every point.

>where "right" necessarily effects to "law", and anything which can't be made a "law" is "anything goes"

One of the major consequences of abandoning God has been the reasoning we use to create law have suffered. We used to create laws to ban anything that was observed to have a negative effect on society and civic life. So for a long time, weed was illegal since it was observed to make men and women weaker, lazier, and more stupid. And I still believe this is true, since the drug hasn't changed (if anything it's stronger than ever). But once you abandon God, and by extension, the basis of all objective reasoning, is it any wonder weed is being made legal everywhere? Same thing with porn, which should still be illegal and heavily punished. Then consider gay marraige, which should still be illegal, not just because of the negative effect it has on the gay couple by allowing them to live a fantasy and exercise their sin without shame, but because it distorts and disfigures what a real marraige is, which is the sacred union and bond between man and woman. Gays will say "well it isn't effecting you so who cares?" It actually is effecting straight couples because they are using the same language (marraige) when marraige is a theological term for not only Christians, but Jews, Muslims, and Hindu's that signifies the mysterious spiritual unity between man and woman. So gay marraige unironically confuses the publics perception of what marraige is, if ever so subtly, because a gay relationship simply isn't marraige. I don't doubt gays love eachother: as a male I have several male friends I love deeply. But that love for them is different than desiring an erotic, sexual relationship with them and putting on the airs of a mock male-female relationship; it isn't marraige.

Maybe I'm over stating my case. But I believe the only way to cure any of these diseases is to return to reality: to put God back at the center of everything, and it starts with our own lives first, and it will radiate outward from there. It is hard, and a struggle, "But struggles like these", says Hesiod, "are good for men".

>>23300047
>return to reality
>put God back at the center of everything
My sides.

>>23300055
Well we are living with the alternative right now, which is God doesn't exist, and every man is his own God. How has that worked out for us?

>>23300047
Kill yourself dude

>>23300062
Why? What about what I have said has upset you?

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>>23299748
The other night I had a dream that I met some woman and we hit it off. I woke up thinking I was the luckiest person in the world and then a couple minutes later, reality set in and I realized it was just a dream and I'm fucking alone

>>23300057
Doesn't matter, I'd rather live in what we're living in now than have everyone live in a delusion.

>>23300078
What about basing reasoning in the objective, unchanging nature of God be a delusion? What's the alternative? Each man basing reason in his own principles as he see's fit? That is chaos, basically what we have right now. The only delusion is to disbelieve in God.

>>23299811
Idk, it is so obvious and heavy handed with the imagery it's like a newspaper's political cartoon making sure you absolutely GET.THE.POINT.

Kim Gordon's new record is amazing

>>23300047
If the Christian God finally abdicates, the reason will be that his myth no longer corresponds with recent developments in the Western social system. A great mistake of the Church has been to freeze its myths beyond the point where they can be unfrozen.

If the system, refined by the Ancient Greeks, Libyans, Palestinians and Irish, and perpetuated by present-day Africans, of keeping divine myths abreast of the times, had been maintained in the Western world for the last two millennia, all the major social and political changes that have meanwhile occurred would be wholesomely incorporated in Christian dogma.

>>23300080
>The only delusion is to disbelieve in God.
Please stop, I can't take any more laughter, I feel like I'm going to burst.

>>23300085
how old is she again

I’ve come to realize that the world is the way it is because of IQ. Western civilizations lead the world because IQ is mostly hereditary. Literally everything else is a cope. Rules-based international order and commerce, science and technology, corruption level, poverty, crime, military, etc and so on, are run by high-IQ populations.

>>23300085
It might be amazing, I don't know, I haven't listened to it, but holy shit is that album cover hot garbage, what the fuck is that?

>>23300102
IQ is a meme.

>>23300047
They hate you because you're right.
Even if we assume God is not real and there is no objective moral truth, there is no more reason to base one's ethics a system termed "religious" or a secular system. They believe things like "weed should be legal" not because of any moral truth (suffering, pain, murder, rape, etc., are not objectively bad because there is no objective good) but simply because it aligns with their personal morals. The basis of their morals doesn't matter:
>1. It reduces le suffering!
Who cares? Suffering is an illusion based on the already illusory social construct of "consciousness," and even if it weren't, no one should care about it because it is not inherently good.
>2. Liberty to choose
Who cares? Liberty is not inherently good and is itself an illusion. We are a bunch of atoms bumping into each other.

There is quite literally nothing better or worse, or more or less rational about basing one's ethics on hallucinations of thr Cookie Monster's Big Book of Pastry Morality than anything else. All motives for all laws are inherently based on irrational final goals. Why should the state be smooth running? Why should people suffer less, or have more pleasure? Why should we maximize liberty? Why does it matter that the majority of people would agree to one system or another? And in this final case, many societies have agreed to religious ethical systems.

Death to literally all moral nihilists- not because moral nihilism is wrong, but because no one that terms themself a moral nihilist is non-hypocritical and midwit trapped in their own retardation.

>>23300098
70 years young

>>23300103
it's ironically sleek and modern

>>23299886
I agree

>>23300109
jfc i fucking hate seeing these religious debates taking over every wwoym, make ur own thread about theology

>>23300139
>taking over
There are like 6 replies about religion. Just ignore them. Are you that fragile?

>>23300126
she went to one of the good plastic surgeons

>>23300143
good genes

i grew 2 inches after age 25. how is that possible

>>23299661
>I can find within myself no kinship with men such as Francis, for example.
It's a question of accepting Divine Providence.** The Church has had mostly good popes for the past 100-200 years (...now I know there are tradcaths and sedes who will disagree with this), but there have been many mediocre or bad popes over the centuries.

It's in the nature of the Petrine Ministry, as seen by the ups and downs of Peter in the Gospel: at one moment, Christ changes his name and tells him he will be the rock on which He builds His Church... but within moments of that historic declaration, Christ must tell him: "Get behind me, Satan."

Likewise, Peter has the faith to walk on water... then sinks. He confidently predicts he will die for Christ... then denies Him three times.

The person of Peter is thus a kind of type for the ups and downs of the Petrine Ministry in history.

Consider the words of St. Augustine, and resolve to keep the faith:
>So listen to me, O you freshly born children of a chaste mother [the Church]… [L]et me put it quite plainly: ...Dont be surprised at how many bad Christians there are, who fill the church... The Church of this time, you see, is compared to a threshing-floor, having on it grain mixed with chaff, having bad members mixed with good…
>You older faithful, you listen too to what I’m saying. Any of you who are grain, rejoice with trembling, and stay where you are, and don’t leave the threshing-floor. Don’t attempt, on your own judgment, to shake yourselves free, as it were, from the chaff... [For] when that one comes who distinguishes infallibly between grain and chaff, he won’t carry up to the granary anything he doesn’t find on the threshing-floor. So it will be no good at that time for grains to boast about the ears of wheat they come from, if they have left the threshing-floor... Anything left outside will be gutted by fire.
>So then, dearly beloved, if you are good, you must put up with the bad… Listen to me, grains; listen to me, those of you who are what I desire you to be. Dont let the mixture of husks depress you; they wont be with you forever.
St. Augustine’s Easter Vigil Homily: Don’t Be Surprised at the Evil in the Church
>https://erickybarra.wordpress.com/2022/04/24/st-augustines-easter-vigil-homily-dont-be-surprised-at-the-evil-in-the-church/

** Read Caussade, Abandonment to Divine Providence. Truly profound, beautifully written, filled with the most striking imagery. A great work of theology *and* of literature.

>>23300145
she looked 50 when she was 30

>>23300064
I'm not "upset," I just think you're a moron. The world you want will be worse than what we have now, though you will never accept that. If you were to get your way, you would see that nothing has improved and come to the conclusion that there must be some sabotage or subversion going on

From the perspective of a limited human mind grasping things intuitively, it really does unimaginably unlike that our biology evolved from single-cell organisms through a series of mutations. In fact the idea seems absurd. I haven’t read even one halfway-convincing argument for it and it’s impossible to test the theory because that would take geological periods of time, nor can it be modeled. But what’s striking ISN’T that evolution seems absurd, it’s that society has been programmed to ignore the fact that it seems absurd. Even if evolution is true, it’s still absurd from the limited viewpoint of the common person. For example, sub-atomic matter used to be said to have the properties of both a wave and a particle; that’s contradictory and so absurd on it’s face from the limited viewpoint of person with an intuitive grasp on reality. But no one ignores the fact that it’s absurd, and in fact it used to be a major question (“how can it be both a wave and a particle that seems impossible”). No one discusses evolution in the framework of trying to tackle an absurd proposition “jumbling up elements on the periodic table eventually led to higher life seems vanishingly unlikely to the point of fantasy how do we deal with that?” It’s simply accepted doctrine, the absurdity of it isn’t even admitted to let alone addressed. Everyone just pretends it makes perfect sense.

America was born from the womb of a Black, indigenous trans woman of color.

>>23300183
>womb
>trans
make it make sense

>>23300176
>Humans are higher life
We're the retarded cousin of something that made beavers and rabbits, everything is going to seem absurd and like we're really doing something to us. Single cell organisms are more efficient organizers of matter than our retarded selves building dams and and tunnels

>>23300176
same with flat earth

>>23300176
Evolution is a myth. Literally zero proof we came from single cell organisms or evolved from anything at all.

>>23300195
>Evolution is a myth.
Weak bait. But for anyone who genuinely believes this, check out Forrest Valkai or Professor Dave Explains. Dave has made a long video making people who don't believe in evolution look stupid but he primarily focuses on other stuff, Forrest, however, is heavily focused on evolution. If you want to call into the show that he's often on called The Line then you can and you can ask him any questions about evolution that you want. The Line is just The Athiest Experience 2.0 except it doesn't just cover atheism and debunking theists, it's run by the same guy (Matt Dillahunty) but there are a whole host of people who are on the show throughout the week who specialize in certain things.

I need to work up the courage to start approaching girls whenever I meet them, because it's not going to happen otherwise.

All the socializing effort I do brings me nothing. I never meet any cute women.

Then I go randomly shopping or use public transport and I come across a girl that is just perfect, at least physically. I just wish I could just bullshit my way into chatting her up. I need to do it cause I got no other options left.

>>23300204
Evolution as s science is just a theory about changes. It theorizes how a mouse that once had wings came to lose them. This theory is based on it's environment operating on it in minute ways. Thus a real evolutionary biologist like J. B. S. Haldane is at pains to point out that degeneration, not improvement, is often the rule in evolution: Nature is simplifying itself, not becoming more complicated or (based on very arbitrary human standards) "more interesting". For every one instance of 'improvement' in evolution, there are 10 of simplification or degeneration. Evolution may have proven itself to be a very controversial sect of biology: but it is a legitimate science.

I call it a "myth" because evolution in the mythopoetic since is only a "fact about improvements". It ignores the 10 cases of degeneration and views evolution as moving 'onward and upward' and of nothing else whatsoever. But if we came from protoplasm and fish and rats, how did we develop our reason, which those animals lack? To believe what the myth of evolution tells me, I must first take reason to be an absolute, since all sciences claim to be a series of inferences based on observed facts. But to accept the myth I must accept that I, as a human, in my current state, am just at once stage of my endless and ceaseless evolutionary becoming. For that to be true, I can't trust my reason, since the science claims reason as I know it right now is just a byproduct of my current evolutionary stage, since animals in the previous stages lack reason as humans posess. Thus the myth knocks out from under my feet the only way I could believe in it. It contradicts itself, which, surprise surprise, is a key characteristic of most faux sciences.

>>23300204
Isn't Matt Dillahunty dating a tranny now? And he gets very upset if you call him gay or say he's dating a man.
How can you take someone like that seriously?

>>23300102
Similarly we cannot have anything other than flawed democracies because people are too stupiiiiiiiiid.

>>23300231
And what's worse is that you always meet them when you least expect it, so you have no time to react. You are just going on your business and then bam, she's there and she's definitely cute and she dresses nicely and is in your league and she's carrying what looks like university stuff so she is probably a student and you know she'd be interesting to talk to, .... but you're just two random strangers sitting on the bus. Too bad.

>>23300235
Actually I remember. It wasn't just a tranny, it's one that's much younger than him who has also done porn.

>>23300055
To play the devil's advocate, there is always a God at the center of the mechanism. The only thing that changes is which God that is.

>>23300204
>check out these youtube channels
weak bait

>>23300235
>Isn't Matt Dillahunty dating a tranny now? And he gets very upset if you call him gay or say he's dating a man.
I'd probably get upset if someone insulted my partner too. Even if YOU don't see what they're saying as an insult, he clearly does.

>>23299661
Well your problem is the Catholic system. You're struggling to maintain a personal relationship with God because you're depending on a fallible mediator. Of course Francis will fail you. Of course the men on the council will fail you. They are corrupted by original sin like everyone else. So of course a system which tells you that your relationship with God depends on another man to speak for Him will fail you.
I've seen a lot of Catholics say the same thing as you (online). This crisis of faith caused by the pope and corrupt Vatican. This is exactly what Martin Luther experienced all the way back in the 1500s when he saw the same corruption and deadness. If you want to pursue God you don't need the councils and pope and rituals and even the scholastic philosophy. Jesus tells us directly:
>Matt. 18:20
>For where there are two or three gathered into My name, there am I in their midst.
Merely find other Christians who want to pursue God, fellowship with them, and there Jesus will be there with you, immediately, and directly.

>>23300260
Matt insults people all day.
Making fun of him sticking his dick into another mans blown out asshole while he copes how he's 'a real woman' is just too funny not to do.

Here's where he walks away from a debate because someone points out he thinks his boyfriend is actually a woman:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f6WViJ9-C58

>>23299748
Last night I gave some sleeping white Boi a blow job with a full mouth of cold sores
t. Black woman

Being at that edge of being sick sucks. Its like you're healthy enough to move around but not healthy enough to do anything.

>>23300277
I know that feel. I just drink and watch tv

>>23300290
what you watching

>>23300270
Isn't he the same guy who stuck a banana up his ass?

>>23300292
House M.D. mostly. Occasionally I switch it up to Heroes. Was watching Eureka but that show went nowhere. Tried to pick up The X-Files recently.

>>23300297
No. That's The Amazing Atheist

>>23300297
That's the other atheist hero.

I can’t get any work done bc I never feel motivated to do anything for myself. It’s reached a point of crisis again, and I don’t know what to do. It’s not even like I’m just lazy; I’ll work really hard and put a huge amount of effort into things if it’s for someone else (especially someone I love although in a work context that doesn’t apply) because I hate conflict and I don’t want to disappoint people.

At my previous university I had close relationships with my professors and most of them considered me one of their best students, so if I stopped coming to class or didn’t complete work I knew that they would notice pretty quickly and be concerned, so I virtually never skipped class and put a huge amount of effort into my assignments, to the point that my professors would often request to use my work as exemplars for future classes. I also had friends there who would notice and get worried if I seemed off. But part of the problem is that I haven’t formed any relationships with people here outside of my roommate who is my only friend now but is moving in a few months and the more upset I’m feeling the more I cope with it through avoidance; I just wall myself off from communicating with people and isolate myself when I’m not doing well, because I feel so ashamed and I don’t know how to ask for help and I’m scared they’ll be angry or think badly of me or pity me.

In my first semester here I had made a couple of friends, or more accurately people in my classes had made an effort to become friends with me, and at first when I stopped coming to class they would text me and ask if I was okay or if I needed anything. But I didn’t know how to explain that I felt so overwhelmed by sadness that I couldn’t even go outside, so I just ghosted them all and stopped responding entirely. The same thing with my professors, they would reach out and I wouldn’t be able to respond.

There was a time at the end of November last year when I was so upset and I started crying in the middle of a seminar and had to leave, and one girl from my class like followed me out into the hall and was asking me what was wrong or if I needed to talk, and part of me wanted to be friends with her because she was nice and had tried to start conversations with me before and said I had nice handwriting and she liked my eye makeup and things like that. we could’ve been friends but I could never make myself engage in a reciprocal way; I felt like I was locked inside myself. I couldn’t make eye contact because I felt so humiliated and I said I couldn’t talk about it and I needed to be alone. my professor was even really nice about it, she emailed me after class saying she was worried about me and that she wanted to meet with me to see what kind of academic support she could help with, and I didn’t even respond. also multiple people from my group project texted me asking “are you okay” and I just said everything was fine so don’t worry

>>23300298
yeah i was trying to marathon x-files but it's kind of boring and too 'of it's time'

A part of me wants to work in or be involved with politics somehow.

>>23298914
wasnt the once in a lifetime two-generation activation of cicadas supposed to happen after the eclipse? what happened to that? awful quiet

>>23300322
What this country needs is a 4channer for president!

God bless Iran.

>>23300322
I felt that way after the first time I watched The West Wing, I love that show. Sigh, maybe in the next life.

>>23300340
they missed

oh..

>>23300396
Not realistic. Stick to being alone.

>>23300401
Yeh

>>23300396
get fucked bro she's mine

How realistic to find someone that will hold me while I commit suicide? Any sadist or psychopathic female (male is okay too desu) that is curious about death. Can fake it to look like an accident so they don't get in trouble.
Literally just want to do something like that before I die. That's it.

>>23300407
Give me all your stuff and I will.
Empty that wallet, pig.

>>23300407
There's countries where that's a combination of two legal services, only one of which you have to pay for, but they won't be sadists or psychopaths most likely so much as people who think everyone should get a hug on the way out

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Alright, life plan
> Get a job as a cop cause I’m a vet and they’re desperate
> finish my 20 and get that juicy pension
> that combined with VA benefits, a military and a civilian IRA means I can hopefully retire early and take care of properties or something
> have free time to write what I damn well please by 40-45
There’s bumps and snags obviously but I think that should be enough to get out of the rat race

>>23300415
Being a cop always seemed fun to me.
Of course I don't live in the U.S so barely any chance of dying.

>>23300410
I'd actually be willing to do it. I could get about 1k-2k in cash but you'd have to come up with the procedures on how to make it look like an accident, and you'd have to get me (I rent hotel and you visit etc). South eastern US?

>>23300419
Why make it look like an accident?
Can't you just hang yourself while I hold you leg or whatever?

>>23300423
Nah I'm going to OD

the brain fog from my medicine is preventing me from writing an abstract and bibliography but it helps me focus. i just cant think critically or creatively and im really scared about this grade

>>23299795
Please don’t tell me you’ve fallen in love with a children’s cartoon character?

>>23300426
Remember where and what you are anon

>>23300410
this board is so horrible

>>23300338
4chan is a run-of-the-mill social media website now. It’s more normal than Reddit or Twitter.

>>23300415
State pensions are not really a thing anymore and you don’t have to be a cop to get state benefits. Gov employees and state uni employees also get them.

My single biggest regret is not trying to do a PhD or other doctorate like a JD much earlier in life. I should’ve done it like 4 years ago.

>>23300432
Why, am I supposed to go
>nooo anon please do NOT kill yourself!
If you're here often enough you hear people like him say it all the time. I say get it over with.

>>23300442
alright stop i have a weak stomach

>>23300418
I doubt there will be much fun, but after acorn guy I’m pretty sure I can do better by just being not insane
>>23300438
Most of those require a bachelors, a thing that does fuck all these days unless you also have work experience in bureaucracy jobs. Cop in my state just needs active duty time which means by the end of this year I’ll be in

>>23300435
yet the only people i've met irl who've used 4chan (more than once or twice) have been generally pretty weird (the girls who use 4chan - genuinely scary)

A couple months ago I was scratching my arm when my finger when broke through inside of it. Apparently my arm was rotted out. So the hospital had to amputate the whole thing. Now I'm typing on one hand.

>>23300465
prefer this type of lie in the wwoym to 'me and my gf are reading crime & punishment in bed'

I haven't kissed someone in like 10 years. Have I forgotten how to fuck? Is it like riding a bicycle?

>>23300476
That's funny, me and my gf are reading crime & punishment in bed

don't kill yourself anon. God can fix all kinds of crazy stuff, take you on all kinds of rides, there's no telling how things are gonna go.
t. tried last summer, now living with a crazy palestinian 50-something year old who barely shares a language with me, and having a pretty good life altogether

>>23300486
srfu i know you're really reading anna karenina

>>23300465
how did it come to this? drugs?

>>23300486
But what is Tyrone doing?

>>23300482
you just lie there and go '...do it to me'

>>23300496
Reading Sartre

>>23300492
>now living with a crazy palestinian 50-something year old
cringe I wanna kill myself even harder now

>>23300496
chekhov

>>23300499
>starfishing as a man
bro I only get starfishers, if I starfish too we're gonna just look at the ceiling together

>>23300496
ur mom

>>23300503
how is that cringe?

>>23300509
that sounds nice

>>23300515
It does desu

>>23298914
my friend fucked me over
He called me a "4chan incel" in front of an acquaintance, now they wont respond to my text
literally acking myself

This girl, I don't see her enough, and then when I do, I don't know what to do, and when I drop her off I feel relieved. And then I miss her.

Can't stand simps

>>23300603
That's a bit harsh

Should one risk going off their medicine to get their creativity back? I have lost so much creativity but now I am stable and able to get out of bed. I really miss my creativity a whole lot. I think I'll just half the dose and see if it helps. Maybe I am too isolated.

>>23300536
should have shot back with 'reddit basedboy' to show her you're dominant. you lost and have to fight your friend in front of her now.

>>23300713
>should have shot back with 'reddit basedboy' to show her you're dominant
Lol do you really think that's what she would have taken from that. That's basically just an affirmation of the 4chan incel accusation

>>23300695
Did you get a lot of creating done from your bed?

I want to ask for advice. Can anyone help me become a calmer person? I get very angry, very often and this made me quit most of my hobbies because the second I make a mistake, I get angry. I realised that I get angry at myself. It's like there's someone watching me all the time and they judge me whenever I mess up. As a result, I feel stupid and useless and I get very angry. I also have inferiority issues. I feel inferior but at the same time I feel like I am better than everyone else. My life is not pleasant at all at the moment and this makes me feel very anxious and depressed. I just want to learn to treat myself betters and live in the moment. But I don't know how.

>>23300721
its never about the content with women. its about the emotional response you can or can't produce.

>>23300738
Whatever you say Mr Bitch Understander

I'm so goddamn pissed FUCK, most upset I've been in a long-time. Nothing I can really explain or talk about with anyone here so forgive me, I just needed to air out a rant into the void somewhere.

>>23300740
js you succumbed to your fren's insult. anyway good riddance, everyone knows 4chan is cooler than other places on the internet other than X

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>>23300726
Seems like you got most of it figured out yet still refuse to give yourself the luxury of time and development. Think about introducing someone to something you’re good at, if the suck are you gonna yell at them like a drill Sargent? No, you’ll slow down, explain what they’re doing wrong and show them how to do it right. But you both have a high opinion and high demand of yourself that doesn’t allow you to ease yourself into a new situation.
But this is 4chan so you’re kinda shouting at the bottom on how to get up bud

I feel like the thing that irritates me the most about the mainstream consensus is that it is so desperate to present itself as the underdog from a position of power.

>>23300726
What's your diet like

>>23300746
>other than X
Ok so you're just retarded then

>>23300726
you care what others think too much because if you didn't care you wouldn't care that you are inferior or doing worse, just that you are doing something that makes your monkey brain happy. To stop hating yourself learn to be your own friend; argue the insulting voice in your head with a positive one if you must. Oh and perseverance, even if you always get frustrated, even if everything goes to shit, don't stop

>>23300751
Why? In our postmodern societies, there is no longer a politics of truth but rather a politics of persuasion. It is what it is.

>>23300726
I get this way too. What's worked for me is to remind myself that it's simply a part of life to fail or make mistakes, and that, in the grand scheme of things, it's a barely noticeable blip. Don't focus too much on your own failings, but on your successes. Take pride in those. This sounds cliché af but it's been a better strategy for me so far.

>>23300753
it has all the smart, fashionable and famous people. you're an idiot 4chan incel.

>>23300747
I just feel like life's a race and I am falling behind. I am only in my early 20s but I feel like I am wasting most of my time. I just want to get good at something but I don't give myself the necessary time. I just feel like everyone has life figured out and I'm just stuck in mud.

>>23300752
I eat healthy, home cooked food. I care a lot about what I eat. The only thing that I can do without getting angry is working out. I want my muscles to grow while staying relatively lean.

>>23300754
But what if I get so angry that I break stuff? I'd rather quit doing something I like than break anything again. I'm just a retard that can't control himself.

>>23300756
>poastmodern
>we live in a society
>politics of truth
where do we start bros?

>>23300759
There really aren't many successes. I sometimes have to write speeches about random topics for college (we study interpreting) and people always say that they like them but I am too afraid of actually trying to write something more than a simple speech, even though I want to, because I know I would get frustrated.

>>23298914
>moved back into parents
>brother not willing to let me stay with him and not talking to me, he's getting more successful than me
>all my friends moved away for work
>unemployed for 6 months
>no bites either
>all my story submissions have been rejected
>less than $1000 in the bank

im really fucking struggling God, shits looking really grim. please give me one break, just one opportunity to take my life forward...

>>23300751
That's by design. They redirect unrest and rebellion into the mainstream agenda by posing as the resistance. Instead of attacking the system, the people are led into "aligning" themselves with it to defeat a non-existent boogeyman of white-male fascists that are somehow still in control of every institution, and threatening to take control at any moment— if only the people don't buy enough Disney LGBTQ+ children's toys.

This is a defining feature of the disinformation age.

>>23300773
>gf of 4 years broke up with me last month too
forgot to add this
life's looking bleak>>23300773
af bros...

>>23300764
buy one of those stress balls, or even a punching bag if you really want it. Let out your frustration on those things that were designed for it.

>>23300773
>>23300783
:/ sorry anon. Things WILL turn around, they always do.

>>23300764
No one’s got this shit figured out let me tell you
Everyone has their own boons and vices and banes but nobody has all their ducks in a row. And even if they did the universe can just rip the rug from under you like 08 and COVID. Everyone experiences existence at their own pace, and being in your 20s just means you first entered adulthood for the first time. Just do the best you can do, and if you make mistakes big or small fix em and forgive yourself

>>23300771
What would you get frustrated about exactly?
I dropped out of college just recently because I got fed up with writing about shit I had absolutely zero interest in. That and burning out.

>>23300788
reddit the post

>>23300726
hi anon. were you judged as child or put down? or alternatively, were you constantly praised which prompted you to now, as an adult, develop this view of yourself?

if this happened, it helps the picture become clearer. if not, thats okay too, there is still an issue at hand.

i havent completely solved this issue myself -- for me it is not anger but sadness, being suicidal for not being good enough. i will tell you what could help? but it will take effort and time. and im sorry to say that. you really need to make this a priority.

it will involve shifting your views of yourself, not comparing yourself to others, and finding a different anger or stress outlet. some other things will follow suit, like treating others better and mindfulness. but these are building blocks with small steps in between. its almost like therapy for yourself. do you need me to elaborate?

>>23300790
Nigger kike faggot kek
Happy?

Anyone else stop being friends with their siblings as they became adults? I was super close with my younger brother when he was a teen (I'm 7 years older) but now as an adult it's like he's a different person completely. He doesn't listen to me, often just contradicts whatever i say to pick fights, or is just plain rude. So kinda don't like being in each other's company any longer which is actually really sad. I don't know if it's possible for our relationship to recover

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>>23300795
Not really, how 'bout you?

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>>23300800
I got the runs but other than that okay
Gonna make a bagel sandwich

>>23300800
>>23300805
you both are faggots, now kiss.

>>23300785
thank you anon for the kind word
really praying that anything positive happens in my life soon. i don't how much more of all this i can take...

>>23300773
>>23300808
One benefit of being a loser in life like myself with other loser in life friends is we're all still in the same area, so I can still hit up many of them to this day.

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>>23300805
>>23300807
samefag

/gif/ pisses me off, I hate having to scroll past all the threads of people getting maimed and decapitated just to look at some smut

>>23298914
What metaphysics posits a universe that’s equally rational and irrational entirely composed of opposing forces?

>>23300819
whats the appeal of /gif/ idgi

>>23300805
Why would he shoot himself through his helmet lol

>>23300789
If I have to write something for college, I do it and it turns out good. Because I had to do it. If I try to do something by my own volition, I get frustrated with it. I think I just take it too seriously and I get mad at the first mistake.
Also, I hope you're doing better now, anon. I am also burned out as hell but not just with college. I am just burned out with life

>>23298914
I saw another man in her instagram story picture. It's over. I shouldn't have thought about her for so long.

>>23300794
>were you judged as child or put down?
Yes. I thought about it a lot and I think I put myself down a lot because my mom used to do it to me all the time. She used to compare me to all my classmates and tell me how much better they were than me. My parents never praised me. They didn't react much when I had good news like a good grade but my mom always put me down because I wasn't as smart as other kids.
I also feel suicidal when I think about how useless and how far behind my peers I am.
Thanks for the advice. Making this a priority is exactly what I am trying to do now. I will take a break from stuff that stresses me and just try to relax and tell myself that it will be fine. I will try to spend more time outside and just stop thinking about all my issues.
Thanks again and I hope you will solve your issue completely one day.

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The Lord has struck me in the behind with heavy pain; my excrements are so hard that I am forced to push them out with great force so that I'm sweating. And the more I postpone it, the harder the excrements get. Yesterday I have defecated for the first time in four days. Because of that I could not sleep all night and still have no peace. Please, pray for me!

-Martin Luther

>>23300833
Last gf I had, when we were in the honeymoon period still, whenever guys who had been interested in her for a while would text and try and flirt with her, she would take a picture of us and send it to them.

>>23300841
Milton had the same problem. The constipation theory of history...

I have so many things I want to do in my life, with my life. Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck in mud or a cage.

>>23300831
I had a similar experience. I did really well in class, got high grades with essays and stuff, but only because I felt obligated to do so. I also never could accept less than max effort, so this contributed to my burnout. In hindsight, I should have just taken it easier, gotten lower scores and whatnot. Oh well, there's always trades I can get myself into instead.

One drawback of being quite attractive is I am deathly afraid of getting old and becoming ugly, or at least plain.

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Devil, I have just shit in my trousers. Have you smelled it?”
—Martin Luther

I feel in my bones that we are approaching the event horizon of a dark age. The period of good times has ended. We will be ruled by dysgenic barbarians for at least a century.

>>23300928
we're standing at the edge of a cliff once again
are you ready to jump off?

>>23300928
techno-dystopia run by dysgenic overlords NOW

why does my loneliness make me want to kill myself? each day i fight it. it overpowers the things i love, the animals, the "enjoyment" in life. why do i fight it? why have i had to be trapped in my head for so many years? what is the point of completing my finals? its all sour

>>23300773
I'm nearly in this hole. I'm pretty sure I will flunk out of uni this semester and end up back living with my mom and rotting in some meaningless wageslave existence

>>23300965
What do you mean 'why?' Humans are social beings. Asking why loneliness is so impactful is like asking why hunger or exhaustion is.

>>23300928
the end times started decades ago bruh you were just enjoying a dead cat bounce, the second one at that

>>23300970
i knew someone who was able to deal with it just fine, i know it just takes strength, but its very hard for me. self love isnt enough. and there is no way i can meet friends or people i bond with. the most interaction i get is at the library or ballet. sometimes i just want to share things with someone, love them, not feel so alone. i guess i should just volunteer if i have time this summer. i think im also very sad in the evening having to stare at a screen all day for college, but i cant drop out when i have a year left. i should be capable of being alone and happy.

>>23300176
You feeling that something is absurd has no impact on the truth of it. What exactly makes it wrong? What is the argument and what empiracally shows your argument is valid? Also, superposition is a concept created exactly to describe the absurdity of wave-particle phenomena. If you read about it you would see that even the physics community finds it absurd but had to accept it in face of the facts, namelly the double-slit experiment with one particle at a time passing through it.

Again, science was such an advance exactly because now we don't need people to feel it is right for it to be right. We test it, it works, its true. Imagine if if anyone found something absurd we just denied it? If in Papua a tribe finds absurd the idea of soap then there is a possibility of it not being true?

Now if you want to know why evolution actually happens, you will have go find for yourself. Actually, by the way, the best way to find out why something is true is by trying you best to prove it wrong (scientific method, lol).

>>23300796
>I'm 7 years older
>He doesn't listen to me, often just contradicts whatever i say to pick fights, or is just plain rude
Is he between the ages of 14 and 20 by any chance? It's normal, you'll grow closer again

>>23300819
Rekt threads don't bother me, you can never tell what's going to happen from the thumbnail. What I really hate is every thread being filled with people arguing about porn. Leave the debate club shit for other boards, /gif/ is for jerking off

>>23300989
Because they don't feel truly alone. When a person is raised correctly, even if they don't talk to people, maybe even if they know they never will again, they FEEL like SOMEWHERE out there, someone cares and is with them on this earth, or will be there after they die. They are never really alone, because they always have someone. Same with Christians that feel the love of God.
People that have grown up as outcasts have nothing, and it comes off as incredibly ignorant when someone say
>Just don't care about all that bro. I get by fine.
Because they are raised up feeling as though they have people in this world.

>>23300819
/wsg/ on the other hand is amazing
>>>/wsg/5488190

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>>23300989
>i knew someone who was able to deal with it just fine
>i should be capable of being alone and happy.
You delude yourself, just as a neglected child blames itself for its parents divorce just as you belive that you should be capable of living all alone because you can't find bonds with others.
I feel very similiar anon, I too made posts wishing not have a need for other people to be close. In reality, I need a hug a day and/or do nothing together at the end of the day. And I bet you too. I could talk more but thats up to you if you wish to hear more.

>>23301005
thank you, this makes sense. he had a very normal childhood and has an EXTREMELY loving mother. mine was broken and my mother loves me now and is kind but is often away with her boyfriend, and thats okay, im an adult, but i just dont have her around anymore.

>>23301024
yes i wouldnt mind hearing more. im very sorry you feel this way too. im doing a lot of self work which helps, and i can differentiate when its appropriate to seek out others more so now, but i still struggle to feel proud or worthy when its just me, and im working on those things. i relate to the hug thing, its all i wish for, and i think even after that id be content. just to know you matter!

>>23300999
he just turned 21
why do you ask?

>>23301081
*why do you say that?

>>23301056
>proud
>worthy
I strove for those things too, maybe so I feel validated for once in my life. But once I failed and everything in my life shattered like a mirror I realised that regardless if I succeded or failed after a period of time I would return to where I was and feel exact same as before; inadequate. One needs to realise the root of the problem and mine need for validation was a symptom of being neglected and alone majority of my life. Personally what I need is exactly what I said, ''I need a hug a day and/or do nothing together at the end of the day'' i.e affirmation

>>23301121
i understand. i need those things too but its too painful to keep wishing and trying. when i am happy, i do really well and i thrive, but that has usually been moments in my life i had a friend or two or some support system. i cant keep fighting suicide, i really dont think the pain is worth all of the beauty in life or the love i could give. its hard to love others or animals properly when you hurt so much inside anyway. im trying hard to do self love meditation and self soothe and tell myself im here for myself. but it feels delusional often and confusing. why doesi it matter if i love myself when everything has felt so confusing and pointless for so long? i go to therapy. im on medicine. i go to places by myself i am in education i exercise and eat clean. yet i cant get away from this, i cant fix it ever. i just wish i was lovable and normal. im sorry for this, its been a particularly hard week. i guess its best to just turn this into a story or shut my brain off and do some work. but i guess if it was so easy, id have done that initially!

/wwoym/ has been extra bad lately

>>23301081
>>23301090
It's normal for people to lash out like that in their teen/young adult years. He's figuring his shit out, you'll have a friendly relationship again soon enough

>>23301147
My bad bro

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We’ve entered a new era of cold wars, AI keeps improving every day, and credentials and money just keeps loosing power and I just have to sit here with my thumb up my ass and accept it

>>23301138
you sure have a lot more to process. Before I go to sleep Ill say my last piece, time is a currency and one of the most valuable ones at that. Whether or not you want to finish your degree is up to you but once its over, do not go immediately into a full time job or further education, take a year or two off and do nothing, just think and read. What you need is a lot of free time to process and get through what you have. But if that isn't possible, be patient and do to best of your ability spend more time processing and thinking about your life.

I have this feeling like I need to move away from my town, my state, but I have no idea why. I just feel like I’m somehow crippling my future by being here.

Need to improve myself.

>If I had to baptise a Jew, I would take him to the bridge of the Elbe, hang a stone around his neck and push him over with the words 'I baptise thee in the name of Abraham'.
maybe this martin luther guy isnt so bad after all

>>23300819
What the actual fuck is wrong with you? I have the exact opposite problem, having to go through a bajillion inflation, furry, rape, futa, shota, etc etc etc shitty ass threads just to reach the rekt or war threads, which happen to be the only ones filled with sane human beings.

>>23301379
looking at that stuff over the age of 16 strikes me as very weird

>>23301387
Fun things are fun.

Well guys, it looks like my grandpa is dying. It's not like I haven't been expecting it, since he's literally a hundred years old, but I still feel down about it. He's going to hospice care and according to my mom, he'll pass in about 2 weeks unless he starts eating again.
I'm in the middle of a high level job related course and will be taking a capstone exam right around that time. When I found out, I had a brief flash of a thought that went something like "damn why couldn't this have happened at a different time" or "idk if I want to try making it out there with this coming up" and I feel like a giant piece of shit for even thinking such a thing.

>>23300842
I should quit following women on social media, but i haven't been able to let go of that sliver of hope of somehow meeting a lovely girl because: a) my past relationship blossomed out of randomly getting to know each other online before we eventually became a real couple ; and b) you have more things to observe and assess and angles of approach in somebody's online profile, especially if they seem earnest in what they're sharing. Trying your chances with a random stranger that you've only seen for a few minutes irl on a whim is too much of a shot in the dark for me, since I'm not looking for flings or casual shit, and I'd rather not back away after getting mine or the girl's hopes up once I realize something about her that completely opposes my wants in life. I don't know, man. I feel like a teenager all over again. Maybe having a healthy loving relationship isn't all that complicated and only requires a simple mindset instead of actively looking for an ideal.
Still, I dearly wish to find love in her big brown eyes for some reason.

>>23301390
>Fun things are fun.
this creepy behaviour towards it is quite unnerving

Burger Court

>>23301390
That’s not fun. It’s deranged.

>>23301426
That's the best explanation I can give people though. It's not like I have some sort of sexual interest in the material or some hatred for the people being killed/mutilated, there's just something about the material that gives me the same innocent, vague interest and feeling of "fun" that learning random trivia and stuff like that does. I do feel bad when I see something like a man(who doesn't deserve it) get intentionally tortured.
>>23301456
Maybe, but I honestly think that it's still a lot better than 90% of the /gif/ catalog.

It’s very possible that blacks are the reason for American downfall. 3 centuries more or less about trying to figure out how to lift up blacks, assimilate them into Western culture, get their crime rates under control have been such a colossal failure that now America is even trying abandoning and even condemning its own cultural, social, and even legal norms just to try to figure out a way to get these people to be like white Americans. It really is nuts when you think about just what is actually happening here.

>>23301457
A nsfw gif board would and probably should revolve around porn. The gore shit is just fucked up and edgy. If you’re into that, you should really probably decouple from the internet and do some introspection. It really is deranged. I mean that with sincerity.

The Glass Head Game was a great novel but for some I read the entire thing with a female mind voice, I think I've been having dysphoria. That sucks. I want to analyze the humor of Glass Bead Game, maybe it'll help clearing my mind.

There's no specific physical ailment but I just do not feel good right now. Maybe I drank too much coffee, as I could probably describe my current state as anxious and too excitable.

>>23301415
Best of luck, anon.

Jebusor : All hail the Blood Count!
(everyone screeches)
Jebusor : What does the Blood Count wants?
(everyone screams)
Jebusor : That's right, that's right!
Jebusor giggles. No one else is reacting.
Jebusor : Let the train derail!
The train picks up speed. From afar, it doesn't seem like much. Some passengers are awake—they notice the scenery is sliding faster and faster. An old man is trembling, and tries to alert the asleep woman next to him. It's useless, he realizes in horror. She is dead.

Jebusor jumps and dances.

The train derails. An untold number of passengers dies there, but some were already dead before the train picked speed. They have been sacrificed to the Blood Count.

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My friends keep coming to me for therapy and advice and I keep giving it to them, but I ain’t got therapy Or advice to get myself out of my mess

>>23301471
I feel like killing myself due to my chronic ineptitude. What should I do oh wise one?

I love to use my umbrella like it's one of those canes that English gentlemen used to have 200 years ago. I also used to walk around the house with a long mop and pretend it's a pike, back when I was a kid. What does this say about me?

Why can’t life be more interesting? I’ve been reading the biographies of great men of history recently and frankly, it’s hard to imagine any men having similarly eventful sort of lives in 2024. I mean, most competent people are locked away in school until 18-22 at least. After that, it’s just sort of work. No life of adventure. No wars. No piracy. No kidnapping. No jail time. Nothing. Just school and work.

>>23298914
I love Jesus so much bros

new /lit/ cutie
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gF_vv1ReCxQ

>>23301474
You need to actually analyze what your strengths and weaknesses are. And do not be ashamed of your failings, for no human is perfect.
You’re on /lit/ so try doing some writing not for profit or progress, just fun. Find a writing prompt and let your imagination run wild, damn the mistakes, misspellings, run on sentences or what have you. Creations without perfection is no sin, but to create with no passion is

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tr7DLi8GvZI

>>23299993
You could post images here, then share links to the /lit/ archive on warosu.org

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"Nowhere Man" by the Beatles been hitting too close to home lately

>>23300308
Well your problem is obviously isolation. It totally wrecks a person. Why did you move to a new university anyway?

>>23300415
>gets shot by a nigger
You know if you retire early due to injury or some kind of mental trauma you get a full pension and benefits. Something to consider.

Who are the better writers? Men with facial hair or men who shave?

>>23300441
Why is that such a big regret? Doesn't seem like a big deal to me. If that's your absolute biggest regret in life then you're doing pretty good.

>>23300476
Me and my long distance Discord gf (male) are screen sharing lezdom porn with each other

>>23301607
Men who actually write instead of endlessly debate whether a beard would finally inspire them to finally write.

>>23301624
You gotta admit though that both sides have some heavyweights.

Team facial hair
>all greeks since the dawn of time
>Shakespeare
>Donne
>Dostoevsky
>Melville
>Pound

Team shaven guys
>Virgil
>Cicero
>Thomas Aquinas
>Dante
>Goethe
>Eliot

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How do I become less cynic?

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In about a year, if everything goes close to plan, I will be in another country with a stable job. There I will start writing my first novel. The plan is to become an excellent webnovel writer and then quit said job. I've held that obsession for a very long time. I've even dreamed of exes stumbling upon my profile and being like "Oh, he had such a good career, and now he's a successful writer? shit, I regret leaving anon so much..." thinking of this surreal scenario, I'm chuckling like a retard in my bedroom. It's 3AM on a Friday. I have a day off tomorrow that I will use to train my german. My LinkedIn profile picture will be me, interrupted mid-drawing from my desk looking at the camera like picrel. Looking fresh and young. I will absolutely succeed or die trying.

Sometimes I want to claw my eyes out thinking about how stupid this is.
It's more than unreasonable, or embarrassing or pitiable. It's not even inexplicable. It is a whole fucking revelation of nature that science has yet to put under the scope whatever the actual fuck this is. Motherfucking stressing your dried old cunt lips out huh.

>>23301613
wtf share the wealth

>>23301652
My first novel will most likely become so successful it will have a movie adaptation. Countless people will make up various theories about my book series. I will live rent-free in the minds of many people it's unreal litbros, but this isn't what the end goal is about. All of this is just a mean to an end. My good ending is in Malaysia. I will become a man of many lives, and retire here in order to get closer to God. This spiritual retreat may seem whimsical and very bourgeois, but is in truth very calculated, I assure you. Anyways, I will chill in some pool in the middle of a nowhere island and then the world will go to shit.

>>23301667
Wow bad day at work?

>>23301647
I feel mostly the same way.

>>23301675
>>23301652
You're like a Dostoevskian character before the fall...

>>23301682
I never had the chance to read Dostoevsky, as I haven't learned Russian yet and refuse to read books I don't understand in their native language. Is he any good according to you? I've been meaning to read the Karamazov Brothers one day.

>>23301695
Yes. Very good.

>>23301684
I want to touch you too, anon. I'd caress your hair and call you cute if you want. Are you a woman though? Or perhaps a fairy?

I'm going to grab my penis and PULL IT OFF

>>23301714
Welp. Here goes my plan to marry a delicate fairy wife. I hope things will get better on your end. You seem like you are quite young, and there are plenty of opportunities to get loved in life. Maybe get some sleep?

>>23301723
not young anymore. 24. event was at 18. i'm going to read and go to sleep.

Hate when it blocks post deletion.

I love learning about other people. Their career path, specifically. You wouldn't believe me if I told you I spent thousands of hours, if not more reading LinkedIn profiles in college but I did. I still do, albeit to a lesser extent now that I have real work. It all started when I was in college and discovered that I could use LinkedIn to stalk my seniors' paths.

With one simple click, I would learn everything I needed to know. From my major, which master's was the best to get a real job in the industry? Which masters should I avoid, because people have to complete their curriculum with expensive non-uni courses? In which city? It was all there. Even if uni teachers tried to lie about how students were 'inserted' in the professional world, I would only see the plain, bare truth.

There is a common misconception about using LinkedIn that people don't understand; bullshiters are easily singled out. Sure, you can lie about one or two things, but you can't lie about where you've done professional work with your degree. It made my research and my pursuit of truth easier. Some things just don't line up when multiple people have a 3 years hole in their CV after graduating with the same degree.

Anyway, I have about a thousand HTML files containing the LinkedIn profiles of people who are 1 to 5 years my seniors right now. I use it to plan my career course; where did people get the most promotions? Who were they friends with at the time (see who liked their posts)? etc. The seniority helps because they're making mistakes I won't make in the future. If someone is changing workplaces after a few months or a single year, I know that there is something iffy about the management or the salary. It's hard work, but I'm certain it will pay off someday. I'm not doing it for the career. I'm doing it for the thrill of "planning the best course of action". I think I became like this because I come from a poor background. I don't have the wits nor the talent to achieve great things, but I'm hella fucking smart when it comes to observing others and taking shortcuts. Whenever I reach a milestone I've been looking at from afar and look back behind me to see the amounts of unforeseen hurdles I ploughed through, I feel a surge of adrenaline like no other. It's the only time I think I'm completely in control of my life.

>>23301729
24 is young.

>>23301759
This is a great post, very interesting. I might use this as a premise in a short story or even novel.

It's strange how many good tabletop games have been coming out lately, but people seem more alienated and isolated from each other than ever. How do they even find people to play with, especially given people are becoming more overworked and dumber than ever? Wyrmspan looks fun and with improved mechanics over Wingspan.

>>23301861
High school, college, and probably local online communities from there.

>>23301392
Sorry to hear that. I think it’s important to remember that while such thoughts may be bad, they are natural.

does anyone want me to gift them some books? im killing myself and i really want to do something nice :) and ill donate a bit to a charity of choice! i dont have much but enough for the boards user base lol

Can existentialism be a valid philosophical school such as stoicism or the like? The conclusions of existentialists seem far too disparate and disconnected.

>>23301873
Don't do it. Please live. Also depressed. If you kill yourself I'll kill myself tomorrow. Don't do it bro.

>>23301873
You just want my address! But no, seriously, don't hurt yourself, anon.

>>23301874
Existentialism makes sense as a reaction to the death of God, or on a individual level someone losing their faith and renouncing their religion, but it doesn't really seem to be a doctrine or 'school of thought' in itself. There's still all of the decisions and choices to make about how to life afterwards.

>>23301885
>>23301889
do one of those amazon things so i cant see the address! please anons let me do something nice

>>23301904
>please anons let me do something nice

Okay -- don't kill yourself. That is the only thing which will satisfy my desire, and the only kind gesture I will accept.

>>23301873
Is it okay if you send me your money instead over Bitcoin or Zelle?

>>23301915
yes :) zelle is good?

>>23301904
The nicest thing you can do is call 911 and get help. Don't let yourself be extinguished by this cruel world. You clearly have positive traits and you deserve the help more than the 20 cartel thugs that will take your place when you die. Call help dude, give it one chance. Just one last chance, at least, and make a genuine effort.

>>23301925
hahaha i have childhood trauma that has destroyed me! ive tried so much medication and therapy, all the exercise and adequate sleep. my mental health has just declined, ive wanted to die for a long time now. and if i call 911 they will just lock me up and hit me with hospital bills. i want peace, but i need to be fast, and i dont know how to give love before i go.

Do you ever forget that Delaware exists?

Back when I had no personal or professional life my phone was a place of refuge. I could be a shitposter, a troll, a nazi, have a whole collection of ridiculous and vulgar memes.
But now with all the professional contacts in my phone and group chats and friends, I am always terrified that something in my phone will find it's way to the wrong person. What if that nazi meme I saved 4 years ago accidentally sends? What if my autocorrect puts nigger into a text? Scary thoughts.

>>23301930
If your other alternative is death, hospital bills mean nothing. Give it a single chance, anon. And when you have the opportunity, tell them all your real feelings otherwise you will not get the treatment you need. Try to be honest, maybe make it like a last shot if you have to.
You can do it, right? I believe you can do it. You deserve a chance. It would be giving me a lot of love and happiness if I knew I gave you another chance.

You really deserve a chance, anon. Please try.

>>23301920
Yeah, Zelle is good. Give me your email address and I will mail my Zelle account email.

is it just an outdated notion that everyone say girls never approach. cos they do, don't they? all the time.

>>23301972
It's probably 65-35. Some do.

>>23301969
lilacpuppetshow@outlook

>>23301972
>cos they do, don't they?
Only if you're really hot.

>>23301981
Average guys get approached too. You're probably really ugly

>>23301978
i think it's similar to with boys. unattractive girls are less likely to throw a pass, attractive girls are more alpha or something

>>23301979
If you send a psychopath money, you will fund him doing stuff like this in the future, or whatever other deeds he would consider for money. There is a moral reason not to do it. You would also foster conditions to encourage stuff like this to happen more, and elsewhere in the world.
You can set a better example by getting help.

>>23301983
Don't be rude.

>>23301984
Unattractive ones don't approach true. A lot of plain ones do though.

>>23301873
Donate your books to a local or community library before they end up in some dump or retail.

>>23301983
>Average guys get approached too.
Once in a blue moon, sure.

>>23301987
Nothing evil about what I am doing, faggot. Kys. I live for higher ideals and I'm not a degenerate. Money would help me.

Plenty of people commit suicide all the time. It's better it goes to someone noble like me rather than a greedy Jew.

>>23302183
awful display this

>>23302183
You are not noble. You aren't even worth a jew's toenail.

>>23302212
>t. Jew
The way to determine nobility is with measurable metrics and viewing them impersonally. For example, aspirations in life, favorite books, etc.
You are a hypocrite and humanist scum to boot also. Sanctimonious garbage.
>>23302208
Stfu, sanctimonious fag. If people have no will to live and want to commit suicide, their money should at least go to charity.

>>23302217
>The way to determine nobility is with measurable metrics and viewing them impersonally.
This sort of materialism is integral to the jewishness that the right complains about.
>Goy 249372 is 0.34% less profitable. (Delete)
Shiteater.

>>23302232
>This sort of materialism is integral to the jewishness that the right complains about.
I have met very few deep ecologists or panpsychist Jew. I have read a good deal of both pessimistic literature like Ligottian and Cioran and also more life affirming stuff like the Buddhadharma and deep ecological works.
I do have a deep compassion towards the natural world, especially towards species being driven to extinction.
>Shiteater
A shit eater is more like someone who watches Marvel films and James Cameron shit. A shit eater wouldn't be busting their ass for a MS and barely getting by financially.
I don't even party or engage in debauchery.

>>23302217
woeful

>>23302235
Nothing will change the fact that when someone was at their lowest, your thought was "How can I make money from this?"
You will always be separated from human life by a gap you will never be able to cross. But I don't really care about qualifying this- you are a non-human that isn't worthy of an explanation, and no configuration of words would let you understand again, because you aren't really qualified to be human.

>>23302241
>Nothing will change the fact that when someone was at their lowest, your thought was "How can I make money from this?"
This is how capitalist societies function unfortunately... The thing is Jews are involved more in social engineering like peddling porn, pushing worldwide destabilization, promoting vice, etc. I don't do any of that.
First off, I'm not a humanist. What I am doing pales in comparison to oil spills and deforestation. Second, I am not pushing anyone to commit suicide or whatever. I'm just saying it's better the money goes to me than say corrupt corporations or subversive Jews.
>You will always be separated from human life by a gap you will never be able to cross.
I agree, I have had countless dreams of transforming into a Garuda with cool looking claws, and even my Soto Zen teacher claimed he saw an eagle's feather fly as I was meditating in the Sangha.
> But I don't really care about qualifying this- you are a non-human
The Buddha said the Tathagata is unfathomable. Indeed, I am more attuned to the non-human aspects of my consciousness including the supranatural aspects..I see much of this as a compliment.
To be honest, I feel neither malice nor compassion towards this man. A Jew would feel malice whereas naive humanists like you feel compassion whether it's deserved or not. You are also a hypocrite in that you are telling me to "kms" while you're telling him not to. You don't know either us.
>because you aren't really qualified to be human.
I like to imagine transforming into a celestial dragon, phoenix, or some kind of transcendent being like Ebrietas from Bloodborne. Even being a raven, whale, or etc. is better than human. Regardless, I see this body as more of a vehicle to achieve certain things in this lifetime. The sacrifice of one man to support my noble endeavors is fine. Who knows how many more great pieces of artwork I will produce or enlightenment experiences I have? Also, I want to adopt a dog and parrot in the future.
You should consider sending your money to me too and worshiping me as a god.

>>23302266
Cringe and boring. Typical self-absorbed narc. I'm going to eat some pizza.

>>23302273
Nope, you are the self-absorbed patronizing faggot. It's always the narcissists who patronize the most. Also, you are patronizing me over something trivial.

Plenty of people commit suicide every day because industrialization and modernity were failures and net negatives to the world. Those who want to survive and achieve something could benefit from the money.

It's not like I will use the money for bad things like drugs, prostitutes, or etc.

You know what? Kys in all sincerity you sanctimonious patronizing hypocritical scum.

>>23302273
>>23302241
Treating someone as nonhuman because they seek power is unbecoming. Humans have stolen from each other and the Earth in the name of everything under the sun at a magnitude of Geologic time greater than our anon here >>23302278
This is called being all-too-human and you're no different in depriving others of status, money, whatever.

>>23302294
While you, indeed, have a point, I honestly don't take it that far... I do maintain some degree of compassion and integrity depending on the context. Context is everything.

America is pacifistic and cannibalistic. Outwardly it seems to be a beautiful honeycomb, with all the drones crawling over each other in a frenzy of work; inwardly it's a slaughterhouse, each man killing off his neighbor and sucking the juice from his bones. Superficially it looks like a bold, masculine world; actually it's a whorehouse run by women, with the native sons acting as pimps and the bloody foreigners selling their flesh. Nobody knows what it is to sit on his ass and be content. That happens only in the films where everything is faked, even the fires of hell. The whole continent is sound asleep and in that sleep a grand nightmare is taking place.

>>23301972
I don't know where you live but here in CIS countries (I'm from Kazakhstan) girls need to be approached and only very rarely will any girl approach a guy at all

>>23300713
>>23300721
>Lol do you really think that's what she would have taken from that. That's basically just an affirmation of the 4chan incel accusation
Yeah for that reason I just shot back with some random buzz words back to him. Never should've told him about how I went on /pol/... big mistake!

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>>23298914
Fuck you crackkerrrsssss

>>23302536
Wouldn't have been a problem if your continent produced something of value to trade or would otherwise decide to stop enslaving itself to the rest of the world, acting like retarded animals is the best you fags have, btw 4/5 sheboons are obese here LOL

>>23301902
But depending on which existentialist you ask, the death of God means different things. If the death of God is something like a cultural abandonment of God, I don’t see how it can’t serve as a sort of ethical philosophy not unlike stoicism or the like.

I feel like I can’t accomplish what I want to accomplish with my life because of my appearance. What should I do with my life then? I worry that even if I somehow managed to become attractive, embarrassing photos of me from my younger years would rear their ugly heads and derail my hopes again.