Flying grandpa edish.Previous: >>23702352
>>23705825Can’t wait until it’s foggy every morning
I hate wanting to watch hard-to-find movies, the only way to get them is through torrenting and the torrents usually have 5< seeders. I wish movie streaming companies weren't such cucks and actually had the movies I want to watch.
>>23705843Turns out ok.ru has basically fucking everything and you can download from it with jdownloader.
I think my parents suffered quite a lot while raising me and my siblings and I'm only becoming aware of it now that I've moved out.
>both bakery and chocolatiers accept the gift voucher I havebrb acquiring heart attack
Got up at 4am today, got quite a lot of things done until leaving for work at 7am. It's really nice to come home from work into a tidy house and just relax with no tasks whatsoever on the back of my mind.
>>23705825y r u gae?
>>23705825Everyday feels like groundhog day, like I'm stuck in a loop. I do the same things every day, but always alone. I just feel without purpose or conviction.Couldn't control myself, spent the last 12 hours raging, arguing, and being retarded on this site. On occasion certain threads will tap into some obsessive part of my brain and I am hooked. And will refresh over and over againIn 8 hours I will wake up and go to my shitjob. Work myself till I am dead tired and hurt everywhere. Come home smelling like rancid sauce and bbq. Just to do it again and againIt's getting harder to see an out.
>>23705843use rutracker, it doesn't have everything there is but it definitely has a lot of shit
>>23705867How so? I think parents make a lot of sacrifices, but when you are a kid those sacrifices are hard to see because you just take it for granted
>>23705958Welcome to being an adult.You be you doing things that you like and yet still feeling miserable because of what society might think.That feeling is never going to go away but you can turn it on silent.Also, start getting up early in the morning, trust me I know the feeling very well of coming home late feeling like shit, but when you come home feeling like shit into a tidy house cleaned during the morning at least you have no tasks nagging you on the back of your mind.Optimally about 3 hours before going to work.
I'm a Germanic Aryan and all you can do is seethe about it.
>>23705962Finding the shit isn't the hard part, the hard part is finding the shit and the shit having a good amount of seeders.
Do I genuinely have schizophrenia or am I just a terrible writer? I wish I knew, because for over a decade or so I wrote stuff like pic related. 3.9 million words.
>>23706000Nice trips, this is pretty well done but I doubt the quality is sustained throughout. If you just chose a random page, well done, but if you curated this image, get a vicious editor.
>>23706070So I'm not insane? Just a shitter? Thank God, thanks kind anon. Also no, the quality s fluctuating. I just wanted to know whether or not I was losing my mind.
>>23705825Sometimes I ponder about how I'll do with all the stuff I learned in my uni for the rest of my life. My current job has nothing to do with it and I mean I still have an interest in that subject, but whenever I imagine myself studying it purely just for fun in my free time, I can't help thinking about one day asking myself, like "Why am I doing this?". Also, I don't know why I have such an attitude towards an area I was once passionate about, while I wouldn't ask myself that question about my humanity interests such as literature, which are also practically irrelevant in my daily life.
>>23705996stop watching obscure shit then
>>23705843criterion channel
Ive had a manic episode a week ago or so and in that time i posted this webm a couple of dozen times across several boards. I've got no idea why i did that
>>23705996What's the last movie you tried to torrent?
I could talk lengths about how many European folks are under severe threat of becoming spiritually Jewish.
>>23706173Trick (2019) and Drive Thru (2007).
>>23706142Gross.
>>23706213Wow this shit looks terrible. Also both of those are on Amazon lol
>>23706213oh i thought you wanted to watch good movies my bad
>>23706000I don't dislike it, but it's kind of unhinged. Doesn't make you insane, i write all kinds of deranged shit in my journal cause it doesn't matter and it's a way to get everything out
>>23706230Well actually desu read further down, a lot of it sounds like a mashup of a bunch of /pol/shit incoherently scrambled together. A few lines sound kinda cool, but I can't imagine what this is intended for unless it's just your personal journal
>>23706222Yes, to rent, hence why I'm trying to torrent them.
>>23706250Do you really want to watch either of these more than once? Anyway I thought you were gonna say you were trying to watch Titus or something, which I had to torrent cuz it's actually not available to stream or buy digitally anywhere
>>23706213both of these are bad and you should feel bad
I flew through my dreams to the Root.I swam across the sea and reached Land.I think I discovered something along the way,But alas! I am not interested anymore since completing my voyage.
IVE BEEN GOONING FOR HOURS AND NOW MY BALLS HURT
>>23706311should've been cooming
My mother’s been divorced 3 times, has terrible credit, no savings, no investments, doesn’t own a home and despite her very income has basically nothing to show for it because she has so much debt, and all she does is blame other people: her ex-husbands, her mother, her sisters, basically anyone but herself. It’s so annoying talking to her because in basically every single conversation, she will just invent some bullshit history to drag the people she hates into the convo and then blame them for why she’s not what ahead or why she had or has it worse. I grew up without my dad because she divorced him and she will constantly bring him up to talk about it and then when I finally open up about it, she she starts spewing about how she had it worse with her mother or whatever. It’s impossible to talk to her anymore. I want to love my mother but she’s such a miserable person I really can’t take it anymore.
>>23705843As stated above, ok.ru and vk.com are goldmines. Bless those russians.
>>23706431she's in pain, anon. you don't have to get mushy about it but she is in pain
>>23706431Tell her about integrity, owning your mistakes, self improvement, humility and other good thingshttps://youtu.be/GqKGJj0fFw0?si=5dZDB3KVWiBNuXWs
>>23706443Probably but I can’t fix that. She chose this and continues to choose it. Short of getting obscenely rich to buy her security and luxury, I’m not sure what else I can do. >>23706446You can’t tell her anything. If you voice your opinion in anyway it only leads to conflict.
I couldn't have asked for a better abusive relationship. you were the mother figure and the world-whore. you're the reason I believe the dyad is a bickering married couple. From friction, life
>>23706431My mother is way too critical of me which leads to solipsistic thinking on my part.
I am horribly incompetent at my job. I hope it's not too late to actually get a clue and become useful.
>>23706431My parents are crappy too, but I realized that just because my parents are irresponsible and lazy there's no reason to be a bad son. I think everyone should be a good son to their parents, less extreme cases like child abuse and such, where your parents do actually harm you in a way that is not justifiable in any way possible, but I don't take from your post that might be the case.
>>23706485How long have you been working there? What makes you think you are incompetent? Or do people just think you are a pushover. In that case just say no when a co-worker who isn't a boss or authority figure in the enterprise tells you to take out the trash.
Everyday I wonder why it takes me so much effort and determination to do the things that normies do naturally and with enjoyment.
>>23706501you'll never understand until you feel it. normies are buoyed up to the stars.
>read Confessions of a mask>a 20 years old homosexual has infinitely more rizz (with women) than I do as a 25 years old heterosexualIt’s so fucking over it never even started
>>23706488I mean, I agree. I just wish we could have a better more fruitful relationship is all. It irritates me that she is a bad mom and would obviously be viewed that way. The only thing she ever sacrificed for me was some money. If she were bad but viewed as good, and we could have pleasant convos, I’d feel better. As I get older, I just realize that in order to achieve what I want in life I need good people around me for support and I’m just slowly finding out my family can’t or won’t be that support and neither can or will anyone else. You’re on your own.
>>23706446You don't understand this kind of relationship. If you provide them any stimulus they'll use it to generate an argument out of thin air.This morning I mentioned to my sister that someone at work said I looked like Weird Al Yankovic. (I do). She managed to drag the conversation down into an argument in less than ten seconds.You can't have a productive conversation with this kind of person. All you can do is establish boundaries and excuse yourself from the situation when they break them.
>>23706491A few months now. I am certain of my incompetence because my job entails working with electrical equipment, and I'm either so clumsy or so moronic that I end up not knowing what to do on the spot and break something that I was initially supposed to fix. My intelligence drops down to zero and I become (or maybe realize that i am) a total airhead.
Just went to the bathroom and my shit was blood red
>>23706527Americans and the Americanized struggle to appreciate how different others times and places are. Most things were decided before your mom and dad even met don't beat yourself up about it
>>23706545I heard if it’s bright red it means your ass is bleeding, which is not *that* bad, but if it’s dark red it might be your intestines bleeding which is a life-threatening situation.
>>23705825I become very uncomfortable when people try to act wholesome and over-endearing online in places that aren't, like 4chan or porn sites.
>>23706537Exactly. No matter what you’ll say they’ll make it about them and if you dissent in any way they’ll depict you as attacking them. Every conversation has to be about them and you can never disagree or talk about anyone else.
>>23705825Brothers wedding is tomorrow. Sigh.
>>23706553No, we don’t. Eat lunch at noon like a normal person, Paco.
>>23706599Sounds fun. Congrats to him and his, I hope, wife.
>>23706537You look like Weird Al? Nice…
>>23706554hehe just playing anon, I just had lots of beetroot for dinner last night
>>23706554>>23706611I do also have ass cancer but that's probably unrelated
>>23706601you do. It's what you are
>>23706599That's nice anon. I fear that both me and my brother will end up genetic dead ends.
Seems have to do alot of movie watching because people around me are movie nuts. I think the newest movie I've viewed was Deadpool and wolverine with lots of people believing its the best thing ever.
>>23705825Something that always vexes me is how religion and biology seem to be opposed. Like the more religious we become, the more our animal instincts fade away, but one glance at the human body and you can tell it's designed for sport, for murder. Last night I read that rape was ubiquitous in the pre-historic world and that the rim of our dicks is presumably to scrape another man's cum out of a vagina in one massive rape fest. And I feel like if you look at black america, or islamic europe, you see mankind returning to these animal instincts. These races may have lower IQ on average, but it's not their culture which is causing a regression, so much as a lack of culture whatsoever. And I think this is why our ancestors were so desperate to preserve public morals, because they would slowly degenerate back to mankind's base level unless continuously upheld. And those morals which still exist in our civilization now are taken for granted, not even so elaborate as what our grandfathers had, because with nothing to keep them together, they'll surely continue falling apart.
>>23706659Goth warriors once killed one of their own for raping a Roman woman.I take this single event as proof that the white race is not an ape race. I would like to know however how many soldiers of the nazi regime are known to have raped women. Sure, they sacked, thye killed, they did a lot of shit, but has anything been heard of rape? It would give a lot to re-evaluate about the ethnic value of Germans.
>>23706673A person can have their entire propensity to commit rape eliminated. I doubt someone in the old Prussian military would have done it, or at least not one from the military families/aristocrats/bureaucrats/royals/churchmen etc. High culture eliminates almost all the animal parts of a person, in fact
>>23705825Which non-western values are, in your opinion superior to the western equivalent?Let's face it, we all somewhat buy into the narrative that the west is morally superior, but even then, there is no reason to believe that every single value we hold is optimal (by whatever metric). So I'm interested in knowing in which ways non-western cultures are potentially superior to us.
>>23706636Exactly >>23706638Yeah he’s hetero. She’s kind of bitchy sometimes but most women act that way towards me anyways.>>23706603Oh I probably am myself. I’m 42. Both my siblings are gonna be married. I’m a self taught philosopher so maybe I’m not supposed to be married.
>>23706673Why did you single out the Nazis. You think the Brits, French, Americans and especially the Australians and Canadians didn't rape the fuck out of every woman who wasn't protected, friend or foe? Come on.They literally even rape each other.
>>23706659Evil dwells within. That's the challenge of living.
>>23706688Do you mean historical and idealized western values, or the ones propagating around and practiced today? If the latter, then as a mixed Vietnamese/White person (but mostly Viet and raised by my full Viet grandmother so I inherited and saw those values firsthand), the way White and Americanized people my age and younger often treat their family and parents in particular deeply disgusts me.
>>23706699Most people are evil, but I never hurt a fly.
>>23706688I think indian religions took morality furthest in terms of non-violence, vegetarianism, abstinence from everything. the jain ideal is starving yourself to death
>>23706703You'd be surprised at how little it would take for you to devolve. It's so easy.
Based? Based on what?
>>23706700I meant contemporary western values.And yes family relations are also what came to mind.Although the practice of leaving your family home and never looking back is a North-Western/Germanic custom. It's not at all the case in southern Europe.Cannot speak for the Slavs.I will tell you this though. It has it's advantages. I have been held back in life a whole lot because I spent so much of my young adult life taking care of relatives. Of course I stand to inherit something but I did not really enjoy my youth or early adulthood at all.
I would never tell them this, but my mom and brother are the only reasons I haven't offed myself. As much as I'd like to, I can't inflict that level of suffering on them. Without them, I would've been gone years ago
>>23706719Yeah I told my mom and stepdad I pretty much plan to off myself at 40 and they said who's gonna take care of them, and that was persuasive enough to convince me to remain on this mortal coil at that time in order to support them the best I can.
>>23706707That’s the one of the reasons I find it cowardly
>>23706729The whole conqueror chad thing is barely even christianity
>>23706682But what creates high culture other than humans without simian traits?
>>23706688Usury is about as immoral as it gets when it comes to financial practices, and it's strictly forbidden in some places.
>>23706729starving to death for God is the ultimate expression of the soul
>>23706695Provide sources that support your argument and I singled out nazi Germany because I did, kike.
>>23705825I wrote a script today. 1515 words in total. You might say it's short, but it's 1515 words more than I've written in months. A complete project. Will I do anything with it? Probably not. But I showed myself I can do it still. It's not over for me. The feelings of being trapped being unable to focus and do what I want... it's starting to go away for the first time in a really long time.I'm feeling good,
>>23706736Well, capitalism depends on it.
>>23706735High culture is basically trying to regain something that was lost. Garden of Eden as metaphor for pre-agrarian society is easy, but IMO inaccurate. What you are really trying to regain is being part of something greater than yourself. The violent caveman lives only for himself, but culture means expanding your boundaries, living for family, living for nature, living for God
>>23706750Adam and Eve in the Bible are not depicted as Barbarians. If they are naked, it's because 'their eyes were closed'. As soon as God banishes them from the garden, they become agricultors and herdsmen. Kain, the son of the first man, becomes founder of the first city.
>>23706750It's the other way around half the time. Culture is just as liable to contraction
>>23706745Good on you, lad. You might have inspired me to get over my cowardice and sit down to write for once.
>>23706754I mean you've heard that interpretation before probably. That they represent pre-Agrarian life.I think it's really about being forced out of God and into the body of an individual, into a figure with its own separate will, cursed to try and serve that will but bound for failure>>23706762That's true.
>>23706772> That they represent pre-Agrarian lifeYet the garden seems to have been full of fruits. It was surrounded by walls, the animals could talk, and there was mysterious beings with swords who God put around the tree of life to protect it from people taking it's fruits.Again it doesn't seem like the traditions of agricultural peoples acknowledged the existence of a more primitive and backwards stage of existence.
I'm going to buy a boat and look for undiscovered islands.
>>23706789I don't believe in that interpretation either.Despite man existing in the garden and being "separate" from God, I think man in this time was basically absorbed into God and nature like a tree or a rock. And the real punishment is having to live separate from God in this life, separate from nature, almost like a parasite. I'm not a Christian myself but that's how I see it anyway. If man were part of God he wouldn't even be conscious in the same way he is now.
>>23706796I know you are tired of hearing this from other people, but there are no undiscovered islands left, anon.
>>23706807Yes but god is a parasite
>>23706808This is true that's why I am waiting for subterranean adrenochrome megacities to be the new thing in horror for a bit.
>>23706807No I'm not a Christian either. I'd describe myself as some sort of Deist experimenting with polytheism.Though I find it strange that one of the oldest writings about the first humans doesn't depict them as barbarians. I mean usually the progress from hunter gatherers to agriculture is perceived as to have lead to material and moral improvements in society, yet for those very same early farmers, Genesis is based off of ancient Babylonian and Sumerian texts, before agriculture humans lived in a blissful state with God. Also the names of the first humans resemble each other across the globe. For the Scandinavians, the first humans were called Ask and Embla, etc.According to the ancient Greeks, [Men] lived like gods without sorrow of heart, remote and free from toil and grief: miserable age rested not on them; but with legs and arms never failing they made merry with feasting beyond the reach of all devils. When they died, it was as though they were overcome with sleep, and they had all good things; for the fruitful earth unforced bare them fruit abundantly and without stint. They dwelt in ease and peace
>>23706835Food is catabolic. Hunting and foraging made you dependent on space. Agriculture makes you dependent on a plot of space. Now fast forward to cuck boxes in Queens. First "humans" depended on less so they were happier
>>23706849The first and second generation of humans invented agriculture, shepherding, construction and urban living, according to the ancient traditions of the same early farmers you pretend made a progress from living like cavemen.
Suppose to have friend over to watch the game today near 5 pm. The seahwaks are suppose to be on their second game of the season.
>>23706537Yeah you know what, youre right. Cause i have stopped contact with my sister cause of her incredible hatred towards me- i dont even know why she hates me.Also >>23706446Ive been watching couple of these videos already, turns out the text is AI generated and voice is also AI generated, so yeah watch out you guys, ive been kinda bamboozled, i did notice every sentence is loaded with keywords but i didnt piece the puzzle
>>23706716That's the issue right there though, seeing it as having held you back. Rather, you did your duty as a member of your family, and improved the well-being and quality of life of another member. You should be happy and proud of yourself, anon.And yeah me and my folks have plans to eventually buy a house together. If and when I get married, if I decide to have kids, I still want us all living together.
>>23706723Honestly I can't believe such obvious selfishness on their part hasn't made you push your timeline up
>>23706882I mean they raised and took care of me (and still currently do), so it's the least I can do in terms of material reciprocity. And then of course I love them as well -- I'd feel awful putting an end to this life and leaving them abandoned like that.
>If I kill someone and steal their life essence, I can finally be happyThis is obviously bullshit, but I fear one day I'll become deranged enough to try it anyway.
The attractive doctor said I was very soft while she was pressing against my stomach. Is that good?
>>23706000It seems you just have a lot on your heart. Keep at it until you can't anymore.
>>23706835>before agriculture humans lived in a blissful state with God.This is one of those historical dilemmas that might never have a satisfying answer.Pre-agricultural nomads/foragers probably were happier than us. But that's because they were much healthier, slept on dirt and grass, lived with nature, had immense freedom, and so on. They were the kings of the earth, and had no real enemies except (occasional) other tribes. And in some respect this was a departure from nature rather than "true" nature. Because now humans are back in the food chain, but it's a food chain of humans vs. other humans. Longing for those times back is natural, but they were also "temporary", right? Nature itself is competitive. Before humans gained our ultimate competitive advantage, we too were in the dirty jungle fighting for our lives, getting torn and eaten, etc.
>>23706891Real great job they did raising you, quality work. Sorry. But surely they have some hand in your mental state, right? I'm not saying you should kill yourself, but you probably "owe" them less than you think
ME AND MY FUCKING GUN
>>23706554Missed the>shituationjoke opportunity
>>23706897And yet, if you had read Genesis closely enough, you'd not only have realized that Kain was a farmer before being punished by God for killing Abel, but that the punishment was that he and all his descendants would never yield product off their fields anymore. I mean it's obvious that during the time these tales were written there was still cavepeople around, but I doubt that the farmers of that time believed them to be people who still lived in the age of the Gods, but as evil, demonic creatures who worship Satan and all the evil things and who lost agriculture for their oblivion of God.This ends all discussion on early farmer / cavepeople relations.
The truth is that we are all separate.
>>23706918Nah, it's mostly as a result of some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain so an unlucky biological happenstance, as well as my own fuckups in life. I don't blame them at all, my grandmother did a wonderful job raising me, God rest her soul, and my mom did the best she could given the circumstances and in the time she's been taking care of me since my grandma. The only negative emotions I have in regards to my relationship with them is guilt at having to deal with me, seeing me having squandered my life and gifts.
>>23706688Globalism has spread so much that it has eradicated any different value
>>23706933This why niggas be killing God in they JRPGs frfr
I had one thing that I was somewhat good at and I failed at that.
I want to quit my job, get the fuck out of my parents' house and perish. I'll never adapt to what society wants to why keep wasting my time? Just let me be homeless for a while, either I "wake up" or die.
>>23706941>chemical imbalanceWhy not get medicated then? Also man, if your mom handed you off to your grandma, obviously that's gonna have some sort of effect. It may have been the best she could do but it's still not great, ya know?
>>23705825my gf just broke with me I feel so empty I hate myself so much
>>23707057What happened
>>23707061long distance and not seeing the same for the future we got into some petty arguments recently but then she brought up all the shit that she's been sitting on she says we can try when I get back and still want to be friends
Be honest. Do you wish you could get the girls you see in TikTok and porn videos? Or is there some other type of girl you wish you got?
>>23707071Whats the point? They would be disappointed in real me.
>>23707069if it was the old me I'd just download tinder and try to sleep with the first women to let me but I'm just tired
>>23707073sorry anons I know no one cares but I just want to let someone know that won't baby me or treat me like I'm about to die any second
>>23707071My hand is enough
>>23705825I will remain celibate.
>>23707072That’s not what I asked though. >>23707090I doubt that.
>>23707101why?
Being born to self-employed parents sealed my fate.
>>23707071Obviously they're hot but honestly if someone is super into tiktok it's a big turnoff for me
>>23707112??? You guys will literally blame anything for your problems lol
>>23707106>That’s not what I asked though.You asked for a type and I answer that it doesnt matter.
>>23707112Being born sealed my fate.
>>23707115They all are now though. I don’t know any women who don’t have social media as their main preoccupation.
I want to become a more fun and positive person but I think that comes with success and I’m not successful right now. Being an unsuccessful pessimist only works for you if you’re hot.
>>23707131>become a more fun and positive personyou can always clownmaxx
I don’t know how people can listen to certain music and not think we have a divine essence. Bach’s air on g string for example.
>>23707162When music really hits I start to understand what plato was talking about with forms revealing divinity and all that. Makes sense if you think about it
>>23707159That’s not what I meant
cant decide whether i should make soup or a pizza for dinner today i think soup would be the responsible thing
The single best skill you can learn in life is how to appropriate and leverage your past to inform the decisions you make about your future. Figuring out who you are, where you’ve been, and what kind of future makes sense for you is so valuable, man. But this is so difficult to teach a young person. It’s probably the second most difficult thing, second only to teaching them how to figure out what they should do with their life in general.
>>23705825I would do absolutely anything to get myself to be productive except be productive
>>23707196A good stew sounds so good. A good beef stew is top 5 meals.
I won't get anywhere unless I give up on sleeping more than 6 hours at a time, or quit my job. It is prqctically impossible to improve my life without some extra hours everyday. I wish it was a simple matter of quitting Youtube or something and reclaiming lots of hours, but most of my time is spent working for minimum wage. People living in countries with 40-hour workweeks should be grateful they eacaped my fate.
>>23707207indeed. its also going to be cold and rainy for a few days so soup sounds good to me
>>23706168That webm seems more like a mixed episode, kinda dark for mania.But it’s a good webm. I don’t know what the word is for the emotion of witnessing vapidity in the face of malevolence, but it’s a strong emotion.
When I stand back and look at the world trying to determine what is true I look at the various religions which all contradict each other, science, which contradicts all the religions, all the political and philosophical theories, all of the ones ever conceived held by somebody, the same goes for all types of intellectual theories. Whatever supposed ‘truth’ is held by people is conceived of as definitely true, people really think they’re right yet they all contradict each other and I think to myself what is this insanity? I literally do not trust anyone to get it right anymore. I personally think (but I have learned the wisdom not to think I must be right and therefore don’t actually believe my thoughts) that this world is a prison of belief and must have been created by evil. For people who think it was created by good ask yourselves what good can come from this situation? You just have to look at the vicious arguments constantly being had on lit between different people who think their right but contradict each other. Not to mention the horrendous suffering that goes on in all societies and nature constantly. And no I don’t buy into evolutionary theory, it’s just another religious type dogma based on false philosophical assumptions and wrongheaded interpretations and speculation. If evolutionary theory was true why would people think they’re right all the time when they’re not? Surely that universal feature of humanity would be detrimental to survival.
>>23706897Almost everything you wrote is completely wrong and utterly moronic idealization of pre-historic living conditions.
>>23707108Multiple reasons. I part, I've always known I was more comfortable alone than in a relationship. I even thought I would become a priest when I was a kid, but I ended up losing my faith years ago and didn't go through it. Everytime someone shows romantic interest in me I back out and distance myself from that person, I don't really know why, but it's always been like that.
>>23707242losing my faith?
>>23705355I followed anon's advice and set up a meeting with her. Neither of us work on the weekends, so I simply texted her (number I got from the employee contacts) before bed. Here are the exact texts:>Hey, this is J. Can we talk tomorrow?>yes>Julie's Diner (local place, idc if you fags find it) around noon sound fine?>yes>k seeya thenTo be honest, I regretted sending a text at all so deeply that even the thought of just killing myself briefly seemed reasonable to me. Instead I paced around my apartment for an hour considering what I would even say or, more importantly, what the point of it all was in the first place. What would I gain by any answer at all? That night I dreamt of nothing, and the drive there was full of suspense and fear.When I arrived, I saw her right away alone by a window seat, with a single cup of steaming coffee at her table. I can't say exactly how the beginning went, nor is there enough space for it all, but I opened with a small greeting and simply asked her why she said 'that.' I guess we had a somewhat normal chat. Eventually she said that I seemed really "interesting" and she just wanted to 'make sure.' From then, I can clearly remember everything that was said.>You know it's kinda risky to say things like that to a crazy person like me.>Why?>Because they might get the wrong idea.>How?I paused for a few awkward seconds before thinking of a reply.>Because I might start liking you too much.At this she gave a strange (I suppose I would describe it this way) "devious" smile, adjusted in her seat, and then settled to an expression of maybe consolation.>There's nothing wrong with liking someone.I couldn't think of any sort of reply, but the sentiment felt so innately wrong. I couldn't explain to her any of the thoughts that were floating in my head, neither did I want to. Things like "Yes, but if I start to like you, I might start to hate you too" or, "you will stop liking me soon enough." Instead, I simply said>Anyway, thanks for the chat. I've got some things to do today.>Alright.Before I got up, she placed her hand on top of mine (which was situated next to my phone) and added>You can call me whenever you want. I don't mind.The sensation of her warm, slightly damp hand on top mine is what I think contributes to how vividly I remember the last portion of our conversation. My heart skipped beats again and again and, if my hand had been turned upwards and she had placed her palm on mine, I believe I would have fainted. I didn't reply, I simply got up and left— I fell in love with someone I barely knew.I am driving to a phone store now. I sent my no-notice resignation to my employer and I've blocked her number. I'll have an entirely new phone number within an hour. Yes, I'm aware of how dramatic my reaction is. I was never prepared for something like this, I didn't know how to take things, I didn't know if she was truthful, and every part of this screamed "You're fucking up, run away."
>>23707238Glad we have an expert on history in the thread to chime in, brilliant rebuttal m8
>>23707213i just think catfish are need desu
>>23707256It's funny because I don't even remember her explanations for why she did anything, maybe she didn't explain anything with substance. I've never had a person get so close to me so fast, the experience was bizarre.I guess I can be thankful this is over and I can start getting back to normal. I just want to know from anons how badly I fucked up or if she was the one being weird (after all, she started this).
I think at this point my only goal in life is to get enough that I can afford some kind of 24/7 carer to bathe and take care of and gently prod me along in life. I don’t care how maladaptive that is.
>>23707256>girl is nice to anon>he quits his job and changes his phone numberBravo
Footfags are a menace to society. They're what keeps the OnlyFans economy even remotely viable.
>>23707196I think I added to much herbs to my soup but im sure it will be good
>>23707387>making feet your entire personalityghoulish
>>23707362Based
What book for drunk night reading?I want to get drunk and read until 6 AM.
>>23707389ok nevermind. I didn't like how it smelt at first but now its smelling great
I really want a Serana gf but I’m the type of guy least likely to get one. I only get hometown country girl types.
>>23707459>I only get hometown country girl types.BE GREATFUL
My friend told me that I should join a boxing gym instead of self-harming myself when times get tough, but I don't have the money to afford coaching and shit like that.
>>23707464No you don’t understand. These girls are boring, needy, not affectionate, and get fat quickly. It’s actually the worst type of girl to get because as you get older, the girls get significantly worse unless you can bag college girls, which you probably can’t. All of my exes are fat now.
Deleted all my dating appsFuck 'em
>>23707535I just dated a chick way out of my league for a year, broke up amicably due to one of us moving, and still have other IRL dating prospects right now by fluke, and just having been back on dating apps out of curiosity after the breakup already makes me feel like shit like I'm a stage 3 incel It's amazing how the simple act of swiping through hundreds of women you just know a priori have already demoted you to Subhuman Unworthy Dross can just devastate your self-confidence unconsciously. It's like being at a party where you've been told everybody fucking hates you and wishes you were dead. You can hold it together and stick around for the appetizers but there's a sense of dread in the air, the aura is bad and you feel hostile eyes on you. Except on dating apps it's inverted, they express their hatred and disdain for you by unpersoning you and refusing to even acknowledge your existence. You just sit there swiping forever. I can't imagine how damaging it must be for the psyche of a man who hasn't had anything in a while to remind him that he's loveable and valid and so forth. Especially if he's not a hateful asshole like me who unconsciously knows all these women are miserable and phony, all those smiling happy vacation pictures in front of that stupid fountain in Rome are fake, just a front for a deeply bitter and entitled woman. At least I can cope by counter-despising the women. Good-natured but sub-top-20% men on dating apps are lambs to the slaughter.
>>23707467Probably don’t need it. Just show up to a gym and pay the membership fee.
What should we make of the fact that girls seem to be almost universally agree that tattoos make hot guys hotter? I hate tattoos. I think they’re so trashy and I know I would regret it if ever got one. But even I have to admit there are some girls that there tattoos make them even hotter.
>>23707387>Footfags are a menace to societyIndeed I am.
>>23705825I want to do my hobbies, but then I start doing my hobbies and feel like I'm wasting time that can be used for scrolling reddit/4chan.
Write What's On Your Mind /wwoym/Dream within a dream edition.Previous >>23705825
>>23707548You sir are correct
>>23707556tattoos can signal openness, a "personality," and indicate you spent some money on acquiring them.
>>23707556tattoos are a red flag, avoid dating any girl with one at all costs. It's a simple way to tell someone is not worth it at a glance.
>>23707430Put down the bottle and pick up the Bible, brother.
I miss my machine gun
>>23707606https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fFkhtB4T24c
I've had thoughts of dying nearly every day for the last four months. Fall is going to be more difficult than usual this year and I'm not sure how I'll be able to handle it.
>>23707584They all have them now so you don’t have much of a choice.
>>23706000hey dude this is pretty cool, have you read tor ulven?
>>23707566Same, but replace reddit with gelbooru.
>>23707702Tattoos are a sign that a woman is immature and childish enough to think that being a unique person is something that just happens automatically when you listen to your random whims, without even bothering to check if you're doing the same as everybody else in the process. It's the supreme female vices, entitlement, narcissism, laziness, and frivolity, literally manifesting on their skin like a warning sign. Every tattoo a woman has is simply the female equivalent of a male incel posting online that he "deserves" a girlfriend, thus proving he lacks self-awareness. He lacks self-awareness of the supreme male vice, of not being able to face the fact that nobody owes him anything, that life is rough, and that he can either change and improve, or remain a pathetic loser forever, with no third option. An incel posting grumpily about how he wants a hand-out from life, and that he refuses to take charge of his situation, is the mirror image of a woman with tattoos. The latter is proving to the world that she's a juvenile silly little girl, who thinks that lackadaisically painting herself like she's doodling on a napkin or hanging meaningless wall fixtures from Bed Bath and Beyond instantly makes her interesting or rather deepens her existing interestingness. She thinks she's going from being inherently unique with no effort to even more unique with minimal effort. Has ANYONE ever actually looked at a woman's tattoos, aside from other women who get tattoos? I've seen thousands of women covered with full sleeves and intricate designs and it strikes me that I've never taken the time to actually focus my eyes on them and at least identify what they are. Because I know instinctively, unconsciously, that whatever they are, they're nothing. They mean nothing to her, because she's an idiot whose choice of this over that tattoo means nothing, just a typical woman. If it isn't "Live Laugh Love" it's the Chinese or Navajo equivalent of it. Who cares? If it isn't this ironic cartoon character it's that ironic cartoon character. A woman can't have depth so she can't be revealing any depths with her choices.Meanwhile if I see a guy with tattoos, who isn't a young hip queer (honorary woman so same logic applies), I at least take a glimpse and wonder why this badly drawn muscular snowman was meaningful to him at some point in his life.
i am so fucking bored all the time and, at the same time, im not bored at all. its like life is this constant streaming of my consciusness and at some times im too bored to look in the viewfinder and at other times i find the shot transcendent or some shit like that so then again im not looking at it. i guess im never looking at it. my best friend said i just need to get over myself and live, but i just want to break that fucking camera with my own hands and feel the glass of the lens cutting my palms open. just to feel that funny feeling. i eat and i dress and i wash and i still can say thank you. thanks for everything. thanks a lot.
>>23707556Idk, they don’t mean anything to me since most people get them before age 25, and I consider anything done before age 25 free game in terms of stuff I won’t judge people for.
>>23707744>abloobloo my mom was a bitchGet over it
>>23707917t. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PdxFVFGdCpE#t=3m46s
>>237079272014 called they want their grifter back
>>23707744Women don’t really notice either until they’re cuddling you in bed, and then they want to know the meaning. Men do the same. They just never ask because they don’t even want to know. Women get tattoos to signal that they’re “sexual assault survivors” now. What guys wants to know the meaning behind his girl’s assault tattoo? So the guys just don’t ask because they’ll find out their girl is a victim or a crazy whore.
I’ve got to find a new career. Maybe I should go to law school. Fuck, man. I don’t know. This is the second time shit didn’t work out, but this time I’ve been here a lot longer.
>>23707367Just imagine if I didn't, what sort of bullshit I would have brought around her. It's better.
A few years ago I thought my brother was a loser for being a NEET. Now I just wish I had done he did.
>>23708078Caleb?
>>23708188No.
>>23708224Caleb?
What do you say to a woman you matched with who says she likes "twisted humour"? These bitches really give me nothing to go on.
Took a quarter of a Xanax bar (0.5mg) this morning after I took my methadone dose, knocked out for 6 hours. Took another, slept for another 2 hours lol. Kinda lame but I assume I probably needed to make up the sleep so it's good I guess. Just hope I can still sleep tonight, don't really wanna use another dose of Xanax just for that purpose but might have to.
>atheists mock me>say "your women are showing off their tits on instagram and have a bunch of sex with strangers before marrying you and you think this is normal">they shut their mouthoh God, why are we all so based under (You)?
do (you) use and spend money on onlyfans? could you explain your reasoning?>>23708273are you bipolar?
>>23708278>be me, God's fan on the internet>surfing on the internet>people mocking religions gather around me>"oh yeah, and you guys are, like, 80 IQ! you guys don't think by yourself, you need some God to exist, bla-blah-blah!">shit>let's review the situation: these retards have no clue who Blaise Pascal is, they don't read, in fact they are more retarded and less literate than my 6 years-old cousin. sound, unprovoking arguments won't work out.>mmm...what's a course of action retards and genius alike will understand?>slid out deck from hand>pick a card>'why do you guys have a 50% divorce rate?'>... nah, too harsh>pick another card>'why do you guys let children get into internet psyop and make them believe they can change sex like magic?'>... they'll get mad. plus they're retards, they'll probably agree that this is retarded too and put the fault on the society they have created and have been perpetrating. this isn't getting better>pick card again>let's see>'why are your women fucking everyone and destroying your society? that's crazy right?'>let's try that>they all look at me>since this is phrased as a question, they are completely confused. inwardly, I can already feel the clocks turning inside of their heads.>atheist anon approaches in retaliation>"---it's the jews! the jews are doing this to us!">sigh
i walked to this grocery store on the other side of town just to see if they had anything different and they actually had cans of that ghost energy drink so naturally i had to try. i feel slightly hyper and adhd now. not bad. def better than rockstar or monster.
>>23708313Just a drug addict.
the wink is an underutilized gesture.
>>23708313because i want to jerk off to her, specifically, trying on panties, and i couldn't find a ripped video anywhere.
>>23708425did the pornhub algorithm also give you that one of the colombian chick giving head and the dude goes "do it like it's your first time, like your first love" and she winks at the camera? or are you thinking of winks for a different reason?
>>23708432no, i only jerk off to try on hauls on youtube brother.
>>23708425It can be used in a lot of ways as well
>>23708454can be very disarming
>>23708431why 'her' though?
>>23708549reminds me of my mom
>>23705825I get a vague frustration over pop culture because I want to know more about some art, but all you find is "it was made this year in this place with these people influenced by this dude" and while ostensibly true it just seems wrong. Like you put all this work into a piece of music but they're just funny sounds that don't mean anything? If that's the case then we may as well let AI try and replace artists because the human element (which is meaning) has already evaporated. As a kid it was quite nice knowing each hymn in church was some kind of elaboration of God. Pop culture feels like a collection of animal tails, but you never get to see the whole animal...
>>23708443My nigga
I've been gone for about 5 days. What did I miss?
I woke up at 3am again which means this day will be worthless. I am finally more or less able to fall asleep at a reasonable time but now I just wake up in the middle of the night.
>>23708609Hookers and cocaine
I’m depressed because I’ve been stuck in a shitty low status dead end job since I graduated from college and when I look around at successful people I don’t see anyone who stumbled like that. It makes me feel hopeless.
>>23708635You know that’s normal right? People used to sleep until about 2 or 3 am and then wake for as long as an hour or so and then sleep again until sunrise.
Remembering the way she smiles reminds me I should smile too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_E8p64CVwVk
>>23708648I guess I will try that, I usually give up trying to fall asleep again after 30 minutes or so.
>>23708253Never try to extrapolate from their profile what to say unless it's low effort. If they swiped right on you they are at least open to thinking you're interesting. You have a kind of Schrodinger's +1 to "potentially interesting" as long as you don't collapse it by revealing you're weak (showing too much interest, being too eager). You can ride on that a little bit, like Kramer riding on fumes far from the dealership. It's literally a better strategy to go "Hey" or "Nice rug" (deliberately low effort and irreverent) than to go "Oh neato!! I like THE SMITHS too!!!! Where did you see them last!!! I have the following THE SMITHS facts to share with you!!!!" Women are disgusted by the latter because it means you're too weak to be interesting, you have to try to be interesting and build a human relationship. They don't want that, instinctively they want God himself to manifest as a muscleman chad and ignore them and despise them and rape them. Just be funny but without being gay about it. Also don't care if she ghosts or if things go well for a while and then she ghosts. Actually there's an exception, if you can tell a girl is an art hoe who wants to be taken seriously you can try to act like a more serious respectable hipster guy since part of her self-image she's trying to maintain is likely that she wants a serious impressive litbro guy. But these are just as likely to ghost, especially since, because you're a man, you're likely to draw reflexively on actual interests and passion for the subject to bond with a person who is also expressing interest in it, but as a woman, even the art hoe who superficially wants you to be genuinely interested in your shared interest will still sometimes remember she's a woman and despise you for "trying too hard" (trying to actually connect with her as an equal).
I am deradicalizedplaying politics and ideological games feels like running a never ending hamster wheel with no light at the end of the tunnel. I no longer believe I will save the world with whatever trendy -ism. I no longer believe that the utopia will come if we stack enough bodies in le epic political revolution outside of the grace of God himself, there is is no magical cure for being human that will fix everythingI give up.
>>23708687Women confuse me. I know they aren't ALL chad-chasers but it seems like the fraction who have the ability to love a normal man is shrinking year by year.
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uC-tq3AOPFE>the holidays are coming>and i guess it's no surprise>i have to feed your cat>her name is cherish with a 'y'
>>23708724Imagine if every 'inconsequential' nobody that fought or died for a better world thought the same as that.
>>23708736things would probably be exactly the same lol
>>23708736>>23708738yeah all the inconsequential nobodies who fought on the other side just cancel each other out
>>23708744Absolutely brutal. but probably true lol
>>23708736>that fought or died for a better worldnever happened. all the "better world" things people "fought for" backfired and are just profitable new ways of exploitation that would have been carried out regardless
>>23708751Backfired? They turn to shit later, but the system is one of constantly fighting to drain the shit out. This argument is very similar to>oh well, my ass will keep getting shit on it. might as well stop wipingor>lets not bother stopping X crime or problem because in the future it will be filled with corruption againetc. There is no reason to be deradicalized about anything. Just don't have any grand hopes about what you can do- be content to do your best, whatever that may be in whatever situation comes to you. It can be as simple as voting, or it might be minecrafting in minecraft.
>>23708778>bro you just gotta sell your soul and kill people and stuff just so the snake can eat its tail again just trust me bro
>>23708785>bro you just gotta let people be killed and raped bro because the snake will eat itself anyway bro trust me bro
>>23708791this scenario of nice moral good guys riding in to rescue people from rapists and killers exists solely in your head
>>23708803>everything's completely gray bro trust me bro, no side has more moral value than any other side just dont fight for anything bro trust me, only fight when you're compelled to by your government, that's the only way to wash your hands of this messLet me guess, you're 13 and just read grimderp
>>23708811youre acting smug in place of actually having an argument
>>23708811well why don't you stop beating around the bush and tell us which side you support in gaza? and lets hear your opinion on ukraine too since you know which side is right and which side is wrong
>>23708815My argument is already apparent. Just because you can't tally up every single virtue and vice of every single person involved in every single side of a conflict does not mean you should not take part in it at all. If five robbers break into your neighbor's home to kill his family and steal is possessions, does it matter if three of them didn't really want to? If two were forced to on pain of death?No. It also doesn't matter if killing them won't solve the underlying problems that cause them to kill and rob, and it doesn't matter that people will kill and rob in the future. You can still make a moral judgement about the situation, no?But if what you posit is a purely selfish and egoistic passivism, then by no means do we have any reason to argue. You have no place to speak of what people should or should not fight for. It's not even relevant for someone like you.
>>23708846luckily in most of the industrialized world we have these things called laws enforced by these guys called police
>>23708846im talking Ideological extremism anon. 5 robbers break into your neighbours house, so you decide that you will end robbery forever by going around exterminating all the "robber elements" of society only to end up with equal and greater problems and everything goes on as it always has, only now you personally are culpable
>>23708862And luckily from what we've seen, police are incorruptible, infallible, and omnipresent.
>>23708869i actually thought this was a great message or theme from the fallout tv show, that humans will always split into factions and fight about something. wasn't expecting sth that heavy from an tv show based on a video game.
>>23708877well i guess we could try defunding them and see if crime goes up or down
>>23708883It's not binary>AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH DEFUND THE POLICEor>AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH KILL EVERYONE I DON'T IKE
>>23708877look at how far you had to back off your original premise, you went from the good guys always win in history to omg we should all be good neighbors lmao.
>>23708885we should actually do both of those
I hate my life.
I just had this convo with my sister.she: take a picture, it'll last longerme: what will?she: the pictureme: what?she: fuck youThen I left.
>>23708951why were you eyeing up your sister?
>>23708959I don't know
Thinking about making a stack thread since I finally have stuff to contribute.
>>23708886You're the one that diverged. Here is the point of divergence:>luckily in most of the industrialized world we have these things called laws enforced by these guys called policeReplying to me reiterating the same point:>>23708846>My argument is already apparent. Just because you can't tally up every single virtue and vice of every single person involved in every single side of a conflict does not mean you should not take part in it at allHere as my first deliberate statement of my point:>>23708778>Just don't have any grand hopes about what you can do- be content to do your best, whatever that may be in whatever situation comes to you. It can be as simple as voting, or it might be minecrafting in minecraft.I'm just letting you know that "police" or some form of authority is not enough to wash your hands of all responsibility you absolute pseud.
Once when I was 18 or 19 I got really drunk with some friends. Ended up throwing up and walked home. In my memory, when I came home, I sneaked inside super silently, perfectly took a piss without missing, washed my face and sneaked into my room without anyone hearing me.The next morning, my parents told me I walked into the house super loud, I took a piss to the right of the toilet bowl, walked into my parents room and just stood there at the entrance until they told me to get in my room.And that's why I don't know if I actually am a virgin or not. I once walked into a bordello super drunk, and in my memory, I was actually thinking about randomly having sex with some hoe, but in my memory, I walked out of the bordello after standing around there for about five minutes.But can I trust those memories? No I can't. I also had a really weird dream one or two days later where I actually went into a bordello drunk and fucked a hoe, telling her it's my first time. I fucked, I pulled out, I stood up from the bed, came, and said that I'm not done yet, but she said that indeed I was done.So I don't know, but if I actually lost my virginity to a hoe super super drunk in a bordello without remembering a thing of it that'd really really suck.
here I am, at 9 amwriting my master's thesisexcept I am lateindeed very lateI'd like to stop doing all of thisand focus on some greater purpose insteadI can't thoughI hope God will help me one day
I'm hungry, I wonder what I'll have for dinner.
>>23709065Currently cooking some beans.
>>23709070Lmao this nigga eating beans
>>23709050That "hoe" was actually a man
How come there's no place online for based schizo tier theorycrafting? Even the actual schizo communities now are just whining about stereotypes
>>23709075lmaoooo book reading bean eating niggasonly on /lit/
>>23709075> he doesn't like some nice beans with meatThis conversation has ended.
>>23709091I have two big beans and a hunk of meat for you right here, and some well-aged cheese if you're into that.
>>23709102You are an amerifat, I know you don't eat beans.
>>23709105My meat is a big polish kielbasa, actually. And I get a decent chunk of the protein to fuel it from beans. DM if interested
I've been on the verge of crying all day with a slight, and I do mean slight, pressure behind the eyes and in my chest. No coughs, no headache, no nothing besides double negatives and general sadness. Should I visit a doctor or something?
Just found out they sell Reese's brand frozen banana slices where each slice is covered with a layer of peanut butter and chocolate. Sometimes life's not so bad bros.
>>23709117Nahh I'm fine with locally made smoked pork.
>>23709123I cried a few months ago because I have no high school or apprenticeship or any education finished.
>>23709134Do you have a job now or any ambitions you want to work towards?
>>23709134Neither do IWho cares
>>23709140Well, I've been working in a workshop for almost a year and I do gardening during my free time. I still feel sad because it's not fair a guy like me has to live without any sort of education finished. But yeah, in the worst case scenario things just stay as they are. I have no plans on leaving the place I'm currently at and in a few years I'll be an experienced construction worker potentially earning a solid salary.
>>23709131you can smoke this pork ya fuckin kweah
>>23709144Ahh, I got already suspicious two replies ago, but now I finally got it. You're G-A-Y.
>>23709147that was the first post I made in this thread. i dunno who those other guys are.I am gay thoever
>>23709143This is crazy because I'm in the total opposite side but in the same boat. I finished highschool, went to uni, got a degree, and now? No job, no career, just neetbux and living with parents. I'm sad because I have an education but no employment, and you're sad because you don't have an education but have a steady career. My advice anon, you really don't need to go to uni/college, and as for the highschool stuff just look up closed or renamed highschools and just say you graduated from there with honors. Nobody can or will ever check and when it comes to that education portion of your resume, the only thing you could get in trouble for is saying you got a degree in X thing at Y university, highschool doesn't matter in the slightest. If this is a "I'm worried i'm stupid" sort of thing, stupid people don't work in workshops or are concerned about their lack of education, they just get high and push shopping carts for the rest of their lives, so you don't fit that bill at all.
>>23706115Your mom is dealing with challenging and emotionally draining situations. It's essential to approach the conversation with empathy and honesty. Here's a suggested response:"I understand your concerns and frustrations about our conversations. I want to support you, but I feel overwhelmed when discussions often focus on blaming others. I wish we could have more open and honest talks about our feelings and experiences without bringing up past grievances. I want to love and connect with you, but I need help finding a more positive and constructive way to communicate. Can we work together to find a better approach?"This response:1. Acknowledges their feelings and concerns2. Expresses your desire to support and connect with them3. Sets boundaries by stating your emotional limits4. Encourages a more positive and constructive dialogueRemember to:1. Listen actively and empathetically2. Avoid blaming or criticizing your mother3. Focus on finding solutions and improving communication4. Set clear boundaries to maintain your emotional well-beingKeep in mind that changing the dynamics of your conversations may take time, effort, and patience. Be prepared for resistance or difficulty in adjusting to a new approach.
>mid August aka summer over>site is still noticeably shitFuck
>>23709152No, exactly, I am a smart guy, I was one of the smartest kids in Middle School, that's why I find it unfair that at the ripe age of 22 I have nothing finished. It's not even because I'm undisciplined or anything, just, well, applied to the wrong school, studied as hard as I could, and still failed. I feel like a wasted talent. Like, I'm 22 years old, I should have a lot of skill already and be able to use it for something great, but I'm still in the having to learn skills phase. Why don't you get a job?
I find peace knowing I can kill myself anytime I want.
>>23709143What would be more fair
>>23709166Plan S is always waiting to find me, anytime I need it
>>23709176Well, that I have at least an apprenticeship finished, that I am able to know how to do, you know, at least something really well. But no, social and familiar pressure made me go do some hard studies at some 'really good school', I studied hard, I failed, social pressure made me try again, I failed again, ended up not graduating anything, and now I'm being portrayed as the bad boy, the loser, a prime example shown to kids on what happens if you don't study in school. Now I'm the villain simply because the thing society made me do was not for me. That's what I find unfair.
>Bomber Command crews suffered an extremely high casualty rate: 55,573 killed out of a total of 125,000 aircrew (a 44.4 per cent death rate), a further 8,403 were wounded in action and 9,838 became prisoners of war. This covered all Bomber Command operations.>A Bomber Command crew member had a worse chance of survival than an infantry officer in World War I; more people were killed serving in Bomber Command than in the Blitz, or the bombings of Hamburg or Dresden.>Of the RAF Bomber Command personnel killed during the war, 72 per cent were British, 18 per cent were Canadian, 7 per cent were Australian and 3 per cent were New Zealanders.
>>23709162You're still pretty young anon, you never truly get out of the learn skills phase until you're a billionaire smoking Arabian virgin pussy in the Bahamas. The way that I see it anon, you got a job, it pays well, you're learning doing it, I don't see any issue at all. My builder friends have their own houses and my lawyer friends live in rented shacks by the woods, whatever social norms you have instilled in your mind are wrong.>Why don't you get a job?A bit of ego and the industry not being nearly as strong as it was when I started learning about it. Didn't help lockdown happened right after graduation which killed the market. Have done other odd jobs since then, labor type shit but it's depressingly painful to bus tables or stock fruit shelves for min wage while having a degree.
Is it normal that being somewhat positive always requires conscious effort while pessimism comes naturally?
>>23709193No of course you have to add to your skills constantly but I mean a year ago I had practically no skills whatsoever. Generally speaking I find it a shame that most modern families don't teach their kids any useful skills at all and pretend that all you need is a good school diploma. I think this is one of the reasons people are so stupid nowadays too. All peoples, back in the day, knew how to do something. They said they want to be like nobilities because the nbilities didn't work physically, well but they sure were taught from childhood how to handle a sword and ride a horse, that's why they weren't so tarded like the modern masses who can't do anything but feel like their something better because they have a diploma. My mom is a successful person from a modern point of view, has a lot of finished diplomas but she doesn't know how to do anything. My dad knows a few things, but generally speaking he's a total retard too.> ve done other odd jobs since then, labor type shit but it's depressingly painful to bus tables or stock fruit shelves for min wage while having a degree.Yeah well too bad our parents didn't teach us how to do useful shit like painting fences and punching nails because then you would at least be doing something useful. But hey, the industry always needs stupid morons to pile shelves, that's why they'll do everything to make people as moronic as possible, even if they graduated college. Welcome to the way I feel.
>>23708253Send her thishttps://files.catbox.moe/rdul8i.webm
First I tried killing myself by rope. I let the weight of my shitty loser body crush the breath out of me until I saw purple and silver spots. Before I lost strength to move I chickened out. I went to work the following Monday like normal.Next I tried killing myself through work. I did time and a half, overtime, swing shifts, Panama schedules, 24-hour rotating shifts. Found a line of work where some weeks I simply did not have time off. Forgot my name and the details of my life wandering an endless maze of spreadsheets and reports and planning meetings. Eventually, though, like a shipwreck washing onto shore, my life floated to the top of it all and could be ignored no more.The next thing I tried was killing myself through hedonism. The soft, squishy brain could be submerged in dopamine until it lost the ability to process hard-edged thoughts. I could dive into another ocean, losing sight of irrelevant lights above the surface in favor of pink darkness. And eagerly did it bear me down into the depths. The promise of pleasure is that some greater treasure awaits the further one digs. Believing this opens a bottomless pit. In time, however, the true character of pleasure was revealed to me, and it lost its luster. The depths of the ocean turned out to be dry. In my desperation I turned to suicide by self-extermination. The Buddhists speak of the self as a fire which is to be put out. The Advaitins speak of a drop of water merging with the sea, or of an illusion which, once perceived as such, blows away like the shape made my leaves on the wind, seen for an instant only, without substance. I turned the auger of my attention inward and sought to bore through the illusory self, unmake perception, destroy the world, undream without waking. Stubbornly, the self persisted, or at times it seemed that there was never anything to destroy in the first place despite all phenomenological evidence. The immediate experience of reality should have allowed annihilation through (un)willing but the shape of it was wrong. Square pegs through unholes. Ice made of sunlight. Cobwebs made of moonbeams. Maybe it is true that to live one must die. Maybe to die is to undergo a movement in a direction obscure, one we cannot perceive. Maybe death is closer than I believe and maybe it will continue to elude me.
Just applied for another job, let's hope I get this one, I actually have some qualifications under my belt now so hopefully that helps my chances.
>>23705843>>23705996what do you mean a good amount of seeders? I'm genuinely baffled by your fixation on the number of people seeding a torrent. are you retarded? are you new to torrents? or do you have such a hyperspeed connection that no matter their upload speed, you need more than 5 people to service you on a single torrent? is waiting more than a few minutes for a torrent to download an insurmountable obstacle to you? help me understand. last time I checked, you only need 1 person seeding to acquire a torrent. and many good torrents do just have 1 or 2 people holding down the fort for years. it is what it is.
>>23709186Yeah but that's all still just the sum of your choices in life.
>>23709166>>23709176https://youtu.be/ODV6mxVVRZk?si=qtLB600rK6Fv_W1w
>>23706732>>23706738Fair enough
https://youtu.be/j58c_51H20o?si=8D7-5ZGfUpTGp0xu
>>23709162>I'm 22 years old, I should have a lot of skill already and be able to use it for something greatI'm 33 and spent a lot of time this week working on improving recent skills I've learned. You're going to spend your 20s learning stuff. You seem to have motivation which is all that really matters. Lastly you being 22 means you were not alive during 9/11. Everyone born from now to the end of time won't be able to share a "where I was on 9/11 story" and that sucks.
It's sad that Nietzsche has become a slop meme because Beyond Good & Evil genuinely changed my entire life as a young man.
>>23709255>is waiting more than a few minutes for a torrent to download an insurmountable obstacle to you?My internet is extremely shitty.>last time I checked, you only need 1 person seeding to acquire a torrent.Yes, you're right, but the more seeders there are the quicker it downloads.
>>23705825Giving up and forfeiting one's "potential" is truly liberating. I guess I am turning into a hedonist with age, but a refined one. I used to be a degenerate engaging in cheap thrills but now I really just want peace and quiet so I can read and paint. Life's pretty damn cool after all fellas.
>put effort into something at work>goes unnoticed>completely slack off>also goes unnoticed>try to meet people>ignored>talk to people I already know>ignored or left on read >make effort post on 4chan>no replies>reply to someone to try to have a discussion>ignored>start thread>archived with no repliesHello? Is anyone there? Does anyone care about anything I say or am I just screaming into the void?
>>23709346You aren't real.
>>23709242Same. I've been out of work since April. Applied for a substitute teacher spot at a private school. They're pretty desperate for help now. And a opening for aid to state senator that pays very well. Hopefully my background check doesn't fuck me because I got a DUI earlier this year which is how I lost my last job. Do employers care about DUI's on background checks?
>>23705825Was looking up the origins of Graham crackers and came upon picrel
>>23709346My only only thread that ever got replies was some shitpost I made while drunk.
>>23709312I’m 42 I was 19 then. I was going to trade school and the TVs in the classroom, wall to wall, were showing the towers on fire.
>>23709353>Do employers care about DUI's on background checks?Yeah, especially if it's a teaching job.
...Anonymous08/18/24(Sun)16:30:30 No.23709420I don't care what you niggas think, i need to win some sort of writing award. I need that public stamp of approval just giving ONCE and then I will go full schizo mode and explore the truly insane retardation within me
Why do people fall for anti-Jewish conspiracy theories, when there isn't a single issue on which you could say the Jews are united?Name literally any issue, and you will find Jews on both sides.
>>23709346That's life, my man.Do not settle for people who do not appreciate you.Move on, go find people who do appreciate you.It's like dating. You meet a 100 girls, 90% don't want to know you exist, 9% will string you along but never be really invested in you and then, there will be 1 who actually wants to be with you.
>>23709423Because it's easier. And because of mass confusion.
>>23709423They are very disunited, yet still manage to collectively do great harm to the world.
i live in the united kingdom
>>23709444As opposed to all the other peoples who never did no nothing?Anglo-Germanics people: Brits, Germans, Dutch, Swedes are literally the worst of the worst in terms of how they treated everyone else when they had power.The French, Spanish, Portuguese, Russians, Italians, Greeks, Turks, Arabs, Mongolians, Chinese, Japanese, ... they all dindunutting too, right?
>>23709447my condolences
>>23709462finnish people did nothing to the jews but let them escape to norway and sweden when they got help from germans against USSR, how did they thank us?
how did they thank USA that came to liberate them from german work camps, how did they thank USSR when they came to liberate them from polish campshow have the jews treated anyone throughout history who has ever showed them any kindness or compassion?that is how you should treat them
>>23709447Sorry to hear.
>>23708685The trick is to sleep when you can and when you’re awake not sabotage your sleep with things that will keep you up, like using electronics.
>>23709423You would have realized that only contributes to their power if you weren’t retarded
>>23709465I specifically excluded you from the list.Also how did they thank you?I never heard of Jews having anything to do with Finland.
>>23709525they thanked us the same way they thanked every other european union country, by flooding our countries with unsustainable amount of immigrants and criminals from middle-east
>neighbors' JC daughter walked out wearing shorts so short they were basically pantiesWhy must these jezebels tempt me so? She was conscious of how revealing they were and kept shifting her legs and fixing the fabric with her hand. Had to have a wank. There's this other one who walks around wearing nothing but skintight gym shorts and bra.
>>23709541I see. FYI, I am an Arab immigrant in Europe. Lol.
>>23709569>arabyou're not that bad as long as you're not from iraq, the war traumatized criminals are the worst even when they're 2nd generations because their parents beat them to shit and then they take that out on others
>>23709560won't be long before walking in thongs becomes the norm,liberal progress is a wonderful thing
>>23709560>i have no self control and women are whoresgood thing you live in the west where you get anally raped in prison over going for it
>>23709577To be fair to that anon, I don't think evolution prepared man for the scandalous nature of today's women.
>>23709591if you can leave a dollar to the ground you can ignore a woman being a whore in public
>>23709577They're legal here, just not for me (not evolutionarily fit enough to qualify as a potential mate).
sitting alone drinking Becherovkalistening to The Smiths
>>23709671I like the sound of their songs, but the lyrics are so unbearably embarrassing.
>>23709681>but the lyrics are so unbearably embarrassing.they might be a bit too whiny but can't deny they're still incredibly feelsy and relatable even though I'm already 33 y.o.
>>23709671>BecherovkaCzech bro?
I wish I was 2cm taller, that would make me a nice 6'1".
>>23709712nah I'm from kazakhstan but they sell it here so I decided to try
>>23709739You guys have some badass circumcision ceremonies.
>>23709768maybe, I'm russian so I'm outsider in terms of kazakh culture
>>23709780This is what I'm referring to.https://9gag.com/gag/axo6QrW
>>23709780What's life like for you in Kazakhstan?
>>23709786not too bad but feel a bit excluded in society in many ways since kazakh culture and language is quite different to my own, have to go to bigger cities if I want to do something more interesting because it's a bit more free there and the culture is not that restrictive and people give less of a fuck who you are and which nationality you are so at least there's that.Also in order to get anywhere and get good jobs you need to know the kazakh language and be kazakh so it can become quite an issue.
>>23709798Isn't there a large Russian minority there? Can't you mix with them? Were you born in Kazakhstan?
>>23709807>Isn't there a large Russian minority there?there used to be but now there's very few of them, also I'm from the western part and it's like the wild west even still in many ways, yes I was born here.
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