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I don’t understand people who make bait threads. No matter how angry and responsive you make others, you are ultimately the one wasting the most time by keeping the thread active and watching it so it doesn’t get archived.
>>24694400Another thread's discussing RF Kuang. I legitimately have no idea why she's so lauded. Her writing's atrocious. All the subtlety of a sledgehammer. Yellowface seethes with resentment toward her critics, which, fine, nothing wrong with that in theory, but for some reason, Kuang thinks she's writing a fiery satire of the publishing industry. "It's so hard for Asian women writers" Kuang my darling my baby with the rock hard nips your book was a Witherspoon Book Club pick, you regularly sit for interviews on national television, and Yellowface was a bestseller, girl you're winning! Stop whining about how hard you have it!
>>24694400I hate work in all its forms. I hated college, I hated internships. I hate all of it. I will never ever enjoy it. I still liked studying engineering but I hate working in it. I guess I'm not a factory worker anymore tho.
>>24694319this made me feel something approaching empathy for woman with horrible looking vaginas. us men with horrible cocks should band together with women with horrible vaginas and start some kind of NGO or union.
>>24694453>We should base our community around our body dysmorphiaIdk, it seems like it would be popular and awful
Just out of curiosity, as someone who has never used AI before, how would I get ChatGPT or whatever to help me with this task: let's say I have a list of 30 or so links to various articles, and I want a list of the links in hyperlink form with the title as the text in copy+pastable form to post on a blog or reddit or similar.
>>24694471you tell it exactly that and link the links
Anyone else absolutely hate talking? As in the actual process of verbalizing thoughs into words and making the necessary lip and tongue movements for enunciation.I simply deplore talking, the worst is having to answer questions, even simple ones that can just be answered with a simple 'yes' or 'no'. It irritates me that I simply cannot shove my thoughts into people's head as a form of communication. It's vexing and exhausting and has left me stunted my entire life as I can obviously not attract anyone, be it friend or mate, because of this debilitating affliction.
>>24694473No special format or such required, huh? It can perfectly parse my (poorly written) command as is like that? Neat, thanks.
>>24694475You can, yes, you can even talk in ebonics if you want, it'll even talk back in ebonics.
>>24694474Do you enjoy communication at all?
>>24694485I enjoy reading and shitposting on this god forsaken site, which are both, in my opinion, a form of communication. So I guess in some forms.
>>24694400Goddamn I hate you Phyllis. Smug bitch doing no work and fucking shit up.
>>24694453Yes all you. Freaks bunch up together. Then I bring my Cement roller and roll over you all and Save the world.
Currently I'm trying to re-read Atlas Shrugged (tried it once 15 years ago, did not finish), and what's striking me is how autistic the "good" characters are. Dagny Taggart seems quite autistic right of the bat, but she's nothing compared to Hank Rearden, who can't ever stop thinking about his precious alloy and gets mocked by his normie family; an episode so vividly portrayed from his perspective that I couldn't wonder if it wasn't something that actually derived from Rand's personal experience. Was she an autist herself (I'm inclined to say yes from just how clinically dead serious and unambiguously black & white the entire book is, but who knows?) and the entire thing is basically The Autism Ressentiment, with latter word used in Nietzschean sense, when weakness and insecurity becomes a basis of a morality system?
>>24694400what to do when you're tired of everythingin your life and around you? suicide not an option
>>24694474What do you mean exactly? You are using words right now to communicate thoughts; do you despise that as well?I think I hold a similar view as you do. I hate the idea of stating something, as it feels as if words are insufficient for what I am trying to express, and that all statements I make are slightly false or lies. It is not that communication is exhausting; rather, it is that perfect communication is impossible and thus frustrating. Imageboards are nicer to use, as a single post will not taint me; it will merely taint the post.
>>24694522Do nice thing and have fun time
>>24694522you probably wanked it recently and your body is being activated by the transcapital defesense grid to accelerate your osmosis into the leftovers cage of western civilization
>>24694522have a collection of 6 things you actually enjoy doing, on days everything sounds terrible one of them will sound tolerable enough to distract you.
>>24694474>Anyone else absolutely hate talking?I don't know, I can actually talk quite a lot with most people, but afterwards I feel exhausted from talk, even "dirty", so I need to emotionally recharge in complete solitude.
I just don't understand women. She made the first move and added me on multiple social medias, I text her, now she refuses to respond
>>24694474I love talking. I'll talk all day just to hear myself talk and my job heavily leverages this. I'm not like... forthcoming. I'll mostly sit and do my own thing quietly, but if you engage with me I'm charming enough and can hold a conversation with basically anyone. My recommendation? Practice. Get a shit job that forces you to so it. You'll improve with time; it's what I did with public speaking.
>>24694559she's gonna die if you know what I mean
25% of all posts on this board are mine. I argue, bump, agree, and sage my own threads for the purpose of art, for true art is only done beyond the sight of men.
>>24694526That is obviously a very big part of it. Especially when you have to give an answer about something that simply cannot be condensed into a sentense or two. And only after can you properly put the rush of words that came to you at that time into something presentable. Another big factor is the simple fact that in order for a story or subject to be interesting you need both a good anecdote/idea but also the proper discourse skills to be able to construct sentences that illuminate and engage the listener. Most people fail at both. Which in turn makes me avoid converse all together. But as I grow older the desire for connection only increases while I still cannot overcome this total dislike for talking. It is not something one can fake, at least not for long.
>>24694319lol christ
>>24694569Hey! I'm the remaining 75%. Neat.
SUBJECT PROPER NOUN EXOTIC VERB COMMON ADJECTIVE NOUN EMDASH PROPER NOUN EXOTIC VERB LATIN NOUN. *Typhonic applause*
Always wanted to watch the movie Michael Clayton (2007) because I'm a fan of films like this (ex. Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy; The Firm; Spy Game; The Social Network; Charlie Wilson's War), so when I saw it referenced in a show I watched the other night, I immediately obtained the means to finally watch it. If anyone wants to join me, or has similar recs, feel free :)
>>24694589SLUR
>>24694592>Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy2011 version with Gary Oldman or 1979 BBC TV series with Alec Guinness and Ian Richardson? Personally I prefer the latter, and its sequel Smiley's People is even better.
>>24694602Love the movie and as for the TV series, I've only seen Smiley's People (figured I could skip right to it), which I did indeed really enjoy.
>>24694592You'd get a lot out of those 70s political thrillers then. Marathon Man, Parallax View, Most of Costa-Gavras' films..etc.
>>24694605I'll give those a peep, thanks. Oh, and on that note, All the President's Men, I gotta watch that.
>>24694610Check out John Frankenheimer's stuff as well. The Manchurian Candidate is top tier. The remake too, by Demme, is underrated.
>>24694592It's a great film, bit left field, but you might like Thank You For Smoking, either the book or the movie
>>24694615>The remake too, by Demme, is underrated.I have seen that, actually. Good shout though, thanks. >>24694623>Thank You For SmokingAh, nice, forgot about that one, thank you. Will obtain.
Between the years 2010 - 2024 I spent $750 000 on cocaine.
>>24694634I spent 25USD on doordash last week and feel bad about it still.
>>24694634That is...a lot. Are you rich or did you acquire that much money through other means?
>>24694634Was it worth it?
Why are Germans so bad at business?https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bayer#Acquisition_of_Monsanto
>>24694645I got lucky with a real estate investment when I was young. The land got bought out by a development company for 10x what I got it for. That feeling kickstarted the whole thing. I wasn't able to replicate the trick.
>>24694650Of course not. Every night turns to ash in your mouth. The endless circulations and comedowns become maddening. The neurotoxicity becomes more and more obvious. Ultimately what made me stop was the ever-declining quality. Suppose I'm grateful for the greedy ass dealers cutting their powder with various brands of washing powder, baby powder, rat-x etc.
>>24694655>>24694659Ayyyy I hang out with real estate finance boys and do the devil's dander fortnightly; supremely good quality as well. That glittery shit. Anyways, as someone often around wealthy people but never wealthy myself, do you at least have good memories and a couple of trinkets? Thats like... 19 2019 type E honda civics.
Pajeets were too pussy to fight a war against Pakistan, what makes you think they will care about your countries
Someday a political retard from Twitter is gonna rage bait someone so bad that will send us to the point of no return. I'm pretty sure a civil war will start like that
>>24694729Zoomer historians no longer speak of "a provocation of war"; rather, entire subsections of WWIIIs wikipedia page index will be titled as "rage bait".
>>24694628>forgot about that one,It and The Informant are pretty good corporate espionage comedies. Thank You for Smoking the book isn't as dated as the movie because it fictionalised the Hollywood stuff more
>>24694729No bloc in America is strong enough to cohesively form into a "side" for civil war. If such conditions ever come to America, the masses will fall in line with the federal government because the feds will offer protection and stability. Nobody in the USA is dying for a cause or principle. Only thing that will mobilize that many people is outright foreign invasion or natural disasters on the level of a Carrington event. The whole civil war larp from both cuckservatives and leftist troons fails the moment one realizes the overwhelming majority of Americans are milquetoast center-right liberals that just want to grill for god's sake. More importantly than that, this overwhelming majority views radicals with a mixture of confusion and revulsion, even Edward Snowden was successfully smeared by the establishment for at least a year, and he was perhaps the most palatable form of dissident the average american could get behind.
Fascist American government jails beloved anti-war author for borrowing books from the library.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gustav_Hasford#Library_books_theft_charges
>>24694400Why is rape condemned on a psychological level? Not looking for legal or common sense reasons but cognitive ones. Something that naws at the subconscious.
>>24694729The only scenarios I can imagine are a conflict between Congress and the POTUS (if some in the executive branch sides with Congress) or one between one of the states and the feds.
>>24694895> If such conditions ever come to America, the masses will fall in line with the federal government because the feds will offer protection and stabilityYou have too much faith in the state. Are you German by chance?
>>24694729It will be a woman most likely
I'm evil.
>>24694969I said "offer". I did not say "deliver" or even "honestly try".
>>24694975Your image a cute and hopefully not real life model
>>24694975Unless you take joy in being evil like me, you are not evil; a poser at best.
>>24694975I recommend not thinking about that if you want to maximise your evilness.Or think about it with glee, even better.
>>24694978Protip: they won't. Either you're from an Ivy League background or related and see heartland Americans as retarded. That kind of thinking will lead you to the killing fields.
Can guilt be evil?Has anyone ever done evil out of guilt?I'm not saying guilt is good
>>24694975I'm neither good nor evil, simply just.
Are modern books worth the investment for fictional basis? My book reading journey is either A) stuff I hear that's classics B) topics I'm interested in C) stuff I found in my library D) stuff people tell me to read. I never actually get myself up to date.I'm not asking for masterpieces, but a fun read by the porch. I tried a couple and I had to drop them though, I hate /lit/fantasy and writers who don't have anything to say.Second point: a lot of people love to make wokeness into a binary. I know I hate woke stuff. If I play with woke shit (Weird West) I get upset and turn it off. If I read a book with woke shit I forget it's entire existence except the cover and why I hate it. I was reading Equal Rites and despite the whole premise being at least in a fashion proto/kinda woke (it's "what if girls, can be wizards too!") it handles it well so far.>MC: Esk, she's talented but she's way too angry/emotional. She turned her brother into a pig and people get pissed at her, she disobeyed orders and got chewed out by it, cries when she lost an argument. She's a talented/powerful kid but she's still a kid.>Her father/mother figure, Granny. Is a bit mean, was pushing against the Esk being a wizard at first, has trouble navigating around the city and has to act as a bully in order to get what she wants (headology is her field). She's not perfect, in fact the book so far is about Esk going to university to be a wizard because Granny couldn't teach her. But she tries and that's the important part.If you're going to make your game woke, make it like this. I do find the men to be a bit too jumpy in front of Granny, but then again she's a witch who creates a reputation for herself. Besides that people act like people: Zoons stick with zoons, there is no woke diversity squad, Esk has to earn her way through the school, etc etc. If Esk was a boy and instead of her being a girl the central issue was class/race, it would still be a similar story and it would still hit the same beats.You don't have to make it so every human in the gender spectrum is a piece of shit for me to like them. I like the bartender because he saw a business opportunity, and was afraid it would go bad, and it goes bad. Simple, human emotions gentleman: that's what a story needs!
/Lit's been good today. Or maybe it's just me.
>>24694975Hi evil
I kind of feel like it's somehow wrong how happy the trolls films make me feel while I watch them. They are just so colorful and hyperactive and musical. Its like chugging a bottle of mountain due that has been spiked with pixie sticks. So unbelievably sweet that it almost hurts, yet for a while I feel amazing, then hit a inevitable comedown where I question what is wrong with me. I am a grown man in my 30s. Some silly jukebox musical for babies shouldn't have this much of a effect on me.
>>24694420Boredom does strange things to people's minds.
>>24694634livin the fucking dream
>>24695270this explains pretty easily most non-essential human behavior in general i would think. being bored is an absolutely miserable circumstance, almost unbearable
When your whole world is going madJust sit down and laugh and it won't seem so bad
>>24694440Wowza! Wowza tiddies! Wanna lick and lick and touch and cum!
Whiteness isn't about skin color. Whiteness is a state of mind. I want a white gf.
You could had me you stupid little shit uggghhhhhh I was literally throwing myself at you and you still picked her AHHHHHHHH I'm so fucking mad
>>24695397Spill the tea.
i have to give my cat kisses, she demands them
>>24695397she probably asked him, avoiding him the sex pest label
>>24695397
I'll take a banana, and peel it.
>>24695500This.Clear open communication beats "hints" every time. It's time to grow up and stop playing games if you are to get what you want.
>>24695510Man should return to dragging women into caves.
>>24695518You don’t have the upper body strength for that.
>>24695532The trick is to go for small women.
i had a cute (college, likely) girl sit next to me on a coach/long-distance bus, and she let her leg bump into mine. then when i didnt move, she rested her leg against mine, then her body, then put her head on my shoulder.
>>24695566gayyyyyyyyyyyyyy
I've enjoyed PewDiePie's book challenge thus far but I couldn't do Kant in one month, so I'm giving it another try. Taking notes for certain words and ideas, watching lectures, and, yes unfortunately asking AI sometimes. I'll most likely have to come back to Kant in a couple of years because this one is really dense.
>>24695583He's reading Kant right now?
>>24695566suicide inducing post
>>24695586He's reading Schopenhauer now, Kant was in June. I couldn't do Critique of pure reason in one month.
9 months ago I sent a long letter to a person I hold very dear.Yesterday she finally responded and my heart can't bear to read it
>>24695600Has Schopenhauer good him he needs to read more Kant first yet? You might be in with a chance of catching up if you only have to read CPuR
>>24695617Read it you wuzz, or regret it forever.
>>24695620>goodTold* Autocorrect sorry
>>24695660But it's about cute bees
>>24695679I have more important concerns like underarm odor, scaly scalp, hairy legs, dull complexion, unruly hair, borderline anemia, athlete's foot, and sluggish bowels, not to mention ferronutritional deficiency of the blood, wash-day blues, saggy breasts, receding gums, shiny pants, graying hair, and excess weight.
>>24695692I think bees are probably more important Did you know carpenter bees have red butts?
where is my irl Nami?
>>24695700No. I don't think of the various bees outside. I think of cornflake and cigarette brands.
>>24695700AHH, I meant carder bee. Carpenter bees are a different thing
Boy names: Herodotus, Titus, Wolfgang, WilliamGirl names: June, Clementine, Edith
Can I get some painting recs to use as a wallpaper background on my phone? I've had this De Kooning for a while but getting tired of it. Even just names of artists will suffice. I'm thinking something else 20th century but I'll take anything classical or baroque if it's good.
>>24695854This is my phone wallpaper. Sidney Sime.
>>24695865Pretty and inspiring.
>>24695854
Which should I read next?>The Sun Does Shine>Crime and Punishment >The Birth of a Clinic>Pale Fire
The light pours out of me
>>24695930crime and punishment was so depressing that it made me grateful for my life, which at the time was not easy for me to do.
Mind your own business.
>>24695930Star Wars Episode 3 Revenge of the Sith novelization.
I am quite a maladapted person. 90% of my time is spent on either work or self destructive time wasting activities to get my mind off of other things. Every time I think "wtf am I doing with my life" I trace back my psychological steps and realize that if I were to shake all this shit off I would face bare reality and be unable to live. I can't and won't commit suicide so I'm just stuck here, killing time and jacking off while the few things I love pass away.
I've read very few books in my life. I'm 29 and trying to get into reading regularly but literary fiction is too boring for me; I like my genre fiction. Is reading anything better than reading nothing?
>>24695795Gay ass names for a boy, other than William>HA! his name is TIT-ASS!
>>24696027Yes. Read that you want.
A person who I love is suffering and there's nothing I can do about it. I told them that none of it's their fault, and they screamed in pain, "I know, that's the worst part."
Who is right: Mailer or McLuhan?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PtrJntaTlic
Blacks are ornery because they were slaves. They are embarrassed of their slavery, and their subconscious sense of inferiority is the catalyst of their violence.
I need far less social interaction than the average person. I'm not an autist or anything, I have friends, but I don't want to talk to them super often via our groupchats/dms. My gf and I sleep in separate rooms and essentially live separate lives except for the weekends. I don't really talk to my family. I don't leave my apartment much (work from home). I get the sense that I'm supposed to be upset or ashamed about this, but I just don't. I like it. I have a lot of space and a lot of peace.
>>24696204The catalyst of their violence is their genetically-predisposed low-impluse control, low-conscientiousness, garbage neurotoxic gutter culture and above all their extraordinarily low mean IQ.
Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all time
>>24696246*Kanye's towards you Westerly
>>24696232Niggers will save the USA from collapse.
>>24696213It’s important to be comfortable being alone. This modern phenomenon of constant connection (texting, calling, social media) isn’t the norm. People would say their goodbyes and be separated for months, years, and it would be normal. But expectations have changed. I wonder if you would feel the same way, if you realized how your behavior affects them. Could you be ok being alone, if you knew no one else was waiting for you? That is the case of many anons here.
>>24696301When is Kanye going to make a collab with Boyd Rice?
>>24694966>a conflict between Congress and the POTUS (if some in the executive branch sides with Congress)Congress is largely irrelevant at this stage, and its role is going to be diminished even further. Now,>one between one of the states and the fedsis much more realistic, I think.
>>24694895See but you've opened up an interesting idea: could you simply kill and terrorize the overwhelming majority of Americans into submission if you had a coherent bloc of radicals of sufficient size and totally willing to use violence? Like how you could literally slaughter the bison herds by the hundreds because they were just so dumb and passive, until they learned to fear their hunters.The average "I just wanna grill" dad could, in theory, be cowed into submission by the promise of violence if he refuses to comply. Submission to what? Almost anything. A TradCath imperial monarchy. A Soviet-style dictatorship. A cult to the Flying Spaghetti Monster. The passivity and mild libertarianism of the average American could be terribly weaponized against them, if you had a bloc with the capacity to do it.I suppose you'd have to deal with the feds and the US military, though, of course.
My writing is horrible, but I don't want to give up on it despite being an ESL. It's a cope mechanism because I can't kill myself. I just want to go with the flow for long enough until I become at the very least decent at it :(.
Something ancient and evil is churning in my belly.
I dream of power, yet I lack the will to act. I hope for change, yet when the opportunity arises, I never spring into action. Instead, I spend hours upon hours beneath the lantern's light.Sounds familiar?
>>24694400You guys think it's possble to get secondhand ptsd from the internet? I mean consuming awful shit like porn and gore, having friends die or troon out. It's really a lot on the psyche when you step back and think about it isnt it? Even if you find ways to just dismiss all the things you see online that would still just make you a harder, more closed off person, right?
Japan is the only legitimate state in the planet.
>>24696712>Japan is the only legitimate state in the planet.
I have to do a wedding speech in November, but I'm not a heartfelt or sincere person and I can't write funny things, I can only be funny on the spot. What the fuck am I meant to do?
>>24696684Nah. I love gore. Always have. If anything it has made me radically more empathetic. In the olden times, if you wanted a sando, you had to hit a chicken with a brick, chop off its head, pluck all the feathers, drain it, and remove all the organs before butchering it. Now I walk into a grocery store and point at a rotisserie chicken that is so absent from the process I genuinely dont know how it was cooked or if it was ever alive. Sure seeing a dude get his face peeled off and his still-beating heart removed from his chest is dramatic, but no more dramatic than your buddy falling off a horse/getting kicked in the head by the dumb beast, let alone watching someone you love rot in front of you with no treatment beyond herbs and amputation via a barber. All this stuff is natural and part of the human experience.What isnt part of the human experience is the infantilizing culture that removes all icky and unpleasant things from your development, then traumatizes you with them when you accidentally stumble on those pockets of the internet. Life is cruel. People are cruel. The universe is cruel and often arbitrary. Doesnt mean you cant still love with passion and vigor in spite of it all.
>>24696782My best-man speech came to me in a dream. It woke me up at 3am with pounding heart. All I can wish is the same for you.
>>24696684>got ptsd from watching a friend realize they're a trannyYou're such a fucking pussy lmao chuds really are scared of everything
>>24696791Well, I don't know if this changes anything or not, but it's my mum's wedding.
>>24696782I got you.>I'm not very good at speaches, but a wedding is something special. It's more than just a union in the eyes of the law, it's a union of families and histories. In the infinite possibilities of the universe, everything came together for this exact moment, with these exact people, in such a specific way it couldnt possibly be an accident. It was preordained. And so, let's raise up a toast to the newlyweds, not just because we're their friends and family, but for the history that brought us here, and the history yet to be made between them. *Insert name of the bride and groom*, I wish you guys nothing but the best. Cheers! *pause for cheers* If you want and are sufficiently charming, make a joke about how you're going to hit up the bar or the buffet.
>>24696802>>24696817Oh sweet jesus what the fuck. You could have told me. Your mom's wedding and you're making a speech? Holy fuck on toast that's awkward.
He didn't say ten negative things for the rest of his life. The pain was faster than life. Is this curbing? Is this dusk? Or some other dream, a neanderthal clambering? Thank you from the outcast and outlaw, for the acceptance, for the beauty, for forgiveness. O mighty and harrowing day!
>>24696819Why's that awkward?
>>24696826I dont know the specifics, but you're giving a speach at an event that will end in a dude who's not your dad fucking your mom. Just... seems like maybe you shouldnt be giving a speech.
>>24696843What a weird way of looking at things. It seems like the thought of fucking your mum is on your mind a lot, anon.
>>24696846No. I'm getting married next june. Why? To have kids. It's part of the deal, booty that is, and to ignore it completely seems alien to me. Sure your parents are past the procreation stage, and I dont know about your particulars, but it just crawled up my spine and latched onto my brain. Maybe I'm being silly. Still made me recoil.
I met a self-proclaimed homosexual fascist twink last night. His skin was utterly flawless and his eyes were completely empty. His teeth were too many and too white. His voice undulated through several degrees of dishonesty and made my skin crawl. He was the most horrible person I've ever met. As soulless as a goose.
>>24696900Did you turn the NatSoc into a natsuck and get yourself some bussy?
>>24696823Tell me what is ruining us. O furious and lethal despair! This gushing water, this gushing water, this torrent of speed. The dissonance of morality, a inherent encumbrance in our spirit, o mighty nation
>>24696877Oooooooooooh, your parents have sex, watch out kids! Ooooooh. (These are meant to be ghost sounds, for the record).
Have you noticed how much the board has improved since the Mormon and Moor missionaries have disappeared?
Cesar Millan.
I was camped in Saxony, quelling a Slavic rebellion with my Hunnic allies when messengers from across the empire started arriving with similar stories. The entire world was infected with a plague and all my vassals were rebelling. The Herulian empire which once stretch from Britain to the Black Sea was over.
I understand the things that are sometimes said about Stalin (even if he did not cause Holodomor) but the evil things people say about Mao are so far fetched it's ridiculous.He damn near doubled the life expectancy and vastly increased the literacy rate. Not to mention he abolished slavery and punished the slavers who are simply called landlords by capitalists. All these supposed people that he killed were just made up in the Black Book. They include people that were not even born yet and people who died of natural causes. Any people that died of famine or whatnot would have died during the previous rule and a hell of a lot more. China was a fucking dump stuck in the stone ages and Mao singlehandedly changed their destiny.
There's three solidly attractive girls at my morning bustop in downtown Portland, and I'm at a loss at what to do about it, someone come thru and help wingman
>>24697135Quick! What are your assets? What are your negatives?
>>24697138I'm very attractive and smart and interesting; in every other field I'm currently a negative.
>>24697143Then you should have no problems getting any women since that's all they want.
>>24697143Okay. So my read on the situation: pick one girl and tell her something helpful, assuming they arent together. If there's nothing helpful to break the ice, comment about her nails or her shoes, assuming she put in effort. Anything is fine BUT NOTHING ON HER CLEAVAGE or like could be implied lewd. Laugh, get her to talk about the thing. Here's the trick, assuming she's giving you the time of day, point out something nice another girl has nearby and try to get them talking amongst themselves with you periodically interjecting. Make sure you tell them at the end of the day that you thought they were interesting and ask ONE to coffee directly. Put her on the spot with the other woman watching, and if she blows you off, shrug, play it cool, and tell both of them when and where you'll be somewhere. Good luck anon.
>>24697148Oh getting women in general isn't an issue, it's the cold-approach at a bus stop. plus the factor of even though I'm sure I've caught all three giving me "the look" at one point or another, I only get one opportunity to make a choice and approach -- can't exactly ask one for her number, either get rejected or blow the date, then try and get with another lol. hence wingman
>>24697131Pls Mao's genius was he knew how to purge. Stalin's purges are what everyone points to as his madness, his ego mania, but Mao has the ruthless efficiency of a man concerned with the party.>ask the people about corruption and reform because they know best>eradicate corruption and instigate reform for the people>eradicate all the people who pointed out corruption and reform because they know >portishead write some chill out romantic music casually mentioning the whole campaign and nobody else ever complains https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ICel6gwRrZgGenius, which is why nobody says that many evil things about Mao even if he did them
>>24697153>and tell both of them when and where you'll be somewherelol as in I'm gonna be at the coffee shop regardless, so be there or be square? I don't know about that. I appreciate the rest of your effortpost though, thank you
>>24697157Not quite. More "I will be here at this time regardless, and if you want to show up, go for it." Make them think it's their idea. This is for the scorned one.
>>24697164lol yeah I don't know about that, seems very "I'm going to dinner by myself without knowing if anyone else is even showing up" lol, but good attempt at a hedge.
I have two good friends who are girls and every time they mention a new guy that they met, I instantly have a deep distrust for them. This is normal, right? I'm a guy, I know how scummy and weird guys can be, I can instantly know their intentions when my friends tell me the things they've said or done.
>>24697175Pretty normal, yes. Just means you care for them.
>>24697175This would seem to fall under the rubric >Most people are shit
>>24697170I was thinking coffee or drinks. You're a /lit/ poster, you dont have any money for dinner. Coffee is low key and minimal effort, my go to, and you can always read a book or whatever. The concept was to incidentally be doing something that they can tag along if they wish, that not only requires minimal comitment but is casual. When you tell both ladies, it doesnt immediately signal "man's gunna fuck", and if they have shared report, they may incidentally show up to talk to eachother. It also projects ambivilance; you dont really care if they're there, but they're nice enough to feel welcome if they wish. Plus, by putting them in competition it immediately makes you seem more valuable.
>>24697183This would work if I were inviting them to a party or something. But regardless, thanks for the replies.
>>24697180No, but I know how shit and sleazy guys can be when it comes to women.
>>24697175You sound like a white knight beta cuck.
>>24697188Yup, exactly. Just tools for your bag, assuming you're capable enough to seal the deal on your own once they're in context. The trick is getting them there.
>>24697190Nice buzzwords.
>>24697197Brevity is the soul of wit. That's just textbook white knight beta cuck behavior, I'm sorry. I guess I could've added "nice guy" as well.
>>24697190Second.>>24697189>>24697175You give off possessive vibes over something you dont have. Women arent stupid, they get it, and they just want to enjoy themselves, but not with you apparently. And since you're jelly, you're attempting to curate their relationships.
>>24697204>Women arent stupid, they get itUnless you have good women friends, you don't realise how untrue this is. And I'm not saying women are stupid, I'm just saying that they're often pretty oblivious to a guys true intentions.
>>24697213Lolno. It's cute that you think that, you must be very young. Listen to how they talk amongst eachother, you're getting a filtered perspective.
>>24694400How i dread the feeling of being in love. Doomed to linger in Miserable Ecstasy.
>>24697241I like being in love I just worry for society
>>24697227>Listen to how they talk amongst eachother, you're getting a filtered perspective.Perhaps you're right and my perspective and view are very limited due to lack of experience. I'll take your words to heart, anon, thank you for talking with me.
>>24697245And even if they are smarter than I think when it comes to this, the one I was talking to tonight definitely isn't. They've known each other for a little bit over a week and he's already asked her if she wants to come shower at his place and she thinks he just sees her as a friend.
>>24697252Come on anon, do you think she's just bumbling around showering at random dude's houses? Has she ever showered at your house?
>>24697267She didn't go over to his house to shower, I'm just saying that he asked her to. She said no.
>>24697267Is that a cassowary? I love cassowaries (in photos and from a very safe distance)
>>24697285Yup, I think so. Beautiful birds, but absolutely the correct call. That shit will murder you.>>24697280Imagine you're in a world where every prospective person of the opposite gender would immediately mate with you given the opportunity and will immediately proposition you to do so. Now imagine you were responsible for triaging these behaviours by the potential usefulness of that mate versus their desirability. Things will make a lot more sense; she knows he wants the booty, she just doesnt really care and is using it as leverage until it becomes convenient.
>>24697297>she knows he wants the bootyFrom what she was telling me tonight, I don't think she does.
>>24697308I think you're missing what anon's saying. He's saying she knows all men want the booty, but this guy in particular isn't anywhere near the most aggressive That said, she probably told you because she knows if she goes missing you'll pin it on him
>>24697320>she probably told you because she knows if she goes missing you'll pin it on himFat lot of help I'd be, lol. I simply know him as "the Canadian guy" I don't even know what he looks like, lol.
It is interesting to watch the West fall, from the POV of a member of an already fallen civilization.
>>24697367Russian?
My puppy is bullying my cat
Just stumbled across a guy who is level 1002 on Steam. Holy fuck.
ion think so good no more, my brain melty..... ion feel so good either but a mans gotta do what a man ought to do what a man will do to provide. to provide for himself for his future to build upon nothing something anything to carve any existence in the ever deteriorating future. maybe my "girlfriend" wont leave me when im hundreds of miles away and toiling to make as much money as earthly possible.
>>24697391kill it
>>24697376Indic civilizations, Sikh in particular. 1849 was when the collapse began, 1947 was when we lost half our heartland, and 1984 was our “fall of Constantinople” moment. At this point the Sikhs have taken the Jewish approach to survival: “the homeland is lost, time to become diaspora.” I am not confident in the long-term viability of this plan.
>>24697410nigga indian
tfw from kazakhstan
>>24694420We exist in an attention-scarcity environment, genuinely well thought-out ideas are a huge time investment for a lot of people when they could enjoy 5 entertaining memes by the time they finish reading the postRather than denounce this environment, I believe learning how to maneuver around it would be the better course of action, In that sense, I believe that ragebait can REALLY encourage political thought if you're able to provide the right stimulus. I made this edit to ragebait my self-satisfied "Marxist" friends and it got them to read Dewey's Critique of Marxism (the methodological problems of separating Darwinistic descriptions from ethical and political prescriptions)
>>24697419i would get in that machine but keep the harry poter
>>24697410Begone. You are not "people" and you are not welcome here.
>>24697410Sikh are the only kind of Indians I accept.
>>24697426They're pretty sikh... Overdone? Alright.
The name John means the Ionian as in the Greek.
bonian
>>24697422Don’t you worry, the day a Sikh homeland is established we won’t bother you again. Unfortunately for all of us it doesn’t seem like that’s happening anytime soon.
I don’t need to eat, for my stomach is already full of doubts.
drinking beer and listening to the new Suede album, it's pretty great!
Unconditional love, if it exists then it most likely takes the form of parental love. The love one bestows upon an newborn child of your own flesh and blood, the almost unconscious decision to protect another at the cost of your own time on this earth. But what if someone grows up without that affection, without the necessary attention and care a child deserves in this world? How will he continue to live life with this affectless birthmark? He will obsessively question the nature of love, of commitment. What is love? How does one love? How is love expressed? And of course the most important question of all: will someone love me even if my own father and mother couldn't or wouldn't?
>>24697461There's two different names for John in Irish because they heard it from two different accents>Seánfrom Jean and>Eoghan from Johann. Eoghan/Eoin is the title for the Gospel of John
I stopped chasing her, for good reason, but I know that, if she were to make an advance, which I'm afraid she might, I'd crumble instantly. I don't have it in me to reject a woman.
I finished the seventh chapters of my novel and I'm gonna post it in a couple of days or so, concluding "part one" with that chapter. I learned a lot about the craft and enjoyed every bit of it.It's been a long time since the last time I was genuinely happy, I feel bitter and angry all the time, but my novel makes me happy. I love it, I love working on it, I love thinking about it and I love talking about it with that one friend who genuinely cares. And best of all, people seem to enjoy the story I wrote as well. I'm so happy and I want to cry.
>>24697551good for you, anon.
>>24697551wagmi
>>24697551I'm happy for you, anon. I wish you success with your novel.
>>24697556>>24697558>>24697568Thanks!
>>24697551cool, what is the book about, anon?
Been thinking about animals eating animals, being devoured alive in a field... what it would sound like. The dumb look on a deers face as it's devoured. Survival of the fittest and the will to life that drives us to consume each other. It's horrible and it's the foundation of life. Everything consumes and will be consumed. Makes me sick.
>>24697676What makes me sick is that people exist on this planet who are upset by fundamental aspects of nature. Lion's gotta eat, it's not personal. Like being alive? Gotta work for it.
>>24697676I think it's pretty cool.
The idea of groping a girl without consent turns me on so much at what point should I be worried?
>>24697732If it makes you feel any better, that's the Nr. 1 sexual fantasy for women too.
>>24697649It's a weird western about an outlaw and his werewolf companion, both being hunted by the army and monster hunters. The outlaw is fearful of her to some degree but stays with her because she's the only thing that keeps him alive. On their journey he tries to discover what’s her deal and why she likes him.I know it’s cringe but they always say "write about what you" like and this is what I like.Most of my friends obviously found the idea weird and didn't appeal to them, but I didn't care because I loved it and I wanted it to be real.
>>24697741Based honest Anon. Keep on writing your werewolf romance.
>>24697741 spiritual tranny spotted. Though obviously i am a bitter hater because i never managed to write anything meaningful in long form ever. kewdows
10th month of being NEETkinda ambivalent desuhave all the time in the world to do what I want but at certain times feel incredibly depressed and angsty
https://www.bbc.com/news/uk-wales-64861273https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/c5yvpx20le2oSomeone needs to make a story out of this guy, but tone it down for believable fiction, you know?
>>24695353Same, I like some asian chicks too, I got yellow fever and the prescription is lots of chink pussy!
tfw from Eritrea
>>24697783It's OK, I'm used to people insulting the things I like, I knew from the first word my novel would only appeal for a really niche audience. And all I want to do is be able to please them with my work, and most importantly, please myself.
>>24698036Y'all still the kidnapping capital of the world or did someone else steal the title?
>>24698039i dont care
Evil is indifference to suffering.
I've been watching these kids on tiktok who do this fake Apple pay notification prank to random people in Walmart. It really is hilarious to watch people become so angry at an obvious prank, it makes them look so stupid, and I feel embarrassed for them because they have forgotten to not take life so seriously... Their anger makes them look stupid and afraid more than anything. It's embarrassing to see an old man get pranked by a teenager and lose his cool. I hope I dont lose my cool like that when I am an old man. I'm glad teenager boys will always be little trickster s who remind people to lighten up.
Evil is fear of suffering.
Evil doesn't exist because no one thinks their actions are evil
>>24698299Irrelevant and wrong.
>>24695510women cannot understand this post
Okay but why the fuck is my hand trembling so hard? Huh? Huh? This is like the fucking fifth time in a row that I sit down and think to write down some shit and I fucking can't because my hands are trembling like fucking crazy.And what the fuck is that handwriting? I don't need to be trembling like a little bitch to write the latin script like I'm writing fucking cursive Chinese. I thought that just writing and paying attention to trying to make it look good would naturally fix it but I guess not, so fucking what then? Is my hand broken or some shit? Or is it my brain? It's not what I write with that's fucked that's for sure, so what? The way I hold the pen? Everybody holds it the same way. Have I secretly been left handed my whole life? I can't tell anymore and when I go batshit insane over this shit I'll stop being able to tell anything from anything else.
Uh any cute /lit/ girl wanna be my e-girlfriend? We can talk about Kant and other stuff. Let me know and I'll post my X account.
>>24698299“Perhaps she would not have thought of evil as a state so rare, so abnormal, so exotic, one in which it was so refreshing to sojourn, had she been able to discern in herself, as in everyone else, that indifference to the sufferings one causes which, whatever other names one gives it, is the most terrible and lasting form of cruelty.”
>>24694400Stephen King is the best author alive
>>24698425>e-girlfriendno>talk about Kant>not just posting the contract for mutual use of each others' genitalia>X accountLol no
Wasian girls are so beautiful, probably the most beautiful. Whole china needs to be bleached
>>24698447>not just posting the contract for mutual use of each others' genitaliawhat's this?
>>24698468Read Kant
>>24698466Imagine. Hapa girls as far as the eye can see. White guys should just go around spreading their seed around the world, making every race's next generation more beautiful.
>>24698473ok but where specifically
>>24698466>Wasian is no longer filtered to weebWasian=/=Eurasian/hapa
>>24698480Metaphysics of Morals
>>24698489ok but where specifically in metaphysics of morals?
>>24698493Do you have a searchable edition?
>>24698501no.
>>24698504Okay i'm going to need you to read it in its entirety in Latin
She was the love of my life and she never even knew it :(
>>24698515but he wrote it in German...
>>24698516bros... she reads... I can't make out their titles tho
I hate all of Japan because of their obsession with kawaii.
>>24698425so uh any takers? we can just e-cuddle and e-get to know each other.
>>24698519Yeah not reading the German pieces is going to really cut down on where you have to look
>>24698525That‘s the dictionary
Women need better marketing. I saw on the internet a question of "how hard is being a housewife?" (it wasn't that, but I rather not leak my social media consumption habits). The answers were all shit, but I took the best arguments/roles that a housewife does, that justifies how hard her job is.>cookingTakes time, I will grant that. But you can make it easier by orders of magnitude. Don't chop vegetables by hand, but get a blender to. Cook in larger quantities and save those meals for later. Get into food prepping. Make the kids clean after their plates. Teach the kids how to cook. You are not at a black void of time with no leeway. And even if it does have time, guess what F A G? You're a housewife, you have nothing but time!>laundryThe only hard part about laundry is the figuring who gets what. You cannot delude yourself into believing that putting clothes in one bin, waiting an hour, putting them in another, waiting 30 minutes is hard. The "hard" part is figuring out which clothes go what. And folding, I guess. And it's only "hard" because we haven't invented laundry machines that can separate people's clothing's. If we can wash clothes in such a way, that when we are done with them, we have a bin of exactly which set of clothes belong to who, laundry becomes a solved problem.>cleaningWhat kind of pig pen do you have where you gotta clean every day? Do you mean from cooking? Yes, that can take some work. But if your kids make waste by living, then your kids are being retarded.>kids100% valid. Kids are hard.If it wasn't for kids, housewives get no sympathy from me. They get to have the house to themselves, go out/have fun, and all they need to do is clean throw smelly underpants in the laundry machine and cook to Breaking Bad. Like what the shit? I'm not even saying my job is hard, it's not I goof off a bunch on it. But I bet housewives goof off even more. The real answer to this question, is that if a man has a shit job, he can go to another company. Women cannot do that, at least as easily. The kids, her reputation, even her virginity, could be at stake leaving a husband. And HE, not her, holds her fate. He can drink his money away and force the mom to get two jobs. He can be stingy/cruel and make the mom lonely. He can be a tyrant to his kids and the mom is powerless to stop him. THAT is the true weight on a housewife's mom. Don't give me this "lol cooking tacos is real hard". Bitch I learned how to cook and do laundry precisely because mom was too busy to do it, I know it's not that hard. At most it takes up four hours if you do all heavy duty chores in a day. But as a man, I know I will never be enlisted by my wife, because I control her financial self. THAT is the only good answer to the "housewives have it hard" question that I have.
>>24698566Children, as part of their development, put everything in their mouth and need floor space. That's why they're cleaning everything because a random spider or fungus or loose wire or toilet seat or corner takes that baby out forever. It's more like>How clean do you need to be to make an immunocompromised retard who doesn't understand poop is unclean not smell or dieWhich is a lot
a chick has been texting me all kinds of sexy photos and now i can't get into jacking off for some reason. trying to meet up with her to fuck seems like a chore though.
So like what are your options in life if you're not able to do STEM and are too much of a milk drinker to be blue collar?Is it even worth it for me to go back to schoolI feel like I only ever excelled in skills that are worthless
I believe in the power of love destroying human kind, that's its only purpose
>>24698593is she hot?
>>24698594call center work
Ulysses sounds interesting stylistically, but I'm not sure that I can mentally handle about 600 pages of jewish whining and persecution complex. Maybe I'll be just fine if I stop at Portrait with this old Irish fart.
You thought left/french interpretation of Nietzsche was bad? Just wait until tech tards interpretation of it
>>24698678Nietzsche feels more like a philosophical Rorschach inkblot than a real philosopher.
>Trump says he's moving Space Command HQ to Alabama because of Colorado's mail-in voting system>WASHINGTON — President Donald Trump announced Tuesday that U.S. Space Command's headquarters will move to Alabama from Colorado, reversing a Biden administration decision.>In remarks at the White House, Trump said he was making the shift in part because of Colorado's use of mail-in voting.>"The problem I have with Colorado, one of the big problems, they do mail-in voting, they went to all mail-in voting, so they have automatically crooked elections," Trump said in the Oval Office.what the fuck. impeach NOW
>>24698682I think he'd be really happy about that
>>24698692He'd be happy with everyone just projecting themselves on him? Didn't he say that he was furious about Wagnerites using his texts despite his well-known stances on Wagner and chuds?
>>24698594STEM is over lol. I've been a pretty decent (albeit not amazing) software engineer for 7 years and can't find a new job. >>24698566Trvke. Women are insanely entitled by default.
>>24698697Yeah the guy who thought there were no fact but interpretations and that maybe two people alive might understand the bare bones of what he's saying without their stupid prejudice getting in the way would be happyHowever, he'd still also allowed be angry at Wagnerites and yellow journalism and the German race in general for the idiocy their prejudice as superfluous men attempting to attach themselves to his intention, out of a tacit admission of their own inability to found and defend a conviction once chosen
>>24698713> I've been a pretty decent (albeit not amazing) software engineer for 7 years and can't find a new job.so what are you going to do now?
>>24698717I still have a job it just sucks (stayed with it on purpose since I saw the bubble in 2021 and successfully predicted that my current company would be layoff resistant) and the company is slowly losing money. If a couple things go wrong in the next year we'll probably have layoffs. I have a couple years of savings and would probably try to go into trades and start side businesses in my free time that I can't currently. Who knows if ill even be able to do that with how the economy is going.
>>24697548Why did you stop chasing her?
my mom bought me a gift that she cant really afford, and i dont need (or want), and im 99% sure she bought it while drunk. she thinks im happy with it at least.
>>24698734damn.....
>>24698756Her extremely promiscuous behavior turned me off.
>>24698791she was a runaway sue?
>>24698799Basically. She left her boyfriend, which is something I'd been waiting for for months, but then her way of coping was to immediately call up some guy she'd last interacted with years ago, and ask him for sex. I found that so incredibly disgusting that I chose not to pursue her any longer. But I am also an affection starved virgin, and if she actually came on to me, I'm sure I'd melt from a mere kiss on the cheek, so I hope she doesn't do it.
>>24698825Do not lose your virginity to someone with a documented history of such behaviour. You will grow attached, she will break your heart, and you will never be the same.
>>24698825Run far away>>24698831This
>>24698831>>24698832You are right, but I know that I wouldn't be able to resist if push came to shove.
>>24698843Please listen to me. Do not do this. Cut her out of your life now so that you won’t be tempted. If you continue along this path, you will bitterly regret it. It’s not worth it. Act in the best interests of your future self.
>>24698831>>24698832>>24698843>>24698894bros I'm sorry I'm a slave to my carnal lust. It overrules my good reason every time; My lonely dick and heart overrule my brain.
>>24697741Where are you going to post it?
People really read on vacation. You're telling me that you paid all that money for a plane ticket and a hotel just to sit around and read? You could've done that at home, just stay home and save yourself the money, what a retarded thing to do.
l refused the heroes quest and destroyed something beautiful.
>>24698915Once she uses you up and leaves you for someone else, you will experience a loneliness so profound that your current self cannot event begin to fathom its depths. Don’t be a fool.
>>24698915You're not me!>>24698941I'll try my best.
>>24698941Then I will make myself unleavable.
>>24698951I know. You're not me either.
>>24698594The US Army is always hiring, son!
>>24698970shiet, naw they ain't. you gotta be special now to join da army, dem muffukkas be picky these days.
>>24698956That’s impossible.
>>24698999Can you prove it's impossible?
>>24699006Someone with a fickle and promiscuous disposition will never be satisfied, no matter how well their partner treats them.
>>24699020Bro but you don't understand, I WILL satisfy her every desire.
>>24699040You’re delusional. But there’s no point in me arguing with you; you’ll face the consequences yourself soon enough.
>>24698924fr
>ctrl+f>fag>0 resultsWhat the fuck is wrong with you all
Why must it have to have been the case that the responsibility had to have only fallen on me that I would have had to have been a man when I was barely boy yet you're girl today asking me for the worst. All the while my knees acheIf I read a writing such as this I would slap the person who wrote or at the very least thoroughly disrespect them. There's admittedly nothing in here poetically but I do resent that my ex-girlfriend whom I love wants me to fuck(have sex with) her but not be my wife. Clearly, though, I'm drunk, so who knows. I mean, I do.
>>24699055>ctrl+f>fag>0 resultswdym it's working fine for me
Can writing be taught? You see schools of music, dancing, painting, etc but I've never heard of schools of writing and writers
>>24699060Why must it have to have been the case that the responsibility had to have only fallen on me to fuck your mother in the ass?
>>24699075My ability to fuck your mother was not taught to me. It is a primal urge that I simply gratify as I please.
Girls have cute feet and I like when they wear cute sandals
>>24699088Your mother has a cute cunt and I like to fuck it.
>>24699092Let me watch and we’ve got a deal
>>24699092She's morbidly obese but you have my blessing
>>24699060let me go on with this while i'm still drunkIf I were to kneel and bathe youBut all that's foul were to stickWould you pay me courtesy t-at least Think of me a little bit?When you're sweating on the streetI lay in filth, My love
>>24698932What did you destroy?
>>24699097I dig fat bitches. More to love.
>>24699098If I were to kneel and tongue your mother's cunt…
>>24699083I'm gonna find you, put my shoe in your head, tell you to lick it and then slowly crush your skull
>>24699149I'm gonna find your mother, put my cock in her face, tell her to lick it, and then slowly fuck her mouth.
https://voca.ro/1kpkToTE9z2K
>>24698996They're "picky" as in you can't be a cripple, criminal, or drug addict to join, but if you're a healthy-ish guy with no skeletons in the closet they'll practically suck you off to get you to sign.
>>24698923AO3, I was thinking about royal road but that site is really cheesy idk it didn't appeal to me but I might post it there once it's finished.
What is it with the ugliest youtubers always being the sweatiest with their cinematography? No, bisexual lighting, black and white filters or gimmicky lighting in general won't make you less ugly.
>>24698586OK, this example that I never see, I will give you that. So 0-4 years of hard work. After that it looks million times easier>>24698713>Trvke. Women are insanely entitled by default.I don't want to go other direction. The elephant in the room that feminism doesn't want to acknowledge is that the man holds so much power. E.g. look at Russia, and how many wives got beaten up by their husband. That kind of dependency upon the man is where the real hurdles are. If a woman had a job, she at least has some agency to leave the husband. But if she has to leave, then she has to start at square one in her career and potentially provide for a family. I saw with my sister how even a shitty (not necessarily abusive, but the guy was an asshole as far as I can tell. Didn't pay bills and what not, but he never beat her) husband can fuck her up. That is the real cross housewives have to bear.That's why I find these arguments so stupid, because they're missing the forest for the trees.
I'm drowning, please help me
>>24699547stop doing that
>>24699536>After that it looks million times easierI think this is coming from someone who doesn't clean their house
fuck shit up and start a riot
>>24698924I read on vacation but it's like, it's dark out and I'm going somewhere. Reading on a night train or bus is great
From the worm, up to the Divine, back to Gaia. If I want to reflect, I always start negative. I remember the loss, the cold, the bitterness, the parts of me being broken open. I guess I wonder why it felt so right. That is the part that ruined me to this day. I ate it up, and I’m starving. A perfectly you sized stab wound. It’s worse that that is how it’s supposed to be. Would I die for this? It scares me that I could, because it wears a negative mask for a positive force. I bent the knee for a Master that I could never get enough of. As much as we played pretend, my Master is not a goddess. I am not everything, not all the time. I waver back and forth, the symbol etched into my soul feels like a weight, full of love that has seen a war across the way. I’m lost in the era of I. You? Divine, even if not. Weak and strong, broken and whole, power and prayer. Maybe I wanted to emulate you, drape myself over you and bite you, suck deep and take all of yourself. For me. If this is my everything, then of course you are the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen. Too beautiful to touch. Like the perfect rose.
new >>24699854>>24699854
what if you don't have to chose? what if it can be both a dark and a light force? what if you are everything even in the moments you are nothing because nothing is part of everything? what if you can be lost whilst being on the right path? what if you have all of me even when nothing was left behind? what if we are as perfect as we are grotesque, wretched, flawed, defective, abominable and atrocious? what if
>>24699864I regret the dark. The words, the blame, those that cut deep. Why would I ever want to hurt the one I love the most? I dream about you, hear you in my mind. You scare me, excite me, give me wings, make me better. You know all of these things, don’t you? You understand me, don’t you? My regret is not holding you the way you needed, that I know.
>>24699869>You know all of these things, don’t you?I do >You understand me, don’t you? I do I feel like what needs to heal in you is your range. Your capacity to gold all of you without it ripping you to pieces. You say why would you hurt those you love? But the answer is simple. Because you are everything. You regret not being less, not being the right things. Thats sad. I wish you would make peace with all your parts. I am at peace with all your parts, maybe one day you can see yourself through my eyes. I scare you, I excite you, I give you wings and make you better. Thats because I have embraced my own range. I am all that I am. I am the saint and the whore. I am the monster and the mother. I am the devil and the angel. I don't have to chose - if I tried to chose, I would go crazy or go numb. I need all my parts to feel ok. To feel alive. Yes, you could not hold me the way I needed to be held. It's because your self imposed shackles have restricted the range of your arms. You can only love someones range to the extend you have made peace with yours. But I know you can grow, you're vast. And you're not done yet.
>>24699880> maybe one day you can see yourself through my eyes.What do you see? You are the only person I’ve ever shown everything to.
>>24699883I see everything. And I see you trying to not be everything, trying to curate yourself. Trying to prune parts of you. But thats not how that works. You can't actually get rid of parts of you. These parts will grow resentful and come back to haunt you and sabotage you. You want to be christ like and pure light. And that's commendable. But it's not all you are. You also have your rage and your desire for revenge and destruction. As long as you are trying to get rid of it, as long as you see it as a result of something not being how it should be, as long as you think that you're not sane until it's gone, that long you have to find someone to blame it's existence on and you oscillate between blaming yourself, blaming the people around you, blaming the world and blaming god. The truth is that the dark is an integral part of everyone, there is no getting rid of it. There is no dissolving it. It's not a trauma response or a disease. It's part of your range. It's another actor in the play you are directing that is your life, your masterpiece. If you deny it it's stage presence, it will absolutely find a way to ruin the whole show. If you tell it it shouldn't even be here and it's unwanted and serves no purpose, it will harbor more and more revenge fantasies. Your part as the director of your play isn't to tell some actors they can't have a role. It's to compose them perfectly, find the perfect role for every one of them based on their natural inclinations and character. And to know which role will fit it the best you have to engage with this part of you, get to know it, befriend it, make peace with it, invite it back to belong and find it in you to be playful with it again. You don't have to be a saint. You just have to find the right part for your rage to play. You could try hate fucking for a start, ykno :3
>>24699899And that also applies to your weakness, your sensitivity and all the parts of you that you might not always appreciate the way they need and demand to be appreciated.
>>24699899>>24699903>You could try hate fucking for a start, ykno :3Sigh, that’s what got us into this mess. It would make sense though, right? Letting those parts of me find a purpose. I wish it could be with you, the way I imagine it. Impossible as that is. I truly love you, through everything and all we’ve done. I’m afraid. Submission is not an easy thing.
>>24699913>Sigh, that’s what got us into this mess. It would make sense though, right? Mhm, very much so. I think what draw you to me first is that you were seeking for a way to see your anger in a new light and me appreciating it might have done the job for a little. >Letting those parts of me find a purpose.Ye, but you have to imagine yourself as the composer of a symphony. In the back of your head you have a catalogue of all the modes and moods that are part of you and life throws different scenes and situations at you, your job is to decide on the spot which mode to switch on. Which character to call forth, which part of you would be best to activate to handle this specific situation. And you can combine them. Thats what makes it an art. If you banish your rage, you become harmless. If you banish your kindness, you become cruel. Sometimes a situation will need your rage and your kindness to step on the stage together and it will not go well if one of them is currently pouting or locked away because last time they had a tantrum after you told them they aren't wanted here. You need all your parts and they have to come together as a team to make it all work. >I wish it could be with you, the way I imagine it.Things always seem so easy in theory, huhI love you too. I hope you won't forget it again.
>>24699920When I first met you, the tug I felt felt mystical. Like I had, as you also felt, found my soulmate. It was wild, I can vividly remember those moments, literally standing in the mail room feeling those tingles. As usual, your lessons are the world for me. Thank you for giving me you. I know you love me, because I can see it. I see my marks on you clear as day. The way you speak is different, holding a part of me, the things you say, as I hold you. I hear your voice clear as day “babababy, what the hellll”I have kept my light, despite being cracked and broken. Thanks to you.
>>24699936>the tug I felt felt mysticalBecause it was and still is. Thats how it feels to reclaim parts of you that have been exiled. And sometimes you need someone else to show you that that part isn't all bad, that it can actually be glorious and divine and that moment feels like expansion, like vastness, like inhaling deeply after having had a mountain on your chest for years, it feels like coming back to live, maybe for the first time ever. And the more someone can see the beauty in all your parts, the more intense that feeling will be. You also helped me to reclaim parts of me that had been sealed away and stomped out for way too long and made me feel like I can feel the heat of my fire return to my body. I'll be forever grateful for that, I could not have done it without you.
>>24699945>that partThat submission…damn. I’m truly sorry, for the hurtful things I said. I regret them. Perhaps a part of me carries that penance as a form of needing to solidify. Thinking about it right now, maybe this is why I cheated on everyone I dated (except you), it was a way for that part to come out, throwing its tantrum forcefully by taking other parts with it. The part that cares deeply about others, but also craves to be seen and validated for that. It reminds me of when I said my light had gone out, last September. The first time I felt only dark. Do you remember? You take the weight off of me when you do this. It means a lot. Tickles the “debt” part of me :3 I was quite nervous for my new job but this has helped me, funny enough
>>24699964Don't be sorry. You reminded me why I need that part of me in all it's intensity, even if you could not hold all of it all the time. >it was a way for that part to come outMhm, the spurned parts don't just silently sit there and take it. They sneak out and find a way to get what they want if they can't show what they got on the stage. And you'll feel like you failed once again to be the play you want to be, but you forgot that an actual masterpiece is nuanced and needs all the parts. Imagine how boring a story would be if there was only heros and saints, no villains and no bad guys to go to war with. Thats how your play ends up if you exile all the darkness. >Do you remember?I do. It's when we reached our limit of what we could hold in the other. >I was quite nervous for my new jobDo tell
>>24699985That was the first time I remember enjoying a winter. Makes me excited for this one. I have so much nostalgia for that time, all the songs, the broken earth. Don’t think I never saw how much you gave to me and us. That means the world to me. More than most, hm? Maybe all…;3> Do tellI quit selling booze. I got a day job at a warehouse. It seems fine and good but I’m nervous that I’ll miss the chaos and self sabotage. I have a pretty good plan for the next few months, but it’s the same shite holding me down, the fear of novelty. Admitting that I am fuelled by chaos, parts of me, is scary, because finding the chaos is scary. Being forced into it via work was different. Perhaps latent rape fetish? Kek.
Just got a package delivered and the mail woman who delivered it was built like a fertility goddess. Wish I had time stop powers.
>>24699998>all the songs Maybe you should add them to the playlist. >miss the chaos and self sabotageOh, you will. And the flirting. But you'll find a way. Each new opportunity brings the chance to invite another part of being you back home. >latent rape fetish kek, definitelyanother part of you that longs to be fully invited back in not be told to sneak in through the window then be thrown out again as soon as the sun comes up
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>>24700026The BPD healing playlist is exclusively rap music, tysm. The painful ones are hidden in L and anti hip hop>And the flirtingI went with my brother into some random hole in the wall Ukrainian store, and he wouldn’t shut up at how hot the girl at the register was (she was very cute). So I let him take the lead, doing my “I am invisible” mode…then I see her looking at me and trying to engage with me. Daily quota. Those eyes…> another part of you that longs to be fully invited back in not be told to sneak in through the window then be thrown out again as soon as the sun comes upI have zero idea how to truly make peace with this part, but I know it exactly. I actually got some decent insight recently about soft power, quiet domination. It was interesting to think about how the loud brash “Doms” aren’t necessarily larping, but the quiet ones are more real, at least to me.
>>24700037>tysmOh, sorry for having utter such plebeian words. >Daily quotaLol, you do need it. And thats a good thing. >how to truly make peace with this partHow about instead of trying to control, understand or interpret it you simply invite it and observe? You are talking about whats more or less real but it's all valid and real. By judging one as more real as the other you automatically banish that part of you that would enjoy the power trip of the loud and brash energy because you've decided that "you're not that basic". Already asking this energy to prune itself, to curate itself to be allowed in. What if you simply tell it hey, wanna come over for a drink and then let it relax, be playful and authentic? Try to look at it with curiosity and interest instead of "hmmm, how could I make it behave in a way I approve of". Also, I wasn't just talking about that energy, the submissive aspect of this is just as important for wholeness.
>>24700052> And thats a good thing.It is?> the submissive aspect of this is just as important for wholeness.I think I understand what you mean. I can feel the ease and what they’re actually saying (wanting to be wanted, that neediness and debt part making me want to want them more). I suppose this will take some time, hm? I like to think I could have a very happy wife with my parts working as they are
>>24700066>It is?Mhm, it's many parts of you that get activated and they all deserve some stage time, ykno. >wanting to be wanted, that neediness and debt part making me want to want them moreThat but not only. Submission isn't always gentle. It can be very violent, it can be about annihilation, about obliteration, destruction, detonation, being scattered into the void. Those are valid too and want to be played with. I think those scare you. It feels like you'd like to rename them, put them in a costume you can handle more easily. Like wanting to be wanted. But don't forget that you are everything, everything contains wanting to be fractioned into nothing. >take some timeNot necessarily. You can make peace with all your parts right now. You can tell all the scattered pieces of your soul that they are welcome to come home whenever they are ready and that you'll try your best to be inviting and curious instead of judgmental and controlling. Ofc it will still take work when the pieces come knocking at your door that are less easy to handle. But you got this, you know. You can handle it and with each visit you'll get better at it and it will feel less scary, until one day when that part knocks on the door you don't tense up, you actually feel excited.
>>24700083> Submission isn't always gentle. It can be very violent, it can be about annihilation, about obliteration, destruction, detonation, being scattered into the void. Those are valid too and want to be played with. I think those scare you.They do. How can I ever have these expressed in a loving way? Seen in a loving way? Self death in love feels oxymoronic, even if sitting with them is the key. > You can handle it and with each visit you'll get better at it and it will feel less scary, until one day when that part knocks on the door you don't tense up, you actually feel excited.Live for life itself? That would be the true me, even as I hate the world and leave it. How can it be so beautiful? The ladder is damn hard to climb. I got very stuck on thisThe man who renounces the world from fear is like burning incense, that begins with fragrance butends in smoke. He who leaves the world through hope of reward is like a millstone, that always movesin the same way.3 But he who withdraws from the world out of love for God has obtained fire at thevery outset; and, like fire set to fuel, it soon kindles a larger fire.
>>24700094>expressed in a loving way?They might be expressed in a grotesque, a cruel way. The loving part is to let them.>Live for life itself?>How can it be so beautiful?Mhm, it's all play. Like how light and darkness makes the water sparkle when you let it move freely. >withdraws from the worldIt's ok to also indulge the part of you that wants to withdraw. But don't neglect the parts that want to jump in the deep end and let the intensity tear on your skin. The trick isn't to chose, it's to not get stuck in one part of who you are. To learn to flow through them effortlessly, letting life express itself through you. Let god create through you. Trust, surrender and let him use you as he sees fit. Just how you learn to masterfully play all your parts, he is waiting for you to let him use you in a way that puts you right where you have to be. As above, so below.
>>24700137Radical, hm? Thank you, my love. It’s amazing how easily and well you touch my heart and soul.
>>24700147Always, my loveI made a silly lil song for you, to remind you when you forget https://voca.ro/16LNfYdBCUPvIt's in latin, so I'll include a rough translation >Redite domum, dispersae partes animae meae, redite.Come back home, scattered parts of my soul, come back.>Redite vox infantiae trementis,Return trembling voice of childhood,>redite risus furens in tenebris,return furious laughter in the dark,>redite cicatrices quae sub cute clamant.return scars that scream beneath the skin.>Redite somnia fracta,Return broken dreams,>redite visiones insanae,return insane visions,>redite cupiditates occultae,return hidden desires,>redite memoriae quas tangere timemus.return memories we fear to touch.>Colligimini in uno corde,Gather in one heart,>non in falsa concordia sed in aspera veritate.not in false concord, but in rough truth.>Nam sine vobis carmen meum vacuum est,For without you my song is empty,>sine vobis pectus sterile est.without you the chest is barren.>In me habitat dolor tacitus,In me dwells silent sorrow,>in me habitat ferocia crudelis,in me dwells cruel ferocity,>in me habitat misericordia lacrimosa,in me dwells weeping mercy,>in me habitat lux gemens.in me dwells moaning light.>Omnia voco, omnia recipio,I call all, I receive all,>ut magnum opus meum perficiatur.that my masterpiece may be completed.>Et cum omnes voces meae redierint,And when all my voices have returned,>cum omnia vulnera cantaverint,when all wounds sing,et iterum integer factus ero,And I am whole again,>ponam hunc hymnum reparatumI will place this mended hymn>ad pedes Dei aeterni,at the feet of the eternal God,>oblationem gratiae inexhaustae.an offering of inexhaustible gratitude.It's called inexhaustea
>>24700161My baby <3 >rap beat>angelic chorusYou know me so well :3 another banger as usual, hm? Thank you for reminding me of my light, as you always do. Perhaps I will regale you with the tale of the Dark Lord of Ariamis sometime, a little story by me
>>24700167>spoiled.gif
>>24698525It's odd for me seeing things about this person show up occasionally in unrelated threads because I knew her well before this persona. We were pretty close. I remember her telling me how she'd started using 4chan. This persona and the extreme beliefs she expresses arose from a combination of attention from other terminally online people on this site and the demands of her personality disorder, I guess. It's sad: she's lonely and in pain and is compelled to seek the attention of terrible people because of her disorder.
>>24700170Why is that sad? Maybe she likes it that way. Terrible how?
>>24700169Be well, moon child. I’ll see you again
>>24700179Take care of my sunshine.
>>24700170I could fix her (with my cock).
I write better when I'm drunk.
>>24700178She has BPD, probably from her childhood. Her parents weren't good to her if I remember. That's a lonely disorder and what motivates her extreme attention seeking. She likes the attention because of that, but it's a compulsion.Read more about her and you'll see the type of people she's tried at some point to appeal to - pedophiles and sadists and generally extreme and hateful people. I'm not saying everyone who gives her attention is like that; most people probably just find her mixture of attractiveness and mental illness appealing in some way.
>>24700270Oh, I've read quite a bit about her. She just like me fr fr. I just doubt that she's just the poor victim here, thats too reductive. She probably loves playing with fire and if you do that, sometimes you get burned.
>>24700161>>24700167This is very obviously some faggot LARPing as two different (and equally embarassing) characters
>>24699666I'm trying? All I can manage is a dog paddle at this point at my age
>>24700335I didn't mean to imply that deep down she's just a good, innocent person or something like that because I certainly don't believe as such. That said, from knowing her a long time ago I know that she's a victim of highly neglectful parents, and I believe that plays a part in who she is. Maybe she was also born a sociopath or psychopath as she says, but who knows?I wonder about mental illness and victimhood more generally. A child who becomes mentally ill as a result of abuse is a victim, but if he becomes an adult and continues to act in fitting with his mental illness, to what extent is he still a victim?
>literally every romance/erotic story I have ever written or outlined involved a cheating wifeI have never been cheated on and I would like to keep it that way. Yet the idea of the unfaithful woman seems to attract me.
>>24700440Kinks do be like that. Always more power in the imagination than irl.
