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The husband of my cousin is currently missing. For an hour my family and I been trying to find him with no luck.He's mentally retarded btw.
My worst fear came true.
>>24721148After reading Hitler I was frankly disappointed.But after reading Arthur de Gobineau I want to become a medieval knight or an ancient white warrior.His book is based. I have found it necessary to further travail his ideas. The history of Western civilization can be divided into the following aeons:Hellenozoic eratransitionary period of degeneracyRomanozoic eratransitionary period of degeneracyGermanozoic eraYou are heretransitionary period of degeneracy?
Ever since xxxtentacion died, I've never felt the same...
I think we're doomed
People joked that Mickey Mouse wears a Spiro Agnew watch, and somebody actually made one back in the day. Idk if that's romanticization but things just felt so much more classy.Remember Mike Walz implied JD Vance sticks his penis into furniture and Trump calls people nicknames as if he's in kindergarden.Of course, Nixon also had people organize "ratfucking" compaigns from the White House basement to sabotage democratic candidates and they both had to resign for being crooks.
This world is a sordid place and not worth fighting for
I read Clark Ashton Smith's "The Isle of the Torturers" and now I want to kill myself.
Who are your favortie right wing esoteric hoes? For me it's picrel.
>>24721328why?
I might have to experiment with shampoo and/or conditioner again. Something about the daily medicine I take affects my hair and its texture to where it just looks like utter shit on the day I wash it. It only begins to look good again after a day or two once the oils start to build up, causing it to loosen up and take its ideal shape. In any case, this isn't tenable for when I get a job.
>>24721337Auf der Heide...
>>24721156We found him at his home. Whilst we where searching the streets he'd gone to the pub. His house's doorlock is busted, so he'll have to sleep in this car.I may have been cruel in saying that he was mentally retarded; in truth he suffers from neurological degeneration.
>>24721393Glad to know it worked out.
1: Imagine you were the therapist for a second. Then the patient is your primary source of income. The patient becomes your working material, and you want to have material from which you can make money. Say, a dentist would have no base to exist, if there were no teethes. And unhealthy teethes means that there’s more to for the dentist and that means he has more tasks which he then can cash up. For the therapist this means that he needs to have unhealthy psyches to have more tasks which he then can cash up. It’s kind of important for the therapist that the therapy does not end after the first few settings, its systematically not in his interest to cure the patient ‘too quickly’. In the case of 4 sessions, let’s say 100 $ per session per week, the therapist makes 400 $ from a single patient, but if he can extend the therapy to 24 sessions he makes 2400 dollar from the same patient. Now let’s take this a step further. The therapist profits from an increasing number of mentally ill persons on the ‘market’ as potential clients for his business. There are incentives to make people feel mentally ill so they go to a therapist. Also, he’s not alone in this, there are other therapists out there, so he has to prevail against the competition. Now, how would the therapist increase his chances to prevail? Collusion and cartel structures between therapists, but obviously not as straight forward as actual business cartels but in a much more covert way. There are not only therapists out there, there’s a whole industry built around mental illness – psychologists, psychiatrists, neurologists, clinics, rehabs, significant parts of the pharma industry (production, distribution, apothecary), research facilities (psychology, neuroscience), health insurance funds, institutions of the state, journalism. All these players need a right to exist and this is given to them by the human psyche capable of being ill. Now what’s happening is that increasing parts of the human psyche are pathologized. That means, that more and more behaviors, thought patterns, emotions, psychosomatic symptoms etc. are classified as part of mental illness. The ‘healthy’ parts of our overall spectrum of inner experience which our consciousness can theoretically display and produce become narrower through this classification while the pathological parts become largely extended. Same goes for the observable external expressions which we physically display (behavior), increasing parts of become pathologized and healthy parts become narrower.
Historical fiction is just a lazy man's fantasy
>>247213992: Now, the individual is not unaffected by this. They will start to see these mental ill aspects in themselves and identify with it. There are at least three important mechanisms to name here: 1. For the normal person it’s important, that having a mental illness is socially acceptable and that he’s not treated as a misfit in his social circles if he goes to the therapist. And this is what happened over the last decades, the normalization of mental illness and therapy and even psycho pharmacy. The medial depiction of it has a big part in this. Now not only are they not despised or excluded in many social settings, they might even be applauded when they talk about there mental illness and therapy. 2. Also the typical depressed wizard kind, or people of the autistic spectrum, and other very self-aware introverted people more likely will attempt therapy. What I mean is, in the past only the extreme, severely cases would receive psychiatric treatment, but now it’s open to people who think, there might be something wrong with them, and it’s much easier to just seek treatment, the thresholds are lower. 3. The internet gives access to quick and easy research about the topic of mental illness. So everyone can find never ending lists of symptoms of countless different mental illnesses and will likely find something where they find themselves represented in one or multiple of these checklists. Additionally the anonymity of the internet combined with trannyism, glorifying female attributes, streamer culture, reddit, social media and so on is very approving of mental illnesses. The inhibition to admit a personal mental illness is low. It could even be argued that today you kind of have to have some kind of mental illness to fit in, to be accepted in the community. Some might say, it’s weird if you never have had a mental illness in your life and that there’s probably something very wrong with you. Also, a fancy mental illness makes you interesting and people might value you for it. So the premises for social acceptance in some cases are flipped.All of this concludes that the person finding clues that he might have mental illness will sooner or later attribute this to themselves and then go to the doctor or therapist. This is where the circle closes. There is more to say about this surely, there are other social movements and technological advancements that contribute to the whole psychiatrization of society. There’s also more to say about how the development of consciousness and language in the first place made it possible that the human mind could be described as ill. But that’s for another day.
>grocery store I always go to has this mid-20's guy working there >always very happy and chatty>he's balding (NW3 with thinning crown) but still grows it out and styles it to the best of his ability >go to the grocery store today >he's shaved his head>completely cold demeanor, doesn't talk to me like usual>can see the pain in his eyesDamn, the Norwood reaper claims another victim.
>>24721148>Faggiest goddamn OP I've ever seen.
any anons wanna share a cheap studio in Portland so we only have to work a low hour part time job to afford the rent while we work on our novels and poetry and live the literary life?
I wonder at what point you stopped caring.
>>24721437sounds based, I'm down. maybe we can have gay sex and do heroin together if you wanna be a real beatnik
God bless women who go to the grocery store in 5 inch heels>>24721256Yeah, but once you accept and overcome that it becomes easier to cherish what we still have and focus on preserving it.
Mold spores fill my lungs, silverfish hide in the venetian blinds. In the summertime, in the bathroom, with the shower running and my clothes on, I figured out that I hate you all.
The more you concern yourself with historiography, the more you start to realize that the greatest historian is not the one who adheres to some illusory idea of objectivity or thoroughness, but rather one who manages to turn the past into political philosophy or a philosophy of history. Thucydides, Tacitus or Gibbon aren't the greatest historians because they are the least biased or because their research and source critique was beyond impeccable, but because they managed to turn the past into lessons about realpolitik and the nature of civilizational rise and decline. That is where the true value of history lies, the study of the fundamental forces and processes at play on a civilizational scale.
I miss that era in the late 90s when IT things tried to come off as stylish and made for yuppies. It was like American Psycho a bit, yeah, but at least there was an attempt to be smart and aesthetically appealing, unlike now.
>>24721627Emerson's "history is biography" is how I approach the matter, which is to say almost in the way a natural historian weighs the accuracy of accounts about the past, but including the effect of extraordinary individuals, pleasing as Haydn or appalling as Stalin or inventive Newton or as fascinating in horror retrospect as the scene of Seneca's murder. Obviously this can get a bit dizzying as the sheer weight of libraries and the power of grids to impose our own preferences on the immediate surroundings increase, but just as well, there's nothing quite like getting out into the thick of things to see what's going on, here and now, for oneself, whether or not one will have the opportunity for leisurely telling.
>>24721627u risk the narrative fallacy when u do that
lately, i can't get into the only two things that brought joy to my life, playing overwatch and gooning.
What’s up faggotsI just quit my jobNow I’m gonna write kindle unlimited smut romance instead Pushing like 10k words a day right now LOLI’m on track to make like 10k a month this yearShit is SO cashI even used a female name so the foids can’t even tell lelFinally gonna make it in life and all I had to do was write erotic fiction for housewives. Feels good manWe’re all gonna make it bros
>>24721761how do u be using a pen name on amazon? can ppl dox u if they're nosey? cuz im finna write some smut not even to get dough just to get off
>>24721738Please God don't mean it, before or after.
>>24721771it's anonymous image board bro i'm keepin it one hudred
>>24721766Yeah bro you can use any name you want and there’s no way to be doxxed unless you’re stupid as fuck and put your address in there. Go crazy
>>24721617Great flow
Hail, Hitler.
>>24721773Don't be so evasive. There are a lot ways to have fun, including twilight drives at 100 mph on select stretches in luxury sedans,. antique shopping, a sense of music better than shopping gets, desultory curiosity about moths or nuclear processes in typical stars. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0mIJyGlOlE
>>24721868>Solaria anon likes OrbitalI knew something good would come of this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RmRcM8sqI2c
i got this cinnamon vanilla flavored protein powder holy shit this is disgusting how did i think this could be good
>>24721868>>24721886their only real banger is the doctor who remix or whateverhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjRjb3Dfw54
>>24721894I think you're looking for a different segment of electro to chill out if you're looking for bangershttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glTBzZxaZvc
>>2472189468sr
>>24721906>be Underworld>Write absolute banger about a drinking problem>Audiences raise beers during performances because absolute bangerKek still a great song about self destruction https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CkHdBf-8PZE
>>24721886I'm am that guy. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qZu27RB8m8&list=RDMMNnJaRF95TCY&index=2
These PopTarts I bought to have as a sweets snack are making me fat. Never again after I finish these two boxes. Ideally I'd stop eating them now.
I kind of want to make a mix CD of songs by The Fray but I don't yet have enough to fill up the 80 minutes.
>>24722018Stop posting about your binges here, you pathetic fat fuck. Exercise some self control.
Sometimes I feel sort of guilty about lowbrow media evoking stronger emotions from me than highbrow media. Games have made me cry in the past and some anime have gotten pretty damn close as well, but I've never cried from the sheer pathos and catharsis of something I read even though real literature is far more profound than either anime or video games.
I once hung out with a girl who accused another girl of being a fake emo but now I think she might have been the fake emo...
>>24722018I bought a Radeon VII around 2018, for around $600 because it was am,amazingly cheap piece of hardware that could do 11 double precision terabytes in Open C. I could have sold it for about $2700 in 2020, but couldn't be bothered..
>>24722088
Hi
>>24722124Hi…
Feeling stressed n depressed. Need soma.
I follow a deeply mentally unwell Chinese cosplayer on xitter. Somehow she accepted me as a follower on both her public and her personal accounts. Her photos get a thousand likes or so but her personal posts get one or two. She's apparently gloomy, dark, addicted to some kind of drug, either hates men or thinks they're beneath her, and frequently posts stuff like "die die die die die die die!!!!!!" that she deletes a couple hours later.I'm fascinated. I'm a little attracted. I've considered DMing her or replying to her sad personal tweets that no one but me and a couple other people even read.
>>24722374tell her "ni de mama hen pang," it is a beautiful courting hookup line used by the ancient confucians
>>24722374>Anon finds his Nadja Lucky
This is the shooter of Charlie Kirk as a child. It's Christmas, 2013, and he smiles with his new laptop and candy. One can imagine Charlie Kirk, sometime in 2003, sitting starry-eyed by the Christmas tree, presents in hand, and a whole world unexplored before him. Every once in a while, the absurdity of it all comes crashing down on me. Even if Tyler were everything I hated in politics, if I were in his jail cell and could hug him now, I would. If I could go back in time to help his childhood self, I would. Though both would see me as the disgusting basement-dwelling incel freak I am, I can't help but feel overwhelming despair for them. So much suffering.
>>24722378I don't really speak Chinese but my instincts tell me this means something like "ay bby u want sum fuk?"
>>24722406you have good instincts. she would still find it funny. then probably attack you idk>>24722396you have empathy. that is good. do not let it languish like a puppy crawling in an alley next to a Golden Dragon Buffet. it will not last long there before becoming kung pao.
>>24721148Living in celibacy whilst in the world is quite difficult, especially when you're 25.
>>24722374Drop the sauce
>>24722429No way, some creepy pervert will spam her DMs with dick pics if I do.
>>24722439She already gets spamed with dickpics, one more wil not hurt
>>24722440It would be very easy for her to look at the one of two people it could be if someone sent the thread. Go look for your own egirl (nta)
>>24721148It's a known fact that plump people are descended from medieval aristocracy, as their genetics remember eating good. Obese people are descended from peasants because their frail frames cannot handle the food of modernity. It's why Africans and white trash are more likely to be obese. Their genetic memory is one of malnourishment and starvation, up until a generation or two ago, and suddenly they're drinking full fat coke by the bottle, eating doritos and McDonald's like it's nothing. Their peasant bodies physically cannot keep up, hence why the fat around them congeals and cocoons them. You never see this with a plump fellow, who is always in proportion no matter how plump he may be. A belly full of beer and rich meats is not obesity.
>>24722370need soma pussy
>>24721148God, I wish I had talent.>>24722396I think it is terrible that people can just dive into Facebook and dig up the entire lives of random people.Aside from that, I don't really understand what the big deal is. Guess it's just new for you people.
>>24721148God fucking damn it, talk to me you fucking NIGGER. Insult me, say you don't want to talk to me anymore. SAY ANYTHING. GIVE IT FINALITY. DON'T JUST FUCKING IGNORE ME. DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME DON'T IGNORE ME Fuck you too.
>>24722396probably like 15 years into his life bid he will realize he got used and thrown away by an extremist movement just like so many before him.
For some reason my unconscious psyche defaults to extremely negative and hateful thoughts towards my brother, especially whenever I'm hungry, angry, lonely, or tiredIt's been like this for me for years now. Not sure what to do about it. I'm sick of it Reading some Jung and meditating helped me recognize that it's not my conscious psyche thinking those thoughts and it's my unconscious psyche, but now where do I go from here?
>>24722535>HALThow's the drug program going? staying clean?
>>24722547I've got about 7 years sober now, but i'm not in any kinda rehab program, i don't go to AA or NA regularly but i've been to a bunch of those meetings before, but that HALT thing is a real thing that i noticed amplifies some negative aspects of my psyche
>>24722555when i used to have 4chan blocked in my hosts file i used to have a comment above it that said halt that i would have to see if i tried to edit it out. it worked a little, but obviously still browsing this dump.
>>24722565yeah, this site is addicting, but i think there are some positives about 4chan. i think it's a fun community for introvert type of people where they can socialize
>>24722535Mine immediately goes toward my mother, for some reason.Oddly enough I remember a time when this was not case.
When I'm reading him I read at 1/3rd of my normal reading speed.I like his works a lot but I can't read him for more than 1h a day nor will I ever pick up something written by him that's longer than novella length.
>>24721148
>>24722587I don't mind it.>>24722589I really like his work. Though I personally think it is strongest when dealing with the things Conrad experienced directly. His best scenarios are the sea, the south Islands, brief stays at ports. When he is outside of this element, I think his work diminishes in quality.Nostromo suffers from this, I think, to an extent.
>>24722621The last one I read was Typhoon and before that the Shadow-Line.They were both amazing but there wasn't a single day I managed to read more than 20-25 pages per session. The writing is too dense and I find I have to re-read certain passages more than once.
>>24722621Don't get me wrong, the character work (when it is there) is immaculate. But it succeeds in spite of the fantastic country it's in. However, I admit this is a Niche criticism, and Costaguana being a thoroughly artificial pastiche only bothers me because I can identify some of the sources Conrad pilfered to construct it. And it jars me.
>>24722626It happpened to me too, but not too often. I enjoyed learning all the new words, though.
>>24722415Try being 34...
>>24722716try 56...
>>24721833*Heil
>got to a new board>24 hours elapsed>I want to fucking kill everyone in itwhy can't I learn to like normie socmed like reddit
>>24721148It's insane to think how right wing I was on most issues for most of my 20s up until an year ago. But in the past less than an year I've gone full on socialist
>>24721148What an exhausting week. But, seriously, who the fuck sells black market perfume to anybody waiting for a train station to open at 4 a.m.? It boggles the mind. Oh, who am I kidding. I should just keep dancing. Dance, dance, dance.
>>24722581>addictingKYS
>>24723010it's definitely a habit because ive been here for 16 years
Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all time
>>24723034You can never leave.
>>24723034The word “addicting” is low IQ. Say “addictive” instead.
>>24723054Thanks
>4stats.io doesn't show the chart of board traffic anymoredamn it's that bad?
These are all bad thoughts.
She bent up upon the tree. Her womanly parts had been quivering for his presence for far too long. He ripped off her pants violently she dripped the sweet perfume of a woman yearning for his long thick penis.“Are you sure?” She said“No wait I think I’m gay” he respondedHe walked out into the forest. Never to be seen again
I drink my servant's blood.
Learned a bit of family lore last week.My dad told me his grandfather worked on the construction of a lighthouse in Mozambique. I knew he'd gone to Africa to work at the mines with the blacks and all, but wasn't unaware he did construction as well.
>>24721148MOSSBERG BALLISTICFLUX MASSIVEMY SHURE BETA 58A HAZMATTEDPUMP PUMP SLUGSTERRADIOACTIVERIDING THROUGH A MINEFIELD LACED WITH BLACK MAGIC
You have to respect that that lil twink was able to not shoot any civilians and only shot Kirk unlike that ugly mf who killed a firefighter when shooting trump
>>24723360Yeah I have to give him props for that.
I just started growing hair on my chest. I'm 31.
Give me something to care about
this chick that was texting me super horny shit for the last two weeks got the ick or something after we met up thank god to be honest cuz getting spammed with texts about blowjobs and get railed from behind are distracting. like i'm not gonna say stop texting me about how you want to get your face fucked, but at the same time, i don't reaaallly want to hear that shit. then i told her i don't like to travel. haha. i guess that must work for women though. tell some guy all the shit you like to do sexually and get him to take you on vacation somewhere. yeah, not gonna be doing that.
>>24721148---- Solaria ----30010Synaesthetes There's always something ridiculous about joy,EDM, gorgeous weather And sites engineered for cars To the horizon, Symphonic music of any kind.
>thoughts>tt
since i was born i started to decay
I want to hug a girl in bed and go to sleep while feeling her body heat. Nothing more.
I don't mind homeless people digging through whatever trashbins they come across, I get it, gotta do that you gotta do, but I cannot fuckin' stand when they leave all of the trash they've tossed out of the bin while searching on the ground. Put it the fuck back, wtf. I swear, one of these days I'm gonna snap when I see one of them just walk away from the mess they've made, and they'll end up stabbing me and taking my phone and wallet.
It is strange how, simply by being sleep-deprived, feverish, taking a recreational drug, using prescribed medicine, or experiencing a traumatic event, one can experience hallucinations - seeing things that are "not there." Similarly, through these experiences, one can feel depersonalized or even feel non-human. Most people will hear this and think nothing of it; many will experience it at some point in their lives. Yet, everyone walks around as if they are perfectly attached to reality.I can't stop thinking about this. How can we see things in such different ways and barely care?
i ordered another weird protein powder flavor that tastes like shit. from now on either vanilla or chocolate that is it.
>>24724146>>24724146Because we realize it puts us into an abnormal state. If we were seeing shit just randomly during the normal day, then okay.
I just lost my anal virginity.
>>24724169For what purpose? To what end?
>>24724119these druggie guys that do meth behind a building on my block always keep it super clean and are usually discrete and quiet. occasionally one guy will do too much and spend six hours screaming at the top of his lungs which is a little annoying, but otherwise they keep their little drug spot pretty tidy gotta be honest.
>>24724175Took a HUGE shit.
if i'm being totally honest when i saw the kirk vid i thought god i wish that were me imagine just sitting on campus thinking about how much life sucks and bang oh god what the fugggg ... gone.
>>24724182did it have blood in it from stretching u out? did you have to use the plunger to break it up so it would flush? now THAT's an ass destroyer type shit.
God the late 90's was such a beautiful time in America
>>24724032I could have this but she is hideous and makes me wretch. The last part independent of physical appearance.
Scream at the light that can't be saved
>>24724032it's not good because you will find out she got railed by some obnoxious douche at a party later and you'll feel like shit about it
>>24724191ya i think about the kids that got killed doing something stupid in the 90s and never had to live to see the current hellworld
>>24724188I had to break it up in my ass with my hands.
>>24724201damn that's hardcore what kind of shit do u be eatin tho
>>24724203It was hard for some reason. Like a prison dildo.
Why doesn't anyone like my story?
>>24724186same. I hope it'll be that quick for me.
>>24724211Did you post it ITT? I always skip to the end of the thread.
There is this pleasant mental state that is neither derealization nor depersonalization, neither concentration nor daydreaming, where a weak sense of ego joins hands with the world around oneself and results in this feeling of unity with the universe.
I've been pretending to be retarded for so long that I really have turned retarded. I don't know how to go back.
some stupid little dog is going nuts outside someone get that piece of shit out of here
a chick sent me a voicemail once that sounds like she's getting fucked, her voice sounds higher pitched and she sort of sneered at me at one point when usually she's really sweet, but more importantly she sounds out of breath for some reason. ok, she could be walking outside, there is some wind noise, but why is there a faint creaking and clapping sound in the background and why after one creak-clap sound sequence she stops talking to take a deep breath and goes ummmmm before talking again? i loaded it in an audio workstation and down pitched it, high pass filtered it, low pass filtered it, looped it, man busted so many fat nuts to that shit lol.
>>24724191Canada too. Everything was peak up until the end of the 00s.
usually i'm pretty content but when u spend a day or two doing normie shit u realize how much of life u miss by being schizoid that shit is depressing af and it's worse the older u get cuz it's like even if u went full normie tomorrow u already missed half ur life
Got banned from /int/ so I'll be hanging out here for off-topic bantz ig.
>>24724146when i'm falling asleep i hear voices i wonder sometimes if insane dudes who hear voices have the same experience but instead of only when ur sleepy its like all the time
>I happen to know you're a Calvinist. You believe we're all fallen beyond any hope for redemption. So answer me this. What's one more demerit for a friend allied with you against a common foe?>Ecumenically, that's not exactly right, and it's borderline offensive. But, also, it's... pretty much true.
Gonna sm0nk sum weed.
'scuse me while I kiss this guy.
I wish I had kids brosI'm getting older all alone
>>24724506Have kids with a much younger chick.
I really like being mildly hungover. I’m horny af and I have a lot of bizarre thoughts in between naps. It’s like the entire day is that fuzzy half asleep half awake phase when I’m coming out of a dream.
>>24724539Kino. Sounds a bit like a weed hangover.
>>24724527I am a faceless ugly bastard
The greatest problem with Isekai fiction is the readership itself.
I'm tired all the time.
>>24721148Found an Olivetti Lettera 32 for sale (same model McCarthy used) and am considering it knowing full well i won't use it
I was cursed with a good memory.
>>24721255BRO like i know exactly what you mean.I still listen to all his shit. Especially Skinits only on soundcloud but its the mostbeautiful song ive ever heard. still.
Resisting the urge to binge and spend $500 on books, books that I could read on my kindle for free if I wanted, but physical copies are so nice to have, and hold, and smell, and maybe read, too, I guess.
>>24724792Imagine the trouble you're going to cause the person carrying all the books out of your home after you die
>>24724792Have you considered buying them used on abebooks? You can usually get them for $4 on average, $7 at most, and iirc some less. That's what I do.
Since the daily medicine I take nullifies testosterone and therefore my sex drive, every morning when I wake up, I feel incredibly horny, with the deepest itch in my cock, especially if I didn't bust the night before. It's always a battle of self-control whether I want to satisfy the urge before I take the medicine, and then for the first 30 or minutes or so while it's kicking in. After that, the effects hit and the itch subsides, but man, it's tough resisting.
>>24721378OGX brand stuff is great, btw.
>>24721808>>24721617Yeah, that's beautiful. *saved to quotes file*
>>24724964Thanks. I'll probably just use whatever my parents have around. I've been doing NoPoo since I first learned about it on /fa/ my freshman year of high school.
>>24721301Fight for yourself, or die.
>>24722716>>24722722I'm a volcel of some stripe - I want to be in a relationship but my circumstances are such that it'd be better if I remained celibate
>>24725005same. women are so generic. teehee i love to travel, let's be spontaneous and go to europe for the weekend! sub 8s actually think this is going to happen. i'd rather take a stack of 100s and light it on fire.
>>24725032There are decent women out there - few and far between, but they do exist. For me, it's due to circumstances outside of my control.
When you reach the age of 65, the greatest act you can do is to take your own life, so as to avoid burdening those who come after you. The second greatest act you can do is to impart any and all your knowledge and gifts to those who come after you, so they may be prepared for the future. Both acts not only honor the self, but honor both your children and the country. To die for those you love is the noblest of all causes. Any self-respecting man or woman who considers themselves loyal to the grander project should commit to both duties. Those who shirk both these duties should be considered cowards and traitors and should be dealt with as such. Not with murder (as that would absolve them too quickly), but to make them spend the remainder of their existences in a state so regrettable they will take on their duties of their own volition and be redeemed forthwith.
>>24721148AI chatbots keep recommending to me fake books, often by fake authors. Is there none that's any good for research?
>>24724836People hoard all sorts of useless crap, I think books are one of the better things you could find in a dead persons house.>>24724910I'm in the Oceania region so idk how much shipping would cost
>>24725046>it's due to circumstances outside of my control.such as?
Real questionwhat the fuck are you supposed to do in your 30s when you can't possibly join normalfags?I don't wanna make normie friends. I don't like chitchat about dumb shit I hate which is 100% of conversations I can have with people IRL. I don't wanna date or start a family, never wanted to. I don't like movies or sports or other entertainment. I don't even like the "nerdy" shit like anime or videogames. So I can't make small talk and all I have in terms of hobby is extremely niche and focused.For years I used to get my fix of pseudo-human interaction from 4chan and other anonymous places because that was the only way I thought I could really be myself without being mocked or judged, but these places are completely gone. All my favorite boards shut down or went dead, 4chan is unusable too because there are bots or too many schizos, I don't know which and I don't care.I do not want to join social media full of bots or mingle with literal children on Discord. I don't like young people and I don't wanna talk to themI was never that active socially and online but for several months I've taken my degree of social isolation up a notch and I never realized how much I depended on that daily fix. I thought I was doing fine but lately I'm starting to feel extremely tired. I just want to lie down and sleep. It feels really bad like I'm starting to break down mentally.I don't wanna go to a therapist cause they're expensive and on top of all completely useless and I've wasted way too much money trying. They only work if you desire being around normies and want to have a normal life but you can't do it because you've something missing or some personal issue about yourself. I could join normies just fine because I can bullshit a fake retard personality well enough, I simply dislike them and being around them makes me unhappy and this is something a therapist cannot fix.What the fuck do I do. I was sure that going Japan mode and laser focusing on hobbies would work but it's not working. How do I gain the mental fortitude of a hardened, completely hopeless Japanese salaryman with no access to Futaba? Or are they just chronic pillow humpers who masturbate day and night to degenerate hentai nonstop? Surely they can't all be like that.YES I have tried God. God doesn't exist or doesn't want me to believe in him, don't fucking start with this stupid shit. And NO I will not try to microdose LSD.where the fuck do I go, I just want to be around mildly weird 30 year olds who didn't succumb to chronic masturbation and consumerslop issuesotherwise how the fuck do I manage complete social isolation, I don't wanna post on this dogshit site anymore
>>24725590Same problem, but I drink with my extended family a few times a month, smooths out the worst of it. I agree that these places are a desperate scrounge for social value that never gets realized. You can spend the whole day refreshing, but there's almost nothing of value here. Like it or not, socialization is mandatory to a degree.You may have to bite the bullet and try to meet a couple people on Discord. I have one guy who's very interesting to talk to and has lots of more esoteric pursuits he's going for. This isn't enough, though: I still spend half the day on these awful sites. It's like trying to become full by gnawing on frozen bark. Takes a million years.
>>24725609no, not Discord. I can't do it. I'd rather diethe very interface drains me of what little bit that's left of my soulsame goes for twitter and other twitterlikes, I can't do it. I just can't do social media. I hate Reddit too. I make an account and I feel instantly sad and I want to get outwish mastodon took off but I learned that these privacy decentralized things are just for pedosmajor problem in all this is that the few people you can talk to in these normie-disconnected places are a bunch of perpetually horny cumbrains I don't want to talk to
>>24725590How are you abnormal exactly
>>24725621Unfortunately, you must first meet all the reprehensible morons and fools before you can find those worth talking to, and most of those people are in a sort of Bayesian manner on the more popular platforms. Do as you will, but 4ch is probably not (could be?) the best place to seek out genuine connection and insight, especially in this long decline.
>>24725626I don't know. I just don't like entertainment. Every time I talk to people their talking points are just entertainment, what they watch on netflix, what they listen to, what they play, what new thing they consumed, what sports they like and what team they root for. I don't know what to answer to any of this. I have one autistic hobby that people would at the very best respond with "oh, OK". I get along with women are lot better than men, cause women are a bit more accessible but men feel like absolute robots who spew the most shallow consumerslop shit imaginable all the time. But in both cases I just don't feel interested. I can't do trial and error it's like looking for the proverbial needle in the haystack except I'd probably out myself as a weirdo of some sort cause normies already hate you and think you're weird the second you reveal you don't follow sports.
>>24725643You need to understand that in order to have in-depth conversations with real people, you need to first get to know them. You can't just say, "Hi, my name is Jack Offington and I'd like to discuss the virtue of solemn study and epistolary tradition of 18th century polymaths with you—how do you do?" Online spaces are a little more forgiving regarding premature depth, but you can't forgo this thing.
>>24725647I doubt anon actually wants to talk to other people as real people. Anon wants the kind of relationship where he makes no compromise and it falls into his lap and they are predownloaded with his likes and dislikes while also making him feel smart without being threatening to that illusion by being smarter or much dumber.He should just join a club for his autistic hobby and realise he hates those people for being people too.
>>24725664>He should just join a club for his autistic hobby and realise he hates those people for being people too.This anon is on it. I actually hate those people too, they're just more fun to talk to
I am the most pathetic person I know.
>>24725723Yeah you don't actually want a relationship with a real person. You want feedback which is inhuman.
>>24725724You don't know that many people anon kun
>>24725751You may be right, but you also don't know how pathetic I am.
>>24725747Well, this is about the best possible use for chatGPT I can think of: a sycophantic machine into everything you like that'll never tire or criticise what you ask of it.
>>24725753I know the statistical likelihood more than one anon itt fucked his sister
>>24725757Yeah that market has been engineered for a couple generations too so it does fit the purpose it was created for, and its largely made and populated by people who wanted that kind of irresponsible but responsive attention to last their whole life
>>24725758the one in hawaii sure did
>>24725757>Well, this is about the best possible use for chatGPTI don't want to proxy talk to streetshitters
>Write your thoughtsuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
>>24725647>>24725664On a more serious note, why is it that I'm bad if I do this but others without fail start off talking to me about their entertainment slop? I know it's "small talk" but it's just so painful to me because in all cases I utterly despise what they enjoy or at best it's something completely alien to me and I lose my interest. Sometimes I'd try to ignore the bad signals because I felt the person was worth exploring beyond surface level and it was never worth it. I am no longer interested in "getting to know" anybody, because there's no hidden treasure. The moment you tell me you like some rapper or ass-shaking thot or the new marvelslop movie I just think you're a massive retard. For a very long time i tried to pretend I was interested or also enjoyed these things and I would play along, I'd fake enthusiasm, but in the end I just couldn't help it and I also felt like I made a fool of myself in the process.I know I probably sound like a massive pseud but I don't think I'm particularly intelligent or I demand any degree of sophistication, but for fuck's sake not this slop. Sometimes people talk to me and recommend me some show and 30 seconds I hate it with every fiber of my being. I just can't do it. So yes I just want some conversational feedback, I want the intellectual equivalent of hookups. 4chan was perfect for this but it's no longer an option.
>>24725856They are trying to find common ground, and using things that are commonly discussed to find it is the most efficient sifting process. You start broad and narrow down a path of inquiry, like with Twenty Questions.When you start with something obscure or uncommon, you are telling people you are not looking for common ground with anyone who is not specifically already in your milieu. People aren't acting like you're bad, they're following your social cue that you are not interested in the same shit or them.
>>24725856>there's no hidden treasureMost people are Billy Bones. They’re drunk and gross and bloated and retarded. But if you get lucky they’ll show you a stroke of genius and give you a treasure map.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFU_1h7io0Y
>>24725872Yes I understand that and I'm not autistic, I understand the process of finding a common ground. I've "bonded" with people by simply faking interest. Done that a lot and I hated myself for it. Am I wrong if I believe that being aware of the newest tiktok slop retard trend - let alone enjoying it - already tells me enough about you as a person that I can safely discard you as a retard? If you even know who the fuck some new fat black woman twerking on TV is, it means you watch this shit because you enjoy it which makes you a retard. If you hate-watch things, you're a retard too.The shit people talk to me about is fucking unbearable and it's not just that I don't like it, I actively hate it. I hate spectator sports. It's dumb as fuck to watch a bunch of black people play some dumb ball game. How do people even "cheer" for a team when it's just a bunch of mercenaries covered in sponsors? I could never understand the excitement anyone feels when some black guy identical to all the other black guys in the other team scores a point and he's like "WOW WE SCORED" no you didn't score, there's no "WE", that guy isn't even your countryman. What the fuck is that? I can only explain it with the idea that they gambled money on it. Like Jesus Christ one time some girl showed me a book she was reading and I read a paragraph and it was just a porno, and a bad one. It was the equivalent of a porno where the guy delivers a pizza. And that person shared that, straight faced, to me, like it was of literary interest. I just don't understand, man, I... I'm not that smart, I used to have at least some respect for a lot of people my age and older, my baseline was thinking other people were interesting and cool, but now I'm not just jaded, it really feels like people got a collective lobotomy.And THAT isn't even the part I'm interested in. I don't give a fuck about media, I don't want to judge people on the media they consume. I would like to talk about anything but media, but those times I forced myself and tried to reach a little deeper, there was just more media sloppery and other dumb consumer addict stuff. Maybe it's because I was younger but it felt so easy to get some kind of deeper contact. I miss my bro so much. Fuck I miss all my male friends. It's not even the girls, the girls were girls, but that thing where you'd sit somewhere with a beer and a ciggy and have that kind of heartfelt chat, not about something grandiose or serious but real, really like you could speak your soul out. Maybe Bukowski was right and people really do fucking empty out>>24725912I'm too tired for trial and error. And I've done the mask stuff in the past, but the mask right now is all cracked. I can't pull that off so well anymore
>>24725926>understand the process of finding a common ground. I've "bonded" with people by simply faking interest.This does not display an understanding of common ground.
>>24725931there is no common ground then. you're basically telling me I'm doing the right thing by being so strict exclusionary. which one is it? the process of narrowing down would stop at the very start in every case.
>>24725937Anon, you spent half that post telling me you couldn't understand why other people would feel a sense of community over a communal victory, that does not mean it does not exist for them, it just means you do not understand it and cannot conceive of its reality for them.
>>24725945No I perfectly understand feeling a sense of community over a communal victory. What I do not understand is how can anyone identify with a bunch of 70IQ mercenaries covered in ads. That's not a communal victory that's like.... that's like a guy getting an Apple tattoo.
>>24725953They're not mercenaries. You're being hyperbolic and obtuse, and that's why other people's sifting mechanisms sift you out asap, and why they live rent free and in hyperbole inside your head. Read some of Aesop's fables
>>24725958>and that's why other people's sifting mechanisms sift you out asapI am not rejected by people... my problem is not getting rejected .
>>24725953>Ronaldo sponsoring entire intensive care units during pandemic>This anon's objective worth to societyIdk if you want pick fights with mercenaries anon
>>24725972>but le celerities make LE DONATIONSholy shit LOL
>>24725966Nah it takes two to tango and you're the one writing a thesis on it
>>24725978are you seriously criticizing me for longposting on /lit/ nowall right nevermind
>>24725977So what did you do? You can adjust for income if you like.
>>24725981Observing you're writing thousands of words of complaint isn't criticism. You are the one investing that effort into this. I have no clue why because I'm not you but if I wanted to speculate I'd say u mad
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