im tired of work, but remain motivated for my promised unemployment time

I miss you :(

>There are several options available
>There are only three available
Why even bother to use such a phrase? Why not just say that there are three options?

>>24787268
I don't believe you.

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>>24787132

I’m in the home stretch of my first novel, but writing it is torture. I hate every second of it and I don’t want to do it. It’s like my brain is actively resisting me when I need to work on it.

I think it’s good, though.

>>24787290
Why are you doing it, then?

One of my favourite diy youtubers just killed himself. Extremely gay. Don't kill yourself.

>>24787298
>Don't kill yourself.
Tbf that is squarely in the DIY remit

>>24787298
who? why?

>>24787347
This but to everyone working in private equity

life loops where your gaze lingers.

>>24787347
let me guess, you lost a retarded argument and instead of admitting you were wrong and learning from you instead sperged out here

>>24787365
no it's because all my favorite threads have been ruined by a resident autist who straight up spams nonstop 24/7 and I want that person to die as painfully as possible
one horrible truth about life is that a lot of things just cannot be reasoned with. a whole lot of things in this world need to be solved by killing but we can't do it because muh life. This kind of terminal autist absolutely should be gassed and disposed of to make the world better for everyone. this is the analogue of violent drunk niggers roaming the streets in internet format, violence is the only answer
And I want you fucking dead too for doing provoking me further you fucking stupid cocksucker. I hope someone you care about dies in an accident. Eat shit fucking nigger.

>>24787383
"the only winning move is not to play"

>>24787298
>you shouldn't kill yourself because your death will barely inconvenience my life
Fuck you

>>24787347
touch grass, unironically

>>24787298
>>24787408
noooo you can't give in to your suicidal thoughts and depression, you must be keep producing mindless entertainment for me >:(

>>24787495
Yes. I liked you alive, don't stop being alive. I won't like that.

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Can you hear the rumble of the coming storm?

>>24787277
Why?

>>24787523
Because you're posting that here. What you really want is attention.

I really hope that I'll be able to get a job as a jewelrymaker soon. I clearly have a talent for it, my portfolio is going along well and leaving neetdom would feel like getting a second lease on life. May God have mercy on me and help me with the job market rng.
In other news I'm gonna emulate bloodborne and finally play it after eleven years of wait.
>>24787408
One must imagine Sisyphus happy.

>>24787541
>I really hope that I'll be able to get a job as a jewelrymaker soon.
Are you Jewish?

I'm so bored

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>>24787132
Shed a tear for my lack of friends. Or I'll have no choice but to shag a queer for that lack of womanly touch. And also. . . spare a dollar, for none of them have I. I'm not on neetbux, but that scarce helps my pride.

>>24787555
No, but thankfully the same is true for most jewelrymakers around here, so that doesn't matter. I am, however, the only young, male jewelrymaker I am aware of. The boomers are all men but the ones below fifty are all women.

>>24787538
That doesn’t follow. Anyway, considering that you have nothing to do with any of this, your opinion about my motivations means absolutely nothing to me.

It's amazing how in less than a decade, trans people went from being a tiny minority nobody really cared about, to the focus of so much discourse and politics. To the point that even people like Notch or JK Rowling can have their reputations nuked for going slightly against the orthodoxy. You usually only see this with explicit racism or antisemitism. What caused this?

>>24787602
jews

roleplay with my gf where we go to the bar but pretend we don't know each other and i drug her drink and take her home and take advantage of her, so hot. don't worry it's all with permission

That Nietzsche reference just made me feel worse.

>Sitting in a double-deck train car going home
>Car is packed full of people
>Log into Snapchat to watch another video of my friend's dog that I couldn't care less about
>Scroll to my stories page
>See Mia Malkova with a sensational title on a card
>See some idiot e-celeb doing idiot e-celeb things
>See this one girl who I went to high school with destroy herself with plastic surgery and fall into mental dysfunction
>Log out of Snapchat
>The person next to me is on a phone call with someone
>It sounds like he belongs to an investment management company
>He almost certainly thinks that I'm a subhuman
>A modestly dressed woman to my far right is reading book; I couldn't get a good look, but the cover felt like it belonged in the pop-science NYT best-seller category
>She, too, most likely thinks that I'm a subhuman
>Look down at the people below me (I'm on the second floor of the car)
>The majority of people are on their phones scrolling Tik Tok or other social media
>Some are answering emails on ThinkPads
>Some of the older men's faces are so severe that they look like the slightest provocation or inconvenience will result in them attacking you
>I remember a time not too long ago in which a young blonde woman who couldn't have been no older than me approach me on the street to sell me something
>She came at me with a bright smile but she couldn't even make it past the first few words of her pitch before my sullen look twisted her face into embarrassment and shame before walking away
>Start thinking about the works of contemporary writers on politics and cultural critics I've read in the past
>Decide to go on the DSA subreddit
>One of the first few posts is about Charlie Kirk's death
>The OP of that post says that Tyler Robinson looks like an incel
>Suddenly remember that video that someone posted on Twitter of them nonchalantly walking passed the body of a dead student when FSU was shot up in April

>>24787680
This but I'm single.

>>24787594
It does follow. I'll give you what you want. Here's your attention.

I believe it is very much possible to speak things into reality. In particular to speak great chaos, and great violence, into reality.

It's merely a matter of saying the right things to the right people.

I miss me :(

>>24787780
I don’t want your attention. Fuck off.

I dreamt the other night of a girl I used to know. Strangely, because that's all we ever were. Not for lack of trying on her part or lack of want on mine. I don't remember the dream itself. I usually don't. Only that she was there. I haven't talked to her in a decade now. Still I've thought about her in the days since. I wonder if time and life have been good to her, if she's found love and happiness and all things I wanted for her. I wonder how things might have been different, how I might have been different. And I wonder if it's not just out of some deep seated dissatisfaction with myself. I thought about messaging her to ask. I won't. If my hunch is correct I have no right to use her like that. Not that she has any intruding into my thoughts. I was committed to letting it pass at that, or to try anyway. Of course, I dreamt of her again last night. I suppose something in me wasn't satisfied with that. I was lucid this time. It happens once in a while. Those are the ones I remember. I can't help but think they're not really mine. We met in passing in a crowd under golden lights strung overhead. We walked and we talked and I knew that she had loved me, but I lost her in a sea of unfamiliar faces. As apt a summary of our circumstance as could be. I wanted desperately to find her. I tried to, until I was summoned from my slumber by horrendous chiming. She crossed my mind again today. I thought of how beautiful she was. Tall and gracile with a smile that was hard to win. Reserved, not of shyness, rather concealment of a certain ferocity of spirit the world doesn't deserve. I busied myself with distractions. It was working well enough until I saw this thread.

Costco is the greatest American invention

>>24787295

I’m hoping my debut book will be so popular I can retire on it and never have to work again.

So I intentionally haven't cleaned my keyboard whatsoever in like 5 years because I like the filth, and a girl came over and saw and used it ahhhHHHHhhh

She asked me to get a clorox wipe and wiped it down, yikes

If something enters your field of vision, but you don't notice it, have you "seen" it?
Like if you're looking into the woods, and there's some guy in a ghillie suit, and you *could* make out if you looked closely enough, but you don't notice him, did you still "see" him?
Not an ESL, by the way. I feel like the answer is no.

>>24787602
Jewish people and their ways.

>>24787816
Economies of scale were a thing well before Costco was thought of

My problem is that I have a long memory.

>>24788029
No.

>>24787132
When I retire I’m going to buy and RV and install lovely bookshelves in it and drive cross country, reading and sightseeing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ES3Luh1w5XA

>>24787602
In my opinion trans-ness is a medical and not a social/political issue. Let the doctors figure it out, whatever is best for the patient

I can't imagine not being able to jackoff ever. Not because of the pleasure of it, that's whatever, but the feeling of testosterone buildup that occurs over prolonged abstinence, it completely changes a man, and, depending, can be be somewhat uncomfortable, like an internal bodily itch that just has to be scratched, a pulsating tension which must be released. Men and the entire world would look different if masturbation were not possible.

>>24788140
My opinion is that doctors should be sentenced to death for mutilating severely mentally ill patients that have no business making those decisions for themselves.

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I feel like no one is going to love me again and I'm totally alone. I'm a neet with no friends and all I do is stay inside, read my books, knit, or play my instrument. My dreams are mediocre at best and they'll still never happen. Oh well

Is it over?

>>24788200
Probably just intrusive thoughts. Humans are violent and have been throughout history. It's not uncommon.

Today in the life of the mentally ill Chinese cosplayer I follow on twitter (aka my future wife):
>the first guy I had a crush on ignored me because he wanted to focus on studying
>all the other guys I know will say anything for sex
>all men are trash and should die
>I don't want to fall in love anymore I just want to work work work work work work
>die!!! drop dead!!!! kill yourself!!!!
>i love my family :)

>>24787298
Telling people to live for the sake of someone elses happiness is one of the worst things to say to a suicidal person.

>>24787298
did he do it himself? lol
>>24787326
LOL

>>24788263
When I was really suicidal my mother texted me saying that without me her life would not be worth living and it made me feel infinitely worse.

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Fucked around all day instead of doing anything productive so I'm spending at least a little bit of time to study for my HLLQP. Currently on the bit where I have to learn about the taxation of life insurance, which requires reading an entire textbook of its own; and yet I'm not QUITE as bored as I expected to be reading about this part of the course. All the jargon added on top of jargon is definitely confusing, but I'll make it. I'm gonna be rich someday soon once I get my license and get to work.

I am disgusting, perverted, sick.

I had a dream last night that I accidentally locked a long haired black and white cat in the bathroom, and when i went back to the bathroom later, it had dispensed all the shampoo out of the shampoo bottle
i guess it kept hitting the dispenser and dispensing all the shampoo out of the bottle

just woke up from a dream where i was some sort of assistant costume designer on a theatre production. i had to make a minor alteration to an actress's underwear, which involved taking measurements of her pussy area, and the lead costume lady was advising me to not act like a creep and i replied, 'of course, of course, this is all familiar to me,' and then had to perform these delicate and confusing tailoring operations between this actresses thighs while gulping and sweating conspicuously. just before i woke up i was walking alone through a wooded path at dawn somewhere in eastern europe with the mountains visible in the distance.

>>24787132
It's possible we've taken ourselves too seriously this whole time. I don't mean this in any diminishing way. It might be that both of us have more facets to this thing called thought than previously realized. It's not about insufferable tolerance. We've been tolerating eachother since the very beginning. Maybe we learned to respect eachother, which makes the idea of tolerance seem very mid grade.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gesy9Iy9HfY

It's been too long since I've had a dream so good that waking up from it felt like I'd gained enlightenment. I know those dreams are real because I've had one or two. Not sure if three. Then as they stay away I keep thinking more and more how I'd make it rich by selling a drug that removes all human emotion from a person. It'd sell like fire among business types. I know someone will invent it eventually so might as well be me. If I was smart enough. Not that it takes smarts to study science. Everything about it is simple, it's just a lot to remember and you need to put in effort. That's why most people will never be rich, me included. It's the lack of initiative and drive. That tempting idea of oneself as a cold blooded tychoon crushing youe competitors, it's not enough to become one. No, that takes work. So anyone who hates work is ironically doomed to remain a worker bee. Unlike those who love work, become workaholics even, they might end up never having to work again. I look up from my desk, forgetting this specific headspace until I look back down. It's not even real, the real me. I don't want it to be either. What a sad way to live if one could only ever cope and gripe about money. There must be more to life if one is lucky enough and lives to see it.

Porn truly kills your soul

>>24788309
>'of course, of course, this is all familiar to me,' and then had to perform these delicate and confusing tailoring operations between this actresses thighs while gulping and sweating conspicuously.
lmfao, that's great

I watch this beautiful blue-eyed and autistic german girl review books on youtube and I think she cured by misogyny.

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I fucking hate OCD lads.
>Every thought comes with doubts to the point I think all my friends hate me, I think everyone is trying to hurt or humiliate me
>Can't write a sentence because it's not "perfect" and end up deleting shit over and over and over
>Takes over a day to write notes about anything because my handwriting has to be "right"
>Can't play vidya because I constantly don't enjoy it "properly" I once started Dark Souls over like 12 times one week because I HAD to do it no-death
>If I ever make a mistake I take it as some sort of moral or inherent flaw and end up biting the inside of my mouth or punching my leg
>Nobody fucking believes me because I don't have "real" symptoms like physical compulsions
Anybody else know this feel?

>>24788412
No. I love OCD. TNT, IT'S DYNAMITE!

>>24788260
Men are trash tho

>>24788435
Nah, not me. I'll be the guy who finally opens her heart. I'm built different.

>>24788439
You're just after the same thing, and it's disgusting.

Should I start using condoms when having sex to last longer?

>>24788442
No way, I'm not like those other guys. When we finally meet she'll instantly realize that I'm the one she's been waiting for.

>>24788455
well best of luck anon

When you come from a poor country and a culture that is caught between modernity and tradition in a perpetual frustration that often leads to death, misery and despair, and then you see people in the West in an even more severe despair despite all their success, you start to realize that our problems today are not because things really are that bad. They’re actually because everyone is a gigantic fucking crybaby. The Republican Party controls all facets of the American government and yet all that conservatives do is still cry all fucking day. It seems to be an addiction for the Western subject to act like this. He found the most success in world history, he got the exact society he wanted, he brags about his superiority over all other cultures and peoples. And yet, he just whines all day about how the Rapture is coming and “the West has fallen” and that Abdul has more kids than him and whatever. It is such an absurd spectacle to witness when you come from an actually struggling culture. This mentality will bring about the decline of the West far more than any external factor will.

When a female smiled at me I didn't smile back. This is why I'm a virgin.

>>24788472
what a strange post

>get back home from work at midnight
>stay up late
>can't wake up before 11
>go to bed immediately
>wake up at 1 and can't fall asleep until 4 then can't wake up until 11
When will this nightmare end
I can work all night and sleep during the day, I can go to bed at 11PM and wake up at 5AM but it is absolutely impossible to get a normal 8 hours sleep at the times other people do.
>>24788462
The reason the west is successful is that people throw a tantrum every time society starts going to shit and power and wealth become concentrated in the undeserving and are not used for the public good.

>>24788174
Online dating exists.

Today is the day!

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damn so many bangers on this shit

>>24788728

wow they gave the nobel peace prize to an anti-communist instead of some leftist shithead for once? vibe shift? amazing.

>>24788625
>The reason the west is successful is that people throw a tantrum every time society starts going to shit and power and wealth become concentrated in the undeserving and are not used for the public good.
This might be the dumbest thing anyone has ever said. Your trantrums have never helped anyone and never will.

I haven't read in weeks, I've been having so much fun with Stardew Valley, I can't stop playing it, lol.

Today is the greatest day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow, tomorrow's much too long

>>24788462
>This mentality will bring about the decline of the West far more than any external factor will.
It took me quite a while to unlearn the idea that weakness was a virtue. Eventually society will catch up, but it will take time.

pleasure isn’t a luxury but an essential part of life. a physiological regulator.

My cousin always overcorrects to note how she can't find me attractive because we're related; I think it's overcompensation because she does, in fact, find me attractive.

>>24788951
>catch up
what, by raising the ghosts of long-dead philistines who thought strength was the only truth? christianity overturned that order long ago. it replaced the worship of the strong with the worship of the good. it took the symbols of defeat - a crucified man - and made them the highest symbols of victory.

>>24788277
>did he do it himself?
Yes. Apparently he researched the best, most painless method. I guess helium.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RSiVrCsVH4

>>24788263
Just don't kill yourself retard.

>>24789095
damn, sometimes i dont get, like yeah, maybe you're tired of living and wanna kill yourself, but have you tried crippling alcoholism or a meth addiction or something instead? maybe you'd like robbing a bank or some kind of kleptomania, or stealing cars or something. like maybe explore the darker side of life just for the hell of it

>>24789097
That's better

>>24789095
>>24787298
WTF. I used to watch this guy. He came up with crazy energy generation ideas and made makeshift batteries. I had a phase when I was researching stuff for off-grid living, lol. Didn't seem depressed to me. I guess you never really know.

Just finished watching the TV show Bosch on Prime. It's pretty good. I'd recommend it for the TV watching anons here.

>>24789240
never heard of it

>>24789286
Hence my recommending it!

Finally finished Prof. Leonard's Prealgebra playlist.

Spending Thanksgiving alone this year :(

I've noticed people will go against a rational idea if their enemy is a big proponent of it. You see this happens a lot in left v right discourse. It's schismogenesis. Another issue that I've noticed is the Tocqueville effect. I'm a noticer.

do you guys use night light mode on your computers or phones when it gets dark outside?

My conspiracy theory is that social media sites have implemented algorithms that measure how long you stop scrolling on something and then show you more shit similar to it. I notice it a lot on xitter. The only thing I use the site for is to follow japanese artists, but sometimes some westerner or elon musk post will end up in my feed because of promotion or some shit, and if I spend more than .1 seconds scrolling past it my feed will get flooded with similar bullshit until I stare at enough shit I like to make it go away. It's most annoying when I end up "looking at" some promoted shit because I hit the bottom of the feed and it's loading more stuff but still assumes I must have stopped scrolling because I really want to see more vaguely right wing finance bros deepthroating Trump or whatever the fuck. I hate it. I just wanna see anime fanart.

>>24789491
This is not a conspiracy it’s literally how a recommendation algorithm works.

Anyone else self-aware? I'm literally typing right now.

>>24789491
>my conspiracy is that algorithms work
Anon...

The powerful rarely have taste and the tasteful barely have power, ideal society is when the powerful becomes esthetically refined