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Nice cat>>24935706
SUICIDE
>>24936360HOMICIDE
>>24936284My old cat looked like this
>>24936284I wrote a novel. It took a year, and was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.Now I’m just worried nobody’s going to like it, or worse, nobody’s going to care. And I can’t separate my self-worth from the thing I created.
>>24936441I'm a nonfiction writer, and I look at it this way: at the end of the day, its you that you have to deal with. Not anyone else. If no one likes it, its their problem, not yours.
>>24936441Set your mind to it that no one will give a shit and you can only be pleasantly surprised. If you had fun doing it then keep going because of the fun. You will not become famous (not even that little bit of famous) or make money. Do it for fun.
>>24938186he didn’t have fun though. he said it was the hardest thing ever.so most likely it’ll be the hardest thing for anyone to try and read through.
>>24938195>being hard means it was unenjoyableBleak.
>>24938272shakespeare said no profit grows where is no pleasure taken.
>>24938286>ignores contextBill was not advocating for non-stop pleasure seeking.
There's not enough time in the day to fuck around and stuff.
>>24938357what we know of the man, he might’ve. but no, he said no pleasure in the marking… none in the taking.
>>24936284Never touch weed!!
>>24938619why?
>>24938625It ruined my life
>>24938628how?
>>24938633My mental issues got worse, I failed to write the thesis that I wanted to, and the girl of my dreams broke up with me.
>>24938638how did they get worse?
Lord Byron apparently fucked every man and woman he met
>>24938694eww
>>24938686It made my OCD worse. It skewed my mind so much that the false worldview created by my obsessions was stronger. I was essentially just leading myself in circles for months until like a month after I quitThis was all at the beginning of the year. Not too long ago I thought that if I cut it down to once a week I could manage. That was wrong too. The same shit happened.
>>24938619NTA, used to hang with heavy smokers in college and it exacerbated my social anxiety so much I became a genuine recluse for a year or 2. Had to relearn all my social and academic skills from zero. All In all cost me maybe 5 years of my life.
>>24938710meant for >>24938686 sorry
>>24938694I met him and he didn't fuck me D:
I need to quit my job. A vile beast like me should not work with children even if i am vile only on the inside
>>24939087are you a man or a woman?
It's probably time to do something of value if you find yourself clicking a web browser's refresh button.
>>24936284White boss who is my crush brought up how she was talking to another coworker who said that my "type" was more Latina", I said I guess I'm partial to that in a joking mannerShe then said why couldn't it be a regular white girl. Does that mean she possibly has some interest in me even though texting has kind of fizzled out? Caught me off guard and I autistically said "I still like the white girls, aren't they the beauty standard". We have made out before but a few days later she basically sent me what I perceived to be a friendzoned text (I said I had fun at her party and we should hang out again, then she said, it's always good to hang out with everyone as friends)Also she recently found out her roommate is looking to move out and has been pestering me the past few days that I should move in and coming up with ways to entice me. What's that about? Surely it's just in jest right?
>>24939622She loves watching you squirm. They love playing your heart strings like it's a game. She wants you to get serious so she can have the power to shut you down and then say "I win!" Don't let her win, anon. And only go through with it if it's her idea and she begs you for it.
I know a guy that carries around his self published book as a conversation starter and it actually gets him laid
Most people I know who've read the bible aren't even Christians.
Im completely serious when I say one of my dogs barks at blacks more than white people. Its kinda funny but there's all these black people across the street building a house
>>24939657They just bark at people who look different than their owners. I had a friend in high school who was covered in eczema scars and my dog barked at him every time he came over.
The only sane marriage for a man is to a woman who makes more money than him.
>>24936284Is it possible to read without actually reading? I sometimes revisit a short story or a book I found puzzling, and upon re-reading I find it is not obtuse in the slightest, I discover elements I had previously ignored. It was as if I was not reading anything at all the first time through.
>>24936284So after effectively ruining my life and making me go almost completely insane you're going to dump me and act like it never happened. All those cheeseburgers for nothing.
>an immense field entirely covered with skeletons, and took it to be a battlefield. However they were nothing but skeletons of large turtles, five feet long, three feet broad, and of equal height. These turtles come this way from the sea, in order to lay their eggs, and are then seized by wild dogs (canis rutilans); with their united strength, these dogs lay them on their backs, tear open their lower armour, the small scales of the belly, and devour them alive. But then a tiger often pounces on the dogs. Now all this misery is repeated thousands and thousands of times, year in, year out. For this then, are these turtles born. For what offence must they suffer this agony? What is the point of the whole scene of horror? The only answer is that the will-to-live [the world-will] thus objectifies itself (WR II: 354).
>>24936284>debt + death = depth
>>24936284I wish I liked my website more than I do
content algorithms are rape. the rape of your attention and time. every time you click on that video with the big booty in the thumbnail you have just been raped.
Sophie Kinsella died.
>>24939774>"Natural causes">Dig deeper>"glioblastoma. Aggressive brain cancer"Brain cancer isn't natural.
>>24940096Everything is natural if you think about it.
I wish I could just be quiet but noo I HAVE to be a clown.
>>24938694God I wish that were me
I miss you.
starting to resent my gf for being such a whore. recently opened up about our "pasts" and I honestly couldn't believe what she was telling me. So many men, and here I am sopping up their leftovers, falling for a girl they used like a cocksleeve with no pretension of commitment or anything like that. i broke up with a previous girl because it was a similar story. literally every woman on earth is a whore.
>>24940632so is this gonna end the same way as with your ex?
>>24940639yes, it is unbearable to think of a woman having been with such a variety of cock... obviously i'm not the most special best boy ever, but how can I even accept a compliment from her without imaging that i'm being sized up against a dozen (or more) other guys? everything becomes poisoned.
>>24940683Any hint of regret on her part when she told you about these past experiences?Did you tell her how you feel or are you just quietly seething?
After reading enough italian futurist literature you start to liquify your heart you learn to goon your will until it bursts forth piercing subjugating impregnating the furious aerial fruit which drips and gushes on the azure wall to the delight of your tongue and nose and eyes you learn to rape syntax defile meaning yours now is the war garden your flowers now have iron stems and you shower them with the divine blood of heroes of artists of hopeless dreamers...
>>24940685No, of course not. This is normal to women. They encourage each other to be slutty. and no, obviously i've been quietly seething ever since.
>>24940694And you don't think you'd be able to make her see the error of her ways or whatever? Or you think the damage is already done, I suppose.
Recommend me some books dealing with hebephilia. For a friend.
>>24940738
>>24940738Anything by Gabriel García Márquez
>>24936284I finished my book. It's... actually good. I'm quite proud.
>>24940789post an excerpt
>>24940794Sure, what kind of excerpt? It's short. Really short. And absolutely experimental but not in the stupid pretentious way. I can sneak a line or two without spoiling the magic. None of it is anywhere online, no one knows anything about it at all. I spent like 15 years developing a unique unmistakable voice, and I just finished it today on its 10 pages of glory.
>>24938286That must be why I'm always broke
I will write the next Great American Novel
>>24940900I remember when I thought that would be me.
>>24940994>>24940900There may never be one of these again.
I wish my parents never told me I was smart as a kid. Them repeatedly telling me that probably caused more damage to my life than anything else they did. I can never ask them for advice because all they tell me is something along the lines of "you're smart, you could probably figure something out". If I was so smart, then I would've figured something out and wouldn't have to ask you for advice, fuckface. I'm not fucking smart at all. I'm a midwit at best. I could barely pass all the GT and PAP classes my mom enrolled me in, and eventually I just dropped out of them and took on-level courses. They just told me that I was a lazy genius or whatever and that I wasn't applying myself when I wasn't getting straight As in the smartypants classes. I almost flunked out of university and just dropped out altogether when I realized I didn't have it in me to pass because I would never be able to understand all of calculus II in a semester. So much time in my life would've been saved if I knew I was a retard from the get-go, I could've just learned to do some blue collar shit and I would've been able to make actual friends in school instead of being an insufferable sperg that tries to impress everyone his with supposed intelligence. My parents wanted the status of having a super smart super successful super son and instead they got an unemployable retarded NEET college dropout. Personally I find the irony in that pretty funny, maybe they deserve it. Yet even now they seem to hold on to some delusion that I'll magically become a tech CEO someday as if I don't spend all my time rotting my brain with imageboard content. The worst part is, I wonder if they were right. Maybe I really was smart, and if I actually "applied myself" as if that term wasn't some meaningless buzzword they used to torment children that aren't getting perfect grades in school then I would actually be a successful person in life. I don't believe it, though, because if I was so smart then I would've figured out how to apply myself. Smart people are wizards who can magically become tech CEOs. I can't do that, ergo, I'm not smart.
Talking to a self-professed leftist about abortion feels exactly like talking to a self-professed right winger about climate change.
>>24941046nigga I aint reading all that>>24940900>>24940994kek
I'm kinda afraid that when I lose my virginity sexuality will cease to hold its grip on my creative imagination. As far as art goes I almost prefer things this way, like that one poet who wrote some of the greatest paeans to alcohol and intoxication without ever getting drunk once in his entire life.
>>24941121Neat. Fun fact, I have the impression that nothing means anything at all because meaning can't be known absolutely, and I create because it's my nature. The sexless paradox of your creation mirrors my nothing paradox where my whole style is 69 layers of meaning for no reason whatsoever. But sex is pretty great. Not nutting, but nutting with passion and purpose.
Vro I should ask that nigga matpat if I could do a book theory channel
Africa by TOTO might genuinely be the greatest song ever made
Help me mother I'm having a nightmare and I can't wake up I...!
>>24941355Its a good song. But of course culture critics couldn't help but paint the song as "neocolonialist". Good thing its used in Rhodesia edits now. The song came out the year i was born. I'm 43.
At times, I look at my girlfriend and I worry about the future of our sexual relationship. Will I still be sexually attracted to her in our old age? And in those moments of doubt I am comforted by the visage of my mother, who despite being well into her 60s I would still happily let fellate me.
>>24936407Yeah, I miss our old orange cat. He was my best friend . ..
>>24941046Just do what I do. Become a solipsist
What's a good book on communism? I want to understand it. I'm from a former soviet state but never got any political or philosophical education at all. I spoke to an American friend who was more studied and asked this and he just said "not marx" . I've fallen out of contact with himI'd prefer more primary sources. Not some modern big conglomerate undergraduate book
>>24936441Well, you got it done. That's impressive. We assume you learned something in the process and, sure, it would be great to get some feedback. Get somebody to read it, someone serious . .. but don't get wrapped up in what anybody thinks.
i seriously want to write a book but I feel like im not smart enough i never got the chance to study english and i didn't get exposed to any literature i feel like im constantly playing catch up people casually mention stuff they got assigned in highschool and its something I'm currently reading (I'm 30+) and it makes me feel like a huge dumbassdid any good classsic authors make a good book explaining go to write? how to actually construct a narrative and what the skeleton is? whenever I look up how to write i just find stuff from modern people I don't really want to read. Their advice doesn't feel right
Stephen King is accused of reusing character archetypes (e.g., the writer protagonist, the "Magical Negro" trope, the Christian fundamentalist villain) and thematic conflicts (good vs. evil) across many of his works
>>24941503Ya
Somewhere deep inside my head it's 2002 and I'm eight years old all the time.
>>24938673>You don't need anything more to debunk all appeals to socialism than the following truth : value is a property of individuals not of things ; it is a man who evaluates, and value is found to be unique in everyone because each evaluates according to his own principles and circumstances.I know there are many ways to argue against a person, but refuting the person with the words of the author they cite is much more aggressive and demoralizing for the individual you argue against. You have invalidated their argument not by any external judgment or system, but from within their own. It is always possible for someone to discount theoretical proofs from outside their framework as fake or not sufficient (especially if they do not understand it) but to disprove what they say as in direct contradiction to their own framework is fatal. From then on they can only posture and pose, but the direct proof that they didn't know what they were talking about remains. I remember one example of a person calling themself a "Platonist in the strictest sense" (exact quote) and therefore being against the death penalty (a punishment), I refuted this by quoting Plato's support of the death penalty. He did not reply again.Therein lies the value of reading Marx if one is not a Marxist, or a conservative book if one is not a conservative, etc., otherwise it is better to be silent because no fool will ever understand a good argument. Only beating their head in with a hammer or rhetoric suffices to tire them out.
Call me Bhenchod Dalitjeet.
What are the logistics of your wife being a giant harlot in her past life? Anybody knowledgeable on Buddhism want to weigh in on this?
I was watching a YouTube streamer streaming a game I likeHis wife was out of town, and he was alone with the cats and said he was bored, so he started a stream, hoping the viewers would keep him companyI don't understand muggles, who have zero creativityIf I were married, and my wife was out of town, I'd fucking love it and would be writing like crazy
>>24941756If my wife was out of town I'd genuinely fuck a teenager lol. Different strokes.
>>24941759You'd get divorce raped and then cry about it online as if you don't deserve it.
I'm a film buff but not pretentious about it. It helps that I don't dress like a stereotypical beatnik
I have to give a presentation this morning and I'm entirely unprepared for it. I'm half-assing my work.
Only winners and losers kill themselves
>>24941983That's fine. The world is half-assing everything these days.
>>24936284so if there's no God/fate or destniy, that means almost everything is pure Chaos and Luck right ? hoiw do you cope with that, put a clown face and keep smiling despite everything?
>be me, a bit of a coomer>get a gf She’s quite a bit more conservative than me, especially when it comes to sex. We’re waiting for marriage before doing anything. I’ve stopped watching porn since we started dating but I do get horny and am unable to do anything about it
The right wing is no longer cool, it is cliche, fake and gay.
I hate phones>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.Well I don't want to talk to you...>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.Plz stop.>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.>RING RING, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.>...>been ignoring calls for 3 months now
>>24942636Mr popular normie over here getting calls
>>24942449what's next, then? Is the left gonna make a comeback? I hope it'll in a non-woke form then
I'll never understand the obsession many conservatives have with "waste, fraud, and abuse" in government spending. I just don't give a shit if $30 million out of a $1 billion program is going to wasteful outlays and people putatively taking advantage of the system if the rest of it is doing what it's supposed to by helping people and providing a public benefit.No doubt it's a red herring by some politicians, but for others and the public who genuinely cares, they're thinking with their cynical, spiteful emotions and throwing the baby out with the bathwater.
>>24942662They are actually from my parents, wanting to get Christmas wishes from me and deliver my birthdaypresents from 3 months ago. But I just want to be alooooooooooone>But anon, you got to appreciate your family. Once they're gone you will regret not spending time on them!No, their negligence in the past deserves no greater compensation in the present.
>>24942677> I just don't give a shit if $30 million out of a $1 billion program is going to wasteful outlays and people putatively taking advantage of the system if the rest of it is doing what it's supposed to by helping people and providing a public benefit.Isnt the argument more "if there is smoke there is fire". Like how do you know the rest of the money is going to a deserving destination?But idc, politics is a timesink for midwits
>>24942685Depending on the program itself and its merits, of course. It's undeniable people struggle to afford food and healthcare and housing, and as for whether X department needs Y program or Z outlay, you look in totality.
>>24942685>But idc, politics is a timesink for midwitsThat's just another way of saying you're well-off in the current system tbqh
>>24941477>he just said "not marx" I don't know why he said. If you want to learn about communism, then definitely read at least some Marx. He a great writer, for one thing. The Communist Manifesto and the Gothakritik are both good and short and evoke the political debates among socialists of his day. If you want to spend some time and effort learning more about his critique of capitalism, I recommend David Harvey's Companion to vol. 1 of Capital: it might seem like the kind of contemporary academic book you want to avoid, but I think it's worthwhile because of how closely it sticks to Marx's text.
>>24942703>That's just another way of saying you're well-off in the current system tbqhSure, but unless you're planning some sort of coup d'etat to get rid of the cancer, I don't think standing in the picket-line with a clever slogan on a sign, is time well spent .
>>24941477You should read Marx because he's the most influential communist thinker, especially for soviet communism. Your American friend is retarded and you shouldn't listen to American communists because their understanding of communism comes down to "gibsmedat fo free" and gay interracial tranny shit with no care for the actual economic theory Marx proposed.>>24942677It's inefficient taxation, which stagnates the economy. Taxes cut into the income that people use to buy products and invest, which is what grows the economy. Ideally governments in a market system should try to tax their populace just enough to provide funding for government services, but not so much that people stop consuming or growing businesses. That $30 million taken from the tax pool could've gone to contributing to GDP growth for the taxed populace instead of lining some corrupt politician's pockets or being used to fund terror groups.>>24942406>We’re waiting for marriage before doing anything>We’reDid she suggest that? Or did you both decide you wanted to wait until marriage? Because women will lead on or "take it slow" with nice, naive guys they know they can use as a provider or as a backup to "settle down" with, while still hooking up with men they find actually attractive for sex. Waiting like that could just lead to you getting cucked unless you did find a real unicorn of a woman with a pure romantic notion of romance.>I’ve stopped watching porn since we started dating but I do get horny and am unable to do anything about itIf you know you're going to marry her, it doesn't matter much if you fuck now or fuck after marriage unless you're super religious or want your wedding night to be extra special. If you do start fucking now, it'll probably help you two bond and stay together until marriage, especially if you can keep her satisfied.Have you ever made any advances on her? Depending on what type of porn you consumed as a coomer, you may've been conditioned to expect the woman to initiate sex, but that is absolutely not how it goes in real life. Especially if she is a genuinely conservative woman, she'll never do anything she thinks would be "slutty". Women expect men to try to fuck them, and unless she's explicitly rejected your advances before she might be waiting for you to make a move even if she would never admit it. You should go for it, don't be too pushy and start with kissing to get her in the mood, and make sure she enjoys it. Otherwise some guy more alpha than you who has no qualms about initiating sex will make a move on her and might steal her from you.
>>24942679At times, I envy the freedom of orphans...
>>24936360DO A FLIP FAGGOTAND STREAM IT
>>24939622She sounds like some crazy BPD bitch who loves to toy with people's emotions.Punch her in the face.
>>24939687>take a date to McDonald's>get dumpedAre you actually surprised?
>>24940632You're not regretting her experience. You're regretting your own inexperience.
>>24941355Sure as Kilimanjaro rises like Olympus above the Serengeti.
>>24941503Archetypes are meant to be reused. That's how they became archetypes.
>>24941964Meanwhile, the wife is fucking some rando she met in a bar.
6 years into 2020s and not defining moment (outside of covid) or aesthetic, everything feels so fleeting and shallow
>>24942863>he regrets not being a whore himself, and doesnt resent the fact that his gf bonding mechanism is fubar due to overuseIdk b, i think you might be a whore woman yourself (a pleonasm I know) who is coping rn
>>24942863A woman's experience is like eating hotdogs. One or two is reasonable. Four is a lot, but manageable if you're prepared. Ten is the absolute limit for normal humans. More than that is Joey Chesnut.A man's experience is like eating potato chips. A few is not enough unless you're disciplined. Many is usually the right amount. A family sized bag is absolutely a guilty pleasure most people can enjoy, but few want every day.
what happened to the cock thread
>>24942932what's that?
oh Louise Gluck
My entire life has been a furious thirst for something that I can’t conceptualize and that can’t be observed or felt physically
>>24936284found some old journals.turns out i have been journaling since a young age but can hardly remember ever writing. pages full of notes and sketches and ramblings. but i finally found when it fractured into a dialogue with myself, when i finally broke. pinpointed to the day and time of day. im not sure if ive gotten better since then, or if i even know what getting “better” means. ive gotten better at fucking, talking, dealing with people and emergencies, fighting, lying, shoving, asserting and imposing, and even forgetting. but i still talk to myself. and the second voice has gotten both calmer but more aggressive.i dont worry about it anymore, i only worry if anyone will find out. but maybe i want someone to find out so they can look upon the real me and not this image of kindness and strength i project in order to exist among other people.
>>24942677People who don't make enough to pay taxes generally don't careSo fuck you
BAP has been posting about birthrate and whoredom and how basically you need to be hornier to increase birthrate.thing is people are fucking like crazy. how else do women get these insane bodycounts? married couples together for 10 years with no kids to speak of. it's obvious that sex has nothing to do with birthrate in developed nation. i'm not sure why he promots women being huge sluts when it's a great torment for most men to know that "their" wife has been with countless other men, bigger men, stronger men, smarter men, etc etc. it merely becomes a question of if and when a woman wants to settle down.
God didnt answer my prayers.Probably is best to pretend that you are alone while you are here.
>>24943299>bigger men, stronger men, smarter men, etcyeah, that was me, sorry. maybe u can tell better jokes than me or sth. i'm not funny.
Made this today.
>>24943299>people are fucking like crazywrong. stopped reading here. you're an out of touch idiot.
>>24943382fucking peaked in like 1973 or something. it's been down hill ever since.
>>24943387yes yes. and this has been covered extensively for a decades. That's what makes OP such an out of touch idiot.
>>24943299have any sexual doomers read that new scott galloway book about men? the wsj summarized it as u should get an education, get a job, and work out, those are the three pillars of getting chicks, once u have that then go talk to women. i'm assuming doomers absolutely hate this lol, but i wanna hear an authentic doomchud take on it.
Talking to a Liberal is like talking to a child while talking to a conservative is like talking to a retarded child. Oswald Mosley if you can hear me please fucking save us
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_SanvUwDtI>she was a 25 reptile and she was straight trippinwhat did he mean by this tho
>>24943395Why would anyone here pay for a book that just summarizes 20% of all 4chan posts?
>>24943395I liked that book better when it was literally every book Jordan Peterson has ever written
>>24943439>payi buy books cuz i have a job but are u aware there are many ways to read books without paying anything?
>>24943464ya but galloway is charismatic enough to do it without making women reee which ironically means his advice might be better idk tho didn't read lol
>>2494343920% of 4chan posts say to go to school, get a job, and work out? that ... seems a bit high. most 4chan posts say to lay down and rot, or maybe become a religious nut.
i'm legit so tired i cannot wait for the holiday break holy fucking shit
I understand people criticizing Stalin on the people he killed, especially those in his army. But there is nobody that Mao killed that didnt deserve it. All those other deaths were from famine that would have been exacerbated if he wasn't there
>>24943492imagine simping for mass murdering dictators lmao get a moment of clarity dude
I can't sleep
>>24943524Why not?
>>24943392Thats a birth rate graph not a sex having graph you idiot
>>24943395you get chicks by getting drunk and going to the club with your friends
>>24943492Utter retard
>>24943524Tried listening to the KJV? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iVcUdDA4yl0I just think of it as anime.
>>24943551Does anon know how babby is formed?
I just realized, as soon as my 12 year old cousin left, was being a bad influence by drinking in front of her while we were hanging out? Maybe I shouldn't have done that. I wanted to be entertaining is all. Otherwise I never really drink, especially not at home.
>>24943576They need to do way instain mother> who kill thier babbys, becuse these babby cant fright back?
>>24943588Silly anon, your drunkenness has nothing to do with your cousin and everything to do with you liking how that warm tipsiness feels
'Alas red men are few, red men are feeble,They are few and feeble and must pass away.'Emerson, 1827
>>24943392look at that boost in the US's hippie 60s holy
TIL that "achillean" is the male version of "sapphic"
>>24943576you can't be this stupidthe original argument was that the sex rate is divorced from the birth rate. thus having sex, being hornier, women being whores, etc. does nothing to increase the birth rate.
Yesterday I finished watching a movie and felt such warmth and contentment upon completion, something I haven't felt in years...Is that what normal people feel in their daily life, hence their complacent attitudes?This I ponder
>>24943658> doesn't mention which movie
>>24943658I felt this watching Meet Joe Black the other day even though it was corny romance sloppa
>>24943675Weird thing is that it was actually my second time watching it but somehow the ending still got to me>>24943683> corny romance sloppaI see. I think it's because a talented director has the ability to immerse the viewer into the movie and its characters, thus allowing sympathy to do its thing
>>24943687>immerse the viewerI have a theory that it was because it was 3 hours long. the sense of catharsis at the end is more intense if you have more time with the characters. same shit happens after a long book
>>24943693>I have a theory that it was because it was 3 hours longSurely mere length is not enough to satisfy the requirement of catharsis.I remember watching Satantango and felt nothing at the end but regret for watching that trite piece of 'art'.
It's a fool's errand to pray for peace right now. God Himself clearly does not want peace in the world. God Himself clearly wants war and chaos. God wants to tear a lot of things down that have stood for a long time. Prayers for peace will go unanswered. We should pray for truth and justice, instead.
>>24943709>Satantangonever tried to force myself to watch it, but I'm assuming it's because there's almost 0 character development
>>24943718>but I'm assuming it's because there's almost 0 character developmentPerchance :^)
>>24942664the extinction of your race
Just got into a heated mini-argument/fight with my mother because she said I should look into getting braces while I have free dental and I said I've never once felt insecure about my teeth, they look fine, so why? and she basically replied eh they're not so great, maybe you should and I said wtf why you gotta knock me down, I'm fine with my teeth and she got mad and said fine don't ask her for help or advice on anything ever again... what??
>>24943709>I remember watching Satantango and felt nothing at the end but regret for watching that trite piece of 'art'.>watching Santantangouh anon this is /lit/
>>24943754>Pages 333Maaan, even reading it would be faster and a far greater use of ones time>Nobel prize 2025huh?? Nobel prizes for books? Nobel prizes for a more than 3 decades old book?? What the heck is their criteria???
>>24943772>huh?? Nobel prizes for books? Nobel prizes for a more than 3 decades old book?? What the heck is their criteria???lol for the author
>>24943748Post teeth or gtfo
>>24943773Oh. I liked my conjured up reality better :/
>>24936284>tfw your shit so thicc and juicy that you can't stop sucking it in and out of your bussy
>>2494358890s movies told me to b urself so I generally stopped caring what people think but it doesn't work when it comes to my sister's boys. I want them to think I'm cool and to hide my vices. It feels biological, not like social pressure but something deeper.
>>24943929Same but it just compels me to buy them wind up toys
>>24943929maybe they're reminding you of your younger self, and what he would make of who you are now?
As of yesterday the word slop has become lame and gay.I'll be annoyed about people using it for about another 2 weeks and then I throw it into the filter or just block people who use it too much.
how to actually create or enter an intellectual circle? i'm at the supposed "harvard" of my country and there are no intellectuals here
>>24943709>tfw love satantangoY'all don't appreciate value for money
>>24943748she's hoping if u fix ur teeth u'll have sex she wants grandkids
>>24940809Just post it nigga
Pedophilia is much more common than any of us would want to admit. Even some that openly are disgusted by it are actually inwardly attracted to children. Nobody would admit it, obviously however.
>>24944206Could be said for any perversion.
>>24944206Obviously. That's why in my book true pedophilia is exclusive attraction, and thus is very rare.>>24944224Hardly.
>>24936284my darkest thought? i believe people actually want to lose themselves to the grand idea of being a slave to an ideology, a thrall to a king, a victim to a monster; we actually consent to the caesars and hitlers and napoleons and stalins of this world... and we make sure to clear the path for them
>>24944206The lowest I ever went was 16 and I was 18 at the time. I can't actually imagine fucking a teen now that I am an oldfag 27 year old.
It seems every update is designed to make my browser more bloated and unwieldy. I hate this.
>>24944230Hardly?You think people are outspoken about their fetishes?
>>24944241>You think people are outspoken about their fetishes?Did you miss the last 60 odd years of sexual liberation politics?
>>24944247No, but that doesn't mean that most people who engage in these depravities are open about it.Think stuff like scat, piss or even a more tame foot fetish.How many people irl have you ever seen admit to something like that? Guaranteed it's less than the amount of people you've met who actually do that.Not everyone lives in San Francisco, in other parts of the world it's still very much taboo.
>>24944252>How many people irl have you ever seen admit to something like that?The last person I had sex with asked me to piss on them and said they were a "pisspig". I also had a female friend ask me to do wetworks on them. It's easy to find these people.
>>24944241They wouldn't be fetishes if they were common is my point. Fetishes are, definitionally, rare and peculiar.
>>24944253That's in an intimate setting.Even with pedos you see them being open about it with their partner, a lot of them work in pairs.It's about being open about it.
>>24944259I don't really know. I've just never had a sexual fetish that is borderline taboo. I chase older women and that's not really publicly scorned. I grossed out a normie girl by admitting I liked MILF prostitutes, but she still spoke to me afterwards and even flirted with me (odd as that is). So it seems I'm allowed to have that fetish. Whether or not the other fetishes are acceptable probably changes on the person you tell about it and the broader culture. I wouldn't publicly admit I fucked an older female prostitute in Indonesia, or any other theocracy. But paedophilia is just universally hated because it's a grey area. If you fuck a baby, there is really no saving you. And we don't want to set a concrete age limit because it's arbitrary and children develop differently. But I guess I'd find it almost normal for a young man to want to fuck a 17 year old who is fully developed. But I wouldn't want to be around a baby fucking monster who wants to normalise his power play which is barely sexual at all.
>>24944256Fetishes actually follow anon's rule here >>24944230 where it's only a fetish if that's your only way of getting off. It's something that you view as an absolute necessity to the sex act but which is objectively extrinsic. Most people use it to mean a kink or foible but it's definitionally something you can't get off without.
>>24944265hehe you activated my trap cardAnyway, I don't know if I'd set that as the criteria for every fetish. For example, a man doesn't have a foot fetish so long as he can have normal sex half the time?
>>24944267It's kind of like most technical terms in psychology where therapy speak seeps into the population. Do most people called a narcissist actually meet criteria? It's the same with fetishes. Generally people with fetishes where it's a compulsive need for it also have other things driven by compulsive behaviour or their fetishistic impulse is so extreme it's causing problems for other people/the local livestock. Most people just have kinks and are more malleable, but with the actual definition of fetish and loneliness epidemic, there's a lot of porn fetishists out there who view it as an addiction because it is stopping them getting off to sex who come forward themselves (even if they're doing it mostly online in non therapeutic settings.)
Serious literary types probably spend, what, at least 6-8 hours a day reading, yeah? Oh how I wish I could do that again.
>>24944263It's all anecdotes but the amount of stories I've read where a woman goes along with some pedos hunt is disturbing. Sometimes they even use the woman to lure a kid.Sure pedophilia is the most hated, most taboo and the one people are least likely to admit to. Also you add that it's literally illegal so to admit it is to put a spotlight on you for the cops to raid your PC.But the thing I was going for was that I think all the perversions have a huge segment of people who would never admit to it in regular company. Imagine someone at work just freely admit to eating shit or play like a baby for fun. I'd avoid someone like that. People are terrified of social exclusion so any perversion is going to have less people admit to it.Also in my country (Netherlands) there was a politician in the 70's who openly advocated for decriminalizing child porn and another that wanted to lower the age of consent to I think 14. And of course we had this revolting organization: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vereniging_Martijn
I wanna touch thighs
>>24944303I already am
>>24936284>kotkot
>>24936284i wonder if most of the posters on /lit/ aren't actually serious about literature. most of them just read for their autistic special interests and don't read systematically nor deeply
>>24944303whose thighs?
>>24944252Where does Cuckoldry fall on the spectrum of fetishes. Let’s say feet are on one end and stuff like scat on the other
French people are so funny. They actually live their whole lives walking around speaking french! Hilarious!
>>24944383There's a book by the socialist philosopher Fourier called Hierarchies of Cuckoldry, if you want deep lore on where your opinions came from
There’s a certain kind of person who behaves in a very superficial way and is very extroverted and orderly but is too timid to directly confront someone and instead resorts to using coercive language to get what they want out of you, possibly because they see you as an other: they make you feel that way, at any rate. I don’t like being around that type of person.
I have a crush on my coworker. Christmas party at job next week. I'm too shy and strange, but I think it's okay. I will not think about it too much and try to keep being myself, maybe we will talk and if not that's okay and I think the crush will pass, but I do like her.
>>24944859I have a coworker I'm extremely attracted to. I've never even had a conversation with her. But I feel a pang in my heart any time I see her and she popped into the kitchen just a minute ago and we said hi. Sometimes I smell her perfume. It all drives me crazy because I am in a long-term relationship and I'm generally kind of a loser. God I hope she gets a job somewhere else soon, I hate this.
>>24944869>I've never even had a conversation with her. But I feel a pang in my heart any time I see her and she popped into the kitchen just a minute ago and we said hi.It's almost exactly like this with me as well. We exchange words here and there, she smiles at me and I smile back. I have a hard time talking to her more than any other coworker because I like her. I try to avoid her but I want to know her more.
>>24944877>I try to avoid her but I want to know her more.Yeah that's the big dilemma to a t
For a man so afraid of death I have an immense suicide complex. Hopefully I get the draft done and published before I get over that fear and find some purpose.Cautious Optimism and Positive Reinforcement or bust.
Do you consider maggots bugs? Are worms bugs?
>>24944947Once when I went fishing I grabbed a maggot. I felt her revolting against my fingers, putting all it's force into escaping my hand until I put her on the hook. Damn, I thought, this thing has no legs, no brain, not even eyes to see, but it has enough individuality to revolt against oppression.
>>24944952Did it catch you a fish?
>>24944957Yes. Then I made a fire and cooked the fish and thought to myself: 'yet another meal no billionaire will ever profit from.' I call that a win.
>>24944952But do you consider them to be bugs?
>>24944961I co>>24944960nsider them raw living matter.
>>24944947Not outright bugs, but bug adjacent creatures.
>>24944963>>24944964Is it a length thing? Or legs? Or wings? Where's the bug line where they're no longer bug adjacent but wholly bugs?
How can an author credibly write in stream of consciousness, not ever having experienced what it's like to be someone else? I find it hard to believe these authors like Virginia Woolf come even close to relating to me how people actually think. It feels more like knowing how she thinks.
>>24944967Is it a degeneracy thing? Or boredom? Or stupidity? Why are you asking this question?
>>24944967Worms have soft bodies, bugs have like exoskeletons or harder exteriors.
>>24944974I can see the logic. Kind of a squishy factor>>24944971This is a philology of common uses and abuses of language board, anon, don't make me question you on your nadsat etymologies
Some rules are astonishingly redundant. Take for example: turn your phone to silent in the movie theater. The theater says it over and over and over. But the people who know not to use their phone in the movie theater don't need to be told, and the people who do need to be told are the people who are going to ignore it anyway. Does such a rule exist for a small minority of people who need to be told a rule and can follow it? How many of those people are there, really?
>>24944982Well I just gave you my honest, free-minded opinion. I consider maggots to be raw living matter because they have life and the characteristics of life, they even have a personality, but they lack everything else. They're basically potential living energy. Now if you want me to give you a plainer answer, I'd say that your question is as stupid as asking wether tadpoles are frogs.
>>24944988It's because otherwise the cinema has to put up signs saying you might be exposed to LED lights or flashing images etc on all movies, which means people don't go
>>24944999Yes, you are repeating yourself.
I struggle to understand the disconnect I have toward humans, there are so many differences in each one, yet at no point does anything feel similar. As if I get a constant shock at all actions taken, never felling familiar. All attempts to explain can at most only express the confusion I feel, no words seem to be able to express the emotion. The very inability to express exacerbates the distress and increases the perceived disconnect.
>>24944988People forget about the rules because they are plain and stupid. So when they say 'turn off the phone' in the movie theater you minimize the amount of people not turning off their phones. No one can say no longer 'oops I forgot' so the ones left will get stared on weirdly by everyone if it happened to ring. It's a psychology thing. You make not only less people have their phone on, you embarass the one who do not comply.
I'm just a strange little meaningless guy going through life in my strange little meaningless way with no relations or importance to anything
>>24945003Maggots are not worms, but they are living beings. Killing them is evil.
>>24945009have you considered developing delusions of grandeur?
>>24945012I do not have the capability.
>>24945007Nta but it used work to embarrass people to comply. That largely worked because of the obnoxiousness of the Nokia ringtone that boomers who would forget they had a phone did. Having smartphones and vibrate only modes changed that. Movie theaters could offer showings where phones are allowed on full blast all throughout if you want, and people would go, but a large amount of phone users would go to the non phone screenings, because they don't want other people's phones affecting their screening. They're okay with their phone addiction getting in the way, but having six other people playing tiktok is those people taking liberties.
>>24945024The movie theater is a dead business.
>>24945027Yeah, that's why people are paying money to go text there
>>24945029The world sucks.
>>24945031It has it's momentshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJB0c7sAcbw
>>24945035So do psychopaths.
>>24945037Cool [air guitar intensifies]
>>24944988>turn your phone to silent in the movie theater. The theater says it over and over and overI'm still seeing turn your phone off, maybe people are getting mixed messages
>>24945041Don't think I'm a pessimist. I'm quite the opposite of that. But if I believed the human thing is the only thing there is, I would be as vain, materialistic and selfish as everyone else is. The world is the trees, the forests, the waters, the fresh air, man turns everything to garbage.
>>24945051POLISHED TO THE NTH DEGREE
>>24945055Stay out of the world PAL.
>>24945057IT TAKES ITS SMILE FROM EVERY CHILDREN
>>24945016Sure you do! Or at least spiteful clarity and existential ambivalence. I have that in spades.>>24945031Nah man. World's great. People are great. Not everything is perfect, but it is always cruel and hilarious. Next time you're feeling down, trip a waitet carring a bunch of plates and watch how much everyone loves it; cruel and hilarious. Just apologize and play dumb after, for their ego. But be sure to steal a meatball.
Mother?! Where are you?! Help me mother I'm having a nightmare and I can't wake up I–!
I haven't had meaningful social interactions in years. No friends, and the only time I communicate with my family members are during social obligations, and even those are distant and awkward. Even living with my mother, I exchange no more than a few words a day with her. I've become so alienated, that being unalientated seems alien to me. There's an inherent contradiction in my behavior as well, since I hate small talk and interacting with people just frustrates me yet at the same time I wish I wasn't so lonely. I'm upset when I'm with people and upset when I'm not with people.I would like to experience the sex and partying and everything else I've missed out on but even taking a step towards that makes me feel like a fish out of water. It's too late for that anyways, out of high school, out of college, and I'll never get a job as a "fun" workplace. Not that I would ever be charismatic enough to get invited to a party, and no girl would want to have sex with me once she sees the scarred and deformed body beneath my shirt. Sometimes I scorn god for this predicament even though I know it's blasphemous, even doubly so since I'm upset at him for not letting me partake in sin. I'm not even particularly religious, but I still feel terrible about it anyways.What upsets me even more is that if I do find a girl who would be with me, she'll have spent her teens and early twenties partying and sleeping around like most women do, so she'll be a constant reminder of what I missed out on and she'll think less of me for having been a shut-in sperg during the "best years of my life".It is such a curse that some humans can have such an instinctual desire for sociality and sex but no instinctual know-how on how to get those things, or worse yet they might be physically disadvantaged from ever getting those things due to nothing but random chance genetics. Most people have to put no effort into just being sociable and having friends, yet for me it feels like a herculean task. I wish I could just turn off my want for these things. Not wanting feels more achievable than ever satisfying these desires for a brief moment. I don't think I could ever be happy. Living will just lead to prolonged and greater suffering for myself.
Sometimes when I'm having a casual conversation with some stranger, I feel the desire to suddenly interrupt myself by screaming, for no particular reason
>>24945228Bro go talk to this guy >>24945148 and start screaming as loud and proud as you wantI got a feeling its a win win situation
>>24945148Dang. This nigga out here thinking nobody has to put effort into socializing. It's tons of effort. Always. As a man with impeccable social skills and a touch of the tism, you can absolutely learn to socialize. I did, the same way someone else would learn about trains or sonic.If you're lonely, get a dog. If you need booty get a hooker. And if you want a companion who is also human, it's constant work always. Repeated work. Start with establishing a relationship with your mom; she has to like you.
>>24945148Why is your body "scarred and deformed?" If you are preventing yourself from pursuing intimacy because the kind that you want will lead to you having to being vulnerable and naked in a body you think is repugnant, then maybe you are using that as a stand-in for some deeper emotional and psychological problems you are having.
I keep writing intros to stories and not knowing where to go with them after that for some fucking reason.
>>24936284Guh
From reading only 1 hour a week ago up to 3 hours today :)However the book I'm currently reading is pretty dense with intricate detail and explications for most of its pages, so the reading isn't going fast; the improvement applies nevertheless.
Anyone else on occasion get Habermas and Gadamer mixed up? Blanchot and Ricoeur once too :O
>>24945332Nice anon! Use your concentration, and it becomes stronger!What you reading now? :D
>>24945348Indeed :) and picIt's great stuff. A real writer's book, especially with Mailer's unmatched precision of description and incisiveness -- it's wild how thoroughly and illuminatively he can paint the textual excavation of any social situation, disposition of a person and their motivations, the macro and micro landscape of a historical moment, etc. I definitely plan on making a thread about it once I finish, primarily to recommend it to others.
Happy 4:20 everyone.
both my balls for a good literature discussion forum
>>24945247You're right, I'm definitely overstating how easy it is for other people. Still, most people have a friend or two they can keep around with minimal effort. When I've tried to engage with people in the past, I usually ended up being the "goober" or "that guy", invited to things as an afterthought or people would only hang out with me because we knew each other since we were kids or because they had no one else to hang out with. Then when I stopped trying to stay in contact with people, everyone just sort of drifted away from me. I was the one who kept checking in on people but no one ever checked on me.Eventually I got the hint that I wasn't really liked anywhere and stopped trying to force myself in. After that my social skills just completely atrophied. My initial post barely scratches the surfaces of my interpersonal struggles. I've had to put much more effort than most people into maintaining connections that are much more tenuous that most people's.>>24945272>Why is your body "scarred and deformed?" If you are preventing yourself from pursuing intimacy because the kind that you want will lead to you having to being vulnerable and naked in a body you think is repugnant, then maybe you are using that as a stand-in for some deeper emotional and psychological problems you are having.My body is quite literally scarred and deformed. Some of the scars are from injuries but most of it is severe acne scarring all across my chest and back that makes me look like a burn victim. And I have an actual skeletal deformity in my chest and spine that I was mocked for having as kid when I was shirtless at the pool so I've never been shirtless around anyone else since. There's absolutely no stand-in for any deeper psychological problem. It's literal, not symbolic. People have nearly retched at my body before. I couldn't even keep a blind woman attracted to me, she'll rub her hands across my body and read revulsion from the braille written by my acne scares.
>>24945398Anon, this seems like a you problem. Let me explain the most autistic thing you'll ever hear. I have TWICE created an excel spreadsheet to do qualitative analysis of strangers to improve my social skills.The first one? I could not leave the house to go to the corner store to buy a monster. I couldn't answer the door. Walmart felt like getting a body cavity search. I decided my life was over, there was no hope for me, and I would never leave the house again. So what did I do? Got a job as a greeter at home depot. Every single day I greeted every single person who came in. This was my job. I hated it, but I had to do it. It was the fastest way to grind. In my notebook I rated the interaction based on a variety of criteria: the effectiveness of the greeting, the reception of the other person, the tone I used, the inflection I used, the enthusiasm I used, what the other person's response consisted of, and how I felt about the interaction. Not ten. Not one hundred. Close to 1900 times. Over and over and over. You know what I noticed in the data? No one cares. The more invested and nervous you are, the worse the interaction. The weirdest thing you can do? Be awkward and uncomfortable about it. You can be genuinely unhinged, but if you do it with blissful confidence, no one will give a shit as long as you smile naturally and laugh naturally with good timing.And the second time? I was on Tinder. So I did something similar with a flowchart to determine how successful interactions with ladies work through text. I am a goddamned writer and apparently periods mean you're mad for some fucked reason. Use emoji. No punctuation. Send them memes.If you haven't done THAT you haven't even tried. You're just afraid of trying and afraid of failing because you're your own worst enemy. And what of me? Got a wife. Got a house. I don't care for other people but they like me. If I can do it as an unwashed feral retard you can do it too.
>>24944947Maggots are fly larva, so they turn into bugs. They're bugs just like caterpillars are.
>>24945455Nta but >>24945455>You know what I noticed in the data? No one cares.Any weird statistical anomalies? Is there interesting data points from this analysis which were not the focus of your area of investigation? Can you share the sheet?
>>24945396>Anon still gunning for the Ottoman Empire
I wasted my youth.
So sad. So lonely.
I said a prayer for everyone in this thread. Good luck.
>>24945505Oh yeah?? Well I said two Prayers for everyone in this thread!
>>24945478Nope. It will dox me and I don't feel like removing a metric fuckton of personal information to share my inner autismal sanctum. But weird things in the data? Making any woman smile will make any other woman who sees this more likely to smile at you, even if they otherwise wouldn't under normal situations. Often people with resting bitch face are fairly nice, despite seeming more hostile, and will let you get away with a lot more unconventional dialogue. This may be a regional thing, but delivering an unexpected somewhat resigned aphorism with a pleasant tone will immediately gain you more trust than any other technique. People dislike when someone is high energy and low tone, and a higher inflection comes off as more trustworthy. Changing your register lower and quieter in response to someone being pissed off will often make them relax, but sometimes they'll go thermonuclear for basically no reason. When messaging a woman on a dating app, minimal conversation is required. In fact, less conversation has a higher conversion rate, assuming you quickly ask them for a date in the near future with specific plans. There are 4 predominant archetypes of response: short and simple, which ironically does not mean disinterested but often busy schedule or simple preference for conversation; reciprocal memes, which is my favorite as I found it has the highest conversion rate; probe for utility with an assessment of capability, which is a massive red flag almost immediately; and entire novel of text, which inversely correlated to conversion rate. You can also tell people no rather directly without offending them if you do it simply and provide a brief explanation, but a long explanation invites negotiation.And not really general, but more specific. Arab and Black people responded positively to me most frequently. White people were generally neutral. Asian people appear negative but warm up to competence and light humor at the same time. And wealth correlated to politeness but has the lowest tolerance to variance, until they hit "outlandish it wealthy", then the trend reversed extremely hard.
>>24945514>>24945478Oh and because I'm spilling the autistic beans, I did thematic coding then quantified the raw counts, where I wrote my observations, and then segmented my data by date, time of day divided into quarters, and season for the initial groupings. I didn't actually crunch the numbers until I had most of the dataset, so a note would get a description of what happened in the interaction, then I'd apply a tag to it after the fact. So, I might tag an interaction like "said hello to a couple with mild enthusiasm and a neutral tone. Asked how they were doing, they replied with dismissal /minimal eye contact and reciprocated the question. I responded with the weather outside is frightful, which solicited a smile and a laugh." This would have gotten a couple tag, a male tag, a female tag, a smile tag, a laugh tag, an unconventional response tag, an observational presentation tag, a positive interaction tag, a reversal tag, a minimal eye contact tag, a two part interaction tag, and a brief interaction tag, as well as the categories I mentioned before ranked numerically 1-10 to one decimal, self reported.Christ. I have never written it out like that. I deserve to be in a museum or asylum.
