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2026 is gonna be my year.

J'aime pouvoir te suivre jusqu'à chez toi, car je sais alors que tu rentres sain et sauf.

How united is the United Union?

I had brief gay (sexual and romantic) feelings when I was a teenager but they went away completely once I turned 17ish and I haven't felt that way since. I've always attributed it to puberty but wonder if it'll creep back up at some point

I read because it is pleasurable. If someone claims to not enjoy reading, it's because they do not know how.

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i cheated my way to 30 books read on goodreads with 8 plays and 14 short stories of <100 pages but the fuckass reading stats feature shows how many pages in total i've read this year and now i don't know how to face my bookish friends

>>24978385
欺骗使你丧失天命。毛泽东痛哭。

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>>24978385
THAT'S
wut u get 4 having
ACCOUNTS
&
FRIENDS

>>24978375
I was thinking about the time I pooped in a swimming area during a triathlon idk why but meh, it's my thought

It's interesting how some books on Goodreads that have well over 4.0 stars and loads of ratings will have a 1 or 2 star review as the most liked review.

>>24978378
Eww a smelly frog

We give that grace to young readers. Big dog, you supposed to our number one... and you're reading like a bum. I bet you better start doing your job :/

>>24978446
sorry coach ima go harder next year i swear

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>my resolution
To get my license to sell life insurance and to start making money and finally stop being a NEET.

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I want this gay retard to knock me up and add me to his gay retard harem

>>24978510
Ywnbaw

>>24978380
I had the same thing. Spent my teenage years repressing the feelings or getting all angsty over them, then they went away when I was 17 or so, then they came back in my mid-20s and I came to terms with them. On one hand, I think it's for the best, since if I was as comfortable with myself then as I am now I probably would have just ended up sleeping around a lot and regretting it later. On the other hand, sometimes I feel like my prime twink years slipped by while I was still too neurotic and repressed to make use of them.
I think if they never came back for you they were probably just the result of teenage horniness and puberty running their course. Not worth dwelling on them unless you feel incredibly horrible over briefly having gay thoughts or whatever.

i dont want to read. i dont want to play anymore video games. i dont want to have more sex. i dont want to do more drugs. i dont want to travel. i dont want to play. i dont want to have fun anymore. i want my life to feel like important. i want to matter. i want, i NEED, purpose.

>>24978524
The US Army is always hiring, son!

>>24978375
My goals for the new year:
>475lbs deadlift
>go on one (1) date
>learn to sweep pick

>>24978537
I'm 48yo

I love god so much. my love for god is a lot

>>24978375
If a chick says that she doesn't really use dating apps for long term. And says that she just meets people on it once and that's it. Does that mean she just uses it for constant one night stands

Also when she says it's mentally challenging and implying that you need to prepare yourself .What does she mean by that?

>>24978375
god my penis is itchy

Just studied for quite a while, like two hours. Now it's time to relax. Tomorrow I will talk to the HLLQP tutor and ask him some questions; and I'll do a mock exam. Planning on taking the exam proper itself sometime between Tuesday and Wednesday. Then I'll have one more module to finish, Segregated Funds & Annuities, which God willing I'll be finished by the 15th of January. Then I'll have to attend the provincials, and after that I'll be fully licensed. Pray for me bros.

Why is Heineken from a keg so foamy?

>>24978376
Imagine how cool it would be if this bald retard was actually deporting the masses of third-world biomass instead of tweeting

>>24978723
>Please understand it will hurt his election chances!
Sadly the system incentives politicians to do next to nothing while promising the world and if the wind ever blows the other way they can just say "Oh, I actually dragged my feet because I knew it was wrong!"

I'm afraid I won't ever get anywhere if I masturbate too often. I want to find a job, have some space for myself and get some action, but the entire arc of desire collapses if I just move my hand for a bit. So moving forward in the world is basically just edging, or, well, sublimation. Modern culture gets you hard and then transfers your drive into surplus value. The more I think about it, the less I want to participate.

>>24978651
licensed for what

>>24978375
Catholicism in the Anglophone world (outside of Ireland) has become a stupid religion of salesmen and columnists, mostly because of the execrable efforts of that most unpleasant breed: the convert.

>>24978770
Most anglophone catholics have very little to do with this, of course, maybe even most converts. But they are by nature passive. Thus the active force tends to go down the route I'm talking about.

I have an extremely low IQ question, for I'm reading a history book for the first time and I'm a bit confused with the phrasing of the chronology.

When they say something like "middle of third millenium BC", does it mean -3500 or -2500?

gallop, poll... gallup stripper pole; NATO's role in untangling the kind of gallpo you need to know

>>24978963
2500 BC

I'm seriously, unironically getting a date next year. I don't care how much it costs or what I have to do or who it is. This is ridiculous.

>>24978782
>But they are by nature passive. Thus the active force tends to go down the route I'm talking about.
It's probably because you're looking at common sources (ie you and the wild convert read the same newspaper)
It's worth pointing out most anglophone countries are not America, and that the American bishops council does some weird ass shit (bear in mind other anglophone councils have problems like, how much witchcraft is just harmless folk religion and should it stop at murder?)
I can guarantee you an anglophone Catholic in a place where St Patrick is the patron of the country is having a different experience than ones in Boston, not least because Ireland and Nigeria refuse to give up old wording for half the rites. Claiming that's a passive fight is bizarre from a Catholic stand point because most active fights in American Catholicism have every other council pulling out papal bulls saying no since the 19th C

Today is the start of my unpaid vacation. Wednesday's the big party. I've three days to finish a book, and three days before I can start reading other things. Last night I couldn't sleep. I thought about reading the screwtape letters, then heard a few creaks throughout my house. Convinced that the demons were present - they come at night - I prayed. Then they changed tactics and I was overcome with lust. The allure passed but the obligation remained, it was difficult to finish but I knew I wouldn't get any sleep until I did. When I did, my body became heavy and I managed to mouth a prayer before passing out. I then slept 'til noon.
I'm going to stay off the cigarettes, start journalling - If only writing down that I don't feel like writing - and find a new job. I don't like this one but it pays well.

>>24979013
>then heard a few creaks throughout my house.
You have mice bro

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I have never really planned anything in my life, even my book was this emergent sort of insanity that worked out in the end. Any writers here have any tips for planning out a narrative? I write by inhabiting the subject and concept, and I learned to do so by brute force, but it's limited by duration because it's an incredibly taxing process. I want to make "nodes" and branch between them, I think. A flow chart of sorts. But what do I put in the flow chart? How do I begin? How do I edit?

I know it sounds insane but normally I just... write. I internalized the structure and practiced so much that I just sit down then produce a fully formed cohesive thing in one pass, so reverse engineering is giving me strife.

>>24979014
I know I don't. I'm also like 80% sure that I don't have literal bat-winged frog-skinned owl-beaked demons flopping about my home.
'Demons' in christian mythology are an explanation for the evil thoughts and deeds that humans are tempted to do. They're othered and assigned a will of their own due to the reasonable human desire to disown their own capacity for evil. Particularly, the impulsive and superstitious people like me find it very easy and natural to personify that evil, and to treat its temptations like an external assault on the mind and soul.

What are these fuckass captchas?

>>24978750
the problem with this weird line of thinking is u equate success in career or whatever as being able to get pussy, but the problem is there are tons of deadbeat losers who live with their single mom in a bad neighborhood who get tons of pussy. you'll work so hard, and then still be single. either do it for yourself, or don't.

>>24978993
Thanks, man, makes sense since the passing of times brings the timeline closer to year 0.

>>24979135
Nta and your logic is right, but there is no year 0. It just goes from 1bc to 1ad
(Lots of weird Christian numerology has sudden revisions when the guy doing the math realises he put in a 0 that doesn't exist)

>>24979135
the first millennium is the hundreds or to put it another way a 0 in the thousands place, the second the 1000s, and so on. not that for anthropologists working on archaic humans and hominids they use bp, which is before present and lucky for us being so close to the last millennium, just subtract a 2000 to get it in bc, but when ur talking about 120,000 years bp 2000 is a rounding error.

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>>24978375
so i guess to cope with this clown World is through nihilism/buddhism or hedonism/becoming an npc or absurdism or God/karma

>>24979157
If you think it's clown world, you already voted for absurdism

>>24979157
Somewhat, but they aren't mutually exclusive.

Whites, East-Asians and a handful of MENAs (preferably non-Muslim) are the only people who should be allowed on the internet. No reason for me to be seeing tribal African politic shit on my TL

>>24979215
It should only be the finns and the japs and you shouldn't be able to understand what noises they are making at you

>>24978375
Nobody wins in a soup

read less graphic novels. i only got to 30 books and that was bc of half of them being manga and shit. feels like i cheated to some capacity

When girls moan when you're having sex or going down on them, are they primarily doing it for the man's benefit or are they really that sensitive down there?

I've listened to maybe 3 hours straight of drum and bass mixes on YouTube and I'm not stopping any time soon. Kasra, Dieselboy, BCee.

>>24979339
I don't know, I have never (sexually) touched a woman.

>tfw my perfume is mouse repellent
:D

>>24978770
all of the apostles were converts anon

>>24979443
Don't force him on the Coptics anon

>>24978537
You can stop spamming this now. Literally every time you have done this stupid gimmick the guy you're replying to says he's either too old, too medicated, or not even American. Are you even amused by this anymore, or is it more a fixation at this point?

Is 4chan that weird convergence of anti establishment views, millennial white male population, pirate politics, a desire for spiritual place, and a rejection of liberal pipe dreams and identity politics? To me, it's fair to say that 4chan is the storm drain capture that takes in everything after the storm of neoliberalism. People from the outside love to scorn 4chan and all its denizens, moralising about it and warning about its possible dangers. But it's really just the contradictions of capitalism that they hate.

>>24978537
Based. Its essence is always metaphorically applicable.

>>24979494
>neoliberalism
*literally everything. There's no need to run it through such a narrow filter, but otherwise that's an astoundingly good metaphor.

I'm not disturbed by this at all, but I used to be an automaton. For some reason, I viewed my ex as easy, clay to be manipulated, or naive. She always dressed slutty and posted her fat Nat Geo titties on the gram. She would initiate sex with me during nights with drugs and alcohol, and I'd barely enjoy her oral performance that eventuated in her getting TMJ. She was dumb enough to think I was some sort of sex positive punk rock liberal, which aligned with her strange rebellion against her Islamic upbringing. But I never gave a fuck about women. I have always been a nihilist. I think what women find very revolting in me, or perhaps aligns with their fears of male sexuality, is that I never believed in romance to begin with. I never believed in love and think it is a myth to explain biological functions. Sometimes, my mind is mechanistic and I view sex as mere gratification of neural pathways. But I've also grown out of this and don't believe I am still the same way. Some women frame me as, paradoxically, gorgeous and sexually virile, an ugly loser and a sensitive soul, a regressive chud and revolutionary anarchist, an entitled sexist and a heartbreaker. I think people just project their fears onto sex, and I am not really anything beyond people's perceptions. A diminished soul, and a lack of wellbeing, made me a moral monster in the eyes of feminists. But the fact remains that they love to please men like me. It was only after I rejected hedonism and adopted civic mindedness that women found me unattractive, boring, and a square. Maybe I'm not being honest about it all, but I see the world through the fractal spectres we throw onto the darkness.

>>24979591
Beef it up to short story length

>>24979339
I think it's more the latter.

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>>24979207
we are in clown world because the next stop will be Hell World/Demon World, people in 2050's will look back at 2020's and say it was a paradise compared to the 2050s
everything will get 10 times worse, from food, healthcare will be only for the rich, the ecosystem going to shit, animals extinction etc

Good morning. You have a new email in your inbox. Open it to start your day.

'Dear Anon,
You are a corporate advertising copy writer. You are commissioned to make a public service announcement for harm reduction related to one of society's ills. The good news: the task is easy, since all you have to do is dumb down one of life's most fundamental questions, what morality is. The bad news: you do not have enough time to do that! So, you will have to just make something that sounds about right. In essence, it must boil down this statement into a ten-word-punchy-slogan: "We need to curtail the prevalence of harm by flattening complex moral issues into calls-for-arms and polemics—which leave out important aspects like agency, motive, nature, nurture, cultural milieus, mental health, historical legacies, and social constraints such as prison size, remand, and court queues, into a philosophical paradox about the probabilistic nature of evolutionary biology, genes, social institutions, and dominance hierarchies." The best you came up with is, "If you think crime is naturally good, then prison is divine!"
We hope you like it.
Yours,
MoralCorp'

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which side you would pick?

>>24979810
>will be Hell World/Demon World
Always has been, because that's what we collectively make it. It's the result of our very own desires, priorities, ways. Only the post WWII world has provided enough illusion for enough people in enough places to make things seem like we'd "transcended", "figured it out" and were going to move into some idealistic "modern world" where everything was going to trend "progressively better" as we "solved" this/that.

The Book of Revelation nailed literally everything.

>>24979810
Anon, the world probably won't fall apart even after you've been in it
That's just you hoping to be in on something big
None of it's big

>>24979810
Boo hoo, cheer up you depressing dork.

>>24979835
Oh. I got this:

"Life already sucks; don't make it suck harder on purpose."

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>resolutions
Quitting porn
Looksmaxxing, start using peptides
Studymaxxing and poetrymaxxing
Apologize to the woman I deeply hurt emotionally years ago so that I may move on and forgive myself.

>>24979878
Sounds gay anon; like buzzwords and self help books. Why?

>resolutions
Making more suspiciously fetish orientated clothing
More drugs
More massages

>resolutions
Discover new porn
Grow my beer belly
Read fewer books
Embarrass my dwindling number of loved ones

>resolutions
Tell more people to fuck off.
Keep my robotism to myself.
Publish another book.
Cum more.

>>24978375
take care of my kids
design something that gets launched into space sometime
read 10 books by people with original thoughts and feelings

>>24978375
I don't really care about the personality of politicians, what they do in their private life, whether or not their personal motivations are "selfish", or whether they are good or bad. A person can be a total piece of shit, but if they have policies that benefit me and the people I know, I will support them.

I don't hate Trump because he of some Epstein shit, I hate him because he destroyed my crypto portfolio with his retarded tariff fear mongering. When redditors insinuated that his tariffs were a distraction to that Epstein stuff, or complain he's trying to pump the market for such and such selfish reason, I would get kind of upset.

I guess that's problematic to some people?

>>24979887
gaymaxxing rn

>>24979919
Oh god I wish a bolt of lighting would strike you in your prefrontal cortex and rewire you into some sort of clown loving savant skilled in Akido and penmanship, but most importantly, unable to use the internet.

I'm a hammer and I'm a sickle, I'm a Bible and I'm a Quran, I'm James Brown and I'm Elvis Presley, I'm Lord Buckley and I'm Muhammad Ali, I'm a Buddhist on fire and I'm an aerialist on a wire, I'm a circus freak and I'm a beauty pageant queen, I'm a doctor and I'm sick, I'm a poison and I'm an antidote, I'm Adolf Hitler and I'm Joseph Stalin, I'm a swastika and a peace sign, I'm a martyr and I'm a cross, I'm sacred and I'm profane, I'm a penis and a pussy, I'm a rapist and a lover, I'm your sister and your brother, I'm Othello and I'm Iago, I'm America and I'm the Taliban, I'm Prospero and I'm Caliban, I'm a messiah and I'm a sinner, I'm a teacher and a student, I'm a chosen Jew and I'm the one who exiled you, I'm a sacred cow and a Muslim, I'm a Hindu and a dindu, I'm a mother and a baby, I'm a soldier and a poet, I'm a saint and a fornicator, I'm a god and a priest, I'm David Duke and I'm Huey P Newton, I'm the filth that you unleashed and I'm the gospel that you preached, I'm a gambler and I'm a casino worker, I'm an Indian and a Pakistani, I'm a preacher and a scientist, I'm a murder victim and a serial killer, I'm obese and I'm anorexic, I'm Benny Hill and I'm Dolly Parton.

Perhaps what makes women truly tick in romance is the Janus-faced nature of male desire, with tenderness and selfless benevolence on one end, and bestial lust for her body on the other. Either aspect without the other would be boring and banal. But the tension generated by the coexistence of the two drives within the same man is what gets them hooked on romance. Probably.

>>24979937
I prefer the Mayfield version
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hCDAfa-NI-M

Lesbian feminist paramilitary death squad liquidates a gentleman's sex club and stages a violent coup detat in the Headquarters of Hustlers. They declare martial law, erect a monument to women's struggles in the form of the world's first giant Labrys, and begin a book burning ritual with every porno mag and sports periodical in the universe. Once they have invaded every inch of the earth to install puppet governments where women rule over men, they try medical experiments to remove the very locus of power from the gene pool: they try to find how to reproduce without men! Gradually, female-only cloning is the norm and any aberrant male or intersex person is sterilised or used for biofuel.

>>24980025
>women are smart enough to figure out how to actually accomplish any of this

Most online political discourse is no longer about understanding or changing the world; it’s not overtly even a form of social control. Instead, it's a wellbeing exercise in managing identity, anxiety, and belonging.

I'll never sell a single copy of my book

Every Day is Exactly the Same

Sex is relational rather than purely biological or cultural or social or economic. The very act of sex is not always reduced to physiological responses, the mind, psychology, cellular activity, neural fireworks, nor biological function. Instead, sex should be seen as a meeting of one or more individuals, in a unity of pleasure and pain that is mediated through fantasy, desire, taboo, profanity, virtues, vices, rhythms, tones, and the holy. To understand how sex really works is heretical against the system that subsists on sexual relations—to know sex is to profess sacrilege against the formation of the political body. The symbolic order is itself signified by the proliferation of sex. Sex is nothing but the sum of everything. We can only bring it down to earth by rejecting the moral cosmology that prohibits carnal knowledge. The tensions of political organisation around sexuality collapse once the power that invigorates gender and class finds its release, experiences its relief. Our bodies writhe in the rapture of religious ecstasy and the fires of desire. Pavlovian conditioning teaches us one lesson: we "cum" to know sex. What lords of sin are free to reign over the monad of sex? What are the virtues of vice? Desire is not a machine you plug in; it is a model species that proliferates in every environment. Sodom creates its own miniature diorama of Paradiso. The utilitarian in all us cries out for a Jannah of promised virgins. We shy away from the horrid truth that hedonism is despair and despair is hedonism.

>>24978375
Move out of my parent’s basement.

>>24980186
You could have said that you are upset you can't have sex with whoever/whatever you see. Instead you wrote this sexually frustrated pseudery.

>>24980045
lmao

I feel like the best memes appeal to people who like quirkiness, intellectual pursuits, battling ideas, tidbits, and maybe even the appearance of learning. Humour makes it easier to remember information; memes, after all, are widely spread data. But it is open access for those that can't read scholarly articles nor go to college.

>>24978375
>picrel
I remember reading that article on gooning and feeling a bit of shame since I knew most of it already.
I don't think I'm brainbroken, but iwas aware of the dude with the colored wristbands, or noodledude, or all the various tropes in jois and pmvs. The worst of it was not that I knew all of it, it's that I can't forget it. Even if I (cope?) about not being an actual fucked up gooner, I know more than enough to think like one

>>24979121
I mean, I think all desire is socially manufactured, which confuses the question "What do I *really* want?" Sometimes I just walk my dog and listen to music and I feel truly happy in a self-contained way. I wish more people could get there that way.

for here and for new year, I have been known to express anger at the misgivings and misfortunes and miss characterizations and angry things of the world. Nothing nothing nothing is fair and I hate it. I hate it since I was born. I hate it since I grew the consciousness to understand why he was not understanding justice and how all the world there is injustice and I hate it now first time for show and first time for everything there are ways to deal with this there are ways, but what I learned from many years of listening to audiobooks and restaurants by myself alone eating the free bread they give you before you have to order a meal and drinking the water they give you before you have to order a drink is that I am someone who deals well in contemplation in a public setting, not ever want to do this and most people would prefer not to do this. In fact, most people are told not to do this and fabulous most people will discourage you from doing this, but I have done it. I have done. It is fine. It is fine that you’re not yell at you tight leave and I’ll tell you anything you were just fine doing it. The world as it is today is not the world as it was yesterday. No worries hopefully no one will it be the world in the future I have seen a few things with my life, and I have lived a few lives with my things and what I have to know is.

>>24980435
>It is fine that you’re not yell at you tight leave and I’ll tell you anything you were just fine doing it
I think grandpa's having a stroke

Is it common for BPD women to just abruptly deny your reality or just say "nup"? Maybe my mother suffers from it because whenever I bring up something that she finds distressing or incongruent or isn't me placating her, she just says "no" continuously. I think it comes from her need not only to be right about everything, but to not have her unstable identity or lack of self challenged.

>>24980610
It sounds like you read a psych book and think everyone's pathological. Saying no is barely even quirky.

It's easy to criticize the nightmare world and degenerated state of society from a distance, like I'm not part of it, but I am. I am. I write walls of text about how the diabolical nature of freedom in modernity has destroyed meaning and purpose and collapsed the world into a set of desires to be fulfilled without anything else, and I am also one of those whose meaning has collapsed, who lives as a set of desires walking around looking for fulfillment. In my head is a great library and its shelves are filled with obscenity from top to bottom. I know it all - the electric tingle of the first contact with some new, more debased form of pornography or sexual gratification, the slow heat rising in the pit of the stomach when one actively does what one knows to be wrong and pleasures in it, the moments of brief howling numbness upon rising from mere engagement with my desires to see my life and my self as they have become. The mountains of images and sounds which now fill me, consciously and deeper than consciously, which influence the way in which I relate to others and the way I view sexuality at all. The key terms, search words, best sites, infamous videos, the ways to find the deepest filth, the manufacturers, the retailers, the designs, the manner to abuse my own body in all the right ways. I believe these are things man was not meant to know, and I have known them, often in the Biblical sense. I still know them.
Often we like to say "but how does this affect you personally?" but we rarely say "how do the things you do affect others?" A man, we say, can do in the privacy of his home whatever he likes as long as it does not trouble society; but it is precisely all of us doing what we like in privacy which has come to trouble society. The population of terminally lonely, isolated young people who descend into the caverns of filth unmeasured by more healthy man, who sink into that sunless sea, now carry with them some small measure of these depths outside the solitary worlds of their bedrooms; with others, whether intimately or not, the image-assocations, the fleshy not-quite-conscious maps of meaning and symbol, they have built in their unbridled, unrestrained pleasure-fantasies now come to warp the manner in which they regard others and understand their place in relation to them. And this, too, has happened to me. I cannot leave my pleasures at the door of my bedroom. I speak with others, regard attractive persons, act in certain ways, spend money in other ways, indeed am now moved not only by my desires, but by the manner in which their fulfillment has changed me; I profess morals and values and first principles, but my acts reveal me to be a sodomite, a whoremonger, an abuser of myself, an adulterer, and a liar.
So it is that, being aware of the slow collapse of what was once good and right in our world, I participate in it as well; so it is that, in a way, I am as deserving of its consequences as anyone I might criticize.

>>24978375
I'm not cool.

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Last thread I confidently shutdown a retard spouting bullshit, and I left for the day after a micdrop comment.
He obviously responded with some desperate attempt at gaining ground, but I refused to check my (You). I am the better man and his hollow words shall never find my ear.
God I'm cool...

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Sanna my love.

I just got my first hardcover. Is the dust jacket supposed to be separate? Really uncomfortable to hold it together.

>>24981071
You're supposed to take the dust jacket off while you're reading it, its only supposed to go back on when either sitting on a shelf or set somewhere and not being read.
I hate dust jackets, I prefer the leather bound hardcovers.

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I'm going to start self-publishing the story I've been working on for years, next year. I've got a website ready to house it and everything, I'm just putting the last few finishing tweaks on it. Also, waiting for the holidays to die down. Things should be ready to go by January or February.

This is the moment of truth. I developed the beginnings of this story when I was a senior in high school. Now I'm 38, soon to be 39. I started writing it in earnest in 2020, hunkering down to write while everybody was shut in during the pandemic. Now I've got hundreds of thousands, maybe even millions, of words of it done, and I'm finally ready to start releasing it after being advised no major publishing house would touch it due to its experimental nature.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't afraid. This story is the work of my life, the tale I feel I was born to tell. What if nobody likes it? What if it gets no audience, and nobody reads it? I have a decent social media following that I can use to promote it, but what if it's all for nothing? This is the work of my life, the thing that fulfills me like no other. The idea of it being met with deafening silence is a haunting one for me.

I have a buddy who's been reading it for years, basically being my beta reader for each new installment. He thinks I'm a genius and I've written something great. Other people seem to think I have real talent, too. But will it translate into an actual audience? I don't know. But I've got to try. I've come this far.

>>24981080
I'll start hating it too. Seems like another thing to misplace eventually.

>>24981084
>millions of words
You made some garrulous slop huh?
How exciting...

>>24981024
Literally just stop. Its not hard.
>t. 300 days SR

>>24981084
I'm interested. Are you going to tell it here? What if I'm not here when you tell it?

>>24981092
I still own books with dust jackets, With more modern books its hard to get leatherbound and I'd rather have a hardback than a softback. But you'll get used to them or find strategies to use them. I know some people who have a public reading space generally store their dust jacket in an empty draw near by if the bare hardback book is aesthetic enough.

>>24981084
>Still cares what the zogled masses think

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>>24981104
If only that was all I had to worry about. These days not jerking off is just as dangerous as doing it.

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>>24981141
I don't know. I don't really want to shill it here. My hope is that if I shill it on Facebook, Twitter, and Substack instead, people will notice it enough to make threads about it here, and I can just enter them without being accused of blatant self-promoting. I'm afraid of making threads about it on here myself.

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>>24981153
>Doing something retarded and dangerous is le exact same as not doing something retarded and dangerous
You are retarded and dangerous

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My friends want to make a video game and they invited me to write the story for them because they think I'm erudite. And they probably think that because I used to run a dungeons and dragons campaign.

I said yes cause I'm a pushover, but I have no idea what to write, or how to write it. Any book recommendations on how to write a story would be welcome.

>>24981160
There are other things to fear.

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>>24981163
>You can only care about one thing at a time because uhhh.... i have seen some things that no one should see, or something
>I'm not coping by spout pseud one liners to defend my inability to simply stop watching pornography because....I'm just not ok?!?!

>>24981168
nta, but I honestly struggle with online pornography and impulsivity because of a brain condition that people are constantly telling me isn't real despite the fact that the dysfunctionality of that condition touches every part of my life.

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>>24981169
Get addicted to liquor like a man, not pixels of tits.

>>24981171
I wouldn't say I have a drinking problem but I do drink way too much when I do and it does spike my anxiety the next day. So this isn't helpful advice, more just adding fuel for the fire. Then you wonder why no one takes you seriously in other avenues of life like politics. Because frankly, you don't know what its like to live yourself.

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>>24981175
>Addicted to porn AND alcohol
Pick a struggle, man.
And what the fuck is this about politics? As if you know anything about who I am and what I believe in? Well I'll tell you I believe you are using excuses to wallow in self-pity. Its not your brain condition, its not the people who think its fake, its not me clowning on you, its all authentically you. Go visit >>>/x/srg and build a little self-respect. https://ia802800.us.archive.org/19/items/TheCoiledSerpent/The_Coiled_Serpent.pdf

>>24981196
Would binge drinking be considered an addiction? I didn't bother reading the rest, nothing of value in it.

>>24981205
Binge drinking is unironically less harmful than pornography

>>24981208
Well I'd like to do neither and so far there really hasn't been an practical advice than the weird attempt to illicit shame, which only works when people deny their addiction, and then a fucking woo-woo wizard book. Which is ironically no more helpful than the Christian self-help books on pornography, and I say this as a Christian.

>>24978762
Sucking cock

>>24981212
So you are also a faggot liar who did read the rest of the post. Literally just stop watching porn, its easy. I will give you ONE more resource https://www.scribd.com/document/593329636/The-EasyPeasy-Way-to-Understand-the-EasyPeasy-Method and if you manage to find fault in this one too please let it be a sign that you aren't not denying shit, and cannot imagine a world without your vices.

>>24981217
>so you are also a faggot liar who read the rest of the post.
Just more proof you know less about life than you portray if you think that a fucking url in a sentence doesn't draw the eye for how unnatural it looks in a sentence.

>>24981217
>https://www.scribd.com/document/593329636/The-EasyPeasy-Way-to-Understand-the-EasyPeasy-Method
Doesn't work, tried it, its more bullshit.

Jews won.

>>24981227
Honestly they did, Large swaths of Europe and all of America are fucked, only place that will have any white people left in probably the 100 years will be in Asia where they ban 3rd world immigration.

>>24981162
Did they give you any pointers or anything. What is the game going to be about, a genre, are there any specific mechanics they want?

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>>24981230
They've all been playing isometric rpgs like the Pathfinder games and fell in love with them and that's what they want to make. They also liked the dnd games I ran and basically want to recreate their experience in a video game. They want me to be in charge of story and thematics and art design.

But running dnd is completely different from writing a story with characters. Most of the time I made stuff up on the spot and they didn't know any better. The genre I suppose would be medieval fantasy adventure, but I can't just write a story that's just "THERE ARE GOBLINS IN THE NEARBY RUINS, GO KILL THEM FOR GOLD". I need a crash course on how to write an interactive novel basically.

>>24981227
>>24981229
Stop moping and go to the shooting range more often.

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>>24981221
>I didn't read the rest
>except for the the link which just happens to be half of "the rest"
I don't claim to know shit. I don't claim to be trying to make you feel shame. Of course you'd know that if you read the other half of the post; that you don't know shit about who I am or what I believe. And at this point, I can't even claim to be trying to help you. You are a cancer eating away at its own host.
The problem doesn't stem from your brain condition, its not the people who think its fake (its clearly real), its not me clowning on you, its all authentically you; and you'd know that already too if you had any respect for our conversation and my attempts to pull you from the abyss, and actually read the other half of my post. I am left with only prayer that you realize you are actually in deep denial about your addiction, and also about how your mental health is correlated to it, and that find the strength to help yourself, because them and Jesus might be the only ones left who can.

One of my front teeth is becoming loose. It's so over bros. I will surely have to get it pulled within the year. The real question is if I know anyone who will loan me 3k-5k to get a replacement.

>>24981237
Do any of them have coding and game design experience? Do they start collaborative projects frequently? Do they follow up on them?
This just sounds like your friends are hyped by a new thing thing they found and will soon be bored with it, forgetting about the game in the process. Don't sweat it.

>>24981256
Two of them have coding experience. One of them has been talking about making games for a few years now. They seem very excited, yes. They are dead set on at least making a prototype, and see where that takes us.

I don't want to be a debbie downer, so I want to at least make the effort with presenting them an acceptable story.

>>24981240
>Just shoot some heckin guns partner!!
Fuck you nigga

>>24981266
It's either that, or you are going to have to figure out how to dismantle the entire surveillance state. You either take it apart, or wait for the State of Exception and be ready when it comes.

A lotta wumao on this board.

>>24981227
>>24981229
Recently my consolation has been that Isreal has completely eradicated an entire population of pesky browns in the most brutal ways fathomable and nobody IRL even cares anymore, "The Palestinians" have been written off as another woke-scold thing. The inevitable solution to the migrant problem in the west will be much more peaceful and way less personally cruel, as it will literally only be safely sending them home, so I don't imagine there will be much of an upset against it if Whites could just buck the fuck up and do something I think most would fall in line.

>>24981357
The difference is that the cultural and intellectual institutions are controlled by Jews and progressives with an outright hatred or white people. In critiquing Israel, there was a lot of ambivalence and tension that wouldn't exist in a criticism of a Western "genocide" (mass deportation). Many leftist academics even tried to condemn Israel either in the sense that
>Jew are actually um, white people technically so um, it's like, white supremacy therefore white people bad
or
>Israel is a western colony and therefore this is an extension of white western imprerialism and therefore white people bad
The dialectic is much clearer in a case of the West fixing itself. You must literally kill every single so-called leftist academic on earth first to prevent narrative control that will ruin whites in the long term.

>>24981358
A good example of this is the recent Somalian fraud thing in MN. Everybody knows sub-Saharan niggers, especially Somalis, aren't nearly smart enough to conduct something like that their own and Jews and treasonous Whites obviously helped them. The utter disrespect and entitlement third worlders carry about them is absolutely a learned behavior, they know they'll get away with anything. If Whites with agency seized power and took care of the CEO's, oligarchs, especially the Judges, and even on a smaller scale the Landlords, Hotel agencies, and Catholic institutions that are housing illegals in Apartments five-star luxury hotels, the migrant populus would be more inclined to comply and the outliers would be dealt with separately. Obviously this is a total pipe-dream but I have some amount of hope

I haven't shit in like 10 days. Please, laxatives, work today or else I'm really going to start to worry...

>>24981379
By the 330 million gods of India you will shit sir

I never liked The Wizard of Oz. I always found it exceedingly creepy.

>>24981357
>has been that Isreal has completely eradicated an entire population of pesky browns in the most brutal ways fathomable and nobody IRL even cares anymore, "The Palestinians"
You mean the people where nearly 50% are married to girls as old as twelve? How terrible!

>>24981422
The book is even creepier

Does "it" habe autism? It eats one clown and then it uses that disguise for everything. Put a billion balloons everywhere, sure is funny.

>>24981433
Yeah lol I don't give a fuck about them. I called them pesky if you'd read the post

>>24981413
Phew, Christ almighty, I finally went, and 40 minutes before I have to go into the city for the day too. Thank God, thank India, and thank you, anon. I usually try to make sure I go by the 7 day mark with laxatives but this time it got away from me. Thanks for your blessings, couldn't have done it without you.

32F outside and I lost my gloves last winter, fuck. Not looking forward to today and all the walking around and bussing.

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>>24981259
So fucking jealous. I am literally storyboarding a crazed game that will never be made because I am not talent at game design. I don't even want to share what it's about because it'll break my heart if someone else makes it. I'm an author of weird shit already; so jelly.

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>>24981535
Already filtered your worthless waste of board space niggerfaggot

>>24981535
Why? Just chill you retard. I don't care who that is or whatever you're mad about.

>>24981528
I'll still ask, what game are you trying to make? And how did you come to be an author?

>>24981379
get your health checked out
shit's not normal

I love reading on my phone. It looks like I'm doomscrolling but I'm not, I'm getting my brain to expand. We are not the same.

>>24981686
First person grid based roguelike dungeon crawler with turn based rpg mechanics. I'll share some of the details. It has an elaborate meta "world tendency" system on a few different axes that will change the nature of the world, the appearance of npcs, what loot spawns, and how they interact with you which should be neat. The plot is what I'm excited about and hesitant to share, but no one has the sauce that I do. It's about various fantasy characters that are actually personified household items separated into biomes, but the part no one can steal is how I'm doing it. Grimdark, absurd, post-modern, but deeply "human". Starts off with a big dramatic battle where the baddest bad guy is about to defeat the goodest good guy, but the wizards on the good guy's team finish casting a spell in the nick of time that traps the baddest bad guy in a phylactery, at the cost of also trapping the goodest good guy. Hundreds of years later, factions are vying for a sacred McGuffin and it's up to the hero (one of a few prefab classes) to traverse the world, unravel the mystery, make friends, and choose good, evil, maybe neither, or maybe both. Who knows.

But the author part? I wrote some stuff and got it published. Then that snowballed. Moved across genres a bit, now I do a fair amount of ghost writing and idea generation. Not enough to make a living, but enough for a couple bucks here and there.

I spend too much time here and this site needs to cool down from the Xitter faggotry before I come back. I have a lot of books that need to be read anyways. I'll see you guys sometime in 2026. Thank you for your attention. Yours truly, Anonymous

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>>24981764
I'll be here on Saturdays only in the coming year. Please be here then.
My heart can't go on for too long with your absence.

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>>24978375
>we are living in such a dystopian nightmare you can have your life fucked or even jailed for words in Europe/NA/Australia/China or Russia

imagine going back in time 200 years ago and telling your ancestors something like that, they will think you are in Hell

>>24981701
It's a side effect of the daily medication I take, constipation. I just have to keep track of my movements on my own and make sure to use a laxative in order to make sure I manually get the process done. Plus a stool softener daily helps a ton.

>>24981876
okay let's try it
>travel back 200 years ago
>"Hey guys, you know God isn't re--"
>is burned at the stake
damn, things really were so much better then, the West has made no progress at all

-_-

anon get real

>>24981908
In 1825 you could absolutely be a committed atheist and no one would care.

>>24981908
200 years ago was probably better than today, people wouldn't ask or talk about god it would be just assumed you believed and there would be nothing to talk about in that aspect.
You can keep all your technological progression if you prefer to live in this unnatural and inhuman hellscape.

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>Don't talk about those books!

>>24981490
>what happens to liberals and conservatives
These are loaded terms that cover a lot of idealisms, but I'll try to answer your dishonest question.
-Liberals: These people are supposed to be pro-liberation. Mere days in the anarchist world an honest liberal would be stunned speechless with how well things work out
-Conservative: The social distrust of others might make them seek their own company making some places resemble Amish communities of one sort or another. But they'd be just as stunned at how well it worked and how conservative-wonderland it looks
>if someone tried to hire labour for a wage
LAUGH OUT LOUD. Who would want work for worthless things that no one is trading in anymore?
If you have some gold coins and someone wants to work on something for you to get them, you can shake on it, or you can tell him no thanks. In any case you're both free to eat well and get some dental cleaning etc.

>Exile or death
If the community finds they're being preyed on by a psychopath serial killer or rapist, something like that, they catch them and are free to judge him as they see fit.

>Tyranny of the majority
Oh noes! The majority help each other steer society? For once. Never have we seen this on the mass scale anarchists prescribe.
This "tyranny" btw lets you alone if you don't want to participate. If you want to be a drifter snagging the free food here and there as you travel the world. No one watching you, no one stopping you. Except a community that makes you do a little labor for the room and board, but you're used to sleeping under the stars by then, I'd think.

>>24981843
You know that another word for money IS capital, right?
Money is a part of a superstructure of the economics called capitalism. Pull that component out of the machine and it all collapses. The shared-economy uses no money and cannot be rightly called capitalism. It would lead to an actual free market.

>>24981856
Absolutely. Marx is a statist. All statism is chud.

>>24981982
You couldn't hold office in most European countries or U.S states and your choice of friends and acquaintances would be very limited. Of course you could just lie and swear your oaths to things you don't believe, but that's just being a scoundrel.
>>24981876
200 years ago the Tsar would definitely imprison your for publishing something bad at him. Same for all those places except a specific part of North America and Australia (because Iirc they didn't have a printing press there at the time).

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https://youtu.be/ulSZo9EAYVw?si=k2wMKJ4WtDyJ_RLg

My past - Live fast
With angst - In the bank
But it was no fuel
Not future's tool

My present - Good heavens!
Don't ask! - Don't, Today
For Today - You have a way .
(That frustrates ol' me)

My future - What gives?
To you - I must live

Mending todays .

I don't understand how reading is seen as a rare (and even "intelligent") hobby, meanwhile ~60-70% of the population state they read books. How can both of these things be true at once?

>>24982403
Because they are lying or reading comics or manga complied into a book, so its a "book". Also, yeah its kinda funny to think about when you put it like that.

>>24978375
I have ADHD but I want next year to be a heavy reading year, what strategies do you use to sit the fuck down and read?
Did you always like reading? If not, how did you end up enjoying reading?

>>24982357
>Tsar would definitely imprison your for publishing something bad at him.
You probably mean "about him". But I will point out it didn't have to be about him: a Russian biblical scholar once published a book on Nebuchadnezzar, but phonetically Nebuchadnezzar sounds similar to "ne bog i ne tsar" or "no god and no tsar", so he got shipped to Siberia

>>24981024
>all that text
It's just the jews. It is, literally, always, the jews. Any problem you might see in the world and your life? The jews. It's a law of the universe. Woke up with a headache? If you dig a little bit you'll discover that even that happened beacuse of the jews. It really is like that. Almost crazy how simple and predictable it is, but that's really how it works. The jews.

>>24982519
Unbelievably based and I actually think this way. Just last week my Skyrim save bugged and I spent thirty minutes using console commands to reset radiant quests. What do you know, I shanked a jew to death on my way back home from work.

It's not a resolution because I don't know what to do to get it (other than the obvious thing I'm not willing to do) but will write it as a challenge.
One day you'll laugh at my hot water bottle. Will be astounded by the burns I used to get by holding it too tight. Maybe you'll even claim it's like a vibrator at its core, a replacement for man warmth, and you won't be much wrong.
But you will also know how painful the cold is for me, how miserable and desperate I get in the winter. You'll feel sorry, of course, but won't hesitate to use it. I should be angry, being manipulated like this, but in your arms there's no ability to feel such emotions.
The next best thing to your heat would be your weight. As a part of nature, you'll be taller and heavier than me and this anchoring to the bed, not being able to get up, makes me feel so safe.
It's funny, that I cannot like guys, even he attractive ones, because they're too dumb and boring. If you cannot read the day last a thousand years for me, or debate minute opinions well, or being minimally politically informed, you could be the next Dicaprio and I would be a bit disgusted
But the funny thing is that my own rigid, structured, demanding mind completely shuts done when it's good.
You're not real, and probably never will.
I thought writing softcore erotics would be fun but it's just frustrating.

>>24978376
>the first to master the automobile
Germany
>the first in flight
Brasil
>the first to harness the atom
Germany again
>the first to land on the moon
with UK help

Yeah, that'll be an alternate history.

>>24982594
He's essentially saying if after WW2 America just never opened its borders and secured its south border early.

>>24982625
but think of all the cuisine they would miss out on???!!?

>>24982651
Can't stop the slop!

>>24982508
Can't have shit in Russia.

I miss you. I hope we’ll talk again in the new year.

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Man, why is every postwar french thinker such a charlatan? was the Nazi occupation really THAT bad for the french psyche?

>>24982754
Beauvoir got fired by the Nazis from the girls school she was teaching in for being too much of a pedo

>>24982754
>Me no like=charlatan
Philosophy is done if you hadn't noticed.

After every sincere act of love, friendship and camaraderie, a frustrated howl can be heard deep below the Earth, from its sulfurous depths.