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Youtube is down. Even the gods are telling me to shut up crackers ass up and pick up the book
>>25095162I'm writing something and I want to join a writing scene but nobody can point me anywhere except "Dimes Square" which is already dead. and no don't tell me to go to the /lit/ schizos they don't produce anything
I can’t stop reading trashy horny romance novels. Rina Kent has taken over my life. What the fuck is going on
Just woke up from a dream where my eyes were rotten like eggs.
The proper way to wash your hands is to first wet your hands with water then apply soap and lather for at least twenty seconds and finally rinse thoroughly.
I keep spacing out with my gaze on someone, lost in thought, only to have them turn and look right at me and catch me staring. It's not even that I'm trying to watch them, when I think in public, I like to look up, and my eyes are naturally drawn to people.
Thinking I need to give The Screwtape Letters a read sometime soon.
I rubbed a bit οf toothpaste in my nostrils so I could eat my girl out and this shit still stings 2 hours later
I wish I were more creative but I’m a born grinder, I come from a lineage of farmers.
i know it’s still early doors but i’m calling it: this is the worst thread yet
Just got CK3 and all its DLCs.
>>25095337I must be missing something here. Why did you do that?
>>25095385his gf must smell bad. whole scenario doesn’t sound nice
It would appear that everything I say is genius and more geniuser than what other people have to say.
>>25095387There's a video of a dude puking from the smell after a prostitute takes off her panties. I think it's been posted on /gif/, forgot where I saw it.
>>25095403i’m good
>>25095387She doesn't smell "bad", she just smells like crotch BO. Literally the same smell as the hair above my cock after a day or so.
>>25095434You living in the Alaskan wilderness or something? Showers. Baths. Soap and water.
Saw a nigger swiping on tinder from a balcony and then he watched porn
>>25095434If you don't like how she smells how can you like her?
>>25095465Girls naturally smell.
>>25095434this is like the ugly couple at school who are way too into pda except you’re doing it over 4chan
>>25095456muh dik
me when i get CK3 and all the DLC: >>25095366
>>25095482CK3 ? Is that a rapper or something?
after an 8 year streak of not reading a single book, i'm on month 3 of reading obsessively, all lit fic. I've found that I read slower and less engaged during the beginnings of novels while I get used to the author's style and try to remember characters and shit. I'm trying to tackle that by reading only short stories for a while. I'm reading 5 short stories books at the same time and desu I'm having way more fun doing this than just reading 1 novel at a time.>>25095247rec me your favorite desu. I've never engaged with that 'genre' at all but I hear it trash talked all the time. I gotta decide for myself>>25095456never used a dating app but I'm not surprised by that sequence. No matches, fap instead
>>25095537what books of stories are you reading rn anon? I'm reading The Voice Imitator by Bernhard at the moment, on a bit of a short story kick myself
>>25095162I took the less traveled path since I was already lost and jungle women are superior to the civilized roasties in the villages.
>>25095540I've got woodcutters in my to-read list, can't remember why. Haven't read anything of his yet, good shit?Right now I'm doing>Complete Stories - Clarice Lispector>First Love and Other Stories - Ivan Turgenev>Cathedral - Ray Carver>Bad Behavior - Mary Gaitskill>My First Book - Honor LevyI'm having a great time with the first 4, but the Honor Levy book isn't doing anything for me. If I'd known she was a dimes square affiliate I probably wouldn't have picked it up, but I guess I'll finish it anyway just to see the current state of this type of net-art lit thing
does it really matter what you name characters? for me as a reader i’d say no, once i get used to them. but i picked some names on a whim in the piece i’m writing and now i’m attached, any other name sounds wrong, except they don’t really fit the ‘scene’ they’re living in.
>>25095598Different names have their own music, connotation, and tone. Look at the names Pynchon chooses for his novels. Perhaps an extreme example, but you get the idea.
>>25095603what’s your name?
What would you guys do in this scenario I witnessed at the library: every so often, there will be a crazy guy in the section I like to read in (the Fiction section), where there's other people doing their homework or whatever. The one today was behaving aggressively to whoever looked his way, cussing them out, threatening to beat them up. He called one girl a bitch. If you were that girl's boyfriend, what would you do? Most would probably immediately say "oh, you stand up for her!" but the problem is a) these people who act crazy and aggressive in public like this, you don't know how they're respond, especially since they both have nothing to lose and have no sense of consequence, they could end up stabbing you or worse, and b) even if you somehow manage to not get your asskicked, brain damage, facial disfiguration, you'd be risking getting banned from the library for getting into an altercation, and for what? Totally not worth it.Of course, all men want to stand up for their women. I'm just saying, if I were that guy, and the crazy guy accosted my girl, I really don't know what I do, because it seems like a lose-lose. Plus, the guy beats your face in, your girl leaves you for being disfigured anyway lol.
>>25095607Tien.
>>25095613missed an ishmael joke there
Feels like I'm coming down with a cold. I'll be out of action for a month I reckon.
>>25095618a cold takes you out the game for a month, what are you vegan or something?
>delete instagram>avoid porn>but keep scrolling through xitterI don't know what I expect to find in that god forsaken site, I used to follow artists but its always some vagueposting nonsense.
>>25095617oh okay lemme try againTi-en: the tip of my tongue taking a trip of two steps down the palate to tap, at two, on the roof of the mouth. Ti. En.He was Ti, plain Ti, in the morning, standing five foot eight in one sock. He was Tien in sweats. He was Alex at school. He was always Tien Nguyen on the dotted line. But in my body, I am always Tien.better?
>>25095621I smoke.
>>25095627fair play
>>25095628crack
>>25095631Anyway, to that point, Lolita wouldn't work if her name was, I don't know, Teresa, and HH was, say, John John. And before you ask, "okay, well how do you know the right name?" that's the purpose of the artist/writer!
>>25095640yeah yeah alright tien i get the picture
/lit/ is in an absolutely abysmal state tonight.
Wu-Tang Clan ain't nothin' to fuck with
Thinking about becoming CatholicWeirdly enough the more degenerate my lifestyle becomes the stronger the thought grows
>>25095715many such cases
>>25095715You should attend Ash Wednesday Mass tomorrow, Anon. Just sit near the back and don't go up for the Eucharist.
I know my strengths. My issue is figuring out how to put them to good use.
>>25095162I wrote a bloated first draft and the second draft has been killing me for six years. The rush of finalizing a first draft died within two weeks of writing it. Now, all there is left if this colossus of a first draft mocking my dream to write a story.
I surrender.
>>25095681/pol/ has ben taken over by some weird far left discord troons and they're starting to spread to other boards, every board is shit right now
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sd6iCSQep8E
>>25095162I had a dream that I spoke to Santa Claus and asked him for a moral evaluation of me (bc of the whole naughty or nice thing), and he told me to increase the range and depth of my relationships
>>25095162I finally figured out what caused me to radicalize before everyone else on earth did, getting exposed to the 24 news cycle as a teenager in the 90s and the influence of Rush Limbaugh and other shock jocks by my father. MTV was banned in my house so I tuned into CNN and such back then reading US News And World Report in sophomore year in social studies classI became aware of Waco, the Bosnian War, etc from an early age, plus I was a geography nut. I was on alt.conspiracy back in the day, too.And having a childhood autism diagnosis just intensified things. I'll be 44 this June. Happy birthday to me.
>>25095162For whatever reason I really really hate doing things the 'right way'. I hate asking for help, too. The thought makes me angry. I wish I was talented at something, like really talented, gifted. But I'm a mediocre faggot, and I can't even kill myself. Will to live cope.
>>25095284All my dreams involve awkward situations in bathrooms, usually the public ones.
>>25095162My friend/ex-boss crush sometimes visits me at work. She often asks if I'm working that day and "acts disappointed" if I say I'm not, but if I am there she heads down after she finishes her work and hangs around til I finish. This time I asked her if she wanted to join me for icecream as we were getting into our cars. She agreed without hesitation and we ended up hanging out at the icecream shop for 2 hours and another hour in the carpark. We just talked about stuff. Laughed a bit but didn't really flirt imo like how we normally flirted when we worked together.Was this a date or just hanging out?
>>25095880My most memorable dream ever involved me being strangled by a snake. It was on a train, for whatever reason.
>>25095884I'm watching this serial, and I think in about six years when anon is asking if the wedding means she likes him, it's going to be worth the investment >>25095885[stares in Freudian]>>25095880Nta but most my dreams involve some bizarre intricate plot which I ignore because it's too complex for me and I'm mostly focused on finding cake
>>25095749https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0lmg8bmb6-s
>>25095721NTA but I was raised in a half Methodist/half Lutheran house
>>25095918So what's the symbolism of being strangled by a snake?Also funny you mention Freud because both of my parents were psycho-analysts. They moved on from that (as psychologists) before I was born.
I wish my hair was kinda like pic related. Especially the side of my head.
>>25095932It's a dick. Trains are also dicks.
>>25095945You seem to think about dicks an awful lot, what was your relationship with your grandfather like?
>>25095947>>25095945Btw the snake around your neck is probably your dad's (bigger) dick, and stepping over telling me about your mother is a schizophrenic move to deflect from castration anxiety
>>25095952Oh, I thought you were shitposting for a second, sorry about that. But no this sounds proper freudian.
>>25095952Also I haven't told you anything about my mother.
>>25095966Yeah because your dad's snake dick is choking you to prevent that >>25095960Freudians and post Freudians write a lot of fun books. Charcot has better pictures, but Freud did a good diagram
>>25095952Though I guess castration anxiety is as good an explanation as any for why 'penis theft' is such a common motif in witcraft stories across culturl and geographic barriers.It even cropped up during the Witch hysterias of 16th and 17t century europe. Though there the belief was that they'd turn the penis invisible.
>>25095974Dick shrinking through others malevolent thoughts is still a couple culture bound syndromes. Castration anxiety goes back much further in the western imagination, both from reality and anxiety. That's why most people connect Freud with the Greek myth of Oedipus.>>25095284 is also having a classic Oedipal dream, with Freud viewing the moment of catharsis in Oedipus to be when "the audience feels as though their own eyes had been taken from them"
>>25095537>I've found that I read slower and less engaged during the beginnings of novels while I get used to the author's style and try to remember characters and shit. I'm trying to tackle that by reading only short stories for a while.That is not a bad thing, 3/4 of what you need to know to understand the rest is in that first 1/4, you miss that and you are fucked. The less engaged aspect is not great, but shorter works will not help that, shorter works exploit that they don't have to keep the reader engaged for very long.
Weird how uneventful the first 3.5 billion years of life was until the ancestors of things that are still around developed. Just bacteria being bacteria.On another note, I saw a gif of how bacteria proliferate in an ideal environment and the exponential spread unironically spooked me visually. 1, 2, 4, 8, 16, 32, woah, fuck, the entire screen is full of bacteria!
>>25095979I had that dream when I was eleven. It just stuck with me because I vividly remember feeling strangled.
>>25095623I know this feeling, you just kinda keep scrolling but it's all this weird, vague useless information posted by people larping having a mental illness.
>>25095979>with Freud viewing the moment of catharsis in Oedipus to be when "the audience feels as though their own eyes had been taken from them"Can you elaborate on that?
>>25095996Freud on The Uncanny (Das Unheimliche) is what you want. It's basically an essay on how eyes in dreams are also dicks, so things like using eyes to ward off evil or being given the evil eye in real life are collective fantasies which stem from that kind of castration anxiety. You might need some German because Unheimliche (uncanny, creepy, sinister) sounds like it should be near Heimlich (secretive/sly/hidden), and Freud likes a folk etymology or misheard lyric more than a boring well sourced one. It's not that long, and besides the German wordplay, pretty straightforward
>>25095247>KentI read it as “Kant” and for a moment I thought “you can’t stop reading Kant”— I got excited for a brief second.
>>25096028Someone post the >Cunt>Kantgreentext
>>25095162Ever since discovering obscure bohemian writer Julian MacLaren-Ross, I have decided to model my personality on his.
Hellο frens. I think I might be retarded.
>>25096080It's okay. You're in familiar company.
I dοn't have any literary thoughts. I just have literary vibes.
>>25095952
>>25096128>not mentioned: syphilis, named for the shepherd
>>25096130>the shepherdin a renaissance poem, not greek myth.
>>25096132The point is it's also a depiction with a stick, the renaissance still found that part vital to sex that makes you blind enough to foreshadow with his occupation
Worried about my sex life.Since last week I now have 2 children.I used to be able to squeeze in a fuck twice a week, once minimum.But now I'm having trouble imagining how we're going to find the opportunity.Now I'm just going to the bathroom, laying a towel on the floor, grabbing a pillow from the living room and crank on out watching something on my phone.It's no way to live.Guess I'll know where we're at after 6 weeks, she needs to recover.
>>25096136you assume everything is a sexual symbol, you can prove anything by circular logic.
During my dream I took photos of all the crazy environments with my phone to see if they'd still be there when I woke up. Spoiler: they weren't.
Is it true that the οnly female authors you should read are those with a masculine soul (such as Emily Bronte)?
>>25096189it’s true the only male authors you should read are those with a feminine soul (like shakespeare).
>>25096189>>25096202Souls are genderless
>>25096036>Julian MacLaren-Ross,is he good?
>>25096144:(things will improve anon, like you said you just gotta let her recover, and once she does, make her feel sexy againor start having an affair I guess, but don't do that!congrats on the new kid btw
>tfw when in in effort to get your attention and attraction, a girl walks right by you so you get an intense, close-up whiff of her perfume and scent;o>>25096180lol
It's so hard for me to cum because of seasonal depression. Nοt even premium fujoshi pussy from my weird cat lady coworker does it for me anymore. It's over.
>procrastinate on my work and shit i need to do>finally decide to do it>actually feel better and end up doing other thingsIt's so simple yet why the hell do I keep delaying myself?
>>25096294>Nοt even premium fujoshi pussy from my weird cat lady coworker does it for me anymore.watAnd hey, at least it means you last longer so you do a better job of pleasing the woman. better to take too long than not long enough I say
>>25096304My cs ethics professοr told me that when he was in the military, he'd fuck off and play DOOM (1993) on his PC until he had just enough time to finish his work and that managers need to understand that some people are just efficient like that. He also told us about one time they tested some anti-riot laser on a CO and the guy had a heart attack.
>>25096317True, she does have multiple orgasms when we fuck which isn't crazy often (like one week a month corresponding with her menstrual cycle)
>>25096320>My cs ethics professοr told me that when he was in the military, he'd fuck off and play DOOM (1993) on his PC until he had just enough time to finish his work and that managers need to understand that some people are just efficient like that. Yea but even still, it feels like I need to have a momentum I need to build up. The only problem is the starting, the rest becomes easier.>He also told us about one time they tested some anti-riot laser on a CO and the guy had a heart attack.Not sure, what to make of this.
Anyone else only able to write on a computer and not by hand? At least for serious, artistic writing. It's odd, I can only hear and feel the music of the words when I'm using a keyboard. Perhaps it's the forgiving nature, the ability to edit your work at any moment, whereas writing on paper has a sense of permanence, you have to think out every word, sentence, and line beforehand. I don't like that.Anyway this means I need to get myself a cheap laptop, something that's good enough to run Microsoft Word/LibreOffice, and that's all. Hopefully it can be had for $50? Maybe $100? I'm sure someone here has a dusty old laptop they don't use anymore that they wouldn't miss.
>>25096334Hit up a pawn shοp. Or get a Chromebook
>>25096304I feel you. That's one of the eternal struggles in life, knowing what's good for you and ought to be done, yet for some reason being unable to take immediately take action. All I can say is it's a matter of habit. The sooner you start taking action on these matters, the more often you'll be able to in the future, and so on, until you'll be the kind of efficient, diligent you've always admired and wish yourself to be. In other words, take the step, then another, then another. It's like exercise. Developing the habit of the routine is the hardest part, then once you've got it down, you'll start feeling restless and like you're doing something wrong when you don't do it.
I have never felt an emotional connection to anything. I have never developed an ambition or a skill or even a hobby. I don't accumulate anything from my inner or outer experiences because I don't feel anything. I am a vacant and empty person and all that effort can beget me is a thicket of pain and exhaustion. I am unable to be authentically present in any way but I still feel compelled to maintain peaceful relations and politeness with others at all times. Terrifying is the scenario that such artificial cordiality will attract someone naive enough to feel attached to me, a person who isn't really there. I am fighting for nothing.I only have clarity in planning to end my life. I am aware that you remind yourself that one quiet day you will probably be greeted by the police who will tell you that your son is dead. This I will not be around to regret. I am sorry mom. I don't know what else to say to you or the world for my being here except that I am sorry. I am sorry.
>>25096344>ChromebookOh wow those can be cheap. Never had one, or even used one. I might have to go into Walmart or Best Buy or wherever to try sampling it, see if it's comfortable to even use. I was thinking about trying Craigslist, as well as hitting up every friend I know that has a computer and games, and see if they have an old laptop I can buy from them, haha.
>>25096304yeah i think everyone’s felt that feel. then when you hit it you think it’s forever - but it isn’t.i think it can just be explained as plain old ‘inspiration’. being unproductive until you aren’t. it’s not a a muscle to be trained like some people make out, it’s just the necessarily spontaneous nature of creative (or productive) energy. you can go months with nothing then do ten things in a flurry.
I believe anxiety exists but I don't believe everyοne that says they have an anxiety disorder actually does.
My thoughts are that there is nothing new in the books, as well as in this site, but I am an atheist and a materialist.
>>25096369 I feel like if you lack the personal bravery to open the door for delivery drivers you’re just not doing enough in life.
>>25096373Yeah, I think a lot of "social anxiety" is absolute bullshit that can be "cured" with exposure therapy. I get so fucking tired of hearing about "muh anxiety" from retards who have never experienced panic attack induced insomnia or put a gun in their mouths because they earnestly believed that dying was better than dealing with intense mental distress every moment for the rest of your life.
>>25095558yeah, good shit. Bernhard's misanthropic and bitter towards everything, master of the angry rant. Woodcutters is great. Love those story collections, especially the Lispector and the Gaitskill
I'm gonna marry a prostitute
>>25096400>t. Dosto
>>25096400Does she have a heart of gοld?
4chan fucking sucks lately. Shit threads are just not being removed anymore. Offtopic threads, coombait, eceleb drama get the most replies, while serious threads get archived with single digit reply count.
>>25096414Stop relying οn the internet for your dopamine fix.
>>25096414stop compaining and go outside and touch grass once in awhile
>>25096414Books are also crap. The word banality is too mild for books. A person who has watched 200+ Hollywoodslope won't learn anything new from books.
>>25096414Ask not what 4chan can do for you but what you can do for 4chan.
67 lowkey a lil nostalgic
>>25095984Yeah good point. Back when I was out of the habit of reading, I'd finish a whole page and realize I didn't comprehend any of it, my mind was drifting elsewhere and the function of scanning the page went auto-pilot. Now that I read a few hours every day that almost never happens, at least midway through a book, but during the early sections where new characters are popping up often I find myself pausing and realizing that I'm not actually registering who these characters are. Like I'll know that somebody named George showed up but I didn't process that he's the narrator's girlfriend's roommate or whatever. Was hoping that hitting a bunch of short stories would exercise that process but maybe not, eventually I'll just accept it lol.In any case I think swapping out books between stories is a really fun way to read for now.
it’s fucking cold
this edible aint shit
>>25096432Users cannot do anything for this site because it is held hostage by mods and unpaid jannies.
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why do i continue to write? it's a pointless endeavor. nobody will read my work
>>25095749To who/what?
>>25096506If you write in the fantasy genre, I will read
>>25096523And Science fiction
I'm thoroughly entertained by this clavicular fella
>please unblock spur.io to proceedWhat the FUCK did Jap Moot do now
>>25096503Quite so. This ia literally SAO but irl.
>>25096543It glows so bright...
>>25095162how to calm down your monkey brain when is about chasing women and sex? a few min of pleasure that require a lot of work and suffering
>>25096609read a book and jerk off
I wish I could forget you.
>>25096426I think most movies suck. Not interesting to me.Also Random thought: why does so-called tough love work on everyone except me? I feel like I want sycophants not friends.
Been getting into rewatching wwe matches from the ruthless agression era. Really wish I was born a couple years earlier man. Shit was so cool
>>25096609Personally I just think rape should be legal provided the woman is not spoken for, otherwise she's fair game.
>>25096689Was that before the Attitude era or after?
>>25096691The fact that there are men who actually see the world this way is terrifying. Seek help.
>>25096694Its the era right after. Never really paid much attention to it cause I really only rewatched attitude era stuff when I was a kid
>>25096662yeah pretty much every movie I watch I'm rolling my eyes constantly. I'm not a super well-versed movie buff or something, I just think movies tend to be shit. Obviously not all.also about the tough love bit, getting constant validation/reassurance can feel phony. I don't want to present my friend with a problem I'm having and have them give me the response of least resistance just to because it's easy. I have a friend who reacts super negatively to any response that isn't "you are correct, other person bad", so negatively that I just stopped bothering giving her real advice, so has everybody else. Now she's a lifetime deep of interpreting social life completely wrong and is constantly misunderstanding shit and thinks she has perfect intuition. She's a total lost cause I think. If she got told more often that she's wrong and needs to re-evaluate the situation she'd be much better off, IMO
It pains me to be the only who recognize things that have importance when I see them in front of me, but if people knew what was important, they already wouldn’t be spending so much time with unimportant things; the fact that they already treat of unimportant things all the time should obviously tell me that they won’t realize what is important when I put them in front of what is important, otherwise they would have done it without me. To speak of things of importance is maybe of a lesser contribution to other’s lives compared to finding ways to show them what is important, and let them study those things then alone.
rape is bad, mm'kay?
>>25096696No, I know from experience. The core of all violent revolutions is because men can't find a woman to empty their balls into. Every time. I've written about this countless times. In fact getting cheated on by woman after women is probably the reason that pushed me into philosophy and history in the first place.>>25096701You're gen Z aren't you? I was in high school when the attitude era was going on.
>>25096696for real lol. I've been on 4chan so long that I'm completely desensitized to this shit and I just scroll by it without thinking, but if you stop and try to process it it's actually bonkers. You see people here straight up admit that they got hurt by a women once when they were a kid and hate women forever now, but if you really can't put yourself in the mind of somebody being raped and realize that it's a terrible, life altering thing to do to somebody, or if you can and decide you want to do it anyway, you're brain is fried and you need to be put in a hospital. Most of those anons are too socially inept to even look another person in the eyes though, so it'll likely never happen anyway.
>>25096716Yeah im 23
>>25096718>but if you really can't put yourself in the mind of somebodyI have aspergers dude. You're asking the impossible. Never going to happen in a million years. You might as well be asking for a woman understand loneliness.
>>2509672343 here. Got twenty years on you.
>>25096728That explains it. Millennial men are just as, if not more, cringe than zoomers.
>>25096734Well fuck you too. If I was born one year earlier I'd be Gen X.
>>25096738Older millennial women > zoomer girls >>> dog shit >>> late millennial women
>>25096738That wasnt me that said that brother lmao
>>25096710let the unimportant bleed into what is important and vice versa; something like the unimportant is necessary to enjoy or recognise what is important... idk.
How would I know if I were actually 75 IQ and just too dumb tο realize everyone around me treats me with retard gloves?
The sadness is swallowing me.
>>25096760In which situations or settings? I've had a similar concern.
I am that nigga
Almost everybody from Dante to Cioran concludes that love is what saves us. This is both comforting and terrifying - for someone who will likely die without ever knowing and experiencing true love. Fuck's sake.
>>25096840The only thing I truly want out of life is to be loved.
As a goy I support the goyim holocaust
There is no will but the eternal will of God, and Jesus-Christ is his only begotten son. The will of God, it is the will.
>>25096275He's good but nothing great. His best known work Of Love and Hunger is enjoyable as a slangy roman a clef, but it's hardly perfect. His short stories are enjoyable. Very quick-witted, blunt prose. But as a personality he was very interesting. He racked up debts like no tomorrow, stalked and tried to murder George Orwell's ex-wife, and died quite young, only to fall into relative obscurity. I'd recommend his writing if you're interested in inter-war British literature or literature about down and outs.
My timing of heading home on the bus when the local CC gets out from classes paid off, some young qt gave me the most attractive smile as she got off the bus. Of course, I've lost all ability to make small talk and any pretention of game, so this isn't gonna progress anywhere, and if anything I'll have to avoid that particular time from now on so I don't run into her again and thus feel the pressure to approach and not blow it, but nice to feel not only wanted but wanted enough to where a qt is wiling to make her attraction known :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G2nTbqbtGug
>>25096968>some young qt gave me the most attractive smile as she got off the busI've been told repeatedly that this means absolutely nothing
>>25096994There's friendly smiles, which I do to people all day everyday, and then there's the attraction smile, which is what this was. And besides, I'm an optimist.
>>25096716>I know from experienceHow many violent revolutions have you been involved in lol
I've been told that I look like Michael Jackson.
>>25097010That’s not a compliment. That mf was bogged as hell
>>25097010Sure they weren't quoting the Kanye song?>got a lightskin friend look like michael jackson>got a darkskin friend look like michael jackson
>tfw when I was 14 I was reading Milton, Nabokov, Cervantes, and Keats>tfw my 14 year old cousin is basically illiterate, she couldn't read through the first page of a contemporary novel I picked up from my shelfwtf is going on
>>25097082When I was 14, I was reading Nicholas d'Autrecourt, Gerardo of Cremona, Michael Scotus, Rodolphe Agricola, Joseph Juste Scaliger, Pierre Daniel Huet, Diodorus Siculus, Ammianus Marcellinus, Procopius, Pierre Bayle, Galen, Montaigne, Benoit Mandelbrot, Scott Atran, Yechezkel Zilber, Simon Foucher, Karl Mannheim, Paul Veyne, Al-Kindi, Sextus Empiricus, Erasmus, Menodotus of Nicomedia, Victor Brochard, Maimonides, Claude Bernard, Victor Cousin, Hyppolyte Taine, Albert Favier, Diogenes Laertius, Photius, Ptolemy Kureniao, Caelius Aurelianus, Celsus, Ibn Sina, Al-Razi, Charles Daremberg, Lorenzo Perilli, Zeller, Ludwig Edelstein, Deichgraeber, Harris Coulter, Roger French, Don Bates, Cicero, Carneades
>>25097082Time's changed, unc. Get used to it.
>>25095162Sleep deprivation, say, 8 for every 48 hours is to me like dental pain. I get about 10 for every 24 almost no matter what, and can't even imagine what it's like being in a cult, where 6 is the upper limit, never mind enduring a "careeer" where 7 is considered "adequate" and 8 "normal."
The fact that there are adults who were born after 9/11 is something that fills me with an uncanny valley-like aversion and disgust. It's hard to believe that the 9 prime years of my life flew by in a span of time that felt like perhaps 3 years at most.
Sex appeal is all that really matters
>>25097112I take the opposite view. I know this ultra liberal little chick who turned 100 last July., and who personally remembers the late 1930s, i'M 63, and remember the first lunar landing on TV, Watergate, Viking and Voyager images in glossy magazines,
As someone with poor dental hygiene, mass amounts of vomiting, and an absurd amount of drug use, I'm fortunate the only teeth I've lost have been the molars/in the very back.
Oh, mass of cellsYou do pretty well
>>25097160
>Bearly talk most days>don't really like to talk to most people most of the time>somehow have the easiest time writing dialog>Write it fastest and it requires the least revision during edits>instead describing things is a drag and has to be constantly revised during editsI really should have taken up drawing so I could make comics instead.
>>25097129my gf says she doesn't even feel sex appeal fοr a guy unless she has an emotional bondShe has like a generic "of he's a handsome guy i guess" but that's it
>>25097181how do we know ur dialog isn't ass tho?
so is trump gonna do iran or not? wsj says build up in the gulf is biggest since iraq.
>>25097189I said it was easiest and fastest for me to write and edit. I never claimed it wasn't ass. I ain't deluded enough to claim I am a good writer in any way shape or form.
What are you doing tο protect yourself from rapid onset gender dysphoria?
did i read this correctly the trans shooter in rhode island had six kids with three different women? that guy passed his genes on while u failed. lmao. he was obv highly low inhibition which is really all it comes down to.
>>25097006Way to misread the post
>>25096994I saw a girl on public transit the other day who looked like what would happen if you combined the faces and hairstyles of two of my ex girlfriends and turned up the hotness factor to 10. I almost made a mess in my pants.
>>25097112The years between 2002-2011 were basically were a lot of sharp ups and downs compared to now which everything has basically plateaued
I just realized tοday that the reason "all hot women are crazy" is because they were probably diddled as kids.
Its incredibly amusing when gooners act just as defensive as stoners.
I miss you.
I wish I had a daughter
Does the observer effect prove idealism? I thought Berkeley was a meme, but I just ordered his books.
Really, really at my limit with Weimerica
Do you ever get that feeling of wanting to poop but it's not exactly 'there'? Like if you go sit down on the toilet, it won't come out but your stomach will still churn a bit?
>>25097400easily resolved with coffee
Going on to other boards feels like going into a stranger's house naked. Im super scared
>>25095162When I was a kid, me and my friend played ganes. Once, he was playing the part great half-demon half-angel child of destiny and I was english. I chose being english.
>>25097409Could've gone with saying going to someone's house uninvited. Was the naked bit necessary?
I have a feeling the Iran War is actually going to go very well and we're getting a 1000 Year ZOG Reich.
Are these TV shows just being comedic and exaggerating for effect or can some guys really last an hour-to-hour-and-a-half in bed in one go?
>>25097457Its an exaggeration lad, there's gaps between the deed.
I hate authors who have no love for writing.For example, they do it to meet a quota, or a deadline. Authors who have a patreon, such as K.D Robertson. A haremlit author. Admittedly, yes I understand how such a genre would obviously be full of talentless, lifeless hacks, but you would think that after getting published over a dozen times, and even finishing a whole 8 book story, the guy would fucking learn something.No. Such authors do NOT learn anything from their own experience. It's always the same with these assholes.Exposition out the ass. Info-dumping left and right. The female characters are archetypes through and through, yet the protagonist is stoic in the most boring way possible.The dialogue is as far from organic as dialogue can get. You might as well be reading a fucking bibliography.And the smut. It's about as lifeless as a corpse and just as appealing.Only a fucking Necrophiliac could enjoy this kind of shit.And if you try to tell this asshole what is holding his popularity back, he shits and pisses his pants on the spot.Pathetic. No wonder the guy's got such a small audience while other authors, who make the same slop are breaking out among gooners.I can't fucking wait for AI to replace these dumb assholes. They deserve it. Truly, they do. Lazy writing belongs in the fucking trash.
>>25097457Once you hit the hour mark it gets kind of boring. It is possible, especially if a girl is very loose.
>>25097457>>25097469>>25097488My porn subscriptions tell me that it is possible.
>>25095485Society fucked you up, but the same goes for the other anon. He refers to “Crusader Kings 3” and by DLCs to “Downloadable content”.
Why don't we just suggest some good books? I would recommend this one. Single mother in 1920s-1930s coastal British Columbia takes her five kids boating up and down the coast every summer, go on many fun and notable adventures, meet some very interesting people such as loggers and homesteaders, encounter wildlife, and explore abandoned Indian ruins.
>>25097500I appreciate your earnestness and of course literariness, but that's what the rest of the board is for.
>>25097501Well, there ya go.
>>25096543>>25096552Okay this shit is driving me insane, because how many people on this website are NOT using an adblocker? I've been using an adblocker for over 10 years now. Yet this spur.io shit only hits if you've got uBlock or something similar, yet I'm not really seeing much complaining across the site. Are people seriously browsing 4chan without an adblocker? I can't imagine using the internet in the current year without one.
>>25097519Younglings think having an adblocker is stealing or something.
I got a new keyboard.
>>25097305But I haven't met you yet
First day of work is tomorrow and I don't think I'll get even a wink of sleep tonight
>>25097519I use AdGuard and have no problem.>>25097523It's true, everytime you pirate something the price is deduced from some Jew's bank account. However, I trannyheart theft because I don't have anything worth stealing.
>>25096334I write the first draft on the computer. I print it out and write the second draft by hand in the margins. It's incredible seeing the edits you make. Seeing how an entire page was rewritten. When you delete, the words are gone. You can't see the night and day difference between drafts. Writing by hand does unlock a different part of your brain. But mostly I do it so I can write on the train or during night shifts without bringing my laptop everywhere like a gooner.
>phone is in french>looking at the weather app>it says the air quality is so low I should avoid strenuous activity both inside and outside>switch to american english>it says the air quality is acceptable and I shouldn't be worriedwhat the fuck
>>25096349Chromebooks are shit. Google cloud storage. If you get one, pair it with a usb or an external harddrive. Dont put your writing in the cloud or one day it will evaporate.
Zoomer women and millennial men belong together.
I saw that Robert Caro book Tiktok blew up recently in the thrift store a few days ago. Did not buy LOL.
>>25097540You balding old dog you. Participating in the old tradition of mate poaching from younger congeners.Have at them, it's not like they are very high quality. A seventy year old I knew fucked a fat bitch, now I have a little brother.
>>25096738>>25096734>>25096728>>25096723Doesnt matter how old you are on the outside. What matters is how old the girlfriend is you're inside.
>>25097519The adblocker I've been using for the past 10 years or so got nuked by Chrome. Firefox is run by trannies so I'm not going back there. I'm using Brave but it's spotty and to be honest, in five or ten years I expect Brave to pull a DuckDuckGo and admit it's been spying on us this whole time for Israel.
>>25097549Just use the computers at the library.
>>25097544Then again, mexicans are mexicans. Derranged village nonsense is par for the course.
I whiip my dick back'n'forth
>>25097540I'm 39 and fully in hopes of marrying a woman in her early 20s.
>>25097562God bless you anon. I'm a bit younger (32) but I wish you success in your venture. I'll be the same soon inshallah.
>>25097562>>25097565I want to clone myself.
Peter picked a pepper.
downloading Kingdom Come Deliverance IIhopefully I will love that shit
Almost done my book. Probably not gonna finish it tonight though. I need to sleep soon. I talk to my WFG guy tomorrow at noon and I'm sick so I need my beauty sleep lol.
should i just work up the nerve to do it and leave life?not self diagnosis, real diagnostic impressions from a licensed psychometrist and psychologist with a PhD. i have no money, no friends, no hobby or skill or occupation, i had to cheat to earn a GED, no car, don't kno how to drive, i can't hold a thought in my brain besides death for very long. im 27>mom would take me for car rides where she would get abruptly unraveled and begin swerving the car dangerously while screaming at me "Do you want to die?" "Do you really want to die?" after I had expressed ideation to her when I was 8>my felon uncle was alone in a room with me and he pinned my 5 year old body to the floor with both his hands clamping my wrists bearing his weight from above while he hung loogies in my face and mocked me for being weak>when I was 3 or 4 my stepsister who was 7 or 8 began taking my clothes off and using my penis on her body as if she was trying to act out a porn scene she had been accidentally exposed to. I had no possible way of being cognizant of what was actually happening to me until I was 10 and my mom told me to shut the fuck up the one time I brought it up. can't feel an identifiable emotion when somebody touches me now>one afternoon during weekly split custody arrangements my mom and her new boyfriend preemptively called the police on my dad who was picking me up from daycare and as we are on the sidewalk out front my mom and her bf pull up in a cherry red 80s camaro and proceed to jump and beat him with wooden baseball bats, I'm 5 years old and I'm standing less than 10 feet from this happening, there is blood on the sidewalk and I have never seen my father cry before, and I cannot do anything but cry in terror and whatever the 5 year old equivalent of remorse is, then I watch my mom and her bf fabricate a story when the police arrive and my dad is shoved into a police cruiser while looking right into my eyes, then my mom later rebukes me for recounting this memory to her and tells me "you are just like your father"
>>25095162I have used my clear-headed and pellucid faculty of Reason™ to ascertain the TRUE nature of the universe and once and for all settle the transcendental questions™ that have troubled man since the dawn of time!Coincidentally, they all align perfectly with my pre-existing beliefs about everything, would you look at that.
For a second or two after cumming my brain will pull up some memories of dreams ive had over the years. Whats weird is that I won't be able to remember the dreams during normal waking hours. Sometimes happens when im drunk or high as well.
You know looking back at the CoD days, why were we so obsessed with doing 360 no scope for the round ending kill?
I am trying to think up a spider humanoid that nether is reminiscent of driders or Spiderman. Was thinking of something with a ninja vibe of wevers by day, deadly assassins by night kind of thing, but unsure if I should go mostly human or something more monstrous.
>>25097500this sounds wonderful. thanks anon
>>25097593No. Seek help.
>>25097542the power broker? it's still sitting on my shelf, the spine now extremely sunfaded. i need to read that fucking thing.>>25097534lmao
I miss watching porn.
>>25097593>>25097660i agree.it sounds like u have been through a lot of shit but you still have a lot of life left to live, and things will be okay. start with some therapy if you haven't already, but keep your head up. not over til the fat lady sings, king.
>>25097255I actually meant 2016-2024 when I was referring to the prime years of my life. People born after 9/11 were basically still children at the start of that.
>>25097656I got is.They wear creepy mask and loose fitting clothes that covers all of their body when not doing ninja stuff.But when they are they remove the mask and move in totally inhuman fashion. Now just got to think up a name for them.
So I slept all day because I'm sick right. It's 3am and I absolutely cannot sleep even though I feel pretty gross. Might make coffee sometime soon.>>25097661>the power broker? Yeah that one. >>25097658You're welcome anon :]
>>25097292No, you're looking at selection effects.Hot sane women are all taken, and they probably occupy higher social strata than you.
The Atlantic slave trade was without a shadow of a doubt in my mind the biggest mistake white people ever made. All of this was not worth some extra lawn equipment methinks
Coffeetime.
>>25097181Barely*, unless your facial hair is a lifestyle choice>>25097500Travels with my Aunt, same thing essentially but the kid's a bank manager, the boat's as often a train, and the logger is a pot smuggling diamond miner
>>25097534>In west: 3-5 fruits and veg a day health>japan: 9-11
I keep having the same reoccurring dream in which I have a wife and a daughter. I wonder what that means.
>>25097738Pls to not feed chinchilla starbucks
>>25097753It's probably something you want; or something you deeply don't want, or something that you resent.
>>25097748>Travels With My AuntSounds like On the Road but if Sal took his aunt with him on his journeys.
Come on, baby, play me somethingLike "Here Comes the Sun"
times of israel says us-iran war could last weeks...
>>25097769I'm looking forward to footage of US and Israeli troops crossing the Mesopotamian plain and entering Tehran, shortly after carpetbombing it.
https://youtu.be/wzx26hNWRl4
>>25097760I think it's something I want, but I can barely take care of myself, let alone a family.
>>25097662Same. Although I'm saturated from it, don't find it as interesting as it used to be.
>>25097765https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j9zoM28TByQ
>>25097799https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1stZOAIcW4
i'm so tired i'm always in the mood to rope. maybe i should get into drugs, but weed is so mid it doesn't really help. idk where to score lsd these days.
Listening to Rush: https://youtu.be/AZm1_jtY1SQ
Corr just blew an exceptionally big snot loogie into the TP. I'm about done the roll too, better grab a fresh one next time I visit the can.
>>25096028Based Kant gooner
>>25097804My brother in Christ (is King), alcohol and schizophrenia are right there.
>>25097738
>>25097728>"White people"Add it to the list
>>25097641Big Medicine Flex
Are you noided?
>>25097623Fuck yeah
>>25097533I write the first draft by hand on a sketch book, then type it up. I always get bogged down on that part so I am going try adding on your method of then printing and editing. Solid advice.
>>25097820I'm keyed
>>25097524The G, I, N, E, and R need to be broke in.
>>25097519I like seeing ads, keeps my fingers on the pulse of the latest psyop. The suicide hotline ones are actually ok.
This board simply canNOT keep up
>>25097170Nice.
Sorry for party rockin'
All the old ass boomer ladies in my office are loud as fuck this morning
>25097858Shit life. Shit person.I love my job.
>>25097866>>25097858Happiness is a warm gun>Bang bang shoot shoot
you can find me in da club
Can't search for Demon Hunter (the band) on streaming services no more without being inundated by Kpop Demon Hunters content -_-https://youtu.be/hJ3L5tMq5oc
>>25097868https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_7Xs04ncWc
>>25097236Reading history books is not "personal experience" and anyway a starving man is gonna think mostly about food>>25097457If you wanna fuck for hours without cumming, take meth>>25097685Upper class people are often crazy fuckers, they can just afford to be
>>25097632Can I ask you when it started and your age now? Not the same triggers for me but I also remember old dreams spontaneously. I think it became more pronounced after I started using delta-8 a few years ago, and it continued after I quit. Though I have some biochemical ideas I have not found a technical explanation for it, only anecdotal and spiritual discussion, hence my curiosity about your case!
>>25097632Happens to me too. It's always one or two specific dreams which get replaced by new ones periodically (every two years or so). Like you I can't remember the dreams outside of cumming either, save for the latest one because I got reminded of it so many times recently. I think there is a common theme to the dreams, they always originally involved a very intense feeling towards something familiar, like longing for my childhood environment, or a goal I intensely wanted to achieve at some point in my life.Eerie as fuck but I'm glad there are still connections to make with total internet strangers.
>>25095162Huh
Admiteddly I'm not a physicist but a lot of the more esoteric aspects of cutting edge physics seems to be about trying to fix holes in old theories or dealing with the implications of theories that explain some things but which must also be considered to apply to things they clearly weren't intended to explain if they are to be taken seriously at all. Like physicists are fighting with their theories more than they are fighting with the observable universe itself.
>have a new friend>correspond daily>suddenly they stop initiating conversations, and if you do, they reply slowly, with short sentences>they lie sometimes about their free time, not wanting to spend time with you>ask>says "friendship has a honeymoon phase"mfw
>>25097313Me too. A good, innocent daughter who obeys me.
>>25095162>KotKot
>>25098051Gross.
>>25098043Ok, incredibly embarrassing from the guy to say that, but also, obviously you're overbearing and he has other friends.Speaking of friends, holy fuck I wish had some. Life is a terrible thing.
I'm starting to feel like contemporary culture is just fundamentally antagonistic to art, and a lot of people who claim to like games, music, and film actually really fucking hate it.
>>25098043Lesson to not waste time on retards with no substance anon. People like that wake up in their fifties and wonder why they have no friends.
I used to wonder why golden ages in societies are historically so short, like why the works of one century will be leaps and bounds above the works of that same place in neighboring centuries, like in Rome or Spain or the Netherlands and so on. But you realize that in societies on the decline, there is an all-pervasive air of mediocrity that suffocates everyone exposed to it, and most people do not realize they are being suffocated, they do not realize how much better things should be.
>>25098043>friendship has a honeymoon phaseare normies seriously like this
Thinking I'll go for a walk before I talk to my WFG guy at 12:30. It's sprinkling snow so it'll be kino.
tfw birthday was today
>>25098190happy birthday anon
>>25098204danke
>>25098190Oh shit, happy birthday.
>>25098190hbd. hope you saw some life on the day.
>>25098078How is that gross?
I absοlutely LOATH having a female boss, especially when she's attractive.
>>25095162this is ridiculous. relationship was abandoned and despair was engaged all at once ending with a hookup followed by a night in jail and a pathetic attempt to tear my wrist out.but here i am fostering a love with a woman who clearly has the symptoms of avoidance while another is fostering a hopeless love for me when i have made it abundantly clear i was not interested-and of course after clear repeated statements i have given in and fucked the life out of her. all the while she admits to me a mutual friend has expressed strong interest in her while she has done my moves for him. what a mess.of course, i am the fiend here.
>>25098321>Attractive female bossFUCKI was born to lose
>>25098406I mean, she's nice to look at and oggle but got damn is she a nightmare to deal with sometimes. Her perky little ass and mommy tits are great fap fuel tho
>>25097593Every time I wonder If I should kill myself I remember that the only reason life seems miserable is because everyone else did give up on life and take out their resentment on the rest of society. So I just live out of spite honestly. I enjoy myself always, focus on myself, I ask people retarded questions until I understand stuff, I am a based retard, everyone is idiotic, everyone is a failure, but don't laugh at that, that would be just blending in, rather have a good life by being good yourself, to yourself, if people are mad, are aggressive or mock you, you can safely ignore them and categorize them and put them in this grand basket that is the mad world. Good souls will be few and sparse, but it's ok once you become your own best source of pleasure and vitality.What does a strong and happy man do in the face of inflicted suffering? He keeps his dignity high, categorize every torturer as some kind of mad beast, and once back on his feet, free, he chooses to simply live his life, free. All the events of your life you described, how can you let them define you? don't let them, but don't repurpose them either, to fuel some desire of vengeance, such a flame won't last, just forget them as a fuzzy dream, I can barely remember what happened to me 2 years ago, and these old things can't make me happy nor sad, I have to continue to work on myself and live freely everyday to keep my happiness, it just starts when you decide.Anon, I don't know you, and this will probably therefore come as dishonest, but I'll tell you this anyway if only to tell myself: Anon, I want you to live. Anon, live. Anon, please live. The only reason people are bitter and mellow and sad is because they are hesitant to call life worth living, hesitant to promote themselves as masters, hesitant to say that they are worth more than anyone else to themselves. Once you declare that life is worth living, that you ought only to live for yourself, to reach your satisfaction, a drive, desire to create, curiosity, positivity, strength of mind which leads to strength of body, resolution, good spirit, typically all follow from that naive but true declaration.
Is there any actual proof of the unconscious mind? How can you actually prove such a thing when you, by definition, can’t become aware of it. It just seems like an excuse people can use to say I didn’t do x bad thing it was my unconscious mind that made me do it. Also, and this is from personal experience it makes you feel like you’re not in control of your actions which is really distressing and makes knowing yourself impossible.
Western civilization doesn't exist anymore.
>>25098577Are we all just glοbal now?
>>25098580Yeah. It's over.
Just found this passage of Vargas Llosa succintly btfoing hardcore lolberts and I wanted to share it>There are liberals, for example, who believe that the economy is the realm where all problems are resolved and that the free market is the panacea that fixes everything from poverty to unemployment, marginalization, and social exclusion.>These liberals, true living logarithms, have at times done more damage to the cause of liberty than the Marxists themselves—the first propagators of that absurd thesis according to which the economy is the engine of the history of nations and the foundation of civilization.>It is not true. What differentiates civilization from barbarism are ideas and culture, rather than the economy. The latter, on its own, without the underpinning of the former, may produce optimal results on paper, but it does not give meaning to people’s lives; nor does it offer them reasons to resist adversity and feel solidarity and compassion, nor does it allow them to live in an environment imbued with humanity.>It is culture—a body of shared ideas, beliefs, and customs, among which, of course, religion may be included—that provides warmth to and breathes life into democracy. It is what allows the market economy, with its competitive nature and its cold mathematics of rewards for success and punishments for failure, not to degenerate into a Darwinian battle in which—to use Isaiah Berlin's phrase—'the wolves eat all the lambs.'>The free market is the best mechanism that exists for producing wealth, and, when well-complemented by other institutions and practices of democratic culture, it propels the material progress of a nation toward the dizzying advancements we know today.>But it is also a relentless mechanism that, without the spiritual and intellectual dimension represented by culture, can reduce life to a fierce and selfish struggle in which only the strongest survive