>>25120601
So I'm writing a story where mind reading is real and a trainable skill, and a nameless government agency exists specifically to train and use mind readers to gain advantage over other countries through unbeatable intelligence, but the mechanics of mind reading make it function like controlled radiation exposure rather than free info whenever you want. The agency also has its own information security model used to both prevent leaks and insidet threats as well as keep mind reading a secret. This creates tension because the government can't stop using mind reading because of the advantages it brings, but using it can harm mind readers over time and even lead to fatal exposures under the right conditions, and because of how infosec intertwines with everything, mind readers ironically become a small subculture of particularly lonely and isolated people, with only their handlers and other mind readers to lean on. Outsiders who happen to work with them and see mind reading happen perceive it as something like voluntary self-harm on a schedule due to the physical effects it can produce combined with the weirdly voluntary nature of the job.
The actual plot is about a handler whose assigned mind reader keeps getting close to basically cooking himself through overexposure and his efforts to keep him alive, in the face of constant demand to push harder and extract more information.

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Like Max Stirner, I have found me another figure from the 1800s that has no reasonable portrait.

Mathematician Adrien-Marie Legendre

Goy lives matter.

>>25120601
History is driven by the struggle between irrational force of Nature that is beyond Human control and Human will on a collective level.(the "will" here is used in a loose sense).
On each stage of society this Human will has different functions.
When human society is barbaric and primitive they use this will to try to survive against this irrational force of Nature.
When Humans Are in higher stage of society, The human will becomes Sufficient for human survival. And they use the additional force of the will to assert dominance over nature and other societies.

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>>25120626
Care to put that with a raised hoof and wear the T-shirt?

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Deleuze is a political actor who copes about Nietzsche and tries to modernsoyleftymoralfag-ize him. The same way he seems to hate Freud for being a kind of patriarchal proto-le-fascist figure for exposing human futility, genetic determinism, evilness, and manipulation of the unconscious. dunno.

Then I searched him and saw “Gilles Deleuze was a French philosopher known for his influential ideas in various fields, but he was not Jewish. His work has engaged with Jewish thought, particularly in relation to philosophy and (((((((Talmudic studies))))))), but he himself did not identify as part of the Jewish community.”

Not sure how to interpret this or where to go from here. seems like i cant do anything in this world but pity myself and my only opportunities in life are to wageslave mediocrely or become a petit-bourgeoise capitalist. I need guidance but no one else seems to know anything or do anything that i wanna do. this existence is hell and im convinced that in the past it was too. honestly seems like its best for me to just have sex and enjoy pleasure while writing and trying to make some art, while accepting suffering from health issues.

>>25120612
Sounds great, I wanna read it. Make sure to put more great ideas other than that too, or else it'll be a gimmick.

My friend Cyprian.

Smoking weed.

Skeeters in fucking March can you believe this shit?

Isekai is a subconscious intuition that death is not annihilation but transition into a more meaningful order of being.

America stands out for having a docile libtarded population yet the government has enough will to impose itself violently. Compared to other timid libshit populations, for example Iranians who for 50 years refuse to lift a finger against their mullahs because they’re preoccupied with wanting to wear bikinis and instead beg America to bomb their leaders for them. Liberalism just makes people pathetic. Look at the state of Europe. America is lucky to be so cruel.

>>25120756
It's the guns.

Anyone else feeling comfy right now?

>>25120812
Im working from home, actually dont have anything to do for couple of days already, its at the point i actually want to work at something
Had a crisp walk on the sunshine at my break. Now im currently taking a break from break
7/10 comfy since im worried a bit why they dont give me new tasks

Had a dream where two actors got flayed alive in publoc and it was like one of those movies where the same things happens every day until they find a solution. So they got flayed a few times akready.

>>25120601
The second draft is overwhelmingly difficult. I go through first drafts like they're nothing, but I am defeated by the second draft every time. The internet is no help. It tells me what to do but not how to do it. I have 300k+ words lying around, and can't do shit with it. It's maddening.

Modiji musalmano ki baat karte hai

>>25120601
I really hate authority. I hate feeling controlled, being manipulated, being coerced. In practical terms, this is nowadays only rarely expressed, because as an adult I am relatively free provided I fulfill some pre-requisites, in addition it's just not worth (I am a pusillanimous faggot). But as a child, under the tyranny of ones own parents, siblings, this caused major problems for everyone involved. Whenever they would do something to assert themselves I would do something back. If I felt they leaned or something to control me I would destroy it; I remember one time my brother was taking something away because I wasn't doing my homework, so I wrested it from his hands and smashed it into the floor. And sometimes, of course, nothing could be done and I cried, I cried and cried and cried and clenched my hands and nothing could be done. Someone telling me to do something was an incentive to not do it, even if I wanted to do it. It became tainted after that, it stopped being my will and it became theirs. They would think they had power over me, they were the reason for my actions. During the pandemic my brother and I got into a dumb fight over me not disinfecting some things before I put them in the fridge, I told him I would if he would just not look at me while I did it, he asked me "Oh, you need this to be YOUR achievement?" and the answer was "yes, it needs to be MY achievement, faggot", but I didn't tell him that.
I believed that if I gave my parents an inch in anything they would take a mile; possibly founded on the fact every time I did concede on anything they moved on to something else. I came to completely disregard the fact that I was making them unhappy, I thought: "If I was going to be unhappy, why should they be happy?"That said, I co-operated most of the time, for the sake of quality of life. And for the record my parents did hit me.
Of course, my government has de-facto ownership over my person and controls my behaviour in a variety of ways while I can do nothing about that. This fact does bother me deeply, but ultimately I am not willing to attempt to change it, so I instead ignore it as best I can. Though I fear one day I will enter into a situation where I can't ignore it anymore and be driven insane by powerlessness. No outcome will be good.
>Inb4 Dr. Freud psychoanalyses me
I know, I know, I don't care. My parents are psychologists, I'm familiar with the categories, options of recovery do not interest me.
I know the only likely endings to this are suicide or acceptance. And I'd rather kill myself than lose the one dignity I have.

>>25121001
>I told him I would if he would just not look at me while I did it
You sound like a neurotic bitch lol

I had sex last night.

>>25121012
Yeah. Lmao.

I HATE .WEBP FILES SO MUCH

Horny really dοes make a man act irrational. I almost blew up my marriage due to a hoe coworker with two different baby daddies solely because she reminded me of my childhood baby sitter.

>>25120635
I say that there 4 things that humans should have mastery over/independence from, and that remains a constant battle over a lifetime: Nature, Human Society, Passions/Appetites, Reason/Nihilism/Ideological Sacrifice.

You fight or tame Nature mostly through technology and weapons for dangerous animals, and through participating in a society for division of labor and wealth creation; You gain independence from society to the extent that it is possible through wealth, weapons, good connections, and through technology that empower the individual; You resolve excesses or deficiencies of Passion and Reason through virtuous education, through living a balanced life, through aesthetics, through creative endeavors.

One could treat of a simple dichotomy of exterior enemies and interior enemies: Nature, animals, other humans on one hand, and imbalances of Passion and Reason on the other. But I find making a special distinction of "Human Society" is important, because other humans are not like the rest of nature and necessitate other ways to deal with them, and because society is the solution to the first problem of Nature, without society and markets you cannot develop enough wealth to be free against the weather and all the physical necessities, but once society is developed it becomes a problem of its own.

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>>25121001
Read La Sensibilité Individualiste, https://fr.anarchistlibraries.net/library/georges-palante-la-sensibilite-individualiste#toc2

translate with Grok or idk maybe you read french. Maybe you'll find in it the same comfort I did, for it described so precisely the little characteristics of my soul that animate me at every instant.

“Être individualiste, c’est se complaire dans le sentiment, non pas même de sa supériorité, mais de sa « différence », de son unicité.” -- Georges Palante, Sensibilité Individualiste

(Being individualistic means wallowing in the feeling, not even of one's superiority, but of one's 'difference', of one's uniqueness)

>I know the only likely endings to this are suicide or acceptance. And I'd rather kill myself than lose the one dignity I have.
I think you will be able to find joy in pushing through to a state where you can reliably live alone and profit from silence.

Your strong hatred for authority is a sign that you desire to live much more than anyone who surrounds you, hold this thought as your cherished guiding light.

HEAD LIKE A HOLE

Went to the library and checked out two Library of America books: one collection of Edmund Wilson's literary essays and reviews from the 1930s-1940s, and one collection of Carson McCullers' short stories, plays, and other writings. I've read some of the former and none of the latter. Should make for some good casual reading, especially before bed! Any comments or thoughts?

Guys, I'm going to the top. I really have what it takes. I just know it.

Why are you so mentally ill?

>>25121199
we're all gonna make it :)

>>25121202
mentally ill people in our society exist -> they go on the internet -> where else are they gonna congregate if not here? at least for some of them

>>25121211
>mentally ill people in our society exist
Why?

>>25121219
...kind of a complex topic, anon. Why do physical illnesses and pathologies exist? Read a book on it or look it up.

>>25121219
Because genetics has to hit the random button in order to produce geniuses

this is 2026 :3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwzWsByihuk

Should I go back to college at the age of 31? Probably community college for 2 years then university. The only thing I'd want to major in though is English/English Literature, and doesn't seem worth to go into debt for that.

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Generational fall off by Nick Land happening.
He's gone full boomer mode because people refuse to vote for republicans

>>25121280
Anyone who intends to vote for the Republicans in the midterms ought to have their citizenship revoked. No self-respecting human being can justify it at this point.

>>25121295
Funniest thing is people think this slavish attitude to Israel is just the price to pay to enact your other policies.
But guaranteed that the donors and lobbyist will drop Trump like a bag of shit now that they got what they wanted. They have no loyalty so now Iran is thrown into chaos they can try and cozy up to the other party.

Fell for it again. He deserved it, he trusted a jew etc etc

I've been listening to OnlyFans streams (pirated of course) while reading books/articles on Rome. They yap a lot between the moans, and it's usually about the kind of men they want, surprisingly none of them were really trying to appeal to their audience. It is simple and obvious: dominant gentlemen.
Essentially someone who could be a father, even to them, not asshole dads but the ideal kind. You also have to be very sexually experienced with mood, foreplay, sex acts, after care, etc. or she'll get the ick.

Jew fatigue.

>>25121202
No pussy. It's that simple.

>>25121385
I believe that most men/boys do not wish to hear a affirmation of who they are, but rather the path they are taking in life. As in they prefer much more to hear affirmation for an ideal which they can strive for themselves. Most viewers are probably fine with hearing what she likes in men as long as it is not something completely unattainable or differs from their ideal self. Do they ever mention aspects such as height or ethnicity?

>>25121482
>Do they ever mention aspects such as height or ethnicity?
No, they avoid that like the plague.
But hearing their life experiences was a bit of a blackpill. The amount of public sex, buying dildos at Spencer's and the number of men and sexual acts before they were even 18 was insane to hear. I don't think that especially appeals to their audience.

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Changed my ebook reader's wallpaper to some random pretty actress I don't even know the name of. Makes me feel both more pathetic and less alone. I don't know which side is winning. I'm not posting her because I feel like I'll feel even worse if I know her name.

It's funny how some classics click with you way more than others. I still think about Juvenal for instance.

>>25121123
Interesting insights, one can infer your thoughts on the topic of Nihilism and ideological suicide, but would you mind sharing your explicit thoughts?

In my case I see everything as pointless, I didn't take the hedonist way of thinking just by chance, but I may as well could have and I don't see it as inferior/superior.
I still do normie shit due to growing habits including talking with friends/family trying to date etc,even talking on the internet with strangers, slowly decreasing frequency though.

Sometimes I dream I am in a isolation cell on some prison and feel at ease, like actually free.

>>25121533
>Nihilism and ideological suicide
I struggle to go in more detail on the topic of what I believe is good and bad, I can't remember exactly how I got here, so to me everything is obvious, intuitive, I can only describe, but I have a hard time coming up with compelling arguments/explanations/thought experiments, let's see:

Good is living for yourself, your happiness. Happiness is obtained through mastery, independence, without which the passing on of your genes would be left to the will of your master. Don't mistake me, Happiness is reached independently from having kids, but it is those who don't hesitate to be masters that pass on their genes and promote this fact of human biology: happiness is mastery.

Mastery of your life is something you have to maintain, you can only remain king by being a king at all times and everyday, otherwise you'll stagnate and die, figuratively (that means being depressed). Concretely, a good day should show mastery over Nature, Society, Emotions and Reason, so creative achievements, creative activities are the best activities to that end. By creative I mean a task that demands of you a tempering of your emotions, but also a restrained use of them, to guide you better, and a smart use of reason, imagination, learning, deduction. So you need to let yourself be guided by taste, to be certain that you are constructing something for yourself, but be guided by reason to construct things above nature, that can last.

And a creative task, to demonstrate mastery over society, must also be desired by you, it needs to be something you want to create for yourself. Typically mastery over Nature will appear automatically because if you make something out of nature's elements for yourself, that pretty much already demonstrate mastery, whether it's a gadget a book or art, the act of understanding promotes this mastery.

Now, that's what I believe the good is, that knowledge or intuition comes from my life, other people's life, looking at art, philosophizing about whatever here and there

And out of the good comes now the bad:
* Ideological Sacrifice/Collectivism/Utilitarianism is Reason in excess, a Reason that has cutoff all desire to serve its own ego, because collectives are scary so you conform, or because you want to be a contrarian to the egoist (That's just Nietzsche)
* Hedonism is sensuality in excess, I think this one is known enough
Nihilism is what happens to the egoist who cannot live for himself because regulations, environment, society prevents him, or it also occurs in the utilitarianist who has lost zeal and faith, he feels he is useless, his emotions are telling him something's wrong, but his Reason still holds a disgust for living for himself, so he remains lost and confused for a while

These things are 'excesses' and 'bad' because ultimately you don't control yourself and then you weaken, you lack control on your life, your Will gets censored infinitely every day, and so you slowly die :)

>>25121480
If pussy can restore your empathy then can lack of pussy erode it?

>>25121721
Feline pussy > human pussy

>>25121515
>the amateur porn girls are sexually adventurous
I'm shocke man, how could this happen

what if I triiiiiied
pretending, that
the two of us were completely
and utterly
blameless

I ask a world of positivity, not vain but sincere. I sympathize with the Christians who lament the loss of faith, but I always sense they really lament the loss of a sincerely positive view of life, a confidence in moving forward, I mean that: "I say this: I choose to Live!"

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Watching "Bride of Charlie"
Likened to iCarly -- Little
Fun, a little naughty -- Haters
Respond sharply!

Do we really know her?
The way you all don't know
Me -- I might be just a loser . . .
But, what happened to Charlie?

Erika's no angel? Is Chuck a
Saint? Or did he fake his death?
Mustn't hold my breath, but
Seems the fellow met his end.

'Squib-theory' is -- not Mrs
Owen's query; yet how did he
Go down -- oh-so neatly!
Fact is, all seems fishy -- Yet

Charlie's averse to sinning
It's not his disposition --
Just his fallen-nature
Betrayed by perpetrator?

(Can Drake please sing this)

>>25120689
man i need to smoke some weed this weekend i haven't smoked in ages and the weather is actually going to be good

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There is nothing that fills me with the desire of committing genocide quite like accidentally landing on of those smartass know-it-alls very opinionated libertarian accounts on Xitter and accidentally reading their asinine and profoundly autistic opinions.

>>25122020
The emergence of the tech-libertarian is one of this age's great curiosities, born out of the isolated subjectively of using a computer, where man is master of his own domain, all is made possible through a network of mutual consent, and endless potential of success and riches are available to anyone provided they have the smarts and technological skill. "I can customize my own desktop, I don't need the help of any government agency!" It's really quite fascinating, and is a topic I think of from time to time because I myself almost fell into the same whirlpool of sludge when I was 12 and learning to use Linux and 4chan and XMPP. Thank god I got into literature and art and developed a heart and soul! Many are not as lucky.

>>25122020
>>25122037
Oh, and of course, "I've become successful at the video games I play through my own skill and determination. Newbies and scrubs don't deserve any equalizer in those, so why should they in real life!?" It's funny, but these phenomenological experiences have a greater influence on our values and subjectivity than most are aware.

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>>25122040
>>25122037
>>25122020
these people are living ragebait

i think i'm going to get in bed and listen to this lloyd blankfein autobiography that just dropped it's actually comfy af if u into finance n shit

Do you ever wonder whether you chase aesthetic and intellectual pleasure as a more easily obtained substitute of sorts for erotic pleasure?

I just got the impulse to go to a strip club for the first time in my life. Anyone live in Portland, OR and wanna go with me?

>>25122056
No, I've had multiple relationships deteriorate because I wanted to spend more time reading and listening to classical music than having sex and all the work that comes with having a girlfriend.

>>25122062
will you suck my dick behind the dumpsters out back?
>>25122056
nah, I actually gοt more into philosophy after getting a gf who fulfilled my other needs thus allowing me to explore more esoteric topics in a pleasurable manner

>>25122065
>>25122075
I'm honestly a bit afraid that the next time I get into a relationship all this intellectual LARP that I've been doing to justify myself to myself will just evaporate into air like it was never even there.

>>25122065
>listening to classical music ruining a relationship
Elaborate.

>>25122092
She'd want to go out or cuddle while watching TV but I wanted to put the headphones on and listen to Mahler's 2nd Symphony.

I jerk off way too much
I'm just too horny all the time

>>25122090
Well, as they say, consider it the true test of the measure of a man.

i NEED a cat

>>25121295
Anyone who votes for either of the two big parties need not be lobotomized, for they've already been. You faggots need a new party or option like nobody's business. (No, the libertarian party doesn't count.)

>>25122106
Tohno-kun...

>>25122107
There's still a clear better option, and one must think and act practically.

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Cancer and resentment pecked at my father's entrails. One the prize of a hellish, lottery, and the other the long overdue collapse of a relationship of which I was the only fruit.
My mother packed her children her bags, ready to start a new life at the age of 65. I woke up inside her luggage, next to some neatly folded clothes and one half of the refrigerator. I crawled outside, and she was surprised to see me do so.
Even I couldn't explain why I stayed behind, but I knew I wished my old man a better death than sickness and solitude.
So I stuck with him, I brought him to the hospital, I made him take his medicine -You know how old people are, they don't want to accept they're dying, and kept in contact with the hospital And so I juggled the necessities of an old man, a home with rent to pay and rooms to clean, and the life of a young man. Alarms set early, hang-outs denied. I couldn't enjoy a drink's company or a friend's jokes while thinking of my father, drowning in his dread.
Time passed quickly, as did the last year I felt young of heart. The doctors forecast many more years, and his workplace bestowed him with his retirement.
My father, monologues' lover, told me that my mother offered to accompany him to his last visit to the hospital -she has a bitch's nose, she could smell the money, and so she wanted to leave her goodwill as his feet. He refused.
I approved of his decision, I just wished he hadn't said that she made no difference, because he had been alone from the start of his treatment.

>>25122110
I don't know when you anons will ever figure this out -- two heads of the same coin. It's the same fucking thing, no matter which one you vote for. If you were to vote the Dems in, they'd have to pretend as if their agenda wasn't the exact same as that of the Republicans for the first year or so, and then it'd be business as usual. Maybe there's a brief moral imperative right now, but that's just in delaying the inevitable resumption of state-endorsed genocide and tax-payer bilking. Your country is dying.

I have just started writing my thoughts on various topics digitally. Mostly philosophy and on books I read.

I want to write physically but not being able to edit easily would just kill me. I would probably go through a whole eraser for just a few pages. That, and not being able to easily add images or links, search, or quickly reference the text later on.

I'm thinking about copying all my writing to paper, though.

>>25122117
>I don't know when you anons will ever figure this out -- two heads of the same coin. It's the same fucking thing, no matter which one you vote for.
will this meme ever die? unless you're a single-issue libertarian, I don't see how anyone could possibly believe this. one side wants to gut government assistance in healthcare, food stamps, job assistance, and college aid; to cut social security and medicaid/medicare; to cut green energy initiatives because they don't believe in climate change; to destroy public education; to empower private prisons and permanently ruin the lives of any poor person convicted of a crime; to give tax cuts to corporations and the top 1%

and this isn't even to mention things like immigration and ICE because I do lean conservative on these issues, but it doesn't outweigh everything else

i mean come on anon, you're smarter than to believe there's no difference

>>25122122
You have a national debt in the literal trillions. All of your politicians swear allegiance to a foreign nation. That is your enemy. Again, your country is dying.

>>25122125
First off, Democrats aren't as in bed with Israel. But more importantly, how does that nullify everything else I said, every other issue? Okay, so neither side is gonna reduce the national debt (which isn't even a huge issue so long as GDP increases from public spending but I digress) or cut aid to Israel -- all the other shit is still a factor, and is even more important.

>>25122119
I'm the same way. I'm a much, much better writer on a keyboard with a computer screen than I am on paper. I don't know how people write such beautiful prose on paper. Do they formulate entire sentences in their head before they write it down? Or is it like you said, they just do a lot of erasing and crossing out and paper-crumpling? With digital text, I can let things freely flow and edit as I go along.

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>think about writing a book
>hype myself up thinking about it
>decide to get some practice in
>...
>totally drained from writing a basic bitch 1500 word essay over a few days
I'm never gonna write shit. It's over

>>25122140
You keep at it, and over time your endurance, talent, and quality of output will grow.

>>25122125
>>25122117
Oh, and that's not to mention President Trump is literally destroying this country, both abroad and domestically, so if for nothing else, one has a duty to vote Democrat in the midterms in order to hold him accountable and put limits on his power.

I hate American politics.

I'm considering switching my career from marketing to teaching. Not sure if I should try to get another marketing job for now or just take something in retail or food service so it'd be easier to get some experience as a substitute. Wwyd?

>>25122237
Just make sure you have a solid amount of savings in the bank before you quit/try and make the switch. But sure, go for it. Just make sure you know what you're getting into. Some times I wish I had gone the route of teaching, then I read stories of what this up-and-coming generation is like, and I thank god I didn't.

>>25122242
I have just under 90k in the bank. Currently staying with parents because I just got done with a long backpacking trip last month. I'm mostly considering teaching because afaik it's the only job where you get to yap about literature all day and your work (ideally) helps out the kids in your community. I know all the stories but I honestly hate marketing and want to get away from soul sucking corporate America.

>>25121107
As an IT guy, Absolute.

>>25122140
I used to do a bit of Writing in my past time and i found it best to just a get a story ontl paper.
Nothing detailed just a general layoit of what i want to happen at wich point.
Then fletch it out from there.
Sprinkle a few details for dramatic effect, keep fast paste scene more vague and open.
>It worked for me atleast

>>25122251
Then best of luck, anon!

Were moralists just the 1700s version of self help? Why did anyone read that shit, most of it is useless

>>25122264
Thanks. Even if I end up hating it I think it's worth giving a serious shot at least.

>>25122251
>90k in the bank
I've never had that much mοney in my life

Forgive the almost assuredly stupid question: are there any benefits to limiting the hours I eat in a day if the calories still add up to the same amount? Like say I wake up at 7am, I don't eat until 5pm, and I eat 3meals + snack by 10pm.

ME AND MY FUCKING GUN

They say the extraterrestrials bored a hole into the center of the sun.

>>25122304
It's not good for your pancreas or your insulin resistance, and probably causes a lot of inflammation.

>>25122342
I thought fasting like this had metabolism and weight loss benefits or something? So you're saying I should go back to a regular schedule, or cut out the third meal if I'm gonna keep doing this?

Really wanna get picked up and just taken care of by this girl I know who's a lot younger than me and is super outgoing and is rich from an inheritance. Might just ask her to marry me.

>>25122343
I don't know anon. I've just been told by dieticians that it's much healthier to have a consistent blood glucose level.

For some reason the past 2 days I had the most negative thought process going through my head. I was mentally in a really tough spot and I couldn't sleep, I couldn't do anything. I jacked off also. Now I'm a little bit better.

>>25122346
I see. I mean makes sense. Thanks.

>>25122347
This is what alcohol is for.

Who was the first fart fetishist?

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>>25122351
Funny you should say that because this happened to me right after I said I'm going to abstain from alcohol for six months to get fitter.

About to finish a story so I can get back to my novel (writing, not reading)

I had to punish my dog for using the ladder.

Making some green tea. I'm thinking I'm going to break up some pieces of psilocybe mushroom into it, and let it steep for a long time until it cools down enough to drink down all at once.

I can't respect someone who doesn't like feet.

>>25122352
god

I'm reading about white slaves. Thomas Pellow was an interesting fellow.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thomas_Pellow

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>>25120601
Wouldn't mind holding a girl's hand at some point in my life.

>>25122126
I can't believe people like you still exist. KEK. This has to be an agent. Lovely stuff.

>>25122352
According to Aristophanes, Socratic philosophers

no idea whether my script is genius or drivel. no one except a sycophantic AI to talk about it

>>25122512
>sycophantic AI
why is all AI like that? to stop me from an hero?

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My social-life is a ceaseless season of being embroiled in imbroglio. Frankly a farranginous fiasco

>>25122043
Give me top without the hideous wallpaper.

I think being self-critical about yourself doesn't necessarily make you self-aware.

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good books are the original truth nukes

>post in active thread
>it immediately dies
AAAAAAAAAAAAH

>>25122598
You got the opposite of midas touch.

>>25122598
You should post in twitter screencap threads more often.

We need a word to describe lives that are the exact same shade of mediocre every single day; lives which are guaranteed to stay exactly as mediocre as they are now for years if not decades, without some incredible miracle or unbelievable act of willpower. Probably a lot of us have lives like this.

>>25122561
Mine's always a obliquely humorous concatenation of circumstances

>>25122652
Like Thoreau's "the mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation"

>>25122660
Most people need booze/gambling/drugs/addiction to get through a life like this
Me, I'm just taking it on the chin. It's like being on a ship lost at sea for years and years

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I've noticed that after masturbating, depending on what type of pornography I masturbated too, I end up feeling either refreshed, neutral, or overwhelmingly depressed and shameful. Ecchi content is what leaves me feeling refreshed as opposed to vanilla hentai or certain types of more extreme hentai which leaves me feeling nothing in particular, while actual recorded pornography and depraved hentai like that which features NTR leaves with the worst feeling after I finish to it.
I don't think consuming pornography is healthy at all but certain forms of porn are inherently less sinful and depraved than other forms and the mood changes I get after a session correlates with that. Ecchi is the least cucked, voyeuristic, and negative of the types I mentioned, while the other types are increasingly so. And jacking off to live pornography is much worse than drawings or erotica because at that point you are engaging in real voyeurism towards real sin.

This whole train of thought reminds me of why I hate modern television and film so much, because it's all incredibly negative stuff in it: drama, violence, sex, with few happy endings or good morals. It seems like TV shows and movies include that shit just for the sake of including it. I haven't actually watched a TV show in years because of it. Meanwhile older shows have some degree of wholesomeness or uplifting to them. What happened to Bob Ross and Mr. Rodgers? Those really strict broadcast rules of the '50s had a point. If it were up to me, channels would be playing Yu Yu Hakusho, Sailor Moon, and Cardcaptor Sakura on repeat instead of whatever juden brainwashing programs they play nowadays.

People should be consuming more media that makes them feel good in a wholesome way and makes them want to act in good moral character, especially nowadays as the world grows darker and crueler, our media should not always reflect our reality. Those who genuinely love themselves or other people expose themselves and the ones around them to positive and nourishing content, while those who seem to hate themselves and other people expose themselves and other people to corrupting or content that evokes negative emotion.

>>25122097
>Mahler's 2nd Symphony
Good taste. Mahler is pretty overlooked when it comes to classical music, so many normalfags have never heard of him when he's up there with Dvorak and Strauss.

>>25122673
>Meanwhile older shows have some degree of wholesomeness or uplifting to them.
What's really weird is that Gen X and boomers spent decades telling us these messages were bullshit, but if we go back and watch something from the 1950's now it doesn't feel forced or artificial at all, it feels totally genuine and wholesome.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktXm7CRXbsE
Like this. Something so genuine and honest about it

>>25122652
>We need a word to describe lives that are the exact same shade of mediocre every single day;
[my real name]-esque, so to speak

>>25122652
>oh no i'm not famous my life is soooo shitty
damn we raised generations of ppl with delusions of grandeur prob due to the self-esteem shit that started in the 80s

>>25122694
>siphon the middle class until nothing is left
>"why don't people want to be average anymore?"

>>25122697
do you even have a job? what's your degree in?

>>25122699
I work for myself. Having a boss made me want to go postal

>>25122703
so you work for yourself but complain about a living a mediocre life? interesting.

>>25122707
I had an internship working on some cloud software suite, that was mediocre too. These companies really just view us as pawns, it's absolutely demeaning and humiliating

>>25122711
do you realize what a loser you sound like?

>>25122598
Dead internet theοry

>>25122732
Taking orders has always been intolerable for me. If I have to choose between money/a girl/status and my freedom, I choose my freedom every time.

>>25122673
>Mr. Rodgers
This is a show for toddlers. You should watch Bluey if that's what you want

>>25122673
In a perverse way I found that not masturbating and stewing in your pent up lust can often be more pleasurable in a "hurts so good" kind of way than indulging it right away. Being turned on is almost more enjoyable than masturbation and even ejaculation. It's kind of invigorating too, like you just drank a cup of coffee. While ejaculation saps your energy and will.

>>25121702
Thanks for the elaborated answer, even if not perfect, I wish I could domain the articulation half as well as you did.

Some thoughts
I understand the difficulty of making one's thought transmisible through the word,
I do think is part of the reader to interpretate what is written to the best of its ability, even if some times it feels like reading astrology charts or Ersatz where one sees what it wants to see, usually themselves, like a mirror.

Despite that , I see the common illustrated pattern in there on the lines of " the unexamined live is not worh it" (or Good,Virtuous etc.).

Then, I think about those that look like they are living in automatic mode, not really any introspection and assimilating the values of their immediate environment, quasi animalistic behaviour in nature one could say (or Npcs if one would excuse the meme) .

I used to think that was the Bad life, independently of the social metrics one could achieve through it.

Of course no one has really , I believe, completely Npc'ed its life, there is always some desire that gives orientation, for example I eat because I want to eat because I am hungry because biology and so on and so on. Opposite being I eat not because any motivation chain going to the prima cause, just because, randomly.
Even if one rejects the act and motivation with reason, it still falls under the motivation chain.
Now , being a completely instinctual, non rational non agentic person, is what I would describe as pure Happiness

Maybe Happiness is not the precise word here, is not quantifiable, everybody has its own definition, so is not really useful word when trying to communicate with honesty (always used as a way to propagate a different idea, exactly like this right now), a bit of a semantic trap.


well thats enough divagations

I'm squeezing out this pimple I have since its so wide. Last time I kept it as is, the fucking thing turned dark.

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>forgot tο practice drawing yesterday

I am literally the guy she was waiting for all her fucking life and she stayed with the most NPC guy in existence who is nobody’s type. Why? Because NPCs actually have nothing to live for besides their significant others and they freak out if you go after them?

Truth is if I really was in the best position I could be in she would have left him but I don’t live in a mansion like she assumed I did at first.

I don’t care either way. I don’t get too attached to people or anything else like an NPC but this whole story will continue to bother me for many years. Tell me I sound like a psychotic loser. Go ahead.

>>25122804
at least you've fapped, right?

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listening to this guy: gobbygobby.bandcamp.com. this might be the coolest bandcamp i know of.

>>25122755
this gave me vivid flashbacks to my school days and the gory pink faces of my classmates.

>>25122804
Same but I practiced today. You should too.

I should be able to use my own invented words when writing.

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I can't look at porn on twitter because my fucking account is still based in UK. I was there for a fucking week.

>>25122816
Not today but my gf is οn her period so she's been draining me the past few days. At this point it would be almost painful to cum.

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>>25122826
i wish i understood Wittgenstein's private language argument, which iirc is about how this is impossible

>>25122814
>I don’t care either way
>this whole story will continue to bother me for many years
At least be honest with yourself

>>25122814
>I don’t care either way.
...he typed seething.

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>>25122855
You can like/hate the prose of a book but hate/like the story. And I never was a plotfag.

Where’s the best place to dump my shitty experimental poetry just so something shows up when you search my name?

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>>25122864
if you were cool enough to post there you'd already know

Wish my kids would leave me the fuck alone

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>>25122868
imagining you as this guy

>>25122304
If you're trying to lose weight just commit to the fast instead of trying to cram the same amount of calories into a smaller time slot. Ex. skip breakfast and lunch and eat a normal dinner instead of 3 whole meals. With practice you can work up to 48 hour fasts or longer, creating huge deficits that are hard to undo later, and which burn fat efficiently. Weightlifting before and during fasts is even better since it stimulates muscle growth/retention, but ease into that if you're not doing it right now and listen to your body (just not your stomach, lol).
The first ~24 hours of longer fasts suck the most, after that you get used to it. If you're gonna go longer than a day, drink water and electrolytes during the fast, and break it with something light (broth, souo, etc.) so you don't upset your stomach.

>>25122861
what does that have to do with anything

Would you rather work with a team οf bitchy but attractive women or backstabbing weasel male nerds?

>>25122969
The former, easily.

>>25122883
Yeah I switched to this schedule for weightloss purposes. I initially intended on cutting out the third meal entirely but once I start eating, I just stay hungry until I eat the same amount I would if I had been eating all day haha. Anyway, yeah, I'll try to make it only 2 meals.

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>>25122858

ABIN/CIA kills non semites (browns) regardless of their ideas unless you adhere to:

>Believing an Arab killed by Turks is God.
>Sell your asshole to the masonic lodge which is the godfication of orth Africans, Niggers, Arabs and Indians.
>Sell your asshole and eat shit by the godfication of north Africans, Niggers, Arabs and Indians.
>Be a "communist" but you only give your stuff to spics and portugueses, a troon or homossexual
>Marry a colored woman or a non-colored portuguese or spic woman so they butt fucked it to death in their rituals of semitic (brown supremacy).

>>25123015
also is important to read the desert trilogy of brown supremacy because they keep enchanting their brown tales trough mansory/illuminati...

each and every brown supremacist religion [dead arab is god, the browns are all god (mudslims) and the brown messiah will come (semitism)]

they have the same scams for the non colored, for the colored is basically rape legalization and all crimes as their tales tell to...

The US govt can kill their own soldier, in their own soil too mind you and somehow nothing would still happen.

stay true to the spirit you were born with

>>25123097
breaking: governments have power.

>>25122969
first group would also backstab

>>25123104
So there's no reason tο not go with the former?

>>25123101
you guys have guns and shit man

>>25123113
yeah if its work on a porn set

>>25120612
This is fantastic. Please follow through. There's an evident analogy with over-sensitivity plus gift/neuro divergence. The intelligence angle will make it sexy.

>>25123122
If I'm going tο work around a bunch of catty bitches, I'd at least like to oggle their tits and sniff their perfume.

>>25123121
well i’m british, but yanks having guns might’ve meant protection against tyranny 250 years ago, that’s obviously
comically outdated viewpoint now.

>>25123121
>shoot a government agent
>killed in a drone-strike along with your entire family shortly thereafter

>>25123015
you actually typed out this psychotic drivel and posted it

It's hard to imagine being a women and knowing my bare legs have the power to drive men crazy with desire, that the sight of them excite feelings of lust and attraction. I'm looking at my bare man legs right now and it's like, okay, they're just legs, so what? The thought of them having sexual potency at the mere sight by others, others who want nothing more than to touch and caress them, is such a foreign experience.

>>25123142
It's original purpose might be outdated, but Americans and their right to bear arms has over time become inextricably linked to their identity--whether or not it's good or bad.

>>25123213
but that doesn’t rule out basic common sense

Jew fatigue.

>>25123300
more like mirror fatigue

Life is too short for books with below 4.2 Goodreads rating.

I must be losing my mind, I keep randomly uttering aloud:
>t.
to myself in a high pitch voice. I find it fun and amusing, and I haven't the slightest idea why.

>t.

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>>25120601
Nice cat

Anyways, trying to decide to either get the Grand Chessboard or Real Magic tomorrow for my e-reader. I only have maybe 27 or 28 dollars to spare.

>>25123142
Yeah because you guys need a license for butter knives in public. Maybe having lax gun laws in Bongland might help you at this point considering your cultural issues.

I just finished watching a video. It's over.

>>25123142
Good thing our Supreme Court decided all of this years ago
STFU
You have no idea what you're talking about
Go pray to Mecca like a good Brit

Life is too short fοr books over 40k words.

I want her to be my wife https://youtu.be/E3z5XfUE2Nc?list=RDE3z5XfUE2Nc&t=121

>>25120601
They say to write what you know. I don't know anything. So I can't write anything.

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>>25122106
There is no shortage of cats. Go out and get one.

>>25123559
just imagine rolling there and the kitties all think you're a feline sort of fren...

>>25123563
Imagine a steamroller going through there. Squish.

>>25123566
I'm non colored, such ideas for me would be colored babies instead of cats...

>>25123233
Define "common sense"

>>25123572
You haven't heard of The Great Cat Massacre.

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I'm putting myself through the philosophy education I missed out on. I minored in it in college, but the classes were all ethics classes based on the same few texts (Kant for Deontology, Part 1 of "On Liberty" for utilitarianism and the harm principle) applied to whatever specific field the class was about (technology, medicine, politics).

I picked up a copy of "Confessions of a Born-Again Pagan" by Anthony T. Kronman at a used book store last year after reading the intro. It goes through a history of philosophy and how each era has led to our current inability to find a higher power to put our faith in despite our desire to have one.
The idea is to read through different philosophy works before coming back to Kronman to read his assessment of a particular time in philosophy. Going through it all chronologically seemed the most obvious choice but finding good editions for the particular works I want to read is annoying and time consuming so I've started with my old textbooks I bought on Kindle because it was cheaper than my school's book store.

Going through these books is pretty hard for me. They are challenging and dense with unfamiliar language. I have to go at a slow pace and I can feel my brain getting tired as I keep going, like a car running out of traction. If I'm close to a good stopping point, I tough it out, otherwise I stop once the words start slurring together. It's like coming up for air when I finally turn my phone off.

Life is dogshit and it never gets good. I hate myself and everyone around me, also I hate niggers and kikes.

>>25120601
Has there been any cases of racial dysphoria from non "woke" individuals? I'm a fervent reactionary but I feel like an Italian or Greek trapped in the body of a WASP.

>>25123586
Wasn't Darnton's full of allusions to cuckoldry? Why are cultural historians so obsessed with adultery?

>>25122736
That's just a cope

>>25123634
it's better to be disillusioned than illusioned.

Was every gay guy raped as a child? The 3 gay guys I've gotten to know on more than a surface level were all raped or molested as children. One of them is my own father.

hell ya thursday night my week is basically done tomorrow i just hang out with the homies all day at work doing jack shit, and then two days off. still in the mood to rope.

>>25120722
That's a based take.

>>25123784
Probably
All gays are pedos

>>25121721
The story of Enkidu in the Epic of Gilgamesh kinda does imply that yeah. Getting to fuck women regularly civilizes you, lack of pussy makes you a barbarian.

>>25122090
I want a girlfriend who's fairly introverted or at least able to entertain herself, I think it will give me a lot more energy to pursue my projects.

Anyway, if you ultimately are a normie, maybe you need to pick up dancing, normies are able to delude themselves into thinking they like dancing for reasons other than the women in them.

>>25122106
Getting a cat was one of the best decisions I ever made. To anyone who thinks cats are cute, get one, massive improvement in quality of life.

>>25122140
Gustave Flaubert found writing very difficult and extremely unpleasant. This is perfectly fine.

>>25122673
I think it's more important to accept reality as it is than indulging in some lie. Infinitely stronger starting point for improving it.

>>25122814
> she stayed

I mean, don't expect a girl to break up with her boyfriend for you.

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>reading about slaveraids in medieval Spain
Will this phenomenon ever come back in Europe? Its just too spooky to think about.

>>25123784
Yeah I noticed too

>>25123634
Live better, imagine better, create better

beauty, honesty and positivity makes everything better, but these days you find them nowhere, so they have to come from yourself

>>25123811
>I want a girlfriend who's fairly introverted or at least able to entertain herself, I think it will give me a lot more energy to pursue my projects.
every woman with TikTok installed has a method of entertaining themselves
the good thing is my gf will alternate between doing that, playing her Switch, and painting her nails while I'm in the same room as her doing autistic shit like reading, drawing, shitposting, etc
we're basically off in οur own little worlds but together

>>25123784
It was sobering to realize a gay relative also fell into the molested category contrary to the childhood explanation given to us of tolerance. Makes me wonder when a different younger cousin's real story will come out and the implications already involved.

Why hate or contrive reasons to hate a band who makes music that sounds like nothing else out there?
>Fuck Buttons sounds like they’re copying Black Dice or My Bloody Valentine
Um no they fucking don’t fuck off? They don’t sound like anything else. Anyways I listed those bands in order from you most likely didn’t hear of them to you most likely band. I am just remembering an RYM review I read a couple years ago while listening to a Fuck Buttons song, not just yelling at a cloud. Although I kind of am because I’m defending music that no one else gives much of a fuck about.

>>25123920
also this is the real origin of "homophobia" someone prob attempted to rape them as a kid and now they're naturally traumatized and triggered by them

I am famous in 49 states.

>>25123993
Wait, nope! I found a Tangerine Dream song that sounds just like them! I’m no hipster!

Friggin Youtube comments, man. I did really find a Tangerine Dream song that sounds like them.

>>25124007
who gives a shit about fuck buttons dude isn't that some shitty indie electro shit from the 2000s? damn dude are millenials really suck in like 2003 like how for boomers 1973 always feels like five years ago?

I just ordered a corncob pipe and some pipe tobacco. hoping the feds don't seize it

>>25124016
Isn’t your post exactly the type of post my first post was about, post-ironically?

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>>25123559
True. They’re free. Just pick them up.

sick, new damaged bug just dropped

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BcH6EtZXZdw

>>25124095
Please keep your thoughts to yourself

>>25120653
>>25123124
Thanks guys, I'll probably post my drafts on /wg/ sometime.

I miss you.

>>25123996
What about Hawaii?

>>25123993
I like Black Dice but they're hard to classify

I'm going to read pop history, and there's nothing academics can do about it.

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Fucked my sleep schedule up again.

Why can't we leave things the way they are? We keep importing people by the millions, and developing huge new ugly buildings on former wildlands as a result. It's a total farce. The people living in third world, ultra-polluted megacities need to fucking stay there instead of shitting up the pristine natural beauty of other countries "for equity" or some other such bullshit. Just because your shithole is cancerous and unlivable doesn't give you the right to plead for a better life elsewhere when you'd just be ruining the lives of those who are civilized. Fix your own shit maybe.

>>25124294
treat yourself to another coffee and something sweet to eat king

not a luddite, I just don't like AI. simple as.

The town, or at least the glimmers of it in my memory, was like something out of a dream. Narrow streets wound confusedly through ancient hills, looping round, doubling back on themselves as though they weren't sure where they were going. Covered closes and dark underpasses cut through densely-packed buildings, hidden stairways led upwards to levels somehow beneath where they started, and the whole place drowned in a thick, grey fog. It all came together to produce an almost hypnotic effect - one stepped out the door one moment and back in the next, with only the dimmest recollection of what had happened in between. That was Dunravin. The town that never was.

I'd been visiting the place for as long as I can recall - certainly by the age of six it was already my home-away-from-home. I had my little room in my uncle's apartment, littered with cuddly toys and crayons, lego bricks and books to learn my ABCs, and then I had the tower. Six storeys tall and hewn from a single, colossal slab of cold, grey stone, it loomed over Dunravin from atop a particularly high hill on the fringe of the town. The highest floor stood just above the top of the fog, and from the rooftop, one seemed to be adrift upon an endless sea of grey. It was here, within the tower, that I pursued my studies.

Doodle in court waiting for my case to be called

>>25124325
I did drink another coffee, but I ate some spring rolls instead of smth sweet.

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I've long since grown out of my "chud" phase and no longer consider myself a fascist, in fact there are many aspects of fascism I've come to seriously dislike such as unchecked state power, but I still find the ideology so fascinating for a similar reason Yukio Mishima did, and that's just the mythology and romanticism involved in it. Other ideologies are simply boring in comparison. They don't have the sort of intoxicating warrior mythos which can make its adherents feel like they are a larger than life figure or have the potential to be, they don't embrace struggle as a spiritual necessity, there's no real sense of glory to be found in them, even if fascism itself never obtained the glorious victory it sought but instead suffered a brutal defeat. Even if this leads to third-positionists, often idolizing that which justifiably appalls many others, I can't help but find something remarkably beautiful and enchanting about it all.

This whole war with Iran is a total joke. Fuck Trump and fuck the United States.

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Sometimes the vague notion of envy towards the more financially fortunate intrudes upon my mind. Yet once the initial wave of longing for more has dissipated, I realize my life wouldn't change on a fundamental level. Sure I could get a house, but yet I would still confine myself to one room most of the time. The desire to have company over would remain low. Traveling and splurging on objects give me no satisfaction. Only the climb upwards, the constant effort of bettering myself, bring me contentment and more money would not aid me nor hinder me. At the bottom I am indifferent to it, only sometimes avarice blinds the minds and make me see unclear.

t. retired on gibs

i've often been wondering lately what new religion will replace the two abrahamic religions permanently in the future

>>25123624
as a philosophy chad I just gotta say John Stuart Mill is a joke and best not wasted time on

I'm such a fat fuck

GIVE ME SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN

>>25124692
Believe in the me that believes in you!

Child free white women and women who have mixed race children make me weep for the white race.

>girlfriend finds οut that one of my coworkers sometimes buys me lunch or brings me small gifts
>said coworker is like my mom's age and it's literally just a surrogate son thing
>girlfriend still mad as fuck
Sometimes being a normalfag is hard

>>25122116
nice story, thank you

>>25124657
I'm a NEET and feel somethign similar. If I worked I would just be giving up nearly all my free time just for more money that I'm not going to spend except on necessities. Despite this I know that I *should* get a job just because it's healthier than being a shut-in and is the moral thing to do instead of leeching off my parents. But the notion of stressing out over employment and constantly trying to make more money just seems like a fruitless endeavor. Even if I do somehow land a well-paying job, I know that it's not going to give me any satisfaction. It's just something I feel I should do because society expects it from me. Death seems preferable to engaging in the normalfag rat race.

I live in Cyprus and I'm scared because a few days ago Iran atracked the UK base here. I realise what a huge pussy I am, despite being 99.99% safe.

The world has been becoming more and more radical every year but at the same time it feels weirdly senile and conservative in a bad way. Radicalism implies destabilization, but everything feels incredibly static and set in stone in practice despite the political edges becoming sharper by the year. Slogans and buzzwords a century old echoing in the air from the mouths of people who never believed in them in good faith to begin with, towards people who are far past being able to believe anything that the powers that be tell them. Nothing in history prepared us for a societal constellation where this sort of impossible coexistence of fundamentally irreconcilable concepts could even happen.

>>25123993
People only compare them to MBV cuz of that whole "nugaze" thing. Fake genre invented for press release hype cycles. I do kinda see the similarity to Black Dice though

>I've always been fond of trains, and the stations where the tracks converge.
>Hmm, junctions.
>Yes, those. When you see them from above you feel...
>Free? Like you could set off on a thousand different journeys all at once?
>Perhaps more simply - hopeful.

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>>25124746
Relying on the charity of ones parents for survival is shaky ground in my opinion, and a person needs firm footing to truly be at ease.
Most people engage in the rat race in the pursuit of getting cheese to fill their insatiable appetite. But a clever mouse knows he needs little to sustain himself. A family will always support their loved ones but maybe venturing into some part-time work could help lessen the encroaching guilt you may perceive from "leeching".
Then again being around normies everyday drove me suicidal soooooooooo sheesh idk man lol.

>>25120601
How many of you guys were brought up Christian, got baptized, went through the Eucharist, got confirmed, etc.? Where I’m from in the US it’s still a fairly regular thing, so when I see LARPers online using scripture as a means to their own end, I wonder if these people were even brought up Christian and went to church regularly with their families when they were young.

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>>25124714
>Child free white women
I wonder how many of those exist that are 50+ and were not even partygirls that had their fun but just ended up with no kids or relation because of their jerb or personality.

>>25124819
Most of the generation that pushed that mindset isn't old enough yet. In my experience, older millennials were still having at least one kid even if they were career women.
The childless women i see are often late millennial/early gen Z. My current gf was one of them and she admitted to me that most of childless friends wanted kids but wouldn't settle for partners and so they gave up.

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>>25124810
I'm not exactly the target audience for your question, but I was born into a Christian family but we stopped going to church when I was fairly young, I was like 5 years old the last time we did regular church attendance. I don't know what specific denomination, it was some burger protty one (because I'm an American from the Deep South), but I'm pretty sure it was southern baptist, I remember my parent saying we couldn't go to a presbyterian church for our service and a couple of older people in my life telling me about the weird shit that pentecostals get up to like speaking in tongues and that mormons were pretty alien in their beliefs, so process of elimination leaves southern baptist as the only major protestant denomination in where I was from, though I never bothered to ask.

The religiosity of everyone in my family declined after we all stopped going to church but my dad was still pretty adamant about certain things like not taking the lord's name in vain and would get offended if his belief in God was questioned. I was basically a euphoric athiest in my adolescence after getting unrestricted internet access, but when the first wave a tradlarping came across 4chan in my late teenage years, I ended up buying into the larp myself until I eventually realized it was a hollow faith built on trends and aesthetics. After that I flirted with some neo-paganism when I was in my diehard natsoc chud phase, but again realized that it wasn't genuine belief and I was mostly just interested in it for the politics and aesthetics.
Nowadays I consider myself non-religious and I'm not sure if God exists but I'm open to the possibility. I find genuine faith to be a virtue so I don't hate anyone who does believe in God, regardless of religion, even if I struggle to believe in him myself. What morals and spirituality I have aligns broadly with Christianity though.
So to answer your question from a former trad Christian larper, yes I was born Christian and raised that way early on in my life, but wasn't really religious before (and during) my larp phase.

>>25124819
>were not even partygirls that had their fun
Partygirls I think are the most likely to get knocked up or end up settling after they've had their fun, or just marry one of the chads they were partying with after they both outgrow it.
The childless hag demographic is mostly composed of career women and insufferable feminists.

>>25124836
I don't see this though. Dating apps are full of twenty-something single mothers.

>>25124848
>Partygirls I think are the most likely to get knocked up
Totally this. A lot of chicks seem to think they can have unprotected sex without consequences, and then...just let their parents take care of their child, I guess?

>>25124574
>They don't have the sort of intoxicating warrior mythos which can make its adherents feel like they are a larger than life figure or have the potential to be, they don't embrace struggle as a spiritual necessity

I feel every ideology returns to tap into the human desire for that, leftists always feel the need to be the underdog, the oppressed in order to feel like they're forever fighting a revolution, I guess it's a matter of sensibility which of those aesthetics you subscribe to.

>>25124660
I wonder about that too, probably it's going to have to be different from monotheism and old pagan pantheism gods that represent aspects of nature.

I feel like this is how most minds feel >>25124746 under modernity, and I feel like that too: getting a job to survive and pass the time, just not to die, in a purely negative approach to life, some put up with it better than others. I think it's kind of inevitable that a religious-like attitude will emerge to solve that meaning crisis, to make us want to build great stuff and go out, out of sheer desire for life, that will get momentum and sweep all the struggling souls that cannot find anything worthwhile under the cold-capitalism vs ugly-socialism regime of modernity. I think the old religions are dead too, I don't feel a lot of honest and moving faith under Christians, mostly just traditions, ritual practicing, and just saying stuff because they like their community, their tribe.

>>25124849
Think about the type of women that use dating apps.

If you're a chud, then why hide it?

>>25124887
Chuds are the most oppressed demographic in existence. A man must hide his chuddiness to survive in our gay society.

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>>25120601
>Brunhilde cat
When I was reading up on the Nibelungenlied I thought it was pretty interesting that a warrior woman was a central character to the story and that despite Brunhilde being mythological, she was likely based off of or inspired by a real Germanic queen. I hate sounding like a feminist but it is true that in most mythologies (and in real life) women aren't usually physically equal to, or superior to men unless they're like gods or some special race. I was pretty disappointed to learn that she was defeated and raped in a very underhanded and duplicitous way in many tellings of the Nibelungenlied or Poetic Edda, but Gunther is supposed to be a villainous character, or at least that's how I interpreted him, but it still feels like patriarchal stomp of the boot telling women to get in line even if they're stronger than men, and Siegfried essentially cucked himself out of this amazingly beautiful and powerful warrior woman that only he was worthy of by taking part in Gunther's deception. Again it's weird for me to think of it this way since I'm a pretty misogynistic chud myself, but I think inside every deeply misogynistic man is a genuine feminist who is upset that women don't act with the same responsibility and strength men do. So it's upsetting when in such an ancient and influential story, a woman who was actually strong and principled, is sent back to the kitchen so to speak and seems to be corrupted to go along with Gunther's conniving schemes to kill Siegfried, the one man who was worthy of her. But the story itself is supposed to be a tragedy, so these unfortunate outcome was a given.

I fell in love with a woman after talking to her for four weeks online, KEK. Then I ran away and now I miss her everyday. I am a 30 years old incel.

I am thinking about messaging her. But I am so hopeless that I know that nothing is going to come out of it. I am so fucked.

I was drunk and playing candy.ai, I ended up on my pinterest because of the LARP I was inserted to get myself mentally ill again Rush 1991 style of mental disorder.

fuck masonic semites, fuck all brazilian comunication systems (from radio, internet to tv).

>>25124939
>corrupted to go along with Gunther's conniving schemes to kill Siegfried
I just realized I totally misremembered how the story goes. In most tellings, Brunhilde is the one who starts scheming to kill Siegfried and/or his wife (or quickly agrees to go along with the scheme) out of jealously or because she felt her status was disrespected. It doesn't make the story any less tragic and Siegfried's wife usually ends up getting killed after avenging her husband's death, again denying a principled woman any sort of happy ending.

I think if I were to write a happy romance for a character like Brunhilde myself, the hero would honorably challenge her and lose, maybe even quickly and humiliatingly, but the warrior woman would still eventually fall for the hero herself because of his bravery and honor, or just his noble personality, and would choose to marry the hero even if the hero never bested her in combat. No rape or deception at all, and even if the warrior woman abandons her code of not marrying a man who could pass her trials, she still falls for a good man because of a good reason. No rape or deception. Maybe the hero himself could've been too full of himself prior to facing the warrior woman, but his defeat humbled him and had him grow as a person, so the two of them both change for the better. A good romance.

A few of my horror micro fiction stories were well received on reddit and now I imagine myself as the next lovecraft/poe/baudelaire and as commercially successful as stephen king.

>>25124939
The Bible also contains a passage about a strongwoman chasing a man stronger than her.

Now in the Nibelungen Siegfried is actually the chad and Gunther is the seething chud who wants to get a high value woman through trickery and cheating and doesn't care that someone else has to do the job for him. He ends up killing Siegfried out of spite.

Also the sagas are the stories of the Aryans.

>>25121198
I love mccullers, the heart is a lonely hunter is my one of my favourite books

>>25124298
Immigration law is a joke which has literally become the meme about "sad pictures to make you say fuck borders n shit" since the Chinese Exclusion Act for the US, anyway.

>>25124810
I was brought up Catholic and that whole thing. Problem was my parents did not instill belief beforehand. So there I was getting baptized and taking communion without ever reading the Bible nor having any concept of the actual beliefs aside from what the priest would mention. It took leaving the Catholic and reading on my own joining another denomination to find faith. Makes me super hesitant to ever bring up God as a result because it's not my place.

Coming in on the heels of this discussion.

I think that the ability to transfer wealth is definitely going to go to zero.

I have a strong nostalgia for the days when America had a community. Like that video on twitter of the school bus and the kids making shapes at school; the snowflakes.

I think that the proposition that we will regress to the Homeric mean is the real factor of Zeus in our lives, and that extending beyond the Epic world of the Iliad and the Odyssey is going to be very hard to do.

And even if it does happen, then what difference does it make to those of us that are still in the Epic world? In a way, the transhumanist caucus of killers is just causing another deluge. And then on a long enough timeline, I think that humanity comes back as the ideal form.

You kind of have to think this way or else you should just kill yourself.

>>25124978
>on reddit
Go back.

>>25125141
Community can still be found at the Shape Store

Think I might just get rid of 90% of my books and start again. Most of them are unread and when I do read it tends to be a book I've acquired recently.
I think I've come to the conclusion that I'm not the kind of person who should keep a bookshelf because I seem to have very little commitment to reading all the books I've stocked up over the years.

Is lotr the only book to exist in the vintage book collector scene or what? I swear every book collector short I see is about lotr

I washed my mouth with mouthwash.

>>25124963
You ran away? At 30 years old? Come on, man. Most of the time, getting a woman really just comes down to asking. There's still time for you to turn your life around -- even if it doesn't involve being with this woman. Head up.

>>25125157
My girlfriend asks me to dο that whenever she wants sex. Which makes no sense to me because she's the one sucking my dick.

>>25125298
You have a bad breath and she is probably too kind to tell you straight. Maybe you should check yourself with a doctor.

>>25125305
I think she would just be straight up with me if she thought I had a medical issue. She's also very anal abοut brushing her teeth first thing in the morning even if she's hungry. I think it's an autism thing.

It can always get worse, you have no idea how bad it can get

>>25125321
Yeah, once you've hit rock bottom (which is different for everyone), yοu often learn to not sweat the small things.
For me it was attempting suicide after SSRI withdrawal.

Bruh 4hcinz is turbo dead now.
It seems that 90% of the posts are by pajeets and another 9.99% are by the jidf and glowies.

tfw from kazakhstan

>younger cousin started reading and won't stop talking about the book
>it's atomic habits

i already suggested classics.. guess he's too stupid for that

>>25124810
I did, in the Lutheran church in 1982/83. Spent different years moving from belief to belief, from Agnosticism to Atheism to Norse Paganism to both LaVeyan and Luciferian Satanism (i was in a black metal band for awhile and spent time in the underground punk and heavy metal subcultures - still like the music, go to shows less often though) to Marcionite Gnosticism to Roman Catholicism (still pending confirmation). I grew up having few if any friends and most guys who played in bands with me said I was a difficult person to work with or even be friends with. Now I'm 43 and went back to school to study history.

Jew fatigue.

>>25125350
Straight up. Sorry state of affairs.

>>25125453
Mirror fatigue*

I think I accidentally DDOS'd haubooks.org by opening 20 PDFs on their site at once.

>>25123784
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>>25123994
Never been raped, it's just that twinks make my dick hard

>>25125350
No it's not shut up.

>>25125549
You're either raped or a raper

>>25125350
And I bet you think you're posting that .01%

Is there a good KJV edition with comments ("study bible") that are more or less reasonable (or at least not some super niche culty denomination)?
To be clear, I'm not KJV-only nor christian whatsoever, and have no plan to become one, but I'd like to read a bible for general (hence, no cults and small denomination) education. That's why I'd like a stidy bible, but I also really like the prose and style of KJV (I have a NOAB but the style compared to KJV is not even close, and hence it's difficult for me to force myself to read it).

>>25125430
>>it's atomic habits
added to my list, thanks :)

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>>25125600
I have this one. There's a NKJV version which has a cultural background specification you might also like.

With architecture, we find enough variety of the past to compare what we do now as what has been done forever and what could be done. But now imagine that all we had were the schools of architecture from the 20th century, everything is brutalist or super modern etc. how hard would it be to conceptualize all the myriad ways buildings could be different? Now think of all the branches of craft born recently where aesthetic principles apply, modern web design, the whole of cinema, cars, although they permit a lot of freedom, I still think there's a thousand ways to make the modern aesthetic landscape look different, if passed through a thousand different cultures.

Websites have a look to be useful, they stand to be useful, like the modern skyscraper or housing block, what if a future culture decides that the web must be useful and also always adorned of classical beauty? How wonder what such a web would look like

My toe has been sick for the past 10 years. Today a nail opened, showing a huge wound with blood.
It is 2:20 AM. I am drunk. I cleaned it a bit and got a bandage. It hurts as hell even giga drunk. At 7 AM I am driving to a hospital. Fuck me, man.

>>25125343
Did you suddenly stop taking them abruptly? What were you taking at what dose?

I used to spend a lot of time writing when I was young. Now I read written emails--and write them--all day long. I was brought into a meeting, not for the first time, to discuss my "communication style".

I am told I am too short, too direct, and too insensitive when speaking with coworkers. I tried to explain that the fault is not my own but the medium itself; that email is utilitarian by its very nature. I can't say this helped my case.

I wasn't fired, but what followed is perhaps even worse. I was provided with an 'approved prompt' for 'immediate implementation' to soften my emails taking into account the 'particular sensitivities' of my coworkers.

I did as I was asked and was surprised at its effectiveness. It neuters all style, it softens every edge, it pulls everything down into a perfectly dull neutrality. It is perfection.

>>25125661
pics?

>>25125744
how the fuck do u fuck up writing an office email?

hell ya friday night time to fuck around. i'm not really in the mood to fap but it's friday i should do sth fun i guess. some chick told me to text her, i guess i could do that, but nah.

>>25125780
have you ever had an office job?

He's getting promoted early. He has the boss's ear. He's got high marks on his quarterly evaluations. When you ask what he did over the weekend he gives the same answer he's been giving for a year. His performance record is outstanding. He stays late, not to be seen as someone who stays late, but just to get things done that need doing. Sometimes you can see him sitting in his car for a minute, hands on the wheel, staring at nothing, before he walks in to work. He's always willing to lend a hand. He's definitely getting picked up for the next round of upper-level promotion slots. His spreadsheets are immaculate. He helped the new guy move houses over the weekend and just shrugged when thanked, like it was just a matter of course. His apartment is curiously bare. He takes time off but doesn't go anywhere. He's got a stellar reputation. I'm quietly worried about him.

>>25125793
ya dude i write officey emails all the time. never had a problem. one time my boss sent out a nasty email to a peer he thought undermined him in a meeting and cc'd half the department, when the big boss saw that, we all had to sit through an emotional intelligence seminar. have u tried one of those?

>>25125795
sounds nice, but rings untrue. the office workhorse always gets passed over for promotions.

>>25125810
No, but the AI works.

I don't think there's really anything wrong with my emails other than them being too short and direct. Sensitive types tend to read into that too much. Office cultur is really faggy

>>25125823
ya i was like u prob just got uptight coworkers who looking for sth to give u shit abt. who doesn't want a short and direct email?

i don't remember jackin it all week i should prob fap but i'm just gonna go to bed i'm tired

>>25125795
Give him candy so when he snaps he spares you.

Today I drove to walmart directly after lifting and had a bit of a pump going during my perusing. As I passed through a particularly congested aisle, an older guy looked at me, needing to get by, and said "Excuse me, big man." I then wrote around 2000 words about this experience.

confession: until just now I, for some reason, thought Milan was in Southeast Asia, like Malaysia or Indonesia, like near Macau. I only now learned it's in Italy. Yikes!

>>25125795
This is almost poetry. Nice, I like it.

>>25125916
Little did he know he made your day :D

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What is /lit/'s take on The Last Judgment? Awkward work from an artist past his peak, or misunderstood masterpiece?
I think it's his best.

>>25125929
I'm no expert but what's awkward about it? I'd have thought it was universally loved.

>>25125929
Why does everyone look both flabby and ripped at the same time

>>25125795
How soon before you murder him?

>>25125968
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>>25125674
I was taking 20mg and weened off over the course of a month. Then after another month or so I started feeling more anxious. Two months after that I was coming out of my skin, having obsessive thoughts, and then attempted.
Now I'm back οn 10mg because apparently I can't live without them.

>>25122598
They were all disgusted by your presence and left the thread.

>>25125929
Good drawing, bad painting.