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>>25155123there is nothing more finethan methere is nothing more finethan when i will be gonethere is nothing more finethan ease of expensethere is nothing more finethan my time spent
The shape of my thinking is right now a thing, tomorrow a thung. I have seven hands, seven hands all at rest. There are twin cities aloft just here in my bed, where I sit and lay down on my side. The food is good enough, as long as the light stays dim and away (a treat). I have really no cause for much at all, even a thought will dismay. The shirking and harking and hoofing around that I see -- them all -- is mightily unsound, four score enemy to that life light sifting through any curtain, a tree at dawn, what not.How silly a birth among thissens. I could pick seeds from a tomato for years the way they try harsh to invade my nooks, your nooks. Even the pastel brown on this painting nearby come costing.
>>25155123Just found out I need to take a humongous shit again! Books for this feel? Really, recc me books pls.
>>25155226again?
>>25155226
I don't get why so many guys are really into fuckin' girls doggystyle/from behind. I love missionary. I love everything about it. You get to see the girl's stunning face, her expressions of pleasure, her sculpted breasts, all while getting to maneuver her legs, whether that be wrapped in them to so you can feel them all around your body, or configured in whichever angle you need while you do your thing. And perhaps most importantly, it allows you to kiss her breasts or face, suck her nipples, or bury your face in her hair. I don't think I've ever desired to fuck a girl from behind because all of this is so obviously superior. What's the counterargument? If it's as something as lame as "well when you fuck 'em from the back, that's true domination" don't even bother responding because that in itself doesn't do anything for me.
>>25155248No one is going to counter argue against a person like you
>>25155248True
>>25155226brandon sanderson
>>25155168Cringe.
>>25155248Shit like this makes me confused about being a virginSure, this sounds awesome but is it really? You are risking diseases, even pregnancy with this. Not to mention if you fall in love with that girl after that insane spike of emotions, you will most likely be heartbroken and/or fall into a depression. I had a terrible heartbreak before and i didnt even fuck the girl, i imagine it wouldve been 100 times worse if i did. Not to mention girls flaky nature when she later tells you it didnt mean anything and then she moves on to a next guy.Sex sounds awesome but i really do think christians forbade it outside of marriage for a reason
>>25155248Angle of penetration for me personally. I got to really dig her out and it's just a tad bit easier this way. Missionary is superior still, as you assert
>>25155248Put a mirror in front of her or something and you'll get it
>>25155287Sex is great, and worthwhile, and occasionally transcendent if it involves love, but anyone who thinks it's the pinnacle of pleasure and life is probably low IQ and never had a sublime aesthetic experience. It's still great to do though.
>>25155284>stuck in the mortal realm
>>25155292>sublime aesthetic experienceDo explain what would that be. Im wondering if i ever had such experience. Probably yes while listening to music
>>25155297...you're on /lit/, I shouldn't have to explain it to you.
>>25155297Look at your wall. Your wall is no longer a wall. You wall is quite nice now isn't it.
>>25155287Yes, it is. Every day constantly nonstop? No, not really. Your issue appears to be you're emotionally fragile. Everyone gets their heart broken, it's universal. Sex isnt like in an anime where you get mind broken and become twice as loyal because of the power of the pussy. Some pussy is that good, but not forever. Diseases? Rare if you're not an idiot riding the tow bicycle bareback. Pregnancy? Rare, it happens but every woman is on birth control, and always pull out or wear a condom. Why do you care what women think? Why does it need to be some magical activity? Booty just booty, and sometimes you just need to shoot your shot and get shot down. It's nice but it isnt everything there is.
>>25155248I don't know what you're talking about, missionary is definitely the preference for most people right now especially since porn videos psyoped zoomers into wanting to lick a woman's feet while fucking her
My head is full of chaos and I only do stuff at the very last moment because only then I feel compelled to take action and make decisions.
>>25155297Do you smoke cigarettes? Like that after fapping and having a brief workout.
>>25155313>doing something at any moment other than the last>this being possible
>>25155317Yes, I do. Are you saying the sublime aesthetic experience is smoking a cigarette after masturbating or a workout?
I feel your energy. You are no friend of mine.
I am smolting but I am not a fish. I am not a fish nor am I a guava. I am not hung upon two stakes for cooking and I am not some lava. My skin is normally temperatured because of my immune system. If i were to fall eight hundred feet onto a pile of sand I would fall face up and blow air to aid physic's terminal velocity. Come quietly with me. You are of course, the wrong shape, but you may slink along. But you will of course put on airs. An attitude. A stink. Because you have seen it done and disagree. You disagree, and they disagree, and we all, except for me, just can't stand a thing can we. I've eaten enough this morning to last until this evening's morning come.
>>25155284anon do you not realize that putting a period after a single word is high on the list of the most cringe thing a person can do
>>25155297>Do explain what would that be.Have you read Shakespeare? Have you listened to Beethoven's 9th Symphony?
>>25155356>greeting card levels of generic
How is your health, anon? Do you exercise or follow a particular diet?
>>25155365Yes anon I walk 40 minutes a day at 3mph and 8 incline level on a treadmill. And then after that I do some free weights for my arm. And then after that I do some weird core machine for my tummy.AS FOR EATING I just make sure not to eat too much and eat my veggies every two or three days.
>>25155360...I mean they're recognized as the pinnacle for a reason.
>>25155356At this point no matter how revered or exalted an artpiece is, at the end of the day i just consoom. If i were a 19th century peasant without internet and by chance i heard beethoven somewhere played live, it would probably have huge impact. But since i grew up with unlimited access to music it doesnt have the same effect. It doesnt matter to me whats considered to be the greatest, at this point personal preference plays a role and something that might not be as revered might move me much stronger. And it happens, a lotSo i guess i experienced the sublime( being in nature, too)
>>25155378You can 'consoom' the best art still. I listen to an unhealthy amount of music each day but it's all classical.Beethoven is eternal.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=etKWIGMgVIU
>>25155296>>25155309>cringelord>multireplies>thinks he invented>Checks out.
>>25155324Masurbating that was a work out. But no, until you've banged your person cant really compare. That's just want sex feels like in general.
>>25155375You're really going to make me do this aren't you>extremely large number of shared opinion>contents of said work affects collective psyche>sublime aesthetics in said works become widespread and commonplace>over time changing what actually gives people the sublime aesthetic experience>since the original sublime aesthetic experience is as familiar as basic emotion>leading to opinions like this >>25155378 about works that previously would have and did shock entire nations>greeting card generic
I have never had sex and it interests me less than other people. I'm sure it feels nice and all.
>>25155386>triggered by divinity>will never truly know the mountain>does not see what is to be seen>isn't cringe
>>25155319I think you know what I mean.
>>25155388That's not how it works at all. It's not like everything is as good as Shakespeare or Beethoven, lol.
>>25155388>retard thinks what he just wrote isn't generic pretentious pseuderyYou have to be 18 to post here.
>>25155394Did you think that at the last possible moment
>>25155393Your writing sucks and you're a fag. Ttyl, sperglord.
>>25155392Nah you just accepted you gettin' no booty.
>>25155395>>25155398found the gooks who don't know that you can create your own sublime aesthetic experiencea fine trap laida hearty meal
>>25155404>you can create your own sublime aesthetic experienceI'm sure you do that all the time by sniffing your own farts, loser. Lol.
>>25155404Yeah, no, art is the height of mankind's achievement and experience.
>>25155400>writing for an audience>not using the word to alchemize>dishing common insults>caring this much>not retarded>not a fag>not a sperg
>>25155404>a fine trap laidI'm sure you know all about laying traps, faggot.
>>25155413>>25155400
>>25155410>not realizing the sublime aesthetic experience exists within all things>thinking shakespeare did not blatantly state this>not enjoying the toot stink>>25155411Where in God's easy name did you come up with that counter
>>25155421>still here>not past it>wasting time responding to someone who they claim to be useless>isn't a sperg
don't swallow the cap
>>25155422>spergNot reading that, sperg.
>>25155415All your favorite writers laid traps and were faggots. Does this make me glory in your eyesOh I sure hope it does
>>25155425>>25155400
>>25155429>wants to be my friend>doesn't know how to properly communicateI have dentist appointment at 4, but am free tonight at 7:30
>>25155433>I'm a faggotIt's obvious. >>25155439Shhhh. No one likes you.
well this thread spiraled rather quickly
okay anons, please chill and stop monopolizing the thread
Best WWOYM in ages.
>>25155435>concerned with the last word>an impish spirit>will continue until not experiencing the delusion of defeat
>>25155441>concerned with social acceptance>not a faggot
Do you ever have these brief micro-windows where you start to change as a person in a big way & see things differently, and then it's like it all just ends in an hour or 2, and you go back to being the same person as always?
>>25155455>projecting faggot>keeps projecting>his teeth the only cavites he fills>(not counting the gaping his asshole received by his uncle)
OCD is an incredibly violent mental disorder
>>25155462>resorting to uncle shill>resorting to projection shill>only original line is playschool tier>still responding after saying goodbye>trapped
>>25155468>touched a nerve >his uncle definitely touched him
Do you ever get satisfaction out of fragmenting yourself?
>>25155480>not appreciating the beautiful things family do to your God skin>trapped
thoat hurt and nose is runny. books for this feel?>>25155311psyoped they are but what's wrong with a foot fetish really. At the very least it's a relatively normal part of the human body
>>25155459I was always that person
>>25155491>feeling outnumbered and salted>attempting to even the playing field>attacking the pure>not cringe
>>25155459Are you fully sure you are returning to exactly the same person after those short windows? You cannot change completely after all
What's more cringe, this post: >>25155168 or the subsequent meltie pseud anon had once it was pointed out as cringe?
>>25155500Yeah. If I could change it would've happened a long time ago probably
>>25155508>creating a ghost army>still concerned with social acceptance>allowing the angry little man inside to take over
I LOVE you, anon !
>>25155401This is exactly why, though. You assume I have the same values as everyone else and that I want to "get booty," that I want to participate in the world of casual sex and pickups that normal people seem to participate in, but I don't. I find the idea vaguely vulgar, even disgusting, even if I'm sure it feels really good in the moment.
>>25155517>meltie Lol
Do you ever feel like you're being watched by a chud and a liberal and feel like you're mentally being split in half because you agree sentimentally with both of them?
It is not without the hardest heart that I, a finely crumpled bag of salted pita chips, am able to finally let go. The folded days of them all looking. As if a twin was gored.Shaken out!Where upon my treated skin did they even expect to find a chance? After all this time even I could not, I the loft, I the pleased.You are so squeamish, as if those matching squints could disturb keen truth, kept long within the paths a marble rakes.
>>25155534Mhmm. Sounds like what you need to tell yourself.
>>25155538>has within them the capability to act in this way>elementary school bullying>stuck in mortal realm>trapped
>>25155547No, I agree with him. I'm sorry that you are spooked into feeling you need a release anon
>>25155551>meltie (con)Lol
>>25155564
>>25155542Still cringe.
>>25155578
>>25155399Kek
Smitten. I know. Smitted!Ho ho!A firm grasp held that even in time will not diminish. As grandmother vice grips her well made pan!So moving to the left, in direction, we come upon lookers, never having seen dedication described.Even I, slightly thinned by such heat, sweated out. Unfortunately so, I do not have arms for caring.Or any other part bestowed
>>25155586>incel trannie who is into anime Ahhh, that's why you're so cringe.
>>25155619>being this triggered by love>grasping at google search image straws>running out of steam>growing more fond by the second
>>25155611Still cringe.
>>25155643
I want to learn:how to play the harp (I like Turlough O'Carolan's music)how to speak Mongolian or a Central Asian language like Uzbekhow to fly a dronehow to weave textiles
>>25155659its always about you... what about ME?!
>>25155651Generic and a little cloying but still much better writing than what you've offered.
>>25155679me want chocolate peanut butterme want gummy tongueme want rolex devaluedme want healthy heart
>>25155697>doesn't know how not to criticize>attempting to put seriousness on my word salad passages>a joy
Some time has grown {{the willow}} within the cracks run up my leg. A moment pierced, drawn out, the rubber man has come altered as a prude, a pin, a rube. A fine attempt to squeal {{{{{I assure}}}}} and stealing face not belong. But more so, the gripping tape, upon the bottom licked by every passing who this here stretch has bounced upon their knee [the fee] - [of cherish]
i’ll always protect you
>>25155539This is the landscape of modern America. It's getting abusive
I took my meds and now I don't know if I'm going to think differently Or double down on bad behavior
>>25155893One thing is for certain. You'll love Jersey Mike's new Appletini 6 inch
weird weekend
I can't stop thinking about this French TV show, Les Nouvelles Filles d'à côté, especially episode 85 (Le Boucher). In it, Marc, the main character, decides to reinvent himself as a fake psychologist, and ends up inadvertently encouraging a serial killer to keep killing. The absurdity of it cracks me up, and I’m tempted to write something about it.
i feel like i've been dead for the last 6 months, observing life through a shell.i've watched two people die traumatic deaths and felt absolutely nothing with 100% certianty, it is beyond my capacity to care.i'm increasingly more racist and misogynistic everyday.i didn't realise i was this sociopathic until now, it feels like my soul has gone cold, i feel i could watch a baby die and be unaffected.the universe can kill itself along with everyone else for all i care.
>>25155943>the universe can kill itself along with everyone else for all i care.erm.. even me? I am one of the cool ones :/
>>25155943>unfamiliar with the internal process of getting olderthis is normal anon
>>25155924yeah hello sopranos did it for six seasons
>>25155957it isn't for how quickly it has happened and to such a degree.i mean with genuine intent that the universe SHOULD kill itself and get it over with.
>>25155965First off you have no idea the degree that people really think and how quickly it took them to get there. Don't be annoyingSecond do you honestly think that there are not loads of people who feel this exact same way? Look at what we as a species have been doing since the beginning of time. Being horribly rude to and killing each other, small and large scale.Don't be such a goofball
After having read the majority of the greats work in philosophy I can safely say most people are retarded. Philosophy? Something I have easily conquered, even though the modern consensus is that its super complicated.I feel like if I could the same to the field of economics if I desire it so, alas the pursuit of money and power doesnt entice my soul. However, victories are always pleasant. A reframing of mind could be the catalyst for my next journey...
My God, it's full of stars!
>>25155996>conquered philosophy>"alas"u missed a spot
>>25155961alas yes, there's nothing new under the sun
>>25156005dude im bloated leave me alone
A year ago I wrote a paragraph i was like 95% proud off. I literally just figured out what was lacking to get a perfect score. And now im fucking pissed at myself for missing something so obvious, and i feel deeply ashamed for sending such a mockery of sense to another person
>>25156007y'sa
>>25156010Your current mockery of sense is believing that there is no place for mockery of sense
>>25156012I'm a perfectionist what can I say. I want every thing I put my name to, to be able to stand the test of time.That one sentence I fumbled... I will NEVER forgive myself
>match with girl on dating app>have great conversation, at length, going well>abruptly and with no warning she stops responding This happens way too much FUCK
>>25156006oui bon soir what else is new
>>25155123Everybody's in glass houses as far as I'm concerned.
>>25156048>Everybody's in glass houses as far as I'm concerned.erm.. even me? I am one of the cool ones :/
>>25156024How do you feel when you stand the test of timeHave you stood the test of time recently?
>>25156051>How do you feel when you stand the test of timeGood>Have you stood the test of time recently?YesI'm cultivating that samurai spirit yknow, hence the uncovering of my mistake have brought me great dishonoru
IT'S EVOLUTION BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:D
>>25156060What does it feel like when you stand, and time tests, but you do not pass? Is it a faltering, as if time is a wind and you are not able to hold you pose? Or is time a wall, and you must craft a door to pass through?
>>25155283this
>>25156067>What does it feel like when you stand, and time tests, but you do not pass? Perfection lies in the moment, haste weakened my judgement hence my failure. Temporal passing has no bearing on its impact, for deep down I always knew something was amiss. Wind or a wall? Nay, I prefer to consider it as the river of time.If living life is like swimming in river, then failure is like adding weights to my feet trying to drag me under the water to drown in misery. I can not remove my undesirable burdens, my only resort is to grow stronger. Like Caesar before me, every time I undergo a defeat, I must quickly see that I claim two more victories to balance the scales and restore morale and order to my inner being. Or I can just not care and float wu-wei style but I like playing a role :D
>>25156103float, my brothertrain the strongest muscle we havethe muscle that they all deny existsbecause they have failed to temper the toddler within, they now watch us balance upon a grain of sand, high in the air, during a storm so terribly unique; of time
>>25155123Man, Invisible Cities is fucking sick. I hope Borges is as good; I bought Ficcones. I think in my old age I'm beyond giant dense bullshit and prefer sparse metaphorical bullshit.
>>25156034You gotta seal the deal, faggot. Number of meddages is inversely correlated with success.
>>25156109
Only twice in my life have I ever experienced food poisoning, both occurred after consuming chicken enchiladas.
>today's workout40 minutes running in the morning (easy pace, nose breathing the whole time)gym workout in the afternoon (deadlifts 295lbs 3x8, then upper body stuff)>today's thoughtsI started this writing project about 8 weeks ago with the initial intent of writing it as an intelligence thriller/black-ops story with a human drama underpinning it. Somewhere along the way it turned into something else and now I'm writing scenes involving the lead character (male) ending up cuddling with his supervisor-slash-handler (also male) during a mission for reasons that are totally pragmatic and still not enough to make the scene not read as kinda gay. There's a logical progression from one point to another but when I look at where I started and where it's at now I'm not sure whether to laugh or not.
>>25155924That's hilarious.
>>25155123What's it mean if an excoworker/boss you made out with once. Keeps texting you here and there (I rarely if ever initiate texts) and visiting you after rshe left the workplace? She's even gone out of her way to come visit me at a diff worksite from where we worked together. And has found out my schedule from other peopleShe even said next time I'm working with another coworker (female she was also cool with) that we should go for dinner. If she wants to hangout as a group does that mean it's fully platonic or she's using her as an excuse. I've hung out with her once for a few hours one on one for some icecreamOr am I just being attention farmed. Should I start initiating contact more? If so, what about? Also what's it mean if she once used to use lots of emojis but barely uses them anymore
>>25156262don't think so harddo you want her sexually and emotionally?if so pursue her with honestydo you not?then do not and let her move on with her life
>>25156265>if so pursue her with honestyWhat do you mean by this
How does one cope with being unlovable?
>>25156283It's surprisingly easy actually
>>25156282It's different for everyone. Honesty in this context means in whatever way you do it, the way you want to do it (if you want to do it of course).It means don't do it the way you have read/seen/heard you should. That's dishonest
>>25156283Why do you believe you are unlovable?
>>25156283don't be concerned with trying to require love from peoplethat's mean and dictatorial, and likely why love is not being freely given to you, assuming this is what you are doing. it's pretty common.usually the reason for this kind of thing is that you are not giving actual love, but it's what you want to receive. find out what is love anon, and when you do - and if you would like to stay with it - love in the form of another will find you.tldr don't be neurotic
Sometimes I'm surprised that my sibling and I are related at all. That the same two dice could roll so differently on separate occasions.
>>25156312What's the difference between the two of you?
Deeply anxious and stressed all day seeing Trump threaten to escalate the Iran War into straight up energy warfare where state infrastructure across the Middle East is destroyed. I cannot emphasize what a catastrophe this would be for the world and I don't understand how we're just sleepwalking right into this. I feel like how I was on the eve of COVID in late 2019 knowing how bad things were going to get but no one paying attention until it finally hit everyone in March 2020. We're talking famine, revolutions, civil wars, economic depression, refugee crises, etc potentially resulting from this.
Stop thinking.
>>25156318Well, get off your computer and go blow up some cars then. The sleepwalk is strong in you as well
>>25156318Where's the Deep State when you need it?
>>25156320Qrd?
>>2515630835 years of life showed me that it wasnt a belief but a reality.>>25156309I tried being forceful but I cannot force on behalf of other person (unless I'd have a love potion). Merely doing nothing results in nothing.
>>25156312who gives a fuck
>>25156325I didn't say that you should do nothing anon, use your real brain, not the brain that validates the lies it tells itself.I said that you need to find the love within yourself, the real kind, and once that is found, you will know what actions you need to take because it will come naturally to you.You will begin to see other people as the strange and complex beings that they are, and not a means to satisfy your own grotesque craving for their attention, which is what you are wanting at this point in your life, not love, attention. Positive attention, but nonetheless.
>>25156323Trying to be a fast thinker actually blocks deeper intelligence/wisdom/tacit knowledge, things like breakthroughs or creativity come by through intuition or sleeping on it (letting ideas gestate) not by analytical hard logic (which makes you overthink and make mistakes); slow thinking outperforms fast thinking like the fable.
>>25156332>house MD enjoyer
>>25155248I wish to inflict pain on women
>>25156332I've been told real success comes from making decisions and taking action quickly.
I wonder if there's a halfway point between human and p-zombie. I feel like a set of nicely polished floor boards over rotten supports, a public persona that admits nothing and beneath is rot and something that tells me I should be full of existential dread, but can't find any. Even when I take steps to improve my life it's just a datapoint. Do this for x years, more money, be comfortable. Go to this place. Perform this ritual. Convince self this is positive, feel nothing. Die comfortably. About the only thing I'm invested in his hating kikes.Maybe I'm just a colossal faggot. At least my traps and forearms are great.
>>25156339inb4 real success is becoming successful in your career and marrying a beautiful person
>>25156322They're busy performing rituals to rebind Dick Cheney and Kissinger and stop their escape.
>>25156328Thats why all of this situation looks doomed. Theres no real brain as this rot, of being dependent on others, has infested everything. One could say that everything is possible but when you get no alternatives but the same thing over and over again as in order to get love you have to offer something as whatever you have is not enough to others.
He tells him when to drink water. He notices when his headache is coming on, even before he notices himself. He positions his body, a hand at the neck or waist or on the elbow to move four inches to the right, support up a step, in the corner of the room just so. He tells him to eat even when he is not hungry. He knows what kind of look in the morning means he did not sleep well and the signs that he is getting cold long before he puts on a jacket. He knows which flavor of electrolyte mix he likes and which he will drink when told to do so. He has seen him weak and dizzy, watched him throw up, heard him cry. He knows what side he sleeps on. He drinks water when told. He is not embarrassed or resentful, not diminished by the fact of being told to do something and doing it, not in front of others and not alone. He trusts with a trust so complete that it weighs on him when he thinks he is not looking. He accepts the hands, the gestures, the support given before he asks, the guiding and sometimes, yes, even the carrying in the arms. He has lowered his guard in almost every way one's guard can be lowered in his presence, and what remains, remains only because it has by chance not had reason to lower yet. He knows the small shifts in his face, when he tells him to eat or to move to the left a foot or that he should sleep, that say he is worried or even afraid and making a very good effort at not showing it. He has not seen him cry, but he has heard a flatness in his voice that was close enough to count, if only because he knew the meanings of the small changes in him so well.
>>25156339It's good if you want worldly success. If you want to know the truth, then you need to be a tortoise.
>>25156349I want to agree with you. And I do to the extent that this is the case in many areas of the first world where parents are afraid or uncaring of the new generations coming up.But this is not the case in many parts of the world still, I promise you that.It is very difficult to see outside of where you have been raised. Since you are aware of this, and if it upsets you more than a little, it is not a bad idea to go travel around aimlessly for a little bit to some strange places
>>25156262Stop posting about this bullshit, you stupid fucking faggot.
I don't see why people tend to hold opinions when their attempts to ground it through reason inevitably results in the Münchausn trilemma, but suppose this can be resolved through observation. I clearly wrote this on 4chan. That's a demonstrable fact, even if you try to to argue against the validity of observation as being a reliable indicator of truth by starting it could be a sensory illusion. Within the context of the illusion, it existed, that's undeniable. You can't deny the illusion was perceived without resulting in conscious denial, meaning that some things are necessarily self-evident, which was my initial attempt at resolving the trillema. You're aware. That's undeniable, and the irreducible, primitive starting point of all knowledge.
>>25156374Now try this with something that matters and come to a conclusion that is interesting
I saw Project Hail Mary with my neighbor. She said it had nice visuals. Everyone looked like nerds and laughed at all the quips. The humor was not for me, but there was 1 joke that made me laugh. I think it would've been much better if they removed the flashbacks and focused completely on the nitty gritty of figuring out how to co-operate with an alien (the journey not the destination), even if 99% of the audience was too stupid to follow along it should be competence porn; they would still feel smart for watching it (like me).
>>25156382>resolving the foundational problem of epistemology with self-evidence doesn't matter.Interesting claim.Care to back it up with something other than bitter disinterest?
>>25156390>resolving the foundational problem of epistemology with self-evidence does matterI didn't back it up with bitter disinterest before, so how could I do it againI thought you had solved the fundamental problem of blahblahmology. How could you have done that if you couldn't see that I didn't back up what I said before with anything at all?Grifts these days
>>25156356>worldly successI just wanna stop being a NEET and have this life insurance career I'm setting up for myself work out, God willing. My licensing exams are on Tuesday by the way. Wish me luck!
>>25156413Good luck anon. You sound finePut your mind to it! Achieve the life you want for yourself :)
>>25155123>ThoughtsI don’t think, OP
>>25156422Smart.
>>25156422>>25156423This is the consensus of people who are overwhelmed by thoughtDon't be scared anons. I know it's hurt you before, but are you really going to let it control you like that
>>25156397>I wasn't bitter before, how could I do again?>Proceeds to demonstrate bitter disinterest further with logically empty hostility>How could you have have done that if you couldn't see that I said before with anything at all?That was highly implied by the initial comment.I guess some people are cognizant without being self-aware.Consider my initial argument of invalidated.
>>25156426I have autism, so all information is not filtered by my brain.
>>25156431Anon I didn't say I wasn't being bitter and disinterested, I said I didn't back up what I said with bitterness or disinterest.In other words anon, I applied it, but did not use it as a reason for why I applied something different.I'm only being so pedantic with you right now because those subtle intricacies are what you're going to need to be paying attention to the most from now on, given the matter of great importance you have set to resolve.. have resolved.. will again resolve.......And how quickly you've failed my simple little test! But do not worry, the sun failed the test to become the moon, and we are still happy little creatures on this rock separate from the two of them.Also anon, there is no reason to be so sour. Philosophy is meant to free you, not trap you within the comparison of your own intelligence.Once you resolve that, you will truly have resolved something of importance.
Nothing good on the catalogue right now.
>>25156447Not even the AI discussion?
>>25156439>I said I didn't back up what I said with bitterness or disinterest.That's a somewhat fair distinction, but still retains within the context of your initial post, saying that it didn't matter and interesting, was basically false, so you still used the bitterness as a supportive faculty, which was unnecessary and equally empty.>matter of great importanceSo, how would you solve the trillema.I'm interested because you seem modestly intelligent, not nearly to the degree you assume, which is characteristic of everyone on /lit/, myself included, but enough to be reasonably interesting for the moment.So, shoot.What do you got?
I'm shorter of breath and one day closer to death.
>>25156458Nah idgaf about that.
>>25156462Go out jogging then, you fat retard.
Yesterday, I was one day further away from death. Yet I'm still alive today.
>>25156459Talking down to someone like that is not a great way to get someone to discuss something you are interested in. That was unnecessarily disrespectful. And I'm not going to pretend I know how to solve your problem or that I even know what trillema you're talking about. It is also not something I'm personally interested in.The whole sociopathic/spoiled kid swing you are taking is a little ridiculous. I'm sorry I'm going to have to end it here, I really don't agree with the position you've taken here. Mostly the downplaying.If you really wanted to see something you were interested in be taken seriously and solved, you would do what you can to elevate the people who were participating, or at least dissolve all notion of any impish and harmful attitudes.I know exactly where I stand with my mental and emotional intelligence. You are simply wrong to make statements like that, and yes, you have upset me a little.
What a trashy piece of shit.
civilizations had used both to have made men would have underestimated how useless and predictable lives would have been and overestimated uses of others to have caused predictable outputs with. to have been born early would have had terrors would have far surpassed those of to have been born late. these attempts at to have extracted tech with have been underwhelming if not useless in retrospect of constraints. the late can necromance and the dead can be necromanced but those to have lived early would have seen destruction alone
once i realized coups, revolutions, and civil wars were based on elite in fighting and not the lower classes rising up i realized how stupid most people are, especially commies who think proles are the key, and not convincing the military to over throw the government instead
>>25156534sweet summer child
>>25156538M8 ITS FOKIN 40C IN HERE ALLA SUDDEN
>>25156485>Talking down to someone like that is not a great way to get someone to discuss something you are interested in.That's fair, but condescending is a natural reaction to being condescended to, as demonstrated by>>25156439>I didn't say I wasn't being bitter or disinterested.So, this renders you a bit hypocritical, which is more of an observation than an attack.Also, you don't know what the trillema is, but you still feel like its resolution is necessarily uninteresting?It is, to you, but you speak as if that's an objective quality of either the trillema and its potential resolution, so you overestimate the scope of your point of view.Then, despite your apparent disinterest in either, you want me to submit to your test?That kind of makes the spoiled/sociopathic kid claim a strech, and likely a genuine projection, as opposed to simple "no u.">I know exactly where I stand with my mental and emotional intelligence.Probably to a respectable degree, but clearly not as exactly as you say.Regardless, if you're not interested in the content, and don't know anything about what it talks about, why make any comment at all, especially when seeded by the claim that my behavior should accommodate to your personal interests?That's childish in its purest form, so if you want to leave, feel free.Sorry if that hurts your feelings, but you still have some serious work to do.Later.
>>25156534you almost got it
>>25156540I'm sorry but you haven't really understood much here and are really only interested in keeping a tight hold on your egoThere is no reason to continually attack me, trying to implant doubt, etc. It's unkind and not the mark of someone who really has benefitted from philosophyPlease relax, if you'll look back earnestly on everything I've said to you, you will realize it was all said with a light heart. Unlike you who speaks with true bitterness. Another failed test. Lie to a man and have him believe you are a certain way, and watch him feel comfortable enough to dive headfirst into his reserves of that poison.You are taking this a bit too seriously though don't you think. I understand you're testing out your chops and what not, but this kind of thing is not meant to be a trial. Calm your heart anon, I am not against you in any grand sense
>>25156559Hm, interesting.If you're really sincere, then I apologize, but having anything dismissed that a person creates as meaningless and uninteresting naturally creates tension.Plus, I'm somewhat cranky due to psychological exhaustion, so my reaction may have been overly sensitive, as is the nature of 4chan where you regularly have to defend yourself from hostile critiques.So, definitely a degree of displacement in this.Oh well, it's resolving, so that's healthy.
>>25156559>>25156583Oh, I can see how that's a genuine misunderstanding of your original post.Sorry, but you can see how its ambiguity can lead to a genuine misunderstanding, yeah?
>>25156583Here. Let me finally explain what I meant by what I said. You will probably see exactly why I said it, and why it was such a lovely little joke.So when I said >now try this with something that matters .. I was making a little joke concerning that you were applying complex philisophical thought to the fact that >i clearly wrote this on 4chan.That's all. I was making a joke about you deeply analyzing that statement. I got a good laugh out of it. I also got a good laugh because I knew that you would take that as a slight on your entire history of study. I am not totally innocent of course.On the other hand. I could tell you had a working thinker, and was interested what kind of heart was behind that thinker. Any smart person can train themselves to think well, but a truly smart person takes a second to sense the atmosphere their thought will be entering.It is of course resolving, we are both reasonable.It's a hobby of mine, resolution.
>>25155287Sex is fun but not so much better than any other hobby, nor so exciting once the novelty wears off. Music, books, films, chess, hiking. If I had to choose between any of these and sex, I’d embrace celibacy without a second thought
>>25156617Many have
>>25155365I used to be in very good shape. These days I never leave my room, some days never leave my bed, subsisting on junk food. I’m still strong and fit because it hasn’t caught up with me yet. Fuck, what am I doing?
>>25156593Oh, I see. That is pretty funny. My bad. I guess it's derived from my tendency to overanlyze, which is useful at times but backfires occasionally.As for my heart, I guess since you're being genuinely kind, I'll share a component of the philosophical system I'm working on, which best describes it.I have to retrieve it from my AI because it has a more accessible precision than I do, but here it is."The Isopsychia — from the Greek isos meaning equal and psyche meaning consciousness or soul.The Invariant Value Principle. The formally derived claim that every conscious locus has equal and invariant ontological value as a complete and irreducible expression of the Apeiron."It needs further refinement, but it's something somewhat decent for now.
>>25156624Yep. That's nice, and something that most people would have a very difficult time admitting to themselves even a fraction of belief in.I wouldn't mind reading up on what you'd have to say about that. This particular thing is definitely something I'm interested in the exploration of. Good man.
>>25155123It’s not because of any intense suffering or unbearable grief that I want to die. The desire is without urgency or drama. I just feel at every moment of my life the way you feel when you’re standing around at a party you never wanted to attend in the first place, looking at your watch. Or when you’re sitting in a theater halfway through a boring movie, eyeing the exit.In one sense it’s a shame to have been born in 21st century America with air-conditioning and internet and a soft bed to sleep in. Because it means my next life will almost certainly be much worse.
>>25156633Great way of putting it with looking at your watch. It can really feel like that sometimes
i used to think i was a special person destined for fame, riches, and greatness, but it turns out i missed the mark. if i were only 10-15% different, everyone would know my name.
>>25156629Sure, and that's basically an expression of what my system calls the Metaxy, which is the infinite relational quality between everything that exists.But to elaborate on the Isopsychia, you can basically see it as how a child or an animal does not have a more inferior awareness then you, they're just structurally different, and we usually define superiority through control or domination, which my system says is rooted in a fundamental misunderstanding of existence's nature, which is fundamental non-dual.To explain how an animal's awareness is not inferior to a humans because it lacks a metacognitive dimension, there are many things that animals perceive that we don't. So if we were to define superiority by our sensitivity to smell rather than our problem solving capacity, then dogs would be the superior form of awareness.This can be applied to people as a whole, which is why the Isopsychia is a component of its ethical extension. If everyone has ontologically equal value, meaning that their value transcends subjective consideration, then it would necessitate a drastic reworking of morality. Murderers, rapists, pedophiles, even though their actions are reprehensible and their minds are in need of reconditioning, their existence is largely manufactured by core assumptions that we make about the world and the people in it, rather than an inherent structual defect in humanity. It promotes restorative justice, which has been verified to reduce recidivism as opposed to punishment, where criminals get out and often find themselves back in prison because we see their value as intrinsically lower due to their actions, which is ontologically false.I could to on, but that's enough for this post.
Wish bullshit artist was a real job.
>>25156650I am extremely impressed with this. I have never seen an outlook I value so much so specifically described.I think you are touching on something here that could very well be at the forefront of importance going forward as a species. This is so interesting to me because it is almost exactly this way of thinking, generally speaking that every life form is whole and complete - and who's substance is completely outside of any type of opinion based or subjectively categorical judgement to lessen the impact, or say, feature of their existence - that fuels my forward motion in life. At this point really, it is one of the only things I think about, and I think it's wonderful.And the best part about this, is that is has legitimate use, and if fully adopted (the only upsetting part about this is that this is of course impossible), it would prove to be a turning point in the day to day experience of belonging for every creature. Which is really the absolute main reason humans do horrible things, because they are feeling "lessened" by others, unaccepted, etc.. creating pathologies.Very cool stuff. I could not be happier seeing this come from another person. I knew I wasn't the only one
wish there was something real, wish there was something true
>>25156665Thanks. I'm glad it resonated with you. I've been developing the system over the past few days, teetering on the line between ratioal thought and AI psychosis, which had me skeptical of its practical use and genuine validity, so it's really refreshing to have another human being appreciate it and confirm that other people feel they same way, and come to similar conclusions independently, which suggests a shared, objective ground, without definitively confirming it, as concluding something to be true simply because more people agree is strict ad populum.So, yeah, for sure. I'm glad I shared that with someone. That's the type of honesty that the systems moral framework, although it's central, core virute is humility. Not in the sense of self-denial or submissiveness, but the rational approximation of one's innate structural limitations as an finite expression of an eternal, infinte ground, which the system calls the Apeiron.Somewhat sadly, that infinite ground is forever beyond reach, but we can describe its nature with endlessly increasing degrees of complexity and sophistication, while still remaining off by an infinite margin in comprehending it in its entirety.Always something new to do, always something new to see, without ever fully exhausting itself, and I think that's a pretty solid way to look at existence.
I'm working on something that will shake the very foundations of reddit. But the faggots will probably downvote it. Alas.
>>25156698It's a nice way to see existence, but you're really going to have to emphasize the beauty and purity of the invariant ontological value, otherwise it could devolve into yet another reason for people to become overwhelmed and depressed at the universe which provides "always something new to see, without ever fully exhausting itself"In essence, it's in opposition to the implication that the ubermensch is a state to attain after years of difficulty and purification. I can really appreciate the notion that this ubermensch-paralel state is not an achievement, but a gift naturally given at birth. Which of course would eliminate that putrid striving for "the state" which we would already possess, and which I believe we already do.In my experience, the harder a person works for a specific theoretical goal, the more pinholed they become in their experience, and the less "actual" they become, especially concerning their original intentioned goal-state. Of course there are some who succeed, but my theory is that those who succeed very well put little to no focus on the end goal, i.e. they utilize the inborn state of "perfection" if you want to call it that, that they and everyone else has always had, but just come to a conscious realization of it.Very cool stuff.Getting time for me to sleep soonTake care of yourself and I hope that this framework of yours does not slip away too easily. I would love to stumble across it some day, and I believe it has the potential to be worth reading up on.Good night
>>25156716Thanks. Goodnight.
>>25155123Sometimes I can't help but daydream, oh how wonderful the modern world would be with all it's technology if smartphones did not exist. I can even forgive AI, but smartphones I cannot. If I was the tyrant of Gaule I would put the death penalty on smartphones.
We got guys in here same-fagging each other.
Wish I had the secret sauce of motivation to change my life. I expect perfection so I give up easily.
>>25156754A lot of effort put into it too LOL
I may be homeless soon.
>>25156665>>25156698Fella, at least change up your cadence and style between posts.
>>25156761You can escape the matrix
>>25156761Living in your car is fun.
>>25156764I could take a photo showing that we're two different people, but that would expose me as a phonefag, and that's infinitely more embarrassing.
>>25156780Don't gaslight me bitch.
>>25156785Don't tell me what to do. I will straight up cook a can of beans on you.
Drinking no longer makes the bad feelings go away
>>25156790I will shit on your chest, bitch!
>>25156804Interesting.Where do you want to meet up?
>>25156490He's unironically as senile as Biden was. It's just stream of conciousness rambling in speeches and his tweets now.
>>25156770I don't own a car, nor can I afford one, sadly. Otherwise, I'd be open to the idea.
I will be voting TRUMP FOR PRESIDENT in '28!
>>25156861>I often get plastered and savagely beat my anime body pillow when it refuses to put out.
Its my opinion that you can't be a good writer unless you go outside and observe nature or people IRL. The Internet isn't real, nothing you learn about in the Internet matters and you won't be able to write about anything interesting if all your experiences come from a computer.
Crazy how Woodstock took place only days after the Manson murders.
>>25156902the nine inch nails woodstock performance was pretty cool
>>25156796it isn't supposed to...
In the south there is the City of Asphodel. It has the same name as the greek counterpart, but lush fields spread from the mouth of the sea, down the the sprawling web of pathways and corridors, through the great royal garden with trellises wrapped in climbing ivy, and all the way to the desert fringe where it ends abruptly into yawning sand.The people of Asphodel are always barefoot as they walk about and sell their wares or conduct their apothecary rituals, but each one of the city's priests wear thick rubber soled boots, never touching the grass, plucking the flowers, or tasting the bountiful harvest of local persimmon and grapefruit. When I arrived I saw the custom and too walked barefoot through the waves of undulating grass, and when I asked a sage about the custom, they quickly got me a pair of the same rubber soled boots, made from the taught tanned leather of a young calf. There were no animals in Asphodel.If I were to walk barefoot any longer, I could never leave. And in death I would remain, feeding the persimmon and grapefruit, as does everyone except the priests of course. Their bones are flung into the sea.
>>25155123Our ancestors conquered their estates.Modern man gets filthy rich then buys it from the hand of another after kindly asking for permission.This is ridiculous and intolerable.
>>25156387Genuinely kill yourself. No one will miss you. No one likes you.
Be honest with me. Is /wg/ better off dead?
>>25157129Yup. >t. writer who intentionally avoids that place
>>25157140But it's funny and sometimes there are nuggets of wisdom buried among the bucket crabbing, shitposting, and feedback begging.
>>25157160Yup. And I was one of the people sharing them. I'd describe that place as "haughty". Not intellectually haughty, spiritually haughty; infected with the spirit that haunts ForkChork in general, and is usually mitigated by unrepentant optimism and old faggotry, or containment boards.Newfags are flippant. Oldfags are mired, and flippant. The same cycle repeats of dickheads sharing their endless meandering prose that fundamentally misses the nature of writing because they've only read "classics", and dont understand that they're seperate from that praxis, so aping it without extreme talent is doomed. And then they get feedback like "show dont tell", which is a code for "your sparse prose is shit bud because it has nothing concrete, and all the english teacher A- grades in the world mean nothing". Then they try to destroy that place because they got told off, both sides. Newfags lower the discourse and become shitposting oldfaggots more interested in nested drama than writing, which is magnetic.Neither side is wrong, the newfags need to improve but they're precious, and the oldfags are correct to share that advice. It just gets reduced into petulant soundbites by rhetorical faggots who wanted validation and community, then seek to burn it down after they couldnt feel it's warmth, which also baffles me because surely everyone knows the 4chan schtick by now.
>mysterious rattling noise somewhere in my room>narrow the source down to my computer>further narrow it down to the PSU's fan>operation.exe>take the case apart and clean out the PSU with compressed air>rattling noise gone>try to boot up>blue screen of death>can only boot into recovery mode, not even safe mode works (CRITICAL_PROCESS_DIED)>try resetting, recovering, no dice>feel sure it's a hardware error>buy and install a new PSU>fixed.not>buy and install a new motherboard >fixed.not>can only get into command prompt through recovery mode>spend hours trying to fix an invisible, unknown issue through commands>eventually realize something must be irreparably corrupted in Windows software >need to create a boot image and boot from that>no working PCs available at home>only have an android phone plus flashdrives plus USB port to USB-C converter>can't write Windows ISOs on the android app>have to write an Ubuntu ISO instead>finally get computer to boot into "try Ubuntu">explore Linux for the first time>recover some of my files and format my hard drive>still a windowscuck so use the built in disk writer to write a Windows 11 ISO on another flashdrive>boot up the Windows 11 ISO>no drivers>install third-party software on my flashdrive Ubuntu and disable security features in my BIOS so it can run>boot up the Windows 11 ISO>no drivers>jump back into Ubuntu and get a windows 10 ISO>installs okay but doesn't detect the new motherboard's built-in WIFI>have to use an old slow dongle that loses connection every 5 minutes >eventually find and download the proper drivers on my phone and get them on a flashdrive to install on my PC>with WIFI working can update to windows 11>somewhere in there I switched out the new PSU for the old one and the rattling noise started up again (luckily have the new one)Formatting my hard drive in Ubuntu might've been a little overdramatic. I was scared. But my important stuff like my writing is all in the cloud and I recovered shit like my reaction image folder before I wiped the drive. It's nice, in a way: a fresh start. Spring cleaning.
I took my meds, and they told me to be worse.
They say hydrating causes hydrolysis in your body which splits chemical bonds. I don't want to split chemical bonds in my body. There must be a way to hydrate but not cause hydrolysis.
Its not ‘ive no right to judge’, its ‘who am i to judge?’. A provocative question with possibly very constructive answers. Who are you to judge? Well youre a person with a soul, youve lived on this earth so and so amount of years, youve paid some attention, and youve seen things like this before. In fact you may just be the exact right person to see what they just did right there. Hell we all saw it, so i ask again, ‘who amongst us will rise to judge?’
it takes an ocean not to break
>>25157529I like The National too.
>>25157529i like to take a break at the ocean
I miss you.
>>25157529Oceans waves break all the time. Think before you write.
>>25157566it's a song lyric moron
>>25157563There's someone I miss as well. I wonder if they still think of me.
I confess, I use gen AI to write something that has me frozen looking at the keyboard, then I later rewrite it. I'm still a writer.
>>25157599At least you're not checking their Instagram that hasn't updated in years, right?
>>25157613I never used that website.
Red, yellow, green, blue.Courage, kindness, faith, and humility.Those were the pieces that sprialed from her soul and clicked securely in the center of my mind.For once in my life, I felt complete.Loved for who I was, not what I thought of myself.The puzzle was solved.Now, they're gone forever, and the void they left behind remains a corrosive ache at the most fundamental level.I have to accept that my core is broken, and stitch my personality back together with the sterile tools of logic and reason, rather then the inexplicable mysticism that defined the experience, and lead to my descent into insoluble madness that eventually separated us.I no longer believe in a soul, but that seems to be a coping strategy rather than an actual truth.
>>25157609get a load of this editor
>>25157609>I'm still a writer.:^)
I take nothing from the land, the land of kragg and sleep. My heart wrenched lean from reaching claws to tell of me I'll go. I'll go I said! For me it was no slight and laid down discovery - it was for me a fine mist inhaled and clung medicinal the strange consistency of organ lung. In this time, please go and walk by at your speed and do not change. I ask this one thing only, which of course pills within its walls many bitter tasting beads of past relate. So do not stick around for its dissolving, or its found. You have miles to walk from here. There are textures that must appear to you; your chest is gaping and wants them let in.
>>25157270This is why I hate computers. What do you write?>>25157598A silly one.
>>25157599You should reach out to them, if you can.
>>25157668>>25157669i-it's just a paragraph
i'm not bi but i'm deeply in love with a manhe's younger than me toofuck.
Tell me anons. If you had chose one. Would you rather be loved by everyone but hate yourself or be hated by everyone but love yourself?
>>25157798>or be hated by everyone but love yourself?this one obviouslyBut something tells me you know nothing of love if such a question stumps you.
>>25157798Hated by everyone but love myself.I think that's naturally more resistant to hatred because it's not dependent on anything external, so I can just spend a lot of time alone without getting lonely, whereas if I were loved by everyone but hated myself, I would have to constantly be around people and I doubt I'd be able to register the feeling of love through the filter of self-hatred.
>>25157808>>25157810> so I can just spend a lot of time alone without getting lonely,I thought so too; 13 years ago... I'm starting to have doubts. The loneliness is not just affecting my mental but now also physical health now.
>>25157821>I thought so too;Nigga i know so.Fuck off i hate you, u loveless freak
>>25157821Well, yeah, this was a hypothetical situation where I assumed the emotional states remain constant over time.Neither personal isolation or social dependency are healthy when taken to their logical extremes.
>>25157798I would like to be Will Smith.
>>25157798I'm already hated by everyone so I might as well love myself. No one else is gonna do it
>>25157840Bet you can't, nerd
>>25157828Or what? why should I listen to you? I'm an asshole and a freak with nothing left to lose. Why shouldn't I spoil these threads with my existence?>>25157829Just remember. If you do become an "extreme" like me. You will never see it coming until its too late.>>25157840Until its no longer enough.
>>25157846>im a extreme freak and the walls of my existence are crashing down on me! Wah wah Im a big baby wah wahunc go get ur ahh enlightened already, it aint that hard nowadays i mean sheeeeeeeeesh
>>25157854you are stuck with me here
>>25157861i aint stuck nowhere thoI go where I please, and I please where I go Aint no pleasing u tho u big baby bitch hahaha
>>25157872see you tomorrow.
>>25157861baby weeeeeeee're stuuuuuck like glueeee! :) and it's just ussss twoooooo, stickin togeeeeether like whoo and whooooo. meee and youuuuuu silly!
I think it would be a cool idea to bioengineer a species of spider to look like Minecraft spiders.
>>25157874only use my fun sites in the weekend tho...But I'll here next Saturday! Lets try and turn that frown upside down then :)
>>25157798The latter. Even if they hate me, if I love myself, they can't help but admire me
>>25155123I basically have no ligaments in my ankles. They're very weak and I'm constantly twisting them. I've already had surgery twice on my right ankle (because they fucked it up the first time, and I was constantly twisting it and falling over), and I tore my ligaments in my left ankle last september. Today I twisted it again. If the ground is even very slightly uneven, I'm in danger. Extremely annoying and painful. I don't want another surgery, but I suspect I'll need it.
>>25157650What website did you use?
Not that I blame my parents, but if I were born into a family that had the ability to pay for private school and all that shit, I'd be either on my way to becoming James Joyce or becoming a member of the US Supreme Court. Oh well, maybe in the next life.
>>25158134Are you really hard working? Is probably true if so
>>25158134Just be grateful that u werent born into a family with a slut of a mother like me
Helen farted on the bus.The driver didn't notice,Kept driving without a fuss.
I need attention or I'm going to freak out
Surely my opponent can't be that big a pussy
>been taking an OTC medication everyday for the past five months or so>randomly read online the other day that you're not supposed to take it for more than 7 days in a row>start to notice side effectsfug. probably placebo, and it's not like it says that on the label of the medicine itself so it should be fine, but now it's in my head
>>25158181tell me your biggest thought, bud
>>25158188>>been taking an OTC medication everyday for the past five months or sohuh? what have u been munching on? I only use headpain pills once a month or something, the fudge u been doing
>>25158198A stool softener. The 7day thing was probably just some stray nonsense the search AI picked up and aggregated. I'm sure it's fine.
>>25158181regular female experience
>>25158203During this half year period of popping pills with no medical supervision, did you ever stop to consider that maybe you should just change your diet instead?
A friend of mine recently passed, and I'm overcome with guilt and wish to simply sleep for some time until I can forget, but I never will..So all I do now is think about her
>>25158188I suppose you should ask a doctor if you have one available.
The eternal will of God the Father almighty is the will as thing in itself.
>>25158192I love my room. It's filled with things I love, and everything is exactly where I want it, down to the millimetre. It's plush and filled with interesting things I never get tired of looking at, and mementos from my life. I feel safe in my room, maybe a little too much. As I get older, I worry that I'll miss out on real happiness, because I'm too happy in my little cave.>>25158206Yes, but also no. Sometimes I get into these moods where if I don't get feedback, I start to feel unreal.
>your thoughtsI wouldn't call myself gay but I've been fantasizing about getting boned by a dude lately
I have felt the blood of loved ones drain through my fingertips dying for no reason, what pain is it to me to kill you now, who have earned it?’but if its a nine foot tall tortured minotaur black leather mafia billionaire in a dark romance holding the girl reading this against the wall by the neck for seeing a hint into his wounded heart?
>>25158245gay is a spectrum, anon. everyone is a little gay.
>>25158232>your biggest thought>"I love my room. xD"
>>25158245Up the ass or what?
I wonder if you deleted my number.
>>25158229Aaaa, holy jpeg artifacts
>>25158255I mean, it's a little more than that. Did you only read the first sentence?
>>25158258The Egyptians call it the Second Death
>>25158254Idk about that>>25158256You think I meant in my elbow?
>>25158260on such a foundation nothing worthwhile can be constructed
>>25158232Oh yeah I get that feeling for sure, I love my rooms myself, never could get back to my original one. Does come at the cost of loneliness though, so when you feel lonely at least remember that's a transaction you make, at least. Worth it for the room, I agree, but you can leave it every once in a while to pay a little back if you want less loneliness.
>>25158273That's true. I'm trying to go back out into the world, but it's slow going. A friend of mine invited me to go with them to a huge concert, and I agreed. I'm excited and scared, but I am determined to go.
>>25158266something worthwhile can be built on anything that isn't fundamentally false.
>>25158265https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTGXSdg0hEY
>>25158291No
>>25158288>a concertThat actually is really fun, the scaredness is part of the excitement even for the regulars and concert-goers are really friendly/trustworthy people. A happy crowd really hates party fouls at least, so you can feel comfortable nobody's going to just hop out and be a dick to you without others coming in and ending it. Depending on the concert or genre I guess.Oh man I wish I was going to a concert right now
>>25158261:(
>>25158216It's not the result of diet, but of another daily prescription medication I take. I know, so much medicine! I'm only taking one a day though, not like I'm popping by the handful.>>25158220true. I'm thinking about doing what another anon said and trying metamucil, because that's supposed to be natural, and something you are explicitly allowed to take everyday, so we'll see.
Whenever in public I run into another couple, 99% of the time I facemog the other guy so hard I have to tell myself "don't look at his girl, don't look at his girl" because I don't wanna be rude and act all Mr Steal Your Girl and cause them to have an argument later.Besides, I see the envy (in the man) and desire (from the girl) in the periphery anyhow.
>>25158312haha, you sound important
>>25158325Quite the opposite, my looks are the only thing I have going for me. Everything else in my life is at a zero or even negative on the achievement/life satisfaction meter.
>>25158328Oh I see how it is. Glad you make such an impression, then.
>>25158265Nothing wrong with being gay nut the only metric i figure in terms of gay sexual identity is if you desire gay sex
https://www.nytimes.com/athletic/7137744/2026/03/22/spurs-fans-respond-with-pride-after-video-disparaging-hispanic-fans-goes-viral/?source=emp_shared_article&unlocked_article_code=1.VFA.FzbN.scFL2pdI3K_o&smid=ta-ios-share>During the San Antonio Spurs’ win over the Phoenix Suns on Thursday, a video of a woman in the crowd sending a message disparaging Hispanic fans went viral. On Saturday, the fans responded.>TikTok user @inluvwganineee posted a video from Thursday’s game showing a woman responding to a message from a person named Chris that said, “A lot of crazy Hispanic fans,” with the response, “All Hispanic! How can they afford it.”>After the video went viral, the Spurs released a statement on Friday saying, “All of us in the Spurs organization are proud to live in San Antonio, a city that shines and thrives because of the culture and contributions of our Latino community. Inclusion is a foundation for the San Antonio Spurs. We strive to provide an environment, in our facilities and across our community, that celebrates belonging and respect regardless of race or ethnicity. Por Vida.”>Spurs All-Star De’Aaron Fox was shocked to learn about the video during his postgame news conference.>“My high school was 60 percent Hispanic. I’m from Texas. Like, what do you expect?” Fox said. “It’s like going to Boston and complaining that there’s a bunch of White people. What kind of sense is that? That makes zero sense.”>Fox explained that his children are a quarter Mexican, as the mother of his wife, Recee Fox, was born in Mexico.>“All his uncles are Black, all his tias are Mexican,” Fox said about his kids. “So for someone to complain about that, especially being in San Antonio, I don’t know why that would make any sense. But this should be normalized. You’re going to see people that don’t look the same as you, that probably have a different accent as you. So, at this point, you would think it would be normal. But to each their own.”is it wrong to feel bad for the lady who had her text messages filmed?
>>25158294well, you wouldn't know, would you?
>>25158300It's SOAD, and the front band is Queens of the Stoneage, which I'm more excited about. I'd never be able to afford tickets, but my friend paid for them, god bless. I've been to the philharmonics plenty of times, and the theatre too, but never to a big music concert like this.
>>25158387I would know, I would
Why does Evola just give up halfway into explaining spiritual virility in Revolt? I understand that it's a component of the patriciate and the rite, but it is the underpinning mechanism of action for those two concepts. Compare that with his discussion on Monarchs not even a few chapters before and you see a much more rigorous substantiation process. His point that religiosity is wrongly associated with pathos is good but it isn't enough in my opinion and then calling religious scholars stupid only worsens the way it reads. It's still a good and engaging book overall, but he has moments where he skips over the important part in a way that feels intentional.
>>25157685>I hate computersHate to break it to you but you're reading this on one right now. Personally I have terrible handwriting so I benefit from having some kind of device to write. I write weird stuff. Yes, sometimes porn.
It’s always “I wish you would…” and never taking action yourself
>>25157845You caught me. Good job>>25157846It never was
I start a new job tomorrow. A shitty warehouse job and I'm nervous. Wish me luck boys, I really need it, I've worked a white collar job for like 10 years so it's a big change.
>>25158497just appear contemplative and gaze into the distance everytime youre on break to avoid engaging in the prattle of laborers and you should be fine!Fighting!
>>25158396Oh yeah you'll have no problem having fun with that audience. You could stand there in the middle of the crowd and shout out 'IM A GAY SHUT-IN WHO LIVES WITH HIS MOTHER AND HASN'T LEFT HIS HOUSE IN TWO MONTHS THIS IS MY FIRST CONCEEEEEERT!' and everyone around will cheer and make friends. I'm not saying to do that but really don't feel like you're not welcome just because you haven't been before.
My wife says I don't communicate, just had a big fight about it. Yet I step on eggshells because anything she might feel blame for, she plays victim over me saying, so how am I supposed to say something like I shouldn't have to instruct her every move during this precious 'sex' she's always begging for? Like you're going to make me feel bad for you feeling bad for not being able to make me feel good, you barely did anything and I can't stay all that hard trying to maneuver a sandbag like it doesn't know where it's own pussy is. Necrophiliacs would be at an advantage here. Someone is crazy here, I generously assume it is either both of us or me, I keep reaching an impasse. Or maybe I'm just fucking gay how about that
>>25158522That's my plan. I just want to unload trucks, man. I can do all the excel bullshit process optimization crap, but I just want to take product, put it on a pallet, shrink wrap it, take a pallet to the truck, swap it for a different one, unpack it, then do it all over again. I'll be sure to read something outrageous to deter any questions.>Hi, what are you reading?Phenomenology of Spirit. I just finished History of Philosophy and rereading Anti-oedipus after going through Fanged Noumena for a refresher. >That's like... a ghost story?
>>25158497Good luck. Why the switch?
>>25158542Try and communicate without being mean.
>>25158569I moved to a small town to get married, worked a shit job for no money for a year, and they fired me without any warning right after christmas. Right after the managing partners took two weeks off without telling anyone amd they refused all my vacation time for nebulous reasons. Small bullshit propane company run by two dickheads. I got a token raise two weeks before, and was pulling my hair out with the insane things they expected me to do or that the neglegent managing partner pretended to do but didnt, like all the data entry and forensic accounting and building 16k formula spreadsheets they never used. For Jr. Salesman money. Got a job in a factory making furniture for a slight raise right behind them. Well, not a slight raise, like a 30% raise. Before that? Worked for The Ministry of Education and did analytics/reporting for a big commerical real estate firm.
>>25158583damn, well hope it works out!
I'm going to selection and assessment for my country's special forces this year
>>25158637Thanks, definitely appreciated, I'm working on being without expectations and open to the opportunity. Cycles of decay and rebirth and all that. I just want to put some money in the bank for the next little while. Plus, I'm sure driving a forklift is fun, it was the last time.
i'm being put on trial for ass piracy
So much time has passed, but lately all of these specific things about you keep coming back to me.
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im gonna say nigger here cause im banned off fit and intNIGGER
