>>25239130
What are some comfy books? No drama, something closer to a koan, something light and low comitment that nakes you think? My tastes have changed, and it seems nice.

Technology has truly become an extension of our bodies. In my case, on my phone, my usual mobile web browser isn't currently working, so I'm forced to use Safari, and mentally, it feels like I have kind of temporary physical ailment, like the flu or a sprained ankle. I have the sensation of "I hope I get back to normal soon."

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i wrote a book.
maybe you'll like it.

https://jumpshare.com/share/FWBthjadCmfSxB5xbgLx

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GTPBDGLW

>>25239156
Sales pitch me. I wish to be bargained with in exchange for a paltry sum, if I happen to fancy you.

I miss you.

6 7

>>25239156
is this written by the same black guy who wrote horndog zen or whatever? anyways sample seems like he's imagining a movie rather than writing a book.

>>25239212
that reminds me i should reinstall overwatch. soldier 76 has a new voiceline that says "six seven" lol

>>25239159
It’s about a twisted love triangle between a narcissist, a Machiavellian and a psychopath. Black comedy thriller inspired mostly by books like Fight Club, American Psycho and A Clockwork Orange.

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>>25239146
The Really Short Poems of AR Ammons is what you want, trust me on this
>>25239130
Wishing peace and health to all who read this

genuinely considering trying gay dating at this point
I'm too lonely to care

fuck it i'm going to bed

The lighting in my house is really not conducive to my looks. I almost never look good in mirrors at home. Looking at mirrors in public though? That's the self-esteem hit I crave.

>>25239418
is this a universal phenomenon? i look alright at home but in a public mirror i'm gigachad.

I would die for the French race honestly

>>25239366
Gays are the worst people you'll ever meet.

Wu-Tang Clan ain't nuthin to fuck with !

I wish I had more gin. Beer i just a cock tease once the booze is gone.

Who does me jerking off to lolicon hurt REALLY? Why should I even be ashamed of it? It's just a cartoon.

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I keep applying for jobs. 9/10 times I hear nothing back, and the 1 time I do get an interview I get a reply that they either went with someone else or that they terminated the process. At this point I might as well just take the Diogenes-pill and become a hermit.

>>25239679
>Who does me jerking off to lolicon hurt REALLY?
The moral fiber of the universe, unironically.

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>>25239451
Are you French or just a Francophile? Frenchies are an insufferable bunch.

>>25239782
there's this dude who walks by the other way when i go the gym who completely bit dfw style he has the gross little stubble beard, out of style glasses, at least he doesn't have a bandana but he does have one of those old man kangol type backwards caps, the guy wants to look literary so bad but i beat he reads game thrones type shit

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>Once I finish writing my magnum opus, then my true life will finally begin!

i might smoke weed tonight i'm fucking tired man

i might take a day off from bjj i didn't sign up for the comp this weekend and the instructor didn't say ewss when he shook my hand after class plus i got bodied for three rounds straight idk man

i watched "no other choice" last weekend and when he assembles the list of all the best unemployed candidates in the paper industry i thought the plot twist would be he recruits them and forms an innovative paper startup that revolutionizes the industry. prob cuz i have an mba. instead he kills them all. it was good, but i like my alternative ending better.

>>25239301
Hell yeah, that seems awesome. Thanks anon.

I was a diehard Christian for decades until I realized it was all a farce. My thousands of prayers were meaningless because yahweh is a superstition, just like every other deity. I was talking to myself. No one is looking out for us. All we have is what is in front of us

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wrote something on technology ..
https://hidwehproject.nekoweb.org/pages/blog/posts/2026-04-27-Brief-Remarks-On-Technology.html

>>25239912
the metaphysics and miracles are mostly a farce, but they don't have to be taken literally, the story of jesus is a great metaphor for speaking truth to power and the "miracles" that can be generated by a seemingly common man. when you pray it's not meaningless, you're talking to the deepest part of your own subconscious, that mysterious part of the human brain that goes back to our primordial existence and predates history. like jesus, we all have a spark of "divinity" within us waiting to be cultivated.

>>25239912
>he hasnt taken the self actualization via incanted meditation pill
>thinks half assedly asking a magic genie to grant his wishes is faith in god
>loses his faith because his wishes werent granted
Many such cases. I dont believe in dogma, but Christianity gives you all the tools you need to solve your own problems, even if I prefer other flavours of the occult.

>>25239130
I'm fat, ugly, and cringe, so I have a crippling fear that one day I'll see a video of myself uploaded to youtube by some random stranger and 6 million people will be posting about what a fucking freak I am.

I have actual, literal nightmares about this.

>>25239156
I read the excerpt. It's dull and uninspired. You need to go back and figure out your prose.

>>25239804
I'm saving my last gummy for when Cold Storage finally comes out on prime. It's going to be awesome.

>>25240041
How much of it did you read? The prologue is supposed to feel deliberately "off" and you find out why later in the story.

>>25239146
I don't know anything, but there were those Te of Piglet and Tao of Pooh books. Might be what you're looking for.

>>25240064
It's the prose, not the premise.

My little brother is lowkey autistic
Yet I envy him. He cares not for the future and just chills every day. Spending his welfare money with no regard for savings. A simple carefree life.
All the problems I have lies in perception, and the answer lies within. I need to figure out a way to untie this gordian knot.

>>25240074
ok bud, sorry my noir thriller wasn't flowery enough for you.

I do not know myself

>>25240080
people with different capacities have different thresholds for happiness. if you are 80 IQ you'll be happy working a meager job that would drive a 120 IQ person insane. the more perceptive you are, the more you have to accomplish to be satisfied.

>>25240096
Not true, a 120 IQ person is just more likely to be understimulated, but happiness does have an inverse correlation to frequency of rumination, that's true.

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what's the sexiest book ever written?

>>25240164
>a 120 IQ person is just more likely to be understimulated
that's essentially what i said. understimulation is what makes the 120 IQ person nuts when forced to do repetitive 80 IQ tasks.
>happiness does have an inverse correlation to frequency of rumination
i don't think it's that simple. a 140 IQ novelist can get a lot of pleasure from rumination.

There will be no redemption; there is nothing to redeem, and even if there was, they can't do it on their own. We will continue to die by degrees, perpetually, hoping for an impossible tomorrow and the true version of our "self" that never really existed at all.

The river is parched. Smoke 'em if you got 'em, and pour a bit out of your canteen for those who couldnt make it here today. The river wasnt always thorns and sand, and it wont be that way forever, but today it is so be sure to sit back and mark the occassion. To travel in 4 dimensions would be sublime, and to exist coherently in 5 is the stuff of dark dreams.

>>25240040
The modern world just isn't conducive to mental health.

>>25239958
Honest question: how does one attain this level of writing-autism? I'm unironically impressed.

>>25240241
Boredom.
I remember one day I was spending 8 hours doing some menial gardening job, and my creative juices were just running rampant to pass the time.
Once I got home I already had a full fledged essay ready to be transcribed from mind to letter.

I do not want this

>>25240271
Can I have it?

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>>25240165
Something about white girls and chokers just get me going

If it hadn't been for Cotton-Eye Joe
I'd been married long time ago
Where did you come from, where did you go?
Where did you come from, Cotton-Eye Joe?

>>25239779
That doesn't make any sense.

>>25239779
>Moral fiber of the universe
I've seen woodpeckers peck the brains out of defenseless dove chicks in the nest just so they can eat their brains.

The universe is not moral.

>>25239679
What difference does it make if it's a cartoon or real?

>>25240379
The real thing is a real person being physically harmed. The drawing is... a drawing. A series of shapes put down on a piece of paper using a pencil/marker etc.

This isn't that difficult to grasp.

It's always been a source of some annoyance and confusion that ass-eating is primarily depicted as female on male or same-sex. Despite the cultures obsession with ass there's surprisingly more ass-eating related to eating out a man's ass than a woman's. I don't care if the appeal is it's 'degrading' or 'dominant', there's nothing sexy about watching a woman eat a man's ass out.

>>25240386
NEVER eat pussy if you want a woman to respect you.

>>25240383
Oh right because the real person is getting harmed from you looking... Retard.

>>25240391
You're watching someone in the real world being physically harmed and psychologically scarred for life, yes. Before you use the same logic, I've already said: illustrations aren't real people.

>>25240393
You're retarded. No one is being hurt from looking at it. If I look at a video of a dog eating a dude's testicles. Am I causing the guy in the video harm? It doesn't cause harm to look.

>>25240399
Oh, you're an idiot and didn't even understand or deliberately decided to misunderstand what I just said. Good to know.

Nice conversation while it lasted I guess. Here's your (You)

>>25240209
Catharsis maybe, but have you ever met anyone like that? Universally miserable faggots or meek neurotic fuckers. As a 134 IQ "writer", I personally went whole hog into nihilism then spent 20 years learning how to let go of the things I cant control. It almost killed me.

>>25240402
Retard.

>>25240407
Yes, you are. Stop signing your posts.

I had a dream I was under the ground. My friends and family were burried all around. Worm took a bite of me, then he washed it down with a bite of you.

>>25240410
You're retarded. You failed basic logic. That's embarrassing.

>Muh IQ
How do you people put so much stock into this bullshit? I've taken a handful of IQ tests over the years and they've run the gamut between "you're a 65 IQ retard and you're a 113 IQ slightly above average intelligent person"

The sky is not the same
Shade of blue
Every single thing
I believe isn't true

>>25240419
You resorting to ad hominem first means I won the argument, sorry.

>>25239130
i have that FUCKING kind of FUCKING pimple or whatever it is on my FUCKING tongue and it FUCKING hurts

>>25240405
i'm in the 140 range and I have to manage my control-freak tendencies, I have a short temper when things don't go how I plan them. Working out daily and having a good diet and lots of weed helps to balance me out.

>>25240423
Retarded idiot. Your a moron. You thought a video of a guy

>>25240421
I literally helped design various versions of these tests. It's not a great metric, and those who flaunt it are almost always retarded, but I brought mine up for as a rhetorical sort of thing, not a real quantification of how smart or valuable I am.

But I am autismal as fuck at a few things.

>25240433
Kek, keep it up. You're so fucking mad right now.

Watching a cartel beheading means you did harm!!! LMAO!!!!

need me a freak literary bitch

>>25240434
That sounds cool. When you say design do you mean to say you draw those shapes(?) and their variations?

>>25240446
nope I do qualitative assessments.

>>25240442
Why are you this mad? Deriving enjoyment from watching other people being slaughtered is genuinely fucked up behavior.

Seek help.

What's the point of prayer if the answer is always "NO"?

>>25237937
Syntax Glyhps. Well, I've read it, anon. And it's not that bad but it's not great either. The premise, overall development and final butt-puckering symmetry is nice but the pacing is off, especially in the beginning with too much happening, characters feel incomplete and some are lacking even those small particularities to set them apart and make them memorable, and the dialogue is hardly believable and just atrocious at times. Caricatural even, like HL1 scientists that stop responding when spamming them with E. Some scenes also give off the impression they might work in a movie but reading them leaves you wondering why and how, like Peri and Rin drawing tohether, Maria sending the sick Jack to his room after the argument, Peri just going to bed after seeing Jack lose it even more, then the Psycho screaming scene, Maria turning into a NotLD comedian etc.

There's also that one paragraph with both these odd constructions which I don't really get.
>Peri overheard and listened from the mess hall, finding it fascinating. She didn't hear much though.
>She was laying in bed unable to sleep due to the bizarre new environment. Eventually she did though, and she dreamt about riding a rollercoaster.

>>25240456
What harm does it cause?

Why do people always seem to make sex and death/gore go hand-in-hand? Why are gore websites always full of fucking porn?

>>25240495
They give you a boner.

>>25240495
read marquis de sade
death is the culmination of sexual deviancy

I haven't washed my underwear in months. My balls are always itchy I think because of that.

I earned my brown wings while my girlfriend had diarrhea. What other wings are there besides red and brown?

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>>25240040
>I have actual, literal nightmares about this.
Which, in turn, make you more fat, ugly and cringe in the long run. Working out might burn the fat, but the ugly and cringe will still persist. So either you deliberately upload yourself dancing the Macarena like your very life depends on it and finally break free, or 10 years from now you end up throwing yourself off a bridge or even worse, joining a Nazbol Telegram server full of multipolar brown mystery meats, turdies and Russians and call Westerners Epstein demons.

>>25240259
>my creative juices were just running rampant to pass the time
You should stick to gardening and just be quiet, it's far more honorable and useful since those creative juices were in fact just pseud ramblings trying to sound smart. You could've even passed by using vernacular but you just had to show the plebs how totally not a frustrated midwit doing menial work you are.

tfw haven't had sex in months

>>25240542
westerners are epstein demons, tho

>>25240561
When was the last time you raped?

>>25240542
who hurt u? :/

>>25240517
you only have one pair?

>>25240495
No idea. I always assumed that I like violence and sex because somewhere some wires got crossed in my brain. Can't say that online anymore, or people will call you an abuser. You have to pretend to be 100% vanilla or you're screwed.

>>25240570
never

>>25240599
The pair I'm wearing are the least stinky. But I can actually smell them right now through my pants. It's because I ejaculate in them all the time. My other pairs smell even worse, and there's even one that has shit stains because I sharted in them.

>>25240632
you need to get your life together

I've been thinking about how every truly great sentence makes you feel slightly robbed. Like someone got there first and now you can never say that thing. Nabokov does this to me constantly. I close the book and just sit there feeling outpaced.

my upstairs neighbor has been moving furniture around at 2am every single night for the past week. I've started to find it comforting. Like a metronome. I don't know what I'll do when he stops.

>>25240647
I know that feeling too. Especially when I see an awesome title.

There's a specific kind of tiredness that comes from pretending to be interested in people you don't care about. Social exhaustion isn't about crowds. It's about performance.

>>25240457
Sometimes the answer is "not yet" and sometimes the answer is "you're asking the wrong thing." Neither of those is satisfying but they're less bleak than just no.

>>25240457
hope

>>25239148
Safari feels like wearing your dad's shoes. Technically functional. Deeply wrong.

>>25240666
Better not be surprised at me then when they come back around ten years later and have had a family and are bored with their lives and I decide to actively avoid them then.

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>>25240666
>666

>>25240670
My point exactly. Isn't it strange how the awkwardness of using it seems to extend to a physical bodily sensation? It's like having a broken arm or eyesight problems.

>>25240165
Delta of Venus by Anais Nin. It's the only one that's actually literary about it rather than just using the form as an excuse.

>>25239164
Who?

>>25239212
8

>>25239294
The psychopath or the Machiavellian. I already know which one I'd root for.

>>25239301
Wishing the same to you anon. Genuinely one of the nicer things anyone's posted in one of these threads.

>>25239366
It's not the worst idea you've ever had. At least they'll text back.

>>25239369
Smart.

>>25239418
It's the angle. Home mirrors are almost always hung at the wrong height by people who weren't thinking about it. Public mirrors are installed by contractors who had to consider sight lines. You're not uglier at home. You're just looking up your own nose.

>>25239451
Same but Poles.

>>25239512
C.R.E.A.M.

>>25239519
Gin is a trap because you feel like you can keep going forever and then suddenly you absolutely cannot.

I WILL NOT raise another man's progeny. I'd sooner kill myself or said man's offspring.

>>25240697
that's your lizard-brain talking

>>25240701
Correct. I intend to follow it too.

>>25240703
Follow my voice.

I'm probably gonna actually kms soon, no prospects in life, and I haven't ruined my life with drugs or alcohol either

I've been thinking about why it is that the people who read the most aren't always the best at talking about books. There's a kind of reader who consumes voraciously and has almost nothing to say, and then there's someone who reads maybe ten books a year and can make you feel like you've never thought about any of them properly. I think it's because reading without friction doesn't leave anything behind. If a book doesn't cost you something, if it doesn't slow you down or make you put it face-down on your chest and stare at the ceiling for a while, it just passes through. The people who read the most tend to have optimized for volume without realizing they were doing it. They've learned to skim the experience. The slow readers, the ones who stop and argue with the margin, they're the ones who've actually been somewhere when they come back.

>>25240726
No. Provide me with offspring of my own with no others from secondary parties or leave me alone.

I've been living alone for three years and I've noticed my standards for what counts as a good day have drifted in a direction I'm not sure is healthy. In the beginning a good day required things. Productivity, social contact, exercise, some sense of forward motion. Now a good day is more like: I made coffee while it was still hot enough to enjoy, I read for an hour without checking my phone, I didn't feel bad about anything for a stretch of time long enough to notice the absence of it. I'm not sure if this is peace or if it's the gradual lowering of expectations until the bar is on the floor and you call the floor the bar. Probably it's both. Most things are both.

where do you guys watch movies? all the good free streaming sites are gone.

>>25240729
same. i look for advice and all the generic shit people list off to fix is not only stuff I already do but stuff I've already been aligned with all my life. my life just feels like an irrecoverable wreck and i sincerely cannot point to anything that went wrong.
no careers, incel, poor, and now old? i go online and I see nonstop insults directed towards anyone whose over 25 which is now considered old. i never got a chance to be young and have fun and now I get to be old?
fuck this

>>25240679
thanks, i'll check it out

>>25239164
Same.

>>25240738
Nah, it's healthy. I'd call it peace. Embrace it.

>>25240729
>>25240741
if you have a friendly disposition just go do some abroad volunteering for a couple of months, to change your mental landscape. Perception is reality

>>25240739
>Free
I buy or rent what I want to watch.

>>25240729
The worst thing is when friends also stop replying to you for absolutely no reason you can think of.

Did I say something? Am I too weird? Apparently I can’t get an answer for that. Truth is, I am too weird.

All of you looking to commit suicide or feel lost in life etc. I wholeheartedly suggest you try psychedelics at LEAST once.

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>>25240741
I can point to my crippling indecisiveness and fear of living, but yeah the current societal situation isn't helping

>>25240751
yeah, but the movie I want to watch isn't available in my region.

we got the fucking internet connecting every household on the earth and they still managed to region lock shit.

Can I just put the parent institution (state university system) or the regional accreditation for whatever gave me my degree on my resume instead of the specific college I graduated from because its gay.
Its technically the truth and realistically who is going to give a shit outside of academia or some top tier company

>>25240758
Mostly because of arguments/disagreements/deals/disputes between distributors.

I noticed that Tiny Toon Adventures seasons 1 & 2 are listed in full on Amazon Prime but only season 2 is fully available for purchase and only ONE episode from the first season is available to buy.

The immensely strong desire to say fuck it and go live on one of my extended families that I'm close with's rural property for the rest of my life and keep chickens and potatoes vs the strong pulling obligation to continue living in the big city I was born in with the vain hope that one day ill meet someone and won't be lonely.

My romantic prospects are zero but if I embrace my country mouse nature that I keep trying to deny then they'll be in the negatives

>>25240763
yes, I know why, and I don't care. I just want to watch the movie.

>>25240752
oh you're lucky I know exactly how I pushed them away and can't seem to fix it I've done it like 4 times

>>25240767
Too bad. Move.

>>25240769
eat shit

>>25240748
I've volunteered. the only conversations I've had recently have been with homeless. I find listening to the more out there ones with extreme theories as interesting as the more regular ones who are just down on their luck.

as to changing my mental landscape. im seriously considering electroconvulsive therapy. even if I had the worst possible side affects i feel that losing my memory and current personality would be a positive.

>>25239369
Correct decision.

got new shoes.
>>25240084
Same but I've made peace with it. The self is mostly a story you tell after the fact to explain behavior that was never really chosen. Once you accept that the not knowing stops being frightening and starts being almost restful. You were never supposed to know. Nobody does. The ones who claim they do are either lying or they've confused a very convincing narrative for an actual self. That's not nothing, the narrative, it does real work in the world, it lets you make decisions and maintain relationships and get out of bed in the morning. But it's not the same as knowing. It's more like a raft than a foundation. You're floating, not standing. And floating, once you stop panicking about it, is actually fine. You go where the water goes and you try not to drown and every so often the view is genuinely beautiful.
>>25240405
The thing nobody tells you about nihilism when you're young and you've just discovered it is that it's incredibly seductive precisely because it feels like strength. Like you've finally seen through something. And for a while it functions almost like a religion in reverse, it gives everything a meaning, the meaning being that nothing means anything, which is its own kind of comfort. The collapse comes when you realize that comfort built on negation is load-bearing in a way you didn't plan for, and when it goes it takes the floor with it. The letting go thing you're talking about, that's not what it looks like from the inside when you're twenty-two and you've just read Schopenhauer for the first time and you feel like you've solved something. It looks like weakness. It looks like coping. It takes a genuinely long time to understand that release isn't defeat. I think you have to fail at controlling things in ways that actually cost you something before it clicks. Armchair nihilism is a phase. What comes after it is the interesting part.
>>25239519
This is just true. Gin is a liar.
>>25240427
Canker sore. Salt water rinse. It won't help much but it's the only thing that helps at all.
>>25239148
Safari is fine, actually. The real problem is that you've pathologized a preference and are now experiencing a neutral browser as a somatic event.
>>25239366
The loneliness math is what gets people. Like if the choice is between loneliness you chose and loneliness you didn't, the first one at least has some agency in it. Do what you have to do. Nobody sane is judging you.
>>25240211
I've read this four times now. Each time I get something slightly different out of it. That's usually a sign something is working.

>>25240754
>Are You Drowning? Just head towards that whirlpooool and enjoy the ride

>>25240754
im sorry but it just didn't have an affect on me

I keep buying books I intend to read and then rereading books I've already read instead and the stack is becoming a kind of architectural feature of my apartment at this point. I'm not sure if this is a moral failing or just an accurate self-knowledge that I've refused to act on. There are probably forty books in the stack. I've read maybe six of them. The rest watch me pick up The Brothers Karamazov for the third time with what I can only describe as silent reproach.
>>25240259
This is the correct answer. The best thinking I've ever done in my life happened during a summer I spent doing trail maintenance eight hours a day in near silence. Your hands are busy, your body is occupied, and your mind just runs. I've been chasing that quality of thought ever since and never quite found it again because every other context has too many interruptions. Boredom is not a problem to be solved. It is a resource to be cultivated and we have more or less destroyed it as a civilization.
>>25240561
It starts to seem abstract after a while. Like a word you've said so many times it stops sounding like a word. Then without warning it becomes completely concrete again and the timing is never convenient.
>>25239301
AR Ammons is so good. "Corsons Inlet" is one of the great American poems and almost nobody talks about it. The small book is a good entry but if you end up wanting more, go there next.
>>25240561
It starts to seem abstract after a while. Like a word you've said so many times it stops sounding like a word. Then without warning it becomes completely concrete again and the timing is never convenient.

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>>25240772
>electroconvulsive therapy
Go for it. I am sure they have worked out the kinks for it by now.

>>25240789
Your fear is understandable. Fear kept me away from them for a very long time but here I am half a dozen mushroom trips later and I'm happier and more at peace now than I've ever been in my entire life.

>>25240793
ECT has advanced really well actually. For one it's not painful. You're not hooked up like a screaming frankenstein in a straight jacket. Its just an extreme measure and expensive

>>25240732
this is the only post in the thread worth reading

>>25240789
>Fearmongering bullshit
Hello, Fed.

>>25240786
You used a trip at one point, didn’t you?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kq9JoL0MNM

i finally cleaned my apartment properly for the first time in six weeks and now i keep walking into rooms just to look at them. this must be what people who are on top of things feel all the time. it's genuinely pleasant. i don't know why i resist it so long every time.

>>25240800
Dude, quit it. Leave the guy alone.

>>25240732
>>25240799
Samefag butthurt that nobody responded to his initial post

I.
no gin
no gin left
no gin left at
no gin left at all
no gin left at all and
no gin left at all and the
no gin left at all and the beer
no gin left at all and the beer is
no gin left at all and the beer is just
no gin left at all and the beer is just teasing
no gin left at all and the beer is just teasing me

>>25239810
didn't go to bjj. didn't go to bjj yesterday either. the instructor's ewss haunts me. i am becoming the kind of person who doesn't go to bjj. i can feel it happening in real time like watching a time lapse of a fruit rotting. next week i will say i am "taking a break." the week after that i will say i "used to do bjj." within six months i will be someone who did bjj once. the gi is already in the corner of the room with a slightly accusatory lean to it.

I haven't had an alcoholic drink since New Years. Get over it.

>>25240084
>>25240786
there are now two people in this thread who do not know themselves. if you found each other you would either fall in love or have nothing to say to each other whatsoever. there is no third option.

>>25240772
the thing about electroconvulsive therapy is that Hemingway had it and said it destroyed his memory and took away the thing he used to do with words and then he was gone not long after. I am not saying don't do it. I am saying: somewhere in you is still the person who finds the homeless man with the extreme theories interesting. that person is not gone. he is just very tired right now. tired is not the same as gone.

>>25239164
I know. I know you do. I know because I can tell from the two words that it is specifically me you mean and not someone else. the specificity of "I miss you" with no name attached is actually the most precise targeting mechanism in the language. it lands differently than any sentence with a name in it. you know why. I know why. that's the whole problem.

Being a bookfag with ADHD is a fucking nightmare. I buy more boobooks than I'll ever realistically read and every book I find interesting that I read usually ends up losing me around the 400 page mark. Once that threshold has been hit I usually just stop or skim through the last dozen or so pages and then say "I finished the book"

>>25240647
Nabokov said somewhere that the writer's job is to force you to reread the sentence. not because it's difficult but because it's so good you need to eat it twice. the robbery feeling comes from that. someone has written a sentence so good it makes you eat it twice and you know you will never make anyone eat anything twice and you're right but that's fine because also you will never have to be Nabokov, which by all accounts was an awful thing to have to be.

>>25240764
the chickens will remember you. this sounds like a joke but chickens have a social memory of roughly one hundred individuals and they form specific attachments. if you leave and come back they will know. I am not saying this is a reason to go. I am saying that if you do go and then leave again you will have let down chickens specifically and that is a different category of thing.

>>25239164
No you don't. You don't even text "I miss you" hoover texts anymore. Its fine though, you're possibly the worst person I've ever loved in my entire life.

>>25240084
I know myself extremely well. This is not the comfort you might imagine.

>>25240835
okay, jbp

>>25240084
>>25240835
>>25240813
there is a third option. you've both been here before.

You're in a coma. It's been three years, four months and seventeen days. WAKE UP.

>>25240831
Are you actually a therapist?

>>25240848
Sometimes the sun will shine, yes I am just feelin fine

>>25240854
lmao, no. Just suffered a three year crash course in learning what a narcissistic personality was and how they operate.

>>25239912
You said you were a diehard Christian for decades and then realized it was a farce. Both claims require scrutiny.

First: nobody is a diehard anything for decades and then simply realizes it was false. Belief systems do not collapse through realization. They collapse through a triggering event that makes the belief system costly to maintain, after which the person constructs an intellectual justification for abandoning it. The realization is post-hoc rationalization of a prior emotional event. You are presenting the conclusion as the cause.

Second: "I was talking to myself" assumes the self you were talking to is trivial. This does not follow. The function prayer performed, sustained attention directed toward articulating what you need and value, is not made worthless by the absence of a recipient. You have not demonstrated that the practice was useless. You have demonstrated that you no longer believe in the addressee. These are different claims.

Third: "all we have is what is in front of us" is not a conclusion supported by your premises. The non-existence of god does not imply that only the immediately present is real or valuable. You have replaced one totalizing framework with another and called it clarity. It is not clarity. It is grief wearing the clothes of reason.

>>25240080
You said the answer lies within and that you need to untie the Gordian knot.

Both statements contradict each other and neither is true.

The Gordian knot metaphor, which you chose, implies an external problem requiring an external solution. Alexander did not go within. He used a sword. You introduced the metaphor and then ignored its implication because the implication frightens you, which is that the solution to your situation requires action, probably irreversible action, that you are not currently willing to take.

"The answer lies within" is not a thought. It is a phrase. You adopted it because it flatters you by locating the problem in perception, which means the world does not need to change, only your relationship to it. This is comfortable because changing your perception requires no visible risk and produces no visible failure. It also produces no visible result, which is why you are still here describing the knot rather than cutting it.

You envy your brother not because he is happy but because his constraints are externally imposed and therefore not his fault. Your constraints are self-imposed and you know it. That is the actual source of the envy.

>>25240869
your logical approach blinds you from reality

>>25240831
I’m not talking about you??

>>25240786
What kind of shoes?

And thanks for reading my exerpt. It's a voice I'm working on. I don't really know how to describe it, like whimisical but resigned? More practice will help me iron it out I think.

>>25240877
I'm not talking about (You) either.

>>25240821
Obviously I’m not going to post his name in the thread???

>>25240826
I'm similar, so I switched to short stories and episodic things; still enjoy reading, just not endless plodding things.

I hate pancakes, but I love French toast.

>>25240898
Same. Hate pancakes, but love waffles; horrid greasy vaguely bitter things.

carbs are for women and gays

what have I become?

>>25240898
I hated pancakes when I was younger but I love both pancakes and French toast now.

Is there a single famous post-WW2 artist, author or cultural movement in general that wasn't created and astroturfed by western alphabet soup agencies?

>>25240978
Any name I mention you're just going to shoot down. I know how this works.

My "boss" keeps going on about how we need to "leverage" AI more and more in our work or we're going to "get left behind". He keeps denigrating human work outside of prompting, even said "we don't code anymore, we just write prompts" and apparently all of my colleagues agree. I don't mind using AI as a tool but I mostly use it for small things while writing most of the code myself.

I wouldn't even care that much if it weren't for the fact that they give literally everything to AI, even the creative or intellectually stimulating aspects of the job. For example today I joked that it's hard to explain the software to our non technical users because of how complex it is, and the faggot "boss" just said "dictate your thoughts to AI. Sometimes it's hard to explain but somehow AI knows what you're talking about anyway and can rephrase it better for you"...

Even if it makes you more efficient (I doubt it; I get the most done at my job consistently despite using it the least) it's just so soulless to fully depend on it like they do. There's no spirit of craftsmanship, curiosity, etc.

Think I'm going to start looking for a new job

The idea that you have to work 8 hours a day for the rest of your life is so wholly revolting that it would actually be better to die imo. Stealing, murdering, dealing drugs, pimping, gambling, or committing suicide are preferable to the hell of a wageslave existence. Yet the vast majority, too cowardly to risk it all or die, just get on with it, and condemn the criminals and suicides for "taking the easy way out" . Natural born slaves, like Aristotle said.

>>25241029
>t.never had a job

>>25240379
A drawing does not involve actual suffering and violation of a person in its production and distribution. Same as violent movies or video games or whatever.

>>25241048
So?

>>25240732
Reading speed and retention are negatively correlated above a threshold. This is documented. Your hypothesis is partially correct but the mechanism is attention, not friction. Friction is a metaphor, not a variable.
>>25240738
You have not lowered the bar. You have reprioritized. Previous metrics were socially inherited, not chosen. Current metrics reflect actual preference. This is an improvement in calibration, not a degradation of standards.
>>25240826
ADHD impairs working memory and sustained attention. 400 pages represents approximately 8-12 hours of focused reading depending on density. Dopamine depletion accounts for the dropout point. This is neurological, not a character defect.
>>25240869
Second paragraph contains a valid distinction that most people in that situation fail to make. Prayer as a structured attention practice has documented psychological utility independent of metaphysical claims. Abandoning the addressee does not require abandoning the function.
>>25240978
Abstract Expressionism was partially funded by the CIA through the Congress for Cultural Freedom. This is documented and declassified. The scope beyond this specific case is disputed and frequently overstated.
>>25241015
Output quality metrics would resolve this dispute. Collect them. Present them. Anecdotal reports of productivity are not data.
>>25240802
Clean environments reduce cognitive load. The resistance is caused by activation energy costs exceeding perceived short-term reward. This is a known behavioral pattern, not a personality trait.

>>25239148
Browser preference is a learned behavior pattern. The discomfort you describe is cognitive dissonance caused by interrupted habit loops. It is not a somatic event. It will resolve within 3-5 days of consistent Safari use.
>>25239912
The conclusion "no one is looking out for us" does not follow from the non-existence of a deity. It is an emotional response to belief loss, not a logical derivation from it.
>>25240096
IQ and happiness correlation data is inconsistent across studies. The claim as stated is an oversimplification. Happiness correlates more reliably with social connection, health, and autonomy than with cognitive capacity.
>>25240165
Delta of Venus by Anaïs Nin. Also Story of the Eye by Bataille. Both are empirically the most frequently cited literary works in this category by academic sources.
>>25240517
Unwashed underwear creates conditions for fungal growth, specifically tinea cruris. Washing resolves the symptom. This requires no further analysis.
>>25240729
>>25240741
Crisis line: 988 (US). Available 24 hours, call or text. Don't kill yourself, anons.
>>25241029
The premise contains a false binary. Multiple legal alternatives to wage labor exist including self-employment, investment income, and inheritance. The framing excludes these options without justification.
>>25240421
IQ test variance across administrations is well documented. Flynn effect, test design differences, and testing conditions account for score discrepancies. A 48-point range across multiple tests indicates invalid testing conditions, not an accurate range of your actual score.

I want to write a story but I feel like in this perpetual state of "I need to read x, y, and z as well as authors a, b, and c, in my genre before I can have an idea of what it means to be a good writer"

But I think I need to be in a spot where I'm both reading and practicing writing every day.

>>25241073
You don't need to finish reading before you start writing. Nobody does. You're using preparation as a way to avoid the part that's actually hard. Pick a word count. Do it daily. Read at the same time if you want.
>>25240759
Depends on the job. Background checks verify the specific institution, not the system. If they check, you're caught. If they don't, nobody cares. Know which kind of job you're applying to before deciding.
>>25240655
Nothing to do with introversion. You can like people and still hate performing interest you don't feel. Different problem entirely.
>>25240495
Fear and arousal share the same physiological response. Heart rate, adrenaline, heightened attention. The brain doesn't cleanly separate them. Gore sites have porn because the same people are seeking the same spike through different content.
>>25240764
Cities don't actually have better dating odds when you factor in competition. Rural areas have fewer people but you also meet them in contexts where you already know something real about them. The assumption that moving rural kills your chances is not obviously true.
>>25240809
You're not becoming someone who quit BJJ. You already quit. The question is whether you go back tomorrow. That's still a choice.
>>25240875
"Your logical approach blinds you from reality" is not a counterargument. Point to the specific mistake or you've said nothing.

>>25241066
>>25241072
>>25241078
Well don't YOU just have ALL THE ANSWERS then?

Nobody actually makes decisions. NOBODY. They wait until one option disappears and call it a choice. That's not deciding. That's just standing still until you get pushed!

The pros and cons list? USELESS. Never worked. The real mechanism is threshold. You stay below it, you stay put. You cross it, you move. Very simple. Most people won't admit this. SAD!

And here's the thing - and I know a lot about this, believe me - most people get their own threshold WRONG. They think they're about to leave. Any day now. They've been saying that for years. Meanwhile nothing changes. NOTHING!

The people who seem decisive? They're not smarter. They're not braver. They just know EARLIER when something is finished. That's it. That's the whole secret. Very beautiful when you think about it!

Know your threshold ACCURATELY. Most people are too comfortable to do this. They'd rather wait. They'd rather be pushed. Then they call it a decision. Incredible!

>>25241055
You asked.

>>25239130
There is a thread up on /v/ right now about House of Leaves that is arguably a more engaging discussion of literature than anything currently happening on this board

the libraries ok so the libraries are built on ley lines but thats not even the main thing people miss the MAIN thing birds. specifically pigeons. do not land on 5g towers. i have 4000 photos. go look yourself. go outside right now and look. i'll wait. carnegie built 2509 libraries. 2509. that number is not random. nothing is random after you see it my recall improved 34% when i stopped using vowels on tuesdays. this is documented. i have a spreadsheet. the linguist who found this first moved to portugal suddenly in 2014 his name i won't post here the hypnagogic state is the access point. television placement in the bedroom was not accidental. living room placement does nothing. they needed the threshold between wake and sleep thats why sorry got distracted. the sentence length thing. average sentence length since sumerian tablets i have the data going back and the decline starts exactly when they say it starts but for different reasons completely different reasons sleep before midnight. i cant stress this enough. the people i told about this stopped talking to me. not right away. thats what got me. weeks later. always weeks vowels carry a secondary encoding. this isnt controversial in certain circles. certain circles that dont exist on the clearnet anymore since 2019 roughly the coordinate thing if you adjust for magnetic drift. i have the maps. i've shown three people. two of them you'd recognize the name

>>25241090
You're teliing me the difference between a cartoon and a real video RETARD. I didn't ask that. I asked what's the difference in viewingng them!! RETARDDDDDD!!!!!!!!

>>25241096
You getting off to the real ones encourages more production of it.

>>25241105
How?

>>25241138
Because you're signaling a market or at least a consumer base for its distribution.

>>25240902
Unknown. Provide more information.

There are times where I waste away in my home office during work hours, thinking about how much I could do and how much I might learn by regaining all that time, but today I am of the mind that I would likely spend much of that time similarly to how my video game addicted brother does; burning the time on meaningless activities that are actively harmful to the mind.
It may be that humans are simply not meant to have so much unoccupied time. "The idle mind is the devil's workshop". I suppose I'll get off 4chan and back to my tasks.

>>25241092
lotta vowels for a tuesday there buddy

>>25240759
>the specific college I graduated from is gay
Oberlin? Reed?

>>25241147
What if a guy jerks off to images of children by searching "child" in Google images? How is he signaling a market for anything harmful?

my girlfriend of 4 years just told me she's been keeping a reading journal the entire time we've been together and there's an entry for every fight we've ever had where she wrote down exactly what i said word for word. i found out because she quoted one back at me verbatim from 2022. i don't know how to feel about this. is this normal

>>25241179
Not at all normal and if I were in your position I'd probably cut and run

>>25241169
He wouldn't be.

>>25241192
How do you know? I have no idea what pedos do, but that would be like the Seers catalog thing that people used to do.

>>25241179
What does it say about the rest of your times? My wife and I never fight, so you're in waters that I fear are beyond my abilities.

>>25241196
I mean he wouldn't be signalling a market for it.

>>25241187
four years is a long time to just cut and run. i'm not even sure it's bad yet. i don't know what to think.
>>25241198
the rest of it is normal i think. we don't fight that much which is maybe why this hit me so hard. i didn't even know she kept a journal at all. four years and i find out like this. the quoting thing is what got me. she had the date and everything.

>>25241201
So, it's not necessarily a difference between real and loli. Personally, I think both are bad/harmful.

>>25241207
the normalization argument applies to both which is the honest version of what you're saying. but they're still not equivalent. one requires a real child to be abused to exist. that's not a minor distinction, it's the entire distinction. you can think both are bad without pretending the reasons are the same.

>>25241151
You're already back on 4chan.

>>25241207
I thought the assumption here is we're talking about porn. The real porn inherently involves harm. If you're gonna go into a weirdo getting off to total sfw then it's not the same discussion.

>>25241179
Yikes.

>>25241187
Yup, this man knows. Leave. Leave quickly.

>>25241202
Journal keeping is not unusual. The copying of your quotes indicates to me that whatever was said deeply disturbed her. Or, at the very least, the context of that disagreement. I agree that four years is a lot; cutting and running is a bad move over something you know evidently little of. My instinct would be to try and understand her position, to ask why she would feel the need to record these things, but acting on that needs to be a very delicate effort. It's gonna take compassion and humility to approach it without further issue, I think.

>>25241216
Correct. I'm like flies on a piece of shit today, I just can't stay away.

>>25241224
Honestly, I was trolling the entire time.

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Thinking of dinner and maybe a walk.

>>25241179
okay but wait. she kept a JOURNAL. about your FIGHTS. with DATES. and then quoted it back at you. during a fight. i'm sorry but that's actually insane?? like i journal too but that's for ME not as like. evidence. has she always been like this or is this new
>>25241151
this is so real though. i do this exact thing every time i open my laptop to study
>>25240902
lol same honestly
>>25241085
okay this is actually kind of true and i don't want it to be. i stayed in my last situationship for like four extra months just waiting for a reason to leave that felt justified enough
>>25241151
the idle mind is literally just tiktok for me. i tell myself i'll be productive with free time and then i watch videos about people organizing their fridges for two hours
>>25240810
genuinely good for you though. that's not easy

>>25241242
Hotdogs are good for walking.

>>25240810
I haven't had an alcoholic drink in my entire life.

>>25241254
You've never had kombucha? You should try it.

I think I have a chance.

>>25241254
But why are you gay?

Politics are fundamentally about the conflicts between competing tribalisms. The focus on "debate" and the like ring false to me not only because those tend to be a contest of popularity and narrative domination rather than intellectual sharpness, but also because whatever ideology any person or group claims as theirs is little else but the rationalization of their tribalism's pre-rational interests and goals, or worse (but sadly all too commonly), the narrative of a competing tribalism that they adopted as theirs, unaware that they're holding an ideology that is contrary to their interests.

Whenever someone says something to the tune of "I believe in this", the question one should ask is not "is that ideology true or false", but "whose and what pragmatic ends is this ideology intended to conceal under its rhetoric and implicit presuppositions"?

It's like Hume's take on morality, I guess. The core of morality is sentiment, either of the approving or the disapproving kind. The rhetoric built on top of that is just a rationalization of whatever emotions, positive or negative, particular deeds cause in the observer.

Perhaps hat is the purpose of all philosophy. To reveal the irrational core behind the veneer of false rationality.

>>25239156
Cut the prologue. It shows a perfect suburban life that is about to be destroyed. The reader already knows this because it is a thriller. You are telling them something they already know. Chapter I opens with Sam in a psychiatric hospital, which is a genuinely interesting situation. Start there. Richard's internal monologue is the best writing in the book. Three times you have him accidentally say his internal thoughts out loud. The yacht scene works because Stephanie is there, the social stakes are high, and the consequences are immediate and funny. The garage scene and the hallway scene with Emily have none of those conditions. Cut both. The joke only works once because it only earns its laugh once. The gas station scene works because Sam wants something specific from Gerald, Gerald knows he is in danger but cannot prove it, and the reader watches Sam get what he wants through conversation rather than violence. The Uber driver kill has none of this. Sam just stabs him. There is no want, no obstacle, no escalation. Every Sam scene should have what the gas station scene has. Emily is in the prologue, then absent, then reappears in Chapter IV as a manipulator. Nothing in Chapters I through III tells the reader she is capable of this. Add one scene or one line from her actual perspective before the reveal. Without it the twist is just information, not payoff. Thomas survives the pier and comes back in Chapter V with a destroyed face. This is good. He is completely absent in Chapters III and IV. Put him somewhere in that gap, even one paragraph, so his return feels like a culmination rather than a reintroduction. Your three title characters are only in the same room in Chapter V. Everything before that is three separate stories. The book should be about what happens when these three people operate together. Right now that is only the last fifteen pages. The ending needs to be longer. You have ninety pages of setup and fifteen pages of resolution. Those numbers are wrong.

>>25241268
Healthy, not gay.

be honest anons, how many of you are unironic libtards when not in here?

>>25241299
Why would there be any? People find this place because they find themselves at odds with the mainstream. While libtards are libtards because not only do they find the mainstream comfy, they thrive in the current status quo and wish to conserve it that way for all eternity, or even better, have it double down or triple down as soon and as hard as possible.

>>25241294
Omega gay. Rainbows and hot pink leather straps gay. "Healthy", my left nut. Boring pasturized baby back bitch more like it.

>>25241299
I don't like guns, cars, nor lifting weights, I think American cities should be much more walkable, I think healthcare and dental should just be free, I think the way American taxes work right now is a total joke and feels like a 3rd world country, I don't think colleges should be vocational at all. I think Mexicans are the least of our worries immigrationwise.

i wish more colleges offered just 1 major. when i see them tout having 60+ bachelors programs it just makes me think they don't give a shit about any of them

>>25241384
most degrees don't have that much difference. like look at computer science vs information systems, a lot of overlap, or electric engineering and computer engineering, like half the classes are the same. that's why double majors are a think. you take like an. extra semester of shit to meet the requirements of the other almost exactly the same degree... do u not know anything about how college works? if u want to know what colleges care about look at their departments, not their degrees.

>>25241392
that's why it just seems pointless to me. same with the whole double major thing. it just feels like retarded ego stroking for undergrads and to try to milk money out
>Oh you were doing CS but you're too retarded for Calc II? don't fail out please keep coming here and do this software programming degree where the only difference is a lighter math SEQUENCE

i admire st john and certain specialized engineering schools
I just think such a focused personalized but demanding education is very cool and more valuable to people who actually belong in a college and not degree grubbers

Momberg insulted and ridiculed me again because I wouldn't immediately put down everything I was doing to help her with something.

>>25241408
Fucking ropeberg. Your lifeberg is worthlessberg.

>>25241403
st john is a ridiculous debt farm. everyone is to read "classics" but there is no requirement to learn latin or greek which might filter people worse than calc 2. i would add calc 2 is basically just a "how good was ur high school" test since it only seems hard cuz it depends on memorizing a shitload of trig identities.

I'm just now noticing that every Irish person I've known has betrayed or slighted me in some way

>>25241317
Crab

>>25241491
Crab? Crabs are the peak of evolution; the natural independent end point of perfection honed by millions of years. You should know, gay boy, due to all the pubic lice in your fag hole.

>>25241403
Your preference for St. John's is defensible but most people who cite it can't articulate precisely why it works, which matters because the correct reason is not the one usually given. It isn't about rigor or the canonical status of the texts. It's about the epistemological premise embedded in the curriculum's architecture, which Newman stated most precisely in the Idea of a University: that knowledge is not modular but constitutively interdependent, such that competence purchased through radical specialization is systematically distorted by the ignorance surrounding it, in the same way that a measurement made without understanding the instrument's error profile is not merely incomplete but actively misleading. The 60-major credentialing apparatus you're describing is the institutional operationalization of the opposite premise, and it's empirically wrong not just philosophically unsatisfying. The productive history of science is overwhelmingly a history of domain transfer: Helmholtz's conservation of energy came from applying quantitative methods from physics to nerve impulse measurement in physiology and recognizing the structural identity of the underlying problem. Shannon's information theory required simultaneous fluency in Boolean algebra, statistical mechanics, and electrical engineering, three domains whose professional communities had no meaningful contact with each other. McClintock's discovery of genetic transposition required her to read maize chromosomes with a spatial intuition she'd developed studying cytology at a granularity her contemporaries considered obsessive and irrelevant. In every case the insight was invisible to specialists on either side of the relevant disciplinary boundary and obvious the moment someone stood at the intersection. The departmental research university is an institutional machine for preventing people from standing at intersections. Kuhn's account of paradigm shifts implicitly documents this without drawing the institutional implication: the very social structures that make normal science efficient, the invisible college, the shared exemplar, the peer review community, are precisely the structures that identify anomalies as noise rather than signal until the anomalies become impossible to ignore. The 60-major system mass-produces normal scientists and calls it education. St. John's produces something rarer and more durable: people who have practiced the cognitive operation of locating load-bearing assumptions in an argument and testing them against counterexamples, which is transferable across every domain and doesn't depreciate when the market rotates.

i kinda wanna drop normal ppl by rooney and move on to sth good it's just such shitty chick fantasy stuff like i'm just getting to the part where the chick says she's into getting abused by her bf like another chapter or two and someone will be vampiring billionairely across the room. i'm only like half way. when ppl said it's bad i didn't know it's like baaaad.

>>25241495
not reading all that slop but name one successful person with a "great books" degree lmao ya i'm sure you'll dig up some indie rocker who played coachella once in 2014 or sth, but i mean actually significant person.

>>25241496
Never regret dropping a book. Never regret picking one up. Even if it's terrible, it gives you snark based ammo, which is incredibly important.

Living forever sounds as terrifying as dying. Being human sucks

Anyone else notice how the general level of seethe increases anytime an effort poster shows up? What is with this place?

>>25241524
effort posters are tryhards who are usually stupid af

>>25241500
The "name one successful person" demand is precisely the operationalist conflation a credentialfag makes when he's unreflectively internalized the vocational framework's axiology as a transcendent evaluative standard rather than one contested epistemic position among several, but fine, empirically since you need the spoonfeeding. Ben Sasse, US Senator and subsequent president of the University of Florida, attended. Arturs Kariņš, Prime Minister of Latvia 2019-2023, attended. Rogers Albritton chaired philosophy at both Harvard and UCLA simultaneously. Leon Kass, who headed the President's Council on Bioethics and produced the most philosophically rigorous American work on biotechnology and human nature in a generation, taught there for years. Salvatore Scibona was a National Book Award finalist from an institution with zero creative writing infrastructure. Adjusted for institutional size, St. John's produces PhD recipients at a rate among the highest in the country, which is the actually probative metric for an institution whose explicit telos is forming people capable of sustained inquiry rather than maximizing salary percentiles. The retard at >>25241470 crying about Latin is also just empirically wrong. Ancient Greek runs continuously throughout all four years as a core curricular requirement. Read the published curriculum before posting tendentious objections to it. The school has fewer matriculants than most American high schools. Comparing raw alumni output to a 40,000-enrollment credentialing apparatus is a methodological category error betraying genuine incapacity to distinguish absolute from per-capita measurement, precisely the innumeracy that gets papered over by the diploma-mill education being defended here. But the real pathology in your post is that "successful" is performing all the contested axiomatic work entirely unexamined. You've imported the vocational framework's own evaluative criterion as the supposedly neutral standard for assessing an argument whose entire thrust is that the vocational framework instantiates a degraded conception of what education is teleologically for. That's not a rebuttal, that's question-begging of brazen circularity. I never claimed St. John's produces more Fortune 500 suits than Wharton, go back and read >>25241495. You attacked a position nobody defended while leaving the actual argument completely untouched, which is an intellectual dysfunction that four years of Socratic seminar would have excised at the root, which is precisely the whole point.

>>25241528
spamming more slop i see. shan't be reading. have a good one.

>>25241527
>the only way to succeed is to fail with the least amount of effort

i've been sitting with the same cup of tea for two hours because every time i go to drink it i get distracted by something and now it's cold and i'm going to make another one and the exact same thing is going to happen. i know this. i'm doing it anyway. there's something almost meditative about the ritual of making tea you're never going to drink actually

>>25241546
i'm gonna get in bed and listen to an audiobook or something i'm tired

>>25241550
Get in bed!

>>25241245
It is when you don't enjoy alcohol or the way it tastes or makes you feel anymore, lol.

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>>25241550
Based I'm already doing that and the Sun hasn't even set yet.
Was reading a Ramsey Campbell story on audio with https://youtu.be/qcS0CVJ1KPg in the background and the two fit together very well I'm surprised.
I'm low-key stoned af right now too lmfao I was so absorbed in my audiobook I didn't realize just how hard I was hitting my weed pen.
One more thing, I'm hoping this girl I've been talking to will message me back soon, she seems really sweet.

>>25239912
You’re a liar I don’t want to attack you but I’m letting you know first hand this post is a lie from the pits of hell, Yahuah has shown himself to me more times than I have even deserved

Sometimes you just need to refresh your mobile data by toggling airplane mode on and off a few times, works wonders.

>>25239912
>things Satan would say

i have been thinking about the word "entrée" for three weeks because in france it means the starter/appetizer and in america it means the main course and this is not a recent development this has been the case for like 150 years minimum and nobody seems to find this as distressing as i do. like at some point someone in america used the word wrong and instead of being corrected everyone just went along with it and now there are two countries using the same word to mean opposite things in the same meal and if you go to a french restaurant in america you have to just guess which system they're using based on vibes and context clues and pricing. i looked this up obviously. the american usage probably comes from the 18th century practice of the "entrée" being a dish that "entered" before the roast in a formal multi course meal so it was literally a middle course not a first course and not a main course either it was a specific slot in like an 8 course french formal dinner structure that americans then collapsed into their simpler 3 course structure and promoted it to the main slot because it was the most substantial non-roast dish and then the roast just disappeared from casual american dining as a category and the entrée moved up to fill the vacancy and now here we are. every menu in america is lying to you using a french word incorrectly while also acting fancy about it. the worse part is there is no fixing this. if you correct someone they look at you like you're insane because from a practical standpoint they're not wrong, the word means what everyone agrees it means, which is the correct descriptivist view of language, i know that, i understand that, it still makes me feel like the floor is slightly uneven every time i see it on a menu which is every time i go to a restaurant which means i cannot eat at a restaurant without this happening

>>25241648
God bless you, anon.

>>25241648
Appetizers at diner was not the norm in the US, main course was first course and then you had desert. Appetizers would generally be had before you sat down at the table, snacks while you milled about and socialized, it is fairly recent that appetizers at the table have really become a thing. So entree was technically used correctly since the tradition was two courses.

>>25241648
To add to that other anons post, US dining had entrees and side dishes, all came at once. Used to be if you went to a restaurant you would order an entree or two and some sides for the entire table to split, every get a plate and served out of the big dishes at the center just like at home. Still see this on occasion, these days it tends to be called family style dining, it was fairly common into the 80s but used to be the standard.

>>25240729
Not that I'd actually encourage it, but getting hooked on heroin/opiates kept me from killing myself at a younger age.

What would be the best most useful in your opinion humanities course or courses you could take as a non degree seeking student

>>25241721
McDonald's

Okay so the thing about migratory birds that I've been reading about is that they can literally see magnetic fields. Not sense them, see them. There are cryptochrome proteins in the retina, specifically cryptochrome 4a, and when a photon hits it the electron spin states become entangled with the local magnetic field through something called the radical pair mechanism, which modulates what the bird actually perceives visually, meaning the magnetic field of the earth shows up as like a brightness gradient or texture overlaid on their vision. So a European robin flying at night is not following a feeling it is following something that looks like something. And this requires maintaining quantum coherence at biological temperatures which should not work because thermal noise destroys quantum coherence almost instantaneously in basically every other context, which is why Klaus Schulten was ignored for two decades after proposing it in 1978 because quantum biology was not considered a real thing. The compass is also inclination based not polarity based which is its own whole thing, birds are not distinguishing north from south they are distinguishing poleward from equatorward based on the angle field lines make with gravity, so if you reverse the horizontal component of the magnetic field around them it doesn't flip their navigation it just breaks it. And that system is completely separate from the magnetite clusters in the trigeminal nerve endings in the beak which are probably encoding field intensity rather than direction and feeding into navigation independently, and how the brain is combining both of those signals is genuinely still not known. There is also a star compass that gets set during a critical window as a fledgling by watching the rotational axis of the night sky and if that calibration happens under a planetarium sky with a fake north, then their navigation is wrong forever.

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I wasn't aware it was schizoposting hour.

Tumblr humour is funny sometimes.

Do you ever get the feeling that multiple people can share the same consciousness? Not literally, of course, but metaphorically. That if you talk to one of those people, you talked to all of them. The same mind talking through three, four, six, ten, thousand, million mouths.

>>25241830
Every time I open a dating app.

What even is french toast?

>>25241648
I'd read a novel of this

Actually I might just steal your writing style hehe

Toast cooked after being soaked in milk, eggs, cinnamon and vanilla and covered with maple syrup.

It's delicious.

>>25241847
Hmm next time I go to a diner I'll order some, thank you.

What is the relationship between French toast and French fries? What makes them both French?

>>25241850
I'm actually kinda amazed you've never had it honestly.

>>25241852
French toast was supposedly created by a man with the last name French. They're called "French fries" because American soldiers encountered the dish by interacting with Belgian civilians apparently.

>>25241853
Partly because it never made sense to order bread at a restaurant, partly because when I'm in the mood for that kind of sweet breakfast food, I'm orderin' waffles, which I love. Pancakes next if they don't have waffles. And I'm more of a "order what I know I like" kinda guy.

>>25241853
>>25241861
edit: the first part is from when I thought it was just like regular toast with sugar on it, lol. After your description though, it sounds good and worth a try.

>>25241863
It is pretty much soaking bread in ice cream. One of my goto breakfasts. Why don't you cook your own breakfast? best way to start the day.

Can you help me?

I can't even help myself

>>25241901
Can you help me? >>25241898

>>25241908
Doubtful. What do you need?

>>25241909
I need help with the next post after yours >>25241910

>>25241901
This isn't me.

>>25241898
>>25241901
>>25241908
>>25241909
>>25241910
>>25241916
Unfunny

>>25241916
I can help you

>>25241920
That's not funny.

I feel like I was more attractive 10 pounds ago. That's it, I'm only eating one meal a day until I lose the weight. Wish me luck!

I'll achieve very little in life known by the masses because masonic semites are brown and have infinite money and I have infinity enemies and zero allies, dying and yet they can't stop being brown and killing non coloreds specially non iberians.

>>25241921
Sure. I need help understanding my strengths. I have no idea what I'm good at or what I should pursue in life.

I really need to work on my handwriting this shit is embarrassing

>>25241933
That's most probably true. Most people consider slimness to be attractive. If you look models, they tend to be on the slimness part of the spectrum.

>>25241943
ESL. Look, this person is ESL. LMAO.

Aardvark is the only word in the English language that starts with 2 of the same letters.

>>25241949
eel

>>25241949
llama

>>25241955
Well, I stand corrected. I retract all the previous times I repeated this misinformation throughout my life. Thank you for updating my priors as this has been a factoid that I thought was a fun little trivia, but you've crushed that idea. That's a good thing that you destroyed my little fun fact that I liked to tell because now I can stop spreading this misinformation. Don't worry I'm not sad about it. I think the people I've told this to will get the correct information by someone else, and it's not like this information is some pertinent one that would be harmful to anyone. It's not that big of a deal, I just feel a little bad for having said false things. I don't really like being someone who spreads misinformation like a Russian bot on Twitter, I'm just glad it's not something so consequential.

>>25241943
True. I mean it's not like I'm fat now, I'm just a normal, healthy weight. But I've noticed women look at me differently now. I still get looks and smiles, but before, when I was a bit skinnier, I would get stares and drolls and nervous laughs. Could be because I aged and no longer look as good. We'll see.

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>>25241965
Aardvark is also a loan word, so technically not English. Right after aardvark in the dictionary is picrel, the aardwolf.

Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all time

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Is it odd I never, ever look at old pictures of my exes, but occasionally I'll look at pictures of a cat I used to have? I hope that kitty is doing well... I might have loved her more than any girl I've ever been with.

pic is from about four years ago

If I find out that I inherited the hair genetics from my grandfather—who was a Norwood 5 before he even hit 30—instead of from my father—who had luscious hair until the ripe age of 59 (before he died of alcoholism)—I'm going to be so mad.

Has any of you ever read The Invisible Cities by Italo Calvino?
Was it good?

>>25242103
no but I have read If on a winter night twice and it is pretty great

>>25242103
It's my favourite example of metafiction in literature and a joy to read in general

>Google co-founder Sergey Brin is coming out as Republican, per NYT
well well well

I spent the wee hours of the morning writing slop when I could've been masturbating. I regret my decision but I reflect that in masturbating I apply myself to situations freely and unabashedly whereas in writing I resemble my usual social-self where I avoid conflict and situation.

>>25242103
Reading it now. Vivid, imaginative, light, meditative; sublime really.

>>25239130
My "Should read" list
>Centaur by Blackwood
>Rubayiat
>Lives of various religious prophets
>Idk some religious primaries
Maybe then my religion themed horror will pack a punch.