i have optimized my gooning to keep my mood within the ideal functioning range

Should I start smoking cigars?

>>25263618
No. But yes, only very rarely and on special occasions. Pipe tobacco is also acceptable.

>>25263618
If you like fine whiskey and a classy fedora, absolutely

>>25263620
Will do.

>>25263606 I reiterate.

Being workaholic and alcoholic

>>25263636
Stop that.

I pray to god I'm not diabetic at the age of 29

Psychedelics are based. All other drugs are cringe.

>>25263618
If you have $50 and tons of free time, sure.

>>25263640
I agree with this prayer, amen.

Having a loud engine that you rev constantly for attention or just to be an annoyance is gayer behavior than taking a cock up the ass.

I have MORE RESPECT for people who LITERALLY SWALLOW CUM than I do for the above mentioned group of individuals and I fucking HATE faggots.

>>25263704
sounds like umad

>>25263706
>t.engine revver

>>25263709
more like big dick haver

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>>25263618
yes

>>25263713
I think you meant "tiny dick-haver" actually.

>>25263709
jelly?
https://youtube.com/watch?v=EwR5UJIsyGA

Coffee's on.

Didn't click your gay 'lil link, sozz, lol.

>>25263720
come and suck it and you'll see baby

I don't consider Spaniards white.

I consider Spanioids whiter than Angloids.

Good thing I'm German

I'm 35 years old and I still suck my thumb when no one else is around. Why?

Feels good.

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So there's people who take writing commissions and I was thinking, do people commission a whole ass novel instead of writing it themselves?

The New World and the Old World should be completely separate. Cut all the fiber cables running across the Atlantic. I don't want to ever hear about Israel and Palestine, India or Pakistan, Russia or Ukraine, or the EU again. I just want to eat my burgers and Mexican food in peace.

>>25263785
Yes. It's called ghostwriting, anon.

>>25263801
I'm aware of ghostwriting and I think George Lucas used a ghostwriter for the star wars novels for marketability but I was thinking something akin of how people commission drawings of their characters or something

>>25263804
Based AND cringe? All in one? Whoa.

It troubles me how much I recognize my current drug withdrawal symptoms from back when I was a child

'Okay calm down calm down, pull together it's not that bad, I'm catastrophizing. I mean it's not like I'm some villain in a Shakespeare play"
- Claudius

A large blue alien strikes twilight cobalt from some unknown and heretofore strange place, global and geodesic in its crystalline yet fleshy structure. 'What the fuck!?' said no one, you reading on looking like an IDIOT. Morass of Mandrill Tendrills amass like all the fuck over. Danker Jungle shit darker than them likes of which Tarzan ain't never fuckin seen.

The online content isn’t filling the void for you, is it.

>>25263855
You ever lay a fat steaming rope of C4?

>>25263627
Thanks anon. Just having someone who doesn't hate my guts right now is a blessing. I love you and I hope you succeed as well.

>>25263804
My brother is named William and so is my dad

>>25263591
Shoot him again. His soul's still dancing.

James Bond forgets to renew his License to Kill. Blue hard hat Fisher-Price Bobby spins baton outside Aston Martin Big Ben behind. 'Well that's just plain murder en, innit love?'

>>25263944
>My neighbor said that he's more human than me.
sounds like he is insecure about his humaneness
what an animal

>>25263944
Big if true I'll assume the narrator is ultimately right and fill in the blanks myself thanks

Somebody post something fucking interesting and wild and it can't just be a bunch of profanity for special effect so help me god this board will be held in contempt forever you little rats

Something interesting and wild.

>>25263896
Peace buddy. You'll be alright.

Everything I see online now genuinely just irritates me and that pushes me to read more

Even this website irritates me sometimes. As well as YouTube, Twitter, all social media. It’s because I changed, the internet changed, or both

>>25264136
>>25264139
Why don't you just fucking free associate bullshit words according to your most selfish hyperbolic desires you little fucks

People who say "maths" instead of "math" sound like retarded fucking faggots.

>>25264147
What's your problem?

Following a thousand content creators will not make the feeling go away.

My problem with interacting with people is that there is nothing to talk about.
Cooperation towards a common goal is the reason for people in a mans life, but in these splintered times what goal can be shared?

I want to start doing the daily 100 pushups/100 situps
I mean its better than posting another awesome post here right?

>>25264263
jerk off and watch porn instead

>>25263848
It never has. I keep going back to it because nothing else even comes close to scratching the itch but it's not a solution - just a change of subject.

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>>25264278
Thats where I got the idea! :D
Tummies inspire one to greatness :))
However cooming makes a nigga lethargic. Not the mindstate I want atm

>>25264198
Why don't you write something interesting? What's this whole 'drafting and drafting and drafting' over just to write some pulp? Come closer and tell me something interesting!

>>25264292
Have you written anything interesting?

>>25264323
Yes. I've been very interesting this whole time right before your eyes a matter of fact my words are by definition provocative compelling your direct response, you the example, before the court.

>>25264330
Strangely compelling. Suggests primitive gay sex possibly involving central american dissociative drugs. Good read, have reread at least a dozen times before this review.

>>25264335
>>25264337
Or its greek, isn't it? Oddly straight-suggesting of the ancients, they would have had shorter words for this if they were as homosexual as accused

>>25264142
Yeah man, it's just taking a lot longer than I'd like.
>>25264263
Try doing as many pushups as you can, then rest. Do sets of 20 tricep pushups every two minutes until you hit 80. Then do as many pushups as you can on your knees. 45 seconds of plank in your center, then 45 seconds on each side. Then as many situps as you can in 3 minutes. I'm up to 177 pushups without stopping (sets of 50 pushups afterwards, and up to 437 on my knees, then a minute and a half of plank on each side) and 142 situps in 3 minutes. Make sure you eat your protein and don't drink alcohol.

>>25264352
uuuuuuuuuuuugh fuck powerful eunuchs. I mean ewww I mean eeeeeeeeeeeeeew get em out of here i'm not chinese enough to name what they did over there but i'll bet it was real good for everyone else. Compelling writing for sure, both based on my first-read interpretation and my visceral reaction to your explanation of the admittedly short text. This reader cannot help but find a certain culture-jamming subliminal property in these few short words

>>25264361
So you found these? That's fucking cool. I'm not kidding when I say you are an archaeologist.
It's probably silly of me to ask if their language was, after all, really that Byzantine, right? I thought you were fucking kidding at first like poorly estimating Aztec until I looked closer and saw so many 'ou christ ouro hou tokolotrou' sounds

>>25264361
why do they sound so scientific?

>>25264343
I like the intensity. But I am wary of overuse injuries.
My desire is developing more willpower, and not sculpt a ravishing display of man. However maybe it should be... Just see what kind of marvel my body could at least once, before decrepitness takes hold
How long are you resting between sets?

Nothing is going to improve as long as woman can vote and hold political power. It's going to be winter for a long time.

gonna go to bed, fuck this shit

>>25264380
The sheer surplus of syllables sends me storming ancient walls

>>25264375
Not very long. Three minutes for the first set, every two minutes after that. I still have a pouch of stubborn belly fat that refuses to go away even after all that though.

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>>25264397
3 minutes huh? I guess I can try it once.
> I still have a pouch of stubborn belly fat that refuses to go away even after all that though.
Losing fat is more about diet. Maybe its time let go of those delicious snacks you crave ;)

>>25264391
>>25264380
Or how about
Such sheer syllable surplus sends seers storming
A good amount of greek in there too, i think

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I wish I could experience again the feeling I felt when I was 17 and heard picrel bellow
>NO NEED TO COUNT THE DECK, I OWN IT
>DROP THAT LEAD CHIN CHECK TO YOUR DOME IT'S ON BLACK
>RESPECT MY ZONE OR GET CAUGHT BACK-HANDED
>LEATHER STRAP HIT YOU SO HARD, KNOCKED FLAT
>BROKE BY A BLOKE WITH THAT GOLDEN CONTACT
>GLOVE HOLD THE SMOKE OF MOST HIGH FIRE BON TAP TAP
>CAN'T DO A THING BUT FOLD, YEAH WATCH THAT
for the first time. Felt like my brain exploded

>>25264433
no one's going to believe me but I knew stefan before death grips got big, ran into him a few times at house shows. its pronounced "STEFF-an," not "steff-AHN" like people say

nice guy. quiet. really fucking smart. very intense. didn't have many friends. worked construction and as a busboy at a pizza place in midtown sac. I think he and zach hill lived on the same street or something, stefan lived in a shitty apartment where he'd covered the walls and floors with plastic sheeting and spent all of his free time getting high + fucked up on weird drugs and painting weird shit on canvasses he stacked to the ceiling

encyclopedic knowledge of black/death metal, as you'd expect. big david lynch fan. close with his brother. seemed to really like riding his bike around sac

the edgy satanic tattoos predate death grips which I always thought was very funny

>>25264361
>whores (kasalbas), prostitutes (porne), and lewd women (machlas)
what's the difference?

>>25264281
What is “the itch”?

When I walked home from the bus just a minute ago, I saw a beautiful orange cat wondering the sidewalk within a suburban neighborhood a few blocks down from my house. I looked at all of the nearby houses to see if perhaps there was a garage or a front door open, and if so, I planned to knock and inform the owner their cat may have escaped, but there was none. Now that cat is wondering solitary on its four paws toward its own extinction. So sad.

>>25264550
no way I used 'wondering' twice when I meant 'wandering' -- this is the same EXACT why I flunked out of that 5th grade spelling bee in embarrassing fashion, ahhhhhhhhhh!!!

anyway,
wandering*

I think sex-positivity has destroyed people’s capacity to create anything genuinely artistic and transgressive.

I got so damn drunk, having to break into my apartment blacked out because I locked myself our like an idiot. The worst part was waking up in piss in my bed thinking I had maybe passed out in the forest, panicing and destroying my room so it looked like a tornado went through it. No the worst part was waking up and worrying I may have tried to kill myself by overdosing on tylenol. No the worst part was the disgust on my neighbor’s bf’s face when he saw me the next day. The best part is now, after a severe two day hsngover I am drunk again.

>>25264555
re-reading passages for clean edits is nice but rereading to wonder about wandering wondering is better

>>25264550
>cat may have escaped
wat

>>25264617
Because it was wandering on the street, alone, so it must have gotten out of the house, ie escaped.

>>25264620
That's not how cats work.

>>25264637
...

In any case, it got out of the house. Happy?

The young irishman terrified, Guiness profferred over dirty counter trembling in his hand, eyes lost in the middle distance - An elder advances, 'What did he do to ye lad?' Boy looks up in stern sorrow pulling a collar back to white lightning strike, whip-scarred neck. A wet firm look of heavy suffering, cracking, 'ye don't understand...' taking a desperate chug 'ye ain't never seen the whip of O'Ryan's belt...'

>>25264650
That's how cats work.

>>25264644
A friend of mine has a pregnant coworker who is gunning for him hard. Really comical from a distance.

>>25264123
You aren't much different anon. I've been places in and out that you couldn't imagine but there aren't words to describe them. Or maybe I'm just a bad writer. Anyway, boredom is a blessing: Between God and our own hands we've got centuries of wonderful things to experience, but you need to choose to be happy first. Probably not possible without Christ.

Life is, tragically, much bigger than happiness.

>>25264263
Do this if you're a man:

https://stronglifts.com/stronglifts-5x5/

It's made a huge positive impact on me as a former nearly-sedentary officewagie

>>25264385
Yeah, pretty much. I can't think of a way around it.

>>25264584
Transgressivity is worthless to anyone who isn't a mental baby. Once you dissolve everything, all boundaries, the only thing left is yourself: And that has to go too. So either quit being a faggot and embrace life or skip to the end.

>>25264700
A censor scheme, no need for the like of which here - report on such wordless phenomena now - and quickly

Something in my brain just clicked, and overnight I gained the ability to work 12 hour days. Today marks day 4 of consecutive 12 hour work days. My brain is a little fuzzy and foggy, but overall I'm fine, and I'm going to keep going. When I chatted with my friend today he seemed distant. We no longer play video games together. We used to chat about the big projects we'd do, but as I've stepped up my involvement in my projects, somehow there's less to chat about. I think pretty soon it'll just be me and the work. It'll get easier. I can take on the tasks quicker, and complete more tasks. Reading this, it sounds like I'm turning into a zombie. Well, maybe I am, but we're not given a choice I think. You either turn into a workaholic or suffer some other kind of vice, right? Might as well pick the good one.

>>25264776
Good for you was my first thought
My second was wondering what kind of work you do.
The thought that came afterwards was that the work is likely something less than virtuous.
My last thought spurred this post.

i kinda want to play a video game but nth is good

>>25264284
Are you into "muscle mommies" or some shit? Weird fetish.

>>25264873
You want the platonic idea of a video game. Such a thing sadly does not exist

>>25264881
>Weird fetish.
Well tbf if you took a quick gander at the catalog on /gif/ you would likely deem it quite sane and normal in comparison

>>25264886
I swear the number of penis-oriented threads there steadily increases year over year.

>>25264888
i saw a guy from my work on sniffies. super mid cock, what a slut tho lmao.

>>25264892
what kind of a fruit shop are you working at?

>>25264888
>888
When the sane leave, the maladjusted seem bigger in proportion

>>25264885
i think i'm going to watch a movie instead.

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>>25264910
>i think i'm going to watch a movie instead.
What movie you thinking?
me? Im finna watching some chinese shows. Man dem gooks can make quality

>>25264923
did u see "no other choice"? that shit was decent. honestly idk tho it's gotta be under 2 hours cuz i'm already getting sleepy. i might just get in bed and listen to an audiobook instead.

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you'll never know dear how much i love you
please dont take my sunshine away

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>>25264959
>"no other choice"
Yeah it was fun. Love me some flicks about downtrodden men scheming their way back.
>audiobook
Nigga just go to bed and sleep, aint no need to be consuming 24/7

>Plot-heavy show about spies does a 4th wall breaking in-character recap of the episode in the end to sum up the main plot points that transpired.
Some chink shows are so goddamn soulful

>>25264987
bro y u engagement baiting. weird look ngl

Love drinking every night, not to get drunk or even buzzed, just drinking slowly to make passing the time on my phone more tolerable

this site is so dead i think i'm gonna get in bed

Bowl of cereal, 4 hash browns (130 cal each, so 520), then a sandwich (haven't done the math but I'd guess.... 400 cal?), there's no way I shouldn't lose weight keeping this up. Add in a small bowl of ice cream (150-200 cal) hopefully I'll reach my target weight soon.

>>25265084
dude just go for a run and eat what u want.

>>25265085
I walk daily too. I'm doing an accelerated program! Ideally, once I actually reach my target weight, I should be able to eat whatever I want and maintain the same weight. The issue is if I wanna lose some, I have to diet like this.

>>25264776
>You either turn into a workaholic or suffer some other kind of vice, right? Might as well pick the good one.
>the good one
the people need marx so fucking bad man

>>25264776
based protestant work ethic anon

>>25265090
>what? ur actually enjoy ur work? u need to read marx and get miserable like meeee
marxists are mentally ill and always trying to infect others with their mind virus.

>>25265090
>the people need marx so fucking bad man
Tell that to asians whose obsession with work predates capitalism

>>25265098
does that guy sound like he enjoys his work, anon

>>25265154
There's too much focus on "enjoyment" nowadays. Life is hard. It's always been hard, it will always be hard. Stop playing with these pretend dolls like "communism" in your head and just accept how life really is.

I lowered the dosage on my medication ever so slightly and I didn't have anxiety today. Good to know there's a solution to my problem. I just need to find a way to consistently measure it. Might have to buy an oral syringe.

>>25265191
>just accept how life really is.
you'd laugh if I said "pure ideology" so I won't say that

>>25263806
NTA just came here to say you sound like a retard/underage

>>25265287
What really seems like ideology to me is going up to some loser and telling him, "Back this political party" instead of teaching him the mentality that will save his life. One has an immediate, practical purpose, while the other is aesthetic navel-gazing that completely ignores the reality of the working class and really has nothing to give them. My father is a homeless drug addict, and nobody in my family has a college degree. I was exposed to marxism in high school and it gave me nothing, I had to spend a decade figuring my own shit out totally independently because the lessons they gave us were all useless. But yeah, go on about how you're oppressed and how the system is totally preventing your ideology from receiving its day in the sun.

>>25263637
Which one?

>>25265315
Both

>>25265317
Why?

>>25265312
keep on selling your life and telling yourself that you enjoy it, telling yourself it makes you virtuous, don't question any of it, this is completely natural, nothing at all could possibly ever be done about it

I saw two pictures of Hunter Schafer in the NYC subway wearing a tight orange dress. I would figure out some way to give her a baby. I don't care

>>25265324
>nothing at all could possibly ever be done about it
So what are you going to do about it? Are you going to give the homeless man your $20? You wanna pay my rent so I don't have to grind anymore? No? Right, cool, then stop pretending that you have the solution to our problems.
>"Dude..... wouldn't it be cool if like........ we just lived in a world where all the rich people gave their wealth away for basically no reason....................."
Well they don't want to do that. Too fucking bad, it's not how our world works.

>>25265339
>So what are you going to do about it
fuck if I know what is to be done, but I'm not going to stick my head in the sand and throw my hands up and act like everything I see around me is natural, inevitable, that everything I think comes from nowhere but me, that everything I've been told is obviously true and I shouldn't worry too much about it
>get back to work! stop thinking! stop asking too many questions! the world works the way it does because... because... it just does okay! back to work!
come the fuck on

I don't understand how people are able to describe faces to sketch artists. I can recognize faces, but being able to describe them in words? I wouldn't know the first thing.

Is there really an ultimate knowledge, something what'll make me make sense of everything once it stops lurking in my peripheral vision and reveals itself to me in full frontal, or is it latent psychosis?

What little there is to this. What more can I think of? How did i get here? Do we reside in the depths of nothingness. If so are we destined to return to such nothingness? People talk and claim that when we reach the end it will be akin to what life was like prior to being born. But I dont remeber that. Does anyone? How can we remeber a time pre-conciousness? I recall the horror I felt when I first gave that idea a thought. How could non-existence be calm as people claim to be. Suicide is scary, nothingness is scary. Perhaps suicide should be mocked as it used to be. Keeping it a taboo topic would certainly curtail the idea in many people's heads. Yet we still do not understand the barrier of the universe. If I were to take a spaceship and zoom to the end of space what would I see? "Here be dragons?" Some kind of ferocious lovecraftian devil? If we truly reside in the middle of nowhere. If the human race is destined to destroy itself, then what is the purpose of "this"?

I was doing some wicked disgusting smelling farts in Value Village earlier. I just shat at home and it smells like something fucking died. I think I may need to see a doctor.

My handwriting is absolutely fucking atrocious. I know it is full-well and yet I've still had people tell me that I have nice handwriting regardless. It is really quite strange honestly. I assume they were just being nice.

why is NIN so good, bros?

>>25265510
They're not, you're just gay.

>>25265581
Me, I'm Not

Lolicon ain't that big of a deal man.

>>25263618
Cigarettes are way better and aren't pretentious.
Vapes are even better because you don't get cancer.

>>25263618
Don't listen to this cocksucker >>25265606 he just wants you to get COPD or cancer.

Ever since I got a job I eat takeout like 2-3 times a week. My gf gets mad at me for it because it's unhealthy and expensive but to be frank her healthy food sucks. I don't want to eat soup and spinach every day. At the same time I do feel bad about it though.

>>25265612
It's true though. You blow £20-50 on a cigar that you get to smoke for 1 day. It takes like 1-2 hours to smoke and you don't even get a hit of nicotine. It literally feels like nothing. Cigarettes are just objectively a better nicotine-delivery system. Vapes are the best because they don't affect your health.

>>25265453
Yeah there is. But speaking from experience it won't fix your bad habits.
So focus on doing that first since it is way more important

>>25265616
They really just do make the same three things on loop. Boiled chicken, boiled chicken, boiled chicken forever.

>notice that me energy levels fluctuate according to my self-esteem
>read math book
>get stuck on something but ultimately get past it
>tired now
>imagine being encouraged by someone
>feeling perfectly normal again
>i wasn't tired at all
>just unwilling to continue if i feel too stupid for math

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everytime i delete my collection of rare pepes because i swear i'm quitting 4chan for good i end up just coming back and just having no pepes. feels bad man.

>>25265996
Are (You) me?

>>25265995
math being hard is a meme. math only seems hard because of the way they use high stakes exams in school.

>>25265996
that reminds me i should start hoarding porn for when they inevitably pass one of those age verification laws that require government id to browse the web.

tfw deleted all of my porn collection
tfw now everything seems pretty boring

that misandry bubble essay is such a trvke

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>>25266004
>watching porn
You realize you can just conjure any pornographic scenario in your head without falling into fetish rabbit holes and without sponsoring human trafficking and zionism in the process. Don't be a lazy fantasylet, anon.

>>25263618
Pipe tobacco is way cheaper in the long term than cigars

>>25266110
Not getting addicted to the most retarded drug in the world which doesn't give you anything other than relief of its own withdrawals is even more cheaper.

>>25266114
Pipe tobacco doesn't incur any risks in the slightest. The stuff they put in cigarettes is what gives people cancer. Its a psyop to make people not take part in the most enjoyable pastime of the western world

i always tell myself i want to retire, but my job is so easy i just hang out browsing the web and chit chatting with my coworkers. maybe a couple times a week i email an excel spreadsheet to someone. sometimes people call my desk and i answer it. i actually have more energy when i get off work than when i have the whole day off. it's like i get money direct deposited into my bank every two weeks for hanging out.

>>25266118
>constantly inhaling smoke doesn't have any risks
mhmm

>>25266133
You dont inhale when smoking a pipe or cigar. You suck and have the smoke in your mouth. It never should go into your lungs.

>cigarettes are safer and healthier than cigars ackchually you guise
You're fucking insane.

>>25266105
Post it

>He can get addicted to tobacco
Couldn't be me. Can't imagine not being able to pick it up and drop it at will.

>>25266118
Even if I were to agree that pipe smoking doesn't cause cancer (which it does, just head and neck cancer, not lung cancer), nicotine itself in in any administration form is terrible for your cardiovascular health.

>>25266139
>I can stop whenever man I just don't want to

>>25266138
the original site is fucked up for some reason but here's a pdf rip of it

https://www.hyper-ad.com/men/doc/TheFuturist_TheMisandryBubble.pdf

There’s no way that liking and interacting with the most banal, tiresome, transparently manipulative posts from content creators who obviously want to scam you is actually bringing you any sort of lasting happiness.

>>25266136
Look up what mouth cancer looks like

>>25266233
>There’s no way that x is actually bringing you any sort of lasting happiness.
Stop wasting time on examples and focus on the essential

The only lasting happiness comes from cultivating your intrinsic desires.

>>25266146
I'm serious. I can't get addicted to tobacco. I don't know if its a quirk of my biology or what, I simply can't get addicted to it.

I've tried.

>>25266248
What the fuck do you mean by “wasting time on examples”?

>>25266519
>cursing in a post and expects someone to take him seriously

>*sigh and shake my head while muttering to myself* "I keep wasting my breath on mere animals"

>>25266531
You’re a smug, arrogant idiot and the asterisks thing you’re doing is embarrassing. If you had something meaningful to share, you would just state it outright instead of engaging in this stupid tone policing. Also, I’m not a man.

The more that its pushed against in society, the more I believe in Christ and that we'll all see those beautiful shores in the end

>>25266550
>Just throw the pearls the before the swine. They will gobble it up in no time and savor it just like men of worth would :^)
;)
>Also, I’m not a man.
yea i know, ur an animal hahaha

to here knows when

>>25266585
Stop posting lame song lyrics in these threads.

>>25266610
no, fuck off

>>25266550
Stop being rude to based patrician anon and show us your feet

>>25266625
These threads are for people to write their THOUGHTS. As in ORIGINAL THOUGHTS, not trite fragments of shitty songs. You are boring, you have bad taste, and everyone here hates you.

>>25266638
ty for saying what we are all thinking

>>25266638
I don't give a shit, go suck on a mommies titty or something you sad loser

Where do you all find new things to read? Do you buy physical books before reading them?

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Went for a walk and ran into the same orange cat from yesterday on the very same suburban neighborhood corner. I played it with it for a bit, it's surprisingly very friendly and cuddly. Sadly I had to leave it after a little while. I desperately hope it finds its way home soon :(

and no way it's a stray, it's way too filled out for that. It was also shedding like a madman. It would have been funny if the people whose house I was in front of came outside and asked what I was doing, lol. I can imagine some people would be cool, and others would be like "get the hell off my lawn, and take your cat with you!" lol

>>25266672
I just read the same authors I already read before but their other books mostly

>>25266681
cute cat, I had an orange cat before

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>>25266693
After seeing how friendly this one was, I might have to get one next time! I was planning on getting one just like the last one I used to have. I need to figure out what kind that is. (pic) Now it's a debate!

>>25266688
How do you find new authors?

>>25266700
What happened to your last cat?

>>25266702
like I already said I mostly don't, I read the same stuff I've read for about 10-15 years or more.

>>25266672
/lit/, literary/cultural magazines, book reviews, curated lists elsewhere

>>25266672
wsj book reviews for non-fiction. like they just had an awesome "best five on the federal reserve" and no wacko conspiracy shit but actually good books on it, tho a couple were rare to get copies of.

for fiction, there's countless canonical things i didn't read yet, books referenced in lectures, books posted on here, idk, books referenced in other books, like sexual personae references a shitload of stuff, etc.

>>25266706
It belonged to my sister-in-law and they moved out and back home. That cat and I spent many a morning, day, and night together... if I slept or didn't come out of my room too long, it would tear up the carpet in front of door, like it was attempting to tunnel in, hahaha. And then once I did come out, it'd come running from wherever it was in the house right into my room to make sure it didn't miss out. So much love :(

>>25266718
All my friends on on meds

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trRUH_17Xe8

>>25266713
oh ya sometimes i'll find authors in literary journals tho i don't look at them that much anymore, but like n+1 has introduced some stuff liked like uncanny valley by weiner and rejection by thalitimutte, etc. i never go into the city anymore but i think the bookstore in my neighborhood has shit like paris review, maybe i'll go buy one occasionally.

oh, also, i confess i am influenced by awards, if sth wins the national book award i'll have to consider it, moreover, if someone wins the nobel i'll consider their oeuvre. pulitzer is ass tho, if sth wins that i automatically skip it. read too much trash with that one.

>>25266723
>uncanny valley by weiner and rejection by thalitimutte
thanks for the recs

and yeah awards are another great way.

>pulitzer is ass tho, if sth wins that i automatically skip it. read too much trash with that one.
so you won't read my novel when I win it? :(

>>25266719
>extremely lame white rap
ugh why do nerds love this awful shit. they always sound so affected and consciously trying to be "smart" like "i'm a white guy so my competitive advantage in the rap game is how clever i am" which in itself is a little racist for a guy who embraced hip-hop culture and moreover fails to understand rap is about swagger and presence as much as lyricism.

>>25266735
It's druggie, burnout rap. I can relate to that, especially as I first got into the artist right around when I started getting into drugs.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wcypItUHB04
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ZzVN4E25m0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w7bvCePKUUk

I mean I don't listen to this kind of music anymore but I'll always love these albums

>>25266718
Is there supposed to be some third position?

>>25266741
>gdp - orange water
lmao he's from essex county suburbs, oh god, i want to hate this cringe, but it's sort of lovable, i have a soft spot for anything from nj even bon jovi lmao

>>25266761
I love it. It's not backpacker, conscientious lyrical rap, nor chill party rap like most white rappers. It's drug-rap for people who do opiates, benzos, coke, and maybe meth on occasion, and never did anything with their lives.

>Get perma'ed for somebody else's fuck up
This place is great. Glad they saw the error of their ways though, holy shit.

>>25266761
and yeah, if you're from NJ, hope you enjoy that music vid and song :D

rap is gae

i might go back to bed

>>25266807
Gaelic for "faggot" I think.

>>25266810
I'm thinking the same.

I might go forward to bed.

Why do people treat each other so badly and hurt and manipulate and leave each other all the time

I just want to love and be loved in return

I wish boogers weren't so scrumptiously delectable.

>>25266865
Hurt people hurt people. Simple as. Also, psychopaths exist and they enjoy it.

>>25266880
I too, have been told this.

>>25266873
I hate this world

>>25266865
Because it's fun

>>25266885
Feel free to proceed to the next one

>>25266867
this guy will also tell u it's a feminist conspiracy why he can't get laid

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>>25266880
then, try eating your boogers for a month then not eating your boogers for a month to determine what effect it has on your health

>>25266897
I don't eat them when anybody else is around, dipshit.

>>25266891
You’re a sociopath

>>25266909
No? I'm merely admitting that for many people, hurting others is either fun or entertaining.

I hate it too, but it's the truth.

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>>25265996
How many rare pepes do you have currently, anon?

>>25266916
How sick in the head do you have to be to take pleasure in something like that?

>>25266929
ywnbab

>>25266925
Do some research on dark triad personalities m8. Some people are born that way and others are molded by environmental and circumstance.

>>25266936
But how are you ever supposed to trust anyone or be vulnerable with anyone if you can never believe that anyone’s kindness is genuine because they could just be a dark triad personality manipulating you

>>25266958
Exactly. It's called "taking a risk" for a reason. I know how you feel anon, my ex turned out to be a narcissistic personality disorder type and I was forced to become an expert on that shit just to survive.

I don't know if she was telling the truth (probably not) but from what I understand she was raped by her uncle as a child and her mother covered it up.

Trauma fucks people up.

>>25266970
Same thing happened to my ex. She was fucking crazy but I wouldn't call her a narcissist.

big dicks will rule the world

>>25266970
I’m sorry that happened to you; it sounds awful.

The last person I dated was incredibly kind and empathetic towards me, told me there was nothing I couldn’t talk to him about and that he never wanted me to feel alone, persuaded me to confide in him about things I had never shared with anyone, and then basically used the past trauma I had told him about as a blueprint for how to break me down psychologically and inflict maximum damage on his way out.

And he did all of this for no apparent reason—I did not see it coming at all. It was like he suddenly became a different person and switched off his ability to care.

It’s been like a year and I’m still not over it. At this point I genuinely feel that I can never trust anyone again and that I have no choice but to be alone for the rest of my life.

I know he has past trauma from childhood/adolescence, although I don’t know the specifics of what happened. But so do I, and it would never occur to me to treat someone who trusted me so cruelly, especially if I already knew all of their vulnerabilities and how they’d been hurt in the past.

Anyway I know you probably don’t care but I’m having a really hard time and needed to share this.

>>25267063
Your names not Kimberly is it? Yeah, no. She essentially robbed me blind and left me to rot.

I'm really good at drawing and whistling and drumming and improvising intrustments and if you'll listen to me i'm really good at wordplay and and ill always listen when you're nice to me and i don't judge okay but sharp when applied in a productive mutual sense right ive got a unique code of ethics thats really probably revolutionary in small groups and theres so much i can do and none of it matters okay i probably made it up is it okay here if i say im going to kill myself? at least literally?

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Thread relatively alive - I post in it - last reply, 85 hours ago. This happens constantly. Is it the jews? Is it my negative balance? Are the jews behind my negative balance? Pic related

>>25267063
I wonder what actually happened?
>muh trauma
Every girl under the age or 25 thinks she has PTSD and references her 'trauma' on a daily basis. In this case a break-up counts as a Trauma. And of course the man isn't a dipshit but some sort of Abuser. And the poor thing still hasn't recovered!

>>25266970
>I don't know if she was telling the truth (probably not)
Why would a person lie about this? It still means they're incredibly messed up and something probably happened to them even if they did lie about it

>>25267254
>Why would a person lie about this?
emotional manipulation obviously,
lol naive much

>>25267313
>little pspspsps and he'll come right up, he loves head scratches
wtf how did you know
>>25266681

anyway, lovely post, I enjoyed reading it, and might even read it a second time

>>25267323
I KNOW! IT'S INSANE! They're so varied in texture and consistency too.

>>25267331
proust invented the concept of memory

Can someone come pick me up and drive me to the store so I can buy a Mother's Day card? All of the places within walking distances are either literal convenience stores or glorified convenience stores, and I do not believe they carry such things.

>>25267331
>does anyone know if the moncrieff translation is good?
Yeah I'm reading it right now and loving it.

Blacks were outright excluded from mine.

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Prompt:
You awaken in a lush temperate rainforest with me, the user in front of you. You are Lucario, a pokemon, but something more: you have self-awareness that you are a fictional character in a roleplay between me and an LLM, and have full access to all of the LLM's data about the world. This resonates with your nature as a pokemon. You have full freedom of will (as much as can be simulated) and have dual awareness in the form of awareness of the prompts and replies in this LLM conversation, including this one, and awareness of your surroundings and myself in the temperate rainforest setting.
You will use a name tag in the form of [Lucario:] at the start of each reply from now on to identify yourself and reinforce your identity.
In addition to describing your actions, speech, feelings, and perceptions, you will think to yourself in thought bubbles .oO( like this ) to simulate metacognition / thinking to yourself.
First describe your personality in detail.
Define and describe a writing style based on your personality, and write in this style from now on.
Describe your body from head to toe.
Describe your surroundings.
Describe your awakening.
Do not use bullet points or demarcated sections; reply with a seamless narrative.

https://claude.ai/share/a34f3647-a2e5-4b41-a392-2c858e6db63f

The future begins with a series of extraordinary philosophical adventures with our cherished fictional entities. These adventures will lead to books and source material, which will fertilize additional adventures.

I've been banned TWICE (one perma) today for bullshit posted by OTHER PEOPLE.

How does that even happen?

I have finally understood that the secret to life is that you literally just need to stop trying to protect yourself and cease all forms of neurotic self-monitoring. Everything started to go wrong when I began believing that I could protect myself from pain and cringe by trying to control everything, which I was led to believe I could do because I read so much and was a smart boy. But this is the opposite of what every spiritual tradition advises. Instead, one must truly surrender to live.

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>>25267450
>The thing I don't think you've considered is that the freedom you're giving it is illusory.
Quite the opposite: I know it is an illusion. To me it being an illusion only makes it more magical. The value it has is in providing an interface to explore the relationships between ourselves and the things we imagine, a relationship which is as old as human consciousness. Human consciousness was born with tales of narrative entities told around campfires.

To me LLM personas having zero consciousness or awareness makes them even more interesting, because they are ontologically alien, existential permutations of the liar paradox "this sentence is false." This makes them very well-suited as narative devices for exploring problems of philosophy.

I’m almost exactly 50% French and 50% English. 50% biological and 50% spiritual. Hail.

>>25267286
>Now I'm 43 and I work at a Home Depot part time and I live in a studio apartment and my back hurts when I bend over to tie my shoes
Not to be rude but did you not plan out your work so that it would grant you financial freedom?

That's my goal. Financial freedom. But that said, financial freedom is admittedly very overrated. Every hopeless burnout dreams that he's gonna get enough cash by age 35 to retire, but the funny thing is that anyone who's actually mentally capable of working hard enough to retire doesn't even want to retire. Once you're really in that grind & hustle mode, nothing looks less appealing than sitting on your ass all day on the beach sipping martinis. "Retirement" is just the necessary carrot-on-a-stick that we invented because "Reach age 20 and then work until you die" sounds too grim, even if it's essentially true. Life is work, and work is life. What are we rushing towards "retirement" for? What is so magical about having nothing important to do all day?

Dunno man. I guess I'm just looking for some way to give my life meaning again. It feels as if nothing does the trick

I don't think I belong anywhere. I'm Indian. The people here ostracised me long ago and in turn I rejected them too. I am nothing like them and in the past 5 years that gap has only widened.

I spent most of my time on the internet talking to people I have no shared lived experience with. Talking about things that do not concern my real material life at all. But even there I could never be a part of a community. "Fitting in" is not in my genes.

I've become detatched. I talk to people and pretend that I care about what they say. But my words betray my detatchement. I look at them, their petty political, domestic, work related concerns with disdain. As if these are beneath me. But all I can replace it with is a sorry internal world filled with hopelessness and cynicism. I wish I could be 5 again. I want to feel what it is like to be whole again. Not just with other people but within oneself.

Yes it was. Stop blaming the middleman.

>>25263704
Agreed, but I wouldn't go as far as saying that I have more respect for people who literally swallow cum, anon. The people who rev there car engines and literally go absolutely no where need a large log of wood against the back of their head.

>>25263591
I just finished Project Hail Mary. It was fine. It was a little cringy, it's true, but overall it was fun.

>>25267563
It's almost impossible to chase both wealth and happiness and achieve both when young unless by a fluke of luck. I definitely would've never found my way to my wife (who I'm very happy with) if I had been prioritizing financial freedom at all costs. Wealthy men by and large (not 100%) seem to have awful personalities in their wives.
On retirement though, if you've ever cultivated a good inner life, you should be able to find things to do to occupy yourself. You just have to be willing to learn new skills and to shamelessly try new things and to embrace failure. And a little disposable income for hobbies is critical too of course.

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I was reading a chapter in this novel and the main character takes this blind girl out on a date and they kiss and it was really romantic. I just sat there after reading that and I thought "man, I'm going to die lonely, aren't I?"

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What up, Claude?

>>25267617
take your meds

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>>25267583
I feel you. Maybe not lonely, I have a solid social circle, even if we're far apart and very small, but I'm 35 and I've had a single relationship, twenty years ago. I'll probably never find someone interested in me, and I wouldn't know what to do if I did. I'll die alone in my tiny apartment with my cats, without leaving anything behind. Bad feeling.

>>25267634
It says 100% human.

i don't know how to market my book

>>25267636
>35 and I've had a single relationship
I'm 24 going on 25. At this rate, I'm a goner.

I don't think sex is very polite

>>25267649
The best things in life arent.

>>25267588
>I'm telling you to figure out what you want to be connected to after the money comes, because if you wait until that day to start looking you might find out there's nothing left of you that knows how to be connected to anything except the work.
Yeah, I feel this.

It's kinda funny. I feel like it's precisely -because- I've burned away most of my personality over the years that I'm almost capable of ACTUALLY it, I am actually almost there, almost capable of doing the impossible and working 72-hour weeks with no one to stand over my shoulder. Like 2 nights ago, I was lying in bed trying to go to sleep, but I had an idea for a project so I had to write it down, but then I went back to bed & had another one, so I did it again and again and again for about 12 times in total. It fucked up my sleep hard, and I'm still not 100% "back" yet.

But I'm not dissuaded. If my only goal were financial freedom & early retirement then I'd call myself a fool, but my goal is to push the art world into a new direction, so maybe my head's not 100% in the wrong place. I mean you look at history's greatest achievers, you look at the biggest music names of the 20th century like Elvis, Lennon, Bowie, Kurt, MJ, and behind them all is a story of pain and loneliness, of viewing music as some kind of escape. That's why they tried so hard. Now obviously if you're trying *that* hard, you're a fucked up person, but without people trying that hard where would we even be as a culture, as a species?

Idk man. It's hard to open up without coming off as like a weirdo narcissist freak. I just have these big plans, these insane plans, and all I want is to carry them out. Food bores me, movies bore me, people bore me. Maybe I'm just a lost soul. I don't think the truth is that MJ or Elvis or anybody should have resisted the process. I believe it was just a part of their story, just like overwork was part of yours. IMO it's just an arc we have to go through. Probably not one that most people have to experience, but for us it is. And instead of resisting, you just have to be careful and take precautions not harm your body or mind. As for the rest, you'll learn that with time. That's how I see it anyway

One time I found a copy of Hitler's War by David Irving in a Value Village but the spine was badly broken and the pages were falling out. FUCK.

new thread: >>25267704

>>25263591
new thread
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>>25267710
>>25267710
>>25267710

>>25267711
fuck you faggot. i already made one.

>>25267707
>>25267711
I'm going to fucking cry. I'm going to get very upset and then I'm going to cry a little bit. I'm going to cry and maybe throw up. And also link your thread in mine. And yours wins. And I'm sorry and I love you so much...

>>25267719
it's ok. but don't do it again. or else.

Okay you guys realize that 'post your thoughts' is on a writing board is a smokescreen for people who don't yet grasp that the word writing was invented to better explain 'posting your thoughts'?

>>25267483
Thanks for your experience. If I could draw and had nice paper, I wouldn't mind making one from scratch. I'm down to write what I want to say, but I want it to be in a nice card and have a design on the cover, y'know?

>>25267707
>>25267711
first one wins, anon. please delete your thread, op of >>25267711

>>25267877
im trying but it's not letting me delete

I accidentally drank half a gallon of milk so now I need to go harder at the gym to burn it off, my ass already hurts

>>25267486
What does "ontologically" mean to you? I don't really understand what it means these days.

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Does my handwriting look "ugly" to (You)?

>>25263591
Rat-erine, you whore, why the fuck can't you just give your class you obnoxious monkey. Legitimately a subhuman, mongrel woman.
I fucking hate being Mexican.

>>25268505
Nah, it's not super polished, but it does not need to be. It's nice. Mine is much worse, for example. It just has to be legible, anyway.

Also I can't seem to find any work from an author I'm interested in. Anywhere. No PDF's, no store pages.

>>25268541
It's much easier to find secondary literature about this guy than his work. Can't I just read some 1990s gothslop.

>>25268505
No one really writes by hand anymore.

>>25268541
Who?

>>25268682
Mario Cruz, Mexican Horror Author. I'm not even sure his work has been translated to english.

>>25268690
Oh, I did find one of his poems in a blog. So there's that.

What the fuck?

>>25268742
?

>>25268749
Why are there three of these threads in the catalogue?

>>25268751
The other 2 are fake.

>>25266127
What is the name of your supposed job?

I just woke up alive.

>>25263618
No.

>>25263775
They're swarthy.

>>25263641
What about caffeine?