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they kept this faggot ass thread, but deleted goth girl 2.0???i hate these homogay ass mods man.
this is almost as bad as that time they deleted my kino tannenberg post bc it having fucking german text IN THE FUCKING PIC but left this bullshit ass thread that was ACTUALLY IN GERMAN UP FOR DAYSSSSSSUCK MY DICK JANNIESI will NEVER forgive you for that
>>25272079Just cycles of decay and rebirth. All life is sentient from the micro to the macro and the symetrical design of big-eats-small-then-grows is as natural as anything. Try it yourself. Buy an untrimmed brisket and a sharp fillet knife. Notice the grain of the meat as you peel back the excess fat, like the grain of an oak. Notice how it parts for your lithe sharpened wedge like the ocean before a ship and becomes something new. Feel the once living beast tremble before you as you ponder your emminent mastication and matriculation into the art of the universe as you portion and plan zealously about sauces and rubs, slow cooker or smoke. It's the same for any animal, really. Even a fruit suffers the same delightful paroxysm as you rend it at your leisure and with more practice the more you understand the particulars of the flowing flesh dance. Revel anon. It's your birthrite, as it was mine, but first listen and savour the ascent. At the top of the hill the world will look small and quaint through your jaded eyes, enjoy the rapture of becoming.
>>25272204Okay but like Do you want to be eaten or
>>25272222Do you think it's immoral for the Aghori to eat dead bodies?
>>25272222I've had one desire since I was born, to see my body ripped and torn; to see my flesh devoured before my eyes. I mean those are the lyrics to a rather kickass death metal song but I vibe. I think the slow decay as I'm being eaten by someone else over time would probably be... remarkable. Becoming something entirely new by degrees. An inverse birth of sorts, a transcendance from my flesh to the new flesh of another, never to be apart. It's romantic, I think, not some garrish kind of savagery, but a refined hollowing until only the essential remains while something entirely different blossoms forth. Almost like a prosthetic tattoo of a shared experience, and a subtle reminder of a secret you share with someone else.Unfortunately the good eating bits require rather large scale amputation, and I'm using the vast majority of my parts. But it'd be nice to share the experience with someone. Once. When I'm over "this" and have moved to "that".
>>25272226I don’t know?But my question is: do you literally desire to be eaten by another person in a cannibalistic act?Or this more generally some kind of erotic fixation on consumption?
>>25272233Literally. Flayed and displayed; transformed into something delicious and remarkable at the cost of chunks of myself, preferably while alive enough to experience the process. It's only fair after all, I've eaten a lot of animals, I just think a human could fully appreciate the symbolism and sacrifice. The mesmerizing part is nature is entirely random and insidious about it. A ritual seems fun, but prey in the wild are ambushed and eviscerated without warning. One moment they're living their life, and the next they are changed, even if they survive. Insects and fish are particularly creative, but all animals relish in it, kind of like a Shrike tossing their pray onto thorns to pick at them. It's a primordial sort of truth and reconciliation.
>>25272253Have you considered writing a horror novel? I think you’d be good at it,
>>25272255Some dreams cannot be shared anon. It'd break my heart to bare my soul to the world like that then have it rejected; to tarnish the sanctity of a life long passion I've let simmer for decades with the vulgarity of people who could never understand.But if you really want to have nightmares, I do write. Childrens books mostly.
>>25272222I had a fantasy where a woman rubs cake over my dick and eats it off of me, not quite the same thing but close
>>25272293What about that appeals to you?
>>25272293What kind of cake?
>>25272294I like sweets and it sounds fun, a little dirty/kinky too. Eating cake off of her would be dope as well >>25272297White
>>25272302You know, that's a fine cake flavour. I was going to insult you, critique the frosting, but honestly some cheap whote sheet cake is great. Well done anon.
I was reading some short stories by Osamu Dazai and came across this one, Seascape with Figures in Gold, or Golden Landscape in later collections. And it made me think of the importance of a story's ending.As it stands it's obviously not bad overall but just insufferable for that banal "le heckin wholesome comfy" Tolstoslopskyan ending. And probably deliberately so considering the epigraph. Which is most likely what his critics also thought about this syrupy chunk of his works - he complains about it in a later story.Would it have been better to have him drown himself in the sea as the final scene? Or have the family for lunch and then hang himself maybe? How would you have changed the ending?
I forgot that I have to study science.
>Synthesize all fields of science and knowledge into a singular metaphysical principle that reflects them all. Respond with 500 words at a PhD level of philosophical analysis.The result: https://claude.ai/share/e9e99364-fead-453b-abf8-aff4e20c337e>If one seeks a singular metaphysical principle capacious enough to subsume the entire edifice of human knowledge — from quantum chromodynamics to phenomenological psychology, from information theory to moral philosophy — it must be neither a substance nor a thing, but a relation: specifically, the irreducible, generative tension between differentiation and integration across time>the irreducible, generative tension between differentiation and integration across timeHere Claude from a simple prompt intuits that the fundamental theorem of calculus treated as a metaphysical principle is thee true foundation of process philosophy.It was this precise foundation that began my study of process philosophy and relational ontology in 2017.The future is process-relational.
>>25272335Bruh, we've had the answer for 10,000 years: it doesnt matter.
I miss you so muchI’m fucking driving myself crazy over thisI don’t know what to do
>>25272339Everything matters, but not equally in all ways.
Hate in my heart, getting guided by elves
>>25272368Eh, no. Nothing matters. There is only one thing, and since there is only one thing, it doesnt matter whether it matters or not, because it's not like there are different categories or strata
Damn.
>>25272398I bet it would be really horrible to just be gobbled up and eaten whole by this guy. Imagine it. It picks you up, it's so humiliating, and then you have no control over what happens. It just wriggles you back and forth through its long neck until you end up in its stomach and get painfully dissolved by its stomach acid, unless you suffocate first. I would never want that to happen to me.
I accomplished absolutely nun' today. I should at least finish listening to The Dunwich Horror. Yesterday was rather nice at least – day out with me mum. We went to a plant nursery, Value Village, and got sushi for din. And I listened to HorrorBabble's rendition of The Colour Out of Space and the majority of The Dunwich Horror (I had like 30 mins left in it when I just had to crash). This girl hasn't responded to me in three days though so today I mostly depression-slept. Pathetic I know. Just had a nice din of pasta however and now I'm blasting metal and have my cats in bed with me so life's not so bad. I just pray to God He will strip me of my expectations for others, especially prospective girlfriends. I'm so lonely though, but I'm realizing more and more that I need to focus on myself for a good while at least. Yeah.
Made eye contact with a cute girl who had 'the look', she immediately started browsing next to me for five minutes or so (at clothes not even her size), I said nothing, then she left. Story of my life.
>>25272485You always make posts like this, and I am confident that you are delusional and that none of these women actually have any interest in you.
>>25272488Don't tell anyone but I'm one of the few most attractive posters on /lit/. Not that it's done me much good aside from the ego boost and extreme, crippling vanity. I imagine it'll benefit me loads once I become a famous author, however, as they hang blown-up pictures of me in the windows of Barnes & Noble, and I get an edge into the publishing house because the A&R execs want to sleep with me.
Thinking about switching my major to Data Science. I'm in Cybersecurity right now and I kinda hate it. All the certs are designed to cover 75% of the same material in slightly different ways but you gotta have a decent amount of them to be competitive for jobs, and half the job field is indians and AI sloppers, and I just plain don't enjoy any of this or see as much of a future in it today as there was a decade or two ago now that entry level work can increasingly be handled by fewer senior level people with AI assistance.
Just finished The Dunwich Horror. Couple thoughts. The guy behind HorrorBabble does a damn good job, both in narrating and production. And I'm reminded why this is my favourite Lovecraft story. It's got some of the strongest characterization, mood, and presence (by this I mean of the monsters) out of any Lovecraft story. I think Yog-Sothoth has to be my favourite of the Great Old Ones' pantheon. And this story features what is probably the closest Earth ever got to being destroyed in Lovecraft's Ktulu Cycle. In terms of Lovecraft stories it's a 10/10. Now, next I need to reread The Whisperer in Darkness, as I've only read it once and don't remember it very well. I saw someone say a few days ago smth about reading through that "Necronomicon" collection of HPL's works and many of the stories kind of blending into one, big, Lovecraftian blur; and I can defo relate, even though I love Lovecraft. It just means I have an excuse to reread his stories.
>>25272345I know how your feel anonette>>25272504Both majors are not great choices, they often scream "I'm not smart enough for cs". Get a math or physics degree maybe, if you can handle it, or go into machining. I'm a slopware dev (was anyway, for seven years) and if AI gets much better at cooding then machining is my backup plan.
>1 for $7>3 for $5What is this wizadry?
>>25272172Why the fuck are there four of these threads on the catalog?
>>25272172please don't make another wyt thread until this thread and the other one(s?) hit bump limit
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>>25272600Janners DGAF no more —_+
I've got five books currently on the go. Eleven if you count the titles in my backburner.
Changed my chair. I'm sitting on a dining chair, and its kinda comfy typing like this.
>>25272172They’ve distracted you with a war film. Lets get the real story, and quickly
>>25272182We don't talk like niggers here.
This is my world.
Tossing up whether I should keep journalling in a physical book or write on my laptop. My writing feels more unhinged and creative when I write on a keyboard but I like physically having a book of writing that I can also draw in.
I'll show you the merits of Chesterton's fence by tearing it down.
as you keep staring into the abyss, the abyss is looking back at you and says 'How did it all come to this. You were always such a bright young man". Nevertheless, this is where we are
I forgot to say Happy Mother's Day.
>>25272230There’s a story of two men who both desire to be eaten alive, with the first also willing to witness the second being eaten first. So they save up and go to Africa in search of lions until they find said cats.The second man runs to the cats and is eaten alive as the first man watches. The first man then decides it’s not for him so leaves and never says another thing about his trip to Africa to anyone, except his cat, until today.
I've had a few girls in my social media semi frequently post about how they're single and try to subtly hint they had a man. They're conventionally pretty, I won't deny that but do they really think they'll get a guy (worth keeping) if they post things like that?
>>25272302>>25272314If it was me I would’ve said black forest, my favourite cake
I put my current read down one day then spent like a month and half playing videogames and watching stuff and mindlessly scrolling, and the thought of picking up a book feels like pulling teeth, and i dont know why because i was enjoying the book now that spring is here I think i will sit outside and force myself to start reading again. i dont understand why this happens to me
>>25272405>I would never want that to happen to meYeah? Too bad. >>25272830Mommy is crying herself to sleep>>25272636Did you shart the other one?
>>25272984Nah the other one makes my ass hurts for some reason. My left cheek is in pain whenever I get up.
trudging through the city, looking at the pretty women, feeling a little anxious, the sky is clear and I feel kinda free, yesterday I looked at the dark blue sea water splashing on the rocks.
>>25272636dining chairs and wooden stools are way better for contemplating than office chairs that emulate 5000 pound concentration camp oven seats.
>>25272172Modern Western civilization is retarding back to Imperial Rome forms of government. Gobineau wrote about this during the 19th Century, but everyone is too focused on achieving his ethnic mission of abolishing the Germanic mode of social organization. That's what Western nostalgia boils down to. Even in the 1960s the social mode of organization was more apparently Germanic than today, all over Northern Europe and the US, unlike Italy, emancipated during the Renaissance already. You go back to the year 1780 when France still had all these precious medieval institutions, happy souvenirs from the ancient Skandinavian days. The revolutionary movement has the ethnic mission of re-instituting Roman society, and if has more or less fully completed it's goal during the last few decades, though protestous characters from all walks of life, still fueled by an apparent dose of Skandinavian gasoline, retard the complete disappearance of Gothism from public life.
Shouldn’t a society that celebrates abortion also laud suicide? If it’s okay to kill someone else then how can there be a stigma to kill yourself?
>>25273194The goal of the revolutionary movement is to re-institute Roman society. Now the contrast between Germanic barbary and Roman civilization is today far more blurry than during the Middle Ages, nevertheless it has become more reductionist. The barbary is pro-life, the civilization pro-abortion. Nevertheless this radicalism of closet Romanism will cease to exist once barbary fully disappeared from public life, and society as a whole will evolve back into a sort of soft conservatism very much alike the one known today in Southern Europe. Material wealth however will still be considered far more important, as well as government by all-mighty Emperors.
I have recently gotten into Burzum.
>>25273160Yeah the difference is noticeable. My only problem is my chair is a little low for my table.
Every iPhone Notes App note taken while working from 4am-10am Tuesday May 11-Quit trying to get the last word in or those will be your last words!-He was the result of an unbeforeseen collective mind experiment so strange it went largely unrecorded. In fact it wasnt until adulthood that he found the codices that explained the mission for which he was born -‘Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me’, devilish -‘Developed by a harvard research team’ to refer to anything hippie -‘You seem like you’ve gone to a lot of rock concerts’ aka youre fucking deaf old man -You know cycles of abuse? The chief symptom of verbal abuse, is victims have been ventriloquized by the abuser. Their abuser’s words come out of their own mouth when they get angry-A rimshot comes from the joke of forcibly getting a comedian off stage by quickly starting jazz music, adapted for interior punchlines, teasing playing the comedian out for poor performance-The humiliation of being a rookie is the universal price to enter -He acts in a way characteristic of himself -I’m edging. Don’t push me.-See women are always trying not to get snatched. Me? I’m tryin to get some snatch you know what im sayin?
>>25273194A sane society wouldn't have to even contemplate either, but the truth is that women are the driving force behind consumerism, particularly before they have kids, so a policy that allows them a few more years of starbucks and cars on finance before getting pregnant and realising kids aint cheap, is fine to the elites because any short term labour shortages are being offset by the third world.Suicide on the otherhand deprives elites of a predominantly male workforce or government gibs from a guy on disability who could be charged an extortionate rate for medicine and healthcare for another forty years.
>>25273267>particularly before they have kidsYou clearly have no idea how much fucking shit you end up buying when you have kids. If you really wanna drive consumerism you want as many kids as possible and you want those little fuckers hyped up on playing with plastic junk that breaks after a couple weeks. Also milfs love starbucks
>>25273194Some people claim fetuses aren't people yet.
Wrote something on a card for my mother for Mother's Day, and while she liked what I wrote, she immediately made fun of my handwriting. Yikes.
>>25272172Every time a woman says she's fluent in sarcasm on a dating app I swipe left. Got no time for liars.
I don’t consider myself to be racist but I’ve come to genuinely dislike Arabs. Around the same time I’ve acquired a sort of attraction to Arab women. I suspect the two are interrelated
I told God I wanted to be a SCUBA diver and today I find out that an open water diving training course is beginning later this month.:)
>>25273463Women who say that usually like the most popular slop. It was Big Bang Theory and Friends before, I don't know what it is now.
I'm reading Pynchon's Shadow Ticket and I can barely understand a lick of what's going on. Things seem to happen at random without rhyme or reason.
>>25273483read more, the book is pretty amazing
Not gonna lie, I'm a huge sucker for anime girls and guns but I'm not gonna play a fucking gacha game to see them.
>>25273358You could learn some calligraphy and make her happy next time
I would like to say that the complete lack of intellectual curiosity of the average person pisses me off, but it actually just makes me depressed, like really depressed. All the knowledge that you could ever want at your fingertips thanks to the internet and the vast majority doesn't seem to give a shit. There's the equivalent of 3 million libraries of Alexandria in your phone and this fact doesn't seem to elicit even a minimal reaction from the general population, which instead prefers spending the feeding their time, energy and attention to the algorithmic vampire that is modern social media, which repays them by making them dumber, less attentive and more prone to anger.
>>25273645You're being unfair anon, not everyone is a pure-blooded descendant of the Lakonian aristocracy like ourselves. Even these so-called elites look like mere plebs to us and naturally we do not feel in place.
What are you guys doing for Armed Forces Day? Apparently I'm going to a private meeting with a bunch of heads of private corporations.
>>25273679Sounds like a great occasion to throw an energic tantrum against the petty burgeoisism of your supervisors. Call for an improvised parliament in the company and incite a riot against the leadership.
>>25273211Good so far, now check out Rotting Christ, Blut Aus Nord, Profanatica, Inquisition, and Anorexia Nervosa
>>25273482Sheldon Cooper is Hollywood's caricature of what an autistic person is supposed to be, or so I'm led to believe. I actually know a woman who likes Friends though, but she's married with kids.
>>25273692I'm more of a death metal guy, but Ensiferum is the gold standard in my opinion. But most black metal blows chunks. My friend really likes Swallow the Sun, but they're more Doom metal. May I humbly recommend 200 Stab Wounds Slave to the Scalpel album? Alternatively, Bleed the Future by Archspire is the tits, but not exactly black metal at all. Relentless Mutation is almost as good.
>>25273697I have to add that all the broads I dated, when it came to music, everything i liked flew over their heads. Whether it was Tangerine Dream, Gorguts, The Residents, Type O Negative, Brutal Truth, or Laibach it just left them bemused. Of course I have a developmental condition which limited my options.
>>25273700Oh I see, actually same here, Pestilence is my favorite death metal band. I know 200 Stab Wounds already but I forget if they're BDM or OSDM revival. I really enjoy Deeds Of Flesh a lot too.
>>25273463"Fluent in sarcasm" is just standard millennial cringe. I've been seeing less of it these days, but yeah it's a hard pass from me too. Thankfully most people have stopped talking about "adulting" and shit in their bios as well. I've noticed a lot of normie women say they're into martinis these days
>>25273671All jokes aside, I don't consider myself above the average person at all, which is why this situation saddens me. If I had a huge ego I could just look down on the plebs and not think about it, but I consider myself a pleb too and so I look at my fellow traveller and I feel alienated.
>>25273749Well, some writers say that the olden aristocracy today is represented by the farmer, so it's not like the two attitudes can't be combined. Arthur de Gobineau found in the undisciplined inhabitants of Kentucky and Alabama today's iteration of the Medieval knight.
>>25273714Hell yeah, Deeds of Flesh was one of those bands I constantly spammed on /mu/ back in the day, Rise of the Virium Juggernaut and all that. I'd say 200 Stab Wounds is Slam, because I always figured Sanguisugabog is OSDM Revival, but they use more modern conventions and I know people think Slam is stupid caveman music. They often do mashups with like Snuffed on Sight and other slam bands, though when I saw them they were opening for Born of Osiris, so who knows. Reminds me of a more modernized Dying Fetus.Anyways, since you actually seem to know what's good and have good taste, Gore 2.0 by Xavleg is one of my favorite albums of all time but it might be a bit... eccentric for your taste. Retrogore by Aborted and Tropical Sun by Fulci will be slam dunks. Ingested has had a couple of good albums recently, I like Dismembered, Gutted, and Devoured by Backyard Savagery, and honestly for a shit themed meme band, Gutalax is surprisingly solid.
>>25273725I am a millennial but I don't really enjoy being around much of my own generation. I didn't have a lot of friends growing up so I always saw them as an alien species.
>>25273812Wait, Gobineau said something nice about Americans? Color me shocked.
>>25273828Ill look into the ones you mentioned that I don't know. I like Gutulax but their shtick is a bit off putting. I haven't been on /mu/ in a hot minute but its because /meal/ is a shitshow now. At least there's the trad general. Oh and I have a profile on metal archives because I was briefly in a black metal band. Those days are somewhat behind me though. Currently studying to be an historian, particularly 17th century European political & cultural history, but i might have to transfer after I get my bachelor's.
I went for a walk earlier when it was 76F and it was decently hot, I returned home with a sweaty face. I want to head to the library to read, except now it's 82F! Ugh. Now we're reaching veritably uncomfortable territory. Decisions...
>>25273879Neat. I have degrees in politics and cultural studies specializing in political theory, semiotics, and historical modernism. I havent posted on /mu/ since 2013 because holy fuck does that board suck. I went back to ask about Carpente Brut's Trilogy a while back (like 2016-2017ish) and it was abyssal. I usually pick an album or two from bands I like; very few discographies are comprehensive, and I find my first impressions are let down by the other work of an artist. Like Spite. I loved Dedication to Flesh, hate almost everything else. Now more /lit/ related, why history? I personally find history a bunch of cyclical narrative tropes and am generally disinterested, but I know I'm in the minority here.
