>life has been going well recently>a little too well>future looks bright>a little too bright>know that this means the demiurge is going to do something horrific to me again, and is just waiting until it hurts the mostThe small pranks don't affect me anymore. Nowadays, if he knocks me down, I can just bounce right back up. If he blocks off a path to success, I can just change my direction. I've been hurt so many times that I've become able to do so effortlessly.So he's waiting for a time when it will hurt similar to breaking both my legs in half.For all my life, I've experienced this pattern of joy and relief followed up by unbelievable horror and despair. Knowing it will happen eventually takes away much of the pain. But it also makes the demiurge want to hurt me worse.
