Human behavior and success is 100% determined by your genetics and environment (both things you have no control over) therefore there's no such thing as free will and all of your success and failures are determined by pure luck, anyone who says otherwise is a gaslighting normalfaggot.
I would never try to peddle blackpill ideology to a young person. Everyone should at least try for a good life.But the older I get the more I feel like a victim of fate, and that I never had any chance for happiness or success. Weak genetics and a terrible upbringing created a completely broken human with no hope of ever getting better. I did try many times but there comes a point where you realise it cant be helped. Yet I still blame myself despite all that haha im so tired bros
Oh, you poor chud... if only you had taken a shower, you could've had that teenage romance you always wished for. Not that it matters now.
Nothing changes. Oh, you are leading a, 'happy life'? Then you have yet to come to this realization. You might wishfully think, temporarily, that because you have organized yourself, things will change. They won't. You're still the same. Your soul is sick. Chronically so.Quit your job. Eat more than you should. Stop going to the gym. Drop all your responsibilities. Save porn on your phone, preferably hentai. Cease contact with your friends, replace them with chatbots. Your hobbies and interests? Do you even care about them anymore? Give in.Why shouldn't you? Why shouldn't you give in, at this point? Has anything fruitful come from pretending to lead a life? Have you been able to reap any of what you have sown? Pretending to be someone you aren't, has it done anything for you all these years?Do you really think reality is skewed in such a way that it will respond positively to anything you do? Of course you don't, no one does. But you, you personally, have a nature that's far more defiant than most. Most are satiated with these simplistic mantras. You are not.Yet where has that taken you? Nowhere. Maybe you could've achieved something, were it not for something that happened to you. Maybe. Maybe you just don't stand out enough, maybe you are just smart enough to be aware of this, but not smart enough to surpass it.We all know you're resentful. You resent being cast out, you resent performing deficiently at something all of your peers did with much ease. You resent having to rely on an alternative medium to explore the world. You resent not even being the most gifted in this aspect.Your well-adjusted peers might just be as smart as you. In fact, they probably are smarter than you. They might not exercise it as much as you do; they've had less practice with it, they don't have to rely on it. They don't have to ever be serious about it.You on the other hand?You depend on it. You're lost without it.
>>78270860And that makes you so, so very awfully afraid. Afraid of being disposable, of seeing that which has the possibility to redeem you, be taken away from you. It can, and will be taken away from you. There is no point in going forward.So? Will you keep complying with this narrative, the palliative delusion that you can be 'normal'? Or will you accept your condition, and allow yourself to mourn? Why shouldn't you entertain this? Nothing ever changes
