Why do I not feel human?Every interaction I have I feel is inauthentic, like I am putting on a show for the other person, pretending to be someone I think they would like. No matter how hard I try I have this unmovable filter to my expression and it makes me feel alone. Everyone else it seems walks around and is who they are in their mind, without, or with much less of a filter. Here I am typing this, aware of this fault, yet having no way to change it. Changing it, itself feels fake, feels like what I am trying to escape. Everything I do outwardly is automatically an act, a show. I have no real close friends because no matter how hard I try, I have no way to feel the relationship as reciprocal, so it just ends up feeling hollow. I don't know what to do and its eating me away. Can anyone relate to this?
>>78271749It sounds like you don't know who you want to beWhat are you passionate about?
