>be me>22>unemployed loser seeking work>spend a day with friend to do acid with her>have almost done acid with her before>prob because shes the only one who can afford it anyway>start acid>1 hour later and not feeling well>1 hour and 30 minutes later and I get an immediate sense of "leave me alone">i start hiding under the bedsheets and lay there like a statue>close my eyes>start having one of those Omori-type internal trips>I see a wall of layers that fold up and fractalize>it starts going faster and faster until the last layer>soon as the last layer is lifted I feel like my brain is vulnerable>I see myself wearing a long train of masks (similar to that wojak wearing masks)>face gets hot>immediate fight-or-flight situation, but I pick flight and freeze and under the bedsheets>my brain keeps repeating stuff>"who are you really?">"why do you hide your real self?">"you always play a character behind another character">I realise this may be true but I hate it>feels like the universe is backslapping me for being a bitch>it goes on for a while>I cry>head home as soon as the come down happens>apologise to my friend for not spending time with her>soon as I get home I cry and realise I always wear multiple "masks">I act out as someone that I'm not with almost everyone I see>this is prob trauma response cuz I had to lie to my mother a lot growing up>but i dont think thats the reason>also this has happened before, but less intense and lasted for like a minuteNot only I forgot how to be myself, even if I act like myself I'm just a boring lame person, does my subconscious hate that I'm lying? How can I interpret this trip? Do I have a mental disorder other than bipolar?I don't really know what to do, I'm even scared of sharing something like this
>>78280108>>start acidstop doing drugs
>>78280108Acid will make you cry, poop, pee, dribble snot everywhere, take off all your clothes, shart your pants, vomit, and have seizures. Dont be surprised if your body does weird things on lsd. T. Guy who has had some bad trips
>>78280223I forgot to mention. Acid will make your head and scalp itch so bad and if you have excema or dry skin your skin will dry and peel from it on high doses. And the day afterward expect to shit out a huge brick due to dehydration
>>78280223do you use it for fun or therapy reasons or for the mind?
>>78280251Both. It made me more afraid than I was before I did it. Wouldnt recommend it for therapy. Dancing is fun on it thi
>>78280262it made me less scared, but it did get me to be somewhat more mature than I was before doing it