Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportleehoonie jorking it edition>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now
>>79288364_For anyone who might need them_> Iong list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cutting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>an illustrated self harm care guide (thank you Sisyphus!!!)https://styro.s
>>79288364Heyo Irkador :Dhow do you do?
>>79288364wait a second... WHAT EDITION!!!?!!
>>79288364If you don't want Femboyanon (me) on this board why do you guys post so many homo erotic images?
>>79288507In my mind you will always be a short femboy.
went to a psychologist for the first time in a long while today. cant say it helped. half of the questions she asked felt like she was trying to tell me if i behaved better i would still be with her. that thought terrifies me because as one quote goes, what could have been is the saddest feeling among men. i asked about that directly, she said she does not mean that. but she along the session was trying to tell me i put all my eggs in one basket, and it fell. 90 percent of my happiness was based on her. i cant live any other way, how would that be love, if youre not willing to live without the other person? so the psychologist is going to give me a list of things to try so i can start living life for myself. every night my mood eventually goes a little up. i start thinking about how ill find someone like her and be happy again, giving love like before. this mood is then crushed by reality as soon as I see this world in its true colors. everyone is ugly, everything is ugly, my life is a nightmare. she was unique.i fear in these dreams of relationships my brain just wants my ex to come back, in a different body or something. . . i just mean i hope i genuinely want a new mommy and not. . . her. i miss her so much
>>79288757You need to become a femboy.
>>79288864thats funny what do you think it will do to me? (people who know me pls play along)
>>79289095>thats funny what do you think it will do to me?Make you attractive to me.
>>79289115tell me about yourself, since youre attracted to femboys
>>79288653>you don't want FemboyanonI think femboyanon is weird but is okay>>79288757Hello c:>went to a psychologist for the first time in a long while today. cant say it helpedit good you at least tried >list of things to try so i can start living life for myself.hm interesting what is there?>every night my mood eventually goes a little upthat's nice to hear, hopefully it keeps improving and stays that way >miss her so much:<
Any anons ever sewed their flesh?I've sewn my lips shut once
Things continue to intensify. I continue to take my meds as prescribed, it's such bullshit that normies act like meds are an on/off switch and not a small dampening of the worst things. Being a little hungry makes things more intense, being tired makes things more intense, any amount of stressors at all shoot things through the fucking roof.
>>79289750its like 250 tasks, i have to rate every and then do some and rate again. things like sleep, fix the car, listen to other people, hunting.sometimes i get a personal feeling i want to share, but i realize i dont have anyone to share it with anymore. it really brings me down but i try to hope ill share it with someone new soon
>>79289791that sounds very painful and like you could get a nasty infection >>79289835>Things continue to intensifydamn :/hmm it you haven't already, you should contact a doctor the you feel it's getting extra bad Stay strong out there buddy >>79289864>like 250 tasks, i have to rate everywow sounds like it'll take a lot of time >brings me down but i try to hope ill share it with someone new soonI hope so too :<you're cool and deserve to have a nice life
Hey everyone. Hope your all well.I haven't been able to cut in a while cause my parents took my blade. And it's really changed how I see myself. Like I think I'm very annoying, and I hate everything about my body, just very odd.
>>79288364hey irkador! how's it going? >>79288507hey catbro! what's up?>>79288653because it's fun? and nobody said we don't want you here. it's difficult to have a conversation with you, though.>>79288757heyo juuzouanon! >half of the questions she asked felt like she was trying to tell me if i behaved better i would still be with her.that really doesn't sound helpful. :/ it's not like you can force yourself to feel differently about hanging out with people you don't vibe with for whatever reason. i was never a very socially minded person and i still can't force myself to pretend interest in people i have nothing in common with, but i've come to appreciate the few close friends i have and enjoy my time with them. maybe you just haven't found your people yet.>so the psychologist is going to give me a list of things to try so i can start living life for myself.that doesn't sound to bad, actually. while i can't recommend my unique brand of living for myself, in general it helps not caring so much about what other think. it removes a lot of stress and anxiety. i understand that thinking like that doesn't come natural for you, though. hope you find a way to strike a good balance.>i miss her so muchthat's ok. she's an important person to you, after all.>>79289835>it's such bullshit that normies act like meds are an on/off switch and not a small dampening of the worst things.maybe it's a switch for some, but definitely not for everyone. >any amount of stressors at all shoot things through the fucking roof.anything in particular stressing you rn?>>79290952hi gator!>Hope your all well.i'm alright. still tired and a little off kilter, but other than that, pretty good. >I haven't been able to cut in a while cause my parents took my blade.maybe it's not the worst thing that they did and i hope you'll be able to stay away from it on your own at some point.
>>79290952>Like I think I'm very annoying, and I hate everything about my body, just very odd.that really is odd. i don't think you're annyoing at all, but if you feel like it, maybe there's something you can change? not sure what, though... and about yout body: if i'm anything to go by, you're probably fine even if there's stuff that would justify a certain level of discontent and it's mostly in your head. others don't see you like that. anyway, would some stretching maybe help to get your mind of things? :>
>>79290952Hello friend :D>Hope your all well.I'm gud >Like I think I'm very annoying, and I hate everything about my bodyow :< just so you know you are not annoying Sorry to hear you're not well>>79291014Hey Yuanon today was chillhopefully tomorrow is the same I'm just chilling also How was your day?
>>79291487>today was chill hopefully tomorrow is the samefingers crossed! you deserve some chill days. any reason it shouldn't be?>I'm just chilling alsochilling on a chill day? scandalous! :> i tried that, too, but my usual streamer decided to play that weird amazon-mmo, so i pivoted to stardew. you watching anything?>How was your day?boring and kinda long. still feels like everything is an hour off. :/ i forgot my cup in the stairwell of the building our store is in while closing shop yesterday and couldn't find it today, so i was kinda miffed about that, but i asked my boss and it turns out he took it and just put it in a very weird spot. that was the most stress i had today. ^^'
I have to go on a walk now.>>79291014>hi gator!Hey yuanon :)>i'm alright. Better then bad.>still tired and a little off kilter,That's a shame. What's off kilter mean tho?>maybe it's not the worst thing that they did Yeah it's definitely not the worst thing.>i hope you'll be able to stay away from it on your own at some point.Yeah me to, I just think if I'm forced to stop it won't actually help me, but if I stop on my own I'll actually be better.>>79291084>i don't think you're annyoing at allI'm glad you don't.>maybe there's something you can change?Maybe, I've tried to change small things before but idk exactly what to change.>you're probably fineMaybe, I just don't like it.>even if there's stuff that would justify a certain level of discontentYeah and there are definitely certain things on my body that do.>others don't see you like that.Maybe, I have been told my face is ugly before tho.>>79291487>Hello friend :DHai fren :3.>I'm gudThat's really good to hear.>just so you know you are not annoyingI'm happy you think I'm not.>Sorry to hear you're not wellIt's fine.
>>79291653>>79291653>you deserve some chill days.same to you :3> any reason it shouldn't be?no but you never know >chilling on a chill day? scandalous:o>usual streamer decided to play that weird amazon-mmo,oh my :/>pivoted to stardew. that's nice too>ou watching anything?yup just some stream vod>turns out he took it and just put it in a very weird spot. that was the most stress i had today. ^^'at least nothing worse happened >>79291681enjoy your walk>happy you think I'm not.no problem >It's fineare u sure?
This year I've had two infected cuts to fat, one from myself and one from another person but both times were with clean blades and proper woundcare. I used to use used tools to cut and gouge holes or even my bare teeth and would do no aftercare beyond licking the blood clean and never get an infection so I don't know what happened. Maybe its because its to the fat layer. I have antibiotic ointment and pills and wound dressings from the hospital at least but I'm confused about preventing it in the first place>>79289791I gouged a hole into my calf with scissors and tried to sew it but it was too wide so I gave up. Didn't get infected somehow
feeling sleepy already >>79292037maybe you just got unlucky? it's hard to say
>>79291681>Better then bad.exactly. ^^>What's off kilter mean tho?it means something like being out of balance or being slightly wrong. not sure if i use the phrase correctly, but i like it. ^^>it's definitely not the worst thing.glad you see it that way.>I just think if I'm forced to stop it won't actually help me, but if I stop on my own I'll actually be better.that's true. if you don't come to that conclusion yourself, you'll fall back into your old habits eventually.>I've tried to change small things before but idk exactly what to change.yeah. you'll know what you should have changed now in a few years. it's ironic.>I just don't like it.i understand your frustration. i have my fair share of these thoughts as well. :/>I have been told my face is ugly before tho.i think most people have been told that at some point. people who tell you stuff like that usually do it with the intent to hurt you, so they just say whatever.>>79291996>same to you :3thanks. really looking forward to the weekend.>no but you never know true. best to always expect betrayal, so all life can do is confirm your expectations. :p>oh my :/yeah. i don't get the appeal at all.>yup just some stream vodhope you had fun. >at least nothing worse happenedyou never know... :<>>79292363sleep tight!
Sup guys, I left after i posted to go to work + guitar store. I got new strings for my bass, it was fun playing the electrics. Now I'm just gonna chill and work on creative stuff.>>79288641Pic rel cuh How are you doing cat? Gonna sleep soon?>>79288757Hey anon, im so sorry that your going through it. Therapy/Psychiatry can be tought but im sure you can come out better on the other side. You got this bro <33>>79290952hey gator! How you doing??> Like I think I'm very annoyingur not, i like you talking to you, you dont come off as annoying.>>79291014Hey yua, whtas up??
>>79291996>enjoy your walkThanks it was nice.>are u sure?Not really :/.>>79292037Hey anon. I've never cut that deep, but the human body is very weird sometimes. I hope you never get a infection again.>>79292363Sleep well.>>79292612>it means something like being out of balance or being slightly wrong.Okay that makes sense. I hope your not that way tomorrow then.>not sure if i use the phrase correctly, but i like it. ^^It sounds right, and now I understand it.>glad you see it that way.I just think they've definitely don't a lot worse.>if you don't come to that conclusion yourself, you'll fall back into your old habits eventually.Yeah exactly. It's also just hard to break habits if your forced to.>you'll know what you should have changed now in a few years.I hope I can know sooner but life is all about learning.>i have my fair share of these thoughts as well. :/It's hard not to think about yourself in a bad way I guess.>i think most people have been told that at some point.Okay that is probably true.>usually do it with the intent to hurt youProbably, it does just hurt me a lot.>>79292646Hey irkador>gonna chill and work on creative stuff.Sounds fun!>How you doing??I'm okay, bored I guess how are you feeling?> i like you talking to youI'm glad you think so :).>you dont come off as annoyingI guess I just feel like a am.
>>79288364>How are you doing today?im extremely depressed today im getting a serious urge to cut myself since that always makes me feel something nice>Any plans for today?staying awake all night watching horror movies (because its spooky month)>When was the last time you hurt yourself?2 years ago>Is there anything bothering you right nowi dont know, im just very depressed and lonely
>>79292712Hi gator, sorry i replied so late.>I'm okay, bored I guessthats good, i have my best ideas daydreaming when im bored.>how are you feeling?same old same old, do something get home animate untill i fall asleep>I'm glad you think so :).of course bro!!>I guess I just feel like a am.I used to feel like i was sop annoying back then, to be fair when i was a kid i very much was, but i realized that it really doesnt matter if you are or not, someone is bound to find you annoying. It was to a point getting called annoying, even as a joke would just ruin my day.
>>79293887Hey anon.>im extremely depressed todaySorry to hear that. is there any reason?>im getting a serious urge to cut myselfI get that, best thing you can do is distract yourself or just don't go deep.>staying awake all night watching horror moviesThat's nice, horror movies are great :)>2 years agoGood job!!>im just very depressed and lonelyThat sucks. You can always come here if your lonely, it helps me.>>79294027>sorry i replied so lateDon't worry, I totally understand.>have my best ideas daydreaming when im bored.Day dreaming can be nice yeah.>do something get home animate untill i fall asleepIt's a schedule, I hope you at least enjoy it.>but i realized that it really doesnt matter if you are or notI guess that's true, it's hard tho.>someone is bound to find you annoying.Yeah unless your perfect in every way it's gonna happen.>even as a joke would just ruin my day.That sucks, it is something that can easily ruin your day.
