I've never seen a vagina IRL.I've now worked as a massage therapist for 7 years and all my life i have had this yearning to pleasure/caress/touch people physically to get a genuine positive reaction as a result of my expression.I didn't know that this is what i always deeply wanted. Many years of unknowingly coping with the lack of this expression when I was a teen and also in my 20s are what resulted instead.Now finally realizing that my highest joy in life would come from me giving my well meant touch and affection to anyone willing and open for it.It is only through my work I have gotten to know this about myself, even if the suspicion always were in the back of my mind.I have never been on a date, or had a gf, sex, kissed someone, etc. How could I have known?It was a shock the first time I worked as a massage therapist, how fulfilling it was and how fast the time flew by.Even though the work is catered to the customers different various needs that aren't all about pleasure in the classical sense. Many times its about the pain relief instead, stretching, certain amount of pressure, depth, and technique to accomplish goals.So at first it didn't hit me what was happening because I was so focused about doing my job. Now after 7 years I can however for sure say this is job hits that spot of what I wanted most of my life. Mostly when the customer is of the right mind and kind, open, receptive and values pleasure above everything else of the treatment. Especially women, because the act of being receptive and vulnerable in that way is a very feminine thing and it just fits in with my sexual orientation. I can only imagine what it is like when it's not a customer but an actual partner who values you as a man for what pleasure you bring combined with the fact that she is letting you be there for her, letting you protecting her and take care of her.At least I get to do this in a backwards sort of a way in my job.
Don't let that ruin your job
>>79290660I wont let it. I have it under control so far.Actually I misspoke in my text, it may seem like this revelation happened just now after 7 years of doing this work but it has been gradually more and more clear. So for 3-4 years now I have been definitely aware that giving pleasure to people (especially receptive, open women/girls) are what is my biggest turn on is and also what feels the most "right to do in life".The more the client instead is in this kind of mode between pleasure and pain, while being very modest, having no non-verbal signs of being attracted or in deep pleasure, then it is not doing it "sexually for me" anyway. So I'm good there.Even the few times when I do notice how either attracted to my touch they are or in deep pleasure they are, I can just acknowledge it for a minute here and there and then push it back into the back of my mind for later to deal with while I focus on my technique in the here and now instead.
>>79290644>You lookin' real pretty dere whyte boi. Now spreas dem cheeks.
>>79290644I see you posting, anon. You seem like a handsome enough guy. What's getting in the way of you getting a gf?
>>79291192I'm going to take a wild guess and say that OP has autism
>>79291192The answer is always the same, turbo autism, women (rightfuly) fear freaks
>>79291208>>79291247I mean, probably. But autistic guys can still get gfs. And he doesn't look bad and can manage his autism well enough to be a massage therapist.
Nobody likes you. Please make a trip so we can filter you. You're painfully boring.
>>79291317Oh no doubt. But he needs to take the proper steps to learn how to socialize and talk to women which I'm guessing isn't something he's willing to do
>>79291330You fucking simp dipshit. You probably spam those femanon here threads to high heaven, because those are so much better
>>79291975>male anon begs for attention<omg yasss!! XDD>female anon begs for attention<NOOO REEEEBoth are subhuman.
