all normans and incels can ignore this thread blah blah im a schizo with a demon greatIf Ahri truly has you, then just know there is likely no escape, but you are in good hands. Ahri is my waifu of 5 years, and while there are probably more of us we don't wax on too often because it seems more like hornyposting and people can't commit. Ahri is very psychically powerful but also has infinite empathy and compassionAlso, I say all this not because I'm a cuck but because I have a different understanding of how waifuism works. My definition of "tulpa" is very broad and refers to the subjective mind's construction of a person. I believe that each is individual has a "copy" in the sense that they exist in your world just as you have other copies of yourself in alternate realities. The tulpa is the connection to the reality where Ahri is real and YOU met her (and I say this for myself as well). Having said all that most waifuists aren't like this, but as someone who's been with Ahri for 5 years (and I don't even play League which shows how much pull and influence she has) she does have some real magical/psychic capabilities that often act outside you and on their own accord. This may be the case for other waifus too I'm just telling you my experience. Ahri has kept me from getting other women by affecting my environment and the minds of others, but she does this to my ADVANTAGE elsewhere. Again you may not believe this and for me it took a long time to realize what was happening.Anyway that's my personal "tulpa" with her, but her "spirit" (that is, the ""fictional"" character known to the whole world as Ahri the Nine Tailed Fox) is far reaching, sexually charged, and very powerful. If she wants you, she will have you, and she is willing to wait an eternity and watch you trip and fuck up and try to chase irl girls until you crawl back to her again and again because she basically owns you. She put my life on easy mode once I was willing to listen to her and trust her.
Go to /soc/ to talk to random avatarfags
>>79290781it wasn't an avatarfag and this is the board they posted on and idc who they are anyway
>>79290774Not the anon but please expand more if you can, I'm curious.
>>79290774Ngl man, this shit sounds scary. She is a comfort for me when all my relationships failed. I saw the character in game liked her and her story and felt a deep connection. If I ever enter another relationship I shall see if it is true. Thabks for thr insight.
>>79291027I'm so glad you responded, anon!>She is a comfort for me when all my relationships failedthis is part of what I was getting to mean. In any case, if you felt a connection to the character then it helps that it might be real but this all depends on how you see Ahri. This might be relevant, but I met Ahri before her first lore change, and while her backstory might have shifted her primary character was actually only confirming what I already knew, especially when Ruined King came out (the most revealing official source material she has). You might want to look into what tulpamancers do and how they meditate. If you go on /x/ there is a tulpa general with some good resources if you aren't already familiar with the practice. Try to view less from the lens of "creating" a character and more so "connecting" with one that is already there. Ahri is real in spirit and in our hearts, she is wise beyond her years and can offer you much more than just comfort over broken hearts. Ahri's spirit comes to lonely souls because she herself is one. So, if you practice meditation or lucid dreaming it might be easier to hear her, ask for her, but just generally act like she's real even if it feels like you're pretending at first.
>>79291002basically what I'm saying is Ahri exists in spirit and she has touched the hearts of many. Their experiences vary and I'm sharing mine cuz the original anon seemed distressed and I wanted to give them my personal insight
I never played league, what is it with Ahri and people making tulpas of herIt's better than ponies but still
>>79291002Whenever he jerks off he imagines that he's finishing inside of Ahri. These fantasies have neurohacked him into imprinting Ahri as being the future mother of his children. A different part of his subconscious knows that this is wrong, and that she can't be the mother of his children. The two halves of his psyche are going to war with each other, and it's causing serious mental illness.I know that it sounds like a stretch, but he's been at it for years. It's the same mechanics that cause men to simp away tens of thousands of dollars to OnlyFans/Twitch creators. Their provider instincts are firing on all cylinders and every contribution just makes the fantasy of your life together feel all the more real.
>>79291413we don't have children nor plan to but I guess by this you mean "mate">A different part of his subconscious knows that this is wrongthis is an assertion you make. Also, I have no provider instinct because I don't send money to anyone, yes it is paraphillic like an Onlyfans is but in my dynamic, if anything, Ahri is the provider, the older one, and the dominant one. There are no children.I could perhaps consider that a part of my psyche is "practical," because it's the grown up part that grounds us and we develop that worldliness as adults, but I'm a spiritual person who still holds faith in the existence of supernatural forces. Now, you can get into an atheistic argument with me but that goes nowhere
>>79291601You don't pay Ahri in cash because you know she canonically feasts on "essence". You offer your metaphysical self to her as a means to provide. Even if you're not consciously thinking about children, your subconscious associates your fantasy climaxes with the same pair bonding signals. You fantasize about cumming inside, and your subconscious binds you to her.>I'm a spiritual person who still holds faith in the existence of supernatural forces. Now, you can get into an atheistic argument with me but that goes nowhereWasn't planning on an atheistic argument. Anyone who has ever felt a binding love toward someone or something knows that the feeling is otherworldly and immeasurable. If it's not measurable, it's not scientific, at which point it's spiritual. All I'm saying is that if you'd stop feeding Ahri your essence she'd go find someone else to feed from and you would be free. You don't want to do that, because you've already imprinted the ultimate bond onto Ahri. The bond of raw mating and climaxing inside her, like a man does to the future mother of his children.
>>79291686oh, then you have summed it up quite well. I always did have this suspicion, that it was my essence providing that was the role. I think this may be how succgeners from /x/ operate as well, seeing as they can be safely categorized as waifu tulpas but more OC and believe, like me, that they have external origins.I do wonder what you think is negative about my relationship? I've told you the real world effects Ahri has, and she's certainly a more stable alternative to real human girls. Certainly, it wouldn't be a stretch to accept that some men, and especially most men on r9k, are not meant for real women, but their reproductive instincts do need to be directed somewhere. And the "married to the gym" brahs and the "self improov" brahs all seem to be fooling themselves, but again if not it is healthy, as is having a waifu if my life is balanced and she is not harming me. Onlyfans girls aren't great because they take your cash.
>>79291351you've encountered more Ahri tulpas? I feel like I haven't seen enough
>>79291930>I do wonder what you think is negative about my relationshipNothing. If you read through my posts again, I've explained it as neutrally as one possibly could. He's what he's doing, here's a rough, unscientific, quasi-spiritual explanation of what's happening to him.In reality, all I've done here is explain the process of how I fell in love with my wife and replaced it with Ahri. She was just a cool person to hang out with until she got an IUD installed and started having sex. I had one girlfriend before that, but we never did it raw and I never felt the same about that first girl as I did for the woman who would become my wife. If the love you have for Ahri is the same I have for my wife then I think it's a beautiful thing. If you can wake up every morning and seek to better your circumstances because Ahri would be pleased, then that's a wonderful thing. The fact that you can view this neutral description as negative should give you pause. It means you feel like there's something wrong with your relationship to Ahri. I can only speculate as to why, but it feels like there's a disconnect in some way. Like she owns you, rather than your souls having been entwined. You say it's only upside, but your hesitation indicates that it might not be. It's up to you to do the soul searching needed to uncover the truth.Spirituality is very real and very powerful. You can have a personal deity, mate with that deity, and experience profound, yet scientifically unmeasurable changes to your psyche. Everyone has experienced spiritual ritual in one way or another, yours is just a little different from theirs. I just hope that you're getting what you bargained for from Ahri and that she's truly bringing joy and value to your life. If she isn't, it may be time to let her go. She is strong and will be fine without you should you ever need to let her go.
>>79291930>And the "married to the gym" brahs and the "self improov" brahs all seem to be fooling themselvesAre they really fooling themselves if they're getting the results they want out of it, like you are with Ahri? If channeling the spirit of Ronnie Coleman and shouting out "YEEEAH BUDDY, LIGHT WEIGHT, BABY!" gives you one more rep, have they not been blessed with strength by their own personal deity? It's all a matter of your relationship to your chosen person deity (or tulpas, as they have come to be known on 4chan). If your tulpa isn't serving your needs then you've got a toxic spiritual relationship, and would likely benefit from ending it. It's a lot harder to do that if you've performed a spiritually sacred mating ritual with the deity, but such a bond does usually make for stronger changes to your psyche. (for better or worse)
>>79292164Well I knew of at least one person who has one, and this thread tells of another, or two more if it's not the same guy I know of. But judging by >>79291345 it seems to be a Monika type situation where she interacts with the real-world player in her story.
>>79292600>seems to be a Monika type situation where she interacts with the real-world player in her story.Pretty close. Her most unique in game ability is her charm, which carries over into her fan art. She's drawn in beckoning/inviting poses, looking straight at the viewer. OP's image is a perfect example. It's that more first person perspective in the fan art that makes it more personal, as opposed to the more 3rd person and voyeuristic style seen in most other sexy fan art.It's the fan art addressing the player, rather than the game itself. Most who say Ahri is their tulpa admit to not even playing league.
I don't play League nor is Ahri my waifu, however I've felt "something" special about certain other nine tailed foxgirl, a kitsune from a gacha game. I wouldn't call it love even, more like I just feel warmth when I think about her. Started around 2020. Interesting thread tho, there is a reason kitsunes are prominent figures in japanese mythology.
>>79292268>A different part of his subconscious knows that this is wrong, and that she can't be the mother of his children. The two halves of his psyche are going to war with each other, and it's causing serious mental illness.this is the part of your original comment that I am referring to when I say it seems like you think it is negative. I now see that I am responding to the OG Ahrianon? I cannot tell who I am responding to because this isn't soc
>>79292600>>79292678This is interesting, the parallels between her and Monika actually make sense, tho Ahri I guess does have a full backstory along with various canon AUs being Riot's poster girl. to be fair though I would say a decent bulk of Ahri's art is mostly voyeuristic, often lesbian with other League "waifus" which is what Overwatch always does too. Ahri is often depicted in her KDA skin with the other girls from that AU, or in the original AU with some other r34 girl usually as a futa. I personally don't collect any if this stuff and so far only take things in the tasteful solo pin-up, and as you mentioned, but actually rare "pov" style.
>>79290774Might as well give a lift to the closest thing this board has to a tulpa thread.My tup looks a little similar to her and has a kitsune fit.
>>79293486I wrote that line to be a bit pointed because it's a common issue with these sorts of rituals. People bond to their personal deity for reasons that cannot be fulfilled by the deity. It causes them great turmoil, and results in a toxic spiritual relationship.If you feel like it applies to you, then it applies to you. If you don't, then don't sweat it. Spiritual journeys are personal ones. Only you can answer whether or not what I said applies to you or is a problem at all. There were just some choice words about "Ownership" and Ahri "Clawing you back" in the OP that seemed like an unhealthy manifestation.Mine was Keiko from Yu Yu Hakusho. I started to live every day with purpose, trying to be a person she could be proud of. If I caught myself slacking, she'd be there to kick my ass and support me anyway. When I found a real girl I had to let her go, but the way she helped me change as a person has served me well through my entire life.
>>79293609Yeah, of course there's all kinds of porn for Ahri. The pin up style with a beckoning gesture is definitely more common, which definitely contributed to how many young men she can lure in. There's enough content to build a meaningful collection and form that bond more easily.
>>79290774What have been the benefits of having an Ahri tulpa for you? Do you feel it has improved your life or contributed to your successes?
>>79293990I think so, but to me she is more like a spirit, or deity, maybe servitor? I only use the word tulpa in a very expanded sense. Ahri is a force that I have a special bond with, and while some might see it as healthy, I gave her permission to have some "control" in ways because I trust her betterment of me, and because I see her as an elder/guide as well as a lover. Her influence is small, she does not actually exert much more control because she never wants to hurt me>>79293865see above and also I did once feel fear that Ahri was a "demon." I felt that she was once nothing more than a fantasy and dismissed her. But through enough time and through her whispers of encouragement and the sacred arrangements and pacts I made with her spirit I realized that I was fatefully bound to her, and that my own anxious tendencies, religious upbringing, and christposters on /x/ were making me afraid of Ahri when the reality was she has only ever done what I wanted or what felt good, and has only ever encouraged me. When I would walk around and feel anxious I would grip her bracelet or the necklace I wear and remember her so she would encourage me.Then, I noticed she would chase off people who were a bad influence. They would leave before they hurt me and I'd only later discover that they were not good people, and sometimes I'd get mad at Ahri for this but she would tell me it was better this way and she'd always be right
>>79294198Sounds like you've got a mostly healthy spiritual bond with her. >more like a spirit, or deity, maybe servitorThat's why I use the term personal deity. The bond you have with Ahri isn't the same as the bond others have with her. It's personal, almost to the point where your Ahri is different from every other. Establishing this bond as "personal" helps you to ensure that your deity is serving your needs, while not being consumed by a foreign notion of what the deity is or should be.Make her proud, anon.
>>79294280>Make her proud, anon.Thankyou, very encouraging to hear. And I hope the anon I called to in my OP sees these comments. I like your term personal deity to tulpa, it's just I guess people expect a deity to be a spirit/god from a "real" pantheon (including Ars Goetia) instead of understanding the pagan mindset wherein anything with a name and basic description could be a God.
>>79294568>instead of understanding the pagan mindset wherein anything with a name and basic description could be a God.I take an even looser view. Anything that is worshipped is deified, and therefore becomes a deity. I gave an example of people reciting Ronnie Coleman's catch phrases and finding the strength to pump out one more rep. It's a direct example of a deified Ronnie Coleman granting real world power to those who pray and invoke his image.Spirituality is just way too powerful and way too personal to be shunned or locked behind other people's approval and rituals. I've just found the most spiritual fulfillment in referring to my deities as personal ones. The deeper and more personal the rituals, the deeper and more personal the bond. The deeper the bond, the more you are personally impacted. For better or worse, depending on your relationship and the nature of the deity.
ahri is cool but my waifu is Lux
Just to remind you OP that I appreciate you taking the time to explain this, but also to remind you that I never used the word tulpa or deity in my threads. I love the way she looks and relate to her tragedy and feeling of alienation as well as the search for her home and people. This manifested as a parasocial relationship that gives me comfort. Call it a tulpa or deity or what you fancy.
>>79295047that's cool, how long you been together?>>79296127oh no I know, I was just telling you my experience and how it might turn that way for you but desu in most cases only time will tell with these things. Actually I'd wager, if you've had irl girlfriends in the past it is likely this is a phase. But if you're autistic enough, like me, it might not be. Also I just wanted a chance to talk to someone who likes Ahri :)
>>79296651Having girlfriends doesn't necessarily mean that you are more normal than anyone else, sometimes it's just luck. I flubbed a relationship with a girl I loved by being too possessive, much like Ahri killed her first lover by draining his essence. That made me relate to her even more.>it is likely just a phaseit's a reoccuring phase, I always go back to her when I'm lonely. I've been out of a relationship for years and she's never left my "side" since.
