I'm on depression medication rn and I've pretty much completely lost my desire for a relationship and it feels somewhat liberating.
>>79455730I've lost all my desires for anything except rottingI wish I could get tied to a pole and shot by a firing squad already
>>79455730I achieved this state of mind too although without meds, it's like you can finally just move forward and do shit now, you're not weighed down by the lack of a girlfriend, you're no longer sent into a depressive episode when you see a happy normie couple outside, it's liberating.
>>79455781I so agree with you! One less thing to stress about and you can actually focus on your life.
>>79455730I took Sertraline for like 2 months and it didn't do anything besides mess with my appetite so I just stopped. I'm going to tell my doctor that I'm fine and to get rid of the prescription. I've reached acceptance with the fact that I'll always have neurotic-depressive tendencies because neither of my parents are free of mental illness. I'll just cope and rawdog this shit.
>>79455809I tried one medication before this and it made me really suicidal, but this one has been working really well. No more suicidal thoughts and I'm at peace rn.
>>79455831which meds?i've been on sertraline and quetiapine for three days now and i feel consumed by loneliness
>>79455730Congratulations, you've been neutered by Dr. Shekelberg's goypoison. You're like a domesticated animal now. Does it feel good?
>>79457356Currently on brintellix.>>79457413Better than being suicidal.
>>79457781Ignore that anon, people who act like taking an antidepressant is the end of the world have likely never seriously struggled with suicidality. Medications can save your life, if you need them. I take antipsychotics that keep me able to care for myself and stay out of the hospital.
>>79457802Thanks :) I agree. It feels good to finally be free of my suicidal thoughts.
>>79457802i took SSRIs two times in my life and both times showed short-term benefits that just wore off but reducing my libido to nothing until I stopped. Worthless bullshit pharmaceutical category made up to stop people from researching more fun drugs to address depression.
>>79458372I'm glad you're experiencing some relief. Please don't forget the importance of self-reflection on the reasons you felt suicidal and your struggles with it so that you can have perspective on yourself and your thought processes.
>>79458436Some people never find the right medicine.>>79458454Actively working with a therapist has helped in that. Thanks for your concern.
>>79458436>two times in my lifeThat alone tells me you weren't severely suffering from depression, I don't say this to hurt you in any way, I say this to express that you hadn't reached your complete total surrender. You never reached rock bottom. You will try literally everything. I tried endless medications and even ECT. I was willing to do or say or be anything, I would have dragged myself naked across broken glass for even the chance of relief. I would have happily let a doctor cut my penis off without anesthesia if it meant so the psychological pain would lessen. I would have happily lived dickless and not suicidal.
>>79458478except the doc will only prescribe you 200 different variations of the same shit that doesn't work until you give up and remove yourself from the census or find the solution on your own.
>>79458479yeah mate i'm only suffering from the depression that makes me aimless and listless and only occasionally feel like i want to die. no depression is easy depression.
>>79458510That sounds pretty mild, as far as depression symptoms go. Only occasional feelings of suicidal ideation is pretty common in light depressive episodes. I don't mean this to say that the pain and suffering you feel is not real, you just have to be real about comparing things. Like my schizophrenia isn't as severe as many, because I'm able to take care of myself on medications, even if I'm still disabled. Many of my schizophrenic brothers and sisters are permanently fucked, wandering the streets lost forever. Many are permanently institutionalized. I am often very thankful that I have the expression of symptoms that I do. My problems are my own, and I'm thankful I don't have anyone else's problems.
>>79458529i guess it depends on what one's definition of occasional is. maybe a couple times a week. not gonna do it though people who survive one attempt tend not to try again.
>>79458558Yeah, that's occasional. It still sucks and isn't something anyone should have to deal with, though. I'm not trying to say you should like, pull yourself up by your bootstraps or something. I'm also glad you're confident you're not going to kill yourself, it makes me happy to hear that. I survived two attempts, many years apart. I am very thankful today that I did.I found a lot of success in dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT) to reduce my suicidality symptoms. It specifically addresses recurrent suicidal feelings. If you hate the idea of paying someone for it, you can pirate the workbooks that the classes have you do online, I suppose. It would take dedication to keep yourself studying and pushing through alone, though.
>>79458601I still don't know what DBT is or why i should expect it to help at all any more than regular therapy did (nada)
>>79458619I have no idea what kind of therapy you had when you refer to regular therapy. There is no such thing, there are many different forms and types of therapies. For example, ECT that I mentioned earlier, which I had, is electroshock therapy, which I don't think you are referring to when you say regular therapy.Again, if things are already so difficult and suck so much, why is it a waste to try something that has worked for someone else? You tried a pharmacological drug, but the idea of pirating a book related to a therapy that addresses your specific problem you mention (recurrent suicidal ideation) to page through it and see what it contains is too much?
>>79458644well... getting the motivation of doing something myself is a bit different from the times my parents dragged me to the therapist as a teen.
>>79458666It's okay if you don't feel like trying to help yourself in this way, or in using medications, but I'm not quite sure what you expect. You're feeling poorly and unless something changes you'll continue to feel poorly. What do you personally do to alleviate your suffering?
>>79458705i imagine finn mertens in my head doing a funny little dance or something and giving me a kiss and telling me everything is gonna be okay
>>79455809I used to take sertraline and it made my bladder relax and become weak so I almost pissed myself all the time.
>>79458731That sounds like a nice visualization technique, anon. Positive visualization is a skill I was taught to use in therapy and it really helps a lot. I'm glad that helps you.
>>79458751all I'm saying is there's other medications the doc won't prescribe you. don't currently have access to that on account of the not talking to people
>>79458857Like psilocybin? Or ketamine? They were somewhat helpful in my journey. I tried them as well.
