After nearly becoming a 28 khhv I couldn't handle it anymore and decided to see an escort, I'm in Australia and it's legal here so yanks need not seethe. It cost $400 for an hour and I was unable to cum, although the kissing and hugging was amazing in the moment. However, it's now 2 months later and I thought it would make me more outgoing and able to strike up conversation with girls after being in one but it hasn't. The only thing different is that I now know what I'm missing out on and it's fucking killing me inside. This is a warning to any khhv that is thinking about seeing an escort to feel loved/desired, do not do this.
>>79788668>its legal here so yanks need not seetheEscorts are legal in the US as well, prostitution is technically illegal but its never prosecuted unless it involves human trafficking and or children.
400 emubucks is pretty steep. Surely you could just buy a ticket to Indonesia or something for that price? Girls are much cheaper there.
>>79788676Man that was one of the cheapest I found that I could confirm was legit. She was also fat, middle aged and was mean to me during it for not knowing how to do things even though I specifically asked beforehand if she was okay with me being a virgin.
>>79788690Wow that sounds bad. I would rather be a virgin than go through that.
>>79788668you sound like a whiny piece of shit, might as well kill yourself right now if you can't even fuck a whore correctly
>>79788717If I hit 30 and I still haven't found someone to willingly have sex with me for free then I think it's likely I will. I just want to have someone special in my life but I think this has actually regressed my already non existent ability to approach women.
>>79788668All you need to do is to become chad. Then women owe you sex and you don't need to do much.
>>79788668Yeah, you're still a virgin if you didn't cum inside her. That's why you aren't laidback when you talk to women.Just so you know, however, that losing your v-card for real might kill your desire for being with a woman. So, given that you despair for FOMO on coochie and kissing and hugging, you should use these feelings into making yourself able to have a girlfriend and experience what you did with the escort again, but right this time.
>>79788668Having sex did change me but not in a good way I think. I did stop desperately thinking about sex so much but since it didn't change my personality I sort of became more hopeless and self destructive until I got help for my underlying issues. I'm a lot more chill and outgoing now
>>79788776I have FOMO for kissing and hugging but i don't have much desire to have actual sex again, I couldn't really feel anything with a condom on but that's is probably due to deathgripping my dick for so many years. I just can't manage to use that desire to talk to girls though, I have never been shown interest by any my whole life and even on dating apps I go months without a single like let alone match, then I delete the app and want to die until some random bout of confidence makes me download them again thinking it will be different.
>>79788668ITT anon discovers that meaningless sex exists
>>79788676400 is actually quite good for 1 hour. Most white women charge 600+ for 1 hour.>>79788690Escorts you meet at their own places are overpriced. Sex in general is very overpriced at the moment. But you can get better deals at brothels if there are any near you - around $260 for an hour there or $180 for 30 mins. The thing with brothels though is the ladies try to upsell you by making the basic service somewhat restrictive e.g. "only 1 position of my choice, no touching my breasts or crotch, no kissing" and then offer add-on services such as Girlfriend Experience. The brothel I go to does $180 for 30 mins, and then the lady I like to see asks for $150 extra for GFE = $330 total for 30 mins of pretty good and fun sex with kissing etc included.But yeah if you were expecting to get more comfortable in social situations around women then that isn't going to happen. I've seen the lady I described above like 7 times now but I'm still hopeless IRL around women or just people in general. I just go to satisfy my desire to be touched and to be intimate with a woman, and that's that. It calms me down and relieves some stress for a few weeks. Like going for a massage appointment. But if you value the intimacy and vulnerability of sex more than I do, then you need to keep that in mind, also, so I guess it's not really as simple as a massage appointment.
>>79788690>>79789065Also you really need to make sure you're attracted to the lady you see. It sounds like you had a sub par experience because you weren't attracted to her. You need to make sure she gives you butterflies in your tummy or else it's not going to be satisfying. And if you do find a lady like that, stick with her and just see only her. I've tried to "branch out" and experience sex with other ladies and I always regretted it and felt horrible for wasting money on it because it was never a good experience. I only have a good time when I see my regular lady who I find extremely attractive and also has built a bit of a rapport with me and is really patient and sweet with me.
I have ED so I'm of the opinion that you should have sex when you are still healthy and able to.
>>79789086How does that affect you day-to-day? There was one time I couldn't get a hard-on for a month after a traumatic experience, and I remember it made me feel really depressed. Is it similar to that?
>>79789091My ED amnesia related and it's been shitty in general for the past two years. My erections are weaker and the feeling is numb.
>>79788668>>79788668>although the kissing and hugging was amazing in the moment.>. This is a warning to any khhv well just get another escort then moron
>>79789114Shit, I meant related to insomnia. ESLAs you can see my thinking is quite scrambled.
>>79789077I was only able to see an escort because I was in another state where there were some in that city, otherwise it would be over a 2 1/2 hour drive to any brothel/escort where I actually live. I paid for GFE with the escort I saw but it didn't go quite well. There was no brothel in that city either and the attractive escorts were all like $6-700 for 1/2 an hour unfortunately. Honestly it nearly broke my brain just trying to get the confidence to even message her to book the hour.
>>79789121See >>79789143 I do not have the luxury of just seeing another escort unless I booked a hotel in a city or did a day trip to a brothel and the thought of that makes me feel even more pathetic
>>79789143>would be over a 2 1/2 hour drive to any brothel/escort where I actually liveThat's rough. I've honestly gotten kind of addicted to this. I moved semi-rural recently where the drive to the brothel is 1.5 hours and so it's a little frustrating for me especially since driving makes me nervous. That's what I get for becoming a degenerate I guess
I just don't know how else I'm supposed to get sex in this country, man. It feels like the average woman in Australia lives in a completely different world. And even if you have physical attributes like being tall that would be valuable in other countries, the average Australian guy still tends to completely mog you somehow. I don't think I will ever meet a girlfriend or wife in-person here in this country.
>>79788668Welcome to the eternal Hell of knowing what you'll never have, fellow truecel.
>>79789157The first time you paid for sex were you able to cum? Another big part of why I couldn't get into it i think is that I couldn't shake the fact that I was paying for it and I couldnt "sink" into the experience so to speak
>>79789167I have been starting to humor the idea of trying to find a woman on Sofiadate but the risk of the person being fake, trying to take all my money or leaving me if I brought them back here is stopping me from trying
>>79789153>booked a hotel in a city or did a day trip to a brothel and the thought of that makes me feel even more patheticwhat like booking a hotel to meet a date?
>>79789172The first time I paid for sex, we only ended up going as far as a blowjob because after 3 minutes of her going down on me I came lol. This was with a condom on.And then the next time where I actually lost my virginity, I came while she was riding me after like 10 mins of penetration in various positions.It has gotten a lot more difficult for me to cum from penetration since then, or to cum in general with a woman. There's no chance I'm cumming in missionary, maybe a tiny chance I'll cum from her riding, slight chance I can cum in doggystyle... I have to ask her to finish me with a blowjob or handjob these days which makes me feel kind of sad. Maybe it's because I jack off too much.The money/transaction aspect never really crosses my mind because I get so excited, find her so attractive, and she acts really sweet with me. Once again I think that may have been why you had a sub-par experience since it sounds like you weren't totally into her.
>>79789167>I just don't know how else I'm supposed to get sex in this country, man. It feels like the average woman in Australia lives in a completely different world. And even if you have physical attributes like being tall that would be valuable in other countries, the average Australian guy still tends to completely mog you somehow. I don't think I will ever meet a girlfriend or wife in-person here in this country.I made a fake sugardaddy profile on an australian site with boomer guy pics and I couldn't believe the hotties messaging me with video confirmation they signed up to the site looking for rich guys. Like hot as fuck.
>>79789198>sugardaddyHow does that work exactly? How much are you expected to pay them? Are you expected to take them on dinner dates etc.? Might fucking consider it just to have the experience of a "fling" (lol) for a month or something at this point, fuck it
>>79789190Yeah, a lot of escorts seem to only come to you and you can't go to theirs so I would have to book a hotel for the night and then have to find one that is available
>>79789222its a sugar daddy site, its not just a dinner date, you are basically renting her as the gf. Similar to what you see with Actors, Singers and Models. They just have higher prices
>>79789197I wish I didn't live in bumfuck nowhere, at least then I could at least try again and confirm that it's not me that's fucked in the head
>>79788668go again until your anxiety dwindlesi also didn't cum the first time but it gets better with time and practice
>>79789261Well I was also just 21 when I had these experiences so it might be natural that your response to sex is a bit different since you're older. That could also be a part of it.
I'm 28 and a khhv.Never felt the need for an escort desu
>>79789287I do feel as though my avoidance of all things sexual until my late 20's has had a very negative effect on the way I perceive sex and women in general
>>79789315>my avoidance of all things sexual until my late 20'sWhat do you mean? No porn no jacking off no nothing?
Im 29 and I value my virginity over staying with a hoe. Keep your PURITY lads and only enter in a true relationship. No fucking around and finding out. Being driven by women is A GOOD THING.
Holy shit I feel bad for anons living in countries where hookers cost this much I pay 60 euros to fuck a Ukrainian with a fat ass, I make 60 euros in one day, paying 400 is just ridiculous.
>>79789359>only enter in a true relationship.lol you'll see
>>79789369See what? That women are indeed queens? I dont need a hot stacey, I prefer character. Somebody that reads books and thinks for themselves
>>79789412Based betabucks provider. I know my baby momma is in good hands.
>>79789363Yeah, it's ridiculous. Euros have it good.
>>79789363The cheapest escort on tryst near me is 150/hour. It's so over.
>>79789330I mean as in actual attraction/desire for a real woman. I jacked off and shit but until I was like 25 I never had thoughts of getting a girlfriend or anything
>>79789412>See what? That women are indeed queens?
>>79789519You never had a crush or anything?
