My only friend killed himself
>>79794600well done anon, who will be your next friend
>>79794600Damn Im sorry man. Wish I could say it gets easier but it really seldom does not.
>>79794600I'm sorry to hear that. I hope mine doesn't, he already lives worse than me.I'm a wuss who unironically thinks about that from time to time, too, like 'fuckin retard..hope you don't die'.Again, I'm sorry, OP.
hes finally free from fortune
>>79794652>'fuckin retard..hope you don't die'That's how I say goodbye to a friend
It's been 2 years and I haven't left the house for anything besides work a single time. It's my fault he died and I don't know how to make new friends
>>79794600Could you explain to me why are you telling me this?
>>79794600My Condolences for your loss anon.
>>79794743Same thing happened to me 2 years ago, I still don't have any new friends, is this a common occurrence?
>>79794600Cool story, now check this Alice.
>>79795928I wish I could go to Alice
>>79794600My best and only friend killed himself five years ago.Sorry anon. It doesn't get easier.I have friends now. I think.I still can't make friends without thinking they'll kill themselves sooner or later.
>>79795947I knew in advance because he made a post about killing himself here but I didn't take it seriously enough and was selfish and just talked about my own issues Even when he wanted to talk the night before I cut the conversation short because I had to sleep I didn't want to get in the way of the police and EMTs trying to keep him alive so I couldn't even say anything and just sat in my room listening to it happen
>>79795984My condolences anon.You have it worse than me then, in my opinion. I don't believe I had any signs. He told me he was tired, and was going to go to bed. It was 1:58 in the morning, after all. I said goodnight, and that was it. I was the last person to talk to him. I'm still waiting for him to get up.You are saying you feel selfish for only talking about your issues, or not being able to listen to what he wanted to talk about. Maybe you were. That really isn't the issue.You can't control the actions of other people, anon. He was ultimately the one who decided to kill himself. You didn't do it.If you're anything like me you'll be angry. At yourself. At him. I spent a lot of time being angry.Just know that ultimately it isn't your fault. The pain of losing him doesn't go away, but do your best.Sorry. I'm not good at helping people. Try baking a cake maybe?
>>79796093He apparently tried before according to his family and he did once while I was around.I don't know maybe I'll try to do something but as it is I can barely make eye contact and the only reason why I'm not treated like garbage is because I'm tall
>>79795944Me too, man. I want to run away to Strane Zazerkale but I just ended up running into a mirror.
>>79794600Seems like he was trying to tell you something
I'm actually thinking of killing myself on my 23rd birthday and just leave messages to my friends like "hang in there" or "keep ta head up." "Was good to meet you" We're supposed to move out together to share a roof which sounds fun but at the same time i'm just ready to die and don't feel like dragging it out till i'm 30 like i planned before. I belive that god exists and if he is good he will isekai me info a world that i would find meaning in. If he is bot good then it wasnt worth to live in a world created by na evil or apathetic being, hopefuly if that where to be the case i would turn to the devil maybe he would show me more kindness. If god does not exist i am content with simply ceasing to exist since its bound to happen anyway and i don't want to waste 2/3 of my life for doing something i have no interest nor will to parttake in. Whenever i tell someone (except my friends who were supportive) of me feeling the call of the void their only plan for my salvation would be hope that i'm gonna meet someone and create a family with them. But why would i wish to bring another conciousness into this world for it to suffer the same or simillar pain as i do. 1/3 of your life youre supposed to spend working to even be able to live but what for. Most jobs are soul crushing yet you have to spend 1/3 of your life just to be leeched of by someone born into wealth who used the capital of his family to make a rip off of someone else's business idea. I saw a picture of a guy that worked somwehre between 25-50 years for 7-11 and all he got was a coupcake and 5$ check to purchase at the shitty store he's working in. 1/3rd you spend sleeping if you sleep for 8h a day which for me is not the case since i sleep between 10-12 hrs.that leaves you with 1/3 of your time where you are actually alive but depending on your energy level you either do something or just consume the media made by other soul crushing work camps where object of doing art out of heart changed for money.
>>79797431I truly believe that lucifer rebelled against god purely because he saw the suffering of existence and the apathy of god. Maybe it is all part of gods plan, that he created an angel who does care, for those that do not blindly have faith.Hell wasnt described as an evil awful place by jesus, but a seperation from god. Then again im agnostic so who the hell knows, if we get rebirthed as a fish you guys better keep up cuz all that dolpussy is mine
>>79794600Not to guilt trip you or anything, but you must be a really shitty kind of friend if you are unaware of what they were going through or didn't care enough to save them from self-destruction.
>>79794600Been there. That sucks. I don't have anything else for you.
never kys>>79797499you'll realize this happens to peoplelots of loners that's why you're herethat's fucked up maybe you'll be a great villain one day >>79797487maybe you're just a god hater psycho freak
>>79797561>maybe you're just a god hater psycho freakMaybe i was just made in his image
>>79797561I'm sorry I'm not sure I understand you.
