Mental Illness and Neurobullshit: Do you have it? Is it fake? Does it make your life a living nightmare, or is it just an excuse for lazy people to have no discipline?Are you diagnosed? Do you even trust doctors?I'm inherently skeptical of any "disorders" that are assigned based off whether or not a clinician thinks you check off a certain numbers of boxes. But also you can scan ppl's brains and see abnormalities so there's something there. However, a "spectrum" that's so broad as to include Dr. House and Nonverbal Captain Shits-in-his-Hands seems almost completely useless.Share your thoughts
My brain is fucked and always has been. Mostly symptoms of depression. Apathy, lack of passion, extreme avoidance of any difficulty, struggle, suffering, challenge or risk. Because they don't excite me, they just cause me to panic and stress out and I am overwhelmed by negative emotions. So I retreat into my neet cave. I don't think it's possible for me to have a balanced life. That is- a life where the struggle and suffering of work is less than the satisfaction of achieving my goals, pleasure from personal relationships etc. I also cannot stop thinking. It's mostly random words or music. If I feel good (rarely), it's words like "I love the world". When I feel bad (all the time when I worked) it's words like "I hate this life, I need to kill myself, I need to cut my wrists" I'm also clumsy, forgetful and have a low opinion of my abilities, but that's par for the course.I've been taking psychiatric drugs for over a year. They only help a bit, cost a lot of money, and now I can never get off them or I fall into an even worse state.
>>80063260aspergers, diagnosed at ~14 years oldi've learned a lot about how to interact with people, but it took way too long. life is already pretty fucked.luckily i have hard working and compassionate parents
>>80063260>>80063337cont. oh yeah sorry, i didn't really answer your questions>Do you have it? yes, aspergers>Is it fake? no its brutal. >Does it make your life a living nightmare, or is it just an excuseit makes my life a nightmare and i've been embarassed about it ever since I was diagnosed. now I'm well into adulthood i've been thinking of getting over it and using it to get employed more easily.a lot of spergs end up developing personality disorders as a result of trying to cope with their own incompetence. a lot of them are NPD, but psych experts try to cover this up by saying they are different. i wonder if they alter data that shows correlations between the two.>Do you even trust doctors?I think there are a lot of shitty and lazy doctors. I think my diagnosis is legit because they demonstrated that I have very unusual IQ results, as opposed to just basing everything purely off personality and anecdotes. That said, the psych got a lot of things wrong in his report because he was stating his interpretation of some of my behaviors as fact.
>>80063260Im skeptical of stuff like Adhd and autism. I have tourettes which is obvious on the surface, adhd and autism isn't and there's no diagnostic tools for either.
>>80063327you remind me of myself. i dont think i could hold a job anymore, let alone one that would let me providei never think "i love this world" tho... my thoughts are always in line with "why me"have you ever tried to off yourself?
>>80063408No, I don't self harm. Becuase my family supports my basic existance. >why meI don't think this way. I am the result of my genes and environment, my time and place. If I was born in different circumstances, then it wouldn't be me. Moreover, I don't think there's some moral order to the world. My parents were failures who seeked comfort and assurance in each other's arms, and I am the unintended consequence. Their mental health issues combined into me.
I don't know what's wrong with me.I take four meds, an antidepressant, an antipsychotic, a med for attention and ritalin.I think psychiatry and psychology are huge memes since nothing has ever made me better. My symptoms are being sad, being a dumb idiot, having no attention, having some hallucinations a couple of times, having constant suicidal ideations, having self-harmed a couple times, hating having other people around.I think I'm normal. Until my shrink says that I have X or Y, I want to pretend to be just like everyone else.
>>80063392>experts try to cover this up by saying they are differenti should have added that they are different, but i feel like this could be used as an excuse for higher rates of NPD in people with aspergers. as in you wouldn't know because they'd remove it from the data with the excuse that these are strictly qualities of 'asd' in these circumstances, and not possibly both.
