>highschool me, never approach anyone and only likes to observe>can see who's hating on who, and i notice some girls are more troubled and reserved than others>changed my mind, i go approach them>mfw i realized all the internet stereotypes are true, and am basically expert in this kind of shit>was given the title "x whisperer" by the boys, x being the most mentally unstable in class>also notices girl y and girl z whom i also getting close with>somehow i always pick the best dialogue choices and triggered flags>2 of them have confessed to me on the final year high school>threatened to suicide and self harm if they cant be on my side after graduationEver since then, I always liked those broken girls both in 2d and irl; and I know how hard and annoying they could be, I spent most of my high school years chatting them 8 hours a day non stop. I don't think i can enjoy a normal relationship now, fuck.
I 100%'d katawa shoujo so im basically an expert on how women work.
>>80063528physically broken girls even
>>80063520I ended up the opposite. Knowing how consciously I could push their buttons made me feel like such a slimy piece of shit. None of it was organic. Even without romantic intentions they fell for me purely out of the gallant timing of my arrival. They needed someone to talk to and I was there. I listened, I sympathized, I reassured, and I teased. I wanted to tell them the things that I would've liked to have been told, and that was all it took for them to crumble. I've stopped talking to women entirely. A person like me shouldn't be in possession of such devastating power.
>>80063520why didn't you wife up both of them? holy shit, you're retarded if this isn't a larp
>>80063615I thought most chads works that way? >>80063624I fucking am. I genuinely rejected both of them in favor of a cute asian catholic girl (who ended up just ghosting me anyway); probably the reason why i stopped chasing after goody/bitchy/normal girls in general.gtrks
Escapism and japanese media have broken me. I refuse to accept anything below this level of obsession and devotion. Of course, I want to return it all
>>80063520all girls are batshit crazy anon, some just hide it better
>>80063656Is that you once again, Polish anon..?
>>80064478Yeah but rotate the flag 1800. Actually, what the hell happened with the polish anon?
>>80064968I'm retarded anon I can't do that. What country?
>>80065104Indonesia, y'know next to Singapore.
>>80065157Okay I thought so. You know I think I feel the same as you. JP media gave me such an idealised image of friendship that I just can't let go of.
>>80064478hello, stalker anon
>>80065210Hi that's me. What's up
>>80065251my shrink tripled my med dose ;_;
>>80065324Why don't you just not take them?
>>80065337Maybe they will help me overcome my anxiety!
>>80065344Well have they been helping at all so far?
>>80065357A bithowever, if i now stop taking them my life will become unbearable, I am physically addicted foreverMikan would be proud. Nurses can give out prescriptions so she would have lots of control over me.
>>80065369That's why meds scare me and why I've never done them. If I'm to suffer I'll do it sober and if I survive then it makes me proud of my brain. Not saying you should do that, they just scare me idk.
>>80065511So, you don't drink coffee, alcohol, don't smoke cigarettes or weed?the meds i've taken so far were all weaker than that crap
>>80065537No I actually don't do a single one of those. For most of my life I was even scared of ibuprofen. Pretty funny to say that whilst Mikanposting huh. But to connect it back to Mikan it all comes down to me liking to be in control.
>>80065595I wouldn't take them if I wasn't desperate...maybe once I get my menhera gf she will become the only drug I need
