After 19 years of being a failure, I'm finally starting to *feel* like one. I promise I'm trying my best to my be such a failure, but it's a slow process.
>>80064393>I'm trying my best to my be such a failureHas anyone really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?
>>80064403Am I having a stroke... I don't understand?
>>80064393Oh, I meant to say I'm trying my best to *not* be a failure anymore.
>>80064393>>80064428retard anon is cute!
>>80064393>boo-hoo for meee...so annoying... just fix your shit and come back with the good news. stop spamming this board
>>80064444I'm not retarded... I hope. Just very autistic.
>>80064448I felt like I needed to say it. Suddenly the realisation has been hitting me hard, but I'm actually quite optimistic most of the time (I think)
>>80064428I will put my cock in your butthole
>>80064393>After 19 years of being a failureyou are 19 shut the fuck upwhy do you feel like a failure anyways? surely 90% of this board mogs you in terms of retardation and being a failure
>>80064471No, I actually believe I'm a little worse than some of the people here, unfortunately. I am improving though, I think.
>>80064569Get out of here kid. This is the place middle aged men with hemmorhoids, gout and shot livers roam
>>80064393Why do you feel like a failure? What exactly is wrong with your life?
>>80064586It's kind of hard to get in to the specifics. It's very messy, and I kind of broke down while trying to process talking about it one time.
>>80064590Just remember to shove them back in when you shower
>>80064586Maybe I have hemorrhoids, who knows. (I hope not, but it's possible.)
>>80064600Can you share the general details?
>>80064611I guess I can try, but I don't often talk about it, so sorry if I'm bad at it. I guess autism, extreme social anxiety, extreme anxiety when trying to do new things (hence why I'm improving *slowly*.. trying my best though) lack of formal education, health problems, poor living situation, neet life. It sounds kind of whiny just listing them off, but that's the best I can do.
>>80064630Wdym by lack of education and poor living conditions? What improvements have you made?
>>80064635The main stuff I've been focusing on is catching up on life. Namely figuring out how to do stuff I should've figured out how to do a long time ago. I'm taking care of myself better, taking care of the house better, cooking better, becoming more independent etc.
>>80064657Do you live alone or are you still living with your parents? Do you plan to get a formal education (I assume you either dropped out of college or never went)? How's your social life?
>>80064668I live with my parents, I was homeschooled, but that inevitably led to some problems. My education isn't really recognised in the same way as high-school (understandably)I might try get a formal education some day, but I'm honestly not sure. I have some ideas for jobs in the future, but they ultimately feel silly to think about, as if they're unrealistic. Unfortunately, I don't have any social life.
>>80064569>I'm a little worse than some of the people hereok can you explain how? sry i was taking care of my dying mom (not a joke)
>>80064685What sorts of jobs are you considering?
>>80064698I think these>>80064685Are slightly more extreme than most others. It would be better if I got in to specifics, but it's genuinely hard.I hope your mom is okay, anon. You're doing good taking care of her.
>>80064704I don't think it's a common job here, but a part of me has been considering becoming a nail tech one day, but that's only because it's one of the only things I'm decent at. I wouldn't do well with the social aspect of it.
>>80064724>>80064685>>80064732i have been paying for food, rent and bills since 19/20 by doing something silly online, so its not unrealistic. unrealistic is to think that you will make it without effort nor trying.if you think you could be good at something, and there is a market for it, you should see how you can realistically start doing that, little by little. even if its 50 bucks a month, its a start, you can get better, people can talk about your services, you can get more clientsor you can also find out that that shit is not for you and you want something else. heck you can surely land a retailer job. you dont sound actually retarded just maybe a bit socially inept, or rather, naivethanks btw, im not taking care of her because im good nor nice, its just because i have no other choice. i dont want to go into detail but 2024 was shit and this start of year is just the continuation of 2024. do i think it can get better? sure, but im not going to put in the effort, fuck that shitat 19 you are still a kid for most people, you can take advantage of it, or more realistically, you can chill for a bit and experiment. this is the time. are your parents supportive? if they are, and you dont have to worry about homeless or some arbitrary rules you should try doing things that will make you happy. would going to hs and taking some exams make you happy? or would trying to be that nail tech you said make you happy? maybe neither would, what else have you thought about?
>>80064393okay but would you do butt stuff
>>80064802No, I don't like butt stuff...
>>80064784>heck you can surely land a retailer job. you dont sound actually retarded just maybe a bit socially inept, or rather, naive.If I was capable of opening up more, I think you'd think I was downright dysfunctional as a person, lol. I put on a good facade I guess. >have you thought about doing anything else. Honestly, not really... If I decide to get more formal education, I could probably get a job that's more typical around here. Thank you for the kind words, by the way. You seem like a helpful, anon.
>>80064814>If I was capable of opening up morewhats stopping you tho? well unless you actually want to be a failure and you dont care about neetdoom or whateverlike ofc what im saying to you wont really change you in any meaningful way, you will forget about this tomorrow or the day after, but i will find it interesting nonetheless
>>80064833I won't forget about what you said. I'm genuinely trying to better myself. I just never talk about things, so it's hard to open up and talk about my problems in depth. I tried opening up about why I think I'm autistic and how it affected my childhood and I kind of broke down.
>>80064847awh im sorry, you shouldnt feel bad tho you are trying to improve which is the first stepi always found it easier to open up with strangers online for some reason so i thought you wanted to do the samewell i will leave you alone now, take care avatarfag. if im around i will interact with your posts again ig
>>80064869>well i will leave you alone now, take care avatarfag. I don't see myself as an avatarfag, I just like posting lots of images, lol. Thank you for the kind words and advice, I wish you the very best!
