>be me>born with ADHD>also born into cultlike abusive family with narc dad and bipolar/clinically depressed mom where I was a punching bag/didn't exist>develop bpd as a result>no one ever gave me or taught me shitHow do I cope with the fact that I never had a chance?>inb4 what doesn't kill you makes you stronger :)
Learn about Jesus Christ Allin's family.
>>80064673>boo-hoo for meeee.... I'm the poor little victim of fate......Man the fuck up. You had plenty of opportunity to learn a lot during all those years with your family.
>>80064673did you need to share that pic tho?>How do I cope with the fact that I never had a chance?be better, especially considering you have bpd, you will destroy anyone that tries to help you as a result. you are the one that needs to be better, if you cant then idk what you can do dude
>>80064673just go get a job bro
>>80064692>Man the fuck up. You had plenty of opportunity to learn a lot during all those years with your family.Like lmao what I only passed school through high IQ and learned how to do basic shit through the internet imagine telling someone they're shit at operating a device when they were never even allowed to look at the manual>>80064693>you are the one that needs to be better, if you cant then idk what you can do dudeHow do I change? What do I change into?>>80064714I already wageslave and have lived on my own since 17 plus pay my own uni
>>80064734I understand you have BPD and that sucks but like, nigga you have a high iq, so shut the fuck up nigger. Literally the only thing that matters, fuck you. Btw if you are high iq get a scholarship anon, best of luck! And I'm realty sorry for the BPD, most people say secondary psychopathy is exclusive to woman but we know it isn't. Anyways, as soon as you have the money go to therapy and start reading about your BPD coping mechanism, try to catch yourself mirroring. >T. Anon that cant stop mirroring and has low iq.
>>80064734Btw how can it be over if you have the only thing that mattes!!!!!!!!!! High iq, like really? Please go to therapy and get medicated. And don't forget to read about BPD and how to cope, best of luck! And obs, dont get into relationships until you get your symptoms in check, please!
Have you tried to look up before to figure out what the most successful treatment is for people with BPD? Even people with the "most severe" cases? It's dialectical behavioral therapy, or DBT. It was created by a psych professional who had a diagnosis of borderline. Pirate the books on library genesis and DIY it. It will help the no one ever taught me shit issue.
>>80064868>And obs, dont get into relationships until you get your symptoms in check, please!I don't wanna spend my 20s alone tho
>>80064673that image is so hotas for you, just stop caring about dumb stuff I guess lmao literally every BPDtard I have seen loses their shit over the stupidest shit ever like someone else not loving them like who cares dude lol just go on a walk and take it easy if have a job and you're a financially stable adult there's nothing to worry about
>>80064673move the fuck away from them, as far as you need that they never talk to you again.and do everything for yourself...build yourself up, til you can stand alone and strong enough
>>80064673Get psychiatric help immediately
>>80066782already did that with LC but life still sucks1000% it's better than back home but the initial optimism has worn off and now I'm realizing that I missed out on experiences that made me socially inept
>>80066831This. I was able to delude myself for so long and now at 29 I quit what was an ideal job situation after a burnout but as I am interviewing I realize my social skills are shit and I cannot improve them without constant practice which I've never had an interest in doing. Add in the fact that most normies suck to be around and I'm a 2 month unemployed NEET. I'm at a point of acceptance to where if I don't find something by the end of March I'm buying a gun and killing myself once I run out of money.
>>80064734>How do I change? What do I change into?thats for you to decide, neither I nor the rest of this site, heck, the world even, can decided that for youbut really if you have these type of mental struggles you will go around breaking people, and you surely dont want thatdo you have a work? a place to live away from your folks? what do you enjoy in life? cooking? vidya? books?
>>80064673>born into cultlike abusive family with narc dad and bipolar/clinically depressed mom where I was a punching bag/didn't existWhere do you live now?
>>80066911>do you have a work? a place to live away from your folks? what do you enjoy in life? cooking? vidya? books?I used to paint for money part-time while going to uni and vidya books anime etc is mainly how I escaped reality but it's not doing it for me right now for the last 4 months I've just been rotting, doing drugs and attention whoring on 4chansI really need to get a job again but I doubt I will be happy, I don't think I've ever been happy just apathetic or tunnel vision on the cope that it's temporary >>80066923>Where do you live now?uni town a few hours from my home city
https://libgen.li/edition.php?id=138154826good luck
>>80067013https://libgen.li/edition.php?id=143178901 this is also qualify
>>80064673>How do I cope with the fact that I never had a chance?self improvehttps://youtu.be/VBifDZwPiI4?si=ztV_qTKKI-r35YKe
>>80064673I want to kiss and lick your legs.
>>80066831me too, op, and but i understand that the world can never be as forgiving and loving as good parents can be, so ill never get the opportunity to grow and learn, fixing these issues.will you find a situation that you can grow and learn, SURE!! dont think that youll be like me, but, the world seems to hate whenever i assert myself (ive had my life threated multiple times), and so i understand its not possible
>>80066969>I really need to get a job again but I doubt I will be happy, I don't think I've ever been happy just apathetic or tunnel vision on the cope that it's temporaryim sorry to hear that, i hope i could help you somewhat, you remind me of someone i thought i knewim guessing you dont have a plan to self improve... why would you if you dont really know what you want from life. do you have any idea of what do you think could make you happy? for example, a family, a nice paying job, friends to hang out with
>>80067125>im guessing you dont have a plan to self improve... why would you if you dont really know what you want from life. do you have any idea of what do you think could make you happy? for example, a family, a nice paying job, friends to hang out withi suppose i just want to get to a point where i feel good about myself, even when things are going well i feel worthless and most importantly it's really difficult to imagine anyone actually liking me as a person, male or female. Maybe I just want proof i am likable idk but it's never really enough. It doesn't help that I am paranoid about being likable and a genuinely boring personi've read the self-esteem books where it tells you to look in the mirror and accept who you are...but I just... can't. I disgust me so much it's crazy. And it's always been like this even when I was youngrealistically i guess i want to prove to myself i can succeed by graduating and earning big bucks and having friends or whatever and mentally i just want to be free of the endless doubt and painhaving a few friends to talk about life would be nice, i have a couple of close friends from grade school which im grateful for but all we do is drink and do drugs or vidya
>>80067435>i have a couple of close friendsif you were so worthless and unlikeable, why would they even hang out with you in the first place? i can tell you, no one hangs out with people out of pity more than once or twice (if at all)>i've read the self-esteem books where it tells you to look in the mirror and accept who you arengl i do think those are kinda hit or miss, they dont work for everyone, certainly wont work for me, its like therapy. so what else have you tried? are you having issues leaving the drugs? what are you even taking? coke? weed? dxm?hope im not intruding im just genuinely curious, you sparked my attention
>>80067604>if you were so worthless and unlikeable, why would they even hang out with you in the first place? i can tell you, no one hangs out with people out of pity more than once or twice (if at all)yeah they probably do like me it's just that hanging out with them is a bit awkward since one of them is super autistic and the other is a druggie also i always have to be the one to pursue them so i suspect i rely on them / like them more than they like me but im still grateful to have them be around also i am super boring and they always like talking about their interests and can only really go "yeah">>80067604>are you having issues leaving the drugs? what are you even taking? coke? weed? dxm?>hope im not intruding im just genuinely curious, you sparked my attentionmostly just alcohol and adderall and occassionally weed i messed around with psychedelics a bunch i don't consider myself a hard druggie but I find myself relying and binging more and more especially alcohol recently when i was a kid i had a prescription for valium which really fucked me up but it feels really nice im really tempted to get a benzo prescription again but it will probably kill me
>>80064734>How do I change? What do I change into?that Alok Kanojia guy said something about self acceptance in one of his videos regarding that but to do that first you need to do some introspection and recognize who you are and what went missing in childhood by throwing yourself under the bushttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gZj176ZoM4Ythere is also that Daniel Mackler guy who speaks about childhood stuff but I feel like he became too bitter about it and it turns into endless rumination rather than introspection at one point you have to move on and not build your identity around your failed childhood otherwise you end up like this guy who fails at logical thinkinghttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_kD7x3gm7Eg>I'm a people pleaser>I had no clue what my girlfriend wanted from melike how is he not watching his own videos and drawing that conclusion on his ownhe has narcissistic tendencies so I imagine he at least does watch his videos from time to time which would be helpful for introspection but having a diary is probably better
>>80067876>when i was a kid i had a prescription for valiumthats not cool, i would never understand why you americans are so used to taking these types of drugs at such a young age.>also i am super boring and they always like talking about their interests and can only really go "yeah"so you have no one to talk about your interests? have you ever talked about any of this with either of them? 101 even. i know it might be quite awkward but idk maybe they can reassure you more than a random robot canfor what i can gather you are pretty self aware, you just sound depressed like everyone in this fucking site. they surely like you... but yk sometimes its hard to hang out with frens, life gets in the way, either work, studies or just lack of will to livern im ghosting all of my friends... most of them. i dont do that because i dont like them... im just really struggling rn and i much rather talk with strangers online than to talk with them and just not vibe like i always dolook what im trying to say is that they probably like you a lot, even if they are spergy, and they arent the only ones that can get to know you and like you.also please dont abuse alcohol, it can get really bad really fast, many such cases. if you are going to abuse something abuse weed, or drinking water and pissing it 30 minutes later
>>80068015>so you have no one to talk about your interests? have you ever talked about any of this with either of them? 101 even. i know it might be quite awkward but idk maybe they can reassure you more than a random robot canall my interests were copied from other people at some point in my childhood to fit in everything from my choice of vidya and music to hobbies and then dropped/replaced when I entered a new group so idk if I even have interests>>80068015>look what im trying to say is that they probably like you a lot, even if they are spergy, and they arent the only ones that can get to know you and like you.yeah you're probably right i am overthinking this all probably >>80068015>also please dont abuse alcohol, it can get really bad really fast, many such cases. if you are going to abuse something abuse weed, or drinking water and pissing it 30 minutes lateryeah ik my dad was an alcoholic and I swore i would never become an alkie i need to find other ways to cope
>>80068258>all my interests were copied from other people at some point in my childhoodim pretty sure this is common af, kids see something and if they think its cool they will just copy it. i mean thats how we learn languages after all, we are meant to do that. why wouldnt your interests be yours? do you watch anime alone and enjoy it? if thats the case then that interest is yours. if not, you can always find things that will actually interest you yk>yeah you're probably right i am overthinking this all probablyscratch the probably. dont mix things tho, your feelings matter, but im pretty sure that if your friends didnt like you they wouldnt be by your side after all these years>i need to find other ways to copeim guessing just doing your hobbies doesnt help if you are in 4chan attentionwhoring. but yes you should, do you know where to start with? like im guessing you painted walls or fences, but maybe you like to draw, sing or play an instrument. those things are cool. venting is also alright if it helpsthen again i only bedrot so i have not much to add
