I'm getting like 40+ years in prison because I went off my meds and went crazy reeeee
>>80066261What did you do? I did some wild stuff while not on meds and in psychosis, but got off for being legitimately insane at the time. What country are you in that you got time for actions while you were in psychosis?
>>80066261How many times will I LARP today?Too many to count, dont get in my wayBait a fag with a retarded threadWeak larp is my death blow
>>80066275>>80066281Drove a bomb truck crazy, bomb threats, terrorist threats.I didn't realize how crazy I was, I was just venting my anger like didn't realize how serious shit it was, I wasn't serious but didn't realize it was a really bad thing to do, I mean I heard worse playing call of duty.Then I lied on their morality tests they gave me, no clue why I lied I was panicking in an anxiety attack and not thinking straight
are you same guy who was making bomb threats
>>80066340Oh, it's you again. I talked to you, nothing you said was happening gave any sign that they're giving you 40 years. It sounded like you were really afraid that they would, but nothing had happened to say they would. I couldn't even get if you had any court dates/hearings current or past, you said no the last time we spoke. This implies that you aren't about to get 40+ years. They rarely give people that long even for shooting someone.
>>80066261just tell them you're sovereign status in obsidian and they'll let you go
>>80066392They're still investigating me, but they're going to come and arrest me one of these days. I'm finally calm down and doing what I need to, except posting online.I gave up alcohol, "drugs" and I'm in the process of quiting vaping, I'm gaining weight though
>>80066403Have you been engaging with your legal representative at all? They should be helping you understand this process, at bare minimum you should be working with a caseworker who can inform you about your rights and what is happening. You shouldn't be talking to any police officers or officials that are not representing your interests. If they ask to speak to you tell them to talk to your lawyer.
>>80066261How do you both know youre going to prison for 40 years and are also free to post online anon? Either you've been sentanced or you havent. I smell bullshit.
>>80066340What charges do you have based on that that makes you think youre getting anywhere close to 40 years?
>>80066261>Im getting like 40+ years in prison>>80066403>They're still investigating me>they're going to come and arrest me one of these days.LARP thread.
>>80066422I blabed everything to undercover informants >>80066432I read the sentencing guidelines to my crimes>>80066452A bunch of drug charges, a bunch for threats and a bunch of other stuff, it's really really bad. It sucks, I didn't realize how serious what I did was untill way after it was over, I still forget a lot because I blacked out for like two weeks
>>80066261You are very clearly paranoid.I knew a guy who skinned his neighbor and left him in the trunk. Only got five years for mishandling and maiming of a body. You didn't even do anything but waste their time on a day there wasn't any bomb threats anyways.
>>8006647940+ is essentially a death sentence. If what your saying is accurate I'd skip town.
>>80066479>undercover informantsI'm sorry, but as a fellow person who has the capacity to experience psychosis, this really screams paranoia and psychosis symptoms to me. This isn't how the legal system works. It actually seems like you'll face no legal repercussions at all, because you can't even name a single official thing that is happening as a result of your actions. You have never been arrested or brought to court or given a sentencing date. You haven't spoken to a lawyer at all. You haven't even spoken to a caseworker about this. Have you spoken to anyone that is meant to professionally help you navigate life as a person who experiences psychosis?
>>80066531They tell me it's paranoia but I know it's real, even my own family is informing on me.Sure I get how it seems schizo but the NSA and fbi really are after me, and yet I still have trouble behaving although recently something has changed and I'm able to think more clearly although still in a fog.Ultimately I won't survive even one year in prison and I'm going to get 40+ , oh boy when I'm like 80 I'll be free again.
>>80066569Are you familiar with the term anosognosia? It's a bitch when you're experiencing it. I personally would recommend reading up on the experiences of other people who experience psychosis and perhaps joining a support groups for your diagnosis, if you have one other than Psychosis NOS. It really helped my levels of insight, along with antipsychotic medications. I slowly slipped free of this web of entanglement. I believe that you will be able to one day, as well. The freedom of mind is incredible.
>>80066479>I read the sentencing guidelines to my crimesYou need to realise that youre more than likely to get concurrent sentences for what you are charged with as well as a bunch of minors written in but not charged. You wont get the full sum total of everything you are charged with, nor will you get the max sentence for each charge.
>>80066671He's not actually been charged with anything at all, he said.
>>80066699I will be charged, oh God>>80066671Im still going to go to prison, and I'm just a robot autistic, I'll be raped and beaten to near death
Look at this "food" they serve you
>>80066626bipolar ex could surely have taken advantage of this information... ah well
>>80066964I specifically refer to anosognosia related to psychosis disorders like psychosis NOS, and schizophrenia. I'm unsure if anosognosia effects BPD people on a clinical level in the same ways. I think it's more by choice they refuse to admit they have issues, not by the fact that they can't even process the thoughts properly because their brains are misfiring wildly.
>>80066569you do sound like a girl i was talking to until a few weeks ago, why is it always the same stuff?are you seeing a psych? they should help you, rely in your family man
>>80066979bipolar most likely schizoaffective, they had a big ass delusion at the start of december, deep paranoia, thought everyone was there to get them, thought ads were aimed at themhell, even while getting into an hospital, given antipsychs and everything just stopping they still had some lingering effects, like the paranoia never stopped and they seemed unable to understand that it was all in their head. i hope they are alright
>>80067011It's similar things that people with psychosis struggle with because the symptoms present similarly. If you want to be very surprised and get informed, read one of the first recorded cases of this, James Tilly Matthews.
>>80067032>James Tilly Matthewsi will anon thanks for the info, you are cool
>>80067026It takes sometimes years after meds to really reach your actual true self, and even then, many people still experience lots of psychosis symptoms on medications. I am still disabled by the things I experience despite being rather lucid in conversation. I really do always wish the best for others that experience these things, it isn't easily lived with. It sounds like your ex was really struggling and got their first clinically significant episode during the time that you knew them, if they weren't already diagnosed and on antipsychotics. It took a long time for me to accept the medications and it can be a lifelong battle for many. If you want more perspective on your experience with your ex, there are a few good books out there on things like this. One good work is Surviving Schizophrenia by E. Fuller Torrey, both for friends of people with schizoaffective or schizophrenia, or those with the diagnosis themselves.
that's funny, I avoided 25 years in jail by snitching, small world
>>80067011I think my family hates me but they haven't kicked me out, thank God. But my psych helps me be stable but it's not paranoia the NSA and fbi are investigating me and still I can't behave and do what needs to be done I hate how I'm going to prison, if I only realized how bad my anxiety was, if only I actually stopped and thought about what I was doing, if only I realized how crazy I was, if only I kept my mouth shut, if only I didn't go into psychosis and lie, shoulda coulda woulda
>>80067081>I think my family hates me but they haven't kicked me outwhy do you think that?
>>80067081Have you talked with your psych about the experiences with the NSA and FBI secret informants? What did they have to say about it? How have they been helping you with this issue? It's their job to do so.
>>80067055hey can i ask you something? how many people did you hurt while being lost in your delusions?and yes... they were, lets just say they were diagnosed but they didnt have antipsychs described, and they didnt believe their diagnosis. me not knowing much about it, and her looking rather normal just... you know kinda spergy like everyone here, i just thought it was fine. it wasnt fine, and she is probably still living through hell. i know she is with her family so she will turn alright, i just wish she didnt have to go through thatah, im asking that because im pretty certain this isnt the first time for her, but the worst one. looking back at things she told me it makes sense why she lost so many good friends over the years, i just wish i knew more
>>80067206I didn't really have anyone socially close to me while I was very ill. I was homeless and on the street for a period of years. I definitely scared a lot of normie passerby with my behaviors of screaming at unseen things and slamming my fists into the ground and kicking the shit out of inanimate objects like public trash cans when they'd talk shit to me and shadow boxing with street signs and such. But I never assaulted or tried to threaten anyone, thankfully. A few times I damaged business properties by fucking with inanimate objects that belonged to the business, like outdoor furniture or signs, which got me in legal issues. Stuff like that.I try to make what some people call living amends, they usually use the word for addiction recovery, which I never struggled with, but I heard the concept and liked it. The concept that you've wronged people and can't find them and apologize to them, or apologizing might make things worse, so you instead live your life in a way that shows you know you did something harmful and want to prevent it happening again. I try to handle my shit the best I can to prevent going entirely feral like that again and terrifying random passerby.It's possible to live a fulfilling life with this disorder, and I feel like I'm doing so at my own pace. I hope your ex can do so as well. Struggling with accepting the diagnosis is not a place you want to be in, because it makes accepting the things you experience difficult in the first place.
>>80067291I see, well thanks a lot for sharing. Yeah i do think your approach is the right one, even if I also do believe that, because you have that disorder, it wasnt your fault. Hope everything keeps getting better for you
>>80067291Makes me glad my parents seem to be sticking by me, even after everything I've done. I wish I knew how bad I was, even now I don't see the big deal, I was just venting, guess the Internet growing up warped my view of what is acceptable plus just getting into those anxiety based psychosis.I regret my actions so much, and I still blame the doctor for misspeaking when I asked him my diagnosis, even if he says he never said it. It sucks, I really hope I survive prison but I doubt it, I'm too much of a fat robot to survive. I can't imagine the horrors of being raped, then beaten to shit on top of it. I know I will be beaten because I will fight back when they try to rape me
>>80067430I would talk to your counselor or caseworker about these thoughts and feelings. Mine really helps me when I'm confused or scared about something. It helps me to work through things with someone who knows me well. It's their job to help you through this experience.
>>80066479>I blabed everything to undercover informantsNot a lawyer but this is technically hearsay so it might not be admissible against you.They don't usually throw the book at people especially if it's your first time.
>>80067570Maybe if it was a one off, but I confessed to multiple informants.The really bad thing is that I went psychosis/panic attack and lied, I hate my brain because now they think everything I say is a lie
I wish there was a way to show I'm realizing how bad I was and want to get better, would it even matter at this point?
Everyone is just laughing at me, reeeee
Had a similar fate hanging over me like the machete I was weilding. Just cooly give them the triple D. Deny, deflect, and diffuse.
oh is this that dude that kept saying in threads like insane aslym going away for a long timemost times people dont even do like 50% of their time, its a whole system of credits to take time offmy neetbux is like dont do a nything illegal or itll be taken away so im never doing anything illegal ever, and just living a comfy life until the day i die
>>80070446Yes everyone knows me, everyone laughing at me
